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Some major takeaways from the G2 vs T1 series in my opinion, as well as some takeaways based off the rest of the bo5s weve seen:
1) G2 looked SOLID. Some obvious mistakes they made, but I think pretty much all of them are easily fixable within a timely manner (bar maybe Hans not looking great). GREAT showing from them.
2) G2's lane swapping is very refined. Its not forced, they don't do it the entire game, they probably know how to deal with it (unlike BLG or T1). They just do it at the perfect moments and genuinely they looked like the better macro team today (T1's botlane was dizzy in game 5 with those lane swaps). I think vs BLG, there would be a similar story, BLG didnt really know how to deal with the lane swaps against PSG. GenG can probably match it fine, they are great at macro stuff, not sure about TES, but so far, G2 has shown the best lane swapping usage in the tournament imo, and that is HUGE for them because being lane locked vs say Elk/On or JKL/Meiko could prove to be disastrous VERY quickly.
3) Faker still looks like a monster when he's comfortable. But he seemed to REALLY struggle when he wasn't. Kind of worried when he faces off against Chovy or Knight, a team who might pressure him even more midlane (Caps lowkey outlaned Faker though for most of the series, up until the end when faker did his thing).
4) Guma is a rock, and the best player on T1 by far. Unfortunately for G2 they might've lost this series because of an AD diff, Hans didn't do as much as he could have.
5) Zeus is not looking good. Either BB has massively stepped up in his laning phase, or Zeus is slumping. I don't really like his TF fixation, and he got gapped numerous times. He was more of a liability than an asset. Maybe he just isn't playing comfort champs, I think he's just in a slump regardless though.
6) Mikyx got his int out after the first game and looked like a monster this series. His poppy game was incredible. He really showed that a huge chunk of G2's success is off his back. I have such a hard time saying we should ever get rid of him when he is always capable of playing like this. GREAT series from him and he almost upheld his undefeated status vs Faker.
7) BrokenBlade genuinely looks like a top tier toplaner rn. I worry that he maybe looked this good because Zeus is underperforming, and that Bin or Kiin or 369 will actually dumpster him, but from what we've seen so far, BB is just looking incredible. HUGE for G2 that he isn't as much of a liability in lane as he was before.
8) Eastern teams at this tournament are not as strong as we expected based on what we've seen so far. Maybe they're just experimenting (like BLG vs PSG), but maybe they're also just underperforming. T1 looked solid when they weren't getting ran in circles, but they looked like they didn't really know lane swapping super well. GenG looked quite good, but not perfect, Fnatic put up a solid fight against them. BLG looked not amazing, could be 'nerves' or 'experimenting', or maybe not. And TES looked solid.
9) Yike had a stinker BelVeth game but I think he was really solid this series. I think game 5 is partially a draft issue, but he was genuinely head to heading with Oner extremely well. Dude looks like a world class jungler, and his filling Jankos' shoes as much as humanly possible. HUGE series from him. And its awesome to see too because he showed up LAST MSI as well so we might have a jungler kind of like Humanoid who peaks super hard during internationals (less slumping domestically tho).
10) Guma Keria are very neutralized this tournament imo. Its NOT good news for T1 that their ultra-aggressive botlane duo can't steamroll lanes because of the meta. Hell even in game 5 with a double AD draft, G2 managed to weather the storm and outlaned them without even laneswapping. Then once G2 pulled out the lane swaps, T1 was completely dizzy from it and feel for their plan completely. (seems like T1 figured it out a little bit more towards the end of the series though). If teams can take advantage of lane swaps well, there's a winning recipe for beating T1 that even G2 almost exploited to take the series.
11) Oner is solid, thats pretty much it. He shows up as expected for internationals, one of T1s better players this series.
12) Caps had some stinker games, but I think a large chunk of that comes from specific mistakes that snowballed, and he seems to be good enough to fix them quickly. Otherwise, he gapped Faker numerous times AND solokilled him numerous times. REALLY good for G2 that their star player is kind of peaking right now. Hopefully he keeps it up.
After this series, I feel like G2 (if they prepare well and dont get solved like last year at worlds when people figured out how to beat them consistently) can actually take the series against any team BUT maybe GenG (who have the macro skills to counter G2). Today could've genuinely been a 3-0 if they didn't choke game 1. And they could've won game 5 too (4/5 extremely winnable is HUGE for a western team). Really hoping we see more from them because this tournament is already a banger, and them dropping out early would be a tragedy.
I genuinely think Fnatic would've been able to take a game from T1 too. They were extremely scrappy in the first two games of the series and fnatic does really well with playmaking. But maybe they dont lane swap as well and they get stuck dealing with a lost bot matchup. Either way, both EU teams have looked pretty solid so far.
Side note: G2 has world class macro imo. They've obviously made mistakes, but I think every time they make one, they improve from it. You can watch this series from start to finish and SEE how much they improved over the course of it. Game 1 was kind of wild and crazy, and then you dip back into super crisp macro plays like they had in earlier game 5.
Maybe some of this is cope, but I think these are all really reasonable takeaways from this series and the first round of bo5s in general.

