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2024.05.16 16:25 AyrStonks iPhone Calls others from my contacts are not comming in
So I’ll give you a little bit of a context about 2 weeks ago, my iPhone 14 Pro started working weird with the calling app. It was usually freezing and I didn’t know why if I would like to make a call over WhatsApp or even carrier the Phone app always freezes (I had to turn off and on the iPhone). Now after some experiments I determined that the issue is that callings from numbers other than my contacts call me but my iPhone does not show it (they are not sent to voice mail, they ring) and when this happens I can’t know if they did in fact call me but the bugged the system and that’s when I can’t make any more calls. Things that I have done: - Reset network settings - Reset all settings (not a factory reset) - Check my haptics - Check the silence call from unknown numbers
Any idea on how to solve this issue. Just for the record I thought it might something to do with true caller but deleted the app and still nothing
iPhone 14 Pro iOS 17.4.1
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Any idea on how to solve this issue. Just for the record I thought it might something to do with true caller but deleted the app and still nothing
iPhone 14 Pro iOS 17.4.1
2024.05.16 16:18 IG24Z WHY
Why
I relied on my mom as a kid. I always thought I could trust her, but she had unaddressed mental health issues that caused her a lot of pain. She didn't seem interested in getting help and instead turned to drugs and unhealthy relationships. When my sister and I were born, she isolated us from others. My mom hid her inner struggles and pretended to be perfect, but I knew deep down there were cracks in her facade.
I noticed people in my life trying to help my sister and me. However, any efforts were ultimately rejected or twisted by my mom. As her early-onset dementia progressed, her mask began to slip. Her unaddressed desires took control, manifesting as manic episodes. When my sister left to get married at 25, I was alone. It was a difficult decision, but understandable. Over the next four years, my mom's mental state deteriorated significantly. Her manic episodes became severe, escalating from yelling and screaming to pushing and even physical attacks.
One day, I reached my breaking point. I confided in my counselor, and CPS became involved. My mom, with her deteriorating mental state, saw it as a betrayal. In her mind, anyone who wasn't with her was against her. I became the enemy for exposing the truth. To silence me, she locked me in a hotel room for a week with no food or way out. The fear and confusion were overwhelming during those seven days.
The question haunted me: "Why is she doing this to me?" After seven days of fear and confusion in the hotel, I was finally released. But the nightmare wasn't over. My mom fabricated a story that I was suicidal and had me committed to a hospital, supposedly to disprove any accusations I might make. For four grueling months, I was shuttled in and out of these facilities. Thankfully, my sanity prevailed – they couldn't keep me there. However, my mom's twisted narrative persisted. Every time I tried to prove my side of the story, it felt like a losing battle.
Despite being innocent of the accusations, I held onto the hope of forgiveness and reconciliation. After all, she was my mom, and I had no other family. But her actions only worsened. The lies became more elaborate and malicious, all attempts to deflect blame for her own mistakes. Deep down, I yearned for a functional relationship, but her manipulative behavior reached a new low. This latest betrayal made me question my very existence. It was a horrible realization: the person I was trying to connect with was determined to paint me as the villain.
The situation escalated to the point where I found myself homeless for two weeks in the cold. Wracked with confusion, I kept asking myself, "Why? Why me?" Despite my efforts to do the right thing, everything felt broken. Eventually, I returned home, desperate for any semblance of maternal connection. My mom's sudden shift to a seemingly caring demeanor felt fake, but I clung to it, yearning for the bond I never had. Yet, the dysfunction persisted. On December 31st, 2023, she brought home a dying Chihuahua for Christmas. Despite being forbidden from interacting with the dog, I ended up cleaning and taking care of it all night. It was a bizarre situation – she was neglecting a dying animal while briefly showing me a kindness that felt hollow. This incident, two days after a birthday with no acknowledgment, was the final straw. When she asked if I wanted anything, I simply requested cake. Her response, "You don't deserve a cake...you keep contacting CPS," confirmed my suspicions. Disillusioned and frustrated, I retreated to my room to regain composure.
Terror surged through me as I heard her screams erupt like thunder. My heart pounded in my chest. Recognizing the signs of another manic episode, I retreated to my room, fearing another attack. She bellowed for my phone, but I clutched it tightly, my only lifeline if things escalated. The yelling intensified into a terrifying storm. With a sickening crash, she barreled into my door, shattering the already weakened frame – a physical manifestation of our fractured relationship. Screws littered the floor as she loomed closer, threats spewing from her lips. Her intent was clear: to take my phone and silence me.
: Exhausted from enduring abuse, I refused to relinquish my phone. When she lunged, attempting a bite on my shoulder, I stood firm. No more questions, just the will to take control. Frustrated, she retreated. The assault left me shaken, but resolute. With no lock due to prior incidents, I braced myself against the broken door. Ten agonizing minutes crawled by as she relentlessly pushed against it, the screws groaning in protest. Finally, the weakened frame gave way, snapping against her leg. A torrent of screams and curses erupted from the other side.
She descended into further chaos, hurling insults and comparing me to my dad, the source of our family's pain. But I was done. Looking her in the eye, I said, "I'm sorry you're hurting, you hurt yourself You hurt me. I don't feel safe, and I need to leave." With that, I grabbed my belongings and fled. Reaching my sister, I explained the situation and tearfully said goodbye to friends, fearing my mom's manipulations. My sister urged me to call the police, but I worried about their response to a mental health crisis. Determined to get help, I decided to call my best friend, possibly for the last time. I recounted the ordeal, expressing my gratitude for his friendship despite past mistakes.
Sirens wailed in the distance, then abruptly stopped. Officers emerged and questioned me. Reliving the night's events, I desperately hoped for help. However, to my utter confusion, they asked me to put down my belongings and handcuffed me. My rights were recited again, but betrayal and confusion clouded my understanding. Weren't they there to help? Instead, I found myself committed to another hospital for a month, forced to spend a lonely New Year's Day within its sterile walls.
Fueled by a burning desire to prove my innocence, I tirelessly pleaded my case. It felt surreal – I, the victim, was treated with suspicion. The worst part? The complete lack of control. Yet, I fought for what was right. The haunting question, "Why?" echoed in my head. Finally, my sister intervened, offering a safe haven. But my mom, consumed by her animosity, refused. Despite the fear, returning home seemed like the only option. It was a return to a broken reality – the same issues, different day. My resolve to escape solidified. I focused on getting emancipated, a job, anything that granted me independence. This defiance enraged her; she craved control, but I was done. The following two weeks were a tense stand-off...
My mom's manipulative tactics escalated. She made false police reports and withheld essential documents like my Social Security card to control me. Even simple requests for my Chromebook charger for schoolwork turned into arguments. Finally, during one episode, she stole the charger and called the police with fabricated stories. This time, the officer recognized her erratic behavior and my truthful testimony. I spent a brief stay in the hospital where they finally believed me. Released into my mom's care, I braced for another fight. Shockingly, she drove me to a police station, claiming I attacked her. But with the officer and my sister on speakerphone, the truth prevailed. They recognized her deteriorating mental state. The agonizing car ride became a desperate plea – why was she hurting herself and our family? Exhausted but resolute, I ended up at a friend's house for the night, then entered foster care the next day. Finding a welcoming home felt like a cruel twist of fate. Witnessing a healthy family dynamic at the ice rink only amplified my pain. My sister's husband arrived, offering a lifeline – a chance to escape the cycle of abuse. The decision was mine: get in the car or stay. As I walked to my friend's house, a healthy family dinner unfolded before me, a stark contrast to my reality. Finally, I confided in them about my situation. With their support and a secret code from my sister, I embarked on a daring escape. Two long, desert hours under the stars, navigating unfamiliar territory, led me to the school – my only beacon of hope. Exhausted and cold, I stumbled upon my brother-in-law, car just as he was about to leave. His familiar voice offered escape – "Get in if you want to change your life." With trembling hands, I climbed in, ready to embrace a new beginning
Reiners response
Despite enduring unimaginable abuse, I never relinquished hope. The kindness of strangers became my lifeline, reminding me that humanity persists even in the darkest of times. Through every hardship, I held onto the belief that doing the right thing matters. This journey has been a testament to the power of letting go, even when it means letting go of family. It's a painful truth, but sometimes letting go is the bravest and healthiest choice we can make to move forward. Witnessing firsthand the destructive power of abuse, trauma, and mental illness, I came to a difficult realization. As much as I hated her actions, I knew they stemmed from her illness. Hate breeds only hate, and I refused to become the monster she was battling within. The past can't define you. It's a heavy weight, but you don't have to carry it forever. All you can do is keep moving forward, one step at a time. Be the person you want to be, the person others see the potential in you to be. The future holds possibilities you can't even imagine yet. Embrace the journey, and never lose sight of the strength and hope you've discovered within yourself.
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I relied on my mom as a kid. I always thought I could trust her, but she had unaddressed mental health issues that caused her a lot of pain. She didn't seem interested in getting help and instead turned to drugs and unhealthy relationships. When my sister and I were born, she isolated us from others. My mom hid her inner struggles and pretended to be perfect, but I knew deep down there were cracks in her facade.
