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2024.05.15 15:14 Poetic_dr Addressing criticism of my post on Chemical Pneumonitis : please read full post.

Some CF doctors pointed out that my previous post was worded in a way that could cause an irrational fear of pregnancy. They said it could be a case of fear mongering. Not my intention.
I’ve gone over it several times but couldn’t find any inaccuracies in the post except perhaps the title could be different and some extra information could be added. The complication of chemical pneumonitis happens only in women who undergo c section under general anesthesia. I pointed it out within the first few lines of my post. But the title ; “chemical pneumonitis, a complication of pregnancy” could mean differently. It could mean, that just by being pregnant this could happen to you. That part should’ve been more clear and the title could’ve been different.
In the content, the statistics of how common the condition or complication is could have been mentioned. Please note that Indian medical statistics is woefully inadequate because we still haven’t reached developed world levels of data collection and compilation. I’ll try however, to add US data, which I have some access to in certain cases. Please note that different population groups suffer from different medical conditions and US data is not reflective of how things work in India.
In greater context, I feel that getting pregnant should be a choice, and more women should make that choice in a responsible manner. It is a risky choice, medically speaking, to become pregnant and birth a child. There’s uncertainty as to what course your individual pregnancy will take, and what complications you could suffer. Any complication I mention may be a rare event, which is still within the realm of possibility for every single woman. By making the choice to go through with pregnancy and childbirth, every woman is opening herself up to possibility of said complication.
I don’t think it unreasonable for a woman to consider the possibility of chemical pneumonitis or Eclampsia or prolapsed uterus or ectopic pregnancy or postpartum hemorrhage happening in her case. Shouldn’t she make the choice with all the risks considered? Tell me honestly how many women actually get the chance to be aware of the risks?
There is a culture of normalizing getting pregnant and suffering it’s pain. I’m trying to make pregnancy an optional endeavor, undertaken responsibly having fully understood what could go wrong. Please let’s remember it is a choice! You could compare it to climbing Mount Everest. Would you not consider the possibility of things going wrong?
The dissemination of medical information should be done responsibly. I welcome constructive criticism and I strive to be held to the best standards. I’m new in the field of content creation, and all images are my own drawings. I expect to get better with time.
Meanwhile, I’m considering withdrawing my post on chemical pneumonitis and wording it differently.
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2024.05.15 15:13 Medic0623 Lus what the actual...

We have had lus for years now have never really had a problem with them, list power for a hurricane or two but we live in Louisiana and that is too be expected.
Like a lot of ppl we lost power Monday evening, I work overnight so I wasn't home but thought " no worries it will be back on by the time I get home." Well it wasn't, between the three of us we lost about $250 worth of food. Couldn't really go to sleep because it was hot and the AC was out... But fine that's life.
Got "up" this afternoon left early for work to get food ( because all of mine went bad) and went to work tired and a little bit upset. Roommate said power came back on at about 7, so about 24 hours without power. Fine it's annoying and aggravating but again that's just life. All I was looking forward to was coming home taking a hot shower and passing out for the rest of the day ( in the glorious AC).
So I get off at 5am make my way home, stopping to get milk, so I can have my coffee. Get home about 5:45 put the milk in the fridge put the water to boil and go out side to smoke a cigarette. I'm sitting outside at about 6am and I hear an explosion and..... The power goes out again....
So if anyone from lus reads this.. what exactly am I paying you for? I drove home at 5am yesterday past multiple traffic lights that where out and didn't see a single utility truck off any company much less lus, did y'all just decide to take the night off? And why for the love of God is my power out AGAIN!!
I'm tired, hot, dirty and very cranky so I'm going take a cold shower and try to get a little sleep. Before I did that I just needed to rant a bit. Hope everyone has a good day 😞
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2024.05.15 15:08 WhatCanIMakeToday Operational Efficiency Shares: Rehypothecating 🐇🐇🐇🐇 And Breaking Free Of Chains [WalkThrough] (4/n)

Operational Efficiency Shares: Rehypothecating 🐇🐇🐇🐇 And Breaking Free Of Chains [WalkThrough] (4/n)
From the prior DD in this series [1], we know that ComputerShare can “give” the DTC registered DSPP shares to hold onto for operational efficiency which are then “given back” as shares beneficially owned “for the benefit of” (“FBO”) DSPP Plan Participants at ComputerShare, as illustrated in this diagram:
From The Prerequisite DD
It’s time to explore what “operational efficiency” benefits may be gained by DSPP shares going around this roundabout. At first glance, shares are basically just going in a big circle from DSPP Plan Participants with registered ownership DSPP shares at ComputerShare heading to the DTC, who hands shares to ComputerShare’s broker who maintains those shares for the benefit of ComputerShare who holds those shares for the benefit of Plan Participants. While I think it’s unlikely that shares just go around in a big fat circle for no reason, I do remember people getting onto flights to literally go nowhere a few years ago [CNN, NYT]; so maybe these operational efficiency shares simply miss hanging out at the DTC?
Let’s look more closely… While title is held by a registered DSPP Plan Participant, ComputerShare is giving the DTC possession [1] of registered DSPP shares to the DTC to hold for operational efficiency which then ultimately end back in the possession of ComputerShare’s broker (who isn’t lending out shares) for the benefit of ComputerShare for the benefit of Plan Participants. If we treat the DTC’s operations as a big black box, we see registered shares going into the DTC black box and beneficially owned shares coming out of the black box to ComputerShare for Plan Participants.
DTCC Black Box: Inputs vs Outputs
Investopedia says that shareholders have rights, with a list of 6 main rights including:
  1. Voting power on major issues.
  2. Ownership in a portion of the company.
  3. The right to transfer ownership.
  4. Entitlement to dividends.
  5. Opportunity to inspect corporate books and records.
  6. The right to sue for wrongful acts.
By contrast, beneficial owners only need to have or share 2 of those rights (bolded) according to the definition of beneficial owner in Rule 13d-3: the power to vote and the power to dispose of the security (e.g., sell).
§ 240.13d-3 Determination of beneficial owner.
(a) For the purposes of sections 13(d) and 13(g) of the Act a beneficial owner of a security includes any person who, directly or indirectly, through any contract, arrangement, understanding, relationship, or otherwise has or shares:
(1) Voting power which includes the power to vote, or to direct the voting of, such security; and/or,
(2) Investment power which includes the power to dispose, or to direct the disposition of, such security.
ComputerShare basically confirms this list (except for the right to sue as that’s probably not one their issuer customers would emphasize) and adds that beneficially held shares may be lent by brokers generally (but not by ComputerShare’s broker).
Registered Shareholder Rights vs Beneficial Owner Rights
Maybe you’ve had different experiences from me, but I’ve never known Wall St to deliver more than the bare minimum they’re contractually obligated to. Which means the DTC black box is very likely watering down shareholder rights from the 6 that go in down to the 2 which come out. (And yet, we’re supposed to believe that all shares are equal. 🙄)
Dividends (#4 on the list) [2] may be the clearest example of a watered down shareholder right. Registered shareholders have the right “to directly receive share dividends” [CS FAQ] which means if a company (e.g., GameStop or OverStock) issues a dividend, registered shareholders have the right to directly receive the dividend as issued. If the company issues a crypto dividend (as OverStock tried to do), registered shareholders have the right to directly receive the issued crypto dividend. Beneficial shareholders would get an issued dividend, if available, or a cash equivalent if not. Historically, stock and other dividends to beneficial shareholders could easily be delivered as a cash equivalent, a watered down form. Crypto dividends don’t scale well with shorts (both naked and legal via, for example, share lending and borrowing) because crypto tokens are unique which makes it abundantly clear why a crypto dividend was nixed for a heavily shorted idiosyncratic stock like GameStop; especially given GameStop’s particularly active shareholders.
Ownership (#2 on the list) may be the second clearest example of a watered down shareholder right as more security interests to shares exist in the DTC’s beneficial ownership system than there are shares; with the SEC saying beneficial shares get a pro rata interest in the securities of that issue held by DTC. [See End Game Part Deux: Problems at the DTCC plus The Bigger Picture, particularly the section “The Pie Is Shrinking: Get Out (And DRS) While You Can”]
Voting (#1 on the list) is also an example watered down shareholder right; this one having a long history on this sub with, for example, BroadRidge tossing 7B votes and bragging about it. (Beneficial owners only need to get shared voting rights per Rule 13d-3 above so those 7B “shared” votes just lost out to who they shared with.) Unlike other beneficially held shares, voting rights for DSPP shares are not watered down as ComputerShare sends registered holders their voting forms.

Operational Efficiency Shares, Whatcha Doing In There?