This story was originally written July 2023.
You might have heard of me. I was a social media influencer for two years.
I know kids have “influencer” as one of their top professions these days, but for me it was all an accident, really. I uploaded a few YouTube videos back in 2019, in the summer I finished school. All I did was rant about movies. I had a few notes, not a full script, and just spouted off to my laptop camera about inaccurate science, bad casting choices, real nitpicky stuff. In about six months I’d got 200 subscribers.
I was at university then, and I mentioned my videos to some of my uni friends. They subbed and told their friends, and I got up to 1,000 sub by January 2020. My videos were only about ten minutes long, and I had nowhere near the views to monetise. I was making one a week, but not on any sort of schedule. It was just something I did when I was bored.
Then the pandemic hit. A lot of students here in England basically got locked into their halls of residence (that’s dorms for any Americans reading), but I was lucky enough to get back to my parents’ before then. So I was doing what my uni laughably called “remote learning”, which basically meant a couple of video lectures a week, some worksheets, and lots and lots of my own research. I won’t bore you with the topic of my course; it’s not relevant.
I’m not exactly stereotypically pretty. I’ve come to accept that. My hair is stringy, my nose is too big, my face is profoundly asymmetrical, my complexion is strange and acned, my teeth are crooked … You get the idea. You can only do so much with makeup and hair that covers your face. I probably have fewer friends than I would if I looked like other people, and it actually took a lot of courage to make that first video - and even more courage to upload it.
I can only assume that’s the reason I went viral. It certainly wasn’t the high production values, or the tightly-written scripts, or the quality of my research. On the 9th of April I had 1,322 subscribers. On the 10th it was over 8,000. By the end of April it was up to 300,000, and I had actually monetised my channel.
The comments were … well, they were varied. Lots of hate because of my looks, but lots of love from people who just appreciated what I put out there, calling out others for their negative comments. I know many social media stars struggle with unkind comments, but I’d got used to it. Let’s be honest, they weren’t nice, but neither were they untrue. And comments under your video are easier to ignore than comments in the street. I was making decent money after all. If you were one of those commenters, you know which side you were on, and I love you either way. Thanks for the engagement - it’s not easy to gain financially from your unusual appearance!
The trouble with going viral is that it doesn’t last. Competing in the fast-paced world of internet stardom takes a lot of effort. I started experimenting with other things - YouTube shorts, TikTok, Instagram, pretty much anything going. The format that turned out to work best was actually TikTok. I’d bought some skimpy outfits and did ridiculous little dances. I quickly reached over a thousand views per video, and while I wasn’t up to their creator tier, it still worked. A well-known cosmetics company asked to sponsor my videos.
Cosmetics! Me! I guess they were going for woke points or something. I didn’t care, they offered me more money than I knew what to do with, as long as my views stayed high. So I started making 2-minute videos. A dance without make-up, then I applied the make-up - being sure to show the brand name clear and up-close - and then the same dance with make-up. If this is ringing any bells with you, then yes - that was me. And no, stupid - that’s not my real name.
I’d got used to undesired attention of course. Along with the unpleasant comments, I got my fair share of unwelcome male approaches. For a few hours after any upload, about half of my DMs were from men, and some women (or men with female account names), asking to see more of me. I wasn’t a camgirl, though I suppose I wasn’t a million miles away from one; but I could have been. I did seriously consider it a few times, but never actually followed through.
And half of the rest of my DMs, and a good portion of the public comments, were from angry women. What made me think I had the right to show off like that? How could I bring their favourite cosmetics brand into disrepute? But I’ve got pretty thick skin (hey, I can make that joke, you can’t), and mostly laughed the comments off and ignored them.
That was, in hindsight, a mistake.
By September my uni was reopening for in-person teaching. I was working six or seven hours a day just to keep up with everything, and had a couple more brands sponsoring me. Being an influencer isn’t just about filming for ten minutes a day and watching the money come in!
So I was going to tutorials an hour a day, watching video lectures at 2x speed, and ignoring my assignments in favour of making videos and replying to messages. It’s not like my pointless degree was helping with my real job.
Okay fine. It was geology. Rocks and stuff. You happy now? I bet you can’t tell the difference between sylvite and carnallite just by licking it, can you?
Anyway, the point is I came close to being chucked out. Actually I had to repeat the second year. At least I could afford it.
So anyway, I somehow got through to the end of my second year, the end of my second year again, and part way through my third year. I was passing my exams - just - and through several reinventions I had managed to maintain my social influencer role. Last Autumn I was getting some good views, and cash, back on YouTube. I was getting pretty good at make-up (I had an exclusive deal with one company on TikTok, and another deal with a different cosmetics company on YouTube). The videos that did well then were me with experimental hairstyles and not much in the way of clothes, putting on makeup for a few minutes, then reading out-of-copyright fiction in my patented “YouTube voice”. If you can imagine a cross between Shania Twain and Marge Simpson then… well, then you’re weird, but you’ve pretty much got it.
Then, last December, a week or so before the Christmas holidays, I went out with my friends. I had made a decent number, both girls and guys, by then. I could never quite tell whether it was my personality (which I assure you is fantastic), my influencer status, or the cash I was liberal with (it always seemed to be my round, and I didn’t mind). There were even a couple of boys who were keen on me, though I hadn’t done anything about it yet. Eight of us went out together to celebrate a birthday. It wasn’t actually anybody’s birthday that day, but Shireen had a Christmas Day birthday, and she wanted a proper party.
Now I look quite different in real life than I do online. I think the technical term is “frumpy” - jeans, trainers, fluffy jumper and a hat, or maybe a hoodie. The birthday girl had somehow convinced me to put a bit more effort in, and had helped me pick out some heels and a knee-length silver dress. Make-up was easy for me of course, and so I got dressed up and off we went to the Black Swan.
The Black Swan has several great qualities about it. One: it’s cheap. Two: it does good food. Three: it’s a couple of hundred metres from The Bar. We had a decent meal, a few drinks, and around 9 we walked to The Bar.
To be more precise, they walked. I wobbled. If you’ve watched my videos you might have seen me in heels, but did you ever see me walk in them? Didn’t think so.
The Bar is open til 3 in the morning. It looks respectable enough from the outside, especially in the afternoon; but after about 11, when most pubs close, it fills up with students drinking expensive-looking drinks. And almost every night, somebody jumps up onto a table, and then everybody’s up there dancing. In The Bar, either you hold your drink tightly, or you lose it.
I’d done this before, and I can handle my alcohol. I’ve stayed at The Bar till chuckout more than a few times, and I’ve been wobbly on the way home, but I’ve never thrown up or passed out. And so I was surprised when I woke up. The last thing I remembered was Stu saying he was tired, and Shireen replying that it wasn’t even midnight yet. Now I was lying on the hard wooden floor of my living room.
My head pounded. Daylight streamed through the window, and I blinked a few times and rubbed my eyes. My hands were wet and sticky.
I looked at them. They were covered in blood.
I looked down. My heels were across the room, but I was still wearing my dress. It, also, was covered in blood, a huge stain across the chest.
Panic set in. What happened to me last night? I checked myself out and could find no injuries. Where did the blood come from?
Standing up, I realised it was worse than that. Red pools stained the wooden floor. I don’t know much medicine, but if somebody had lost this much blood, I couldn’t see how they could have survived.
I stood up, unsure whether my shaking was from the shock or the alcohol. This was when I saw a shirt on the floor behind me. White, with a subtle pattern. I’m sure I don’t need to tell you that it wasn’t my shirt. I lived alone, and rarely invited people back to my flat. I looked around some more. A pair of men’s black leather shoes by the door. And then I saw it.
I suppose, rather, I should say him. He was naked except for a pair of dark blue jeans, slumped in the open doorway to the kitchen, covered in blood, and very, very, dead.
I panicked then. I’m calmer now, so let’s take a moment to describe my conclusions that morning. I had got very drunk. I had met a guy. We’d come back to my flat. We’d been getting naked (the shoes and shirt weren’t bloodied). Then, for some reason, we’d had an argument or a fight. The body had stab wounds in the chest, and a pool of blood had congealed onto the wooden floor of the living room and the linoleum of the kitchen where the man collapsed. How did those stab wounds get there? I didn’t know for sure, but a quick glance at my kitchen counter showed that my sharp carving knife was missing. It was all coming together. I didn’t know if he had picked up the knife, or if I had; I didn’t know why either of us would do that. I didn’t even know his name, and later when I checked his pockets, I couldn’t find any ID.
There was a lot I didn’t know. But I’m smart. So once I was done crying on the floor (I think it was about two hours), I came up with a plan. This man was dead, and I couldn’t do anything about that. But what would the consequences be? There’s no need for my life to be ruined as well. I decided not to call the police. People go missing mysteriously all the time, he can just be another statistic and I’ll get on with my life.
The blood on Dave was mostly dry by now. (Sure, I didn’t know his name, but every bloke’s called Dave, right?) So I put a badly-fitting vest on him to soak up the remaining blood, and his shirt over the top, along with his shoes. His jeans were bloody, but they were dark, so hopefully it wouldn’t show up in low light. I couldn’t find his coat, which was odd given how cold it was, but this would have to do. I put my dress and heels in a plastic bag, and grabbed a spade that I never used. Had I missed anything?
The knife. The fucking knife. I searched all over for it, but by the time it got dark I still hadn’t found it. I knew I couldn’t delay for long, so I figured it was best to deal with Dave now, and find the knife later.
Eight o’clock in the evening came. I’m lucky I have parking right outside my house, no street cameras, and a ground-floor flat. I put the bag in the boot of my car and came back for the body.
Have you ever tried to move a dead person? It’s not easy, and I’m not exactly strong. I put my arm around his waist and eventually managed to heave him almost upright. “Come on Dave, that’s it. We’re gonna get you home. Maybe calm down on the tequila next time right? Try to keep it in, and don’t you dare vomit in my car, you sexy bastard.”
Oh come on, what do you want from me? I’m an influencer, not a stand-up comedian. And anyway, I don’t think anybody saw me during the several minutes it took to drag Dave to the passenger seat. I really wish I’d got round to buying a bigger car than the Fiat Punto I’d had since I was 18, but it was too late for that now.
There’s a place about an hour’s drive from me called Epping Forest. The Heritage Trust reckon it’s most famous for its huge tracts of unspoiled wildlife, thousands of trees, and Iron Age settlements. But around here it’s best known as the place where murderers and gang members bury bodies. So off I trundled in my 1.2 litre pensioner-mobile. I arrived around 9:30, checked Google Maps, and drove offroad into the woods.
Do you know how long it takes to dig a grave? The answer is: a long time! By dawn I’d only managed a hole about two feet. Oh, and it was my third try, because the first two times I found too much rock. Well, it would have to do. In went Dave, and I shovelled the ground back over him. I thought I could put my clothes in with him, but it was a shallow grave, and when the inevitable dog-walker finds it I didn’t want them linked back to me. I mean, there’s my DNA in there for sure, but let’s not make it too easy for them, right? So I chucked the spade in a river, and the clothes went back home with me, including the vest I’d lent him.
Now in England we have a thing called ANPR everywhere. The police can just type in a car registration and see exactly where it’s been from traffic cameras. I needed an alibi. Why had I gone to Epping Forest? For a hike of course! So I walked around for a few hours, got breakfast at a pub, and told the staff about all the wacky adventures I’d had that night. And while I was there, for the first time in a good long time, I checked my phone.
Hundreds of messages, of course. But only one sent a shiver down my spine.
Jolly_Gal_56234
I KNOW WHAT YOU DID
My heart thumped. My ears started ringing. I felt dizzy, nearly passed out. How could anybody know?
Of course nobody knew. I actually got messages like this fairly often. Just some idiot trying to wind people up. They’d probably sent a dozen messages just like it, to random people, and I just blocked her. Still it rattled me. I finished my breakfast, paid up, walked back to my car, and drove home.
My flat was just as I left it. Dave was gone, but his blood was still there. I scrubbed the floor for hours, and it helped a bit, but you could still see the stains. Exhausted, I showered and went to bed.
The next morning I woke up. I hadn’t posted anything for a day and a half, so I needed to do something about that. Scrolling through my messages, one stood out like a police light.
Jolly_Gal_28473
YOU’VE BEEN A BAD GIRL 🔪
Shit. SHIT! What the fuck is going on? I stared at my phone, paralysed with indecision. When I finally snapped out of it I made sure the door was locked, and tried to come up with a plan.
I had no idea who was sending these. Maybe they didn’t really know anything. You send stupid messages like that to hundreds of people, you’re gonna come across one who’s actually done something bad, right? I poured myself a big glass of gin, decided that nobody could know anything, and made a video.
Remember that one where I didn’t speak at all, just danced for three minutes dressed like 90s Britney to 70s disco music, titled “HANGOVER DANCE”? Yeah, that’s the one. I didn’t trust myself to speak without breaking, but I could dance about as well as I ever could.
The rest of the day I answered messages, emailed my sponsors, and considered getting an agent. It’s still just me doing everything, and that Sunday afternoon, I really didn’t want to. I also spent a few hours scrubbing the wooden floor with baking soda and vinegar, and looking for the knife.
I kept getting messages from Jolly_Gal. It didn’t matter how much I blocked her, she just popped up again the next day with different numbers at the end of her username. Always all-caps, just a single sentence.
YOU DON’T DESERVE IT
YOU’LL GET WHAT’S COMING TO YOU
OWN UP
DELETE YOUR ACCOUNT
Exactly one message a day, but always at different times. I decided it was a bot, and it was just coincidence that it started when it did. Until Christmas Day.
I’d been back at my parents’ for a few days, and endured the usual conversations about what I was going to do for a “proper job” after uni. They’re great, and really supportive. They’ve just never understood what an “influencer” really is, and that “playing on my phone” for six hours a day counts as work. My brother Rich gets it, but the rest of my family is honestly baffled.