I noticed people in my life trying to help my sister and me. However, any efforts were ultimately rejected or twisted by my mom. As her early-onset dementia progressed, her mask began to slip. Her unaddressed desires took control, manifesting as manic episodes. When my sister left to get married at 25, I was alone. It was a difficult decision, but understandable. Over the next four years, my mom's mental state deteriorated significantly. Her manic episodes became severe, escalating from yelling and screaming to pushing and even physical attacks.
One day, I reached my breaking point. I confided in my counselor, and CPS became involved. My mom, with her deteriorating mental state, saw it as a betrayal. In her mind, anyone who wasn't with her was against her. I became the enemy for exposing the truth. To silence me, she locked me in a hotel room for a week with no food or way out. The fear and confusion were overwhelming during those seven days.
The question haunted me: "Why is she doing this to me?" After seven days of fear and confusion in the hotel, I was finally released. But the nightmare wasn't over. My mom fabricated a story that I was suicidal and had me committed to a hospital, supposedly to disprove any accusations I might make. For four grueling months, I was shuttled in and out of these facilities. Thankfully, my sanity prevailed – they couldn't keep me there. However, my mom's twisted narrative persisted. Every time I tried to prove my side of the story, it felt like a losing battle.
Despite being innocent of the accusations, I held onto the hope of forgiveness and reconciliation. After all, she was my mom, and I had no other family. But her actions only worsened. The lies became more elaborate and malicious, all attempts to deflect blame for her own mistakes. Deep down, I yearned for a functional relationship, but her manipulative behavior reached a new low. This latest betrayal made me question my very existence. It was a horrible realization: the person I was trying to connect with was determined to paint me as the villain.
The situation escalated to the point where I found myself homeless for two weeks in the cold. Wracked with confusion, I kept asking myself, "Why? Why me?" Despite my efforts to do the right thing, everything felt broken. Eventually, I returned home, desperate for any semblance of maternal connection. My mom's sudden shift to a seemingly caring demeanor felt fake, but I clung to it, yearning for the bond I never had. Yet, the dysfunction persisted. On December 31st, 2023, she brought home a dying Chihuahua for Christmas. Despite being forbidden from interacting with the dog, I ended up cleaning and taking care of it all night. It was a bizarre situation – she was neglecting a dying animal while briefly showing me a kindness that felt hollow. This incident, two days after a birthday with no acknowledgment, was the final straw. When she asked if I wanted anything, I simply requested cake. Her response, "You don't deserve a cake...you keep contacting CPS," confirmed my suspicions. Disillusioned and frustrated, I retreated to my room to regain composure.
Terror surged through me as I heard her screams erupt like thunder. My heart pounded in my chest. Recognizing the signs of another manic episode, I retreated to my room, fearing another attack. She bellowed for my phone, but I clutched it tightly, my only lifeline if things escalated. The yelling intensified into a terrifying storm. With a sickening crash, she barreled into my door, shattering the already weakened frame – a physical manifestation of our fractured relationship. Screws littered the floor as she loomed closer, threats spewing from her lips. Her intent was clear: to take my phone and silence me.
: Exhausted from enduring abuse, I refused to relinquish my phone. When she lunged, attempting a bite on my shoulder, I stood firm. No more questions, just the will to take control. Frustrated, she retreated. The assault left me shaken, but resolute. With no lock due to prior incidents, I braced myself against the broken door. Ten agonizing minutes crawled by as she relentlessly pushed against it, the screws groaning in protest. Finally, the weakened frame gave way, snapping against her leg. A torrent of screams and curses erupted from the other side.
She descended into further chaos, hurling insults and comparing me to my dad, the source of our family's pain. But I was done. Looking her in the eye, I said, "I'm sorry you're hurting, you hurt yourself You hurt me. I don't feel safe, and I need to leave." With that, I grabbed my belongings and fled. Reaching my sister, I explained the situation and tearfully said goodbye to friends, fearing my mom's manipulations. My sister urged me to call the police, but I worried about their response to a mental health crisis. Determined to get help, I decided to call my best friend, possibly for the last time. I recounted the ordeal, expressing my gratitude for his friendship despite past mistakes.
Sirens wailed in the distance, then abruptly stopped. Officers emerged and questioned me. Reliving the night's events, I desperately hoped for help. However, to my utter confusion, they asked me to put down my belongings and handcuffed me. My rights were recited again, but betrayal and confusion clouded my understanding. Weren't they there to help? Instead, I found myself committed to another hospital for a month, forced to spend a lonely New Year's Day within its sterile walls.
Fueled by a burning desire to prove my innocence, I tirelessly pleaded my case. It felt surreal – I, the victim, was treated with suspicion. The worst part? The complete lack of control. Yet, I fought for what was right. The haunting question, "Why?" echoed in my head. Finally, my sister intervened, offering a safe haven. But my mom, consumed by her animosity, refused. Despite the fear, returning home seemed like the only option. It was a return to a broken reality – the same issues, different day. My resolve to escape solidified. I focused on getting emancipated, a job, anything that granted me independence. This defiance enraged her; she craved control, but I was done. The following two weeks were a tense stand-off...
My mom's manipulative tactics escalated. She made false police reports and withheld essential documents like my Social Security card to control me. Even simple requests for my Chromebook charger for schoolwork turned into arguments. Finally, during one episode, she stole the charger and called the police with fabricated stories. This time, the officer recognized her erratic behavior and my truthful testimony. I spent a brief stay in the hospital where they finally believed me. Released into my mom's care, I braced for another fight. Shockingly, she drove me to a police station, claiming I attacked her. But with the officer and my sister on speakerphone, the truth prevailed. They recognized her deteriorating mental state. The agonizing car ride became a desperate plea – why was she hurting herself and our family? Exhausted but resolute, I ended up at a friend's house for the night, then entered foster care the next day. Finding a welcoming home felt like a cruel twist of fate. Witnessing a healthy family dynamic at the ice rink only amplified my pain. My sister's husband arrived, offering a lifeline – a chance to escape the cycle of abuse. The decision was mine: get in the car or stay. As I walked to my friend's house, a healthy family dinner unfolded before me, a stark contrast to my reality. Finally, I confided in them about my situation. With their support and a secret code from my sister, I embarked on a daring escape. Two long, desert hours under the stars, navigating unfamiliar territory, led me to the school – my only beacon of hope. Exhausted and cold, I stumbled upon my brother-in-law, car just as he was about to leave. His familiar voice offered escape – "Get in if you want to change your life." With trembling hands, I climbed in, ready to embrace a new beginning
Reiners response
Despite enduring unimaginable abuse, I never relinquished hope. The kindness of strangers became my lifeline, reminding me that humanity persists even in the darkest of times. Through every hardship, I held onto the belief that doing the right thing matters. This journey has been a testament to the power of letting go, even when it means letting go of family. It's a painful truth, but sometimes letting go is the bravest and healthiest choice we can make to move forward. Witnessing firsthand the destructive power of abuse, trauma, and mental illness, I came to a difficult realization. As much as I hated her actions, I knew they stemmed from her illness. Hate breeds only hate, and I refused to become the monster she was battling within. The past can't define you. It's a heavy weight, but you don't have to carry it forever. All you can do is keep moving forward, one step at a time. Be the person you want to be, the person others see the potential in you to be. The future holds possibilities you can't even imagine yet. Embrace the journey, and never lose sight of the strength and hope you've discovered within yourself.
2024.05.16 15:38 Certain_End_5192 I dropped 4 free Google Chrome extensions to the Chrome store!
I like to learn things by reverse engineering them. I tell people that often but I think they do not often actually understand it. To me, it is the best and fastest way to learn something. I have learned not only how to build Google Chrome extensions, I have started to learn patterns of behavior around them. For example, you say you want productivity apps but you actually want games. By over a 10-1 ratio. Here is a breakdown of the apps I built and some of my thoughts behind them in case anyone ever questions that:
ELI5 Webpage Summarizer: I wanted to test calling an LLM model within an Extension. It calls Claude 3 via API. Claude is given the text of the website, then is prompted to summarize it like you are 5.
Convert To Lead: Scrapes the active webpage for contact information then displays it. That's it. Takes like 1 second to load on a web page.
Game Theory Games: 3 games designed to teach you specifically about how game theory works! (Hint: if you do not know how game theory works, you are going to hate these games).
Text Logic Analyzer: Some people like movies and video games, some people like making art, I really dig formal logic. This is honestly just my attempt to see how good I can make rules operate within Javascript. It's 100% rules based, zero probability algorithms.
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ELI5 Webpage Summarizer: I wanted to test calling an LLM model within an Extension. It calls Claude 3 via API. Claude is given the text of the website, then is prompted to summarize it like you are 5.
Convert To Lead: Scrapes the active webpage for contact information then displays it. That's it. Takes like 1 second to load on a web page.
Game Theory Games: 3 games designed to teach you specifically about how game theory works! (Hint: if you do not know how game theory works, you are going to hate these games).
