Right? What are you a poor?
The dichotomy between this and the main sub is hilarious. They are TOO forgiving. These elitist Youtubers are clearly out of touch with reality and have brain rot from living in Lala land they can't even comprehend what $6 is like for a college kid in Wisconsin or a kid from India who just wants to watch some free YT vids to brighten their day.

Chapter 24 - The Race
Previous Chapter
The Seventh competitor took her place before the assembled crowd on the ground, raising a fist into the air as she did so. The crowd roared at the display as the car’s turbines kicked in and began to raise her up into the sky. Her car had been modified as well, the control surfaces on it were noticeably shorter and the turbine was actually jutting several inches out from the back.
“Those previous cars didn’t appear to be modified much. Is that uncommon?” Alex pointed at the clearly modified car. The control surfaces didn’t even match the rest of the frame in color, let alone style.
“Not uncommon, really. It’s just a bit difficult to often sink any serious amount of time and money into them. Winning the challenges is a goal that brings with it fame, respect, and glory but otherwise it isn’t exactly lucrative. It is up to each competitor to decide how much of their own resources to put into each vehicle, with the knowledge that they may not recoup the costs.” Borala glanced down at a paper in front of her. “That particular car is from a rather well-known Teff called the Veshika. They manage a particularly rich mining operation in the M’rit lands.”
At first the competitor seemed much more skilled than the others. Alex watched as she poured on the speed, her car tilting and curving around the track, narrowly dodging each projectile while maintaining a fairly high speed. Still her handling of the car seemed somewhat spotty. She was rocketing ahead of the shots, sure, but whenever she DID have to change direction she did so almost awkwardly.
Despite her lack of skill, her car was still quite capable. She made it past the first two Flame sections into the third far quicker than the others, but it was quickly apparent that it wouldn’t be enough here. She’d finally started dodging but it was clear she was having troubles controlling the vehicle at the speeds she was going. Her turns were all over the place, both over and under correcting as she tried to make up for the fact that speed alone wasn’t going to be enough to get her through unscathed.
She was fast approaching the triple cannon area that had taken out the first challenger when a cannon shot tracked her perfectly, landing its soft projectile directly into one of the four stabilizing thrusters that kept the vehicle aloft.
Immediately the thruster cut out, spewing sparks and smoke as the car began to tilt wildly, losing altitude rapidly as the pilot fought the controls. For a moment it looked like they were about to witness a disaster on the track before the other 3 thrusters compensated, and the car slowly regained control. The spotter car was already roaring up to her aid, but it appeared to be mostly unnecessary after all. Alex could hear the audience breathing a sigh of relief as they saw her land safely.
“My, that was a close one.” Borala tapped a finger on the armrest of her chair. “The thrusters can normally take a hit without failing like that. It must have come in at just the right angle to damage it.”
“I’m glad she made it OK. When I saw the car tumble, I was certain we were about to witness a tragedy.” Alex took a deep breath. “I’m still a bit surprised by how dangerous this seems.”
Borala sighed at this, and nodded her head. “It is dangerous. But it’s popular. We used to drive ground cars across a large course with ramps, obstacles, debris, and so on. But over time the people grew bored of watching it. One of my predecessors attempted to spice up the events shortly after the Bunters arrived and sold us the first group of aircars. We’ve been trying to make it safer, to scale it back, but every time we do interest wanes. People want to watch the thrills and the danger.”
“That sounds remarkably like our people.” Josh gazed out at the scene of the Spotter attaching cables to the damaged aircar, prepping it to return back to the starting point. “Throughout our history there’s endless examples of things that were small spectacles or events that grew more and more complex over time. Even when the cars were so fast they would virtually disintegrate on the track if someone made a wrong turn or another car caused them to lose control and crash. Plenty of people won’t admit it but they watch those races hoping for something to happen, because it’s just that much more exciting.”
Borala shuddered as she imagined the carnage of a ground car crashing and breaking apart. “In the thirty-eight years I have been managing this event as the head of the Nof, there have been three fatal accidents. I still often find myself wishing we could keep the excitement and entertainment of the challenges without as much danger, yet whenever we try there’s an outcry. I can’t deny that a part of the thrill comes from the challengers being exposed as they fly.”
Alex immediately saw the opportunity and jumped in. “That’s actually fairly doable. I’m no engineer like Ji and Min, but I know for a fact there’s a number of safeguards we could help you implement to prevent a worst-case scenario. Granted, it would take time and resources we don’t have in abundance - yet.”
Borala smiled, and patted Alex on the shoulder. “Save the effort for the Presh. I already fully support our two species working together. Kyshe wishes to trust in you, I believe. Yet it was her mother who signed the agreements with the Bunters. Kyshe was present as heir and witness to it all. All five of the major Teffs agreed to the deal, yet because it was signed by the Presh they bore the weight of the blame when it was revealed what the Bunters had done. We try to tell our people that the Presh did not act on their own, but…” She sighed and shook her head.
“Well, once we get things turned around, if we can emphasize Kyshe’s role in it all that should help a great deal.”
“You’re speaking as though it can’t fail.” Borala smiled widely at this. “You’re that certain that your plans will succeed?”
Alex nodded emphatically. “I’m an optimist. I always hope for the best.” He glanced up at the display. “And now it looks like our girl’s ready to show her stuff.”
—--
Trix had the thrusters on low as she walked the car out to the starting area. Unlike the others she didn’t have it wheeled out unpowered, but already had the car started as she guided it out, floating only a few feet off the ground. Many competitors didn’t do this,opting instead to sit astride the car before engaging the thrusters, but Ji suggested it as a way to present both herself and the car together, and she didn’t really have any reason to say no. Ji himself was walking out with her, on the opposite side of the car.
Initially he hadn’t wanted to. He wanted her to be the one in the spotlight and he knew that his presence would be immediately distracting, but she had insisted. “You helped me prepare for this, you get to show it off with me!” she’d stated.
What she HADN’T stated was her nervousness at this. She’d been a fan of the races since she was young, and now she was finally going to compete herself. Winning the competition didn’t result in any significant change to anyone’s life. There was no massive prize pool, no source of regular income afterwards. It wasn’t going to lead to new opportunities in her life. It was just a source of fun, a point of pride, and a way to show off one’s skills - and that alone made it a worthwhile goal to many. Worthwhile to Trix, and to the friends she often spoke with over the multivids.
Buying the Soranet Ten was a major undertaking for her that had required long extra hours of working over two years to save up for. Most of her Teff had thought it was a waste of time and effort but it was her time, and her effort so none had done much more than making an off hand remark. And look where she was now! She was competing in front of over a thousand people here, and she knew that the remote broadcasts of this were viewed by at least ten times that amount, if not more. And once people realized the Humans’ involvement in this challenge, that number would grow by leaps and bounds. That was more than enough to get in her head, both for the better and for the worse.
Still, she was too far in now. Backing out now would be an embarrassment in front of god only knows how many, and she could live with failure better than she could with the humiliation of cowardice. So she steeled herself as she moved in unison with Ji out to the center of the staging area. Mounting an already-engaged aircar could often be tricky without the friction of the ground to stabilize it against, but Ji was there and held it for her as she swung her leg over the body, gripping the frame between her thighs tightly. The two of them attached each of the safety restraint cables around the frame to her, and she let her wings relax and droop a bit in anticipation.
As they finished, Ji slapped her arm lightly and walked away. She took a huge breath, then slid her helmet on and started to circle upward to reach the starting height.
—--
“That doesn’t look anything LIKE a Soranet Ten!” Borala protested, and Min made a dismissive noise.
“It started as a ten, we just modified it. There were some redundant systems in there that served no reasonable purpose that we removed. If you’re flying at a reasonable speed there’s no use in having THREE separate cooling systems. Just one radiator and one cooling line to each thruster is more than enough. And if you’re not trying to strafe left or right then there’s no need for all those ridiculous control surfaces. The Turbine only faces one way after all. So we removed most of those, which lowered the weight a substantial amount. That gave the thrusters extra power compared to before, so we added a small gimbal that lets them angle slightly backwards, to use that extra power to thrust forward faster. Everything was done on planet with local resources. The only thing we fully manufactured was the frame, and that was for style and not for performance.”
Borala took all this in as she stared at the modified aircar. “She’s also not wearing armored sheathes over her wings.”
This time all of the humans did a double take towards the screen. “Huh. That’s true. I didn’t hear anything about that from her.” Min thought back to their previous conversations. “Maybe she’s trying to cut the weight even more? The less weight the more power the thrusters can use…”
“Perhaps. But if a shot hits the wings, it will punch through those feathers with ease. And if it strikes a bone, it WILL shatter.” Borala motioned out towards the turrets. “The wing sheathes can blunt the worst of the impact, though wings do still get broken when hit with them on. It’s still a great deal better than going out unprotected.”
Ji ran up into the pavilion as Trix moved into starting position. The first of the four hammer strikes rang out. “Looks like it’s time. Min, how’s Telemetry looking?”
“A-OK here. Battery’s at max, Turbine’s clean, thrusters are all reading nominal.”
Ji ran over to the chair he’d vacated earlier. “Par, remotes in position?”
“Yes, Ji. Both the transmitter remotes and the recorder remotes are positioned along the track.”
Alex glanced over at Ji. “Transmitters?”
“Yeah, man. You think you’re the only one who can put on a show?” Ji grinned and lifted up the quickboard. The second the fourth gong of the bell rang out, Ji pressed the button on the quickboard and a thumping noise filled the area as Trix’ aircar shot forward.
—--
“Not even five seconds in and it’s already hitting problems.” Trix cursed under her breath. The car had performed perfectly on every single test flight in the last week, and every diagnostic had shown it was in perfect shape for this race. Yet right after she started, she could feel a harsh rhythmic buzz and thump against her thighs.
Her heart had leapt up into her throat at first, when she felt the unfamiliar sensations on the vehicle. She’d spent hours in the air on the back of the machine, and thought she’d known every single one of its quirks and sensations, but this one was new and new was almost always bad.
Almost. After a few seconds of the odd sensations, it intensified into something much more familiar. She continued to curse, now at Ji, for the surprise. The music they’d listened to so often while working on the car grew in intensity until it was all she could hear, and she goosed the throttle to pour on extra speed as the music filled her ears and her panic was replaced with the excitement the beat filled her with. Her heartbeat throbbed in her chest in time with the music as she leaned into the intense wind rushing past.
The car shot forward with a speed that none of the others could match, right as the music kicked in - electrifying the entire crowd who shot up from their seats. They’d known from the start this wouldn’t be like the other races just from the strange look that the Aircar brought in had (Not to mention the fact that a Human was walking it in alongside its rider) but this easily went beyond expectations.
The first flame was absolutely nothing. None of the turrets were calibrated to track the vehicle as it rocketed forward and it reached the second flame section without even needing to dodge. Even there the turrets struggled to keep up, with almost every single shot falling behind the vehicle. Trix had barely had to do more than go into a curve to avoid most of the shots on the second flame, as it too had been calibrated for a much slower car.
Entering the third flame was where the action started. The turrets in this section not only could track her far more effectively, but were leading their shots. Where the other competitors attempting the challenge focused more on acrobatics and using nimble and quick changes in velocity and vector to throw off the tracking, Trix opted to continue to pour on the speed. In lieu of strafing, she began to weave side to side while arcing up or down, moving in an almost erratic corkscrew pattern. Unlike the previous attempt, she had perfect control in the air - her arcs were smooth, she didn’t oversteer and every rapid change of vector was done without excessive movement to conserve as much speed as possible. In the blink of an eye she reached the same triple-volley that had taken out the first challenger, and as the three turrets fired as one, Trix’ car went into a steep dive, gaining speed as it used gravity along with the turbine to boost it past the tricky section. As the crowd roared out, nearly drowning out the thumping rhythmic music, she flew past the third flame into the last section of the course.
The last section was by far the trickiest. The turrets here would not simply fire at a competitor, not simply lead their shots, but occasionally fired off shots designed to miss by close margins, to frighten competitors into dodging and lead them into other turrets line of fire. And it was for this section that Trix had been practicing frantically for the past week.
The moment she’d crossed into the fourth flame, she immediately made a hard bank left, as two turrets that had been waiting for this fired as one, narrowly missing the back of the car. The two swept around, thumping out their shots as they swiveled to chase her but she completed a tight hairpin turn, returning to her original position before rocketing forward. As she did she completed a rapid ascent followed by another dive, before air braking hard. Her velocity dropped from 250 kilometers per hour to a mere hundred in a move that left Ji wincing. He knew that it couldn’t have felt good taking that slap of deceleration. It was effective, as a round that would have easily impacted her sailed several feet ahead, the computer clearly thinking she was going to use speed to dodge.
Another pair of turrets fired, with one shot sizzling so close to her helmet she had to fight the urge to drop the car down another dozen feet. Instead she ripped open the throttle to full, feeling the straps straining against the sudden intense surge of acceleration. She began to dodge and weave back and forth in a slalom motion as she gained speed, returning back up to 250 kph and above - all the way to 290 as she saw the silver streaks of shots bracketing the vehicle.
The fourth flame was the shortest but it was also the most intense, and she could see the final braziers lit to signal the end of the course ahead - and directly in front of it, another trio of turrets waiting to unload a triple volley to smash down any challengers that made it to the end. The intensity of the barrage around her was growing, however, and as her heart hammered away in her chest she realized there was only one way she could possibly get over that finish line without being tagged.