Anyway, Christmas morning comes. All four of us were in the house together (my brother’s 17 so he still lives there), and we gathered together in the living room opening presents. It was a couple of weeks since the incident, and I still had nightmares every night, and those sudden panic attacks - you know, when you’re sure you’re going to be found out - but I was getting used to it. It had happened, I couldn’t change it, and I’d have to keep it secret for the rest of my life; but it was becoming a sort of background hum. I don’t know if that’s too quick, but I suppose I’ve learned to handle difficulty in my life.
Until we finished opening presents and I checked my phone.
Jolly_Gal_814385
HAPPY CHRISTMAS
And underneath, a photo of my kitchen knife, stained with blood.
I ran out of the house in tears.
Rich found me, sitting on the wooden bridge down the road from the house, my legs dangling over the river. I came here a lot when I was a teenager, so it was the first place he looked. I’d left my phone on the living room floor, and the three of them had seen the message, so he knew what triggered me. He just didn’t know the full story.
Well, I told him. I mean, not everything, obviously. But I told him how this person had been harassing me for weeks. He listened sympathetically, like he’s always done, and asked if there was anything he could do to help. I didn’t say anything; I just turned around, hugged him, and cried into his Christmas sweater.
After about half an hour we went back to the house. Rich explained things to my parents, thank goodness. I don’t think I could have handled it.
The rest of the holiday was … okay, I guess. More messages from Jolly_Gal, but only text. I made videos most days, and met all two of my old schoolfriends for drinks, movies and shopping. They’re big fans of my channels. I even took Rich out for drinks one evening, though it took us four pubs to find somewhere that wouldn’t ID him. He’s a bit of a babyface.
I did all I could not to think about Dave. I put him to the back of my mind, letting him live in the shed at the bottom of the garden of my psyche where he couldn’t disturb me. I guess that’s why it came as a shock to me, when I packed my stuff into the boot of my car to head back to uni.
There was one suitcase I’d packed but hadn’t got round to taking into the house. And peeking around the edge was that plastic bag. I’d forgotten to get rid of it!
Dad was helping me load the car, so I couldn’t do anything about it. I tucked it out of sight, finished loading up, said goodbye, and drove back to uni. It was dark when I got back, so I unpacked everything else, triple-bagged my bloody clothes, left my phone at home (no tracking me!), and walked two miles to drop them into somebody else’s wheelie bin.
The next morning I checked my messages.
Jolly_Gal_12592
WELCOME HOME
And a photo of me dumping the bag the night before.
You know what? This didn’t bother me. I mean, it did bother me, but not as much as I guess Jolly_Gal hoped. I’ve been bullied and harassed most of my life, and I’ve got pretty good at ignoring it. Sure, it was an escalation - she was actually following me - but it was just one of almost thirty messages. Jolly_Gal was hoping to destroy me. Instead, she hardened my resolve.
Clearly she had enough evidence to go to the police, but she hadn’t. And obviously she lived nearby. Now I’m no hacker, but you don’t do a job like mine without learning your way around technology. So I started sleuthing. I hadn’t bothered blocking her after the third or fourth message, so I made a list of all the messages, including timecodes. I’ve got a geology degree (almost), and we have techniques to analyse rock strata. Finally I had a genuine use for all that studying I sort of did!
Jolly_Gal was not as clever as she thought. She’d got sloppy. About half of her messages were sent at strange hours, on the hour. These were presumably posted by her bot. But the other messages were all sent between 7 and 8 am, or between 6 and 10 pm. So I guessed that she has a normal 9-5 day job, or maybe she’s a student.
Next I searched all the social media sites I could think of for Jolly_Gal or JollyGal usernames. There are a few, so please don’t go harassing people with that username! I don’t want innocent people to get hurt. After a few hours I had profiles of all Jolly_Gals. Pictures, locations, partial travel history, even birthdays for some of them. I discounted those who clearly weren’t in England, but I still had too many to narrow it down. The photos had no EXIF data so I couldn’t tell the type of phone or camera they used.
So my days became something like this: Five hours doing uni stuff, five hours working on my socials, and an hour or two learning digital sleuthing. I still went out with my friends sometimes, but made sure not to drink too much. I know how to have a good time without being drunk!
The breakthrough came by total chance. I rarely read the local papers, and just got lucky one afternoon in March. I was waiting for a friend in the pub after lectures, and there was a copy of the Post somebody had left on a table. So I flicked through it. The local council was rubbish at doing traffic. Some group of OAPS was organising a May Day celebration. And a woman had been convicted of body-snatching.
I recognised her! There was a photo of a woman in her early twenties. She’d been arrested when a corpse went missing back in December, and they’d seen her take it on the morgue’s CCTV. She’d been released on bail. “Prevention of the lawful and decent burial of a dead body” is a rare crime these days, so she hadn’t been sentenced yet; instead she was released until her sentencing, expected to be in August. Her name was Jenny Smith, which is so common as to be almost useless - that is, if you don’t have a profile of her on your laptop at home!
The report also gave her address. So I started hatching a plan. I texted my friend that I wouldn’t make it, and went home.
Jolly_Gal, or rather, Jenny, lived near me, and actually went to the same university. She had accounts on Instagram, TikTok, YouTube, Twitter, and a few others. Of course you can’t get Jolly_Gal by itself these days, but my profile gave all her precise usernames. I spent my evening watching her videos and reading her tweets. And then I found the smoking gun.
Jenny had posted a video on TikTok last June bitching about me. She’s way prettier than me, and yet I’d got all the subs and follows. She deserved all those sponsorship deals. It wasn’t fair that I had hundreds of thousands of subs and she only had a few thousand. She even said I was ugly and deserved to die.
Well, she got one out of two right, I guess. You can decide which one.
It all started to slot into place. Jenny was absurdly jealous of me, so she’d hatched a plan to destroy me. She must have roofied me in The Bar, got me and Dave back to my place, stabbed him, poured blood everywhere, and taken the knife home. I mean, I don’t know anything about forensic science, and I was drugged and panicked when I woke up that morning. I’d have no way of knowing that Dave had died days before he ended up in my flat!
I’d never managed to get all the blood out of the wooden flooring, and ended up putting a really misplaced rug over it. I chiselled off a sample and gave it to one of my friends who was doing a PhD in biology. It took a bit of persuading, but he ran an analysis on it.
It was pig’s blood.
Fuck Jenny. She’s not Jenny, or Jolly_Gal, she’s fucking Carrie!
She planned to destroy me. She ruined my mental health, she framed me for murder. All because I was more popular on TikTok than she was. Well, two can play at that game. I didn’t deserve what Jenny did to me. She did.
I thought about this all night, coming up with plan after plan, weighing them in my head. I wanted two things: to destroy Jenny, and to feel good about it for myself. Finally I had a course of action I’m actually rather proud of.
I decided to start slow. I did something anybody could have done - I mocked up a poster. At the top was “Jenny Smith - body snatcher!”. Underneath were two pictures, her Insta profile pic and the courthouse photo from the paper, and between them: “From This … To This!” And all her various social media handles to top it off. I printed hundreds of these, and pinned them all around the university and her street.
I’ve never thought of myself as an unkind person - God knows I’ve suffered enough myself to be sympathetic to others. But I’m willing to admit I felt a lot of satisfaction seeing her comments fill up with accusations and links to the online article. Jenny carried on making videos, but I could tell she was suffering. Good!
That was stage one. I had to up the ante for stage two. Jenny had covered me and my flat with pig’s blood, so I think we all know what’s coming next.
I pondered for a long time whether I should do it in the day or the night. But you know what they say - go big or go home. I scoped out her house for a while, and found out that she leaves her kitchen window, at the back of the house, open. Now I’m not the most athletic girl in the world, but I can be pretty determined when I want to be. So one night around 2 am I walked to her house - it’s only about half a mile - and climbed through the window.
I almost gave myself a heart attack when I knocked a glass over on the kitchen sink! Luckily it didn’t smash. I hid in a corner and waited for a full half hour before I decided Jenny hadn’t heard me. Then I snuck upstairs, slow as anything, and crept into her room.
Actually, the first room wasn’t hers. She shared with a couple of other students. Thank fuck I checked first! The second room was the right one. She was asleep, alone, in a double bed. I was so quiet that the only thing I could hear was my heart pounding in my chest as I opened my canvas bag, gently deposited its contents onto the pillow next to her, and took a photo. It didn’t come out that well - I couldn’t use the flash - but hey, I have a souvenir!
I really wish I’d seen her face when she woke up the next morning, staring at a pig’s head. She didn’t post on her socials for a week after that, and for two days she even forgot to send me a threatening message.
I’m sorry? You think I’m done? Oh, my sweet summer child. I’ve barely begun.
Jenny had a boyfriend, Abdul. I made sure he wasn’t around when I broke in, but stage three involved him in a big way.
Abdul was also at our university, a year younger than me, a year older than Jenny. He wasn’t very active on social media, but he did tend to broadcast his activity on Twitter. And what do you know? He’s also a fan of The Bar. So I spent the next month planning my move. I bought a new clubbing dress and heels - hey, I kinda missed that outfit! - and asked around for the other thing I needed. Some things you can’t just buy in Next, or a local butcher’s, but eventually I managed it.
I got my chance one Friday in May. Abdul had loudly announced on Twitter that he was excited for his boys’ night out in The Bar, and Jenny had been gushing about a girls’ night on the whole other side of town. Perfect. I spent hours on my makeup, and got to The Bar around ten. Abdul and his mates were having a drinking contest, and leching up at the girls dancing on the tables.
I figured I had a good long while before he would be ready, so I had a couple of drinks - not too much, but like I said I can handle myself, and I knew Jenny wasn’t around - and got up on the tables myself for a bit. Then about midnight Abdul’s friend got another round in, while Abdul was in the loo. This was my chance. I walked up to their table - which had no dancing feet on it, but a heck of a lot of spilled beer - and started talking to them, saying I thought their friend was hot.
“Uh, what the fuck?” “Not a chance in hell.” “Get lost, freak!”
Lovely chaps. But they were too far gone to notice me dropping something into Abdul’s double-whiskey-and-coke. For all I know, it’s the exact same thing Jenny used on me all those months ago.
Abdul came back and downed his whiskey in one gulp. I was worried he was going to vomit it up, but he held it in and blamed his difficulty on the coke fizz. Yeah mate, sure, sure.
Not too long after, he started to fade. His friends were really taking the piss out of him for being such a lightweight. Well, when I came over, the pisstaking just got worse. I introduced myself (with a fake name, duh) and told him he was hot. Believe it or not, it was only about twenty seconds before he put his tongue down my throat. Wow, I’m not sure I even needed to bother with the roofie!
His friends, who had been so intent on being mean to me, now turned their attention to him. I suggested we ditch them and go back to his place (I’d checked, it was only five minutes’ walk sober) - and off we went.
That was the first time I had sex. I’m sure I don’t need to go into details, but we did a lot of stuff, and I enjoyed it. I’m not sure if that’s because it was good, or because he was good, or because I knew what it was all for. I was impressed that he managed to keep going as long as he did in his state, but I do feel a bit sorry for him; from his Twitter he seems like a decent guy.
When he finally fell asleep I left. I’d got what I came for - pictures. And the next day I made a new account and sent a DM to Jenny.
At first I blurred my face, or chose shots that didn’t include it. A bit of editing and I could have been anybody. I watched their messy breakup on Twitter, Jenny hurling accusations, Abdul protesting his innocence. I know this is the age of social media, but I never understood why people play these things out in public.
And then, after posting a picture a day for a few weeks (I’d taken a lot of pictures), I sent one that showed my face clearly.
Jenny had managed to restrain herself from replying before, but now she knew who I was. She was furious! The very idea that her boyfriend had cheated on her with ME, of all people, was unbelievable. And this was exactly the outcome I’d been going for.
Jolly_Gal was broken. She’d ruined her reputation. She’d lost her boyfriend. She had nightmares about pigs (okay, so I don’t know that for certain, but in my imagination she woke up screaming every night). She was possibly going to prison. And now she knew that not only was I more successful than her as an influencer, but I was the one to steal her lover. She still sent messages, at first angry, but they soon degenerated into pleading. “Please stop.” “I’m sorry.” “We can work this out.” Jolly_Gal without CAPS LOCK, it was glorious to see.
In fact it was almost perfect. Three stages of my plan were complete, and only one remained. Jenny’s sentencing was in three weeks, so I had to move quickly.
She had two flatmates, so I needed to work around them. They weren’t particularly active on Twitter, but Jenny was. I knew from her tweets that while her flatmates had gone home, she was staying on a couple of weeks after the end of term. She didn’t say why publicly, but it was for her trial. No flatmates, no boyfriend. Now was the time.
And that brings us up to date. I’ve typed this up over the last few days, and saved as a draft. The final chapter, hopefully, comes tonight.
*******
I’m at Jenny’s house, and I’ve just called the police.
I turned up at Jenny’s door just after seven. Luck was with me - she’d tweeted that she was expecting a Deliveroo takeout. And I got there first.
The idiot actually kept the knife. I’d seen it when I was in her room. When she answered the doorbell, expecting food, and saw me - ah, the look on her face was priceless.
“I’m so sorry! Please, let’s just talk. I didn’t mean it to get this -”
I stalked towards her, anger in my face. Jenny fled upstairs. Perfect! She went into her room and shut the door, but I was like the furies of Greek legend. I smashed the door in, and looked on as Jenny cowered on her bed.
In full daylight, I saw the knife took pride of place in what looked like a shrine. She had photos of me printed out, and she’d written on them “BITCH”, “WHORE”, “FREAK” and all sorts of other hateful words.
Jenny had tried to make me into a murderer, so I gave her what she wanted. I grabbed the knife and stood over her. The coward shrank into the bed, begging for forgiveness, pleading for her life. Unfortunately for her I was not inclined to oblige. I plunged the knife into her chest, just as she had done to Dave all those many months ago. Jenny whimpered like a whipped dog, and after the ninth stab (yes, I counted), she stopped.
The police are on their way. I’m definitely going to jail after this. But Jenny got what was coming to her. We could both have lived happily, but Jenny chose otherwise.
And me? I passed my degree. I have friends. And jail or not, I have a life.
Burn in hell, Jolly_Gal.