Text Logic Analyzer: Some people like movies and video games, some people like making art, I really dig formal logic. This is honestly just my attempt to see how good I can make rules operate within Javascript. It's 100% rules based, zero probability algorithms.
2024.05.16 15:38 Fair_Tear_6647 Girlfriend [20F] goes out with friends to drink and I'm [20M] usually ok with it but can help but feel a but anxious (new to a relationship)
My girlfriend goes out drinking with her friends without me. Im a bit new to relationships so when i know that shes going to go to drink in bars with her friends, i do have a small feeling of anxiety. I even asked her if shes ok with me going with her and she says its fine and it mostly depends on me if i want to go since im not much of a loud place baclub drinking kind of guy.
So about my anxiety, i guess i worry about her. Not that i dont trust her but more like the things that may happen to her or might be done to her while shes not in her straight mindset and something happens without me knowing. Prior to our relationship, shes been out drinking and coming from her, she hasnt done anything that would probably want to make me end it with her.
But i cant help but feel a bit anxious cuz of stories from friends and stereotypes or other crazy stories from the internet. Am i being weird? I dont really know how to react to something like this.
Tldr: girlfriend goes to bars to drink w/o me and me being new to a relationship is anxious abt it
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So about my anxiety, i guess i worry about her. Not that i dont trust her but more like the things that may happen to her or might be done to her while shes not in her straight mindset and something happens without me knowing. Prior to our relationship, shes been out drinking and coming from her, she hasnt done anything that would probably want to make me end it with her.
But i cant help but feel a bit anxious cuz of stories from friends and stereotypes or other crazy stories from the internet. Am i being weird? I dont really know how to react to something like this.
Tldr: girlfriend goes to bars to drink w/o me and me being new to a relationship is anxious abt it
2024.05.16 14:53 No_Funny3533 Miyuki Miyamoto/ Yomi / Jeong Nahyeon Scam Network Sites JPNDATE CUDATE DATESTEADY SAYHIUP
 | UPDATED INFO throughout it. submitted by No_Funny3533 to Romance_Scamer [link] [comments] They have a new Scam Website: https://www.datesteady.com/ (Reuses JPNDATE assets even) I think she Chinese and Korean. They try to scam me a second time, her friend (I just wanted real love) Yomi/ Miyuki Miyamoto/ Jeong Nahyeon Written Before: There is this dangerous woman (same person) running many fake Chinese Romance scam websites, fake Instagram pages, tik tok, We chats, and many Chinese porn sites. It is the same person, she uses her looks with pictures and videos to steal money from men. She has many names she goes by, probably even more than I found. She also uses bots to get fake likes and weird Anime filters to try to look like an idol. She has scam artist female friends also I found. She the leader. I know a lot of scammers steal from other people's identities but that is not the case here. This is the same person as the scammer. My story will explain it. As well as this person has pictures of the same person you can’t find anywhere else on the Internet. Even if you do a Reverse Face image search. They said information that match to an unbelievable level. The person who Scammed me: Has Many names (Such As) And a talent for speaking many languages
https://www.instagram.com/gracegracemei/ Email: [miyukilovee@outlook.com](mailto:miyukilovee@outlook.com) (Something about BlessCeline Lovee) Skype ID: live:.cid.737fb9ac2ad5655c
(Make Sense) u/mingmei1344 https://www.instagram.com/mingmei1344/ https://www.facebook.com/liuliu.meimingmei (Owner of aiu_agency since 2015) u/aiu_agency https://www.instagram.com/aiu_agency/
Hotel Connected: SHILLA STAY Gwanghwamun Her Scam Artist friends who work for both Ai_U Agency and JPNDATE CUDATE (That I found) Vynnie_nat : https://www.instagram.com/vynnie_nat/#jiejierui_ngc: https://www.instagram.com/jiejierui_ngc/Veravera_zhangg: https://www.instagram.com/veravera_zhangg/Elle_owo_elle : https://www.instagram.com/elle_owo_elle/Qiqi_shenglim : https://www.instagram.com/qiqi_shenglim/Myemye_owo_ : https://www.instagram.com/myemye_owo_/Her Friends that are connected somehow but not sure how yet. They appear everywhere with the fake accountsRiyandiwilliam : https://www.instagram.com/riyandiwilliam/https://preview.redd.it/2d0g7b2las0d1.jpg?width=400&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=f25ee7d014b3ae338612c980a5db88eca5ef6cb5Summary: Jpndate.com is a dangerous Romance scam. All the women are paid actors for the website from China. They will try to get into a relationship with you very fast, don’t fall for it. They are milking you for money like if you're a cow. They will threaten to kill you or your family if you call out their scam. They might also say they will sue you. If you stop paying them, they will text you very little. They will never video call you face-to-face. Jpndate.com has a sister scam website from the same people called sayhiup.com. When you buy something on Jpndate the payment goes to Cudate Limited, so that site must be part of the scam also. There is a company in China doing all type of illegal and immoral practices. Their name is Zhengzhou Zhongzhiqi Technology Co., Ltd. / 郑州市中之祺科技有限公司 . They have their main technology business but they also run a list of many scam websites stealing money from American men, Asian, and European men. Such as Cudate, JPNDate, SayhiUp. These are romance scam sites where all the women work for the company. If you make a female account it will pend forever. Only men get approved. They claimed before to be an American-owned company then I exposed them now they claim to be Dutch. Their servers are all in China. They never filed paperwork with any foreign country. They are none of these the Chinese pretending to run many dating sites when in fact it’s all fake. They claim to be in nations their not. They have fake terms of service. I used PayPal before I didn't know it was a scam. I paid in dollars, but they refused to refund me till I told PayPal. PayPal made them. Then they refused to pay me the total amount they wanted to pay me on yuan when I paid dollars. I report them to FTC. They also try to hack my laptop for tell the government the truth about them. They probably get funds from the Communist Party government. They are very very bad people. Please look into it or forward this message somewhere where it can be looked into. Pretends to be a legit dating site but feel more like a pay-to-use website for fake love. All women here are paid actors for the site. The same few women have multiple profiles pretending to be different people. Funny part is anytime you call out JPNDate bs they change their terms of service. Screenshot everything people. They have a fake page saying their trying to stop scammers, it all bs they are the scammers. Host of JPNDate Servers: As the writing of this post: IP: 47.242.112.134 - Server: nginx GeoIP: HK - AS45102 (ALIBABA-CN-NET Alibaba US Technology Co., Ltd., CN) My Story: (Update): I know it is the same person, They told me in a text message. Do you like Asian women? Real Asian women? These ones are real! I know who they are. Hi! This is Mark Faraday talking to you. This is my story of how a website named JPNDate Idols scammed me out of 4000 American dollars. First, I was on Japan Cupid, a dating site. On Japan Cupid, no one can chat unless one of you has a membership. I bought a 1-week membership. Within 5 minutes to 10 minutes, a woman nicknamed Yomi from Japan messaged me; this should have been a red flag for me. We talked for a while. She said she was interested in me. She asked me if I could move over to the dating site JPNDate because she paid for membership there and not Japan Cupid. She also promised to delete her account on Japan Cupid after we changed sites. She does delete her account off Japan Cupid. Unlike a normal scam artist, who may only have 1 or 2 photos, she has several photos on her profile. My trust in her grows a bit seeing that. She then privately messaged me several more photos of her. She asked me for some photos, which I sent. She then sends back happy and heartfelt emojis. She told me she doesn’t date Asian men anymore because they were violent to her in the past and her last boyfriend cheated on her. She talked about how she didn’t want to fight with me. She also said we could talk about any topic. She would compliment me often, as I did for her. Of course, on my profile page, I try to post my best pictures. Throughout my life, I have had many different hairstyles. She even mentioned this and got very happy and asked if I was a hairstylist. The spam of talking between us was from January 20th, 2024, to March 24th, 2024. On JPNDate, there is an upgrade system. You need Blue Diamond to chat with others. Crown to send videos. Blue Diamond is 20 dollars per month, and Crown is 80 dollars per month. I got the Blue Diamond membership at first. It showed her with it too. After a day or two, she asked me to upgrade like she did to the Crown membership so she could send me a video. I upgraded it, and she did actually send me a video. All pictures and the video match the same person and the same face. Some pictures were in different locations, and some were like three different pictures in the same place. We then later buy a 6-month Crown membership for each other because it is cheaper than 1 month at a time. I bought it for her, and she bought it for me. At this point, I start to believe. This person was giving me all their time. They reply very often, and their texting time was the same as Japan timezones every single day. They spoke not only English but also Japanese almost fluently. However, they did let me know that they're still learning English and sometimes use a translator. She let me know that this website has something called a mall. This should have been red flag number 2. You pay 1 American dollar for each gold point. Paypal is the only thing that works. When we started dating, she said it was normal for couples in Japan to send each other gifts. It was a symbol of forever love in Japan, she claimed. As an American, I didn’t know if this was true. I googled it and couldn’t get a clear answer. She said whatever I bought her, she would buy me as well. She asked if I liked necklaces or charms. I said anything was fine. She wanted me to pick up a necklace. At first, she picked up a $1,000 necklace from the site mall and asked me. I said no; that's way too much money for that. She said how about a 300-dollar Jade Romance charm. She told me to get her white one; she would get me the green one. I questioned if she was legit. She started crying. She somehow convinced