As the weather slowly turns, my mind once again embraces the idea of starting. Winter is so easy to go inside your shell and forget everything. Summer comes around and suddenly begins to pop up.
I think our chief concerned right now is going to be our Internet presence. Getting the website, email, getting podcasts, getting YouTube videos, even TikTok’s, and really just getting the message out, being a little controversial while still remaining authentic to who we are, and going our own way. Bhagwan had his style, and we love his style, but his style came from the era he lived in. His style was of the 50s and the 60s and the 70s and the 80s and the 90s, whereas our style needs to be true to our generation, and the generations that come after us.
I myself am in my early 40s, soon mid 40s, and no doubt eventually 50s and so on so forth. So this movement, this international resurgence, it’s not even so much for me. I have a good life. My life is almost over. I can very easily continue to live my life right now without any change and I would be perfectly happy. I am happy to walk the farm and think of Bhagwan and meditate by myself. I have attained enlightenment. True enlightenment means not being so bothered by the fact that no one else knows you are enlightened. If you are so concerned by the fact that other people know that you are enlightened, then that by itself is assigned that you are not yet fully there. that is ego. And to become fully enlightened means ego death. Absolutely and completely. So as I walk the farm now, and I look upon the freshly cut grass and the green trees and the blue sky and the large volume is white clouds, I could die alone and I would be quite happy and fulfilled. Perhaps not alone, the cats keep me company.
So this resurgence is not for me. It is I who am doing it, but it’s not for me. I don’t need it. I would like it, I would want it, but I don’t need it. And I have wondered in my days why me? I’m not special. I’m no one. I could continue to do what I do for the rest of my life and I would be just fine if nothing were to come of this. My life would not fundamentally or materially change. I would continue to watch the deer in the grass. I would continue to watch the birds at the birdfeeder. I would continue to hear the owl at night. I would continue to walk in the back 10 acres among the rainforest and be constantly and consistently in awe the natural beauty of it. I would watch the seasons come and go, the green at first, a bright new fresh spring green, slowly giveaway to a more standard green and eventually as it warmed up, dryer green, and then a brown and as it got colder it would be gone. And then it would be cold for a while and then eventually that same new fresh vibrant green would come back again and over and over. And then one day I would be part of that cycle and my cycle in this life would be complete and I move through the grass, the tall grass move with the wind, revealing a very presence, as if I could not feel it upon my skin, I’m just reminded how lucky I am to be here and how I am content, I have it all and I am part of this and this is part of me. And one of these days when I lay down for my last time, I will come back to this.
So this is not for me. I don’t need anything. I am absolutely content.
This revival is for you, my beloved sanyassins. it is for you, the ones who were born too late to sit at the masters feet. In that, you join me. I was born early enough to be around when the masters energy was alive, but not so early enough to have been any kind of adult to really partake in such a thing. I was barely 4 years old when the master was in Oregon. I can’t imagine that he would want a four year-old sitting at his feet, and I imagine as a four-year-old I probably would not have appreciated such a thing anyway.
But now i would. And you’ll have to forgive me because this voice to text on the phone is not always perfect. I have attached a picture of what I am beholding as I speak on this topic today..
I want you to see the picture, I want you to understand my position. I don’t need a single thing. But I look around the world and I see the pain, I see the misery, I see the suffering and the lies, and I understand how it was when I was young and growing up. I understand the lies That they told me. I join the military when I was a young man because I believed the lies. I believed that this was the greatest country ever, and I believed in the so-called goodness that they said that this country stood for. Obviously I don’t believe that anymore. But there are countless scores of young men and young women who are growing up in this country who are thinking exactly the thing I thought. They are signing up for the military, they are volunteering to sacrifice their very lives for this nation. And if the nation was a good nation, if it was a good place, I would say that would be a noble thing. But it’s not. For so many reasons it’s not. But I did my time, I’ve succeeded in my own way and I am happy and I’m pleased with what I have now. I know beauty, I know it in my soul but I fear many of you don’t.