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2	Serbia	TEYA DORA	"RAMONDA"
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(*)	United Kingdom	Olly Alexander	"Dizzy"
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Sorry about the long post. I just really needed to get some of this off of my chest and ask for advice with all the info I feel is relevant. I’m also not sure this is the right place for this but when I google my situation this subreddit comes up the most.
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My mom is a constantly negative person who complains about the same few problems every time I meet with her.
I’ve tried giving kind/non-critical advice, just listening and being empathetic, giving my honest, direct opinion, and even grey-rocked once on accident which did not go well. In high school I tried telling her about habits of hers that hurt my feelings and she ignored me so I stopped trying to communicate honestly. The method I landed on is just agreeing with her and saying “That sucks!” A lot.
For years, every time I meet with her I hear repeatedly about fights with her sister, her mom, and my sisters.
I hear about her depression, medication-changes, boredom, and lack of friends and hobbies the most often. As someone who cyclically battles depression, anxiety, lack of motivation and lack of self-esteem, I have a hard time trying to fill both my cup and hers.
Recently, she mentioned that she is avoiding her only friend because that friend doesn’t understand depression. That gave me a lot of anxiety as it felt like I would have to take the place as her only friend.
She used to repeatedly tell me how she wants to divorce my dad and that he’s not a fulfilling partner but that got to his side of the family and ended in backlash so now she doesn’t mention it anymore.
And she always tells me all of this in this voice that grates on my nerves. She just suddenly switches into a forlorn whispery woe-is-me voice that puts me on edge.
Anytime I meet with her it’s a chore and I feel like the energy is sucked out of me. I spend the entirety of my time with her being fake and acting as her therapist as she gets her feelings hurt easily and being real with her is not worth the argument. She doesn’t show much interest in me as a person and doesn’t have much empathy for me or others. She is also flaky and regularly selfish. When she talks with me I feel like I could be replaced with an AI bot and she wouldn’t notice.
I’ve tried my best to keep her and my dad (for similar reasons) at arms length. My limit seems to be meeting about once or twice a month. Sometimes every 2-3 months if my depression is bad. I’ve struggled a lot with the fact that I love my parents but I do not like them and have tried to fix this by just being less available. It’s taken a lot of time for me to even admit to myself that I don’t enjoy my parents’ company and if they weren’t my parents, I would not have a relationship with them. And even though I can admit this now, it still makes me feel extremely guilty and selfish. And it would break their hearts if they knew.
I’ve also explained to my mom as a partial excuse/definite truth that I am extremely introverted and am happy spending most of my time alone/with my husband. I do have plenty of close friends who are understanding of that and have their own lives anyway. I hang out with my friends once every month or 2 and meet acquaintances bi-weekly for DnD. My husband and I go out and travel regularly and I have no issue socializing with his family and friends on occasion.
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The reason I’m making this post is to get advice on a recent situation with her.
She gets passive aggressive quickly if I don’t respond to messages or calls within a few hours, even though she knows I have sleep issues and I’m not always on my phone. She takes me not answering fast enough as rejection and lashes out. It’s happened multiple times before.
Recently, I found out I’m pregnant and I’ve been having issues with nausea, headaches, shortness of breath, extreme tiredness, etc. I told her all of this but didn’t get a response.
I cancelled a plan we had 2 weeks ago as I was feeling nauseous and dizzy and told her so. The next week she asked to meet on Saturday and I asked if we could do Sunday instead because I had plans. She said she wasn’t sure because her and my dad might have plans. Then Saturday afternoon she messaged me asking again to meet up and I said no as I’d done a lot and was busy that day, like I’d told her before. I asked again “What about Sunday?” And she said she couldn’t do Sunday because her and my dad were watching a movie at home.
Then, this past Friday she texted me asking if I wanted to go shopping with her. I called her back to say yes and tell her about something else new but she didn’t answer. I even messaged my friend that I couldn’t hang out because I was waiting on my mom to respond. I admit I should have also texted but it didn’t cross my mind as I’d called and was waiting for her to call back.
Then I get a text from her a few hours later saying “Nevermind about the shopping!! It was for myself anyway! No need to answer!”
And I replied “I called you and you didn’t call me back”
To which she responded “My bad.”
I ended up getting so uncontrollably angry but held it in and sent her a pretty reasonable message saying in summary that I’m tired of her being passive aggressive and assuming the worst in me and that I don’t need the stress during pregnancy.
She responded by saying my pregnancy isn’t special, that I’m a recluse who never leaves the house, and that she’s tried to have a relationship with me and it’s impossible.
I did get mean after that and I’m not proud of some of the things I said. I told her “fuck you” and that if she didn’t want a relationship that works perfectly for me.
I never yell at them, I mask and sometimes try to set clear boundaries. I snap at my dad a lot but rarely ever at my mom. I take them to the airport and to doctor’s visits if needed. I spend hours with them when I do visit. I listen to all of their problems over and over again and I’m STILL the bad guy.
I apologized before sleeping because I don’t like to leave harsh words to sit overnight. She also round-about apologized but it was mostly a wall of text giving excuses as to why she was angry - things unrelated to me - and that she should have brought it up at a better time. She also texted a paragraph about how us daughters are responsible for my dad being depressed because we don’t call him enough. I talked to him for 40 minutes 3 days before. He is miserable to talk to. Anyway, it didn’t feel like a real apology to me and I wasn’t sure how to respond so I just heart reacted it.
For the past 2 days I haven’t been able to sleep all night as my mind is racing and my usual coping techniques aren’t working. I’m having panic attacks and breaking out in hives. My brain is working so hard to find a solution that will cause the least stress and it will not stop. I feel cornered and trapped and my mind keeps going back to a time when I was a kid trying to talk to her and she told me she wasn’t my friend and to find something else to do. I wish I could say that to her. If I could make a decision with no fallout or hurt feelings I would just stop talking to them both. The constant anxiety is also making me nervous for my pregnancy and since getting in an argument with her, I’ve felt my excitement for my pregnancy completely disappear and now I think multiple times a day about how I wish I wasn’t pregnant so I could (TW) exit life. I’m also afraid that when my child grows up I’ll be just like her with them and I’d rather avoid that. (Although I’m normally good at keeping my outward complaining to a minimum) Inwardly, though, I feel like I’m already poisoning them with negativity before they’re even bigger than a pea.
My husband has reassured me that my feelings are valid and he notices the same things I do. He makes me feel a little less crazy.
But I still feel like a bad person and like I’m overreacting/too sensitive and I can’t figure out what to do about the situation. I’m currently trying to find a new therapist but the process is a little overwhelming and I can’t stop looping through these thoughts for hours at night so I thought I’d vent and ask for advice here.
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TLDR: My mom is negative, reactive, and passive aggressive but wants a close relationship and I don’t. I’m having anxiety about it and not sure what to do to resolve the situation.