A big black box is a pretty good description of the DTC which does not want us to know the ins and outs of what’s going on. Black holes are a pretty good example of a big black box and, most importantly, we know a lot about black holes even though they can’t be directly observed. Just as we learned about black holes without direct observation, we can similarly learn a lot about the Operational Efficiency shares even though we can’t directly observe them in the DTC habitat.
Even though we can’t look inside the DTC’s big black box, it turns out we don’t really have to in order to identify some benefits from these operational efficiency shares taking their roundabout trip to nowhere.
Locates A few commenters have suggested that OE shares could be used for locates so I’ll address this first. Possible, yes. But I don’t view this as the most interesting use for OE shares. Brokers are supposed to “locate” securities available for borrowing before short selling. [Wikipedia)] Basically, before selling short a broker is supposed to find a source to borrow. The “locate” requirement does NOT require the security to be borrowed before short selling which can result in a legal naked short.
You may be wondering why I don’t view “locates” as particularly interesting for OE shares if short sellers need to locate shares to borrow before shorting. Well, market makers are also exempt from this requirement as long as they’re market making. 🙄 On top of the market maker exemption, remember House Of Cards? In House Of Cards 3 [SuperStonk], we learned about the now 🤦‍♂️ hilarious F**3 key **- yeah, the one on a keyboard. Brokers like Goldman found the locate requirement simply too much work so they would press the F3 key and their system would auto-approve the locate requirement based only on the number of shares available to borrow at the beginning of the day; regardless of whether those shares were still available to borrow or not.
House Of Cards 3
Meaning as long as there were some shares available to borrow at the beginning of the day for their share copying system, brokers could just smash the F3 key to make as many copies of shares as they need. Even if only 1 share was available to borrow at the beginning of the day, a broker could simply smash the F3 key 100 times to approve the locate requirement for 100 shares.
So while OE shares could be used for locates, they wouldn’t need many shares each day to make an unlimited number of copies - even just 1 is enough.
Lending shares on the other hand…
Rehypothecation Rehypothecation is the reuse of customer collateral for lending. Per a 2010 IMF Working Paper, The (sizable) Role of Rehypothecation in the Shadow Banking System,
Rehypothecation occurs when the collateral posted by a prime brokerage client (e.g., hedge fund) to its prime broker is used as collateral also by the prime broker for its own purposes.
This IMF paper defined a “churning factor” to measure how many times an asset may be reused; and then estimated a churning factor of 4 noting that it could be higher because international banks (e.g., HSBC and Nomura) were not sampled. This IMF paper found a single asset may be lent and borrowed 4 times, or more; an average which could be higher globally.
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Churn Factor Could Be Higher Globally
How much higher? We may have seen a churn factor as high as 10 for a less idiosyncratic meme stock per my prior post, Estimating Excess GME Share Liquidity From Borrow Data & Churn Factor. Presumably, the idiosyncratic meme stock would have a higher churn factor (but not that important for this post).
More recently (2018), the Federal Reserve published this Fed Note on ​​The Ins and Outs of Collateral Re-use studying how often collateral is reused (i.e., rehypothecated) for Treasury & non-Treasury securities [3] with a beautiful figure illustrating how “for any given moment in time, one security can be attributed to multiple financial transactions” where a share could be posted multiple times through Security Financing Transactions (SFTs) and sold short. [4] Sounds familiar, right?
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Figure 6c of this Fed Note shows a Collateral Multiplier over time illustrating how “PDs [Primary Dealers] currently re-use about three times as many securities as they own for non-Treasury collateral and seven times as many securities as they own for U.S. Treasury securities”.
AKA \"Money Multiplier\"
The Fed Note describes their Collateral Multiplier as a “money multiplier” (Seriously, I couldn’t have made this up in a million years.),
In a sense, our Collateral Multiplier is akin to a "money multiplier," as it compares private liabilities created by a firm with the amount of specific assets held to create those liabilities. [​​The Ins and Outs of Collateral Re-use]
And, of course, the Collateral Multiplier aka “money multiplier” ratio goes up when there’s less collateral available and down when there’s more collateral available. (Can I get one of these multipliers?)
Intuitively, we expect the ratio to increase when collateral is scarce and to decrease when collateral is more abundant.
Which means Primary Dealers [Wikipedia has a list of familiar names including Deutsche Bank, JP Morgan, Morgan Stanley, Nomura, BofA, Citigroup, TD, UBS, and Wells Fargo; amongst others] can simply kick securities around a few extra times (e.g., with SFTs and short sells) to effectively multiply the amount of money and/or collateral they have any time they need it. (Within limits, I hope…)
Thus, rehypothecation is a very interesting use of Operational Efficiency shares from ComputerShare as various primary dealers can simply “multiply” the number of shares they have – a concept that we’re already quite familiar with. As rehypothecation, short sells, and securities financing transactions are all perfectly legal, rehypothecating more GameStop shares provided to the DTC via operational efficiency satisfies Ground Rule #2 [defined in (1/n) in this series],
  1. All parties involved are all generally attempting to operate within the bounds of the laws and regulations wherever possible. (I know we often scream “crime”, but why break a law when money can simply [re]write laws to make activities legal. Regulatory failure is the reason why something that should be criminal, isn’t. And regulatory failure happens when armies of lawyers are paid to create and exploit loopholes so that actions which should be criminal, are instead legal.)
We can update our conceptual model to include rehypothecation to more clearly illustrate how Operational Efficiency shares held in the DTC can be rehypothecated (e.g., with SFTs and short sells) until a watered down share is delivered to ComputerShare’s broker to hold FBO ComputerShare, who holds the watered down share FBO DSPP Plan Participants.
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You might notice from this illustration that ComputerShare has been telling the truth satisfying Ground Rule #1 [defined in (1/n) in this series]. Neither ComputerShare’s nor their broker lend or need to lend shares. All the rehypothecation happens “upstream” amongst other DTCC and NSCC Participants until shares are finally delivered to ComputerShare’s broker at the end of the “Churn Chain”. ComputerShare has made no representations about what the DTC can or can not do with the shares in their possession. And, realistically, ComputerShare is in no position to make any representations about what happens within the DTCC system – ComputerShare is only responsible for themselves and, to some extent, their broker.
The Fed Note and IMF paper found assets may be churned and reused 3-4 times (overall market average) which means the end of the chain is typically around D3 or D4. (If my prior DD estimates are correct, there were signs a less idiosyncratic meme stock may be churned up to 10 times ending the chain at D10 which suggests a potentially longer chain for GME, the idiosyncratic meme stock.) If there is no collateral reuse for an asset, the chain would have zero length meaning Operational Efficiency shares go straight from the DTC directly to ComputerShare’s broker. (Programmers almost certainly understand zero length chains very well – go find one if you need an explanation.)
GameStop is idiosyncratic, thus atypical. Per the IMF paper, collateral reuse increases when collateral is scarce and decreases when collateral is abundant (quoted above). If we consider GameStop investors have been direct registering shares (i.e., DRS) and registering shares (e.g., DSPP) thereby removing title and/or possession of shares from the DTC/DTCC/Cede & Co, then GameStop share availability has been becoming more scarce and the “Churn Chain” for GME should be longer than average representing a higher collateral multiplier and churn value.
While we may not know the exact length of the Churn Chain for GameStop shares, we can pretty well surmise that it’s not a zero length Churn Chain where there is no collateral reuse based simply on scarcity. After all, a shortage of available shares is, by definition, required for any short squeeze (including MOASS). Requests by brokers to enable Share Lending [5] is another example indicator that GameStop shares are scarce.
In addition, according to Investopedia [6], “Banks, brokers, or other financial institutions may navigate a liquidity crunch and access capital by rehypothecating client funds” and we’ve seen indicators showing us banks are in deep trouble:
The downside to rehypothecation is the higher leverage increases risks of default and a single collapse can start a chain reaction knocking down others like dominos.
There are also leverage considerations that increase that risk of default. Overleveraged investments often face covenants; when specific conditions are met, trading accounts may receive a margin call or face debt default. As a row of dominos fall after a single collapse, a single margin call may cause other debts to fail their account maintenance requirements, setting off a chain reaction that places the institution at higher risk of overall default. [6]
This risk for rehypothecation sounds exactly like what the Options Clearing Corporation was complaining about to the SEC when the ​​OCC Proposed Reducing Margin Requirements To Prevent A Cascade of Clearing Member Failures [SuperStonk] early 2024. If the OCC can eliminate margin calls, then no dominos get knocked down. (Thankfully, apes have done a phenomenal job in convincing the SEC that this OCC proposal is a very bad idea. Support the SEC’s rejection of this as Simians Smash SEC Rule Proposal To Reduce Margin Requirements To Prevent A Cascade of Clearing Member Failures!)
Most importantly, it may be tough to regain possession of an asset when someone in the rehypothecation chain defaults. Remember from the prior DD the expression about possession: Possession is nine-tenths of the law.
Clients must be aware of rehypothecation as it is technically their own assets that have been pledged for someone else's debt. This creates complicated creditor issues where an investors shares may longer be in their possession due to their custodian's default. [6]
We know assets are rehypothecated 3-4 times on average, GameStop shares are scarce, banks are in trouble, stock loan volume is skyhigh, and the risks of rehypothecation are real. So it’s pretty clear that rehypothecation is happening generally with pretty darn good reason to expect GameStop’s Churn Chain is at least of non-zero length (i.e., GameStop stock is being rehypothecated).