Shoving all of her fear and nervousness aside, she swept her wings out widely on either side of the car, and threw into the hardest right turn she could. Her vision immediately began to swim and her back ached with the strain as the g-forces as she fought to use every ounce of thrust the car could produce along with the aerodynamics nature had given her all into creating the tightest possible turn she could. She fought against the overwhelming G-forces as she completely the tight turn at a frankly ridiculous speed, before finally straightening out to make a mad dash for the finish.
Miraculously, it seemed to work. The turrets’ software had seen how tight she could turn from earlier in the track, and were adjusting based on the larger turning radius the car could make on its own. Adding in her own wings to the mix tightened it by just enough that the final few shots on her went wide, and she threw caution to the wind as she used the tiniest opening that maneuver had given her to soar forward across the final flame. Just as she thought she was in the clear, she felt a sudden impact against the side of the frame, as a shot finally landed and smashed into the underside of the car.
—--
Borala was absolutely awestruck by what she’d seen. The capabilities of the car were one thing; spreading wings in the race was just risky but not unheard of, nor was using wings as an extra control surface. But she’d never seen a turn THAT tight at THAT ridiculous speed before. It had nearly worked, and she was staring at the screen as the vehicle passed over the flame.
Alex was on his feet cheering at the last section, and his cheers turned to groans as they saw the final impact of the shot successfully connect, the bright silver splotch against the vibrant green of the aircar’s frame. “Did she make it? Does that count?”
Borala turned to the race organizer, who shook her head. “We’re reviewing right now, both the video and the rules. I can’t recall ever hearing about anyone being shot AS they crossed the final flame, so we’re checking history now.”
Alex turned over to Par. “You were recording. Did she make it past?”
“The replay shows that the car was almost exactly centered over the braziers when the final shot landed. I have done a local data search for what constitutes ‘finishing’ the challenge but there is a lack of sufficient detail for me to be able to say for sure whether or not that counts as a victory or an elimination.” One of Par’s remotes moved over to the large display. “If you’ll allow me to elaborate…”
The huge display screen blanked out as a technician on the other side of the pavilion cried out. Immediately it lit back up, this time showing the scene from the remote Par had placed out in the track. The remote hovered right near the exit, and all assembled watched as it slowed down to a couple hundred frames per second. The car crawled forward on the screen, and the audience gasped as the shot suddenly appeared from below, racing upwards several times faster than the car itself. Just as the car reached the center point of the braziers, the shot made impact and the frame could be seen bouncing oh so slowly to the side as it did.
Ji whistled at the shot. “Damn, right at the end. Does that stuff come off?”
“It is not a permanent application, no. It is designed to make hits quite obvious, as some contestants have used badly battered cars in the past and claimed that dents were present before the races.” Borala sat back in her chair and watched as the organizers ran around trying to determine whether or not the run was considered complete or not. “It is safe to say that she has won today’s challenges, whether or not the final flame was completed.”
“Well, sure. Still would be nice to know if she did manage to complete it. Has any challenger before done a full complete on their first try?” Ji wandered over to Min to look over her shoulder as he spoke.
“Not on their first try, no. I am quite certain that for a first time racer this is easily a record.”
“Well then it’s important to know if it counts or not, since it looks like she just made history.” Ji looked down at the telemetry that the aircar’s sensors was sending to Min’s quickboard. It looked like nothing had been damaged when the impact happened, and all four thrusters and the turbine were showing zero abnormalities.
Trix was much more leisurely as she returned to the staging area, coming down to land back in the center as the crowd cheered her on. Whether or not she’d completed the course they didn’t particularly care, they simply saw a phenomenal racer on a unique vehicle blast through some of the most intense barrages of the day while thumping music had heightened the entire experience. As they roared out their approval, Trix raised a fist in their direction before walking the car back towards the shuttle she’d arrived from.
—--
Trix threw the multivid screen down on her bed with exasperation. In the week since her attempt at the firelands challenge, things had all seemed to go entirely wrong for her.
The Nof organizers could not find any clarification about what exactly constituted a victory, since the rules were rather vague. The section on victory states “When a challenger passes the final flame before being struck” which would indicate that she’d succeeded. But the section on elimination stated that “Challengers would be eliminated if they or their vehicle is struck before reaching the final flame”. She had REACHED the final flame but not PASSED it, and thus far nobody had been able to reach a valid conclusion on what that meant.
Or rather, nobody actually in charge had reached one. In reality there were throngs of people who thought that her performance had been valid and she deserved to be recorded as the first instance of a full completion on their very first attempt. Of course, there were just as many who believed that she had been eliminated before completion. She herself didn’t particularly care about either of those groups, as completion or not she drove her best and was proud of how well she did. What got under her skin was the third group, the one that claimed she was a mediocre driver who was simply gifted an exceptional aircar by the humans that did all of the work.
At first she ignored those people. Yes, the car itself was phenomenal but at its core it was still the same Soranet Ten she’d purchased a month ago. They’d modified it absolutely. They had removed components, adjusted others, and the frame itself was swapped out mainly for aesthetics. But there was no reason at all that the changes couldn’t have been made by anyone else out there. In fact, a conversation between Min and the Nof matriarch detailing the changes made was public for those interested in trying it themselves.
That hadn’t silenced the detractors. Nor had offering to let other racers use her car to attempt the challenge - the arguments they made were exhaustive. From custom programming allowing only her to use it effectively, to claims that the car was controlled remotely, to claims that the Humans had hacked the turrets to improve her chances of winning. Even despite all of that, she could perhaps have still ignored it and been happy after her run if not for the fact that her friends, the ones she’d hoped the most would side with her, had joined in on accusing her of cheating. No matter how she protested they refused to listen, up until the point when she’d given up and just disconnected from the chat.
Her own Teff was also firmly on her side (Fohn in particular seemed to always be staring at her with huge adoring eyes of late) that was simply natural. They were Teff and that meant they were always on her side. But truly the bright spot in all of this was the Humans themselves, who had supported her from the beginning. More than just Ji and Min who were friendly with her from the start, all of the others had been sympathetic and supportive. The entire crew had their say on the cameras and screens on multiple occasions supporting her. Lately she spent as much time in Min’s room as her own. It helped not feeling quite as alone.
Today, however, the brief knock on Min’s door went unanswered. As did Ji’s. After a brief bit of searching, and being pointed out the door by a few members of the Teff who’d seen the Humans earlier, she found them assembled just outside their shuttle. The day was bright and warm and apparently they’d decided to lounge around outside on the grass.
Ji smiled and raised a hand as she walked over to join them. “Yo. Any word from the Nof?”
“None.” Trix walked over and collapsed down on the grass, laying down next to where Min was sitting. “The last I heard, they want to hold a vote with every still-living challenger participating to clarify the two conflicting sections. Honestly though I don’t even care anymore.”
“What’s the matter, feathers? You sound down.” Ma’et had been leaning on a tree nearby, but came over to lay down next to the larger avian.
“Just… sick of it. I wanted to challenge the Firelands since I was ten. And when I did it was the most incredible thing ever. But it seems like nobody out there cares. All my friends are pissed off at me and think I cheated, thousands of strangers keep trying to get in touch with me to tell me how awful or wonderful I am.”
Alex took a sip out of the can he was holding. “What’d you expect to happen? I’m not criticizing. Just don’t know what would have been a normal reaction for your people.”
“I dunno. I get out there and race, I come in comfortably in the middle of the pack, I practice a lot more, I race again and again and eventually complete the challenge. Then I find some cute guy and we spend a couple years exploring before we become accepted.” Trix pulled at the grass as she spoke, letting the breeze blow away the thin, soft blades. “Kinda lame when I say it out loud.”
“Not at all.” Josh gazed up at the sky wistfully, watching the clouds passing by slowly. “There’s nothing in the world wrong with dreaming about finding happiness in what you do and who you’re with. So long as you’re happy and healthy then the details don’t really matter much, do they?”
“Agreed. I’m curious though.” Alex tilted his head as he looked over at Trix. “What did you want to explore? Space?”
“Huh? No, no. Exploring a relationship. When couples get together we explore each other and the bond between us. It’s important to explore because once we’re accepted we can’t go back.” Trix crushed a blade of grass between her fingers, idly rolling them back and forth. “I’m not sure if Humans have the same thing or not.”
“Sort of. Al, it’s sort of like dating and Marriage.” Min piped up. “We talked about it while working on the car a bit. Exploration is like dating. You learn about each other, all of a person’s strengths and flaws. Their likes and dislikes. And if both sides are willing they marry. For life. Accepted isn’t quite as formal as marriage but it’s very, very permanent.”
“It’s not permanent for Humans?” Trix looked up and over at Min. “You said that people who got ‘Married’ stayed together.”
“They do, often. But sometimes people make a mistake. They rush into a relationship without exploring as well as you guys do. Or over time, they change and find that instead of being pulled closer together, they get pushed apart.” Min gestured at her brother. “Our folks were inseparable for decades, but Dad started to focus too much on work and not enough on Mom. They grew distant and unhappy and split up.”
“That’s horrible.” Trix shuddered at the thought. “Acceptance is… I mean, to think that two people who come together could be split apart? Just that easily?”
“Dunno what to say to that. Some humans join together for life, sure, but others just can’t make that same choice. They get together for the wrong reasons, they get enamored with one another and miss or ignore the warning signs that things might not go well.” Min glanced around. “These guys might explain it better.”
Ma’et cleared her throat. “There’s a saying I saw way the hell back when. I don’t remember where. It was something like, “Sometimes we need to fall in love with the wrong person so we know how it feels when we meet the right one”? I guess it’s sorta like, it’s easy to think something’s good because you don’t know what bad is. But if you get in a bad relationship it shows you what you need in a good one.”
Josh looked thoughtful about that. “I think that might be a little accurate. But I also think there’s a lot more to it than that. Ultimately I think it’s mostly just about being willing to put in the work. If one or both sides of the relationship aren’t willing to actually work at it, then it’s gonna fail. You gotta be able to give as well as take, so to speak.”
Alex took another sip from the can. “I also think communication’s the big thing. Gotta actually be willing to say when you’re unhappy and why, so that problems can be addressed. Too many people let things that bother them sit and fester and that just makes the problems worse over time.”
“Yeah but you get all your romantic advice from movies and vids.” Ma’et snickered. “And those have to have shitty communication in order for the plots to make any sense. Can you imagine how boring they’d be if they were realistic? ‘Honey all the time you spend away from me makes me feel unwanted and like you’re cheating on me.’ ‘Oh, sweetie, I’m sorry. I’m spending all my time away from you because I’m a spy infiltrating a pirate group that’s been harassing merchants out near Verdine. The redheaded lady I spend my time with is actually going to be arrested and hung once I’m done, there’s no romance there!’ ”
“Hey, that ain’t true. Entirely.” Alex took another long sip from the can, and tossed the empty container at Ma’et. “I mean, yeah, you’re right about how shitty communication makes movies more interesting. Just not right about that being where I get all my romance ideas from.”
Ma’et grabbed the can out of the air and crushed it in her hand. “Sure, sure. Remind me how long it’s been since you were in a relationship?”
“Bad example. I’ve spent most of the last few decades doing these scouting and survey missions. The asteroid dating scene isn’t exactly overflowing with prospective partners.”
“Well, you cozied up to the big bird on the station quickly enough.” Min grinned over at the Captain. “Maybe the reasons your love life is crap is because you never decided to date far enough outside of your species?”
Trix couldn’t help but snicker at that one. “Ew, come on. No offense but you guys don’t really hold a candle to a properly cute guy. How can you hope to compete with some gorgeous Rectrices?”
“Uhhh… Rectrices?”
Trix pointed at the back of her legs. “Big feathers back here. Very attractive on males.”
“Gotcha. Well, you’re right that I don’t have those. I do have a sparkling personality though. Surely that counts for SOMETHING?”
Trix just shrugged, and shook her head. “Sorry, Captain. Humans just aren’t attractive. Not to me, or my friends…” The sudden reminder brought back all the negative emotions from earlier.
Min saw her friend’s face fall, and reached out and put her hand on Trix’s arm. “What happened?”
“Nothing. They’re just being obnoxious.” She shook her head again, and grabbed a handful of the grass. “They think you guys conspired to make me win. Or almost win.”
“Betcha they’re just jealous.” Min stood up and stretched her arms out. “You said they were in disbelief after you told them you were our guide, right? Same thing. They’re mad that they couldn’t be the one here instead of you.”
“Yeah, but they’re my friends! Shouldn’t they be happy for me?” She angrily threw the fistful of grass away from her.
“Yeah, they should.” Alex stood up himself, walking over to take the crushed can from Ma’et. “And I dunno whether that just means they’re bad friends or if it’s just really bothering them. Either way, maybe some time doing something else would help. Want to go flying?”
“Not particularly. I don’t even want to SEE an aircar right now.”
Alex grinned, and jerked his thumb behind him at the shuttle. “Oh, I wasn’t talking about the aircar. Three hundred KPH is impressive. Want to try going a bit faster? Like, I dunno, how’s Mach 5 sound?”
“Uh, Al, flying a shuttle isn’t even REMOTELY like flying an Aircar.” Josh pointed out.
“Nope, it’s not. But god knows if I can learn how to fly one, she can. There’s at least three experts assembled here that can teach her, and on a planet with over 80% water coverage there’s no shortage of places we can go to learn without causing a disruption.”
He walked over to the shuttle and slapped the access panel, and the boarding door slid open immediately. “What do you say, Trix? Care to fly the friendly skies?”
—--