Thought of some potential changes for the agents, nothing too broken but just some general ideas.
1) Let Killjoy turn her turret similar to sages wall now that it has the angle thing going on.
2) Let clove activate their revive whilst looking at the big map
3) Let Viper see where her poison orb will land on the map rather than only doing this in customs
4) Fix Wingmans collision detection so he doesnt sometimes clip a pixel of his arm and end up turning. (I could be wrong about this but sometimes the pathing shows past an angle but cutting it close might cause a turn)
5) Turn off sound for Deadlocks sound sensor, just make it a visual only for the enemy (could be broken but deadlock needs SOMETHING)
6) Make deadlocks ultimate grab a larger area / grab sooner
7) Jetts smoke goes to 3 sec (double smoke defuse)
8) Sage heal back to 100 health self heal (or maybe like 50-75 just make it worth for Sage since shes down bad in the current meta of sentinels)
9) Cypher wires can be seen (or heard, pick one but not both) by enemies sooner OR Cages are just open top smokes with no sound. Just nerf the wire > pinged > cage > spam meta. Or force him to be more active in holding his utility similar to KJ.
10) Chamber can have his second trip back....maybe....reduce its field of view maybe? Or possibly the distance he has to be for it to stay active. Just allow my mans back into the sentinel conversation without being like he was when meta.
11) Make Neons ult do significantly less body damage, keep the head the same. (This ult is basically gg go next round in lower elos, not so much at high. Make the skill gap here more drastic so neons with good movement will still get those crazy kills but make it more manageable for people to kill hetrack her)
12) Gekko's util to detect enemies faster in scramble/panic situations. Not so much as a panic option more so if someone is close right after wingman or dizzy comes out that it will activate a lot sooner.
13) KJ turret / alarm bot activate sooner after placement
14) Reyna eye tanks more damage / get another eye every 2-3 kills. (Already a demon in ranked, more for pro-play to maybe give more of a reason to use her)
15) Iso wall becomes as wide as harbor wall + stop when we want it to (moving astra wall)
16) Let us have Gun skin / spray layouts or profiles for every agent similar to how we have it for controls. (Lowkey would boost skin sales because some people like to color coordimate so they will buy skins FOR certain agents)
17) Skye flashes the same but now you can get another for every 2 kills (force her to fight)
18) Give Phoenix another hot hands so he can molly another area or heal himself some more. (More self sustain / helps the team more)
19) Only keep the VCT map pool in Competitive/Premier. Let people play and learn the other maps in all other gamemodes (we do not need to be babied, people are smart, more maps = more variety, less bored seeing the same 7)
20) A replay system :)
I dont necessarily WANT all of these, just putting it out there. Curious what people want thats reasonable / wouldn't be that crazy of an ask. Im biased because I play KJ lol.

