In November 2023 I started HRT .035 estradiol and 100mg prometrium. At first I felt fine, but as the months went on my depression worsened to the point of wanting to end it. (I would like to add that for some women I guess estrogen decline can affect their mental health. Not much is known about this.) I became so lethargic that I was sleeping all day on the weekends and everyday after work. I talked to my Doctor and she suggested taking progestdrone a few times a week. This did not help at all. I tried using it vaginally. I also tried piercing the capsule and taking a small amount. None of this resolved my symptoms. My Doctor upped my estradiol to .0375 which is still low. I decided to experiment and see if I feel better without the prometrium at all and gues what? I feel fabulous. No insomnia, no hot flashes, no racing heart, no aches and pains. My Doctor did try to insert Mirena in the office and it wouldn't go in so I have another appointment to try to figure out what type of progesterone would work best for me. I did fabulous on YAZ when I was younger.
I think I may have problems with the additives in prometrium so hopefully something works out.
Estradiol has been my life savior! My mental health, energy and sleep ( to name a few) have improved dramatically!!!

I like to do wrestling related book reports, and in the past, this sub responded really well to my posts. Again, though, if y'all feel like this isn't the kind of content for this sub, let me know, and I'll post elsewhere.
Very, very short book that didn't detail too much, with a large portion being Billy just ranting on the history of wrestling or fighting.
As always, I attempted to keep to chronological order of events, even though Billy didn't tell a lot of this in order, and he never dated any story.
(Note: the number of guys named "Billy" in this post is just unreal and gave me a headache)
Billy describes how his dad, grandfather, uncle, and great-grandfather were all world-class boxers or fighters. He says his father taught him a ton of things to do in a fight and even underhanded tactics, like using a pencil to defend himself. Billy says a 4H pencil had the toughest lead that you could sharpen out and use as a weapon. The best part was that it wasn't classified as a weapon, so you could avoid the jail time that came with having knives.
Billy describes running home from school as 3 boys chased him. When he got home, crying, his dad asked him what was going on. After Billy explained, his dad said, "You can either fight the 3 of them or fight me." Billy chose the 3 boys, and his dad went with him to make sure the fights were 1 on 1. After Billy beat up the 1st two kids, the third one wanted none of it. Billy says this was the first time he saw his dad was proud of him.
Billy dreamed of being a pro boxer, but one day, as a child, he was struck in the eye by a metal sign that some other kids were playing with and severely tore his retina. He spent 6 weeks in the hospital, and his boxing dreams were over.
Billy's uncle wanted him to try out pro wrestling because it was popular in the 60s, but Billy's dad wanted him to do amature wrestling, though it wasn't as lucrative as pro wrestling. Eventually, Billy was brought to a local YMCA where he started to train amature.
Before long, Billy's dad relented and took him to Billy Riley's gym, the same place that Karl Gotch trained and that Dynamite Kid would go train at as well. Billy even met John Foley there, who would go on to be a feared shooter and manage Dynamite Kid in Stampede Wrestling. Though if that's the only place you know John Foley from, then you won't have a high opinion of him.
John Foley was a legit bad ass shooter for most of his career, who was known to take liberties with guys. By the time he got to Stampede Wrestling, though, he was an old timer who was more known as a drunk who everyone ribbed. One story suggests where he lost his nerve, and that would be the time he was being a little too physical in the ring with Lanny and Randy Poffo, prompting their dad Angelo came to the ring, and all 3 Poffo men beat the living shit out of Foley. Bret Hart says he "never lived it down."
Billy says the best match he ever saw was a "friendly" sparring contest between Jack Dempsey and John Foley that left both men with black eyes, broken noses and blood coming out of their ears and mouths. Billy says they were still close friends after.
Billy calls shoot fighting/grappling "physical chess," and he spent 12 years learning this at Reilly's Gym, also known as the Snake Pit.
Billy learned "catch-as-catch-can" (or Greco-Roman) wrestling in The Snake Pit from Charlie Carrol.
Charlie Carrol was 55 years old and 155 pounds to Billy's 6 foot 2, 190 pound 17 year old, but Charlie hurt Billy every single time they sparred. Billy says that Charlie kept him humble.
Billy puts over modern MMA fighters but says the best modern MMA fighter couldn't hold a candle to a mediocre 1930s catch wrestler.
It's not a long book, but a significant section early on is just Billy going over the history of catch fighting and amateur wrestling all the way back to the 1800s. He complains that modern amateur wrestling is all about power and maneuvering for points and says he doesn't even watch the Olympics anymore. It's actually super fascinating as he details various amature techniques used in different Olympic competitions and where they originated from.
He tells a story of how when he was a teenager, his coach Billy Riley (who was 55 years old) would walk with him down the street and often try to grapple with Billy or show him some maneuver right there and Billy says people would stare at them like they were homosexuals and says it was so embarrassing. At the time, homosexuality was illegal in England.
Billy Robinson is critical of modern coaching, which he says consists of the coach giving a ton of positive feedback. Billy Robinson won multiple amature championship tournaments and bouts but never heard a good word from Billy Riley. When Billy Robinson won his first amature world title, he remembered Riley saying, "That was good." Riley would later explain that it wasn't his job to tell Robinson what was good, but it was his job to tell Robinson what was wrong and where he can correct himself. Interesting take on coaching.
In 1956, Billy placed 3rd at the nationals for amature wrestling. In 1957, he won the nationals tournament! Riley told Billy Robinson, "You've won all the cups and the medals. Why don't you take me out and buy me a steak dinner?" When Billy Robinson said he couldn't afford to, Riley said to him, "It just goes to show you kid, you can't buy steak with medals. It's time you turned pro."
Billy says he regrets not putting pro wrestling off another couple of years. He thinks he should have been amature wrestling in the Olympics. He beat everyone who eventually wrestled on the Brittish team, and he thought he could have won a medal.
Billy turned pro at 19 years old and was asked to help get pro wrestling going in Sweden. The problem was that the Sweden Olympic amature wrestling team wouldn't allow it unless the pros proved they were legit and could beat them in an amateur contest. Billy beat them all, including Alex Gronburg, a 2 time Olympic champion and former world champion, and Gosta Andersson, who quit after a minute, saying, "Hey, it's too dangerous for us."
Billy Robinson asked to go to Spain and wrestle for a new promotion, but as he was getting ready to leave, his coach Billy Riley warned him that if he worked for that company he would be black balled out of most major European wrestling companies. Robinson told Riley that he had given his word, and he said this was the first time he ever went against Riley's suggestion.
It didn't matter because Billy said the Spain promotion fizzled out before he even got there, but no one told him, and he flew to Spain for no reason.
He ended up staying in Spain, living with someone Billy referred to as "the English professor" who introduced him to people like Earnist Hemmingway and Sophia Loren and got Billy work in a movie
One day, the professor told Billy that his name was in the newspaper, and sure enough, Billy was being advertised in a new wrestling promotion. When Billy called them, he was informed that they had a job for him. For 2 years, 1960-1961, Billy wrestled in Spain and made a name for himself.
Billy would wrestle in tournaments and other tours during this time as well, in places like Germany and Belgium.
It was at these tournaments when Billy started noticing guys wanting to train with him and only him. Billy days. "It was odd!"
Billy loved zoos and had opinions on the good ones. He says he could spend all day just watching gorillas
Billy says he didn't like France much, saying that compared to places like Germany, Switzerland, and Austria, France was pretty dirty and gross back then.
Billy seems to have loved Lebanon the most, and being a huge history buff, Billy goes on a tangent about the history of Lebanon.
Billy wrestled in India in 1962, and on the way back, he stopped in Lebabon right before a war broke out, and he had to quickly escape.
Billy says his father told him that he should pretend to not know English when traveling and not be identified as an English speaking person. He said this advice helped him his whole life while traveling.
The first time Billy got to India, he was shocked at the poverty and state of it. He remembers seeing dead animals all over the place and people sleeping in the streets among rats. Billy also puts over India and a big wrestling country and said he had a good time there.
Billy says he was fortunate to wrestle the original Dara Singh. Dara Singh was a huge name in India, and he eventually went to prison for killing 3 men. He did it because those 3 men killed his brother, so it was a revenge killing. Years later, he would be pardoned and released. This is when Billy beat him in India.
In India, it was legitimately against the law for a Muslim to wrestle against a Hindu, so the Muslim community "adopted" Billy Robinson as their guy to fight the Hundu guys. It's pretty fascinating imo.
After India, Billy wrestled in Napal and said he had a great time, even wrestling private matches for the King of Napal.
While in Napal, Billy was ribbed into approaching a live leopard and says it was the first time in his life that he ever felt fear.
Billy even helped some Americans set up a play for the King of Napal, where Billy was the stage manager and even took a couple of bumps on the hard wood floor. He says the King loved it so much that he called for an encore, so Billy had to do the painful bump again.
Billy recalls one time in Napal, a local accidently hit and killed a cow with his truck. Since cows were sacred, the man was killed right there, and his body hung from a lamppost.
While in Germany wrestling a tournament that was cross promoting with a ten pin bowling competition, Billy met his future wife Ursula. She was working on the bowling side and Billy on the wrestling side. Billy says when their eyes first locked, he was in the ring, and she was in the front row. Billy says, "It was the beginning of the end, for my single days." 18 months later she came to England and they got married.
Billy says he played some charity bowling games against the Beatles in the early 60s.
Dave Ruhl was an extremely popular face in Stampede Wrestling out of Calgary, and through his uncle Ray Steele, Dave got ahold of Billy and invited him to Calgary Billy says Stampede promoter Stu Hart saw Billy wrestle one match and then invite Billy to come to Stampede Wrestling.
While backstage at one of his first Stampede shows, he saw a bunch of big gues in the dressing room talking. Through eavesdropping, he heard them talking about football and asked them if they were wrestlers or football players. They said football players, and so Billy insisted they leave the dressing room. Things got tense and heated, but eventually, Billy made it clear that if they didn't leave, he would remove them. He says they all scurried out of the room and notes that one of them was a young Wayne Coleman, the future "Superstar" Billy Graham.
After reading Billy Graham's book, it's clear that these two fucking hated eachother, with Graham calling Billy a bully who took liberties with less experienced guys in the ring. In Graham's book, he details how poorly Robinson treated him when their paths crossed in Stampede Wrestling. Graham's book made no mention of Billy kicking him out of a locker room nor the supposed contract with Verne that forbade Robinson from hurting Graham.
Down the line when Billy came to Minnesota, Billy Robinson claimes that Billy Graham insisted that Verne write up a contract that prohibited Billy Robinson and Billy Graham from squaring up. I don't know the validity of this claim, but Billy Robinson says Billy Graham was so scared that he only came to Minnesota with the guarantee that Robinson wouldn't hurt him.
This claim about a contract and Graham refusing to work with Robinson, might come from the time in Minnesota when Graham opted out of working with him in favor of Wahoo McDaniel. One time they were matched up and Graham approached Robinson backstage and made a show of wrapping razor blades in his taped up hands, warning Robinson that if he attempted to shoot on him, that Graham would "shred you from your face to the tip of your toes." This is all from Graham's book, with Billy making no mention of it.
In Bruce Hart's book, he tells a story about how they had The Stomper penciled in to challenge NWA World Champion Dory Funk Jr, but they had The Stomper face Billy Robinson 2 weeks prior. The two meshed so poorly that it devolved into an ugly shoot, with the fans chanting boring at them. Eventually The Stomper left and got counted out, before getting to the back and telling Stu he is quitting. They had no choice but to put Robinson in his place, and while the match was amazing and Robinson would be a good face for Stampede at the time, even Bruce calls him a bully and finishes it by saying "here's not to you Mr Robinson, there is no place in Heaven for those who prey."
After Billy wrestled Dory Funk Jr in an 1 hour draw, and after Dory invited Billy to the States to wrestle.
Before heading over to the States full time, Billy did tours in England, Japan, Singapore, Hong Kong and Australia where he won the World title for a company that Jim Barnett was promoting.
Billy met Jack Brisco in Australia, shortly after winning the world title there. Billy remembers there first match together, saying that Jack was trying to show off a little too much so Billy said he showed him a simple catch hold that put poor Jack in the hospital for a couple days! Billy says the 2 became friends and calls him a good amateur wrestler and great guy.
Jack Brisco was the one who first told Billy about "shoot wrestlers" in the States. Billy never heard the term before but says a shooter is just another word for catch wrestling.
Billy mentions a rib that Jack Brisco and Dick Murdoch played on him during that Australia tour. Dick introduced Billy to chewing tobacco and purposely misinformed Billy on how to enjoy it. Billy swallowed the juice and vomiting all over the place.
Another time, Jack and Billy were up in Billy's hotel room all night, talking holds and even practicing them on one another. It was middle of the night, so Billy was in his underwear when Jack asked him to go get the newspaper from down the hall. The second Billy got in the hallway, Jack locked him out and made Billy sneak back to his room a few floors up in just his boxers. Billy said this was the nicest hotel in Australia, too.
Billy says he got his first taste of American pro wrestling in Hawaii, where he wrestled for several months. Every single guy who writes a wrestling book inevitably ends up doing a tour in Hawaii.
It was in Hawaii where Billy met Verne Gagne, who was "wrestling" a tour there, but really, Verne was on vacation and wrestling as a means to vacation for free. A lot of guys did that with Hawaii back in the day.
Billy and Verne wrestled a tag team match together, and after Verne made sure to watch how Billy was as a singles wrestler. Verne asked Billy to come back to the mainland in 1972.
Verne even asked Billy to train his son Greg, and they ended up inviting several other guys to a small wrestling camp. The group consisted of Verne's son Greg, Ric Flair, Ken Patera, Jim Bunzell (who would later team with Ken in AWA and be one half of the Killer Bee's in the WWE), Bob Bruggers (a former Miami Dophins linebacker), and Hossien Khosrow Vaziri (the future Iron Shiek).
An infamous story happened at this camp, early on, Shiek was the only one of the 6 who had amateur experience, and one day he was boasting to the others about how neither Verne or Billy could get him on his back in an amateur bout. Billy heard about this and challenged him immediately to spar. Shiek was successful in holding his stance on his knees, with Billy unable to turn him. So Billy viciously dropped his knee into Shiek's thigh, fucking him up bad. Then Billy casually rolled Shiek over and said "told you I could flip you."