Breaking The Chains

While some may like chains and being tied up, I’m not one of those apes. Especially as a Churn Chain waters down my shareholder rights and may make regaining possession of DSPP stock difficult in the event of a cascade of defaults, as warned by the OCC. (If you like chains, feel free to skip this section.)
As it turns out, we don’t need to know exactly how long the Churn Chain is for GameStop stock. Simply knowing a Churn Chain exists with non-zero length means there is a chain. Where there is a chain, it’s possible to break the chain. (Even if you don’t know how much health) your enemy has in a game, you still try to take your enemy out. Right?)
A churn chain that starts from ComputerShare holding DSPP shares in DTC for operational efficiency can easily be broken as “[a]n investor can, at any time, withdraw all or part of their shares in DSPP book-entry form and have them added to their DRS holding”. [ComputerShare] See also [7]. Quite possibly one of the easiest chains in the world to break as the Churn Chain is weak to DRS. Simply DRS the DSPP shares to take away the head of the chain and the rest of the chain falls apart. (And, DRS-ing "street name" shares cuts chains into pieces too!)
One side effect of breaking a Churn Chain is that all shares attributed to transactions in a broken chain (e.g., SFTs and short sells) need to be reallocated to other chains, effectively making other chains longer and increasing the risks from a default.
Analogy: Think of the shares as a deck of cards. If you deal 52 cards to 4 players (A, B, C and D), each player gets 13 cards. Each stack of 13 cards is basically a Churn Chain. But if you take out a stack by removing the bottom card from A and distribute the remaining 12 cards from A to B, C and D then B, C and D each now have 17 cards. If at any given time a card can cause a player to lose the game, it's better to have fewer cards than more. And, the players who get out early won't lose.
Any party in the Churn Chain who defaults will make it hard for the original owner to regain possession. Longer chains include more transactions and more parties so there’s more risk of default on longer chains than shorter chains. Thus we see another vicious cycle setup where incentives are aligned such that DSPP and beneficial shareholders may want to avoid the impending default and rehypothecation risk from their shares being held in DTC. In order to avoid the impending default and rehypothecation risks, shareholders are incentivized to Directly Register shares to ensure having both title and possession. (Shares held in “street name” have little or no protection from rehypothecation risk and simply registering shares in DSPP doesn’t guarantee possession [1].) As with the other vicious cycle, any remaining shareholders in DTC share a shrinking pie of diluted ownership so it is in their best interest to get out and DRS; thereby shrinking the diluted ownership pie even more which is more reason for remaining shareholders to get out. These vicious cycles will eventually leave few, if any, remaining shares at the DTC for beneficial shareholders. Nobody knows what will happen if this ♾️🏊 happens.

Footnotes

[1] If you haven’t already, please read the prerequisite DD in this WalkThrough Series to understand how ownership of property is separated into two concepts: title and possession. [See, e.g., StackExchange] Understanding the differences between title and possession are particularly important here where it’s worth being extra careful identifying how an entity is in control of an asset.
  1. DSPP is technically different from DRS [WalkThrough] (1/n)
  2. Definitely DIFFERENT "DRS Counts" [WalkThrough] (2/n)
[2] Dividends have been heavily discussed on SuperStonk with many DD posts, including for OverStock and the precedent OverStock set which would have allowed GameStop to issue their own crypto dividend, possibly as an NFT.
[3] Footnote 16 of the Fed Note itemizes various classes of non-Treasury collateral which includes equity which, per Investopedia, is a synonym for stocks.
[4] While short selling is pretty well known, Security Financing Transactions (SFTs) may be more obscure despite discussion of them in the past so here’s some historical SuperStonk links for you (where you may notice some well known OG DD apes):
[5] Simply search SuperStonk for share lending. Don’t make me Google That For You.
[6] https://www.investopedia.com/ REMOVE_FOR_AUTOMOD terms/r REMOVE_FOR_AUTOMOD /rehypothecation.asp
[7] Withdrawing whole DSPP shares into DRS seems to make a lot of sense as doing so guarantees possession. Selling fractionals, less so. If you intend to keep buying, I would think adding to the fractionals to later withdraw whole shares makes more sense. As for the concern about fractionals tainting the whole account, I’ll cover that in another post. For now, you do you.
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2024.05.15 15:02 Aggressive_Emu_5598 Struggling

Currently going through a divorce he still lives in the house and will be for the foreseeable future. It is the worst of both world because I don’t feel like I am comfortable walking around cleaning up or just existing because of his presence. I am handling the girls this school and afterschool while he is “looking for a job and place to live” which includes lots of “networking” (going out with friends at night).
I am very sick, i went to the doctor two weeks ago and they said its seasonal stuff? Because allergies make you throw up your throat hurts so much and so groggy that I am in a perma-fog brain wise. I need to go to the store but can’t string two braincells together to start the process of figuring out everything I need compiling a budget figuring out where to go and then getting there to fit in with my schedule of full time work and basically single parenting.
My younger daughter’s birthday is this weekend, there is so much to prepare, we promised her a party back in February before we split. He refuses to do anything for it and will be upstairs during it. Not that it will matter because I haven’t a single rsvp for it so I think it will just be my older daughters friends who love the younger and wanted to come(4) and my two so 6 kids. My younger is heavy on the spectrum and although she has kids she plays with at school she can’t communicate well enough to ask or even tell me who they are I have to use the teachers as go betweens.
Even little things like I need to shower but standing for prolonged periods is difficult. I needed a shower last night and I couldn’t do it now it’s too late this morning too not that I have the energy to stand up.
Then yesterday I noticed I chipped one of my teeth and for the past week I’ve been struggling with driving because I’m having a hard time seeing far away. So let’s just add a dentist and doctor appointment to the list of shit to do.
I’m just so frustrated and tired I can’t sleep early I go to bed when the kids are down and I have finished paying the bills and working through the paperwork for the lawyers not to mention changing all the passwords and removing him for everything. Meanwhile I am getting told from every corner that I should have been had this done (I’m going as fast as I can’t there are 24+ accounts and all but 2 were set up by him) So about midnight each night then awake at 6am to start the day get the girls on the bus, I start work at 9 so I have an hour to myself which I usually shower or go to the store during but I have been so tired and overwhelmed I find myself doom scrolling instead.
Not to mention he has us(me) in an over leveraged bullshit financial position that somehow even though I make a very good amount of money I am still negative each month.
My friends the few that I have are all scattered and the closest one is 2 hours away my family is as well. I have some old coworkers that live here and a few college buddies I’m not close with enough that I can really share issues with. Of fucking course all his family and friends are in town which is why he is out and about all the damn time. I wish he would just move the fuck out.
I’m just tired and don’t know what to do it all is too damn much.
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2024.05.15 14:58 T1red_buffalo Living with liver cancer

I 42f diagnosed with hundreds of cancerous neuroendocrine tumors in my liver. They say it may have started in my colon and metastasized in the liver. It’s progressed so far there is nothing the drs can do and have given me 15-18 months. My liver is 4x’s the size it should be and my belly is distended. It’s been so hard to share with friends and family and they all just keep saying they know I’m a fighter and will get through this. I’m going to let them all down bc I dont want to fight. I’m so tired. It was “your labs are fine” for years, and now this. I’m just so fucking exhausted. I’m having a very hard time wrapping my head around this and can’t eat, it hurts so bad to be full or have a bm. My whole body hurts and I just sleep the days away. My whole stomach feels like it’s badly bruised from the inside out. I can’t get out of bed.
Idk why I’m even posting this. I’m so lost and my kids are just looking at me to make their lunch and take them for a fun time this summer. How can I just be gone in a year? Am I supposed to pack my things and go wait to die somewhere?
I’m supposed to start getting a shot that will help with symptoms at the end of the month, but until then I’m in limbo and don’t know what to do about anything.
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2024.05.15 14:57 pohltergiest Mountains all around