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Phish, Saturday 04/15/2023 (1 year ago) Climate Pledge Arena, Seattle, WA, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 2023 Spring Tour
Set 1 : Axilla (Part II) > The Moma Dance , Wolfman's Brother ¹ -> Izabella , Leaves , Reba , Chalk Dust Torture
Set 2 : Free > Ruby Waves > Prince Caspian > Piper > When the Circus Comes , Tube > Wading in the Velvet Sea > Harry Hood
Encore : Train Song , Brian and Robert , Say It To Me S.A.N.T.O.S.
1 Unfinished.
Jamchart Notes:
Wolfman's Brother - Trey leads this one off the beaten path with a squiggly guitar tone, and as the jam continues down the rabbit hole, it reveals a dizzyingly beautiful dimension of sonic pleasures. This holds sway until a sea change around 11:00 brings a heavier, more industrial sound, setting the table for a welcome -> "Izabella" in this fantastic first-set pairing.
Reba - Really unique. One must (arguably) go back to the early days to find not a better version, but such markedly different improvisation. Near the 7:50 mark Mike drives the band towards direct, "compact" play...Trey, onboard, works through a series of licks - which he, himself, rhythmically offsets - while Fish and Page add pretty remarkable accents. True to such magnetic play, Trey wastes no time dialing in his shreddy, on-point peak; Fish, in step, quickly toms play to a close (his inspired drumming running through the "Bag it, Tag it," section).
Chalk Dust Torture - Fairly quick departure after the lyrics, led at first by Page's organ and then Trey showing off his tone. The jam picks up momentum and deconstructs, becoming more percussive as Mike and Fish step forward. The bass effects propel the improvisation to a darker more aggressive space that churns temporarily before Trey's lead melodies reappear and take the band over the set closing peak.
Tube - Showing up in the second set for only the second time since 2010, this "Tube" is a late-in-the-show surprise. Nimble playing from Trey highlights while Fish controls the tempo like the master he is. Things get whipped into a frenzy before eventually navigating back into the "Tube" riff to wrap things up. > "Wading in the Velvet Sea".
Show Notes:
Wolfman's Brother was unfinished. After Izabella, Trey said they had to play one by a local musician, Jimi Hendrix.
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Phish, Thursday 04/15/2004 (20 years ago) Thomas& Mack Center, Las Vegas, NV, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 2004 Vegas Run
Set 1 : Buried Alive > AC/DC Bag , Limb By Limb , The Moma Dance , The Old Home Place , Roggae , Water in the Sky , All of These Dreams , Stash -> Timber (Jerry the Mule)
Set 2 : 46 Days > Drowned -> Also Sprach Zarathustra > Down with Disease ¹ > Free > Scent of a Mule , Girls Girls Girls ² -> Scent of a Mule , Secret Smile , Crowd Control > Slave to the Traffic Light
Encore : Sneakin' Sally Through the Alley ³
1 Unfinished. 2 Phish debut; Jennifer Hartswick on vocals. 3 Vocal jam included rap about Fish's sonic dress.
Jamchart Notes:
The Moma Dance - Sloppy intro, but the first jam segment (1:55-4:25) is excellent. The main jam absolutely erupts and burns as hotly as "Moma" ever has.
Roggae - The jam starts off in very fine fashion, with a cool and different groove, but then veers increasingly toward chaotic dissonance. This darker sentiment is underscored by Page who shifts his harmonic underpinnings to minor mode.
Down with Disease - Shaking off a rough start to this version, Trey leads the band into the jam which begins intensely with great thrumming Mike and growling, distorted guitar effects. The intensity gradually diminishes, resulting in more quiet play which retains an ominous sense of melancholy.
Show Notes:
Dave Matthews Band lighting director Fenton Williams manned the board at all three dates on this Vegas run. This show marked Chris Kuroda's first absence from the light crew since April 2, 1989 (1,179 shows). Disease was unfinished. Jennifer Hartswick assisted on vocals during Girls, a Jay-Z cover that made its Phish debut. Secret Smile featured a new arrangement. This was the first Sneakin' Sally to contain a vocal jam since May 28, 1989 (1,150 shows). The vocal jam led into a brief quote of Coconut. Trey then asked Fish if he was wearing his "new suit," referring to his sonic dress. After Fish answered "no," Trey went on to rap about how people would have to attend the following night to see Fish play it. The rap slid into a bit of free-form vocal jamming to close the show.
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Phish, Friday 04/15/1994 (30 years ago) Beacon Theatre, New York, NY, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1994 Spring Tour
Set 1 : Llama , Guelah Papyrus , Paul and Silas > Harry Hood , Wilson > Chalk Dust Torture , Bouncing Around the Room , It's Ice > Down with Disease
Set 2 : Maze , If I Could , The Oh Kee Pa Ceremony > Suzy Greenberg ¹ > The Landlady ¹ , Julius ¹ , Wolfman's Brother ¹ -> Alumni Blues ² > I Wan'na Be Like You ¹ > Hold Your Head Up ¹ , Cavern ¹
Encore : Magilla ¹ , Amazing Grace
1 Giant Country Horns. 2 Giant Country Horns. Incomplete - only one verse performed.
Jamchart Notes:
Wilson - First version to have the audience chanting, AUD version also has enthusiastic claps. The band delivers a bombastic performance, surely energized by this new avenue of audience participation.
Chalk Dust Torture - > from a jam-charted "Wilson." Perhaps still riding the energy of the first-ever audience participation in "Wilson," the band delivers another fiery "CDT." The jam starts with a bit of stop/start action. Page gives the organ a workout before Trey comes barreling in to take over with nifty play at a breakneck tempo.
Show Notes:
Suzy through Magilla featured the Giant Country Horns: Carl "Geerz" Gerhard on trumpet, Dave "The Truth" Grippo on alto sax, Chris Peterman on tenor sax, Mike Gallick on baritone sax, Don Glasgo on trombone, and Joey Sommerville on trumpet. Alumni Blues was incomplete as only one verse was performed, but it was the first since July 18, 1991 (302 shows).
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Phish, Wednesday 04/15/1992 (32 years ago) Variety Arts Center, Los Angeles, CA, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1992 Spring Tour
Set 1 : The Oh Kee Pa Ceremony > Suzy Greenberg , Foam , Guelah Papyrus > Sparkle , Stash , Uncle Pen , Cavern , I Didn't Know , All Things Reconsidered , Runaway Jim
Set 2 : Chalk Dust Torture , You Enjoy Myself ¹ , Reba , The Landlady > NICU > Cold as Ice > Cracklin' Rosie > Cold as Ice , My Sweet One , Golgi Apparatus
Encore : Memories ² , Sweet Adeline ² , Rocky Top
1 Vocal jam centered on a "rolling" theme. 2 Without microphones.
Show Notes:
Uncle Pen was played, according to Trey, "with all due respect to Bill Monroe." It was also explained at this show that All Things Reconsidered is a variation on National Public Radio's All Things Considered . YEM included Groove Is in the Heart and Sunshine of Your Love teases and the vocal jam centered on a "rolling" theme, including the quote "Rolling on the River" from Proud Mary. YEM also included quotes from the theme to Rawhide . My Sweet One was announced by Trey as being written by the "third greatest songwriter of all time" while Fish took a bow of recognition. Memories and Sweet Adeline were performed without microphones. Widespread Panic opened.
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Phish, Monday 04/15/1991 (33 years ago) The Gathering Place, Norris University Center, Northwestern University, Evanston, IL, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1991 WinteSpring Tour
Set 1 : The Sloth , Ya Mar , Foam , Runaway Jim , Split Open and Melt , Fee > Chalk Dust Torture , Colonel Forbin's Ascent > Fly Famous Mockingbird > Llama
Set 2 : Wipe Out ¹ , Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove , Horn > My Sweet One , The Landlady , The Lizards > Possum , Magilla > Fire
Encore : The Squirming Coil > Rocky Top
1 Phish debut.
Show Notes:
Wipe Out was a Phish debut. Possum contained a Yield Not to Temptation tease and Magilla contained a Blue Monk tease from Page.
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Phish, Saturday 04/15/1989 (35 years ago) Billings Lounge, UVM, Burlington, VT, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1989 Tour
Set 1 : Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove , Esther > You Enjoy Myself > Wilson , Peaches en Regalia , On Your Way Down > Alumni Blues ¹ > Letter to Jimmy Page > Alumni Blues , I Didn't Know ² , McGrupp and the Watchful Hosemasters ³ > Foam , David Bowie
Set 2 : Funky Bitch , Golgi Apparatus > Slave to the Traffic Light , The Mango Song , Divided Sky , Split Open and Melt ⁴ , Suzy Greenberg > Fluffhead > Good Times Bad Times
1 Additional lyrics. 2 Fish on trombone; with sound effects from an electronic drum machine. 3 With sound effects from an electronic drum machine. 4 With drum solo.
Jamchart Notes:
Split Open and Melt - First recorded performance includes a Fish drum solo preceding the lyrical section "We breathe deep..." The jam is fairly intense but straightforward in structure.
Show Notes:
This show was a benefit for VPIRG. Esther contained a Dixie tease from Trey. Alumni contained additional lyrics. I Didn't Know featured Fish on trombone. I Didn't Know and McGrupp included sound effects from an electronic drum machine. Fish played Call to the Post on the woodblock after Slave. A fan identified the song and Trey said he won a date with Fish. SOAM included a drum solo. A recording of the second set circulates with AC/DC Bag and Possum as the encores, but they are from a different source than the rest of the recording, and thus may have been filler. (An early Phish.net setlist from the 1990s, as well as the Phish.com setlist, do not list any encores for this benefit show.)
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Phish, 1986-04-15 University of Vermont, Burlington, VT, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/phish-april-15-1986-university-of-vermont-burlington-vt-usa.html
Tour: 1986 Tour
Show Notes: The Earth Day show that had circulated with this date actually occurred on April 25, 1986 according to a Burlington Free Press article.