I fear many of you know only what they tell you. I grew up in a time before the Internet, but I was also young enough to adopt the Internet quickly when it came out. But my identity was formed before the Internet. I remember the Internet as the wild West. Before it was controlled by Google and other mega corporations. Remember the Internet before it became the thought control mechanism that it is now. You used to be able to look on the Internet and find exactly what you wanted to find. Now you find only what Google has decided that you will see. You find what Google wants you to know, you find what Google wants you to read, And when I say Google I of course mean the people who own Google. The elites, the state, so anymore I question whether or not the youth of today and tomorrow will even know what truth is or will they simply know the truth they are told.
I myself know the truth, I’ve seen it, I’ve lived it, and I know who the liar is. But anymore, there’s confusion on that front. The young are confused. They don’t know who to listen to. Truth has been claimed by every side out there. And I wish I could say there were only two sides, that would be easy. There are numerous sides. Countless sides. There is an armada of sides, each of them claiming truth, and in a way I suppose I am no different. Of course I believe I am different, but to an individual who otherwise doesn’t know, how would they see that I am different? Why would they not think that I am just like everyone else? That’s a good question, I wish I knew the answer. But again this is not for me. I’ve made it. I’m good. This is for you. This is for my children. This is for their children. This is for the young men and women Who otherwise don’t know. This is for those who were born to late to learn from the master himself.
And because it’s based on truth, there is an element of fear that I have, perhaps why we have been so delayed in doing anything on this front. When people speak from a place of absolute truth Those people have a way of running into problems. Whether it’s legal problems, or some kind of other nonsense, the state does not mind another grifter. The state is a grifter and does not begrudge another. But the one thing that grifters, conmen, and charlatans alike cannot stand, is someone who tells the absolute truth. To them, we are the most dangerous thing there is. And not because I’m necessarily trying to be dangerous to them, but because once someone sees the real truth, they can never be fooled again. We are the ultimate antidote and it is far easier to frame us or set us up or put false charges on us And get us out the way it is to leave us alone slowly lose ground to us. I’ve seen it with numerous people and numerous groups before. If you stand against the charlatans, if you stand against the elites, then they will come for you. And they will murder you. They might claim that it’s some kind of legal thing or they might claim that it’s some kind of accusation, but they can just make things up, and whatever they say, their sheep will simply accept. Their sheep are not about to ask questions, because if they ask questions then that would fundamentally make them not a sheep.
So as the weather turns my mind once again considers what we set out to do from the very beginning. Create a new place for this old idea. Idea that sadly enough was supposed to have been done by the very people who took over the masters movement after his passing. His very suspicious passing. They were supposed to use his money and continue his vision but instead they took his money and they ran. And that was in the 90s. So here we are 30 years later and now it falls upon us to do something. And if we don’t do something, it doesn’t happen.
And that precisely has me wondering about the nature of things. Where do ideas come from. If I do not do the thing, then who will do the thing? If I do not create such a movement, who will? Where did the idea in my mind come from to start this? Did it just randomly pop into my head for no good reason? Where did this inspiration, where did this come from? I think it’s an interesting question, because when I talk to other people, and I talk to other followers of the master who are on different forums and such, None of them have told me that they are interested or have ever even considered starting up such a thing. So I guess my question is why am I? Did this inclination, this idea, this inspiration come from? Why did I think about doing this? And why have I not been able to get rid of the idea? Why have I not been able to be rid myself of this idea that I have had for more than a decade?
In 2012 I had a small group and we were doing things that I suppose would be best described as school of mystery type things. For example, we were looking at and using tarot cards. We were meditating, we had been reading and discussing some of Bhagwan’s books. We looked at and studied Buddhism, Taoism, Hinduism, Zen, even Zoroastrianism as well as some of the more ancient Babylonian religions discussed in the dead sea scrolls. We had all manner of esoteric conversation and it was very enjoyable. But it was clear to me that many of them were just about talking and we’re not very interested in something more serious. the group slowly turned more and more into reading Bhagwan’s books and discussing his concepts and we did lose some people from the group because they did not like that. But that was my intention for the group group the whole time, and so it was an unfortunate but understandable change. A lot of the people that we lost were simply people I call seekers. they are there to talk about interesting things and have friends to talk about interesting things with, but otherwise they were not interested in any kind of serious discourse, they were not serious about any kind of personal growth or personal mastery, they did not like to meditate, they were mostly there because, in my opinion, they felt that they could potentially have relations with girls who were also interested in the same thing. So when they left we were not totally upset to see them go. And then the small core group of us studied more and more about Bhagwan and then came time for me to move. And although I have had attempted to set the group up since then, I never had success and I was too busy moving around. When the time finally came for me to purchase my own place and stop moving, I did so with a keen eye on looking at a future property for the start of the commune. I ended up settling on this 20 acres that we are on currently.