Cut my bangs with craft scissors
Invested 15k in a food truck
Booked an appointment for my next tat
Called up an old flame for a quick fuck
I never realized how boring the baseboards are
So I spent all night DIY-ing
Gotta start replacing the closet doors next
While the grout is still drying
A quick smoke break turned into a deep dive
My investigative skills are unmatched
In case the FBI is listening, I can’t say much
But I’m 100% positive I’ve got JonBenet‘s case cracked
It’s nighttime again, but
I can’t remember if I brushed my teeth or ate
I’m still working on my “Healing Properties of Crystals” spreadsheet
All those other things can wait
New hair, new me, right?
Pause the vid and add to cart
New brushes, new foundation, new highlighter, new lashes
I’m in the business of breaking hearts
Mama was right along
You have to want to be happy
“I’m on a high right now
Y’all can’t take that from me!!!”
Except you did
Sent me right back to lithium jail
Colors once so deliciously vivid
Are now muted and pale
I look in the mirror and see a bad wig
A bank statement a mile long
Reality hits like a punch to the gut
Being “normal” has always felt wrong
Mania is a dirty word
Longing for it is taboo
I am the living dead
Existing only because you force me to

This shit was not easy lmao.
What I considered: * Priority: 10k or less (utilities not included), space (not too stuffy/suffocating), bedframe, distance, safety, water & laundry services, AC * MidPriority: Cooking, wifi, mattress, study table (cuz usually the “free” ones r hella small), visitors, printing shops, restaurants, bidet * Would just be nice: Amenities (i like to study/workout/do everything in my own space), heater (i take cold showers)
Top Places (went hunting May 05 and May 10) * Gelino’s Dormitory * 8k solo with AC, heater, bed frame, wifi, in-house laundry, near enough to the main road of Dapits for food/laundry/printing shops, no curfew, 24hr security & admin, HELLA SPACIOUS FOR ITS PRICE * Only con for me is that visitors are only until the lobby unless parents/guardians

• Novo Ecijano Tolentino
  
  • 8k - 9k depends because +500 for AC and they said 8k w/o window and 9k w/ window
    • In-house laundry, the sign said visitor’s until 10PM + curfew midnight, bedframe, cabinets, kitchenette space, bathroom was big, nice area lotsa food and services.
  • Space felt cramp for me and felt rly gloomy w/o a window. I couldn’t view any unit with windows cuz they were occupied.
• Novo Ecijano Dapitan
  
  • 8k has a window, +500 for AC
  • Saw a sign that said visitor’s until 8PM + curfew midnight. But also saw a sign that says visitor’s until 10PM so I’m honestly not sure.
  • Had this bright window which is nice but leads to an…unaccessible balcony lmao as in there’s balcony space but u gotta jump out of the window 🤡 U could reach out I guess to hang your laundry tho.
  • Felt more cramped than the P. Campa
  • Biggest bonus is in-house laundry, water station, and printing services

No units were available to view in Forbes Place or North Forbes when I went. Others were mostly over 10k already. Take note also that I cannot vouch in terms of wifi/admin/experiences etc. because I have not yet lived in these dorms. These are merely just a guide if anybody would go dorm hunting.
I did try to consider condo-sharing but: * It would sometimes also be around 7k-8k with the same space size for a 1pax and similar restrictions…might as well go solo. * I’m also not that comfortable living with strangers so bedspace options were my last resort. * Lived in condos before and didn’t rly take advantage of amenities, unli-visitor entrances. Yes, introverts like me exist. * Living with 4 ppl - in a great dorm w/ great conditions and great price = Felt like a sardine / no privacy / bathroom lines haha I don’t like the feeling of being conscious in what should be my own space.
That’s the reality of my dorm hunting journey :)) If u wanna live more comfortably restriction-free solo, I’d suggest have a budget 12k-15k or find roommates to rent a condo-dorm.
I do have some pics/vids from these places. Send me a dm if you’re interested! ☺️