Billy acknowledges Sheik as a very good amateur but says he has a big head a big mouth. He knew Shiek wasn't familiar with catch-as-catch-can, ankle submissions, neck cranks or double wristlocks and took advantage of him. Billy just casually says "I knelt on his thigh in a way we do. He couldn't walk for two days and couldn't work out at the camp for two weeks."
Billy remembers a match he did early on working for Verne, where a fan in the front row was being obnoxious and screaming at Billy all match. After the bout, Billy went and picked the fan up out of his seat and smacked him a few times and notes how the fan stayed quiet the rest of the show. When he got to the back he was chewed our by Verne who was afraid of a lawsuit. Billy says the fan ended up getting tickets to a future show.
In the middle of the book he goes on a rant about the history of how wrestling started in carnival tents and how champions made money. He calls Gorgeous George a "carnie wrestler" and credits him for accelerating the change in how the general audience looks at pro wrestlers. He resents the sentiment that all wrestlers are showmanship guys and puts over himself and others like Lou Thesz as legit tough guys. Billy is always putting over his skills as catch fighter in the book.
Billy says he and Lou Thesz became pretty good friends.
Billy says Lou Thesz would call Ed "Strangler" Louis as the best wrestler of all time, while Billy says he would call Billy Joyce the best of all time. But he says that Billy Joyce said that George Gregory was the best of all time.
Billy describes one time he wrestled Verne Gagne with Lou Thesz as the special referee. Billy says that he and Verne weren't getting along at this point, so throughout the match, Billy was sorta abusing Verne and taunting him the whole time. Billy says he kept turning to Lou and saying "Look at this Lou!" And "What do you think of this Lou?" As he took advantage of Verne. Eventually Lou piped up and said, "Jesus Billy, take it easy on him, he is the boss."
Ed "Strangler" Louise had an "open" contract, meaning that if you were matched up against him and wanted to shoot, Ed encouraged it. What a badass.
John Pesek was a wrestler with legit Olynpic credentials. John Pesek decided to shoot on Ed Lewis when Ed was very sick and had boils all over. It was a hard fight but Ed won. Lou Thesz resented Pesek for attempting this and even had him black balled by the NWA later in his career. Lou never forgave John for shooting on Ed when Ed was sick and never admitted Pesek was talented in any way. Billy clarifies that John Pesek was legitimate in the ring and tells this story as a way to show Lou Thesz power back in those days.
Ben Assirati was a freakishly strong guy who was known as a legit street fighter. Billy says he was a masochist who not only liked to hurt people in the ring, but also liked to get hurt, himself. Ben Assirati tried to start a rival promotion in England, and was challenged to a legitimate shoot fight by promoters (and world class ass kickers) George Gregory and Billy Joyce, but Ben turned them down. Of course, when Lou Thesz was NWA Champion and touring through England, Ben made a big show of challenging him beforehand and even got the newspapers to print about it. On the night of the show, Lou had police block the entrance and not let Ben in the arena. Billy tells this story as if Lou was turning down Ben's challenge for the way he turned down Gregory and Joyce. But Billy really puts over Ben Assirati as a scary guy in the ring and says that people actually died in the ring with Ben. Wild claim that I couldn't back up online, though there are a ton of stories to speak on Ben's notorioty in the ring.
In Lou Thesz memoir, he stated that he challenged Ben first multiple times and Ben refused all of them
Billy says that when he first got to the States, Lou Thesz and Karl Gotch were close friends who respected one another. But something happened that led to the two refusing to speak to one another.
Billy says a lot of old timers were hot heads, and gives an example of when his son was born. Billy named him Spencer after Winston Churchill, but Karl Gotch got angry at this and said it should have been a powerful name like Thor or something silly. Billy says that he and Karl nearly came to blows in the street over this. So whatever fractured the relationship between Gotch and Thesz, it was probably minor and petty.
When talking about modern wrestlers, Billy always refers to them in quotations. Like in his book he says "pro wrestlers" as if he is air quoting when talking about modern guys.
Billy says a big difference between wrestling in America vs England was how much guys talked in the ring in America (called spots). Billy says this never happens over seas and says he didn't call spots verbally.
Another big difference is how pay structure worked. In America it was all based on the house and what the promoter felt you earned. Over seas, Billy says he and the promoter would sit alone and discuss the pay prior to the match. Ticket sales were irrelevant, you always got paid what you agreed to. He says America is where all the backstabbing and politicking started in wrestling.
Billy says Danny Hodge was probably one of the most dangerous guys from his time wrestling and puts him over as one ofthe greatest American wrestlers ever.
Billy describes an interesting concept for wrestling promoters back in his day. Every promoter had what he called a "policman" wrestler. When a new guy came in and wanted to challenge the top draw, he would face this "policman" wrestler as the top draw or promoter watched closely. For example, if you were looking to challenge Lou Thesz, first you would face Ray Steele as Thesz watched and judged, then after he and Ray would talk about the guy together.
While working for Verne Gagne in the early 70s, Billy was asked to wrestle with a green as grass guy and Verne told Billy to go 10 minutes before he beat him. This baffled Billy and Verne had to explain its a taping and they need to put on a good show. Billy says he shouldn't have done that, especially considering how Verne would go on to screw with Billy's payoffs down the line.
Billy says he took the kid down at the 9 minute mark and stretched him, nearly breaking his elbow as he screamed and cried and tapped out. Billy says the guy gave an interview later and said pro wrestling is the nastiest and most dangerous sport there is. Billy chuckles at this but he took some rookie and killed any interest the kid had in wrestling while abusing him.
Billy tells a wild story about a short real fight he had with Peter Maivia in Japan. Billy, Peter and a few other guys were eating at a restaurant when Peter got upset at how the menu and ordering system worked. Peter got so worked up that Billy yelled at him to calm down. Later as Billy was walking towards his hotel, a drunk Peter Maivia approached Billy looking for a fight. Billy attempted to restrain him, telling Peter as he held him, "Peter stop it. I don't want to hurt you." But Peter in his enraged, drunken state goes to bite Billy in the neck! Billy, having been trained in self defense and combat like this, knew to tuck his chin to save his neck, but Peter still bit down hard and into Billy's face! Billy says he still had scars from this 40 or 50 years later! When blood started pouring down Billy's cheek, he snapped and laid out Peter with an unspecified number of strikes that left Peter with a broken nose and two black eyes. He says the fight lasted all of 15 seconds. Billy says he had to go to the hospital to get stitches and shot for a human bite.
The next morning, Billy nearly kicked Peter's door down and told Peter he is lucky to be alive. Billy points out how biting the neck is an attempt to kill him, so he gives Peter a chance to try again. A very sober Peter backed down immediately
Billy says he saw an interview on Tv where The Rock claimed that Peter Maivia bit Billy's eye out and he needed surgery. Billy refutes this claim and says the only eye surgery he ever had was when he was a kid.
Billy says a lot of guys would spar once or train once with someone and then spend their whole career saying they were trained by that person. He gave an example of one time, Bill Watts called him up asking about Johnny Eagles, who said he trained at Billy's gym. Billy had a good laugh because Eagles stopped by his gym one time to borrow money.
Billy often goes on tangents or rants about bullies and how much he hates them. He calls them cowards who always back down when challenged. I guess that's why he doesn't see himself as a bully, while almost everyone who came up after him clarifies him as the biggest bully they ever met. I've read several, several dozen wrestling book, and only 1 guy didn't have anything bad to say about Billy. That was Dynamite Kid, who didn't have anything nice to say about Billy either. He was just the only guy to bring up Billy Robinson and not rant about how awful of a person he was.
If the only guy to not have a negative story about you in Dynamite Kid, then you may be an asshole imo.
Billy says he was AWA World Heavyweight Champion for 24 hours "until they changed the decision on me." I'm not a big AWA buff so if anyone knows this story I would like to hear it.
Billy briefly mentions the Gagne produced movie in 1974 movie, "The Wrestler" but unfortunately Billy has no tales from the set or stories about it at all. Billy alongside Dusty Rhodes and Dick Murdoch all appeared in the film.
One time while in Alberta wrestling for Stampede, Billy was invited along with a couple other wrestlers to have dinner with the Primier of Alberta (like a State Governor) and at the event Billy was asked to join the premieres wife in the morning. So when the wife reminded Billy about coming by at 8am the next morning, Billy used British slang in response and said "Yes, I'll come knock you up at 8 o'clock tomorrow." Poor Billy had to explain that where he's from, someone waking you up in the morning by knocking on your door is a knocker upper.
Billy calls Canadian wrestler George Gordienko the strongest wrestler he ever got in the ring with. George Gordienko was originally hoping to be a doctor before becoming an exceptionally successful wrestler and someone who Lou Thesz once called one of the best of all time. Gordienko has been lost to time for the most part since he was banned from the United States during the McCarthy era. George married a woman who was the head of a communist party in America and poor George never got to return. He continued to wrestle in the UK until a bad ankle injury forced him to retire. He pivoted again and became a pretty succesful artist. Super fascinating story imo.
Over in Japan, Karl Gotch was working for Giant Baba in the Japan Pro Wrestling Alliance and their competition, the International Wrestling Enterprise contacted Billy Riley and asked who was the best catch wrestler available to counter Gotch, who was doing big business for JWA. Riley immediately suggested Robinson, who was quickly invited to Japan for the IWE.
Karl and Billy were friends but working for rival promotions in Japan, so they could only meet and get together in secret.
Billy ended up winning the World title for the IWE and they asked him to move his family to Japan long-term.
Billy wasn't having a good time coaching the young Japanese guys and complained to Karl Gotch that it seems like their minds are elsewhere. Karl advised Billy to hurt one of them to get them in line. Billy refused and said he was their coach, he wasn't supposed to hurt them. This is wild to hear from Billy, who's entire reputation among the next generation was that he was a bully who liked to hurt people.
A week later Billy got caught in a snowstorm after fighting with his wife, so he was in a bad mood as he walked into the gym to train the young guys. One of them mouthed off so Billy says he lined them all up and wrestled each of them into submission. He calls it an accident, bit says he ended up breaking one of their arms that day and after that all the young guys took everything more seriously and treated Billy with more respect and admiration.
Billy seems to have mixed feelings on his time in Japan since he did well and early on was treated well by promoters. He said in Japan if you have something someone needs, you're a God in their eyes and your treated as such. He says if you need something from someone though, they always make it clear that they are in charge and treat you poorly. He says he and Karl both started to really resent the culture there towards the end of their runs in Japan.
It was after or near the end of his Japan tour that Billy and his wife got divorced. He doesn't expand on it in any way in his book. Barely gets a passing mention.
In the mid-70s Billy was in rough shape, his drinking was out of control and his knee was beyond fucked. Billy started working odd jobs outside the wrestling business, including a security job gig in Las Vegas where he was training other security guards and he managed a gas station in Minnesota. Billy calls this the lowest point of his life and says the gas station job was the most boring thing he ever did in his life.
Antonio Inoki contacted Billy when he was running the gas station and invited him to Japan for a big celebration show where they would have a match. Billy doesn't speak highly of the match and says he just had knee surgery and could barely get in the ring, but if you look up reports on his 1975 match with Inoki, all you see is massive, massive praise and people calling it one of the best matches ever at the time.
Billy calls Inoki the best Japanese wrestler of all time.
Yuko Miyato of The Union of Wrestling Forces International (UWFI) contacted Billy and sent him to Nashville to train guys to go to Japan for them and Billy says between himself and Karl Gotch, every wrestler they trained went on to be world champions. Billy lists Shigeo Miyato and Nobuhiko Takada as examples.
Billy says Yuko Miyato "really saved me." Billy says he was drinking excessively and gained a ton of weight after the divorce, and that his knees and hips had to be replaced. Billy says his nervous system was fucked up from all the years of grappling and he couldn't effectively train anymore. He got a 2nd life back in Japan and even became the head coach at his old Snake Pit gym after Riley passed away in 1977. Billy says he ended spending 15 years in Japan training the next generation of catch/mma fighters.
Billy talks about the difference in training Japanese guys compared to others, since Japanese guys are more scientific and teach techniques down to the specificity. Billy didn't teach like that, he taught concepts and ideas that anyone could use on anyone else. He struggled to get some guys over the "belt system" in Japan where a brown belt guy would never challenge a black belt guys. Billy says anyone can beat the best, regardless of their belt.
Near the end of the book, Billy again rants about modern guys and how they know one or two moves and consider themselves catch style wrestlers. Billy also rants again about bullies and how you don't train people by taking advantage of them. (Tell that to Iron Sheik) Billy cites Verne Gagne as an example of a guy who didn't know how to spar or lock in submissions, and would train guys by exhausting them before he jumped on them and shot for a hold. Billy says he and Karl Gotch resented that and made sure their training camps were the opposite of that. It's funny because Billy literally did this stuff with Verne Gagne! Maybe he is implying that he learned then not to that stuff, but he doesn't outright say it. Billy as as guilty of bullying as the Verne imo.
Billy thinks modern MMA is shooting themselves in the foot for not having pinfalls. He says that fighting off your back is exciting and opens the door for more to be done. He says that when a guy is trying not to get pinned, he may leave an opening somewhere for the other guy to take advantage of.
Billy complains how modern boxers are looking for knockouts and training to knock people out. He says that's not how it's done, you fight and wait for the opening, Billy says you wait for the knockout to come to you, you don't go looking for it. He laments the same thing in submissions as well, saying you don't go looking to lock in a submission, you maneuver around and wait for the opening to present itself. You wait for the submission to come to you. He is extremely critical of modern "catch style" wrestlers/ fighters.
Billy is critical of modern wrestling and fighting having such short time limits, saying that short 2 or 3 minute rounds means that it's all about power.
The book ends with Billy ranting about modern fighters and amateur wrestlers and how Catch wrestling was the greatest sport of all time. I hope I love something as much as Billy loved catch-as-catch-can wrestling.