Unfortunately getting 20 acres in a location is often not the same location that you’re going to find the same people who are interested in mystery school type studies, let alone Bhagwan.
The people here are generally friendly, mostly stick to themselves, but are your typical mix of city/rural person. They’re not too interested in anything outside of the norm. So any kind of attempt to start anything here would almost certainly be a waste of time and could turn violent because the people here are probably not too dissimilar from the people in antelope although given that it is nearly 40 years later, certainly attitudes have lightened up a little bit. There is also enough of a mixture of city people living here that it tends to be a little more live and let live type of a place which I think is nice.
but all that to simply say that this place is not the kind of place that you can go and just create some kind of an esoteric mystery school type group and expect to have a lot of success. Which is fine because we have the Internet now,…
But still I wonder why has this idea stuck in my head this whole time? when I talk to people they themselves are not necessarily interested in doing something like this themselves. They have not looked to create some kind of commune or even community or even some kind of just social get together type group. The idea has never crossed their mind. And yet I can’t get it out of mind. so I just wonder where ideas come from, is it just an idea that we ourselves had, is it some kind of inspiration, and if it’s some kind of inspiration where does it come from? Back in 2012 when we were doing that initial mystery school, certainly I would not say that I was any kind of enlightened. I was still learning myself. As Bhagwan said, being enlightened does not mean that we walk on water or that we know that our room is bugged, it simply means that we know ourselves beyond all things. that we have no ego that is holding us back, we have no expectations that manipulate us or mold us to a certain way. We are completely free first and foremost, and then within that freedom, we know ourselves. And knowing ourselves in such a way, it opens up the energy in our bodies, flowing for through the chakras resulting in absolute clarity. And this clarity is the thing that all enlighten Masters have talked about.
And let me be clear, I am not some Eastern Mystic guru expert. I do not know every single word for every single phenomenon that the Hindus and the Buddhist use. and the reason I have never made the attempt at doing so for you. Because I don’t want you to feel that you have no place in this human evolution because you do not know the words that it is often referred to.
This is not a Hindu thing. This is not a Buddhist thing. This is not an Indian thing. This is a human thing. and before I said chakras and I use the word because I think that most people understand what I’m talking about. But if I said another word, and there are many to choose from, you would probably not know what I was talking about, and maybe some of you would, but the absolutely new person would not know what I was talking about. And this is a human thing. This is not an Indian thing. This is not a Hindu thing. So I don’t like to use those words and as I myself was going through this process and I myself was learning the thing under the masters teaching, I did my best to understand these things from a human perspective, not an eastern mysticism perspective. I did my best to learn about the very core fundamentals of the thing, rather than simply call it by the name that the Indians call it by, or the Hindu use or the Buddhist use. and I realize that doing that, Hindu and Buddhist might see what I am doing or what I’m saying as somehow shallow, or perhaps fake. Because if I am not calling it by the name that they understand it by, they get very defensive because they feel that this is their thing. And so I should be using their words for the thing. But this is not just an Eastern thing. This is a thing. And so I don’t want to use their words because I fear that it will scare some of you away. So when I talk about these concepts and these ideas, I do my best to put them in the most common of terms, I do my best to put them in the most layman language possible because that is precisely who I am doing this for. You, the layman. the common person. I don’t want to use specific words or phrases that will confuse you. Instead of calling in a chakra, I would rather call it an energy Nexus. It’s the same thing. It’s the same concept. But calling it a chakra is specific to one culture, calling an energy Nexus in the body, expands the concept and makes it more accessible to all humans.