Wing and a prayer part 2
UNSD Relentless, Medbay
Zreini shifted slightly. A hazy fog seemed to cling to her mind, wrapping her senses in a disorienting embrace. Blinking her large heavy eyelids, she glanced upwards, her gaze falling upon an unfamiliar ceiling. Confusion and a deep ache pervaded her being, exacerbated by the fact that she was no longer cloaked in her familiar flight suit. Despite the pain that rippled through her feathered body as she sat up, she couldn't suppress a groan of discomfort.
“Hey there, take it easy, you shouldn’t even be sitting up right now.” A voice gently implored her. The gravity of her situation became apparent as the extent of her injuries was made known to the young Atodine. “You have suffered a collapsed lung and internal bleeding, most likely caused by your three broken ribs.” The human attending Zrieri shook their head. “I can’t believe you managed to walk out of your ship on your own.”
The doctors, faced with their first encounter with the Atodine species, had been forced to improvise, but their efforts ultimately saved her life. The human figure standing sympathetically beside her identified himself as Matthew Parks, the supervising doctor and head surgeon who had operated blindly to save Zrieri’s life.
Momentarily bewildered by her situation, it took a moment before she realized she was understanding the alien perfectly as she could her own doctor back on Atodine Prime.
“Excuse me, how exactly can I understand you?” The uncertainty in her eyes betrayed her confusion.
“Please relax and lay back down, I’ll do what I can to explain.” Matthew said in a smooth yet authoritative voice. “We are making use of a universal translator, a small device implanted in our ears at an early age. It facilitates cross-species communication. We implanted the device into your own ears while in surgery. Apparently it was easy to program as you had already done work to translate our language.”
“Then you know where I was before I crashed into your ship.” Zrieri said softly. “Your second name indicates familial ties, yes? Are you perhaps…”
“Rory Parks, the commander of the Providence, was my grandfather.” Matthew said with a solemn nod. “Though I’m afraid I never got to meet him in life, I was born here in Alpha Centauri after The Breaking.”
Zrieri winced. There was no need to ask what Matthew meant by that. “He must have fought until the very end, and even now I feel like he stands vigil over your nest world.”
Matthew nodded. In a way it was as if their lives and fates were now inextricably linked. Furthermore, the empathetic doctor had knowledge of her profound encounter with the Providence, signaling a deeper connection between them than Zreini could have anticipated. The path ahead now shrouded in mystery, Zreini braced herself for the unfolding chapters of her life's narrative, intertwined with that of Matthew Parks and the resolute alliance forged between their species.
Zreini's attention was immediately seized by the sight of a group of men entering the medbay. Their unmistakable uniforms identified them as guards, and they were accompanied by two women.one was dressed in uniform, while other woman wore a pristine white suit. Zrieri felt more than a little uncomfortable as she was wearing nothing more than her feathers and a light blanket. For what had to be a formal first contact situation. Zreini's focus shifted to the woman in uniform as she walked towards Matthew.
"Doc, is our guest able to speak?" The woman addressed Matthew with a hint of concern in her voice.
"Yes, Cap, she can receive guests. Our bio screening indicated that there is nothing present in her system that would be harmful to her or us. And although she is still tender from her surgery, as far as I can tell she is mending well.”
“It's good to hear that. She nearly got herself killed when she crashed into our port shields." As the woman turned around and made her way towards Zrieri, she was handed a tablet by one of the guards. Engrossed in her task, she began swiping on the device while glancing down at Zreini. With a confident demeanor, she introduced herself. "Right, so welcome aboard the Relentless. I am Commander Rahy Meson, the Commanding Officer of this vessel. But first, we need to confirm something. Are you affiliated with the race known as the Rachanit? It appears that your spacecraft utilizes a Rachanit HyperDrive, and your craft seems to incorporate their technology and metallurgy."
Zreini's eyes widened in surprise and disbelief. "What? No! We are at war with them. We salvaged this drive and other components from the many battles we have had with the Rachanit. My race, the Atodine, didn't even possess FTL technology before the conflict began. We were trying to figure out how to build our own drives by observing the captured drive in my prototype craft, the Voidflyer. We were also curious about the apparent dead zone in Rachanit controlled space. The data that indicates your system of origin. Of course, you can imagine what I found when I reached the star system you once called home.” Zrieri took the almost oppressive silence as a confirmation and continued. “I found the ship called the Providence in the debris field of what had to be a great battle. From what information I found on the computer systems lead me here. I wasn’t even sure if your race still existed or not, but I had to find out.”
Commander Meson exchanged a look with the other woman in the white suit before turning back to their guest. With a slight nod she encouraged Zrieri to continue.
“Please understand, I have been dispatched here with the urgent task of finding out why the Rachanits are avoiding this region of space. Additionally, I am supposed to determine if there is a species somewhere in the galaxy capable of assisting my kind. Although we have managed to fend off their advancements so far, it appears that after each encounter, the Rachanit simply toy with us, leaving us bewildered and anxious.”By this point in the story, the woman clad in a pristine white suit had gracefully positioned herself next to the commander. Zreini shifted her gaze towards her, curious to learn more about this new arrival.
The woman extended her hand and spoke with a confident tone, "Well met, then, Zreini."
Zreini nodded in acknowledgement, reciprocating the formal greeting.
The woman continued. “My name is Michèle Hughes, I am the sitting President of the United Nations Space Defense, or UNSD.”
Meeting the captain of the vessel she was rescued by was to be expected, but meeting who Zrieri could only assume was the head of the entire human government was almost beyond belief.
“I must apologize, President Hughes, I’m a pilot, not a diplomat.”
“Zrieri, In my opinion, the best diplomats always had a real job first.” Her lips curled in a slight smile, a positive gesture from what the Atodine had gathered. “We are grateful for the information you have gathered from outside our little bubble. We have strived to remain silent and unnoticed in the years since The Breaking. We lost a great deal of our fleet, as you saw first hand.” Zrieri nodded and President Hughes continued. “Mankind had endured a period of secrecy, driven by our unwavering desire to avenge the destruction of their homeworld at the hands of the Rachanit. Over time, we have meticulously bolstered and upgraded our fleet, preparing for the day when retribution would be realized.”
“If you can assist in repairing my ship, I can return home and…”
Commander Meson shook her head. “Zrieri, there is no way I could in good conscience let you take that ship back out into space. No amount of repairs could make it spaceworthy at this point.”
“I know it is a little rude to show up unannounced, But I don’t think your government will be terribly upset if we were to give Rachanit the fiery justice they deserve.” President Hughes swiftly diverted her attention, tapping a device in her ear, presumably a communication device. "Fleet Command, it’s time to bring the pain to the bugs." With her orders communicated, she turned back to face Commander Meson, resolute in her commitment. "Commander, the Relentless will serve as our flagship, leading the charge. We shall make our way to Atodine Prime, and if our guest is well enough to leave the medical bay, she may join us on the bridge."
Meson snapped to attention, saluting the President. "Yes, ma'am," she responded dutifully. Directing her focus towards the doctor, the commander inquired, "Is our guest capable of leaving the medbay?"
The doctor lifted his gaze from the tablet he was using to monitor his patient’s vitals. Matthew considered the question for a moment before replying.
"As long as she avoids exerting herself excessively and remains in a wheelchair Zrieri should be fine."
“If I can also request something more than just a blanket to wear?” Zrieri asked in a soft voice.
“Our clothing isn’t designed to take feathers into account, but I think a hospital gown will still work for an Atodine.”
President Hughes nodded approvingly. Turning her attention to Zreini, she issued a directive with a touch of levity, "Excellent. Zreini, get yourself dressed. You'll be accompanying me."
Matthew closed the screen for privacy and helped Zrieri to get dressed and transferred to the powered wheelchair. She was unfamiliar with the medical device, but the controls were intuitive enough for the test pilot.
“For what it’s worth, one of the ship's tailors is cleaning and restoring your flight suit, so you will have real clothing when it’s time for you to disembark.”
“After what I’ve been through, I’m happy to have most of my feathers still intact. Thank you, Doc.”
Matthew smiled before retracting the screen.
"Well, then, President, Commander, lead the way." She declared confidently.
Zreini followed closely behind Commander Meson, taking caution to not run over her hosts with her chair. Her head was on a swivel, keenly observing her surroundings as the bustling crew prepared for the imminent events. The air hummed with ceaseless activity, creating an atmosphere charged with anticipation. They entered an elevator, and Zreini felt the gentle motion as it ascended. In a short span of time, the doors opened, revealing a vibrant and effervescent bridge.
The crew members were engaged in active communication, each fulfilling their designated roles with unwavering dedication. Suddenly, one of the crew members spotted Meson's entrance and promptly assumed a position of attention.
"Captain on the bridge," they announced, prompting everyone to briefly pause their activities.
Meson surveyed the scene before stepping towards the elevated chair, addressing her subordinates. "At ease, everyone. Carry on with your tasks." She then directed her attention to a man standing beside her. "Arian, have we received the coordinates for Atodine Prime?"
Arian, now adopting a more relaxed posture while retaining his professionalism, responded promptly, "Yes, ma'am. However, we are unaware of what awaits us once we arrive there."
Meson acknowledged his response with a curt nod. "Very well, since we know the location of the hyperlane point, our target is set. Zreini, I am curious if your people's fleet possesses knowledge of hyperlane points and their significance?"
Zreini glanced upwards, her eyes scanning the vast expanse of space above. “The knowledge we possess about these hyperlane points is scant at best, We know that the Rachanit use several specific points in our system to resupply and reinforce their fleet, and that there were only certain points I could take with the Voidflyier, even after I removed the lockouts for human space. Getting a better understanding of hyperdimensional travel was a significant point in my test flight.”
Meson nodded. “If you will excuse the simplification of multidimensional travel, the hyperlanes are natural travel points formed by the interplay of massive objects and their gravitational fields. Paths of least resistance, as it were. This is why they are entering your system from the same few points.”
Zrieri nodded. “I think I get the idea.”
“We managed to fight back and blockade the points in our space. Eventually the Rachanit grew tired of losing ships to our minefields and destroyers, and from what we’ve learned from you, even locked human space out of their travel computers. We are also aware they have fortified the same points on their end to prevent us from attacking.”
“The fact that you were able to fight them back to these hyperlane points says a lot about your people. We are barely keeping them out of orbit around Atodine Prime at this point.”
“We were just doing what we must. We continued to research hyperdimensional travel and we made a breakthrough. We found a way to construct our own hyperlanes. True, they collapse behind the ships after entering normal space, but it means we are not limited to a single point of entry between given systems. The tactics the Rachanit are currently using against your people proves they have not made a similar discovery. In fact, from what we have gleaned from both your data and the Rachanit components used in the Voidflier’s construction, their technology hasn’t advanced at all since they first fought us.”
“But yours has.” The reality started to sink in for Zrieri.
The humans had managed to fight back the Rachanit two generations ago, and since then they had only advanced and improved their technology while their enemy had been stagnant. In the same way the Rachanit had overpowered and outclassed all the species they conquered and devoured, the humans now outclassed them. And they had an unimaginable grudge to settle.
The seasoned commander nodded. Her eyes then shifted towards Adrian, the renowned strategist. "We must make our way to the hyperlane point," Meson declared, her voice firm and resolute. “We will cut them off from resupply and retreat. And then we hunt down and squash every last one of those damned bugs.”
Zreini felt a bit of a chill run down her spine, but felt no empathy for the Rachanit. A race that would gleefully consume chicks is not one that deserved to exist anywhere in the universe. Her beak closed tightly and Zrieri nodded back to the commander.
"Sound stations, full alert! Activate shields and arm all weapon systems. We will be going in hot and we will hit those bugs like the angry fist of god!” There was a large cheer from the bridge crew, almost enough to hurt Zrieri’s ears. “Set the course towards the Hyperlane point in the Atodine's system. There is little chance of encountering any friendly ships this far behind enemy lines, so the fleet is given permission to engage any enemy vessel. The Relentless, however, will be focusing all fire on any capital ships in range."
Zreini had expected the Relentless to travel to the border of the system from her basic understanding of how hyperdrives worked. However, instead of moving, the relentless remained where it was and opened up a corridor in front of it, like a door opening up in front of a ship.
As the blue portal opened, the helmsman called out, "Ma'am, the hypergate is stable."
“Michèle, you are the commander in chief.” Meson said tuning to the president with a grim smile.”
“Thank you, Rahy.” President Hughes smiled back. "Take us in at full speed. If the Rachantis haven't changed their ways, we're sure to catch them off guard."
The helmsman replied, "Yes, ma'am. Full speed."
The Relentless moved into the hypergate, and Zreini looked out from the bridge. Just before fully entering, she could see other human ships opening up gates and following suit.
Atodine system hyperlane point
The tense atmosphere on the bridge of the Rachanits flotilla's flagship was further heightened as the Fleet Master, a seasoned officer with years of experience, reviewed the data before him. The Rachanits ships were strategically positioned just outside the main hyperlane point, ready to engage in battle. The Fleet Master couldn't help but silently admire the avians' exceptional combat skills, acknowledging their formidable ability to put up a fight. However, he couldn't deny the futility of their efforts in the face of his own fleet's overwhelming power.
Before the fleet master could delve deeper into his thoughts about the avians' resilience, his attention was abruptly diverted as a crew member urgently reported detecting peculiar readings on the ship's port side. This was a rarity, as the crew member had never encountered anything quite like it before. Complying with his duty, albeit somewhat begrudgingly, the fleet master moved swiftly towards the station, intent on examining the enigmatic readings.
As he analyzed the data, the Fleet Master's countenance underwent a swift metamorphosis. A mix of disbelief and horror washed over his face, evident in his dramatic change of expression. All coherent thought seemed to flee from his mind as he exclaimed incredulously, unable to accept what he was witnessing.
"This can't be... they can't possibly be out here!" He declared, his voice trembling with both astonishment and fear.
In the midst of his disbelief, the Fleet Master's attention was suddenly diverted to the multiple hypergates opening. His eyes widened with an acute sense of urgency as he realized the gravity of the situation unfolding before him.
With a commanding tone, he bellowed, "No! Raise the shields!"
But his command was left hanging, unfinished, as the ship violently convulsed under the immense force of impact. A ship, dwarfing the very flagship the Fleet Master was stationed on, emerged from the hypergate with unstoppable momentum. It crashed mercilessly through the flagship, The Rachanit vessel splintered against the powerful shields as if it were nothing more than dry noodles. The Fleet Master, caught in the cataclysmic destruction of his own vessel, was unceremoniously expelled into the merciless vacuum of space, losing his life to the cold void that awaited him. As his life ebbed away, his gaze fixated on the imposing letters adorning the ship that had mercilessly cleaved his flagship in half: UNSD Relentless.
As the chaos in the vicinity escalated, even more hypergates began to materialize, heralding the arrival of additional formidable adversaries, all of which opened fire without a moment’s hesitation.
UNSD Relentless bridge
The shields, typically steady and unyielding, momentarily flickered, as if sensing an unseen disturbance. President Hughes felt a ripple of unease wash over her in response to this transient disruption. Instinctively, she scanned the control room, her eyes darting from one crew member to another in search of answers, not wanting to disrupt the commander from her duties. Eventually, her attention settled on the helmsman, hoping to find an explanation for the disconcerting blip in their otherwise flawless operation.
Without much concern, the helmsman met the president's inquisitive gaze, seemingly unaffected by the anomaly. "Oh, don’t worry about that, it was just a bug on the windshield, ma'am," he casually declared, as if attributing the brief tremor to a mundane occurrence.
Her lighthearted chuckle lightened the mood, but only slightly. As soon as the Relentless fully entered normal space Commander Meson gave the order to fire. Large anti-ship missiles rocketed out of their launch bays as laser batteries began to sweep the enemy fleet. Zrieri watched in awe as the fist of an angry god indeed slammed into the invader’s fleet. The light show only increased as more human ships entered normal space and opened fire.
President Hughes stood up from her seat. "Coms broadcast on every available frequency; we are here to aid the Atodine and have no hostile intent towards them, only the Rachanit."
This declaration exemplified both her intent to assist who would hopefully be new allies and her readiness to confront the enemy forces head-on, showcasing a blend of strategic acumen and fearless resolve in the face of adversity.
In the opening minutes of the battle the Rachanit losses were crushing, as only the most forward of vessels had their shields active as per their battle doctrine. The enemy fleet scrambled to raise shields and conduct evasive maneuvers to counter the surprise attack. In their war with the humans the Rachanit’s weapons and ships were numerous and powerful, as the wreckage orbiting Sol could attest. But in the intervening years humans had researched and worked tirelessly to upgrade and advance ships, offensive, and defensive systems.
The Rachanit , however, confident in their technological domination in every other system had only rebuilt their fleets to the same specifications. They sealed off the humans in a bubble and just pretended that no race had ever come close to matching them. And after all, they destroyed the human homeworld, what race could ever recover from that? The Rachanit may have indeed broken the Earth, but not her children.
Rachanit capital ships were exploding into space-dust while the shields of the human fleet barely even flickered against the pitiful return fire. Anti-ship missiles were destroyed by point defenses before they could even attempt to breach the shields. And then things got even worse for the invaders.
Humans were not the only race in the galaxy that wanted vengeance against the Rachanit. A portion of the fleet defending Atodine prime broke off and moved to engage the invading fleet from what had become the rear lines. After all the suffering they had received, they saw a chance to ensure the eradication of the fleet. Nimble Atodine fighters launched from carriers as their cruisers provided covering fire. They swarmed the remaining ships, their shields already greatly weakened from combat with the human fleet. Plasma bombs smashed into the hulls of the Rachanit lighter ships, severely damaging or outright destroying them.
The captains of the remaining Rachanit vessels attempted to flee the battle, but the hyperspace lane was guarded by several destroyers and cruisers and the Atodine ships pursued from behind. Not a single invading ship escaped the combined wrath of the humans and the Atodine.
On the bridge of the Relentless Zrieri watched the battle unfold with her beak agape. A part of her wondered if she had suffered a fatal injury crashing into the Relentless and this was just the last dream of her dying mind. Zrieri saw capital ships explode into dust, cruisers swatted like annoying bugs by a single blast of a laser battery. Then she saw her own people joining the fight.
Zrieri let out a cry of rage and joy at this. Of course, the screeching cry drew the attention of everyone on the bridge, as it sounded something akin to an angry hawk. Zrieri didn’t care, she cheered on her people as they swept up behind the Rachanit , herding them to ultimate destruction at the hyperlane point.
“Commander,” the coms officer called out, “The Atodine fleet is hailing us.”
Commander Meson nodded then turned to the president. “Michèle, am I taking this one or you?”
“You take this one, Rahy, I will speak to their ruling body after you get everyone calmed down after the fight.”
The commander chuckled as she stood up from her chair and moved to stand by Zrieri. “Patch us through to the Atodine Fleet.”
The main screen switched from the view of local space to an older Atodine standing front and center.
“Human vessels. I am Admiral Kaba of the Atodine Defense Forces. Please state your reason for entering Atodine space.”
“I am Commander Rahy Meson of the UNSD Relentless. I’m afraid one of your test pilots had ship trouble after entering our space, so we decided to escort her home. Of course, we had to swat a few bugs on the way.”
Kaba let out a small chirp of a laugh. “Although we are grateful for your actions today, we are more than a little wary of other races, as our first experience was with the Rachanit.”
“Ours as well.” Meson said with a solemn nod. “Mr. Riley, relay the order to the fleet. Initiate immediate power-down of all weapon systems until further notice.”
“And your shields?”
“We will drop the shields of any ships that enter the orbit of your planet, however we both know there are more Rachanit vessels out there.”
“That will be acceptable, for now. As for our test pilot.” his large eyes shifted to Zrieri in her wheelchair.
“Sir!” Zrieri snapped a salute. “Please excuse me for not standing, I suffered almost as much damage as the Voidflier.”
“Are you fit to travel by shuttle to my ship?”
“As long as my hosts allow me to keep this mobile chair.”
“We can make arrangements for Zrieri’s transfer, as well as her ship. Although it is no longer fit for space, I wouldn’t want to keep your people’s first FTL capable ship from you.”
“Thank you. All joking aside, I must ask. Why did you come to our aid?”
“Before the end of the war, or I suppose the first war now, with the Rachanit they destroyed our home world, literally shattered the planet to the core. We do not need much of an excuse to turn their ships into space junk.”
The feathers around Kaba’s neck puffed up with anger. “I thought I had heard every horror the Rachanit were capable of, yet somehow I am not completely surprised.”
“They are a plague on the galaxy, but as strong as we have become we will still need help to put an end to the threat.”
“This is quickly evolving from a defense matter to a diplomatic one. And unsurprisingly every member of the High Council is trying to reach me at this moment.
“That’s our governing body.” Zrieri informed Meson.
“Politics and diplomacy then. I will gladly hand that mess over to Michèle Hughes, President of the UNSD. While they talk, we can sort out the transfer of your lost pilot and ship.”
Kaba let out another chirp of a laugh. “That sounds like a good plan to me.”
Atodine Space Academy, West Wing
Zrieri advanced to a slide of the first diplomatic meeting between the atodine and human representatives.
“Needless to say, our second contact went much better than the first.” She paused as her students chuckled. “But what followed was just the start. The alliance between the Atodine and Humans soon grew to The Great Alliance as more races joined the fight. Some were besieged like we were, others were days away from their worlds being turned into nothing more than livestock pens.” Images flashed by and video clips played on the screen as Zrieri continued. “The alliance drove off the invading fleets, freely gave relief aid and shared the technology to make a stand against the Rachanit. Day by day their fleets were decimated and they lost access to resources and facilities as they lost entire systems in a matter of hours. They constantly fell back, whatever ships could limp back to their home system did so. After ten long cycles the Rachanit were the ones huddled around their nest world. Scared and hopeless as the vengeance of hundreds of worlds bared down on them.” Zrieri looked up at the screen behind her. “The vids can’t do the battle justice.”
“Professor? You were there?” One of her students asked.
“Of course I was there, in my old VF-77 fighter, the first one to roll off the line. We destroyed every ship, every station, every orbital and lunar defense platform. Precise strikes were made to their ground defenses, leaving nothing but caters. And then, we stopped.”
“But why stop? Why not just finish off the Rachanit?” Another student questioned.
“It was the humans who stayed the righteous fist of The Great Alliance. The only member who had their nest world completely destroyed was the one advocating against a similar action taken against the Rachanit. However, it wasn’t out of mercy. You see, just destroying them would be too easy of a punishment, the humans wanted them to suffer. So now they are contained on a single planet. Anytime they try to rebuild their infrastructure, the orbital defenses we left in place vaporize it. Without the countless worlds of sapient livestock to feed them, the Rachanit turned on themselves. Fighting and eating each other to survive. They once traveled to the stars, the most powerful empire in the galaxy, and now they struggle to survive one day to the next in a hopeless existence. Annihilating them would have been a mercy, and those damn bugs know it.”
Zrieri ended the feed to the screen. She looked out at the faces of her students. That last part always left an impact. They were gathered from all over the Great Alliance. So many different races came together to end the threat of the Rachanit. But after that was dealt with, they stayed united, working together to build a better society for all the member systems. She couldn’t help but feel pride in the part she played in all of that. She touched the platinum stylized wings that hung from her neck. They were called The Wings of Janaria; the greatest honor bestowed to a member of the Starcorps. She let out a soft sigh and focussed back on her duties as a professor.
“Are there any more questions?” She asked the students and a flurry of hands were raised.
Before she could call on anyone, the chimes noting the end of the period played out loudly.
“Ah, looks like we are out of time for today. I will see you in two days and we can continue then with your questions. Class dismissed.”