Very, very short book that didn't detail too much, with a large portion being Billy just ranting on the history of wrestling or fighting.
As always, I attempted to keep to chronological order of events, even though Billy didn't tell a lot of this in order, and he never dated any story.
(Note: the number of guys named "Billy" in this post is just unreal and gave me a headache)
Billy describes how his dad, grandfather, uncle, and great-grandfather were all world-class boxers or fighters. He says his father taught him a ton of things to do in a fight and even underhanded tactics, like using a pencil to defend himself. Billy says a 4H pencil had the toughest lead that you could sharpen out and use as a weapon. The best part was that it wasn't classified as a weapon, so you could avoid the jail time that came with having knives.
Billy describes running home from school as 3 boys chased him. When he got home, crying, his dad asked him what was going on. After Billy explained, his dad said, "You can either fight the 3 of them or fight me!" Billy chose the 3 boys, and his dad went with him to make sure the fights were 1 on 1. After Billy beat up the 1st two kids, the third one wanted none of it. Billy says this was the first time he saw his dad was proud of him.
Billy dreamed of being a pro boxer, but one day, as a child, he was struck in the eye by a metal sign that some other kids were playing with and severely tore his retina. He spent 6 weeks in the hospital, and his boxing dreams were over.
Billy's uncle wanted him to try out pro wrestling because it was popular in the 60s, but Billy's dad wanted him to do amature wrestling, though it wasn't as lucrative as pro wrestling. Eventually, Billy was brought to a local YMCA where he started to train amature.
Before long, Billy's dad relented and took him to Billy Riley's gym, the same place that Karl Gotch trained and that Dynamite Kid would go train at as well. Billy even met John Foley there, who would go on to be a feared shooter and manage Dynamite Kid in Stampede Wrestling. Though if that's the only place you know John Foley from, then you won't have a high opinion of him.
John Foley was a legit bad ass shooter for most of his career, who was known to take liberties with guys. By the time he got to Stampede Wrestling, though, he was an old timer who was more known as a drunk who everyone ribbed. One story suggests where he lost his nerve, and that would be the time he was being a little too physical in the ring with Lanny and Randy Poffo, prompting their dad Angelo came to the ring, and all 3 Poffo men beat the living shit out of Foley. Bret Hart says he "never lived it down."
Billy says the best match he ever saw was a "friendly" sparring contest between Jack Dempsey and John Foley that left both men with black eyes, broken noses and blood coming out of their ears and mouths. Billy says they were still close friends after.
Billy calls shoot fighting/grappling "physical chess," and he spent 12 years learning this at Reilly's Gym, also known as the Snake Pit.
Billy learned "catch-as-catch-can" (or Greco-Roman) wrestling in The Snake Pit from Charlie Carrol.
Charlie Carrol was 55 years old and 155 pounds to Billy's 6 foot 2, 190 pound 17 year old, but Charlie hurt Billy every single time they sparred. Billy says that Charlie kept him humble.
Billy puts over modern MMA fighters but says the best modern MMA fighter couldn't hold a candle to a mediocre 1930s catch wrestler.
It's not a long book, but a significant section early on is just Billy going over the history of catch fighting and amateur wrestling all the way back to the 1800s. He complains that modern amateur wrestling is all about power and maneuvering for points and says he doesn't even watch the Olympics anymore. It's actually super fascinating as he details various amature techniques used in different Olympic competitions and where they originated from.
He tells a story of how when he was a teenager, his coach Billy Riley (who was 55 years old) would walk with him down the street and often try to grapple with Billy or show him some maneuver right there and Billy says people would stare at them like they were homosexuals and says it was so embarrassing. At the time, homosexuality was illegal in England.
Billy Robinson is critical of modern coaching, which he says consists of the coach giving a ton of positive feedback. Billy Robinson won multiple amature championship tournaments and bouts but never heard a good word from Billy Riley. When Billy Robinson won his first amature world title, he remembered Riley saying, "That was good." Riley would later explain that it wasn't his job to tell Robinson what was good, but it was his job to tell Robinson what was wrong and where he can correct himself. Interesting take on coaching.
In 1956, Billy placed 3rd at the nationals for amature wrestling. In 1957, he won the nationals tournament! Riley told Billy Robinson, "You've won all the cups and the medals. Why don't you take me out and buy me a steak dinner?" When Billy Robinson said he couldn't afford to, Riley said to him, "It just goes to show you kid, you can't buy steak with medals. It's time you turned pro."
Billy says he regrets not putting pro wrestling off another couple of years. He thinks he should have been amature wrestling in the Olympics. He beat everyone who eventually wrestled on the Brittish team, and he thought he could have won a medal.
Billy turned pro at 19 years old and was asked to help get pro wrestling going in Sweden. The problem was that the Sweden Olympic amature wrestling team wouldn't allow it unless the pros proved they were legit and could beat them in an amateur contest. Billy beat them all, including Alex Gronburg, a 2 time Olympic champion and former world champion, and Gosta Andersson, who quit after a minute, saying, "Hey, it's too dangerous for us."
Billy Robinson asked to go to Spain and wrestle for a new promotion, but as he was getting ready to leave, his coach Billy Riley warned him that if he worked for that company he would be black balled out of most major European wrestling companies. Robinson told Riley that he had given his word, and he said this was the first time he ever went against Riley's suggestion.
It didn't matter because Billy said the Spain promotion fizzled out before he even got there, but no one told him, and he flew to Spain for no reason.
He ended up staying in Spain, living with someone Billy referred to as "the English professor" who introduced him to people like Earnist Hemmingway and Sophia Loren and got Billy work in a movie
One day, the professor told Billy that his name was in the newspaper, and sure enough, Billy was being advertised in a new wrestling promotion. When Billy called them, he was informed that they had a job for him. For 2 years, 1960-1961, Billy wrestled in Spain and made a name for himself.
Billy would wrestle in tournaments and other tours during this time as well, in places like Germany and Belgium.
It was at these tournaments when Billy started noticing guys wanting to train with him and only him. Billy days. "It was odd!"
Billy loved zoos and had opinions on the good ones. He says he could spend all day just watching gorillas
Billy says he didn't like France much, saying that compared to places like Germany, Switzerland, and Austria, France was pretty dirty and gross back then.
Billy seems to have loved Lebanon the most, and being a huge history buff, Billy goes on a tangent about the history of Lebanon.
Billy wrestled in India in 1962, and on the way back, he stopped in Lebabon right before a war broke out, and he had to quickly escape.
Billy says his father told him that he should pretend to not know English and not be identified as an English speaking person. He said this advice helped him his while life while traveling.
The first time Billy got to India, he was shocked at the poverty and state of it. He remembers seeing dead animals all over the place and people sleeping in the streets among rats. Billy also puts over India and a big wrestling country and said he had a good time there.
Billy says he was fortunate to wrestle the original Dara Singh. Dara Singh was a huge name in India, and he eventually went to prison for killing 3 men. He did it because those 3 men killed his brother, so it was a revenge killing. Years later, he would be pardoned and released. This is when Billy beat him in India.
In India, it was legitimately against the law for a Muslim to wrestle against a Hindu, so the Muslim community "adopted" Billy Robinson as their guy to fight the Hundu guys. It's pretty fascinating imo.
After India, Billy wrestled in Napal and said he had a great time, even wrestling private matches for the King of Napal.
While in Napal, Billy was ribbed into approaching a live leopard and says it was the first time in his life that he ever felt fear.
Billy even helped some Americans set up a play for the King of Napal, where Billy was the stage manager and even took a couple of bumps on the hard wood floor. He says the King loved it so much that he called for an encore, so Billy had to do the painful bump again.
Billy recalls one time in Napal, a local accidently hit and killed a cow with his truck. Since cows were sacred, the man was killed right there, and his body hung from a lamppost.
While in Germany wrestling a tournament that was cross promoting with a ten pin bowling competition, Billy met his future wife Ursula. She was working on the bowling side and Billy on the wrestling side. Billy says when their eyes first locked, he was in the ring, and she was in the front row. Billy says, "It was the beginning of the end, for my single days." 18 months later she came to England and they got married.
Billy says he played some charity bowling games against the Beatles in the early 60s.
Dave Ruhl was an extremely popular face in Stampede Wrestling out of Calgary, and through his uncle Ray Steele, Dave got ahold of Billy and invited him to Calgary Billy says Stampede promoter Stu Hart saw Billy wrestle one match and then invite Billy to come to Stampede Wrestling.
While backstage at one of his first Stampede shows, he saw a bunch of big gues in the dressing room talking. Through eavesdropping, he heard them talking about football and asked them if they were wrestlers or football players. They said football players, and so Billy insisted they leave the dressing room. Things got tense and heated, but eventually, Billy made it clear that if they didn't leave, he would remove them. He says they all scurried out of the room and notes that one of them was a young Wayne Coleman, the future "Superstar" Billy Graham.
After reading Billy Graham's book, it's clear that these two fucking hated eachother, with Graham calling Billy a bully who took liberties with less experienced guys in the ring. In Graham's book, he details how poorly Robinson treated him when their paths crossed in Stampede Wrestling. Graham's book made no mention of Billy kicking him out of a locker room nor the supposed contract with Verne that forbade Robinson from hurting Graham.
Down the line when Billy came to Minnesota, Billy Robinson claimes that Billy Graham insisted that Verne write up a contract that prohibited Billy Robinson and Billy Graham from squaring up. I don't know the validity of this claim, but Billy Robinson says Billy Graham was so scared that he only came to Minnesota with the guarantee that Robinson wouldn't hurt him.
This claim about a contract and Graham refusing to work with Robinson, might come from the time in Minnesota when Graham opted out of working with him in favor of Wahoo McDaniel. One time they were matched up and Graham approached Robinson backstage and made a show of wrapping razor blades in his taped up hands, warning Robinson that if he attempted to shoot on him, that Graham would "shred you from your face to the tip of your toes." This is all from Graham's book, with Billy making no mention of it.
In Bruce Hart's book, he tells a story about how they had The Stomper penciled in to challenge NWA World Champion Dory Funk Jr, but they had The Stomper face Billy Robinson 2 weeks prior. The two meshed so poorly that it devolved into an ugly shoot, with the fans chanting boring at them. Eventually The Stomper left and got counted out, before getting to the back and telling Stu he is quitting. They had no choice but to put Robinson in his place, and while the match was amazing and Robinson would be a good face for Stampede at the time, even Bruce calls him a bully and finishes it by saying "here's not to you Mr Robinson, there is no place in Heaven for those who prey."
After Billy wrestled Dory Funk Jr in an 1 hour draw, and after Dory invited Billy to the States to wrestle.
Before heading over to the States full time, Billy did tours in England, Japan, Singapore, Hong Kong and Australia where he won the World title for a company that Jim Barnett was promoting.
Billy met Jack Brisco in Australia, shortly after winning the world title there. Billy remembers there first match together, saying that Jack was trying to show off a little too much so Billy said he showed him a simple catch hold that put poor Jack in the hospital for a couple days! Billy says the 2 became friends and calls him a good amateur wrestler and great guy.
Jack Brisco was the one who first told Billy about "shoot wrestlers" in the States. Billy never heard the term before but says a shooter is just another word for catch wrestling.
Billy mentions a rib that Jack Brisco and Dick Murdoch played on him during that Australia tour. Dick introduced Billy to chewing tobacco and purposely misinformed Billy on how to enjoy it. Billy swallowed the juice and vomiting all over the place.
Another time, Jack and Billy were up in Billy's hotel room all night, talking holds and even practicing them on one another. It was middle of the night, so Billy was in his underwear when Jack asked him to go get the newspaper from down the hall. The second Billy got in the hallway, Jack locked him out and made Billy sneak back to his room a few floors up in just his boxers. Billy said this was the nicest hotel in Australia, too.
Billy says he got his first taste of American pro wrestling in Hawaii, where he wrestled for several months. Every single guy who writes a wrestling book inevitably ends up doing a tour in Hawaii.
It was in Hawaii where Billy met Verne Gagne, who was "wrestling" a tour there, but really, Verne was on vacation and wrestling as a means to vacation for free. A lot of guys did that with Hawaii back in the day.
Billy and Verne wrestled a tag team match together, and after Verne made sure to watch how Billy was as a singles wrestler. Verne asked Billy to come back to the mainland in 1972.
Verne even asked Billy to train his son Greg, and they ended up inviting several other guys to a small wrestling camp. The group consisted of Verne's son Greg, Ric Flair, Ken Patera, Jim Bunzell (who would later team with Ken in AWA and be one half of the Killer Bee's in the WWE), Bob Bruggers (a former Miami Dophins linebacker), and Hossien Khosrow Vaziri (the future Iron Shiek).
An infamous story happened at this camp, early on, Shiek was the only one of the 6 who had amateur experience, and one day he was boasting to the others about how neither Verne or Billy could get him on his back in an amateur bout. Billy heard about this and challenged him immediately to spar. Shiek was successful in holding his stance on his knees, with Billy unable to turn him. So Billy viciously dropped his knee into Shiek's thigh, fucking him up bad. Then Billy casually rolled Shiek over and said "told you I could flip you."
Billy acknowledges Sheik as a very good amateur but says he has a big head a big mouth. He knew Shiek wasn't familiar with catch-as-catch-can, ankle submissions, neck cranks or double wristlocks and took advantage of him. Billy just casually says "I knelt on his thigh in a way we do. He couldn't walk for two days and couldn't work out at the camp for two weeks."
Billy remembers a match he did early on working for Verne, where a fan in the front row was being obnoxious and screaming at Billy all match. After the bout, Billy went and picked the fan up out of his seat and smacked him a few times and notes how the fan stayed quiet the rest of the show. When he got to the back he was chewed our by Verne who was afraid of a lawsuit. Billy says the fan ended up getting tickets to a future show.