Trey Anastasio

Trey Anastasio Band, 2017-04-15 The Capitol Theatre, Port Chester, NY, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/trey-anastasio-april-15-2017-the-capitol-theatre-port-chester-ny-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes:
Phil Lesh & Phriends, 1999-04-15 Warfield Theatre, San Francisco, CA, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/trey-anastasio-april-15-1999-warfield-theatre-san-francisco-ca-usa.html
Tour: Page and Trey - Phil and Phriends
Show Notes: Hello Old Friend featured Phil Lesh on bass and vocals, Steve Kimock on guitar, and Phil's sons Brian and Grahame on vocals (no Trey or Page). This was Phil's first public performance since undergoing liver transplant surgery in 1998, and the first of many collaborations between members of Phish and The Grateful Dead.

John Fishman

The Mallett Brothers Band, 2018-04-15 Infinity Hall, Norfolk, CT, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/jon-fishman-april-15-2018-infinity-hall-norfolk-ct-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes:
Pork Tornado, 2000-04-15 Double Door, Chicago, IL, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/jon-fishman-april-15-2000-double-door-chicago-il-usa.html
Tour: Fish - Pork Tornado Spring 2000
Show Notes:
Pork Tornado, 1996-04-15 Club Toast, Burlington, VT, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/jon-fishman-april-15-1996-club-toast-burlington-vt-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes: This setlist is incomplete.

Other

Everyone Orchestra, 2006-04-15 Crystal Ballroom, Portland, OR, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/guest-appearance-april-15-2006-crystal-ballroom-portland-or-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes: This gig (and the previous night) were part of the Third Annual Pangaea Project Benefit, and featured music, poetry, and multimedia presentations. The show consisted largely of improvised music performed by multiple combinations of musicians, including, notably, a rendition of "You Enjouy Myself." The main participants for the two shows were: Fish (drums); Matt Butler (conductor, percussion); Tony Furtado (banjo, guitar); Kai Ekhardt (bass); Tye North (bass); Jason Hann (percussion); Jamie Masefield (mandolin); Reggie Watts (vocals); Asher Fulero (keyboards); Scott Law (guitar); Horns from the March Fourth Marching Band; and the Axe Dide Music and Dance Group.
Everyone Orchestra, 2005-04-15 Crystal Ballroom, Portland, OR, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/guest-appearance-april-15-2005-crystal-ballroom-portland-or-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes: This gig (and the previous night) were part of the Second Annual Pangaea Project Benefit, and featured music, poetry, and multimedia presentations. The show consisted largely of improvised music performed by multiple combinations of musicians.

Posted for a third time due to formatting issues, hopefully it works now.
Now, this is a big post, and I'm sorry in advance but for those of you who are interested, we (me and my brother) ranked EVERY Episode of the show from worst to best. We started this project long before the LS Mark video released, but after that video came out we were only more incensed to make our videos on it. But, here's the preamble.
By every episode I do mean EVERY Episode, that means all 245 episodes, with each of the Terror Tales (and the Christmas anthology) being split into each segment, which are then ranked separately. We also separated each part of A Regular Epic Final Battle. And we also included the movie in our rankings. We ranked each episode separately by the season, and then combined our rankings to get the final one. After finishing the entire series on rewatch for this project, we then ranked the entire series. We used PubMeeple's ranking system to figure out our rankings. I'll only be posting the final rankings, and if you're interested in more detail, we're working on a script for the first video in a series that is both a retrospective and deep dive into the first season followed by our ranking of the episodes. And obviously, these are all opinions and I'd love to hear yours!!
So, let's get into it starting from the worst episode of the show and moving to the best.
WE CAN'T STAND THESE EPISODES - this section is the worst of the worst, these are episodes/segments we routinely skip on following rewatches.

1. Think Positive - See my seperate post about this
   
2. Werepops (Terror Tales 5)
   
3. The Unicorns Have Got to Go
   
4. The Best Burger in the World
   
5. Lift With Your Back
   
6. Wall Buddy
   
7. Sad Sax
   
8. Muscle Mentor
   
9. Do Me a Solid
   
10. Death Metal Crash Pit (Terror Tales 1)
    
11. Not Great Double Date
    
12. Go Viral
    

WE CAN STAND THESE SLIGHTLY MORE - This section are episodes that aren't as bad and we don't skip as often, but have issues that are hard to ignore, we need to be in the right mood to watch these.

1. 1000th Chopper Flight Party
   
2. Cruisin'
   
3. Dizzy
   
4. Wallpaper Man (Terror Tales 2)
   
5. Gold Watch
   
6. Caveman
   

WE HAVE FUNDAMENTAL PROBLEMS WITH THESE EPISODES - The title says it all, we can watch these but we have issues that are hard to get over.

1. Local News Legend
   
2. Rocker Caroler (Christmas in Space)
   
3. Laundry Woes
   
4. My Mom
   
5. Video 101
   
6. The Longest Weekend
   
7. Replaced
   
8. Every Meat Burritos
   
9. Blind Trust
   
10. Paint Job
    
11. Skunked
    
12. Jinx
    
13. Gut Model
    
14. Bald Spot
    
15. Ace Balthazar Lives
    
16. Favorite Shirt
    
17. Mordeby and Rigbecai
    
18. Party Bus (Terror Tales 2)
    
19. Sleep Cycle
    
20. Cool Cubed
    
21. Caffinated Coffee Tickets
    
22. Tent Trouble
    
23. Family BBQ
    

WEAK AND FORGETTABLE EPISODES - These episodes we think are either weak, whether it be in presentation or jokes and/or forgettable, one's we always forget exist.

1. Appreciation Day
   
2. Killer Bed (Terror Tales 3)
   
3. Unfinished Business (Terror Tales 4)
   
4. The Previous Owner (Terror Tales 3)
   
5. More Smarter
   
6. Ugly Moons - This episode was such a disappointment.
   
7. Scary Movie Night (Terror Tales 4)
   
8. Survival Skills
   
9. House Rules
   
10. Catch the Wave
    
11. Operation: Hear No Evil
    
12. The Space Race
    
13. Benson's Car
    
14. Snow Planet (Christmas in Space)
    
15. Krampus (Christmas in Space)
    
16. Daddy Issues
    
17. Sleep Fighter
    
18. Stuck in an Elevator
    
19. Merry Christmas, Mordecai
    
20. Rigby in the Sky with Burrito
    
21. Deez Keys
    
22. Alien Roommate (Terror Tales 6)
    
23. Struck by Lightning
    
24. Power Tower
    
25. It's Time
    
26. Rigby's Body
    
27. White Elephant Gift Exchange - This episode eludes us, we failed to rank it TWICE
    
28. Mordecai and Rigby Down Under
    
29. Trash Boat
    
30. One Pull Up
    
31. Space Creds
    
32. Dumped at the Altar - Save for the ending, this episode isn't terrible
    
33. Journey to the Bottom of the Crash Pit
    

SOLIDLY MID EPISODES - These episodes would be considered just sort of mid or average

1. Party Pete
   
2. Meat Your Maker
   
3. Bet to be Blonde
   
4. Lunch Break
   
5. Do or Diaper
   
6. Big Winner
   
7. See You There
   
8. Donut Factory Holiday
   
9. The Best VHS In The World
   
10. Fear Planet (Terror Tales 6)
    
11. TGI Tuesday
    
12. Muscle Woman
    
13. The End of Muscle Man
    
14. Dodge This
    
15. Men in Uniform
    
16. The Hole (Terror Tales 4)
    
17. Stick Hockey
    
18. Gymblonski
    
19. Maellard's Package
    
20. Fortune Cookie
    
21. Creepy Doll (Terror Tales 1)
    
22. Garage Door
    
23. Just Friends
    
24. Going Up (Terror Tales 5)
    
25. Lost and Found
    
26. Meteor Moves
    
27. Cat Videos
    
28. Saving Time
    
29. Dumptown U.S.A.
    
30. Win that Prize
    
31. Prank Callers
    
32. Peeps
    
33. Sugar Rush
    
34. Rage Against the TV
    
35. The Parkie Awards
    
36. New Years Kiss
    

THESE EPISODES HAVE ONE OR TWO GOOD BITS - Still sort of mid/average episodes but have some memorable moments