me at the time that she was legit again. I did buy it. A few weeks later, I did receive the overpriced Green Jade Romance love charm to my address from her. I never told her which day exactly my tracking information said it would come to my house, but I asked her, and her tracking date was the same week as mine. By the way something almost the same as this necklace is 12 dollars on Amazon. It also broke when I got it in the mail. Probably cost them 2 cent to make. For the next few days, we had a wonderful, happy conversation. It is late January, and I know Valentine's Day is coming. I offered to get her flowers. I got her flowers and chocolate at a very high price of multiple hundred dollars. She then gets so happy. She told me many times how she wanted to go to America and find me. We talked about many topics for several more days. She told me she worked in an office in Tokyo. Yomi told me her real name was Miyuki Miyamoto. Which is very funny because I told her before I was a Nintendo fan, and this is the same last name as Mario and Zelda Creator. She also said she had her apartment to herself, which is true; she does own an apartment. She talked about how life is stressful right now in Japan. She claimed to have grown up in the Japanese town of Nagano, Japan. She also said she had gone to a university in Tokyo with a major in computer science. She wanted to visit America in July for 15 days when she had her time off. July is a normal time for people to get off in Japan for vacation, so I thought nothing of it. I told her that I was from a smaller town in California, but I lived not far from San Francisco. I told her how my town is quiet and how I could see mountains outside my house. She said she wanted a peaceful life and that life in Tokyo is too fast. And she always had great things to say about every picture I sent. We also talk about going on dates. I asked most of the questions, but she did ask me questions as well. I started to ask her a lot of questions about Japan. Like if she visited Himeji Castle, she said no. However, I did say yes to visiting Mount Fuji. I should have asked for a photo of this, but I didn’t. She was very happy; she told me very many topics about Japan. We even briefly talked about anime. She told me she liked Digimon, Dragon Ball Z, One Piece, and Detective Conan. This information is important later. We also talked about how both of us were big Disney fans growing up. One day she told me, how work was busy today. I told her it was okay and we didn’t need to talk today. She did, however, still text me a little bit that day. This was the only day during our whole time talking when she was super busy. There is nothing wrong with this; all humans get busy. I decided to spend my evening drawing a picture of me and Yomi on a date to surprise her. When I sent it to her, she did not react. This was a red flag for me. I tried to convince myself that she just didn’t like drawings that much. I know I sound really dumb right here, but whoever I was talking to is very smart and knows a lot of things. We started talking a few days later about the idea of meeting and going on dates together. I know that the yen is weak against the American dollar right now. I told them I would pay for anything they wanted when they were in America because I was in love. This was a big, big, big mistake. They then asked if I could give them 1500 dollars to buy a plane ticket. Never give money to people you never meet in real life, folks. Don’t be dumb like me. Turns out the ticket was actually 2100, so they asked for another 500 dollars the next day, claiming their friend let them borrow the money, and they paid the difference. They did show me a picture of a plane ticket. With the name Yomi and the correct airports in Tokyo and San Francisco. This gave me more trust in them; I got a lot of photos, videos, and even a picture of a plane ticket. At some point, I talked to them about social media. They claim to only have Skype and Line. I found it very hard to believe a woman in her 20s wasn’t on Instagram or Tik Tok. I went on Instagram and typed Yomi, and I found a Yomi who looked just like her. This made me think: why did she lie? What confused me is that all the pictures on her Instagram were different from the ones she sent me, other than one image that was the same. Meaning that the images were not clearly stolen from there. I looked up JPNDate online; there isn’t much info on this website (Right Now), other than one reddit forum from 1 year ago. Someone said something about being scammed by an IDOL on this site. They also said the website wasn’t in Japan but in China. I was wondering why I never saw new females joining the website; it was the same 23 pages worth of them. I wanted to test the website to see if it was legit. I made another account, a fake male account with AI artwork. It was approved in one second. I then made a fake female account; it said pending approval. It has now been 2 weeks since I made that account, and it still says pending approval. This means all the women on this website have to be fake actors. There is also a setting on JPNDate to see who has been online last or which accounts are the oldest. When I asked weeks before, Yomi claimed she had been on this website only for a short time. Her oldest picture was dated October 20, 2023. Yet she has the sixth-oldest account on JPNDate, according to the website. The reddit forum I talked about before was over a year old. When I was on this website for a month, at least 10 other women tried to text me. There was this one profile of a woman from Taiwan, age 20. She texted me three times in one month. When I joined, her age was listed as 20, and at some point, she changed her age to 25 on her profile. I ignored all these women. This proves again that all these women are fake. I do think they are women based on how they type, but they are not truthful like they act like they are. As I write this, I just realized this is Yomi's sister; it matches the other Yomi account's sister tag. I knew this website wasn’t telling the truth. I found the JPNDate IP address and tracked it to a server in Hong Kong, China, hosted by Alibaba cloud servers. Reddit was right; the website is Chinese. I took pictures of the website code just in case. I asked Yomi if she knew Alibaba. Then she asked if I’m going to China—a very strange follow-up question. At this point, I was confused. Who is Yomi? I couldn’t find anything about Miyuki Miyamoto, only Yomi. On Yomi Instagram, she speaks Chinese, not Japanese. I started to think there are no Japanese women on this website like they claim to be. She does speak Japanese, though. I started using more than 10 different software programs to track who Yomi was. I found like 1000 pictures of an idol, WeChat model, singer, dancer, person on endless Chinese dating sites, and a valiant professional gamer part of the AI’U agency for over 8 years. I found two other Instagram accounts with Yomi's face. Another account in Chinese with an idol name other than Yomi also had a Facebook page. The Chinese account has a post about her going to Australia in early 2024, where she is typing in English words. I also found an account where she speaks only Korean on Instagram. I also found a tik-tok where someone dances and looks 100% the same as Yomi, to whom I’m talking. The part that is crazy is that none of the images are 100% the same, but the person is the same in all of them. This shocked me; I follow all the accounts. I saw the stories daily to see who this person was. Her Yomi account is just her normal pictures and atm company or something. Her Korean account is about traveling to Singapore, Spain, and South Korea. She also posts a lot about Disney toys here. When I talked to the scammer about Disney, I had no idea about this. At this point, I knew that many men had been scammed out of money for fake love, not just me. These women are real women. However, there are actors pretending to be in love. They will crush your heart and call you names after a few weeks if you don’t buy their stuff. It has to be from JPNdate Mall only, nowhere else. JPNdate Mall prices are crazy high. I am not sure if the point of the website is just for money or if it is actually for women to study English or what. Chinese women, pretending to be Japanese (most of them), that have connections to Korean music and gaming on professional teams. Man, what a hell of a story this is. This sounds like a Hollywood movie, but it's real, or at least partly. At this point, everything I say seems to be true based on what I know. Yomi told me early on that she had one older sister and one younger brother. It seems like she is actually a twin, and she is the younger sister. Yomi claims to be 25, but I think she is closer to 27 or 28 based on finding a listing of her work in 2015 at Twitch Gaming. You have to be 18 or older to work at Twitch gaming, unless your parents sign things. When I showed the pictures I found to Yomi on JPNdate, she played the victim card on me. Saying she thinks I’m a liar and she wants to break up. Then she gave me her Skype account to try to prove it was legit, and all the other images and accounts were stolen and fake. Her Skype name is Rose, with a One Piece picture. She sent me many voice clips, crying, trying to convince me that she was real. I put them in software, and the voice was 30% human, 70% AI. Clearly, a woman is changing her Chinese or Korean voice to sound Japanese. A PC gamer would know how to do this; they do it all the time to troll. Yomi told me she didn’t play video games anymore, but I found a picture that wasn’t that old of a woman who looked the same as her; she had a Nintendo Switch with a white OLED in it. Btw it’s a known fact that Yomi uses software to cheat in the Pc FPS games. I can’t let Yomi, her sister, and her idol friends scam men for their time and money. Yomi Chiense's name is Vera Yuanxin (维拉). Her twin sister goes by veravera_zhangg. Yomi “deleted her profile” when I exposed her. But Yomi is still there with no pictures. Two they clearly have other accounts with people who look like she just changed hairstyle, talking and trying to scam other men. Remember when I said the anime part was important? On Yomi's Korean account, she has a friend with whom she talks about Digimon. She gave him a Disney toy. She told me she wanted to cosplay a fox; his profile is a fox. There is just so much proof that these are the same people. Later someone hit me up on Reddit from the Phillippines and told me how the same person Yomi scammed them. How for months Yomi promise them so many things. Then when they said it came to going on the plane to visit him they said they were sick or dying or something. Yomi also made a fake Instagram pretending to be Joe Biden and sent me a friend invite. I messaged and it was so funny how bad it was on their part. I said “Yomi are you trolling me?” then they deleted their account. This was on April 6th, 2024. Yomi tries so hard but use a lot of cheap things that are clearly fake like ai artwork, bots for like at ai_u agency, and fake profiles where she comments herself and attacks anyone who calls her out fairly. After exposing Jpndate they Ip ban my address lol. Then on social media joke about attacking me. If you call out their BS they threaten your family and yourself. Just stay away from all these sites if you're going to date online use well-known legit sites. 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2024.05.16 14:01 FelicitySmoak_ Monday, May 16, 2005 - People v. Jackson Day 53