Ultimately we will see what happens. Many summers have come and go with me feeling the urge to begin. Many summers have come and go with me creating countless hours of discourses that perhaps no one will ever hear. Being enlightened does not mean being fearless. Being enlightened does not mean that you act rationally. Being enlightened does not mean that you go looking for trouble. It means that you have a tame a level, it means that you have attained a certain kind of self-mastery it means that when you die, you will have the choice whether or not you will come back to this life as a master and a helper, or whether you will be done and you will rejoin once and for all with the creator. i’m not certain if I can be so honest. I am a very old soul and I’m tired. That’s why part of me struggles perhaps at starting this even though I’ve done so much already. In a way I have started it, but in another way, I have not yet done the most important step of all. i’m tired. I value my peace and my quiet. And I fear that if I do what is in me to do, then I will give up my peace and my quiet. I love you all, I love you so much that it angers me to see how the world treats you. It does not surprise me however, because I understand how the world is and I understand who runs the world. but it still angers me I want so much for you all to be able to live the lives that you were meant to live. I want so much for you to be able to embrace your absolute individuality and reach that mastery level and eventually have that breakthrough of pure consciousness and that pure connection of collective subconsciousness… Bhagwan speaks a bit on it and I credit that collective subconscious connection for helping me to break through a spiritual block that I was having for a while. Having gotten over that, I believe that is what allowed me to later on get to where I needed to get to so that I had a total ego death and so doing achieved and enlightenment. so I understand the criticality of the commune. It is a shared space, with shared intention, which can be fostered up overtime, which eventually leads to the kind of collective subconscious connections that you need to really propel your spiritual advancement far beyond anything that you could do by yourself. in Buddhism they call it a buddhafield. But the concept is not completely understood correctly by them. They say that a Buddha field is a field of energy that is coming off of the Buddha. That is absolutely false. Well, sort of. Of course the Buddha is putting off their own energy, but everyone puts off their energy. The Buddha serves as the magnet. Many people of like mines and like paths and like energies are attracted to the Buddha. And then when they are there with the Buddha, all of their energies sync up and this is what becomes the buddha field. This is what allows the rapid spiritual transformation. It has everything to do with the collective unconscious. And sometimes you will hear me say subconscious sometimes you will hear me say unconscious, it’s the same thing. It’s the absolute same thing. There’s no difference at all. we are not very dogmatic when it comes to the terms that we use we just want you to understand the fundamental concepts that we’re talking about. And I do this by using different language for the same thing. And if there’s confusion I will clarify. But this is why the Comun is so key critical, because I understood what it did for me and I understand why it’s so important. Bhagwan said that in the new society, of course the new society living on the commune, in a Buddha field, that the young children would become enlightened beings like Jesus and like Krishna and like Buddha in their early teenage years. I find it interesting that no one has ever question such a comment. No one has ever been intellectually curious to ask why. Why would that be the case. And the answer is probably not surprising given what I’ve just said to you. Because if you have hundreds of people all walking along a similar spiritual path, all putting out similar spiritual energy, all aligning their energy and their intention the same direction, at the same time, this energy is amplified and it is absolutely magnified, and if you are in this energy field, and you are also focusing in the same direction on the same path, then you will have monumental speed, you will have unprecedented progress. It has been said before
It has been said before that we all walk a different path. Well, that’s sort of true but it’s also not true at all. we are all human being, and there is only one path. The path from being asleep to being awake. From consciousness to enlightenment. The difference is that we walk the path differently. Some of us walk it very quickly some of us walk it slower, some of us walk it more methodically, some of us walk it intuitively. Some of us walk it alone some of us walk it together
And you have also heard the saying that if you want to go fast go alone, if you want to go far, go together. And this is absolutely true also in the spiritual path. And that is precisely what the communist for. If you want to go far on your spiritual path and you want to achieve enlightenment in this lifetime, then you absolutely have to live and spend a large portion of your time in a Buddharfield. Or perhaps we should say Bhagwan field. But you understand my point.
But again anywhere that light and goodness pop up, darkness will seek to crush it. And seeing what they did to Bhagwan and his commune in Oregon, understanding the power dynamics that were going on there, understanding how they completely sabotage Sheila and turned Bhagwan against her When she was his number one advocate, his number one supporter, the most loyal person, and that is exactly why they had to get her out of the way. She had to get out of the way because once she was out of the way then Bhagwan was easy for the vultures.
And so I absolutely see this and I absolutely understand it. And it worries me because I know that if we try to start something, those same powers will come at us, and even though I am aware and even though I will make my people aware, being aware does not necessarily mean that you are safe. Because it has been 40 years and the enemy has had 40 years to improve the tactics. And again if they can’t take you out fairly, then they will take you out unfairly. The law is nothing to them. They will kill you and not even think twice.