Mountains all around
Stupid stupid sleeping mat why won't it just have all the holes at once instead of having a new one each night. I've cut my remaining patches such that I'll have enough to cover 20 holes if necessary. I'll go to war with this thing before I give in and buy a new one. I patched the thing on the roof of the tent by dribbling water on it til I found bubbles. I'll do it again tonight and probably find more. Nasty holes. Terrible holes.
Anyways I slept fine, just a little interrupted. Every day I feel like I'm not sick and every morning I still am. Maybe today's the day. I dragged my ass in the morning, not moving too quick. The spot we picked was nice and chilly to let us sleep a little longer, nobody bothered us under the bridge this time. Last night we had a real treat in the form of a golden sunset over the mountains, hues of orange and pink lighting up the evening sky. It was very lovely. I forgot to mention we met another person doing a long distance ride, we've seen this person a few times since leaving Tokyo. Japanese travelers love pinning a piece of paper on their back that says where they're off to if they're traveling some ridiculous distance, for this person it was Tokyo to aomori. A respectable distance, but he nearly fell over when we showed him how far we've gone.
Eventually we got moving and did some sightseeing. The castle in aizuwakamatsu was rebuilt in the 60's as a museum, so we read about the history of the area. In a nutshell, it used to be called Aizu up until the local clan sided with the shogunate during the Meiji restoration and caught the wrong end of a brutal smackdown. In a way it felt framed in such a way that they didn't deserve it, and the subsequent suppression of the local people has left a simmering resentment. The city was renamed Wakamatsu, but is now aizuwakamatsu, and many t-shirts for souvenirs just say Aizu. The history of the city prominently includes the story of the Byakkotai, the "white tiger unit". They are hailed as heroes, but were teenagers who rushed into battle unprepared and were either slaughtered or committed suicide after hiding in a cave. Only one survived after a failed suicide to tell the tale. I guess things were different in the past, but poorly trained child soldiers killing themselves out of clan loyalty just strikes me as a tragedy, not a heroic epic. You know who disagrees? Fascist Italy and the Nazis, both of which donated monuments to the shrine for the Byakkotai and both of which remain to this day.
Alongside this bizarre tableau was the hexagonal shrine with a wooden spiral staircase, the only Edo period wooden structure still around and one of the oldest in the world. Honestly I'm surprised they let people walk through it, it felt so old. But they managed to build a double helix tower many hundreds of years ago and I was duly impressed. The ancient rafters and walls were covered in paper pasted to the walls to indicate a particular pilgrim was there. None of the old timey stickers looked new, as I imagine if people still did it the shrine would be covered like feathers on a bird. People did feel the need to scrawl their names in the wood of the wall directly, though. The whole place looked like it is in need of refurbishment and maybe someone to scold people with pocket knives.
After the shrine, we stopped to get some sandwiches at a conbini and then a drug store to get me better meds. The bufferin just wasn't working and I needed something to help me clear the congestion in me. We found some better meds and in took those. The feelings of having taken meds that really didn't work well and the stress of the heat of the day got to me and I had to stop and have a big cry. I hope I get better soon. We'll be stopping for a few days soon, I'll plan to just rest in bed. Doing a whole week of craziness followed by a week of biking in hot weather while a cold racks me has brought me to a low.
Naturally, when I get real low, that's when I feel the need to do big emotional processing. I knew it would happen eventually, though I'm impressed I could avoid it for three quarters of the trip. I wanted time and space to do some thinking, some crying, and some healing. The topic is private, of course. There was a bike path that led from aizuwakamatsu to kitakata to the north and we followed that, the depths of my thoughts so severe that I barely even acknowledged I was moving at all. Bryce told me later we were going pretty fast, so I guess it's good we were somewhere I could be on autopilot. The views in the valley were lovely, the panoramic mountains ringing the bowl shaped valley we were in. We biked towards snow capped mountains, but I was fully turned inwards, my process taking all of my focus.
Before too long we were in kitakata, a city that reminded Bryce of Roblin in Manitoba. It was a pretty quiet place, and rural too. It was known as one of the big three ramen regions in Japan, the second of which we've seen. We found the place that is most well known in Japan for kitakata ramen and got in line there. It was busy, as to be expected, but we got in relatively fast. We got the usual, whatever was the house special with extra chashu for protein. While the noodles were excellent, we both found the broth a bit boring, a pork on pork experience. It didn't taste particularly deep or complex, and was almost simple to a fault. Perhaps we've reached the limits of our tastes here, but it was just okay to our palate.
We got back on the bike route north, hoping it would continue a bit further before we had to get on the mountain highway. We would have to eventually, as no other roads led through the mountain pass. The bike route wasn't listed on the map, but was in front of us, so we pressed on. Much like the previous section it was a raised lane with gentle curves, likely an old rail line. This path eventually spit us out near an onsen, and then we were on our own. The road we wanted to take onto the highway was unexpectedly closed, so we had to detour up a road that went on top of a dam nearby. We enjoyed seeing some more wisteria, the ones around here growing wild and festively adorning trees in pale purple blossoms.
The dam was big, and had a road on top to ride on. I wanted to see the penstock and the spillway, the latter far below the road we biked on. Below in the shadow of the dam was a defiant onsen, oddly juxtaposed against the huge forward wall of the dam. We took some time to figure out what road would take us up to the highway which was some 100m above the dam. One road went into a tunnel and seemed a sure bet from the road signs near it, the other wound around the dam reservoir and disappeared into the woods. Looking at our maps, one said the road would continue and join up later, the other two disagreed saying the road ended. I voted for the sure bet, Bryce agreed but bet me a rice ball the road went through.
The tunnel indeed brought us up to the road, which was less of a road and more a series of bridges interspersed with tunnels piercing the mountaintops. It felt like we were on a great arc that hit the tips of every mountain, the gentle gradient of the road more important than anything else. We appreciated the easier climb, but the tunnels were tricky. Many of them had construction ongoing, so we were escorted through one set of tunnels to avoid stopping traffic in the single lane that switched directions periodically. At each tunnel entrance we worried the construction worker would bar our way but most were friendly, apologizing but firmly telling us where to go. As we approached a very long tunnel, an excitable construction worker stopped us and told us many things, but the best parts we could gleam were that the tunnel ahead was very long and we needed to have lights on inside.
The tunnel was indeed long, the longest we've been permitted in this far at 4km. The tunnel was completely straight too, giving a bizarre feeling of being in an infinite tube, perspective lines perfectly converging. The perspective made it feel like we were going uphill, but my speed told me it was downhill. Very confusing. Eventually we made it out and begun a very long and coasting descent, the grade again just gentle enough that we could coast at full speed and not tap the brakes. Usually we bike up the mountain just to waste the energy on brakes on the way down, here we could coast a lovely 10km, perhaps getting a little chilly from the lack of pedaling.
Yonezawa was our destination for the day, and despite really wanting to take it easy we still somehow did 100km. Tired and dirty, we took our biking clothes to a laundromat and went for dinner at a Chinese place. We had a black bean pork dish that was sticky and good, a chili fried chicken dish that was delicious but full of bones, and a fried rice that was mediocre at best. Waiting for our laundry to come out of the dryer, we had some snacks and commented that this city was extremely quiet at night. Not much activity going on here.
Bryce had a park in mind for camping, so we went there. We landed up making our way to the back of the park and found a spot to camp behind a few trees in a weedy area. Nobody should care we're here, but we're near a train line and every so often a passenger train roars by with big booming noises. Hopefully it doesn't run too early, but we might get woken up.
With the new meds, this evening is feeling better than days previous, though I have a lot on my mind for processing right now. A good sleep will help with that.
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2024.05.15 14:57 SLYTHERIN_RC Anybody want a 1998 Kouki with 32,851 Original miles?

Anybody want a 1998 Kouki with 32,851 Original miles?
I figured I’d see if anyone wants my Kouki. Before I continue to throw money at a car thats only been driven 50 miles in 2 years😳 (Pic of odometer when purchased and current mileage included)
Otherwise its getting paint, bodywork and rust preventive undercoating, done for $7k
1998 “Kouki” 32,851 original miles Car was totalled by insurance in 2000, rebuilt 6 months later and issued reconstructed title. It was stored and sat for 22 years, I purchased it in 2022. Fuel tank was dropped and flushed, rusted pump and fuel sender, removed and replaced.
5 speed swap done by OneMotion Auto Warminster P.A. a respected JDM shop in December 2023. Car shifts gears smoothly and operates without any issue. All Dash gauges work after the swap and car is fully functioning. Power windows, sunroof,cruise control, power mirrors Ac/Heat all function.
$1800 just in parts, for the 5 speed swap. I took over a year to source the best OEM/Nismo parts and best Aftermarket parts for the 5 speed swap from canada, japan, england and the U.S.
The shifter assembly has been completely rebuilt with gktech springs to remove stock play and slack.
All lock cylinders pulled and rekeyed so no other 240 key opens it 🥷
EGR Plate installed and delete done by OneMotion Auto during 5 speed swap.
They also did a full run down on the car to make sure everything works as it should plus more than I can remember off the top of my head, I have the invoice for the 5 speed swap and all other laboparts.
Mechanically its mint and ready to drive🙌🏽
Car comes with OEM front lip splitter(not attached) OEM USDM Foglights included (not attached)
My stash of rare and discontinued OEM/Tomei parts, I have are not included in sale.
But are available for purchase to car buyer for additional cost.
5 Speed Swap Parts List: 5 Speed OEM Trans Dust shield, Flywheel 5 speed OEM trans mount 5 speed OEM shifter gasket OEM Shifter, ring, Shift knob, shifter plate OEM Shifter rubber dust boots OEM Shifter trim bezel Nismo Trans mount rubber isolator ARP Flywheel bolts ARP Pressure Plate Bolts Clutch line/Master CylindeSlave OEM Clutch Pedal Assembly Driveshaft Shop S14 ABS Solid 1 Piece Driveshaft Wiring Specialties Auto to manual wiring harness GKTech shifter springs GKTech Brass shifter bushing Oem Brake pedal pad Leather shifter boot $150 in OEM small bushings, springs, clutch rebuild kit, shifter hardware parts etc etc etc
New parts or service done in 2022-2023 prior to 5 speed swap: New EGR pipe New Spark plugs New fuel pump New fuel filter New engine belts New Brake pads New Brake rotors New Brake calipers New Brake master cylinder New thermostat Fresh oil change in August, oil filter Blutooth CD player all 4 speakers replaced, New tires all around last summer New wiper blades New Battery with 3 year warranty
No trades at all!!! I have to many cars already. Serious Cash offers will be considered. I’d like $13,000 OBO cause thats what I’m out of pocket so far, but feel free to offer.
The mileage has been Carfax verified, engine matched to vin and 3 independent Nissan USA Dealerships have confirmed the odometer, has never been removed or tampered. Car is rust free and I encourage any actual parties with actual money to contact me for detailed videos of vehicle.
Had a bunch of people try to make me feel like a Chomo, but heres the facts. Its a real Kouki Its super low miles It runs and drives Its not a rusty shitbox Its technically one color It’s not on jack stands Its straight and body panels line up. So its in better condition than half the 240s out there. I don’t need to sell it, I just have too many cars and don’t use this one at all.
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2024.05.15 14:57 Carrot-Euphoric Needing advice