 | Trial Day 53. Week 12 submitted by FelicitySmoak_ to WhereWasMJToday [link] [comments] Michael goes to court with Katherine & Randy. Witnesses in the trial chipped away at the prosecution's theory that Michael conspired with associates to hold Gavin Arvizo & his family captive. Maria Gomez, one of Jackson's housekeepers, testified through a Spanish language interpreter, that Janet Arvizo praised Mr. Jackson as a blessing to them and said he was like a father and she wanted her children to call him Dad. But about a week later, Gomez said, the mother started to complain about being held against her will and wanted to leave Neverland because three of Jackson's associates were interfering and coming between her and Mr. Jackson. One of the three associates was Dieter Wiesner, who has been named as an un-indicted co-conspirator. The defense team has sought to suggest that the associates were actually conspiring against Michael to profit off of his troubles rather than conspiring with him Ms. Gomez also stated that while cleaning a guest unit where members of the Arvizo family stayed, she saw adult magazines in an opened backpack belonging to Starr Arvizo Angel Vivanco, a chefs assistant, also testified that the boys showed him sexually explicit material when he delivered food to them in one of the guest cottages. The prosecutions idea that Michael used alcohol to lure Gavin was also challenged by former security guard, Shane Meredith, who said he once found Gavin & his brother, Starr, in the wine cellar unaccompanied with a half empty wine bottle. "I saw the two children laughing, giggling. I could see them with a bottle of alcohol. I told them to get out of that area right now. ..They were pretty shaken up", Meredith saidGavin & Starr previously testified that the only time they were in the wine cellar or drank alcohol was when they were in the presence of Michael Vivanco also testified about an incident he claimed to have had with Gavin and liqueur. He stated that Gavin once demanded that he put a liqueur into a milkshake. "He said if I didnt do it, he would tell Michael and I would be fired", Vivanco testified.The defense, who maintains that Vivanco developed a relationship with Gavin's older sister, Davellin Arvizo, wanted to question him about comments she allegedly made to him critical of her mother & other family members but Judge Rodney Melville severely limited that line of questioning saying it was inadmissible hearsay. Orthodontist, Dr. Jean Seamount, testified that she removed braces from Gavin and his brother on 2/24/03, during the time frame the mother says the family was being held captive In earlier testimony, Janet stated that the appointment was a ruse for them to get away from Neverland and seek help, which she abandoned because the family was being watched. However, Seamount said the family never asked for help, tried to call for help or attempted to leave the office. She said she saw no body guards. When asked if the family members appeared afraid, Seamount answered: "Not at all" Seamount said Janet told her she wanted the braces removed and sent back to the orthodontist who put them on the boys because that dentist was hassling her and wanted to charge her more after discovering their connection to Mr. Jackson. "I spent quite some time explaining to her the need for treatment but the mother insisted on removing the braces", she said.Seamounts assistant, Tiffany Hayes, described Gavin as "rude and kind of a brat". She said her impression of him was that "he believed he was better than us". Hayes also said Neverland's property manager, Joe Marcus, who called to make the appointment, waited for the family in the lobby and that Neverland was billed for the treatment. Carol McCoy also testified that she gave Janet Arvizo a full body wax at a Los Olivos day spa on 2/11/03. "Her legs, brow, lip and face were waxed, and she got a bikini wax", McCoy said. "Did she say anything or do anything that suggested she was being restrained in her liberty?" asked defense attorney Robert Sanger. Neverland worker, Kathryn Bernard, testified that she took Janet to the waxing appointment and arranged to pay the bill. Bernard said, during a conversation on the way, Janet, whom she barely knew, started divulging personal information. She said the woman told her she was trying to get away from her husband and commented on how well Michael was treating her at Neverland. "She was just praising Michael and telling me how bad she had it with her ex. I kept thinking, I dont know this lady and why is she telling me this?", Bernard said.Ms. Bernard also said Janet "never" complained that the family was being held prisoner. None of the witnesses who testified said they saw a film crew following the family on their trips away from the ranch as the mother had previously testified in court Outside court, Jackson spokeswoman, Raymone Bain, said the defense expects to call CNN talk show host Larry King to testify this week. The defense is expected to ask King whether attorney Larry Feldman once said during a breakfast meeting that the accuser's mother made up the molestation story. Feldman has denied the story. Court Transcript Trial Reenactment Arriving at court Lead defense attorney Thomas Mesereau arrives at court Defense attorney Susan Yu arrives at court Defense witness Tiffany Haynes leaves court Defense witness Tiffany Haynes leaves court Defense witness Kathryn Bernerd leaves court after testifying Defense investigator Scott Ross talks on his cell phone outside of the courtroom Defense witness Dr. Jean Seamount arrives at court Defense witness Maria Gomez leaves court after testifying Defense witness Brian Salce arrives at court Defense witness Shane Meredith leaves court after testifying Defense witnesses Maria Gomez & Jesus Castillo exit the courthouse Defense witnesses Brian Salce arrives at court Defense attorneys Susan Yu & Thomas Mesereau leave the courthouse Waving to supporters as he leaves court Waving to supporters as he arrives at court Leaving court Santa Barbara County District Attorney Thomas Sneddon returning to court after a break Defense witness Angel Vivanco arrives with attorney Jesus Castillo Defense witness Carole McCoy arrives at court |
2024.05.16 10:43 unlucky-loser- How to not feel hopeless and lonely in life. Wtf do people do to occupy themselves?
For context I am 22 F. I guess I came on here for validation or something. Actually I don’t know why I’m here but this is how I feel. My days are boring and LONELY. I have no job. I don’t have a desire to work. I can’t work at the moment anyway (mental health struggles and awaiting other things that I need to get back into work). My family works. I’m home alone all day every weekday. I have Autism and ADHD. My family do not support my diagnosis or needs (sensory, emotional, support needs). I had a partner who I was with for 2 years. They were my person. Before we got together, I had quite a few friends. I was my own person and so were they. During the relationship, I lost pretty much all of my friends due to them moving away, not being good friends or we just slowly drifted. My partner and I just broke up. I broke up with them for many reasons. We have different ways of showing love, they lied to me multiple times and they weren’t meeting my needs in our relationship while I was doing the most. I feel like I really lost myself while being in a relationship. I didn’t hang out with people as much or do the things I used to love doing, but I was happy. Now that it’s over, I don’t know what I’m doing with myself. I have no motivation for anything in life anymore. My ex was my main support, someone to always talk to, do things we both loved together and my best friend. I had met new friends during our relationship but they aren’t “close” friends. I can’t expect them to talk to me every day and support me all the time. I miss having a best friend. I don’t understand how people make new friends or become close friends with them. I’m socially anxious and awkward so I can’t go out and just talk to new random people. I haven’t been eating enough, taking care of myself or doing anything really since we broke up. On top of all of this my chronic pain seems to be worsening and I’m just so so lost and exhausted with life. I don’t want to rush into another relationship and tbh it feels like nobody can love me the way I want to be loved.
I feel like I can’t do anything by myself anymore.
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2024.05.16 08:23 OnboardComb Looking for friends for XP to get to Best Friends
I’m a casual player (looking for other casual players that maybe won’t be on every day like me - and won’t immediately delete me at best friends), I live in a remote area so can’t send every day, but i’ll try! Can only do maybe 10 more friends my code is: 602726584248, Trainer Name: Bill374
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2024.05.16 08:13 Oldfriendoldproblem My boyfriend (31m) and I (31f) are to go out of town with friends. Looks like he won't be able to go last minute and I'm stressed to go without him. How do I get over this?
My boyfriend and I have had plans to go out of town with a couple friends for months. Well tonight, it's clear my boyfriend is coming down with some kind of illness. Hard to know how severe at this point. Even if it's just a cold, I doubt he will feel up to going before we need to leave on Fri night.
I've been having misplaced anxiety about this trip in general. Hard to place what I'm truly worried about, but I seem to be a little uneasy any time I have to leave town. We're driving in our friends car to a new place I've never been to so I think I might be having anxiety over relinquishing some of the control. As stupid as it sounds, I also get bad car sickness at random and I carry embarassment about it. Any time im not the driver, I always have the thought in the back of my mind and cross my fingers I won't get sick. The favt my boyfriend would be with me has been the one thing easing my stress.
Like I said, it's likely he's going to have to stay back and I'm worried. I don't really want to go without him, but I feel ridiculous and rude telling my friends that. They aren't people who struggle with anxiety so I wouldn't even know where to begin in explaining my convoluted thought process to them.