And every morning I wake up my mind is on my master. Every morning I wake up I think about Bhagwan, I think about the mission I think about the commune I think if today will be the day that I start to do something.
And I suppose I have to wonder why I am putting this in such a post here when I am the only person on this group. Loyal Savita is of course supporting me and behind me and she loves Bhagwan. But when it comes to management, Savita is out of her league. When it comes to setting an organization up, Savita is out of her league. Savita would make an excellent group leader or service leader, She would make an excellent advisor, but when it comes to the logistics of setting up such a movement, sweet Savita simply would really have no idea where to begin. So if I really wanted to do something like setting up the website and setting up the social media and starting the podcast, if I didn’t want it to be some kind of very amateur production, which ideally I would not like it to be amateurish, then I would need to find some other help. Or I will have to simply settle on something being amateurish to begin with and if we saw some success, perhaps some additional people to the movement would have the skills needed to help us step everything up. But to me, that is kind of secondary to the reality that if we did such a thing, would that we would have a target on our backs. and right now our lives here are very simple and peaceful and quiet and not very dramatic at all.
And yet there is still this urging in me to do it. And I don’t quite know where that comes from.

10 Tons of Copper Coins unearthed in 2,000 years old Ancient Tomb
https://sciinsider.com/2024/05/19/10-tons-of-copper-coins-unearthed-in-2000-years-old-ancient-tomb/
Could it be that I am going to need a bigger top pocket?
Archaeologists have unearthed more than two million copper coins from an ancient complex of tombs in the Xinjian District of China.
The 2,000-year-old money, which bears Chinese symbols, characters, and a square hole in the centre, was found at a dig site in the city of Nanchang.
The value of the coins is said to be around £104,000 ($157,340) and experts believe the main tomb is that of Liu He – the grandson of Emperor Wu, the greatest ruler of Han Dynasty.
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Chinese people started using coins as currency around 1,200 BC, where instead of trading small farming implements and knives, they would melt them down into small round objects and then turn them back into knives and farm implements when needed.
It meant early coins were known as ‘knife money’ or ‘tool money’, and as people began to rely on them more for commerce they were replaced by copper coins which were of very low value and often had holes in the middle.
The hole meant the coins could be strung together to create larger denominations, with typically around 1,000 coins on a single string being worth one tael [37.7994 grams = 1 1/3 oz.] of pure silver.
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At face value, they would be valued at around £104,060 ($157,340), but because of their age and history are believed to be worth far more.
A single coin can, in fact, sell for thousands of pounds [currently 1 Pound = $1.27 US], although at the time copper coins had a very low value.

Found in the late 70s (Indiana) on a private farm. Made of Pipestone. It’s an early straight base form. Eating ly Hopewell period. Later in the Hopewell period they got crazy with recurved bases, very fanciful. This one is well used , the stem was shortened in ancient times do to damage

How often do you think about the Roman Empire?
This trend went a bit out of hand between me and my friend who is a historian... Of the Roman Empire. So, just when I thought about this weeks theme, he did send me a roman meme and yeah, the theme was set.
Blood - PMGL "Blitz Flame" Blood and the sand of the arena, blood of the people of conquered lands, blood of the Caesars who were murdered, blood of the slaves...
Olives - Lethal Cosmetics "Habitat" Olives, what is more roman? Also this green stands for the prosperity of the roman empire.
Bronze Statues - PMGL "Bronze Rose 005" Roman bronze survived in all forms and shapes, the statues still inspire us to image how their life was, the coins show the faces of the Emperors.
Earth - PMG "Nocturne" Fertile Roman earth, farming, grain fields and the hunger for more land. Agriculture was of primary importance to the ancient Romans. They also improved agricultural methods and spread these improvements to Roman settlements in the provinces.
Caesar - Clionadh "Corrosion" Representing the greed and power hunger, but also the multifacetted positives. In the end it's not all gold that sparkles and corrosion from the inside is what ended their reign.
Please bear with me for crappy swatch pictures! I couldn't really capture the sparkle or the shifting of "Corrosion".