A SChinese vid focused on visual language and bgm language analysis, from a sephikura girl (not talking about the shipping here), who bets on both T's role in LS will be greatly toned down, and (physical form) (omni-)Aerith will eventually leave in Part3; and Part3 will be a significantly different thing from OG.
www.bilibili.com/video/BV1Tu4m1F7j9
The key point of "Cloud's true self is back" of that vid based on bgm hints:

"Who...Am I?" played in the background at:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eR6fflytw1I

"Who...Are you?" played in the background at:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hryWRDQcduM
ref to OG:

"Who...Am I?" in lifestream

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R0mrS1IXSN8&t=440

"Who...Are you?" when his true self talked to him in his dream at Junon

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WHwCCQWZ5nU&t=392
With some other visual language evidences, and (in JP) the change of Cloud's tone of voice, as support.
The vid suggest this green filter and the green tunnel afterwards is supposed to be lifestream: https://i.imgur.com/hUlJaB3.jpeg
The vid calls the already-in-true-self Cloud "AC-Cloud" (or post-AC Cloud, who has realized LS-Aerith is always with them.)
An interesting one of the evidences that vid provided, is the recent gacha collab of "AC-Cloud", 迷いを断った英雄: https://i.imgur.com/Uswg7Sp.jpeg
"I'm not lost in my life anymore." suggests that all his confusions is now gone. So in Rebirth/Part2 ending, he's not delusional or a schizo, on the contrary, he's the only one senses the reality.