How do I push through this? They are good, trust worthy friends that I love. My anxiety around leaving my comfort zone seems to be getting worse as I get older and I don't want to miss out because of my irrational thoughts. What can I do to shift my perspective and worry less about going on my own?
TL;DR: my anxiety strikes again and I'm feeling uneasy about leaving for a trip without my boyfriend. Even though I'm going with close friends, I'm nervous to be 'on my own'. How can I overcome this?
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I've been having misplaced anxiety about this trip in general. Hard to place what I'm truly worried about, but I seem to be a little uneasy any time I have to leave town. We're driving in our friends car to a new place I've never been to so I think I might be having anxiety over relinquishing some of the control. As stupid as it sounds, I also get bad car sickness at random and I carry embarassment about it. Any time im not the driver, I always have the thought in the back of my mind and cross my fingers I won't get sick. The favt my boyfriend would be with me has been the one thing easing my stress.
Like I said, it's likely he's going to have to stay back and I'm worried. I don't really want to go without him, but I feel ridiculous and rude telling my friends that. They aren't people who struggle with anxiety so I wouldn't even know where to begin in explaining my convoluted thought process to them.
How do I push through this? They are good, trust worthy friends that I love. My anxiety around leaving my comfort zone seems to be getting worse as I get older and I don't want to miss out because of my irrational thoughts. What can I do to shift my perspective and worry less about going on my own?
TL;DR: my anxiety strikes again and I'm feeling uneasy about leaving for a trip without my boyfriend. Even though I'm going with close friends, I'm nervous to be 'on my own'. How can I overcome this?
2024.05.16 07:45 Riseupgerms I can’t get horny on my own
Ever since puberty, I was secretly a very horny person. I accidentally let the secret slip at the wrong time multiple times. I was raised fairly conservative, where the idea of these feelings were extremely looked over. It feels like everyone else is allowed to express these, but I can’t. In my first few relationships, I was put down for being a horny person. Comments were made about me after sex and it made me self conscious. I learned later that my partners weren’t as sexually interested in me as I am them, and it made me feel like a monster. I’m now in a long term relationship with someone who understands me, and wants me to be myself, in and out of the bedroom. I only feel like I can express that side when he’s also in the mood, which sucks, because now, I can’t even pleasure myself because I’m not actively getting my feelings validated. We’ve unpacked it a lot in the past five years. I know it comes from feelings of abandonment, being told I’m wrong for wanting sex, feeling like a monster for wanting it when my partner doesn’t, and making comments about it before I understood society standards. How can I feel confident enough in my own body to not need someone’s validation to feel horny?
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2024.05.16 07:36 simonssoba how do i wash my bangs in the shower?????
this is so stupid but like i’m lowk afraid of like. losing them ???? i kinda just keep them seperated and wash them seperate from my actual hair but i feel like that’s . Not how you’re supposed to do it
does this make sense am i insane
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2024.05.16 06:36 cheersneanderthal rant got tilt table test results back
today i got tilt table test results back. a nurse called me over the phone. she said my results were abnormal, and highly suggestive of POTS. & everything just is clicking into place for me. i can’t stop thinking about it, and need to get it all out.
i’ve been exhausted my whole life. i am almost constantly fatigued. like the kind of chronic tired where i can regularly sleep for 14 hours straight no problem. where even if i’m consistently getting 8 hours everyday i still need a scary amount of coffee to do basic level function. most days i don’t function very well at all. my brain is constantly foggy. i forget things constantly. i lose my wallet & keys & debit card weekly. i literally can’t think straight most of the time, and everything’s kinda blurry in my head. when i stand up i usually feel like i’m going to faint, but i never do, so for the longest time i pinned this on me being weak, out of shape, lazy, some kind of personal failure. sometimes my vision gets blurry too, or my heart rate goes up to where it’s not in a normal range anymore. i feel lightheaded, woozy, off balance. and even though it was hard to think before, it just got a lot harder. i feel like i need to sit as much as i can. if i have to stand for more than a few minutes, i can feel the energy leave my body. it feels like the bottom half of me is deadweight, and the top half of me is giving everything it can to make sure the bottom doesn’t fall down. that’s why my chest and head feel so weak. i have bad posture, because it feels too hard & draining to properly support my torso & head. i slouch really badly to ease the burden. when i was younger i went to physical therapy for it. they thought i had scoliosis. i later found out i have hyper mobile EDS. this made sense. but no one else thought to look for POTS too. i lean against everything i can. i cross my legs to help make myself more sturdy. when i shower i sit on the floor. my feet turn red or purple when i stand for a long time. i can’t stand straight up, feet flat on the floor, legs uncrossed, back straightened without feeling like shit. that makes me feel small & defunct & like i’m not trying. how can someone be trying when they have to crumple themselves up just to remain upright. i work a job where i have to stand all day. i fuck things up a lot because my brain is cloudy and my body feels sick. i have to sit down throughout the shift and feel guilty for not being productive. when i clock out i am overcome with exhaustion. i sit in my car for 40 minutes sometimes before i can get myself to drive home. when i get home, i usually spend the rest of the night in bed. i can’t cook, i can’t clean, i can’t hang out with people. i’m too tired.
for years i thought it was because i spent so much time in bed. i didn’t exercise enough. i’m so lazy that i’ve reduced my body’s ability to function. if i was in shape, if i was more active, standing wouldn’t feel so bad. but when i tried to be more active, to exercise, to get out of bed- i caused muscle edema, i experienced asthma, i over stretched muscles & pulled things out of place & made the lightheaded feeling worse. i exhausted myself to the point of being bed-ridden for the rest of the day, or days, enough time to off-set any progress i made from trying to be active. i felt like i caused a problem and messed myself up so badly i wouldn’t be able to fix it. turns out the problem wasn’t my fault after all. i wasn’t lazy, or at least not by choice. i didn’t sit in bed all day and ruin myself, i sat in bed all day because it drained me not to. i have imposter syndrome & guilt.
when i was younger i developed an anxiety disorder. i had panic attacks. it makes sense, it still does, i could feel it in my brain, even if you couldn’t tell on the outside. but then i started to have tremors. and shakiness & excessive sweating & fast heart rate. all the same things that are associated with the physical side of panic attack, but i wasn’t panicking when the physical symptoms started. i started to though, when i realized i couldn’t stop shaking. which came first? the chicken or the egg? the tremors or the anxiety? the POTS or the anxiety disorder?
my hands are almost always cold. my feet are too. sometimes when i go outside in the winter my legs will take on the cold too, and from my foot to my hip my skin will feel eerily cold to the touch, and it will for hours. in the summer i go outside & i feel sick. i feel nauseous & small & exhausted & weak. i can’t be outside for too long without feeling like i’m barely getting myself to function. i don’t go outside very much in the summer.
my stomach is always fucked up. i was diagnosed with IBS at 14 because i had reoccurring excruciating stomach cramps & flare-ups of constipation. i get heart burn and nausea and bloating almost daily. i have stomach aches sometimes that interferes with my ability to stand and do the things i need to do.
it makes sense. all the symptoms make sense. i have almost everything, minus the fainting. i’ve only fainted once. i have risk factors- i’ve had mono, i’ve had covid, i have EDS, im a young female.
but i don’t feel sick enough.
& what if it’s something else? another type of dysautonomia? orthostatic cerebral hypoperfusion syndrome? orthostatic hypotension? MCAS? what if it is just physical deconditioning? something else?
how do i know what i have? all i know is i feel like shit.
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i’ve been exhausted my whole life. i am almost constantly fatigued. like the kind of chronic tired where i can regularly sleep for 14 hours straight no problem. where even if i’m consistently getting 8 hours everyday i still need a scary amount of coffee to do basic level function. most days i don’t function very well at all. my brain is constantly foggy. i forget things constantly. i lose my wallet & keys & debit card weekly. i literally can’t think straight most of the time, and everything’s kinda blurry in my head. when i stand up i usually feel like i’m going to faint, but i never do, so for the longest time i pinned this on me being weak, out of shape, lazy, some kind of personal failure. sometimes my vision gets blurry too, or my heart rate goes up to where it’s not in a normal range anymore. i feel lightheaded, woozy, off balance. and even though it was hard to think before, it just got a lot harder. i feel like i need to sit as much as i can. if i have to stand for more than a few minutes, i can feel the energy leave my body. it feels like the bottom half of me is deadweight, and the top half of me is giving everything it can to make sure the bottom doesn’t fall down. that’s why my chest and head feel so weak. i have bad posture, because it feels too hard & draining to properly support my torso & head. i slouch really badly to ease the burden. when i was younger i went to physical therapy for it. they thought i had scoliosis. i later found out i have hyper mobile EDS. this made sense. but no one else thought to look for POTS too. i lean against everything i can. i cross my legs to help make myself more sturdy. when i shower i sit on the floor. my feet turn red or purple when i stand for a long time. i can’t stand straight up, feet flat on the floor, legs uncrossed, back straightened without feeling like shit. that makes me feel small & defunct & like i’m not trying. how can someone be trying when they have to crumple themselves up just to remain upright. i work a job where i have to stand all day. i fuck things up a lot because my brain is cloudy and my body feels sick. i have to sit down throughout the shift and feel guilty for not being productive. when i clock out i am overcome with exhaustion. i sit in my car for 40 minutes sometimes before i can get myself to drive home. when i get home, i usually spend the rest of the night in bed. i can’t cook, i can’t clean, i can’t hang out with people. i’m too tired.