1. The Return of Party Horse
   
2. Married and Broke
   
3. Country Club
   
4. Skips Stress
   
5. Yes Dude Yes
   
6. King Sized Candy Bars (Terror Tales 6)
   
7. Ello Gov'nor
   
8. Slam Dunk
   
9. Kill 'Em With Kindness
   
10. Picking up Margaret
    
11. The Dream Warrior
    
12. Death Bear
    
13. Skips in the Saddle
    
14. New Bro on Campus
    
15. Welcome to Space
    
16. Take the Cake
    
17. Snow Tubing
    
18. I Like You Hi
    
19. Return of Mordecai and the Rigbys
    
20. Butt Dial
    
21. Gamers Never Say Die
    
22. Free Cake
    
23. Just Set Up the Chairs
    
24. The Ice Tape
    
25. Carter and Biggs
    
26. Weekend at Benson's
    
27. The Night Owl
    
28. Marvolo the Wizard
    
29. Payback (Terror Tales 2)
    
30. Can You Ear Me Now?
    
31. The Key to the Universe
    
32. The Button
    
33. Chocolatude (Terror Tales 5)
    
34. Brain Eraser
    
35. Access Denied
    
36. Last Meal
    
37. Firework Run
    
38. 150 Piece Kit
    
39. The Heart of a Stuntmen
    
40. World's Best Boss
    
41. Benson Be Gone
    
42. Video Game Wizards
    
43. Guy's Night
    
44. I See Turtles
    

SOLIDLY GOOD EPISODES - This is where we start getting to episodes that we think are actually good as a whole for one reason or another

1. Busted Cart
   
2. Party Re-Pete
   
3. Birthday Gift
   
4. Death Punchies
   
5. That's My Television
   
6. Tants
   
7. Jacked up Jack O'Lantern's (Terror Tales 3)
   
8. Theoretical Mall (Christmas in Space)
   
9. Trucker Hall of Fame
   
10. Out of Commision
    
11. Party Horse - WOOO PARTY HORSE!! I know you guys love this one
    
12. Portable Toilet
    
13. Cool Bikes
    
14. Benson's Pig
    
15. Cube Bros
    
16. Cool Bro Bots
    
17. One Space Day at a Time
    
18. K.I.L.I.T. Radio
    
19. Mr. Boss Man (Terror Tales 5)
    
20. First Day
    
21. Fool Me Twice
    
22. Pie Contest
    
23. Benson's Suit
    
24. Bad Portrait
    
25. Pops' Favorite Planet
    
26. Over the Top
    
27. Camping Can Be Cool
    
28. Expert or Liar
    
29. Karaoke Video
    
30. On The House (Terror Tales 1)
    
31. Grilled Cheese Deluxe
    
32. Starter Pack
    
33. No Train No Gain
    
34. Park Manager's Lunch
    
35. Temp Check
    
36. Space Escape
    
37. The Dome Experiment Special
    
38. Alpha Dome
    
39. But I Have A Reciept
    
40. The Lunch Club
    
41. Rigby Goes to the Prom - NICE
    

GREAT EPISODES - THESE are amongst the best episodes of the show in our opinion.

1. Trailer Trashed
   
2. Chili Cook Off
   
3. Fists of Justice
   
4. New Beds
   
5. VIP Members Only
   
6. Sandwich of Death
   
7. This is My Jam
   
8. The Power
   
9. Fries Night
   
10. Grave Sight
    
11. Spacey McSpaceTree - Controversial Pick, I'm sure
    
12. California King
    
13. Happy Birthday Song Contest
    
14. Bad Kiss
    
15. Diary
    
16. Lame Lockdown
    
17. Bachelor Party! ZINGO!
    
18. Bank Shot
    
19. Mordecai and the Rigbys
    
20. Eggscellent
    
21. Under the Hood
    
22. Skips Strikes
    
23. Fancy Resturant
    
24. Really Real Wrestling
    
25. The Eileen Plan
    
26. Play Date
    
27. Don
    
28. Fuzzy Dice
    
29. Crazy Fake Plan
    
30. Guitar of Rock
    
31. Silver Dude
    
32. The Brain of Evil
    
33. Real Date
    
34. Format Wars II
    
35. Quips
    
36. Skips vs. Technology
    
37. The Last LaserDisc Player
    
38. A Skips in Time
    
39. Rigby's Graduation Day Special
    
40. Hello China
    
41. Steak Me Amadeus
    
42. A Bunch of Full Grown Geese
    
43. Eileen Flat Screen
    
44. Exit 9B
    

THE BEST EPISODES - these episodes top the list, and I could talk all day about why.

1. Pam I Am
   
2. Meet the Seer
   
3. The Thanksgiving Special
   
4. The Christmas Special
   
5. Rap It Up - My personal favorite episode
   
6. The Postcard
   
7. A Bunch of Baby Ducks
   
8. Maxin' and Relaxin'
   
9. Death Kwon Do-Livery
   
10. High Score
    
11. Dead at Eight
    
12. Gary's Synthezier
    
13. Limousine Lunchtime
    
14. Cheer Up Pops
    

THE TOP TEN - These episodes top the list, the ten best episodes of the series in our opinion
10 - A Regular Epic Final Battle (Part 1)
9 - Guy's Night 2
8 - Skips' Story
7 - Brilliant Century Duck Crisis Special
6 - Thomas Fights Back
5 - Regular Show: The Movie
4 - Prankless - My brother and I consider this a perfect episode
3 - The Real Thomas
2 - A Regular Epic Final Battle (Part 2)
1 - A Regular Epic Final Battle (Part 3)

First sorry for the novice questions. 1) are there a lot of bots? It’s seems to me like there are bots with some type of automated aim. They just know where you are and are locked on to you super fast. 2) I feel like the game is super inconsistent when it comes to damage sustained from falls and car accidents. 3) anyone see glitches where you are in the blue circle and sustaining damage; example, full energy, but sustaining damage and suddenly you die? I feel like this has happened a few times. I’m normally outside the zone and collecting supplies but have suddenly died a few times prematurely.
It’s a super fun game.. I can’t play console or PC due to the frame rate making me dizzy. I definitely like all the sniper riffles especially mini-14 with the full auto mod and the sks on semi.
Any other recommendations? I play solo in Enrangle almost every time and don’t pay for any passes or anything. All advice is welcome!

Need some general advice, being a middle aged diver with limited time to play and even more limited skill set! Spent over 500 hours on Helldivers 1, but am not great at aiming and FPS games.
Struggling to complete the trophy set, even stuff like 15 common samples.
Any advice on loadouts for bots and bugs: Armor, stratagems, primaries, grenades, pistol?
My preferred playstyle vs bots is long distance AMR, impact grenades, light armor to run away, diligence with medium armor penetration, etc.
Any suggestions welcome. I get a bit dizzy spinning around playing this game so like to keep it less frantic!

Hi,
Tw! If reading this could affect anything within your personal care, please avoid and take care!
I’m sorry if this is not the best place to come for advice, I am just struggling to find useful information online that aren’t just signs.
So, to me my mum to me has always been a very beautiful person. Recently everyone in our household and others in her work/extended family have noticed she has lost an extreme amount of weight. She had an ed when she was a young teen but recently is showing a lot of the signs with the constant workouts, cutting excessive amounts out of her diet, feelings of dizziness and fatigue pretty much every time she has to do regular things she never used to have a problem with day to day.
My dad is growing very concerned and doesn’t have the subtlety or filter to tackle this with her on his own. Every time he has brought it up she gets aggressive and it eventually causes an argument where neither party is emotionally ok and both sides get progressively worse in their feelings afterwards.
I have tried to talk to her about this. Starting by asking how she’s feeling, if she wants to talk about anything etc as to try not to approach the topic too quickly and have her feel trapped, but due to the previously mentioned bad endings to the conversation, she snapped at me very quickly and said that “everyone is judging me, they all think I have a problem when I don’t” it was at this moment I found out it wasn’t just me and my dad who had noticed anything different but was infant my gran, my brother, aunts and uncles, and her work colleagues as well. They had all mentioned it to her in the same approach of my dad which is where I think this aggression around the subject has came from. In this moment I had to reassure her that I love her and would never intentionally make her feel as though I was judging her, I apologised and l said I was worried then decided it was best for us to leave it there as she is still feeling under attack when the topic is brought up.
I don’t know how to safely approach this with her. In the meantime she had eaten even less, dropped to much more worrying size in rapid time and we have to watch because we are useless to her in helping, we have never dealt with this so close to home and are so uninformed that we can’t even get her to talk to us let alone the baby steps and long process it would be to start healing.
I love her so much and I feel like there is nothing I can help with. If anyone has good tips, websites, videos, or advice on what we can do without making her feel so vulnerable and any more alone than she probably already feels then it would be so highly appreciated. What are some experiences that have helped in the past? Is there anything I should be actively doing in this moment?
Sorry for any bad layouts of the post, I’m really bad at trying to relay information to others and sound like an emotionless bot when typing but I really care. If anything needs any sort of clarification, I do my best to reply in a cohesive manner and explain any further.
Thank you