In the middle of the book he goes on a rant about the history of how wrestling started in carnival tents and how champions made money. He calls Gorgeous George a "carnie wrestler" and credits him for accelerating the change in how the general audience looks at pro wrestlers. He resents the sentiment that all wrestlers are showmanship guys and puts over himself and others like Lou Thesz as legit tough guys. Billy is always putting over his skills as catch fighter in the book.
Billy says he and Lou Thesz became pretty good friends.
Billy says Lou Thesz would call Ed "Strangler" Louis as the best wrestler of all time, while Billy says he would call Billy Joyce the best of all time. But he says that Billy Joyce said that George Gregory was the best of all time.
Billy describes one time he wrestled Verne Gagne with Lou Thesz as the special referee. Billy says that he and Verne weren't getting along at this point, so throughout the match, Billy was sorta abusing Verne and taunting him the whole time. Billy says he kept turning to Lou and saying "Look at this Lou!" And "What do you think of this Lou?" As he took advantage of Verne. Eventually Lou piped up and said, "Jesus Billy, take it easy on him, he is the boss."
Ed "Strangler" Louise had an "open" contract, meaning that if you were matched up against him and wanted to shoot, Ed encouraged it. What a badass.
John Pesek was a wrestler with legit Olynpic credentials. John Pesek decided to shoot on Ed Lewis when Ed was very sick and had boils all over. It was a hard fight but Ed won. Lou Thesz resented Pesek for attempting this and even had him black balled by the NWA later in his career. Lou never forgave John for shooting on Ed when Ed was sick and never admitted Pesek was talented in any way. Billy clarifies that John Pesek was legitimate in the ring and tells this story as a way to show Lou Thesz power back in those days.
Ben Assirati was a freakishly strong guy who was known as a legit street fighter. Billy says he was a masochist who not only liked to hurt people in the ring, but also liked to get hurt, himself. Ben Assirati tried to start a rival promotion in England, and was challenged to a legitimate shoot fight by promoters (and world class ass kickers) George Gregory and Billy Joyce, but Ben turned them down. Of course, when Lou Thesz was NWA Champion and touring through England, Ben made a big show of challenging him beforehand and even got the newspapers to print about it. On the night of the show, Lou had police block the entrance and not let Ben in the arena. Billy tells this story as if Lou was turning down Ben's challenge for the way he turned down Gregory and Joyce. But Billy really puts over Ben Assirati as a scary guy in the ring and says that people actually died in the ring with Ben. Wild claim that I couldn't back up online, though there are a ton of stories to speak on Ben's notorioty in the ring.
In Lou Thesz memoir, he stated that he challenged Ben first multiple times and Ben refused all of them
Billy says that when he first got to the States, Lou Thesz and Karl Gotch were close friends who respected one another. But something happened that led to the two refusing to speak to one another.
Billy says a lot of old timers were hot heads, and gives an example of when his son was born. Billy named him Spencer after Winston Churchill, but Karl Gotch got angry at this and said it should have been a powerful name like Thor or something silly. Billy says that he and Karl nearly came to blows in the street over this. So whatever fractured the relationship between Gotch and Thesz, it was probably minor and petty.
When talking about modern wrestlers, Billy always refers to them in quotations. Like in his book he says "pro wrestlers" as if he is air quoting when talking about modern guys.
Billy says a big difference between wrestling in America vs England was how much guys talked in the ring in America (called spots). Billy says this never happens over seas and says he didn't call spots verbally.
Another big difference is how pay structure worked. In America it was all based on the house and what the promoter felt you earned. Over seas, Billy says he and the promoter would sit alone and discuss the pay prior to the match. Ticket sales were irrelevant, you always got paid what you agreed to. He says America is where all the backstabbing and politicking started in wrestling.
Billy says Danny Hodge was probably one of the most dangerous guys from his time wrestling and puts him over as one ofthe greatest American wrestlers ever.
Billy describes an interesting concept for wrestling promoters back in his day. Every promoter had what he called a "policman" wrestler. When a new guy came in and wanted to challenge the top draw, he would face this "policman" wrestler as the top draw or promoter watched closely. For example, if you were looking to challenge Lou Thesz, first you would face Ray Steele as Thesz watched and judged, then after he and Ray would talk about the guy together.
While working for Verne Gagne in the early 70s, Billy was asked to wrestle with a green as grass guy and Verne told Billy to go 10 minutes before he beat him. This baffled Billy and Verne had to explain its a taping and they need to put on a good show. Billy says he shouldn't have done that, especially considering how Verne would go on to screw with Billy's payoffs down the line.
Billy says he took the kid down at the 9 minute mark and stretched him, nearly breaking his elbow as he screamed and cried and tapped out. Billy says the guy gave an interview later and said pro wrestling is the nastiest and most dangerous sport there is. Billy chuckles at this but he took some rookie and killed any interest the kid had in wrestling while abusing him.
Billy tells a wild story about a short real fight he had with Peter Maivia in Japan. Billy, Peter and a few other guys were eating at a restaurant when Peter got upset at how the menu and ordering system worked. Peter got so worked up that Billy yelled at him to calm down. Later as Billy was walking towards his hotel, a drunk Peter Maivia approached Billy looking for a fight. Billy attempted to restrain him, telling Peter as he held him, "Peter stop it. I don't want to hurt you." But Peter in his enraged, drunken state goes to bite Billy in the neck! Billy, having been trained in self defense and combat like this, knew to tuck his chin to save his neck, but Peter still bit down hard and into Billy's face! Billy says he still had scars from this 40 or 50 years later! When blood started pouring down Billy's cheek, he snapped and laid out Peter with an unspecified number of strikes that left Peter with a broken nose and two black eyes. He says the fight lasted all of 15 seconds. Billy says he had to go to the hospital to get stitches and shot for a human bite.
The next morning, Billy nearly kicked Peter's door down and told Peter he is lucky to be alive. Billy points out how biting the neck is an attempt to kill him, so he gives Peter a chance to try again. A very sober Peter backed down immediately
Billy says he saw an interview on Tv where The Rock claimed that Peter Maivia bit Billy's eye out and he needed surgery. Billy refutes this claim and says the only eye surgery he ever had was when he was a kid.
Billy says a lot of guys would spar once or train once with someone and then spend their whole career saying they were trained by that person. He gave an example of one time, Bill Watts called him up asking about Johnny Eagles, who said he trained at Billy's gym. Billy had a good laugh because Eagles stopped by his gym one time to borrow money.
Billy often goes on tangents or rants about bullies and how much he hates them. He calls them cowards who always back down when challenged. I guess that's why he doesn't see himself as a bully, while almost everyone who came up after him clarifies him as the biggest bully they ever met. I've read several, several dozen wrestling book, and only 1 guy didn't have anything bad to say about Billy. That was Dynamite Kid, who didn't have anything nice to say about Billy either. He was just the only guy to bring up Billy Robinson and not rant about how awful of a person he was.
If the only guy to not have a negative story about you in Dynamite Kid, then you may be an asshole imo.
Billy says he was AWA World Heavyweight Champion for 24 hours "until they changed the decision on me." I'm not a big AWA buff so if anyone knows this story I would like to hear it.
Billy briefly mentions the Gagne produced movie in 1974 movie, "The Wrestler" but unfortunately Billy has no tales from the set or stories about it at all. Billy alongside Dusty Rhodes and Dick Murdoch all appeared in the film.
One time while in Alberta wrestling for Stampede, Billy was invited along with a couple other wrestlers to have dinner with the Primier of Alberta (like a State Governor) and at the event Billy was asked to join the premieres wife in the morning. So when the wife reminded Billy about coming by at 8am the next morning, Billy used British slang in response and said "Yes, I'll come knock you up at 8 o'clock tomorrow." Poor Billy had to explain that where he's from, someone waking you up in the morning by knocking on your door is a knocker upper.
Billy calls Canadian wrestler George Gordienko the strongest wrestler he ever got in the ring with. George Gordienko was originally hoping to be a doctor before becoming an exceptionally successful wrestler and someone who Lou Thesz once called one of the best of all time. Gordienko has been lost to time for the most part since he was banned from the United States during the McCarthy era. George married a woman who was the head of a communist party in America and poor George never got to return. He continued to wrestle in the UK until a bad ankle injury forced him to retire. He pivoted again and became a pretty succesful artist. Super fascinating story imo.
Over in Japan, Karl Gotch was working for Giant Baba in the Japan Pro Wrestling Alliance and their competition, the International Wrestling Enterprise contacted Billy Riley and asked who was the best catch wrestler available to counter Gotch, who was doing big business for JWA. Riley immediately suggested Robinson, who was quickly invited to Japan for the IWE.
Karl and Billy were friends but working for rival promotions in Japan, so they could only meet and get together in secret.
Billy ended up winning the World title for the IWE and they asked him to move his family to Japan long-term.
Billy wasn't having a good time coaching the young Japanese guys and complained to Karl Gotch that it seems like their minds are elsewhere. Karl advised Billy to hurt one of them to get them in line. Billy refused and said he was their coach, he wasn't supposed to hurt them. This is wild to hear from Billy, who's entire reputation among the next generation was that he was a bully who liked to hurt people.
A week later Billy got caught in a snowstorm after fighting with his wife, so he was in a bad mood as he walked into the gym to train the young guys. One of them mouthed off so Billy says he lined them all up and wrestled each of them into submission. He calls it an accident, bit says he ended up breaking one of their arms that day and after that all the young guys took everything more seriously and treated Billy with more respect and admiration.
Billy seems to have mixed feelings on his time in Japan since he did well and early on was treated well by promoters. He said in Japan if you have something someone needs, you're a God in their eyes and your treated as such. He says if you need something from someone though, they always make it clear that they are in charge and treat you poorly. He says he and Karl both started to really resent the culture there towards the end of their runs in Japan.
It was after or near the end of his Japan tour that Billy and his wife got divorced. He doesn't expand on it in any way in his book. Barely gets a passing mention.
In the mid-70s Billy was in rough shape, his drinking was out of control and his knee was beyond fucked. Billy started working odd jobs outside the wrestling business, including a security job gig in Las Vegas where he was training other security guards and he managed a gas station in Minnesota. Billy calls this the lowest point of his life and says the gas station job was the most boring thing he ever did in his life.
Antonio Inoki contacted Billy when he was running the gas station and invited him to Japan for a big celebration show where they would have a match. Billy doesn't speak highly of the match and says he just had knee surgery and could barely get in the ring, but if you look up reports on his 1975 match with Inoki, all you see is massive, massive praise and people calling it one of the best matches ever at the time.
Billy calls Inoki the best Japanese wrestler of all time.
Yuko Miyato of The Union of Wrestling Forces International (UWFI) contacted Billy and sent him to Nashville to train guys to go to Japan for them and Billy says between himself and Karl Gotch, every wrestler they trained went on to be world champions. Billy lists Shigeo Miyato and Nobuhiko Takada as examples.
Billy says Yuko Miyato "really saved me." Billy says he was drinking excessively and gained a ton of weight after the divorce, and that his knees and hips had to be replaced. Billy says his nervous system was fucked up from all the years of grappling and he couldn't effectively train anymore. He got a 2nd life back in Japan and even became the head coach at his old Snake Pit gym after Riley passed away in 1977. Billy says he ended spending 15 years in Japan training the next generation of catch/mma fighters.
Billy talks about the difference in training Japanese guys compared to others, since Japanese guys are more scientific and teach techniques down to the specificity. Billy didn't teach like that, he taught concepts and ideas that anyone could use on anyone else. He struggled to get some guys over the "belt system" in Japan where a brown belt guy would never challenge a black belt guys. Billy says anyone can beat the best, regardless of their belt.
Near the end of the book, Billy again rants about modern guys and how they know one or two moves and consider themselves catch style wrestlers. Billy also rants again about bullies and how you don't train people by taking advantage of them. (Tell that to Iron Sheik) Billy cites Verne Gagne as an example of a guy who didn't know how to spar or lock in submissions, and would train guys by exhausting them before he jumped on them and shot for a hold. Billy says he and Karl Gotch resented that and made sure their training camps were the opposite of that. It's funny because Billy literally did this stuff with Verne Gagne! Maybe he is implying that he learned then not to that stuff, but he doesn't outright say it. Billy as as guilty of bullying as the Verne imo.
Billy thinks modern MMA is shooting themselves in the foot for not having pinfalls. He says that fighting off your back is exciting and opens the door for more to be done. He says that when a guy is trying not to get pinned, he may leave an opening somewhere for the other guy to take advantage of.
Billy complains how modern boxers are looking for knockouts and training to knock people out. He says that's not how it's done, you fight and wait for the opening, Billy says you wait for the knockout to come to you, you don't go looking for it. He laments the same thing in submissions as well, saying you don't go looking to lock in a submission, you maneuver around and wait for the opening to present itself. You wait for the submission to come to you. He is extremely critical of modern "catch style" wrestlers/ fighters.
Billy is critical of modern wrestling and fighting having such short time limits, saying that short 2 or 3 minute rounds means that it's all about power.
The book ends with Billy ranting about modern fighters and amateur wrestlers and how Catch wrestling was the greatest sport of all time. I hope I love something as much as Billy loved catch-as-catch-can wrestling.
Billy passed away 1 year after this book came out, and it's said he died peacefully in his sleep.