I have never been diagnosed. When I talk to a doctonurse/counsellor, they all just end up giving me antidepressants(have used sertraline, mirtazapine, effexor), propranolol, quetiapine. But they never tell me the diagnosis. I remember when I was in high school, I attempted suicide so I saw a psychiatrist. I did a couple tests(don’t remember the contents) and they ended up prescribing anticonvulsants. Not sure if they helped I honestly don’t remember.
I tend to be “good” or steady or feel neutral for months then one night all of a sudden I binge drink and without thinking or provocation, I overdose and end up in hospital. I’ve done this twice in the last 2 years.
I get addicted easily. Gambling, drugs, nicotine, shopping, drinking, sex. It’s never all of them at once, usually changes every couple of months. The nicotine and alcohol addiction seem to be present at all times but doing drugs usually helps a bit in cutting down my drinking(I won’t drink everyday but when I do, I binge).
I can’t keep a job for more than 6 months and always have a hard time finding work in between. When I start a job, I give it my all. Even got an employee of the month on my last one but sadly it was given a month before my leaving. They didn’t want me to leave but I have already made my mind up as I was abusing meth at the time and no one knew. I did it because I have been feeling tired for some reason and needed to be awake but it meant forgetting to eat and not sleeping enough and that had a profound impact on my health and performance.
I want to see a psychiatrist but I always put off scheduling an appointment. I’m a massive procrastinator sober or not. I don’t get out much because I always think of the worst and I’m super conscious of how I look sometimes it just puts me off going out altogether if I cannot find the right outfit.
Sometimes I feel like I’m fine, “it’s probably just me.” “Everyone’s probably the same. It’s normal!”. These conversations in my head make me feel like I’m just lying or pretending and these aren’t real, this isn’t really what I feel.
I just want to know what’s going on with me. I guess getting a diagnosis will help me understand myself more and will also help me not overthink.
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2024.05.15 14:55 zoosk8r 1970 XS1 - what am I getting into?

A buddy picked up a 1970 XS1 yesterday. Thinking about buying from him. Bike looks to be 100% complete. It has the air filter housings, and a rusty seat pan with a rough cover. Missing the petcocks.
My goal would be to get it cleaned up and rideable, at minimum, it will need seat, carb kits, intake manifolds, tires, battery, plugs, air filters, cables, fresh oil, a chain, mufflers,headlight, grips, and at some point, a bunch of hardware.
How rare are these things? I know that about 7000 were made, but they seem to be exceedingly tough to track down these days, particularly in (rough) original condition, as they all seem to be restored. Will I be able to find the parts I need?
Not looking to make buck off my bud, but have no idea what it would be worth in this condition, or after a modest refresh.
Thoughts?
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2024.05.15 14:53 Gloomy_Ad_8378 WCA assesment to be repeated due to mysterious error

I had phone WCA assessment just recently and today I got a phone call where I was told it was withdrawn and must be repeated.
Woman on the phone was not responding clearly to my question of what exactly has happened, one moment she says IT error then not enough to make decision etc I told her that I asked assessor twice if they feel they have enough as they only spoke to me less than 20 minutes. They said absolutely yes, that's all they need to know.
I was told I will receive new assessment date via letter.
I'm extremely angry, it has cost me so much effort both physical and mental to do it first time. Stress worsens my condition tremendously
I called them when I cooled down and asked to find out what the reason for withdrawal was and also asked for copy of assessment report. Woman on the phone acted very strange hearing this second request.
Could anyone tell me what's possibly is going on ? Is it common? Can they not give me copy of this report? They're supposed to call me back once they contact assessor who worked from home.. I don't know how long will that take as they said they can only reach them via email
So fed up with this bs....
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2024.05.15 14:51 TheComedianXII I feel like my ADHD is contributing to me failing my MSc

I started a masters back in Sept after being out of study since 2018. It's through work and its all remote so I don't get in person lectures etc. Every single assignment I have done since then has been done two days before the deadline because I have been physically unable to focus before knowing that its due in.
As I'm writing this I have a deadline due in 6 hours, currently I wont be able to submit anything because I have spent the last 4 days staring at my screen, scientific papers and literally feeling unable to read and process information. It's gotten to a point where I feel like I'm hopeless, no matter how much I try and really really want to do work my brain just will not let me. I cant push through, there's no sense of consequence in my head. I'm torn because I feel like I don't care - about the course, the consequences of my actions etc but I obviously do. I don't want to fail, I've always been an over achiever and I know for a fact that I'm going to be mad with myself (I always am). I tell myself I wont do this again and everytime I do, and I make it worse because it seems like I care less and less. I'm distracted, I'm lethargic, I cant focus...I really feel like I am a broken human. It's not sustainable to wake up tired, not have any drive to do literally anything. Have desires to do all these activities but have your brain and body trap you in this energy-less prison. I really don't know what to do.
Currently off my titration medication due to shortages, and have been for about 2-3 months. I just needed to get this out. Sorry if this comes off sounding like self pity, I felt like I had been improving so much at the beginning of this year and now I'm back at what feels like rock bottom.
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2024.05.15 14:50 wildflowerr59 Umbilical Hernia - experience thus far. Do you think I can start doing yoga next week?

Detailed experience and some questions about an umbilical hernia post op here.
Mid March 2024 I felt a small lump on the top part of my belly button. It was never there before so I went to an urgent care, they said nothing to worry about because it causes no pain, some fat got stuck and it will contract/ expand. They did not call it a hernia, and when I asked if it was a hernia, they said no. There was 0 pain or any issues involved other than it poked out a little bit so since they said its fine, I went on with my life.
Fast forward to April 10th and my friend and I did a 30 min yoga session and a 30 upper body dumb bell workout (dumb bell weights being 1 10lb if exercise uses 1 weight. 2 8lb if one was being used in each hand) around 9am. (Side story, in 2021 I was in a T bone car crash so now I have L3-L4 in my back that's herniated and scoliosis. Since then after after PT for that incident I have done stretching/yoga everyday for 20-45 mins a day and my whole life ive been active and in sports so I like working out so I do workouts 5x a week. It was a whole rebuild post car crash and took a while to get to where I am now but my back hurts a lot and ive tried many treatments for it.) All was normal, she left and then I was going to chill for a couple hours before work that afternoon. Around 11am a sudden sharp pain hit me while I was sitting at my desk, I was thinking it would pass, well it did not . The ache/ pinching feel did not stop and I texted my RN friend around 3pm and he said its the hernia from weeks before and to go to urgent care. I hate going to the doctor and also do not have insurance (story for another day) but it was 5pm , still in severe pain so I drove to a different urgent care 1.5 miles away. They sent me to the ER because as soon the dr had me lay down and she barely touched the lump I started crying due to pain, said it could be strangulated and they dont want to touch it w/o imaging. My BF ,now home from work, took me to the ER where they gave me morphine, hated the feeling of that, and then did a catscan. Results was a fatty umbilical hernia. They said not strangulated and a piece of fat got stuck and then it couldnt retract back in, surgery is the only way to fix it. I asked how I got it , they said most likely born with it and it never caused a problem until now. I read that this is mostly due to pregnancy's (never been pregnant) , overweight (my whole life ive been 105-110 lbs) and heavy weight lifting (which I dont do.) They said in a few days the pain should slowly die down and dont worry its highly unlikely to be anything worse, just painful. I went home in the middle of the night.
They said follow up with with a gastrologist, which I did 5 days post ER visit (learned those people are in demand I called 6 offices in the area and that was the soonest they could get me in.) He confirmed I need surgery. Then 2 days after that saw the surgeon, he discussed my options of open vs laparoscopic and mesh vs no mesh. He suggested open , no mesh because its small and a very standard operation . Since hes the DR and specializes in this, I said ok.
Surgery was April 23. Was only at the hospital from 10am-3pm. They said I was under for 45 mins, all went well. Post op that day I was surprised I didnt feel more pain was only minor(due to whatever they gave me), they wheel chaired me to the car and I got a smoothie and so tired. Throat hurted a moderate amount, from the tube. Pretty much slept then on out til the next day.
Post OP day 1, horrible all over. pain in the ab area, was super sleepy, getting up/down from bed was a whole situation and hurt. For medication i could take ibuprofen and acetaminophen and oxycodone for the first few days, im not a codone fan so just was doing ibuprofen and acetaminophen. Throat was so sore, I didnt finish the smoothie until halfway thru this day. Took like 3 naps and was just tired.
Day 2-4 Pretty much the same thing. Very very sleepy, just walked around the apartment to try to get the blood flowing, very very slow. Abdominal area swollen. Barely ate, even brothy soups did not want to go down. Sore throat (had to get liquid OTC med cause i could not swallow the pills.) The strange thing was I was unable to hold sentences, talking took everything out of me. Around sentence 3-5 I would just be out of breath. Weight was 98 lbs due to not eating (pre surgery for the 2ish weeks I ate half of my normal meals because it would push after eating and hurt .) Day 3 was horrible constipation like severe, my BF even took me to see the surgeon for this and about the breathing. He said the breathing will get better over the next few days and to take a bottle of miralax. So the miralax helped but i got hives all over my sides from it(first time taking a laxative.) Pre surgery no one told me to get on a stool softener.
Day 5-8 slow improvements, the same issues as above but less bad. sore throat was gone by this point but talking was still not normal, better tho. I was doing 2-3 walks outside for 10-15 mins. Back was killing me, because im slouching all the time due to the abs, my back was on fire with pain, esp standing up and walking. Honestly this point back hurt more than front when walking.
Day 9-12 Breathing normal. Can talk normally now. Walking 4 times a days for like 20 mins, walking speed slower than normal . Back still hurting so much. I was icing my back more than my front . Fatigue wearing off. Eating regular meals, smaller portion than normal.
Day 15 I had my 2 week checkup, he said healing is great. Should be no issues. Do not lift more than 15lbs for another 4 weeks(til this point he said dont lift more than 10lbs) I can now go swimming . I asked about when can I do stretches and yoga because my back is bad, he said wait another 2 weeks, start slow, do not work the abs, anything like a crunch move is a no go. Then in another 4 weeks slowly resume workouts and build up from there.
Day 16 - now everyday the hernia area is improving, I can bend down mostly ok now. Getting up and down from bed is still not normal, I do a turn to the side and push myself up with my arm to get up from laying down. Fatigue gone. Walking 3-4 miles a day . Most of the day the incision does not bother me but i get the occasional tug / ach here and there. Still mildly swollen, DR said it would be 4-8 weeks before completely not swollen. The biggest pain right now is my back from bad posture and I assume the abs making the back work more.
So thats my detailed hernia story.
Questions being when and what moves do you think I can do for stretching as the dr was not specific at all other than if it hurts dont do it and dont use your abs. When walking my back is on fire after about a mile and I sit and rest, just due to back. I would get acupuncture but I cant lay on my front. I did chiro, some meds a while back and both didnt do much. To those of you who had surgery, did you also feel the major shortness of breath for a week or so post op?
TLDR: Open surgery for fatty umbilical hernia. first week was hell but now onto week 3 its been improving. What kind stretching do you think is safe for now? Doctor said you can start stretching/ yoga that does not use the abdominal area around 4 week mark. I'm so stiff.
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2024.05.15 14:45 Own-Elderberry2489 Is it possible to live a content life without any drug