for years i thought it was because i spent so much time in bed. i didn’t exercise enough. i’m so lazy that i’ve reduced my body’s ability to function. if i was in shape, if i was more active, standing wouldn’t feel so bad. but when i tried to be more active, to exercise, to get out of bed- i caused muscle edema, i experienced asthma, i over stretched muscles & pulled things out of place & made the lightheaded feeling worse. i exhausted myself to the point of being bed-ridden for the rest of the day, or days, enough time to off-set any progress i made from trying to be active. i felt like i caused a problem and messed myself up so badly i wouldn’t be able to fix it. turns out the problem wasn’t my fault after all. i wasn’t lazy, or at least not by choice. i didn’t sit in bed all day and ruin myself, i sat in bed all day because it drained me not to. i have imposter syndrome & guilt.
when i was younger i developed an anxiety disorder. i had panic attacks. it makes sense, it still does, i could feel it in my brain, even if you couldn’t tell on the outside. but then i started to have tremors. and shakiness & excessive sweating & fast heart rate. all the same things that are associated with the physical side of panic attack, but i wasn’t panicking when the physical symptoms started. i started to though, when i realized i couldn’t stop shaking. which came first? the chicken or the egg? the tremors or the anxiety? the POTS or the anxiety disorder?
my hands are almost always cold. my feet are too. sometimes when i go outside in the winter my legs will take on the cold too, and from my foot to my hip my skin will feel eerily cold to the touch, and it will for hours. in the summer i go outside & i feel sick. i feel nauseous & small & exhausted & weak. i can’t be outside for too long without feeling like i’m barely getting myself to function. i don’t go outside very much in the summer.
my stomach is always fucked up. i was diagnosed with IBS at 14 because i had reoccurring excruciating stomach cramps & flare-ups of constipation. i get heart burn and nausea and bloating almost daily. i have stomach aches sometimes that interferes with my ability to stand and do the things i need to do.
it makes sense. all the symptoms make sense. i have almost everything, minus the fainting. i’ve only fainted once. i have risk factors- i’ve had mono, i’ve had covid, i have EDS, im a young female.
but i don’t feel sick enough.
& what if it’s something else? another type of dysautonomia? orthostatic cerebral hypoperfusion syndrome? orthostatic hypotension? MCAS? what if it is just physical deconditioning? something else?
how do i know what i have? all i know is i feel like shit.
2024.05.16 06:28 VelvetSunstar I Understand
We've been friends for a long time, even before you got married. I was among those who shipped you with your current husband. Heck, I even attended your wedding. Throughout the years we've shared details about each other...our sins, our mistakes and our lovelives (several of mine) that we could not tell anyone else.
I noticed I haven't heard from you in a long spell. But I totally get it. Your partner... he never liked me. Despite him knowing who I am... I guess the vibe is there. I never liked him either. And knowing I'm still single... I guess red flags are ringing for him.
As much as I don't like him, I also have to respect the bounds of your marriage to him. As platonic as our relationship has always (and will always be), if he doesn't like it, then you should stay away from me.
I know you get from me the kind of comfort he's unable to provide you. For one, he's a strong willed extrovert who doesn't see things in abstract, while the two of us... we like to sometimes live in our heads and indulge in our fantasies.
It's funny because if only he knew the kind of shit I've been through, and that you're not attracted to me in any way for knowing them, he wouldn't feel so insecure or suspicious. But then again, it's an unusual set up. They say males and females cannot be just friends. While generally true, I truly believe we're the exception. But exceptions are exceptions for a reason due to its rarity and rare things are extremely dubious.
I will not try to reach out to you either. Our friendship has always been dependent on whether you reach out to me or not. I couldn't because again, out of respect for your marriage. But if you do reach out, then I'll be here... unless your husband decides to message me directly to say I could no longer talk to you.
I wouldn't want it to come to that. So if this is your way of avoiding it, well and good. I hope you get the kind of emotional support you used to get from me somehow. Or that you learn to appreciate your husband for who he is. Either way, I understand.
I just let go of my girl (haha I'm still calling her "my girl") and I would have wanted to tell you that. I wonder how you'd react this time? What unusual perspectives you would have given me again? You always made me feel like things aren't as bad as I make them up to be. That things happen for a reason. You never judged me. I think you have a knack for counseling. I hope your husband realizes how lucky he is to have you.
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I noticed I haven't heard from you in a long spell. But I totally get it. Your partner... he never liked me. Despite him knowing who I am... I guess the vibe is there. I never liked him either. And knowing I'm still single... I guess red flags are ringing for him.
As much as I don't like him, I also have to respect the bounds of your marriage to him. As platonic as our relationship has always (and will always be), if he doesn't like it, then you should stay away from me.
I know you get from me the kind of comfort he's unable to provide you. For one, he's a strong willed extrovert who doesn't see things in abstract, while the two of us... we like to sometimes live in our heads and indulge in our fantasies.
It's funny because if only he knew the kind of shit I've been through, and that you're not attracted to me in any way for knowing them, he wouldn't feel so insecure or suspicious. But then again, it's an unusual set up. They say males and females cannot be just friends. While generally true, I truly believe we're the exception. But exceptions are exceptions for a reason due to its rarity and rare things are extremely dubious.
I will not try to reach out to you either. Our friendship has always been dependent on whether you reach out to me or not. I couldn't because again, out of respect for your marriage. But if you do reach out, then I'll be here... unless your husband decides to message me directly to say I could no longer talk to you.
I wouldn't want it to come to that. So if this is your way of avoiding it, well and good. I hope you get the kind of emotional support you used to get from me somehow. Or that you learn to appreciate your husband for who he is. Either way, I understand.
I just let go of my girl (haha I'm still calling her "my girl") and I would have wanted to tell you that. I wonder how you'd react this time? What unusual perspectives you would have given me again? You always made me feel like things aren't as bad as I make them up to be. That things happen for a reason. You never judged me. I think you have a knack for counseling. I hope your husband realizes how lucky he is to have you.
2024.05.16 05:59 ToxicUnrankedCasual Help finding damage in my build
Almost free, 39/40. Going to do the uber challenges. But big problem. Too tanky, not enough DEEPS. So some of the challenges would be super sweaty. Like I can afk uber shaper, but not getting hit by shaper beam while whittling him down will be a true test.
Poison Molten strike PF , made it work last league, trying to make it work now.
https://pobb.in/m1QyJ42b_1cJ
I think I calculated my damage right, idk.
Need suggestions on how I can squeeze in more damage.
P.S I know I need a better weap with t1 dot chaos multi.
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Poison Molten strike PF , made it work last league, trying to make it work now.
https://pobb.in/m1QyJ42b_1cJ
I think I calculated my damage right, idk.
Need suggestions on how I can squeeze in more damage.
P.S I know I need a better weap with t1 dot chaos multi.
2024.05.16 04:18 BodybuilderNo6117 mom being jealous of my body and the way I look? is this normal?
im 18 (f) and my mom 52. I am pretty active person being consistent with working out, eating well, and maintaining my body. im not like super skinny or anything, just average. my mom has always made comments about my body saying that if she looked like me she would walk around naked, etc. this never really offended me or made me uncomfortable, however it is just difficult because she makes me feel bad for being skinnier. today, she was upset and I asked why, she said she is super disappointed in herself because she stepped on the scale and was unhappy with her weight. she called herself fat. and with this, she will starve herself and not eat as much as she should hoping to 'change' I have had eating issues in the past, so hearing these comments and watching her eat less can be triggering sometimes. I dont know like how to support her because she has made it clear she is jealous of me and the way I look, and as her kid it makes me feel guilty, but im just not sure what to do.
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2024.05.16 04:15 wickedephie Family Tree
I've been playing the same hood for a while and some of my families had so many generations. So, so many. At this point I think basically everyone is somehow related, lol. I wish I could find a tool that allowed me to see an expanded version of my family tree outside the game, like really showing everyone at once. Or, at least, like all the people of a certain family. It would be crazy to see all these connections. Is that something we can do using SimPe? To this day, SimPe is still a mystery to me. I tried and I was only able to see the people who are still alive, not everyone that came before. So, if it's possible, or if you know any other tool, please let me know how to do it. Thanks!!
ps: Please note that I already have "Improved Family Tree UI", but still that doesn't show me the whole family tree at once, so it's not exactly what I'm looking for.
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ps: Please note that I already have "Improved Family Tree UI", but still that doesn't show me the whole family tree at once, so it's not exactly what I'm looking for.