Unlike clotis, they tend to accept goddess-like Aerith and her love and companionship with Cloud. But what we want is she can have a normal life as a nothing special girl, not being a goddess or such.
When I have free time I may transfer more visual language analysis from that vid below this post.

What is Cloud's "cool" false-self actually?

The widely spread myths says: It's Zack's personality. However anyone has an IQ higher than 2digits (well, clotis certainly not) can notice that it's not Zack's flirtatious personality.
Before that cursed Crisis Core, Zack's personality is: https://i.imgur.com/xvZc9EU.png Full image: https://pbs.twimg.com/media/GLH8h2aasAA2Q44.jpg

Zack is more like a symbol of heroism, "has Zack's personality" is to say "has a heroism complex".
Then where does that heroism complex came from? It came from the thing in Tifa's head.

As this vid said, Jenova cells copied the image of him inside Tifa's head (the "cool SOLDIER" T always imagining) to build Cloud's false-self.

ここで奇跡的にティファと再会したのです
これにより 廃人同然だったクラウドの中のジェノバ細胞が覚醒し、ティファのイメージの中にある理想のクラウド像を擬態能力を持つジェノバ細胞が読み取ってトレース
根暗でクールな性格だが、セフィロスのように強いソルジャーというティファのイメージがクラウドの人格としてジェノバの擬態能力により一瞬で定着します
ここで自分は元ソルジャーという勘違いが彼の中で生まれた

T made this image out of him because they barely talked to each other in their childhood and never understood each other. (see https://i.imgur.com/OwPUfoo.jpeg ) T just felt it's "cool" to have a SOLDIER as her "childhood friend".

Now for big topics

-1. The world Cloud created (where "an" Aerith alive) will perish or is doomed to fade.
The vid insists that these 2d4u lines from sephy: https://i.imgur.com/OpGr7Tu.jpeg

-運命の壁が壊れる時、新たな世界が生まれる。 この星には、幾層もの世界があり、 生み出された世界は、 あるものは続き、 あるものはすぐに消える。
-仮に長く続いても、いつか消える。

means that the universe where "an" Aerith alive will perish eventually. IMO the one going to perish in Part3 is the 5-stars beagle universe,
The 7th universe (7-stars Stamp?) where Aerith physically alive will be the real end game. Trust the "7" symbolism.
-2. Blank World, the "midpoint" of Barrier of Fate (運命の壁)
Part1 blank world, all the crew are there: https://i.imgur.com/k2O582J.jpeg
Part2 blank world, only Cloud and (LS-/Omni-)Aerith: https://i.imgur.com/K53D4Q3.jpeg

White Whis + Black Whis (in Part2/Rebirth) = Gray Whispers in Part1/Remake

So Barrier of Fate made of B+W whis (Rebirth) = Barrier of Fate made of Gray whis (Remake)
Only Cloud had crossed over the midpoint of Barrier of Fate in part2. I found a diagram for this:

https://blog-mikage.com/wp-content/uploads/f3c26b66fa51cff7ca0b435c8ab41a38-1.jpg
src: https://blog-mikage.com/ff7-rebirth-aerith-consideration/

wip

I don't know much about VR, I am casually using it mostly for porn and watching a movie in bed.
However, in the last 2-3 months I kinda fell in love with the non-porn side of it. So much so that I am seriously thinking about creating content that is not available or is super limited right now. I have so many crazy cool ideas for videos that I wish I could watch out there but then, reality hit me hard: a minimum of $6K for camera+lens+accessories to get 8K videos out there. (If I don't want the hassle and jank of a dual single camera system)
Yes, 8K... because as a new viewer of this space. When I start watching a video and I can't get at least 6K quality, I am instantly closing it. I am simply not interested in a pixels/blurry experience.
So having said that, I was looking at DJI new consumer level Lidar equipment and was wondering if there is a possibility of a future similar $600 tech equipment paired with a regular good quality camera (8K/10K) being the future of VR. Am I crazy to envision a future where you could buy something like this: https://store.dji.com/ca/product/dji-focus-pro-lidar?from=site-nav&vid=164241 that stores the distance of the camera from everything in your shot 60 times per seconds and then a program in post production use that data in combination with your recording (maybe sprinkle a bit of AI tech in there) and create a 180VR images/video?
Second question, shouldn't VR video viewing apps/platform like DeoVR, Youtube or MetaVideo (I cant remember the name) advertise their uploaded videos and give like 80% of revenue to content creators to try to boost revenue for them to incite more creators to make better quality VR content? I can't imagine those platforms are currently paying them much when most of them have under 5K views... The extra 5$-20$ per video could help. I personally would be willing to watch a 10-15 seconds ad if it triple the content and quality of content on those platforms. Also, it might help to payback quicker the high cost of entry for a creator with the initial investment in equipments.
Lastly, someone correct me if I am wrong but it baffles me, completly puzzle the geezer out of me why every single app/program in VR doesn't have 6DOF screen options but MOSTLY a simple re-center screen button like DeoVR has. I watch everything laying down flat on my back in my bed and for everything other than DeoVR I have to sit up vertically to watch it... This is completly unacceptable after 8 years of VR that youtube/meta/games/even the majority of VR porn sites dont have a recenter that works on the up/down rotational axis. I personnaly think that this simple flaw is killing the entire VR industry. If I buy my 64 years old mom a VR headset, I think she would greatly enjoy the experience of walking through a Chinese forest or a Tibetan village but if she has to sit up uncomfortably for it, it will be a 1 time experience that she will not be interested in repeating. Now, if at night, before bed, she can watch a couple videos and experience the world comfortably under her blanket laying down on the bed I think it would be a hit.
The fact that, upon opening your device, you cannot recenter your entire VR environment to point the sky is killing VR. Am I wrong?

From across the room, my lab assistant Jerome yell’s “Hey Stephanie, do you have a minute? The Cryostat is getting too warm.”
I roll my eyes, this jester has been here for six months, and still feels the need to yell at the top of his lungs.
Walking towards Jerome, I smell it. Does someone have vodka in my lab? Looking up I see Jerome laughing with Madison and Blake while lifting a beaker to his lips. Gosh darnit that's methanol. I scream “Jerome stop!”
He looks at me confused and asks “Boss, what's wrong? You always say to never yell in the lab.”
I ask him, “Are you ok? Did you drink any of that?” This can’t be happening, this idiot is going to get me fired.” I remember he has been watching TikTok vids about pyramids collecting solar energy. Does he want to be a mummy? Answer me Jerome, I do not have the chemicals, nor the time to find a pig farmer to dispose of your body. You better not die.
He looks at me with vacant eyes for a few seconds processing what I asked. Looking down at the beaker in his hand, and still confused. He starts shaking his head and looks back at me smiling like a lunatic, he smacks his forehead with his free hand and says “Wow Boss, you are good. How did you know from across the room that this wasn’t my water. I guess I should have labeled them.”
I am so mad I am shaking. In an attempt to control myself I ball my fists and count to ten. When finished I say, “Jerome, you know that everything is supposed to be labeled. You should also know that you are never supposed to have food and drinks at your workstation. Do you remember what happened when you thought the cocaine we use to stop the alligator's incisional bleeding was Pixy Stix powder? You had to visit the hospital, and we had to remove it from the lab.”
“Oh yeah Boss, huh huh, it turned my tongue purple, and it burned really bad.”
“That's right Jerome.”
I turn to go back to my workstation and am stopped when he says. “Oh yeah, hey Boss the Cryostat is too warm. I shut the door like you said, but it's still too warm.”
“Jerome, is it plugged in?”
He drops to his hands and knees to look for a plug that isn’t there.
“Jerome, stand up the plug is behind the unit. Let's scoot the Cryostat over and check the GFCI.”
I believe the only thing these jackals understand is violence. Just six more hours until I can go home to my Hello Kitty collection and drink all of this away.
Two hours later
I am jamming to In Flames Lunar Strain my favorite band while reviewing data. Like always, I almost cry when he gets to the chorus line. This man is an underrated treasure to the world.
We are able to increase the alligator's intelligence by 112 percent during this phase. I think we can increase that by another fifty percent during phase four and another seventy to ninety percent during phase five. 400 percent more aggression is going to be easy, beyond that, we may need to splice chihuahua DNA. The monocle is insane, I am glad I don’t have to design the interface for the guided laser system. I look up from my data to see Madison gripping Blakes bottom like a life preserver and kissing his neck. I do not have time for a meeting with human resources today.
They are so focused on their PDA that I make it all the way to their workstation without being noticed. Standing there I can taste bile in my mouth. This is so gross. I cannot believe it's legal, and protected. She has no business being here, but I can’t fire Madison without losing Blake.
“Hey guys, how is your experiment going?”
Blake says, “Stephanie, really good. The titanium alloy that gives us the strength to weight ratio the client specified has been selected. Engineering will need to replace the dentures as the alligator grows, but luckily the client’s budget allows for this. The polymer to hold the dentures in place is another issue. It can’t be permanent, but it still needs to be able to withstand the increased bite force.”
“Thanks for the update, I have total faith that you two will find a solution.
Actually guys, I came over to ask that you remember the company's policy on PDA in the work space.”
Madison moves her hand from his hiney to his belt line, and looks at me with feigned shock.
She then says, “Oh gosh, I totally forgot. I am so sorry Stephanie. Thanks for reminding us that we need to contain our happiness before getting married next week.”
“It’s ok, I understand. You two are doing great work and are just blowing off some steam. We are just asking for you to keep the more physical displays outside the work center.
After saying that my gag reflex almost wins the fight.
Blake then tells me, “It’s too bad you can’t make it to our wedding, we are going to have so much fun. If you change your mind, I would love to introduce you to my brother and cousins.
Even if your brother was my future ex Mrs. Stephanie Ronnie Radke I would refuse. Walk away Stephanie, get away from these guácala. “I am so sorry I can’t make it, but like I said I have something planned with my grandmother that I cannot get out of.” Like her bi-weekly seance. “I gotta go, thanks for working so diligently.”
While walking back to my workstation I hear the three chimes before an announcement.
The oddly chipper female voice of our AI announces “We are currently being breached by law enforcement. Your arrest is imminent. You are ordered to remain at your work stations to delay the F.B.I agents so our leader, Eric can escape to his private island. Effective immediately per your contract all pay and benefits are hereby canceled. Thank you for serving VillTech.”
I close my eyes, not again, not again. Every time I work for a biotech startup, our research is immediately seen as evil, and that it always violates nature. In reality it is mostly for the benefit of mankind, and it only violates nature in a biblical sense.
We are about to get raided by the F.B.I. and our research confiscated by D.A.R.P.A. Hopefully there are no flashbangs.
I hear Madison scream “The door won’t open! What do we do? I can’t live without my Love Bug!”
I hurry over to the middle of the lab and whistle like I'm hailing a cab in New York City. Immediately everyone looks in my direction and stares at me like I am insane. “Listen up, we can wait here to be arrested, or we can use our brains to escape. There is a way out, but it is dangerous.
Boomer Bill, or William as he prefers to be called says, “Tell me young lady, how do you propose to accomplish this? Both doors are sealed behind hydrogen sulfide gas filled hallways, and we are ten stories beneath the ground. Back in my day we had real leaders. I should be the Lead Scientist, I completed my second doctorate before you were born. If I was in charge, this would have never happened.
I am staring in disbelief, he got his degrees from a Stag Magazine subscription in the sixties. Why should I save this Rawhide reject? You know what? Fuck all of them, I will never give any of them a good reference.
Seeing red, I speak the words my soul have been singing since I met Bill, “Mother fucker, you don't know how to combine acid and water. Your mother should have swallowed, but the bitch didn't so I'm stuck trying to divinate usable data from your so called experiments. I have seen grade school students with more respect for the scientific method than you.”
Bill demands, “Who the hell do you think you are?”
I'm the Head Mother Fucker in Charge, and if you want to survive, you will shut the fuck up and do what I say.
Blake then says “Stephanie, maybe you should dial it back a little. We are all a little stressed, but that is no excuse to be so mean.”
“And you two, we all know you are cousins. Stop it! It’s gross, or your kids will probably star in the remake of Deliverance.”
Blake forcefully states, “It is legal in California.”
“Do you think I care about that? Your relationship status is first cousins!”
Turning to face Jerome, I am opening my mouth to accuse him of purposely sabotaging my lab.
Before I can, he holds up his hands in a stop gesture and calmly says “Stephanie, that is enough, you have every right to be upset. We can be entitled and needy, but right now we need you to get us out of here. Take a couple of deep breaths with me and let’s work together for a solution.”
Staring at the idiot savant of therapeutic communication I slowly blink twice and I do exactly as asked while he leads me through two deep breaths.
After my wax on wax off moment is over I say, “The only way out is through the tunnel we use to move the alligators. They are currently lightly sedated, as long as we are quiet it should be safe. Are any of you coming with me?
They all look scared, and none of them will agree until Jerome confidently says, “I’m coming with you Boss, lead the way.”
Bill nods his head in agreement. Madison and Blake both look at the floor and shake their heads no.
I tell my team, “Ok, let's go to the alligator enclosure”
When we get to the door, Jerome stacks directly behind me, while Bill is in last position.
I whisper “Remember we have to remain absolutely quiet. We can do this." I look at them for confirmation. Bill nods his head and closes his eyes. Jerome smiles at me and raises both thumbs.
Unlocking the door as quietly as I can, I just thankful that it is well maintained. Turning the handle I pull the door open and move to step inside the enclosure. Feeling Jerome's hands on my shoulders, I start turning to see what is going on, and I am pushed through the entrance, almost falling in the process. I turn around quickly, just in time to see the door loudly slam shut, and hear the lock being engaged.
I rush to meet Jerome at the window. I whisper “What are you doing? Let me out.”
Looking me in the eyes, Jerome calmly states, “I have seen this movie, and I am not getting eaten by bionic alligators. We are going to wait for them to eat you, and then escape. Goodbye Boss.”
Jerome and Bill both start kicking the door to wake up the alligators. I hear a hiss and glance over to where the four juveniles were sleeping. They are now awake and staring hungrily at me. Their mother in the corner, starts towards me. She is moving between to herd me towards the juveniles.
This is not how I die!
Facing the momma alligator, I engage my honey badger DNA, and instantly feel my blood lust rise. I rush forward with my claws extending, determined to end her line.
When I get out of here, there will be hell to pay for the Chucklefuck Sentries.
To be Continued.