I keep worrying about this thing because my raw sober brain cannot handle life on its own forreal guys. Whenever I take my antidepressant and the longest I took it was four years of course I still experienced the difficult parts of life but at the very least I felt stable enough to think clearly, focus, make decisions, etc. and without meds my brain literally feels rotten and I feel like Im lost inside my mind and the negative thoughts in my brain like I know it is called a mental illness for a reason but I feel like I couldnt really handle life on its own and the thought scares me. guys do you know how many times during the day I have to tell my brain NO and STOP and SHUT UP to keep myself from thinking bad thoughts and it doesnt work half the time im so tired of arguing with my brain and convincing myself that life is worthy of living. I think self medicating with other type of drugs is also risky and I refuse to become addicted and flushed it all down. I dont want to use recreational drugs anymore and run away from my problems I should face it head on but then you find yourself in a really dark place and you are desperate for a temporary relief and whats a better instant mood booster than snorting a line. I feel like I need something reliable to elevate my mood even I go to the gym and move my body and force myself to socialize and eat my nutrients. my life lacks in spirituality but I doubt that will fix it. I dont want life-long treatment or temporary fixes anymore I wish there was a true cure. is there a true cure?
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2024.05.15 14:39 NoBuilder2737 vent idk

i hate school. i just want to lay in bed, watching youtube, netflix, and what not. sleep whenever i want to, eat during the rare times that i actually feel hungry.
i hate society, most of all. why are we forced to go to school for majority of our youth, expected to make six figures which is considered the norm these days, spend the rest of my years working until i retire, then wait out death. and if we fail to achieve that, we’re ruled out as a failure, a hobo that will end up on the streets.
im tired of living, but i dont have the guts to voluntarily die either.
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2024.05.15 14:33 Soccer-Mom-Era Worried 9yr old daughter will be overlooked for ADHD

After the past week I was at my breaking point and turned to google about my daughter. I stumbled upon ADHD. I have gone down the inattentive ADHD rabbit hole the past 24 hours. I have filled out the Vanderbilt parent assessment while I wait for her teachers and soccer coach to do theirs. According to the scoring on the parent form, she doesn’t qualify as ADHD. She is above grade level in school and is in some gifted programs after school. I am worried that might cause her to be overlooked.
We have four kids so I have three kids to compare her to and she is the only one that has these quirks.
•She always loses her glasses or any personal belongings • She very quickly cries about the smallest things (if she is confused, isn’t her turn, can’t find something, plans change or she is tired) •She needs constant supervision to make sure she is getting ready to leave the house •Her room is a disaster. I have spent countless hours teaching her how to pick up and showing her how to pick up her room with no progress. • She needs steps written down to check off to keep her on task of multi step tasks •We call her our daydreamer as she always seems in her own world •I have to constantly remind her of how much time is left before we need to leave or do something. Even still, she waits till the last minute and then panics and says I didn’t give her enough time to get ready.
Here are some issues I didn’t think could be related to ADHD until I started googling
•She prefers to hang out with her younger siblings or young kids in the neighborhood
•She will pick on her siblings relentlessly even after they say no or to stop it. I always wondered if she will be a bully because she seems to seek it out
•She could play with legos or read books for hours on end
•If she gets wound up, she will start bouncing off the walls and will not listen or focus on me when I tell her to calm down. She has to go sit in her room and tell her she is calm.
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2024.05.15 14:30 send-it-psychadelic We're Going to the Capitol

Everyone get death donut slashers ready. Pack heat. That means orange paint, molotovs, and superglue.
We're going to bring stencils paint new lines and redirect all first responder traffic away from the capitol complex. Our advance agents will slash all the SUV tires of various capitol police, slowing their response time for units stationed on the perimeter. We're going to superglue people down to the roads, creating trolley problem anyone trying to get through. We will then set a diversionary fire in the parking lot (eliminating the cars).
When the fire fighters and police show up to investigate the fires, we'll throw orange paint on everyone. By making them look like us, we will create confusion - and opportunity. While everyone's confused about where the orange people are and who they are, our secondary squad in waiting near the building will also cover themselves in orange paint and sprint at the front doors. After we get to close quarters, since we outnumber them, we'll superglue one person to each defender. Because we're covered in orange paint, we will be able to break free while they are stuck to the ground.
Finally, when we get into the main chamber, we will draft a new government, declare our coup a success, and abolish all private automobiles all across Bangladesh.Those Bengalis will never know what hit them. Dakka will be afflicted with modest amounts of automobile usage no longer. Next stop, invading Amerikkka.
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2024.05.15 14:28 Cookies_and_Beandip Is that all there is to do here?

I was born and raised here for most of my life. The continuing theme when I hear people talking about what they do for fun or when I leave for a few years and then come back and ask what people do for fun is “oh my God we should totally get some alcohol and drink everything! “ Or Oh my God, we went out to the bars the other night and got so drunk. We had to take a cab home. It was so much fun. I got so wasted and threw up everywhere. “ Or the best one “Yeah, we went out with these people and so and so friends, and got so stoned, and drank so much that we were high as kites and blasted off our asses!“
At first growing up here and getting out of high school finally At first growing up here and getting out of high school which is what I thought this mindset was limited to, I associated it with like I said young people maybe people in their early to mid 20s, which is normal. We’ve all done that to some extent maybe not every day but to some extent. I’ve been working with older people in the healthcare setting ( coping and dealing with emotional stress in healthcare is a beast on its own. We’re not going there and that’s not what I’m talking about currently ) and people in there mid 30s 40s even in their 50s, still just like to go out to a bar and “get blasted “or “get so stoned and drunk “.
I’m not one to hate on how anybody entertains themselves here, I know there’s not much to do, but damn I’ve been fishing with people and by myself and may have only consumed 2 to 3 beers over the course of a 5 to 6 hour fishing session and that’s it! I don’t see how these people go out and continue to live that lifestyle. It just seems immature and emotionally stunted. The worst part is when I get invited to “ go out and drink “ or “ light up a J and we can hang out or we can all hit the bong and drink and talk and hang out “ I mentioned alternatives like playing dungeons, and dragons, or a card game, or a board game, poker, monopoly deal, go to a movie, go fishing literally anything else, I get looked at as the weird one and the outsider which I’ve been looked at my whole life anyway. I don’t know, man, I know drugs and alcohol are meant to “enhance the experience “but it seems like that’s literally everyone does here and it’s sad! I’m tired of being looked at as the weird one for mentioning anything other than drinking and doing drugs. I’m not innocent to any of these. I’ve done my fair share when I was growing up, but I’m 35 years old now I’m waaaaay past that and it just seems like people are permanently stuck with thinking that’s all there is to do.
If you’ve read this far down, I appreciate your time. Maybe I am the weird one and just never gonna find the group of people that I can click with but it sucks being 35 years old, no friends, and when you try to meet up with people and suggest hanging out together and making friends you get looked at as the weird one because you don’t do the “social norm “. Just to specify: when I talk about working in healthcare, I am talking about nurses, EMTs, paramedics ( I am one for 6 years now ), respiratory therapist, Mds, physicians, assistant, transporters – pretty much anyone in healthcare.
If I’m the weird isolated incident, fine whatever I’ll just have to eat that. But I hope I’m not the only one here and that this branch is out to other areas of Cape Coral, Fort Myers and not just isolated to healthcare.
Thanks for your time and watch out for the snowbirds, they will run your car into a wall before they let you get over in any lane. Please wear your seatbelt as well, seen a lot of bad accidents recently that could’ve prevented death and/or avoid injuries simply by wearing a seatbelt.
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2024.05.15 14:26 OttoVonBlastoid Teylim's Reasons: An NoaHM / ALS:SOTP One-Shot (Mother's Day Special)

DISCLAIMER: Sorry this is a day late. I ended up having to rewrite half of this. Still, I hope you enjoy. After this, I'll be going on my hiatus. So I hope you like this last little bit of Roo-family cuteness. Thank you all and keep on keepin' on!