Where should we go? what are your favorite recommendations?! We are moving to Fredrick Maryland, from San Diego, visiting family in the Bay Area and South Lake Tahoe then headed out from there. We will possibly have our two cats if this makes a difference on your recommendations! (Icons on map are not locations I’ve marked)

Halo semua,
Gua lulusan S2 salah satu kampus besar di Jabodetabek, S1 di kampus yang "tidak terlihat" di wilayah Jawa Tengah - Timur. Saat ini gua sedang kerja di salah satu lembaga swasta. Untuk S2 ilmu eksakta tanpa pengalaman kerja, gaji gua saat ini >Rp. 5.000.000 dan gaji Tugas-tugasnya bisa gua lakukan dengan baik, utamanya pekerjaan gua itu berhubungan dengan penyelenggaraan kegiatan belajar mengajar, dan didukung oleh grup komunitas. Tidak terlalu ngoyo dengan tech, tapi juga ada tech side yang lumayan buat loncat kembali ke S3.
Lingkungan kerja plus minus, teman-teman gue millenials dan gen z, ada boomer juga (yang tentu sumber kekesalan sekantor), dan ada jatah WFH nya, meskipun saat ini sedang jatah tersebut sedang dimain-mainkan oleh manajemen.
Ibarat kata, they are currently showing their might in front of employees.
Stres ada, tapi lebih ke lingkungan dan hubungan gue dengan komunitas. Lingkungan kerja juga cenderung lambat dan tidak terlalu mengejar target. Makanya nyaman. Gue masih dependen (rumah dan makan saja, dengan bayar bulanan ke ortu).
Gua saat ini sudah masuk bulan ke 7 - 12 bekerja, dan kontrak gue mau habis. Secara default gue akan perpanjang kontrak, kecuali manajemen memutuskan gak suka sama gue lagi. Gue ada pertimbangan mau studi lanjut ke LN, dimotivasi keinginan gue untuk jadi peneliti, pindah ke LN, dan ada dasar pengalaman kerja dengan topik kerja kantor yang kebetulan ada bersinggungan dengan akademisi.
Salah satu yang gue rindukan di dunia kuliah itu "tenggang rasa", "fleksibilitas", "jujur apa adanya", "berani di depan muka". Perilaku beracun (toxic) di kantor itu umumnya pasang muka poker, lalu bicarakan di meja rapat manajemen, dan kemudian jadikan hukuman berjamaah (collective punishment). Juga sifat manajemen yang selalu "melarang pegawai merasa nyaman".
Tapi gua juga sadar, di akademia juga sama sulitnya: jam istirahat tak menentu, tekanan stres bisa memuncak sewaktu-waktu, dan kalau terisolir, sama depresinya dengan saat bekerja. Tapi yang gua rindu dari akademia itu rasa nyaman dan tenteram yang entah kenapa selalu ada, bisa menikmati kebebasan akademik, tanpa terkunkung jadwal yang baku, dan bersih dari office politics (Faculty politics tetap ada, tapi tidak semengerikan dan sekonsisten politik kantor).
Entah kenapa, gue gak terlalu ambisius untuk cuan, meskipun kekhawatiran finansial itu tetap ada, dan gua sadar gua gak bisa dependen terus menerus. Gua juga ingin mandiri dan bisa memenuhi impian gue (minimal fisik atraktif dan punya stamina, ada uang untuk bisa ngapain aja). Di samping itu, gua mau masuk dunia tech tapi sadar dengan hustle culture dan rapid learning culture, gua bakal tertindas juga.
Apakah komodos ada mau berbagi cerita tentang percabangan jalan ini? Antara work dan academia? Gua dulu ambil S2 sempat karena takut kerja, dan skg gua kembali "anxious" dan ingin kembali ke kenyamanan akademia. Apa definisi nyaman teman-teman? Apakah bekerja dari kontrak ke kontrak termasuk nyaman dalam penilaian teman-teman? Apakah teman-teman merasa "terlambat" e.g. terlambat nikah dan punya anak akhirnya harus siap membiayai anak-anak menjelang bahkan saat sudah pensiun, atau terlambat memulai karir sehingga perusahaan impian tidak bisa digapai lagi karena batas umur?
*Pengalaman relatif, mungkin ada yang terbalik dan berbeda, harap maklum.

EDIT: Updated as of May 4th, 2024

SWGoH Tools:

1. Mod Speed Calibration Chances (Will show you which mods of yours has the greatest odds of rolling a speed increase upon a calibration attempt) - Creator detailed it here
2. SWGoH Companion Doc (Detailed spreadsheet of your mods, GAC overview, and collection)
3. SWGoH Events Tracker (Self-explanatory, tracks the upcoming events and shows event cycles)
4. Journey Guide Visualizer (Gives you a visual breakdown of all the journey guide characters and how far you’ve come to unlocking them)
5. Ship Stats Calculator (Shows you how changes to your pilot’s mods, gear level, relic level, etc. will affect the ship’s stats)
6. AhnaldT101’s Zeta Prioritization (Team-based zeta priority listing, all zetas ranked, all omicrons ranked, GAC/TB/TW team rankings, all characters ranked, etc.) - Last updated Apr 2024
7. Character Gear Cost and Visualizer (Can add any character at any gear or relic, and it will calculate off of where your character currently is what gear you need and cost for it. Can also add how much you currently have)
8. Roster Analysis (Does a few things. Compares your roster to your opponent’s roster and highlights the differences, and builds a full spreadsheet of all required gear, relic mats, shards, etc. for whatever character you choose)
9. Grandivory Mod Optimizer (Input ally code, select character(s), and it will fully optimize your mods for that character(s)) - Not mobile friendly
10. SWGoH.gg (Shows GAC history, counters, match-ups, guild data, player data, character data, etc.)
11. SWGoH Events & Datamine Discord (Theory crafting, datamine posts and speculation, game advice, etc.)
12. SWGoH Forums (Similar to Reddit, but more communication with/from the developers. Detailed view of current and upcoming SWGoH updates, road aheads, updates on bugs/glitches, events, etc.)
13. SWGoH.tv (SWGoH media hub. Content creators, streamers, live videos, etc.)
14. Mod Primary Stats By Slot (Shows what each mod does and it's associated stats)
15. MasterPlan ("MasterPlan is a powerful tool designed for SWGoH players who are serious about resource management. Think of it as a heavy-duty version of the incredible resources already out there, like gear.swgohevents and MoofCode") - Creator detailed it here, setup guide here
16. Grand Arena Science ("We're a community and resource center for the Grand Arena game mode within Star Wars: Galaxy of Heroes")
17. SWGoH Relic Scavenger Gear Guide (Helps you understand all things related to the gear used to craft relic materials)
18. SWGoH Tracker (You can type in your ally code below and see which characters, ships, and gear you need to unlock various things or help out your guild in Territory Battles or raids)
19. SWGoH Wiki (A guide and resource site with great detail on all things SWGoH)
20. SWGoH Team Manager
21. Interactive Geonosis TB Map (Pre-planning for the LS and DS Geonosis TB, interactive)
22. SWGoH Stats Generator (Spreadsheet that generates base stats for all characters and ships based on unit progression levels that you set)
23. Territory War Counters Spreadsheet (Shows the teams that are commonly placed on defense in TW and counter-viability of the teams commonly used on offense) - Creator detailed it here

SWGoH Discord Bots:

1. Mhanndalorian Bot ("This bot allows individual users to track their GAC stats, galactic power, gear quality, mod quality, rank, raid damage, and skill rating over time. In addition, users can compare their performance to other guild members and see the performance of their guild or alliance as a whole")
2. Mount Solo's Bot ("Pulls mod information for a character from SWGoH.gg")
3. HotUtils ("Discord interface for the HotUtils suite of products centered around providing player and guild management tools for SWGoH") - Requires paid subscription
4. EchoStation ("EchoBase is a collection of guild leadeofficer tools for the game Star Wars: Galaxy of Heroes")
5. Boba's Bot
6. C3PO Bot ("Star Wars related commands, including searching the wiki, a duel command, retrieving quotes, and a unique global ranking system with games!")
7. DSR Bot (Great comparison tool) - Creator detailed it here
8. OmegaBot (Omegabot does GAC scouting reports on Discord) - Creator detailed it here
9. WookieBot ("Raid team suggestions and an estimate of how well your guild should be doing in a raid. "WookieeBot provides a likelihood that, based on a player's roster, they cheated to attain legendary and journey characters") - Creator detailed it here, WookieBot's Discord server's website here
10. GuildCommander (Generate TB-Command templates to set TB Commands, generate TW-Message (only defense) templates to set TW Messages, share TB/TW Templates with your guild officers, etc.) - Creator detailed it here
11. SWGoH Events Bot (Keeps your server up-to-date on SWGoH events)
12. Discord.js (Build your own bots using the Discord API)

SWGoH Discord Servers:

1. SWGoH Events (Largest general SWGoH server)
2. SWGoH HELP (3rd party developer community)
3. SWGoH Espanol (Spanish community server)
4. SWGoH Türkiye (Turkish community server)
5. 50 Shards Of KAM (Server that specializes in the KAM LSGTB mission)
6. Imperial Fleet Server (Server dedicated to fleets/ships)
7. To Catch a Cheater (Advice on if you suspect a cheater)
8. SWGoH Wiki's Discord Server
9. Unite For SWGoH (Guild leaders and officers only)
10. SWGoH University
11. SWGoH Kit Ideas
12. SWGoH Bots (Server that collects all SWGoH Discord bots)

SWGoH Android Emulators for PC:

SWGoH is now available as a dedicated PC download. You can pre-register for the PC client here!

1. BlueStacks (Most popular emulator for SWGoH)
2. Memu
3. NoxPlayer
4. Android Studio

PopulaHelpful SWGoH Content Creators:

1. AhnaldT101
2. APGains
3. Xaereth Prevails
4. Galaxy of Zeroes Podcast (17 episodes, March - October 2023)
5. Calvin Awesome
6. NOOCH2GUD
7. Songeta
8. Phatphil
9. BitDynasty
10. The Playbook
11. Darth Loquiter
12. Skelturix (Quit playing SWGoH, but videos are still available for help/info. Last video June 2023)
13. Tassenix Gaming
14. Scrybe Gaming
15. The Gerbil
16. Egnards
17. TriPollicis
18. CeliacSarah
19. Captain Amazing

SWGoH, en Español:

1. Lolindir (Largest Español SWGoH content creator)
2. WookieNews (Español website for the WookieNews Twitch and Youtube channels that includes information on the game)
3. SWGoH Espanol (Español community Discord server)

SWGoH, en Français:

1. Pepito SWGoH (Largest French SWGoH content creator)

Beginner's Guides:

1. Darth Loquiter's 'Beginner's Guide' playlist
2. Darth Loquiter's 'Mod Mastery' playlist
3. Darth Loquiter's 'Efficiency' playlist
4. AhnaldT101's 'In-Depth Characters' playlist (A bit outdated, still useful for new players)
5. AhnaldT101's 'New Player + F2P GoH' playlist
6. APGain's 'SWGoH Guides' playlist
7. APGain's 'When To Farm' playlist
8. APGains '2024 Farming Guide'
9. Skelturix's 'Assault Battles Guides' playlist
10. NOOCH2GUD's 'How To Mod Everything' playlist
11. NOOCH2GUD's 'Beginners Guides' playlist
12. NOOCH2GUD's 'SWGoH Counters' playlist
13. Calvin Awesome's 'Mods' playlist
14. Calvin Awesome's 'Character Crash Course' playlist
15. Calvin Awesome's 'Zetas' playlist
16. Xaereth Prevail's 'Faction Ranking Project' playlist
17. Xaereth Prevail's 'Fleet Counter Series' playlist
18. Xaereth Prevail's 'Unlock Guides' playlist
19. TriPollicis's 'Galactic Conquest' playlist
20. TriPollicis's 'Ships' playlist
21. TriPollicis's 'Galactic Challenges' playlist
22. Songeta's 'Squads For Noobs' playlist
23. Songeta's 'Datacrons' playlist
24. Songeta's 'Tutorials' playlist
25. Songeta's '2024 F2P Farming Guide'
26. Songeta's 'Resources' playlist

Beginner's Guides, en Español:

1. Lolindir's 'Tier List SWGoH' playlist
2. Lolindir's 'Guias De Mods' playlist
3. Lolindir's 'Parches & Kits de Habilidades' playlist
4. Guia De Conquista En Espanol (Está desactualizado, pero sigue siendo útil)

Other SWGoH Subreddits:

1. SWGoH_Guilds (Guild recruiting)
2. GalaxyOfHeroes (Another SWGoH subreddit) - Not currently active
3. SWGalaxyOfMemes (SWGoH meme page)
4. SWGoHCharacterIdeas (Subreddit to submit character and kit ideas)
5. SWGoH (Another SWGoH subreddit)

If I forgot to add something, please either message me or leave it in the comments!

I have a 1982 Porsche 911sc and I had very annoying problems only when I start the engine.
When it runs it runs great and fantastic. great acceleration, very responsive to the gas pedal. idle stays at 1,000 like a clock...but...when I have to start the car is always a moment of "roll the dice":
a small premise: I had hot start issues (car wont start immediately but after 4-5 seconds cranking) whenever I go for a short trip, I stop for say 20min - 1 hour. it becomes hard to start
Given my battery is new, and alternator recently rebuilt and always above 12.7V, I was told to replace fuel accumulator or the check valve. Also since my fuel pump was very noisy/buzzy , I decided to replace all of them in different phases to address all the problem together. and here comes the probem.
Week 1: I replaced the fuel accumulator and fuel filter together. the car was running great, and at start it was ok.. still minor slow start but better than before. no gas leaks after checking several times the engine bay. the filter and accumulator do smell a bit of gas, but I gues is normal? they were dirty with gas and I observed them 10 times so I would exclude any leak.
Week 2: I replaced the fuel pump in the morning. the pump is finally quiet. i drove around during the same afternoon and everything seemed ok. no gas smell, no leaks. start correctly and normal. stopped for errands and it was all good.
the day after (today): I go to the garage, early morning, coldish, the car starts after few cranks but with low RPM. it shakes a bit, and oscilaltes around 700RPM. I wait 30-30 seconds of rough idle and gently press the gas, it revives... after a minute I can finally drive away and everything become normal and responsive. in the same afternoon after an hour driving, I stops for lunch and I go to restart I get again the same issue a bit worse: slow rpm at start, several cranks...but if I press gas it dies. so again I need to wait like 20-30 seconds of rough shaky idle before I can press the pedal...
**bottom line:*\*
I was told these issues are usually related to fuel+pressure = replace filteaccumulato/pump/check valve... but everything is brand new!! ugh. sure maybe I was so unlucky that all the parts are faulty?
is my question: if the fuel pump was bad... wouldn't I get a rough drive / sputtering o r bad response after warm up? same logic fo the valve? why only AT start? and not while driving???
my last ideas would be the oxygen sensor (which was replaced few years ago, but the connector is corroded and maybe disconnected?
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i don't know what else to do other than buy all the components brand new again...and replace them one by one isolating the issues
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After the past couple of posts I've made (thank you for the suggestions to help fill in the missing hidden gems/overlooked titles!) I've ended up with a total of 490 titles in my collection. I was going to just round off the collection with a few demo discs to wrap it up and store it as a "Top 500 PSX" collection. But i figured id share my list one last time to see if anybody thinks there's a game more deserving of the last 10 spots. i was able to create a text doc of my collection rather than screenshots. I know there's way more than 500 games for this console but I'm trying to avoid doubles and junk bloating the numbers. I'll leave this post open for a week and then update the list and add the last 10 games(or demos). if there's more than 10 more recommendations then ill add the 10 most upvoted, if there's less than 10 more recommendations in a week then ill add a few demos. anyways, here's my list:

• 3Xtreme (USA).chd
• 007 - The World Is Not Enough (USA).chd
• 007 - Tomorrow Never Dies (USA).chd
• 40 Winks (USA).chd
• Ace Combat 2 (USA).chd
• Ace Combat 3 - Electrosphere (English v1.1).m3u
• Adventures of Lomax, The (USA).chd
• Akuji the Heartless (USA).chd
• Alien Resurrection (USA).chd
• Alien Trilogy (USA).chd
• Alone in the Dark - One-Eyed Jack's Revenge (USA).chd
• Alone in the Dark - The New Nightmare (USA).m3u
• Alundra (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Alundra 2 - A New Legend Begins (USA).chd
• Ape Escape (USA).chd
• Apocalypse (USA).chd
• Arc the Lad Collection - Arc the Lad (USA).chd
• Arc the Lad Collection - Arc the Lad II (USA).chd
• Arc the Lad Collection - Arc the Lad III (USA).m3u
• Armored Core - Master of Arena (USA).m3u
• Armored Core - Project Phantasma (USA).chd
• Armored Core (USA) (Reprint).chd
• Army Men - Air Attack (USA).chd
• Army Men - Air Attack 2 (USA).chd
• Army Men - Green Rogue (USA).chd
• Army Men - Sarge's Heroes (USA).chd
• Army Men - Sarge's Heroes 2 (USA).chd
• Army Men - World War - Final Front (USA).chd
• Army Men - World War - Land, Sea, Air (USA).chd
• Army Men - World War - Team Assault (USA).chd
• Army Men - World War (USA).chd
• Army Men 3D (USA).chd
• Assault Rigs (USA).chd
• Azure Dreams (USA).chd
• Baldur's Gate.m3u
• Baroque - Yuganda Mousou (English v1.02).chd
• Batman - Gotham City Racer (USA).chd
• Batman & Robin (USA).chd
• Batman Beyond - Return of the Joker (USA).chd
• Batman Forever - The Arcade Game (USA).chd
• Battle Arena Toshinden (USA).chd
• Battle Arena Toshinden 2 (USA).chd
• Battle Arena Toshinden 3 (USA) (En,Ja).chd
• Beavis and Butt-Head in Virtual Stupidity (English v1.0).chd
• Beyond the Beyond (USA).chd
• Bio F.R.E.A.K.S. (USA).chd
• Bishi Bashi Special (Europe).chd
• Blaster Master - Blasting Again (USA).chd
• Blasto (USA).chd
• Blazing Dragons (USA).chd
• Blood Omen - Legacy of Kain (USA).chd
• Bloody Roar (USA).chd
• Bloody Roar II (USA).chd
• Boku no Natsuyasumi - Summer Holiday 20th Century (Japan).chd
• Bomberman World (USA).chd
• Brahma Force - The Assault on Beltlogger 9 (USA).chd
• Brave Fencer Musashi (USA).chd
• Breath of Fire III (USA).chd
• Breath of Fire IV (USA).chd
• Brigandine - The Legend of Forsena (USA).chd
• Broken Sword - The Shadow of the Templars (USA).chd
• Broken Sword II - The Smoking Mirror (USA).chd
• Bubble Bobble also featuring Rainbow Islands (USA).chd
• Bugs Bunny - Lost in Time (USA) (En,Fr,Es).chd
• Bugs Bunny & Taz - Time Busters (USA) (En,Fr,Es).chd
• Burning Road (USA).chd
• Bushido Blade (USA).chd
• Bushido Blade 2 (USA).chd
• Bust A Groove (USA).chd
• Bust A Groove 2 (USA).chd
• Bust-A-Move 4 (USA).chd
• Bust-A-Move '99 (USA).chd
• Buster Bros. Collection (USA).chd
• C-12 - Final Resistance (USA).chd
• Capcom vs. SNK Pro (USA).chd
• Carmageddon (Europe) (En,Fr,Es,It).chd
• Castlevania - Symphony of the Night (USA).chd
• Chocobo Racing (USA).chd
• Chocobo's Dungeon 2 (USA).chd
• Chou Jikuu Yousai Macross - Ai Oboete Imasu ka (Japan).m3u
• Chrono Cross (USA).m3u
• Civilization II (USA).chd
• Clock Tower (USA).chd
• Clock Tower II - The Struggle Within (USA).chd
• Colin McRae Rally 2.0 (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It) (Rev 2).chd
• Colony Wars - Red Sun (USA).chd
• Colony Wars - Vengeance (USA).chd
• Colony Wars (USA).m3u
• Command & Conquer - Red Alert - Retaliation (Allies).chd
• Command & Conquer - Red Alert - Retaliation (Soviet).chd
• Command & Conquer - Red Alert (Allies).chd
• Command & Conquer - Red Alert (Soviet).chd
• Command & Conquer (GDI).chd
• Command & Conquer (NOD).chd
• Contra - Legacy of War (USA).chd
• Cool Boarders 4 (USA).chd
• Cool Boarders 2001 (USA).chd
• Crash Bandicoot - Warped (USA).chd
• Crash Bandicoot (USA).chd
• Crash Bandicoot 2 - Cortex Strikes Back (USA).chd
• Crash Bash (USA).chd
• Criticom (USA).chd
• Croc - Legend of the Gobbos (USA).chd
• Croc 2 (USA).chd
• Crusaders of Might and Magic (USA).chd
• CTR - Crash Team Racing (USA).chd
• CyberSled (USA).chd
• Darkstalkers 3 (USA).chd
• Darkstone (USA).chd
• Dave Mirra Freestyle BMX - Maximum Remix (USA).chd
• Deception III - Dark Delusion (USA).chd
• Descent (USA).chd
• Destruction Derby (USA).chd
• Destruction Derby 2 (USA).chd
• Destruction Derby Raw (USA).chd
• Devil Dice (USA).chd
• Diablo (USA) (En,Fr,De,Sv).chd
• Die Hard Trilogy (USA).chd
• Digimon - Digital Card Battle (USA).chd
• Digimon Rumble Arena (USA).chd
• Digimon World (USA).chd
• Digimon World 2 (USA).chd
• Digimon World 2003 (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Dino Crisis (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Dino Crisis 2 (USA).chd
• Discworld II - Mortality Bytes! (USA).chd
• Discworld Noir (Europe) (En,Es,It).chd
• Disney's Treasure Planet (USA).chd
• Disruptor (USA).chd
• Doom (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Dragon Quest IV - Michibikareshi Mono-tachi (Japan).chd
• Dragon Quest Monsters 1 & 2 - Hoshifuri no Yuusha to Bokujou no Nakama-tachi (Japan).chd
• Dragon Warrior VII (USA).m3u
• Driver - You Are the Wheelman (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Driver 2 (USA) (Rev 1).m3u
• Duke Nukem - Land of the Babes (USA).chd
• Duke Nukem - Time to Kill (USA).chd
• Duke Nukem - Total Meltdown (USA).chd
• Dune 2000 (USA).chd
• Dynasty Warriors (USA).chd
• E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial - Interplanetary Mission (USA).chd
• Earthworm Jim 2 (NTSC).chd
• Echo Night (USA).chd
• Echo Night 2 - Nemuri no Shihaisha (English Patched).chd
• Eggs of Steel - Charlie's Eggcellent Adventure (USA).chd
• Ehrgeiz - God Bless the Ring (USA).chd
• Einhaender (USA).chd
• Elemental Gearbolt (USA).chd
• ESPN Extreme Games (USA).chd
• Eternal Eyes (USA).chd
• Evil Zone (USA).chd
• Fear Effect (USA).m3u
• Fear Effect 2 - Retro Helix (USA) (Rev 1).m3u
• Felony 11-79 (USA).chd
• Fighting Force (USA) (Rev 2).chd
• Final Doom (USA).chd
• Final Fantasy Anthology - Final Fantasy VI (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Final Fantasy Chronicles - Chrono Trigger (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Final Fantasy Chronicles - Final Fantasy IV (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Final Fantasy IX (USA) (Rev 1).m3u
• Final Fantasy Origins (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Final Fantasy Tactics (USA).chd
• Final Fantasy VII (USA).m3u
• Final Fantasy VIII (USA).m3u
• Frogger (USA).chd
• Front Mission 2 (English).chd
• Front Mission 3 (USA).chd
• Future Cop - L.A.P.D. (USA).chd
• G. Darius (USA).chd
• Gauntlet Legends (USA).chd
• Gex - Enter the Gecko (USA).chd
• Gex (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Gex 3 - Deep Cover Gecko (USA).chd"
• Ghost in the Shell (USA).chd
• Goemon - Shin Sedai Shuumei (English v1.0).chd
• G-Police (USA).m3u
• Gradius Gaiden (Japan) (Rev 1).chd
• Gran Turismo (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Gran Turismo 2 (USA) (Arcade Mode) (Rev 1).chd
• Gran Turismo 2 (USA) (Simulation Mode) (Rev 2).chd
• Grand Theft Auto - Mission Pack 1 - London 1969 (USA).chd
• Grand Theft Auto (USA).chd
• Grand Theft Auto 2 (USA).chd
• Grandia (USA).m3u
• Granstream Saga, The (USA).chd
• Guardian's Crusade (USA).chd
• Gundam Battle Assault (USA).chd
• Gundam Battle Assault 2 (USA).chd
• Harmful Park (Japan) [T-En by Hilltop v1.1].chd
• Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (USA) (En,Fr,Es).chd
• Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (USA) (En,Fr,Es).chd
• Harvest Moon - Back to Nature (USA).chd
• Heart of Darkness (USA).m3u
• Herc's Adventures (USA).chd
• Hermie Hopperhead - Scrap Panic (Japan).chd
• Hogs of War (USA).chd
• I.Q - Intelligent Qube (USA).chd
• I.Q Final (Japan).chd
• In Cold Blood (USA).m3u
• Incredible Crisis (USA).chd
• Internal Section (Japan) [T-En by GameHacking.org v1.02].chd
• Iru (v1.0).chd
• Jade Cocoon - Story of the Tamamayu (USA).chd
• Jersey Devil (USA).chd
• Jet de Go! Let's Go by Airliner (Japan).chd
• Jet Moto (USA).chd
• Jet Moto 2 - Championship Edition (USA).chd
• Jet Moto 3 (USA).chd
• Jumping Flash! (USA).chd
• Jumping Flash! 2 (USA).chd
• K-1 Revenge (USA).chd
• K-1 The Arena Fighters (USA).chd
• Kagero - Deception II (USA).chd
• Kartia - The Word of Fate (USA).chd
• Kaze no Notam - Notam of Wind (Japan, Asia).chd
• Kickboxing (USA).chd
• King's Field (USA).chd
• King's Field II (USA).chd
• Kitchen Panic (Japan).chd
• Klaymen Klaymen - Neverhood no Nazo (English Patched).chd
• Klonoa - Door to Phantomile (USA).chd
• Koudelka (USA).m3u
• Krazy Ivan (USA).chd
• Land Before Time, The - Big Water Adventure (USA).chd
• Land Before Time, The - Great Valley Racing Adventure (USA).chd
• Land Before Time, The - Return to the Great Valley (USA).chd
• Langrisser IV (English v1.3) .chd
• Legacy of Kain - Soul Reaver (USA).chd
• Legend of Dragoon, The (USA).m3u
• Legend of Legaia (USA).chd
• Legend of Mana (USA).chd
• LEGO Island 2 - The Brickster's Revenge (USA).chd
• Lemmings & Oh No! More Lemmings (USA).chd
• Loaded (USA) (En,Fr).chd
• Looney Tunes - Sheep Raider (USA) (En,Fr,Es,Pt).chd
• Lost World, The - Jurassic Park - Special Edition (USA).chd
• LSD - Dream Emulator (English v1).chd
• Lunar - Silver Star Story Complete (USA).m3u
• Lunar 2 - Eternal Blue Complete (USA).m3u
• Mad Panic Coaster (Japan).chd
• Magic - The Gathering - BattleMage (USA).chd
• Magic Carpet (USA) (En,Fr,De,Es,Sv).chd
• Martian Gothic - Unification (USA).chd
• Marvel vs. Capcom - Clash of Super Heroes (USA).chd
• Mat Hoffman's Pro BMX (USA).chd
• MDK (USA).chd
• Medal of Honor - Underground (USA).chd
• Medal of Honor (USA).chd
• MediEvil (USA).chd
• MediEvil II (USA).chd
• Mega Man 8 (USA).chd
• Mega Man Legends (USA).chd
• Mega Man Legends 2 (USA).chd
• Mega Man X4 (USA).chd
• Mega Man X5 (USA).chd
• Mega Man X6 (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Metal Gear Solid - Special Missions (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It)[No Swap Fix]
• Metal Gear Solid (USA) (Rev 1).m3u
• Metal Slug X (USA).chd
• Micro Machines V3 (USA).chd
• Misadventures of Tron Bonne, The (USA).chd
• Mizzurna Falls (English 31-03-2021).chd
• Mobile Suit Gundam - Char's Counterattack (Japan).chd
• Monster Rancher (USA).chd
• Monster Rancher 2 (USA).chd
• Monster Rancher Battle Card - Episode II (USA).chd
• Mortal Kombat 3 (USA).chd
• Mortal Kombat 4 (USA).chd
• Mortal Kombat Trilogy (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Motor Toon Grand Prix (USA).chd
• Mr. Driller (USA).chd
• Mr. Driller G (Japan).chd
• Ms. Pac-Man Maze Madness (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• MTV Music Generator (USA).chd
• Muppet Monster Adventure (USA).chd
• Muppet RaceMania (USA).chd
• Music - Music Creation for the PlayStation (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Music 2000 (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Myst (USA).chd
• Mystic Dragoons, The (English 1.0Beta).chd
• N2O - Nitrous Oxide (USA).chd
• NanoTek Warrior (USA).chd
• Need for Speed - High Stakes (USA).chd
• Need for Speed - Porsche Unleashed (USA).chd
• Need for Speed - V-Rally (USA).chd
• Need for Speed - V-Rally 2 (USA).chd
• Need for Speed II (USA).chd
• Need for Speed III - Hot Pursuit (USA).chd
• NFL Blitz 2000 (USA).chd
• NFL Blitz 2001 (USA).chd
• NHL Open Ice - 2 on 2 Challenge (USA).chd
• Nightmare Creatures (USA).chd
• Nightmare Creatures II (USA).chd
• No One Can Stop Mr. Domino (USA).chd
• O.D.T. (USA).chd
• Oddworld - Abe's Exoddus (USA).m3u
• Oddworld - Abe's Oddysee (USA) (Rev 2).chd
• Omega Boost (USA).chd
• OverBlood (USA).chd
• OverBlood 2 (Europe) (Rev 1).m3u
• Pac-Man World - 20th Anniversary (USA).chd
• Pandemonium 2 (USA).chd
• Pandemonium! (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Panzer Bandit (Japan).chd
• PaRappa the Rapper (USA) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Parasite Eve (USA).m3u
• Parasite Eve II (USA).m3u
• Pax Corpus (Europe) (En,Fr,De).chd
• Pepsiman (Japan).chd
• Persona (USA).chd
• Persona 2 - Eternal Punishment (USA).chd
• Persona 2 - Tsumi ~ Innocent Sin (Japan) (v1.0) [En by Gemini v1.0a].chd
• Philosoma (USA).chd
• Pocket Fighter (USA).chd
• Point Blank (USA).chd
• Point Blank 2 (USA).chd
• Point Blank 3 (USA).chd
• Policenauts (Japan) [T-En by JunkerHQ v1.01].m3u
• Pong - The Next Level (USA).chd
• Pop'n Tanks! (Japan).chd
• PoPoLoCrois Monogatari (English v1.3).chd
• PoPoLoCrois Monogatari II (English v0.3).m3u
• PoPoRoGue (Japan) (Yokokuban).chd
• Porsche Challenge (USA) (En,Fr,Es).chd
• Power Shovel (USA).chd
• Prisoner of Ice - Jashin Kourin (English v1.0).chd
• Punky Skunk (USA).chd
• R4 - Ridge Racer Type 4 (USA).chd
• Rage Racer (USA).chd
• Rakugaki Showtime (Japan).chd
• Rally de Africa (Japan).chd
• Rally de Europe (Japan).chd
• Rampage - Through Time (USA).chd
• Rampage - World Tour (USA).chd
• Rampage 2 - Universal Tour (USA).chd
• Rapid Reload (Europe).chd
• Ray Tracers (USA).chd
• RayCrisis - Series Termination (USA).chd
• Rayman (USA).chd
• Rayman 2 - The Great Escape (USA) (En,Fr,Es).chd
• R-C Stunt Copter (USA).chd
• Ready 2 Rumble Boxing - Round 2 (USA).chd
• Ready 2 Rumble Boxing (USA).chd
• ReBoot (USA).chd
• Red Asphalt (USA).chd
• Reel Fishing (USA).chd
• Reel Fishing II (USA).chd
• Remote Control Dandy (English v1.0).chd
• Resident Evil - Director's Cut - Dual Shock Ver. (USA).chd
• Resident Evil - Survivor (USA).chd
• Resident Evil 2 - Dual Shock Ver. (USA).m3u
• Resident Evil 3 - Nemesis (USA).chd
• Rhapsody - A Musical Adventure (USA).chd
• Ridge Racer Revolution (USA).chd
• Rival Schools - United by Fate (USA) (Disc 1) (Arcade Disc).chd
• Riven - The Sequel to Myst (USA).m3u
• Road Rash 3D (USA).chd
• Rogue Trip - Vacation 2012 (USA).chd
• Rollcage Stage II (USA).chd
• Rosco McQueen Firefighter Extreme (USA).chd
• R-Type Delta (USA).chd
• SaGa Frontier (USA).chd
• SaGa Frontier 2 (USA).chd
• Saiyuki - Journey West (USA).chd
• SD Gundam - GGeneration (Japan) (Rev 1).chd
• Sexy Parodius (Japan).chd
• Shadow Tower (USA).chd
• Shin Megami Tensei (English v1.1).chd
• Silent Bomber (USA).chd
• Silent Hill (USA).chd
• Silhouette Mirage (USA).chd
• Skullmonkeys (USA).chd
• Slap Happy Rhythm Busters (Japan).chd
• Sled Storm (USA).chd
• Small Soldiers (USA).chd
• Soul Blade (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Soul of the Samurai (USA).chd
• South Park - Chef's Luv Shack (USA).chd
• South Park (USA).chd
• South Park Rally (USA).chd
• Space Jam (USA).chd
• Speed Punks (USA).chd
• Spider-Man (USA).chd
• Spider-Man 2 - Enter - Electro (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Spyro - Year of the Dragon (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Spyro 2 - Ripto's Rage! (USA).chd
• Spyro the Dragon (USA).chd
• Star Gladiator - Episode I - Final Crusade (USA).chd
• Star Ocean - The Second Story (USA).m3u
• Star Wars - Episode I - Jedi Power Battles (USA).chd
• Steel Harbinger (USA).chd
• Street Fighter Alpha 3 (USA).chd
• Street Fighter EX Plus Alpha (USA).chd
• Street Fighter EX2 Plus (USA).chd
• Street Scooters (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Strider (USA).chd
• Strider 2 (USA).chd
• Strikers 1945 (USA).chd
• Suikoden (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Suikoden II (USA).chd
• Super Puzzle Fighter II Turbo (USA).chd
• Super Robot Taisen Alpha Gaiden (English v0.95b).chd
• Swagman (USA).chd
• Syphon Filter (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Syphon Filter 2 (USA).m3u
• Syphon Filter 3 (USA).chd
• T.R.A.G. - Mission of Mercy (USA).chd
• Tactics Ogre (USA).chd
• T'ai Fu - Wrath of the Tiger (USA).chd
• Tail Concerto (USA).chd
• Tales of Destiny (USA).chd
• Tales of Destiny II (USA).m3u
• Team Buddies (USA).chd
• TearRingSaga (English patched v1.04).chd
• Tecmo's Deception - Invitation to Darkness (USA).chd
• Tekken (USA).chd
• Tekken 2 (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Tekken 3 (USA).chd
• Tempest X3 (USA).chd
• Tenchu - Stealth Assassins (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Tenchu 2 - Birth of the Stealth Assassins (USA).chd
• Terracon (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Terry Pratchett's Discworld (USA).chd
• Tetris Plus (USA).chd
• Theme Hospital (USA).chd
• Threads of Fate (USA).chd
• Thrill Kill (USA) (Beta).chd
• Thunder Force V - Perfect System (USA).chd
• Time Bokan Series - Bokan desu yo (Japan).chd
• Tiny Tank (USA).chd
• Tobal 2 (English v1.01b).chd
• Tobal No. 1 (USA).chd
• Tomb Raider - The Last Revelation (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Tomb Raider (USA) (Rev 6).chd
• Tomb Raider Chronicles (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Tomb Raider II - The Golden Mask.chd
• Tomb Raider III - Adventures of Lara Croft (USA) (Rev 2).chd
• Tomb Raider - The Times.chd
• Tomba! (USA).chd
• Tomba! 2 - The Evil Swine Return (USA).chd
• Tony Hawk's Pro Skater (USA).chd
• Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2 (USA).chd
• Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 3 (USA).chd
• Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 4 (USA).chd
• Total Drivin (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It,Pt).chd
• Trap Gunner (USA).chd
• Tunnel B1 (USA).chd
• Twisted Metal (USA).chd
• Twisted Metal 2 (USA).chd
• Twisted Metal 4 (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Twisted Metal III (USA) (Rev 1).chd
• Twisted Metal - Small Brawl (USA).chd
• Um Jammer Lammy (USA).chd
• Unholy War, The (USA).chd
• Vagrant Story (USA).chd
• Valkyrie Profile (USA).m3u
• Vanark (USA).chd
• Vandal Hearts (USA).chd
• Vandal Hearts II (USA).chd
• Vanishing Point (USA).chd
• Vib-Ribbon (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Vigilante 8 - 2nd Offense (USA).chd
• Vigilante 8 (USA).chd
• Virus - It Is Aware (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• WarCraft II - The Dark Saga (USA) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• WarGames - Defcon 1 (USA).chd
• Warhammer - Dark Omen (USA).chd
• Warhammer - Shadow of the Horned Rat (USA).chd
• Warpath - Jurassic Park (USA).chd
• Wild 9 (USA).chd
• Wild Arms (USA).chd
• Wild Arms 2 (USA).m3u
• WipEout (USA).chd
• WipEout 3 - Special Edition (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Wipeout XL (USA).chd
• World of Dragon Warrior - Torneko - The Last Hope (USA).chd
• Worms Armageddon (USA).chd
• Worms Pinball (Europe) (En,Fr,De,Es,It).chd
• Worms World Party (USA) (En,Fr,De,Es,It,Nl,Sv,Da).chd
• Wu-Tang - Shaolin Style (USA).chd
• WWF SmackDown! 2 - Know Your Role (USA).chd
• X-COM - UFO Defense (USA).chd
• Xenogears (USA).m3u
• Xevious 3D-G+ (USA).chd
• X-Men - Mutant Academy (USA).chd
• X-Men - Mutant Academy 2 (USA).chd
• X-Files, The (USA).m3u
• YoYo's Puzzle Park (Europe).chd
• Yu-Gi-Oh! Forbidden Memories (USA).chd
• Zanac x Zanac (Japan).chd