I met this girl online and soon discovered we had many things in common. We woke up and wished each other a good day and ended our night by doing the same. We have talked daily since October 2023 and shared pic/vids to lessen the long distance. One day, she closed up and got scared by the reality that our relationship was turning into something serious. I have been faithful. I downloaded dating apps and nobody looked anywhere near beautiful or interesting as she did. I can say I have feelings with her. One day, she revealed that her roommate was also her ex and that him moving away caused her grief. I still decided to support her because I love her. Long story short, here I am reminding the girl I like why she loves me while also helping her move on from her exboyfriend....
I don't seek any help, opinions. I am getting this off my chest

(A rough draft/work in progress. Anything in quotes is likely paraphrased and not exact) Will update as we go!

The (Alleged) Conception re CE

• A) "Clayton and I were sexually intimate."
• B) "After heavy grinding, I felt some of his juices on my ultimate landing spot"
• C) "If you [Clayton] were inside of me, you could feel how tight I am from not having sex in 15 months."
• D) "He raped me against my consent!"
• E) Reality: two blowjobs

The (Alleged) Pills re CE

• A) JD got them in CA at PP. They let her take them home because she was out of state and conflicted. (email to CE)
• B) "Here is the photo of the pills I got from PP" (email to CE 6/28; weird since PP visit was scheduled for 7/2 and never attended.)
• C) "PP wouldn't give me pills because I'd have to take the first round there in front of them." (Affidavit from 149pg doc)

The (Alleged) "Loss" re CE

• December 28? 2023: no longer pregnant
• In December email to RS, JD claims still pregnant
• In February 2024 during a video-recorded status hearing, JD claims found out at a medical appt in November that she'd miscarried a month or two earlier (October or September)
• In April 2024, JD claims she miscarried on July 23, 2023 (between back-to-back horse competitions)
• Exhibit in April 2024 demonstrates JD was indeed aware of not being pregnant as of 10/16/23, although she informed the neurologist the following day that she was 22 weeks pregnant with boy/girl twins.

(Alleged) Meds re CE alleged "pregnancy"

• Claim 11/2/2023 "I only take prescribed prenatals and Lamotrogine for my epilepsy. My doctors took me off everything else for my pregnancy"
• Reality: a whole lot more (Barrow clinic notes) and no evidence of ANY doctors taking her off anything

The (Alleged) Fertility Situation

• JD was diagnosed with PCOS in 2010 (JD's affidavit in The MM Chronicles)
• JD was diagnosed and treated for "real ovarian cancer" and had her right ovary removed in August 2016 (MM Chronicles)
• JD was diagnosed with HPV in 2017 (and 2019?) (Some medical document... anyone remember which one?)
• JD became pregnant with GG's twins 7/1/21 despite using two forms of protection. (The GG Chronicles) and attempted to abort them on July 28 and also August 5 by improperly using pills from a telehealth provider. A sonogram from "Dr. Fiverr's Office" indicates the attempt to terminate failed. However, no babies were ever born.
• An ultrasound on 6/7/22, a pelvic ultrasound reveals constipation and bilateral ovarian cysts. (JD's medical records)
• Following fellatio on 5/20/23, JD claims she became pregnant with CE's twins. This is hardly a surprise to JD, who'd predicted the pregnancy five days after the blowies due to her status as VERY FERTILE per her podcast sponsor.

(Alleged) Pregnancies

• A) Victim Zero 2014?
• B) One (or two) with MM 2016?
• C) Victim "A" (date unclear)
• D) Somebody in 2018/2019 (MomDoc records from 11/14/23)
• E) "Twins" w/GG conceived 7/1/2021
• D) "No previous pregnancies" Uncle :) Joe email 8/22/21
• G) "Twins" w/CE conceived 5/20/23
• H) Total Babies: 0 - 9

(Alleged) Terminations

• A) "I would never have an abortion because I have PCOS and infertility." (JD's affidavit in The MM Chronicles)
• B) "I would never have an abortion because my grandmother was almost an abortion." (Email to CE's parents)
• C) "People are reproduction shaming me because I've had two abortions!" (Crying_on_Facebook.vid)
• D) "MM coerced me into one (or two?) abortion(s). GG coerced me into aborting our 5w4d gestation twins at 4w!"
• E) "I would never have an abortion because I'm a public figure and an advocate against DV and abortion coercion."
• F) JD's MomDoc records show two terminations: elective at 8w in 2019 and spontaneous at 8w in August 2023. (Exhibit in 149pg filing)
• G) Two failed pill abortions, an aspiration abortion, more pills, and a surgical abortion all in August 2016 (MM Chronicles med records)

The (Alleged) Epilepsy

• "MM gave me epilepsy during violent intimacy" (JD)
• "I was diagnosed in 2020 via EEG."
• Barrows notes seem to indicate JD claims 3 "seizures" in 2017. They do not seem to believe/concur with her claim.
• MM Chronicles indicate JD got seizures when "falling off horses"
• MM Chronicles indicate JD claimed her "seizures" began following the car accident while taking an Uber and not wearing a seatbelt
• Speculation: tardive dyskinesia or SSRI changes or eating disorder combined with potential stimulant abuse or pseudo seizures/PNES

(Alleged) Finances/Source of Income

• JD is paid 250k/year from KGO (MM Chronicles)
• JD earns nothing and therefore qualifies for subsidies. (Source?)
• JD emptied her childhood piggy bank for the Iceland trip (Chicken Soul or TedX or affidavit for protective order or fb message to MM's new GF?)
• JD emptied "an account" for the Iceland trip (Interview with Dr. Sharif [sp?] in 2021)
• JD saved her family from financial destitution caused by her father's gambling addiction (JD's email to Mama Doe and CE)
• JD is likely "judgement proof" (email between attorney, CE Chapter)
• JD has 450k to spend on real estate in her very real money market account (IL Esq)
• JD promises CE 100k (and shows proof of funds) if she is lying about being pregnant. (Summer email to CE)

The Narcissist's Prayer

• That didn't happen.
• And if it did, it wasn't that bad.
• And if it was, that's not a big deal.
• And if it is, that's not my fault.
• And if it was, I didn't mean it.
• And if I did, you deserved it.
• (by Dayna Craig)

(Reposting this because my original attempt made the video the focus and it wasn’t the point)
I’ve been a Say Anything fan since the early years and have been to almost every show they’ve done in NY. I’ve also mildly kept up with the many issues that Max and his family have had over time. They’ve done stuff I don’t agree with, but I try to separate the art from the artist because the music has meant so much to me. Watching Max throughout the years has given me some perspective to all of this Reddit arguing that I’ve been seeing as of late.
Some of you are very defensive of the band and I get it. It sucks when you see people hating on something you enjoy. However, while it may be easy to dismiss the complaints in this sub and write them off as just haters or “toxic fans,“ you’re turning a blind eye to reality. Max isn’t trying the way he used to. People aren’t looking for perfection, they are looking for effort and the effort isn’t there.
If you’re okay with the current performances and are cool with just vibing and singing along in the crowd, that’s fine. However, It’s also fine for people to want more than just a half assed vape-filled singalong. Some of you are saying he was always like this and that’s only partially true. He’s had periods of time where he was into it, that PropertyofZack vid posted previously from 2012 proves as much. Here is a video I took from around the same time (awful quality and dear god protect your ear drums from my early 20-something screaming) and it shows the same thing.
https://youtu.be/iTWH2_Oof_4?si=jzCziEActctrOm3v
Did he sound perfect? No, but the performance was top notch. He cared. We had VIP passes and did a meet and greet and he spoke with each one of us. That, followed by an amazing night, made up for the hours we spent sitting on the pavement in front of the venue to secure our barrier spots.
Had I spent that kind of time waiting for the performances im seeing clips of nowadays, I would be pissed. Yes, he’s grown older throughout the year and I’m sure touring as a 40 year old is more taxing, but there are other bands who have reached the same age and older that are still killing it.
We should keep in mind, though, that the only thing consistent about Max is his inconsistency. There were dark times where he was puking on stage, etc, so I hope he pulls out of this slump.
And if you’re enjoying the recent shows, that’s okay! You’re allowed. I’m genuinely happy for you and hope you have a fantastic time at your shows. Just try not to be so dismissive when people are upset with their own experience or are potentially experiencing buyer’s remorse for their upcoming shows.