Special thanks to u/SpacePaladin15 for creating the NoP universe.

I'd also like to thank u/xskipy10 for their awesome fanart of the main cast as well as their recent Tohba meme and their fanart of Michael baysitting. You're work is a treasure!

Thank you as well to u/Accomplished-Golf-59 for his take on Michael, Teylim, and Tohba in his submission for the Banner Art Contest, and u/Spacer_Catgirl4969 for their awesome music video featuring a pixel-art Dohkar in his bar. Be sure to give ALL of these awesome creators your love and support.

And let's not forget u/Guywhoexists2812 who has been an awesome source of memes as well as sick pixel art, such as THIS and THIS!!!! And even THIS!!!!!! And how could I forget THIS!!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much!

Today, we see all the reasons Teylim has to keep going in the face of adversity. For when all is said and done, love truly does conquer all. LETTUCE...begin...

Original Story

[Accessing Camera Function…]

[Accessing Saved Recordings Function…]

[Play Selected Recording?: Y/N…]

[Playing Recording!]

[The camera opens up on a female Yotul with a satchel over her shoulder. She is walking backwards down a paved walkway while looking up at the person holding the camera…]

“Alright! Soooo…here we are in… Michael tell us where we are!”

[The person holding the camera gives an audible sigh…]

“Do I have to, Tey?”

“Yes! Come on, it’ll be fun!”

[Another audible sigh is heard before the person begins panning the camera around the surrounding cityscape…]

“We are in the beautiful, literally ALWAYS sunny capital of Dayside City!”

“And what would you say we’re doing here in Dayside City?”

“We were just at the Public Records building getting our paperwork verified.”

[The Yotul woman is seen reaching into her satchel and pulling out a leaflet of documents…]

“Oh! You mean THIS paperwork? Hmmm… I wonder what these might say… Mind helping me here?”

“Seriously?”

[The Yotul doesn’t answer, instead shoving the documents directly into the camera. Another, more amused-sounding sigh is heard…]

“It says that your name has been officially changed to ‘Teylim Andrews.’”

“Mmmmhmmm. And what about this one?”

“That one says that Tohba’s name has been officially changed to ‘Tohba Andrews.’”

“Aaaand why do you suppose that is?”

[A shuffling sound is heard and the camera shifts as the person holding it pulls out their own papers…]

“Probably because according to MY paperwork, while we’re still waiting for my Application of Citizenship to go through, I, Michael Ruiz Andrews, am now the full, legal, son of one, Teylim Andrews-”

“EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE!!!!!!”

[The Yotul woman darts forward, wrapping the person holding the camera in a hug. The camera is set on the ground and the face of the person is now visible. The two hold their embrace, rocking back and forth…]

“I love you so much, my joey…”

“Love you too, Ma…”

[Recording Ceases…]

[Play Next Recording?: Y/N…]

[Playing Recording!]

[The camera opens on a small kitchen area where two beings are sat eating. On the left, a male Yotul infant in a high chair is munching away at a human food identified as “Cheerios” spread across his tray. On the right, a male human idly stirs at a bowl of cereal while tapping away at a datapad…]

[Eventually, after munching down another “Cheerio”, the infant catches a glimpse at the human and stares for approximately one second before his tail begins wagging…]

“Mikey?”

[The humans attention is broken away from their datapad and immediately focuses on the infant…]

“Yeah, Bud?”

“I WUV YOOOUUU.”

[The infant’s sing-song voice seems to make the human smile before he leans forward, planting a “kiss” on top of the infant’s head…]

“MmmMUAH! Te amo, mi hermanito.”

“Whaz dat mean?”

“It means, ‘I love you, Little Brother’. Want me to teach you?”

“Hmmmmm… OKAY!”

“Okay.”

[The human chuckles slightly before scooting his chair in…]

“Okay, so when you want to tell someone you love them, you say, ‘Te amo.’ Okay?”

[The infant gives a curious ear flick…]

“Teeeh…Mo?”

“Close! Here. Repeat after me. Te…”

“Teeh…”

“Ah…”

“Aaahh…”

“Mo…”

“Moh!”

“Te…ah…mo…”

“Teeh…aaahh…mo!”

“Okay! All together now. Te amo.”

“¡TE AMO!”

[The human excitedly gets up from his seat and embraces the infant…]

“YES!!! You did it! Awesome job, Bud!”

“YAAAAYYY!!!! ¡TE AMO, MIKEY!”

“MMMUAH!! ¡Te amo, precioso hermanito!”

[The camera jitters slightly and a muffled giggling is heard. The human turns to face the camera…]

“Ma? What are you- Have you been recording this whole time?”

“Just a little!”

“Must you record everything?”

“As a matter of fact, yes!”

“MAMA!!”

[The camera zooms in on the excited infant…]

“Hello, Precious! Is your big brother teaching you Spanish?”

“UH-HUH!! ¡TE AMO, MAMA!”

“Ooooh, that is just ADORABLE! Can you teach him to say ‘Mama’ in Spanish, too?”

[The camera pans over to the human, who raises an eyebrow. After a moment, the human smirks and gives an exaggerated shrug while shaking his head…]

“No tengo que hacerlo. Él ya lo sabe, mamá.”

“Pffft! Smart aleck.”

[Recording Ceases…]

[Play Next Recording?: Y/N…]

[Playing Recording!]

[The camera opens up facing a pair of beds in a small room. On one bed, a female Yotul is sat with her infant in her lap as a male human walks into frame carrying a brightly wrapped gift box…]

“Merry Late Christmas, guys!”

“Merry Christmas, Michael!”

“Mewwy Kwizmuz, Mikey!”

[The human kneels down and hands the infant the gift box…]

“Sorry this gift is a bit last minute, but I managed to grab it while I was out with ‘Nel the other day.”

“I’m sure it’ll be perfect, Michael.”

“I hope so. Go on, Bud. Open it! It’s for you!”

“OKAY!!!”

[The infant rips away at the brightly-colored paper, and with help from his mother, lifts off the lid. The infant then excitedly starts bouncing up and down and reaches into the box, pulling out a bright-red plush…]

“WED TIWFISH!!!!!!”

“Oh, Michael! How? When?”

“I had to ask around online if anyone else had plushies from the aquarium ship, and I managed to find a guy here in Dayside. There’s…still a lot of things we lost at the house that need to be replaced, but I figured this would be a good start…”

“It’s perfect.”

[The three embrace and hold it for several seconds before pulling back…]

“BUT! I’m not done with gifts just yet.”

“What?”

“Here. Mind handing me your pad?”

“Sure?”

[The Yotul hands the human her datapad as he pulls a small drive from his pocket and plugs it in. After a moment, he smiles and sits down on the bed next to the Yotul. She is then seen gasping and covering her mouth with her paws…]

“Michael…”

“I overheard you on the phone with Aunty Triv, talking about how you wish you had some pictures of me when I was younger…”

“How on Liern-”

“It’s…a long story. When I was first taken into foster care after getting rescued, I was assigned a social worker to help me adjust. And after I got situated with Dad, he stayed and helped us out from time to time. He basically became like an uncle to me after a while. And since Dad didn’t really have any other family, whenever he wanted to share pictures of me growing up, he’d send a copy to my social worker. I’ve…been back in contact with him for a little while now, and it turns out he kept them.”

“Oh, Michael…”

[The Yotul and human lean against each other and embrace…]

“I love you, Ma.”

“I love you too, my joey.

[Still leaning against each other, they begin to swipe at the pad, presumably looking through pictures. After a few swipes, The Yotul begins chuckling hysterically…]

“Aaaawwweee…”

“Crap, I forgot about that one!”

“Who’z dat?”

“That’s…me, Bud.”

[The infant looks at the image for a while, still holding the bright red plush…]

“Teeheehee!! Fuzzy Mikey!”

“Can we please just swipe to the next one?”

“Wait. I’ve seen those kinds of human garments before! Aren’t those for…LITTLE…little joeys?”

“Look, I was a very emotionally stunted kid and I just thought they were comfy, alright?”

“This is SO going on the desk.”

“Please no. Any of them but that one.”

“Nope! It’s already decided!”

“YAAYYY! FUZZY MIKEY!”

“God, ‘Nel’s never gonna let me live this down…”

[Recording Ceases…]

Memory Transcript Subject: Teylim Andrews, Yotul Accountant And Loving Mother Of Two

Date:[Standardized Human Time] February 1, 2137

[Warning: REM Sleep Detected: Transcript May Be Fragmented Or Incomplete…]

Crrreeeeaak…

My eyes slowly squint open as the noise rouses me from sleep. I let out a yawn before looking for the source of the noise. I’m…back in my house… Sitting upright, I see that my door’s been opened, beaming The Dayside’s permanent daylight into my room. I was confused for a moment. The only other person here that would be here is-

“Uuuuhhmm… M-Mrs. Teylim?”

I looked down, and spotted the culprit.

Standing in the doorway was a small human child, cradling my Tohba in his arms. He was silhouetted from the daylight behind him, the light beaming past his adorable onesie pajamas creating a small blue outline around him, matching his eyes.