^{Games listed as "Japan" are not translated. most do not require translation to play, some games like Monster Quest Monsters I&II or PoPoRoGue are either still in the process of being translated or i plan on using AI game translation to play them.}

Sedikit cerita background, gue basic nya Accounting lalu ke Finance, lagi memikirkan mau pivot karir dari karir kantoran sekarang ke KJPP, ada yang paham karir atau ada yang kerja di KJPP kah? is it worth a shot?

Korporasi mau ngundang motivator buat teamwork, biasa, tapi berhubung gue sudah nyemplung lebih dalam, gue bilang ingin yang dari dulu mottonya "aku ingin hidup kalian lebih bahagia daripada hidup saya" daripada nggak jelas entah musyawarah problem-solusi, jualan produknya sendiri, dll. Frick I'll be your selfless prophet worth of worship right here right now, no charge.
Di cerita lain, seperti biasa dengar "kalau sedekah/persembahan/donasi/dsb. anda banyak, rumah anda lebih besar di surga". Anjrit, masuk aja sudah syukur. Gue jadi tukang kebun tetangga lu juga siapa yang mau larang gue ngelus kuci singa peliharaan lu, emang lu jadi majikan di surga mau bisnis apa? Lah doktepasien oplas yo malah enak salah tinggal Ctrl+Z, siapa bilang mereka dosanya lebih besar daripada tukang cat rambut, gonta-ganti makeup, kawat gigi? Keadilan sosial vs. genetika btw.
Sekalian, gue mah mau jadikan dunia lebih indah dari surga, siapa tahu entar Dia malah lebih tertarik kesini.
Anyway, salam dari kaum nggak napak tanah. Perhatikan saya dan para AntiKris/Dajjal masuk berita sebentar lagi.

Hey so i have been playing this game for a while with my friends now and i absolutely love it.
The thing is while my 3070 runs the game at 60 FPS no issues, it also is able to replace a heater in my room while doing so. I'm currently running the game on 2k and on High settings (except for unit scale which is on Ultra). I already tried turning down some settings that i dont need like vsync and shadows but it still gets pretty hot.
Then it struck me that despite 2k the games models where never meant to be displayed in such a high resolution anyway. Most of them are so low on details they still look absolute shit even in 2k. So i gues my question is if this game is even worth running at 2k for all the recources it eats even thow it isnt changing a lot visually?

Langsung aja yes - gue sekarang liat kebanyakan orang orang kita itu lucu (abis ngedenger ama ngeliat kisah teman dan beberapa kenalan gue)
Lucu nya nape? Ya karena di dumay ama irl tereak tereak 'mental health awareness' yet kebanyakan dari mereka ini menganggap wajar toxic behaviour
Ini gue pake dari kisah beberapa kenalan ama temen gue (2 contoh dulu) , mungkin ada yang pernah ngalamin / ngeliat dengan mata kepala sendiri irl juga kayak gue

1. people pleasing : ada banyak kenalan gue yang suka dinasehatin 'jangan mau jadi people pleaser' - ya begitu kenalan gue beneran lebih sibuk ama keluarga dan kehidupannya sendiri dan beberapa orang 'nolak kemauan si orang lain' (in this case yang gue liat : arranged marriage - abang ato mbaknya udah berumur - akhirnya 'dijodohin' lah ke kenalan gue) : kikipelit, individualis, egoist etc....funny thing pas dibalikin omongan mereka, mereka ngomongnya 'suka gak suka budaya timur itu budaya nyenengin orang-mau gak mau mesti ada salah satu pihak yang mesti turutin maunya suatu pihak'......terus buat apa nasehatin orang soal boundaries ama mental health kalo ujungnya mereka anggep wajar dan memaklumi sifat people pleaser?
   
2. lomba adu nasib : ada banyak temen gue yang ngalamin nasib sial di workplacenya kayak
   

A. Ada yang kontrak kerjanya kelar tapi evaluation reportnya diobrak abrik ama bosnya - dilabelin 'insubordinate' (ngelawan atasan) dan berakhir dengan dapet status 'do not rehire' aka diblacklist (gara gara masalah sepele - temen gue inj komplen soal keponakan salah satu manager yang udah nggak bisa kerja / low perform - suka lempar tanggung jawab juga - spv nya cerita temen gue ini yang suka benerin laporan ama ngerjain kerjaannya ponakan si manager tsb) kebanyakan temen gue begini nasibnya btw : evaluation report diobrak abrik cuman gara gara masuk shit list manager
B. Ada juga temen gue yang diterminate cuman gara gara dia komplen soal kelakuan pacar bosnya ke dia (aka dia dilaporin harrassment)
Pas mereka curhat soal struggle mereka - malah jadi 'lomba adu nasib' (ada yang terang terangan ngomong lah 'di blacklist ama dimusuhin pihak management mah masalah biasa di dunia kerja - gue yang sering dimaki maki financial controller tanpa alasan jelas aja selow' ama 'udah 8 tahun kerja di administrasi baru ngeluh sekarang soal black list ama masuk shit list manager? Lebay ah...itu hal biasa') pas mereka bales komplen ya responnya : ' lah lomba adu nasib ama gaslit biarpun kesannya negatif tapi diperluin - tujuannya biar lu gak jadi drama king ama gak berlarut di masalah lu' (dan banyak random stranger di medsos kenalan ama kawan gue yang setuju soal gini - 'budaya kita itu ketimuran dan gotong royong - udah pastilah sifat people pleaser itu wajib dipake... suka gak suka pasti ada momen dimana kita wajib ngikutin ama nurutin maunya pihak lain.....' ama 'lomba adu nasib emang perlu di real life, buat nunjukin kalo bukan cuma lu yang punya masalah' (gue rasa ini para manusia menganggap serius komik ama karakter fiktif kayak naruto ama recca yang hobi suka lomba adu nasib ama lawannya lmao)
Sama kayak diatas.....ngapain ngomong soal self care, empati, mental health kalo hal kayak gaslit, 'invalidate feelings' ama lomba adu nasib dianggap wajar dan perlu?
Gue penasaran, buat apa sebenarnya teriak teriak soal mental health kalo ujungnya toxic behaviour masih dipake dan dianggap penting dan wajib?