2024.05.16 04:11 Smiley414 Kissing Baby with Cold Sore
I have always suffered from extremely severe cold sores from someone kissing me when I was young (like spread on my face severely). While less severe now thankfully, still worse than the average person. They’ve always made me feel terrible, so embarrassed, just about 2 feet tall. So ever since I was little I said I wouldn’t let anyone do that to my kids, so I made a “no mouth rule” for my baby who is now 6 months old (kisses, sharing cups, blowing raspberries on his skin), other than from my husband and me. This rule has absolutely been disobeyed by in laws which finally came to a big family blow out basically and hopefully will NOT be happening again.
My husband never suffered the terrible face sores and how they make you feel so absolutely does not agree with this rule. He feels we should let family kiss baby anywhere other than lips and hands (maybe cheeks). I’ve read that they can be spread from even places like eyes and the top of the head if a sore is active so I wasn’t comfortable with this. If a family member had a sore, I know they would absolutely kiss baby regardless because it’s not hardwired in their brain like it is mine, it’d be no big deal to them because they never suffered like I have. He said I was being hypocritical because his family doesn’t get cold sores and I do and I kiss the baby. I wanted to see the science behind me kissing him. Did I seal him with the same fate as me?
I still get frequent cold sores, but can feel them coming on so I will not kiss baby when I have them. I refuse to touch the cold sore area with my hands period, I very frequently wash my hands, I do not share eating utensils with baby, I won’t wipe my face with hand towels, I throw away my toothbrush after, won’t re use cups, will drink out of straw or not drink with that side of my mouth, etc. Basically I do everything I can to stay as hygienic as possible. I keep baby away from my mouth area if I have an active sore and if baby accidentally brushes me, I will wash his hands or baby wipe him down immediately.
Baby is exclusively breastfed, born via c section if it matters. I will absolutely love all over baby when no sores are active (still try to avoid his mouth always). Someone please just tell me if I’ve infected my baby and if I am being unreasonable with my wishes. This has caused so much heartache for me with all the grief and tension in my family.
Info: Female, in 20s 5’4ish, 120 lbs.
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My husband never suffered the terrible face sores and how they make you feel so absolutely does not agree with this rule. He feels we should let family kiss baby anywhere other than lips and hands (maybe cheeks). I’ve read that they can be spread from even places like eyes and the top of the head if a sore is active so I wasn’t comfortable with this. If a family member had a sore, I know they would absolutely kiss baby regardless because it’s not hardwired in their brain like it is mine, it’d be no big deal to them because they never suffered like I have. He said I was being hypocritical because his family doesn’t get cold sores and I do and I kiss the baby. I wanted to see the science behind me kissing him. Did I seal him with the same fate as me?
I still get frequent cold sores, but can feel them coming on so I will not kiss baby when I have them. I refuse to touch the cold sore area with my hands period, I very frequently wash my hands, I do not share eating utensils with baby, I won’t wipe my face with hand towels, I throw away my toothbrush after, won’t re use cups, will drink out of straw or not drink with that side of my mouth, etc. Basically I do everything I can to stay as hygienic as possible. I keep baby away from my mouth area if I have an active sore and if baby accidentally brushes me, I will wash his hands or baby wipe him down immediately.
Baby is exclusively breastfed, born via c section if it matters. I will absolutely love all over baby when no sores are active (still try to avoid his mouth always). Someone please just tell me if I’ve infected my baby and if I am being unreasonable with my wishes. This has caused so much heartache for me with all the grief and tension in my family.
Info: Female, in 20s 5’4ish, 120 lbs.
2024.05.16 03:53 TheGravityDefiant Does progress carry over to private servers?
I have never played 76 despite being a huge fan of the previous games. My friend told me that if I ever decided to try it, I could play in his and his wife’s private server. If I do this, does my progress that I make in their private world save, or do I have to start over every time I join up with them on their world. How does that work? Explain it like I’m 5
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2024.05.16 03:24 washdc20001 Harassment in Condo Building
I am a condo owner and am currently being harassed by an individual that rents a parking space in my condo building underground garage. Upon reporting these events and requesting information to my property management company, they refuse to disclose the owner name that rents the space nor any other identifying information. My property management company will also not disclose whether or not the harassing individual has a lease. Additionally, I don’t see any language/ parameters in the bylaws on renting parking spaces (as opposed to required background and credit checks for those that rent units) and the Property Management company won’t disclose parking space rental requirements either. My question is how do I manage this going forward? This individual has threatened to kill me, etc and has a key to the building. He doesn’t know my name, unit number or car that I am aware of but I’m still scared nonetheless. I happened to be an innocent bystander when said individual was harassing building contractors which is the only reason he happens to know me.
My initial hope was to just speak to the parking space owner and have him/her give a friendly warning to the individual, but this has progressed too far. Given that I have the license plate number, can I file a restraining order? Can the person then be banned from parking in the building? Can I make a motion to change/create rules for parking in my building via the board? Thanks for your help.
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My initial hope was to just speak to the parking space owner and have him/her give a friendly warning to the individual, but this has progressed too far. Given that I have the license plate number, can I file a restraining order? Can the person then be banned from parking in the building? Can I make a motion to change/create rules for parking in my building via the board? Thanks for your help.
2024.05.16 03:14 Big-Organization6522 I keep having thoughts about death
I keep having thoughts about death
My thoughts never end. I had obsessive thoughts about Religion then my classmate died. I got all sorts of thoughts about dying and anxiety it was so bad. It stopped and then the religious thoughts started popping up again. The thoughts stopped yesterday of the religious thing and then the death thoughts started coming. I started watching things about death, all this stuff. IM TERRIFED I HAVE BEEN FEELING UNEASY FOR THE PAST MONTH LIKE WHAT DO I DO. It scares me how someone can live their life ok without worrying about what I worry about. These thoughts make me think im gonna die. The thoughts keep saying "I feel like im ready to die" and all this stuff. I'm even more paranoid now because some guy kept showing up to are house for the 2nd time today he keeps looking around at our house and texting im scared earlier he went to everyone's hosue but this time I think he only came to ours im scared.
I feel like im dying or something but I don't want to. I don't like thinking about the future. I don't like having this uneasy feeling. Have yall had this and how did it go away?
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My thoughts never end. I had obsessive thoughts about Religion then my classmate died. I got all sorts of thoughts about dying and anxiety it was so bad. It stopped and then the religious thoughts started popping up again. The thoughts stopped yesterday of the religious thing and then the death thoughts started coming. I started watching things about death, all this stuff. IM TERRIFED I HAVE BEEN FEELING UNEASY FOR THE PAST MONTH LIKE WHAT DO I DO. It scares me how someone can live their life ok without worrying about what I worry about. These thoughts make me think im gonna die. The thoughts keep saying "I feel like im ready to die" and all this stuff. I'm even more paranoid now because some guy kept showing up to are house for the 2nd time today he keeps looking around at our house and texting im scared earlier he went to everyone's hosue but this time I think he only came to ours im scared.
I feel like im dying or something but I don't want to. I don't like thinking about the future. I don't like having this uneasy feeling. Have yall had this and how did it go away?
2024.05.16 03:01 lostinmemories89 Just found out the reason she hates me and I'm dumbfounded
I (24M) and her (20F) broke up in January, she told me it was because "she rushed into another relationship too quickly" we where together since the start of October so I was sorta shocked it took so long- But I've recently found out this wasn't the reason. So the entire relationship she sorta stone walled me alot when it came to progressing the relationship which made it really difficult for me especially with the fact she wanted to have sex the second night we knew each other. After that we never got intimate again and tbh that started frustrating me also because we never got time to be a proper couple? But the reason she broke up with me has me confused... and the reason was I asked her questions alot.
And i feel like I needed to half the time because she was never open to me about anything, she hid things away from me. I wasn't even allowed to enter her room. I had no clue what our relationship was or how we where doing because she never talked about anything like that.
I once said I love you to her later into the relationship and that ended up with her giving me a 2 hour lecture on why she didn't want to use that word... It felt toxic in some ways because I always felt like I was doing something wrong when all my friends where telling me I was doing everything I could.
But after the break up she told me we'd get back together- and again that wasn't true. She was on tinder a week after looking for a relationship (this was found out through a friend) and the thing that hurt more was when she got with her new guy she told me she loved him a month into their relationship and she's already moved in with him.
I just feel used and I was lead on for nothing.
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And i feel like I needed to half the time because she was never open to me about anything, she hid things away from me. I wasn't even allowed to enter her room. I had no clue what our relationship was or how we where doing because she never talked about anything like that.
I once said I love you to her later into the relationship and that ended up with her giving me a 2 hour lecture on why she didn't want to use that word... It felt toxic in some ways because I always felt like I was doing something wrong when all my friends where telling me I was doing everything I could.
But after the break up she told me we'd get back together- and again that wasn't true. She was on tinder a week after looking for a relationship (this was found out through a friend) and the thing that hurt more was when she got with her new guy she told me she loved him a month into their relationship and she's already moved in with him.
I just feel used and I was lead on for nothing.