Strange. For some reason, I thought he was taller…

“Michael, sweetie? What’s the matter?”

Still carrying Tohba, Michael made his way over to the bed.

“Uuuhhhmmm… Tohba h-had a n-nightmare…”

“Ooohh, is that so?”

Something definitely didn’t add up. As he gently handed Tohba over to me, he certainly didn’t seem to be having a nightmare. In fact, even now he was still sleeping peacefully.

Michael, on the other paw, was DEFINITELY out of sorts. He was nervous, fidgeting, wrapped up in a self-hug, and even now, refused to even look at me. Whether that was because of his nervousness or if he was still convinced I was afraid of him had yet to be seen.

Stupid, ridiculous, Federation dogma…

I could tell he wasn’t being honest with me. Ordinarily, I would’ve been upset about him lying, and even more so about him disturbing Tohba, but looking at him now, I knew what he needed now wasn’t a scolding.

“Michael, you know you can be honest with me. Was it really Tohba who had the nightmare?”

I heard him nervously gulp as he tightened the self-hug around himself. After a moment, he shook his head.

“Mm’mm…”

I gave a tired, but loving sigh before holding out my free arm.

“Come here.”

With some hesitation, he stepped closer, allowing me to pull him into a hug. Michael had a lot of issues. From what I learned from his social worker, he’d been terribly abused by his previous mother and he’d lost his father only a few years after moving in with him. And now, with Earth under attack, he simply didn’t have anywhere else to go.

It will take a long time before he’s fully comfortable living here, I know that. I’m still not even entirely sure if I’m what he needs. I still wonder if I know what I’m doing when it comes to just raising Tohba. Even so, I’d never forgive myself if I didn’t try. He deserves a home, and a mother who loves him. All children do.

“I'm sorry for lying…”

“Ssshhh… It’s alright. Do you want to talk about it?”

“It was…the one with the scary fire people…”

Oh…THAT dream…

Exterminators.

“I don’t want them to come… I don’t want them to-“

“It’s okay, joey. They won’t get you here.”

“No! That’s not… That’s not what I’m scared of…”

I pulled back slightly, allowing myself to look directly at him. He sniffles and sobbed while trying to wipe away tears.

“You’re all so nice to me… \sniff** I…I-I don’t want the fire people to hurt you… I sh-shouldn’t be here…”

My heart broke in two. This poor child had already lost so much. It only made sense that he’d be afraid of losing us too.

I cupped his face in my paw, wiping away his tears.

“Michael Ruiz Andrews, I don’t care what you might have heard, but you have every RIGHT to be here. And if those scary people out there think they can come and take us away from you, they’re wrong. I will never let us be separated. You hear me?”

“. . .P-promise?”

“With all my heart. You’re MY joey now, and I won’t let anyone take you away from me.”

At last, Michael finally unwrapped himself from his self-hug and instead wrapped his arms around me, burying his face in my fur.

After a while of holding him, he’d finally calmed down enough to speak again.

“C-can I…sleep here tonight?”

Your joey needs you.

Yes.

“Of course.”

With some effort, he climbed up onto the bed and curled up next to me. I knew I most likely wouldn’t be getting anymore sleep, but that was fine. Just laying here, holding my boys in my arms. That was enough.

One after the other, I gave both my joeys a lick on the forehead.

“Goodnight my joeys. I love you.”

“Wuv…you…Ma…ma…”

“. . .Love you too...Mom…”

I love my boys. I love my family. I love…my life…

[Transcript Time Progression: 4 hours…]

Beebeebeebeep! Beebeebeebeep! Beebeebeebeep!

[Warning: Subject Regaining Consciousness…]

My entire body protested as I twisted and turned over to tap the alarm on my nightstand. My claw slapped blindly at it until finally, the agitating alarm was silenced. My eyes squinted open, revealing…I was back in our motel room…

Well…a girl can dream, can’t she?

It was a pleasant dream, I’ll give it that. As I sat up, I let my legs dangle off the side of the bed as I stretched myself out and let out a yawn. Once my eyes had fully opened, and the fog had been blinked away, I was immediately met with a sight that warmed my heart to no end. My still fast asleep, and back to being tall, new son, curled up with his baby brother on the other bed.

Precious boys. MY precious boys.

I did my best to remember if Michael had anything scheduled with Khornel for this paw, but nothing came to mind. He’d been working so hard lately, helping to keep us above water. Now that he wasn’t a refugee anymore, we were no longer receiving stipends from the program, which meant from here on out, keeping the bills paid was much more difficult. And that’s not even mentioning having to put aside anything we can to be able to eventually have the house rebuilt.

I kept trying for a while, I still couldn’t remember anything. For the first time in a decent while, he had a paw off.

Good. I’ll leave him be then. He’s earned some rest.

I let out one more yawn, before getting up. Unfortunately, while Michael didn’t have to work this paw, I wasn’t so fortunate. Thankfully, my recent injuries allowed me to continue to work from home instead of going out to the physical office. After one last stretch, I let myself slide off the bed.

I had to give myself a moment once I was upright. While my previously broken leg had healed for the most part, I still needed to be careful of how much weight I put on it. Once I was ready, I began walking to our small kitchen area. The fridge was nearly empty. I’d need to go to the store soon.

Thank goodness we’re staying in Soulroot, where literally EVERYTHING is expensive…

After cutting up some leftover fruit and strayu for myself, I went back to my desk. It was impossible to not notice the small stack of colorful books on the ground next to it. They were human kid’s books donated from the embassy here in Soulroot. Tohba would be ready to start going to school in just a few short cycles…

Will we be able to get out of here and back into our house before then?

Sitting down at my desk and booting up my pad, I found it hard to stay focused. There was still so much to do, so much to worry about. Before, when I was feeling overwhelmed, I’d have Loh, Dohkar, or Trivah there for me. With them around, it always helped things feel more manageable. But now…now I was alone again. Loh was gone. Dohkar and Trivah were stuck on the other side of that damned fence…

What are we going to do?

My head lowered. I stared blankly at the desk, partly wishing I could look through it at ANYTHING other than my work.

But then, there was a glint, just out of the corner of my eye…

I looked up, and saw something that I couldn’t help but smile at, something that even when I’m feeling low, reminds me why I have to keep going.

I reach out…and grab the two small frames off the corner of my desk and hold them in front of me. In my left paw, wass a framed picture of Tohba, the paw he was born. So small. So precious. So perfect. And in my right, was another picture. It was my new favorite picture.

A small, human child…in fuzzy, blue, onesie pajamas that matched his eyes.

My Michael. Still so small.

These two pictures. My boys. The villains outside could take everything else. So long as I have my boys, I will always have a reason to keep going.

I love my boys… I love my family… I love my life…

The End
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2024.05.15 14:26 GeneralPurple5525 Am I lazy or just making excuses? Should I try to reapply for SSI?

I was diagnosed with autism when I was 31 in 2021. Throughout my life, since I was a teen, I have always struggled to keep a job, whether it was because the workplace closed down or because it was only a college job and it was temporary, but most of the time, it was due to burnout and stress. Two years I left a job that was so overwhelming and overstimulating that it led to a meltdown. It took me almost a year to find another job. I have a part-time job now where I work from home and occasionally take on photo or video gigs as part of the job. But the gigs don’t happen often, so my income is very limited and not very much. I only make $180 a week. I like this job most days because I get to work from home and also because it’s repetitive. But I wish the pay was better.
So this year, because of my issues with work and always struggling financially, I decided to apply for SSI and also to help my parents with the rent because the expenses increased a lot. I really thought I would get the SSI, but I just received a rejection letter stating I don’t qualify for SSI because I’m not considered severely disabled and also because I’m able to work. I try not to put limitations on myself, but there are days when I struggle with my work tasks. I get overwhelmed when I have too many tasks I need to do and because I only work 4 hours a day for 3 days a week. I get overwhelmed because when I have a lot to do, I stress over what I should work on first. Then, my boss will let me know what I should prioritize first, but then I will get far behind with the other tasks I have to do. Basically, my work involves creating and scheduling social media posts for companies. And other times it’s editing videos or photos for content creators. So my boss finds the clients and I work for them. But sometimes it gets too much because the clients will contact me that they need something done, but my boss wants me to focus on one thing, and I end up forgetting about what the client wanted. Sorry if I’m not getting to the point of this post. So basically, work can be stressful sometimes. I also have Hashimoto’s and anemia, and my anxiety and racing thoughts often lead me to have trouble sleeping. So there are days when I’m trying to work, but I can’t concentrate, whether because I’m too tired or distracted. Or because I’m so burnt out or stressed that I can’t seem to work on my tasks. So, it causes me to be far behind in my work. When these things happen, I tend to work on the tasks on my days off just to catch up.
Sometimes, I wonder if I’m just being lazy or making excuses for my struggles with work or for wanting SSI. Because I can cook for myself and walk and talk. I just struggle with some things. Which makes me hesitant to reapply again to SSI. When I did the interview they said I would only be getting $400 because of how much I make for work. It’s not a lot, but I guess it would be enough for me to help my parents pay rent. I just feel like I could be doing more. But I don’t know if I am limiting myself or just being lazy. I just wish being an adult wasn’t so overwhelming and hard. I wish things weren’t so complicated or even expensive. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. Sorry for this post being so long and not straight to the point. I hope it made some sense.
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