So I have this friend and me and her have been very good friends for a very long time. We went to school together and everything was fine. We would hang out with each other and it was a really good friendship and it seemed very normal. Last year before school had ended she had gotten in trouble with her parents over their religion and stuff so they decided to remove her from public school and made her switch to online. They basically took away her social life,secluding her from everyone else. Even though she wasn’t allowed to speak to me we still tried to keep in contact and we have been super successful so far. But over these past couple of months it’s just started to be to much for me. During my days I would get 3 missed FaceTime calls from her and so many text messages throughout the day and don’t get me wrong I love speaking to her but after a long day at school I’m just trying to rest and not have to talk to anybody. I try to avoid her by saying “ oh I’m busy” but in reality I’m doing absolutely nothing and I feel guilty for lying to her but when we do call it’s always about the same thing. All she does is talk about this boy she met online and how she loves talking to him and believe me I’m happy that she found someone but I honestly don’t want to hear about it 24/7 it gets annoying and tiring having to hear about the same thing over and over again and because of that it makes me not even want to FaceTime her anymore. Another thing I hate is I will go on TikTok and I have so many notifications because she keeps sending me vids and I’m not talking about 1 or 2 vids…. No it’s like 4-5 vids a day and it just gets annoying after some time. Because I just want to be left alone and I don’t know how to tell her that. And I’m not trying to be mean because in reality I’m her only friend that stayed talking to her and now I feel kind of forced into being her bff and having for FaceTime her just feels like a job at this point and if I don’t reply to her text messages she just keeps on texting me to answer her and that really bothers me. I don’t know what to do about this at all do I say something to her? Do I just let it be? Am I the problem in this situation? And I feel like if she went to school it wouldn’t be this way, and everything would have been good again but I just hate that our friendship feels more like a job then well a friendship.

I am here to provide a compilation of my "Perfect music app" research. It's not perfect and doesn't have all the information about every single app, but it's a good starting point for people trying to find different ways to listen to music. Also, i'm not providing hi-fi audio suggestions, this post will be all about having access to music.

For offline music:

Musicolet is AMAZING! Here is a list of everything i love in this app:

• It's highly customizable
• lightweight
• lots of queues that you can select individually and play
• You have a lot of control over the music files and you can edit almost every type of tag possible including the album art
• amoled theme
• Really nice EQ
• Keeps track of your played tracks over time and creates custom playlists based of music you heard on different times.
• You can backup your stuff

It's hands down perfect in my opinion.

Now for streaming/offline apps and hybrids:

• Youtube Music Revanced(RVX Music) - Basically ytmusic but free of ads! You can't download stuff tho. Works really well but because it's not paid, the music you have access are always the vid versions. For some people this is no big deal. You can download it through the Revanced Manager App. They have a normal Youtube version also with the same description and lots of other apps! A+ Tier.
• Deezer premium apk - idk how it's called nowadays or where to download it but i used an older version of it that was amazing. It's basically deezer premium for free completely usable. It works really well, the only limitation is that it's pretty close to Spotify, it has music from big artists but not many from the lesser known artists, so limited catalog (even more limited than spotify i think) I'll not give it a tier because i didn't test this in some time but people say it's really really great.
• Quick disclaimer: The official interfaces of app (be it original or "naughty" versions of it like RVX music) Are the best ways of discovering music in that platform. No other custom app will have good discovery functions like the playlists generated automatically in YT, Spotify, Soundcloud, Etc.
• BlackHole - It was open source, idk if still is but this is YTmusic offline. You have the entire YT music catalog to listen to and download for offline listening, with really fast download speed to. It defaults downloads to m4a if I'm not mistaken, making the files lightweight for faster download. You can listen the songs outside Blackhole but they maintain their _cute_ appearance with albumart and metadata only in the app tho. This is the first app that comes with a lot of Indian BS but here you can filter it and don't bother. You can also listen to your mp3 stuff in the app but the prettier versions of music are separated in the download area, if you want to mix downloaded stuff with your mp3 you'll have to use the ugly m4a no tags no album art versions of music. There is a backup option that backups your configs and i think it also backups the music you like but not what you have previously downloaded (correct me if i'm wrong). Really good app, i recommend it a lot! A+ Tier
• ESound - It's on the playstore, you can listen to offline stuff and download ytmusic stuff to listen offline, but its interface, in-app-speed and the fact it has lots of ads makes it TRASH! D Tier
• InnerTune - It's almost perfection. It's literally YouTube music, but everything is free and amazing. The interface is ok, minimalistic stuff here; It downloads extremely fast the songs (click the three dots to see download option) but you can only use the downloaded songs inside the app; no internal music option and some discovery options based on ytmusic playlists (which are kinda meh). It has backup but i didn't test it. You can download the app via F-droid. A+ Tier
• ViMusic - You can download this in the playstore or in F-music. This is similar to innerTune but the offline stuff is handled kinda like SoundCloud (you listen to the entire stuff, then it becomes stored in cache (which means after the first listen it'll not use internet to listen to it.) The interface is minimalistic, the app is lightweight and pretty fast! Thanks to youtube integration it can generate radio queues, which makes the discovery aspect of it pretty cool! It has backup but it's kinda weird. Good app just not for me. B Tier
• Harmony Music - It's ViMusic but with the functionality of InnerTune, which means it's amazing. You can listen to stuff offline through cache and also download (hold the album art and the download will appear there) but the stuff you download are only in the app until you click Export to make it available out of the app only in m4a format (or ogg). The interface is the same as ViMusic and it works nice. No backup option (just the songs through "Export" feature) and you can't listen to your MP3. A+ Tier (but i found InnerTune to be better)
• Whatlisten - You can download it through the Playstore. It was legendary back in the day. If you ignore the Indian stuff, it's an Online and Offline player for its own catalog, youtube and soundcloud! It was nearly perfect. Some metadata came wrong, but the music was there. You could even download the music in mp3 format with album art and everything!!! Now, since it came to the playstore it became a "paid app". You can use everything i told you, and the interface is better now, but you have limited downloads and ads. To stream yt and soundcloud it's pretty good but for everything else it's bad. The discovery side of it is also pretty mid. C Tier.
• Musify - Youtube music videos catalog and some ytmusic albums, a weird interface with a weird way of downloading music but it works. It's a downgraded innerTune with offline play(in-app) And backup. The discovery aspect of it is mid. B Tier
• Soundbound - It's the app i wanted to work the most, since it has almost everything i wanted to be perfect. The streaming is from Spotify, YTmusic and Soundcloud with other indian options, downloads fast(in mp3), you can use it internally and it plays your MP3 files. You can use the app as a music downloader for the streaming services mentioned (you click share in the music and select the app, it'll show you the music there and from there you can download it.. The thing is, to get all this gold, you need to go through a flood level of Indian crap. Sometimes you search for well known music and it gives you A LOT of indian stuff and also what you were looking for. It works, you just need to search it. You don't find the music you want you need to really search it, but you can find it anyways. No backup tho, so if you lose your app you lose your catalog (but obviously not the stuff you downloaded). The interface is trash and confusing. You can download the app in F-sound or on their website. To really really use the app you need to download some plugin that enables the streaming options mentioned. For all this, this app deserves a A+ Tier
• Honorable mention: Ymusic - Interface is weird but you can download youtube stuff really easy. It's more a music downloader than a player. Solid B tier
• Honorable mention: Audiomack - This app is AWESOME and it has lots of cool options. You can listen to a lot of music (it's almost difficult to not find what your looking for here with exceptions of artists that only post their stuff on specific platforms like soundcloud) AND you can download the songs to play in app. It's subscription based so your downloads are limited but the full version of the app is available to download normally. Btw, if you really really want a song to be in audiomack to join your library but you can't find it there, you can upload it to your account and use it from there like it would be official, at least until the artist posts the music there itself. See?? That's pretty cool!! A+ Tier

Now for Desktop options

• Youtube Music Desktop App - You can download this in its GitHub page. It's the same as RVX music but with some plugins and cool stuff you can make (like bleeding the color of the album art to the entire app, which is pretty cool). You "can download" music directly from it, but i never managed to make it really work. Solid S tier
• Soundcloud webapp - just create a webapp directly from your browser and be happy (recommend the Edge browser to make the webapp because it was the best one i tested. Not much difference tho, if you want to stick to your own browser. You can use an extension to download soundcloud music directly from it or use sclouddownloader.net to download it better (with correct metadata and album art). The best extension i've ever used is only in firefox sadly but there are some that work great in chrome, test some for yourself! Solid A tier
• Kord - This is a web-app created by some awesome fellow that let's you play Spotify, YTmusic and soundcloud all at the same time!! This means you can have your nice Spotify music playing and then put a soundcloud only music in the queue and it'll work amazingly. This is only streaming, so no downloads directly from it but it works great. You basically use your google account to run the player and connect your soundcloud account to have access to your public playlists + your like playlist. Spotify works but if you don't have premium, you'll have nice ads to enjoy your music being interrupted (this is Spotify's api fault). Here is the reddit post for this amazing app. If you want to use this in your phone you just have to find a way to create an android webapp. You can access the mobile version of it using browser devtools in PC but not in android. This app is truly amazing and more things are being implemented, check it out. S tier for sure
• Nuclear - It's a desktop only app that is similar to Streamio, you can use community plugins and other stuff to listen to your music and download it internally. You can stream from almost every streaming platform also, but sometimes it can get kinda slow and some songs being hard to find for no reason. Great app tho, i give it a A+ tier

Now for apps with PC versions that you can use in both Android and PC and cycle between them:

• Blackhole - for the backup, you would need to backup and restore each time you want to switch to the other system which works but it's very annoying to do.
• Soundbound - you don't have backup just the same functionalities
• Audiomack - The best option possible
• honorable mention: if you want to use the apps but don't want to deal with the backup deal, just download the songs on both versions and keep their download folder synced through Syncthing or something.

Every other program i tested on windows is straight up garbage.

Now here's the thing, even though i tested every single app listed above, i'm not completely satisfied. What i want is more of a dream than a reality but i wanted a All-in-one app. Something like Musicolet but not only you can play your own songs, you can search for more using streaming services and download them directly from it, even having a discovery tab with automatically generated playlists made by the streaming services. Something more like a Streamio of music streaming. I didn't find anything that can really really fit my needs, so i've created a way of having the best of both ytmusic and soundcloud while also having the songs offline. It's pretty dope so I'll teach you guys how to make it.
This method checks almost all my needs
[x] - Listening to my music both in Android and in PC [x] - Having good discovery options to discover more cool music [x] - A way to download the songs in mp3 in a nice looking way [ ] - Unify the song experience in Youtube music and SoundCloud [x] - Having a way to backup or reuse my data [ ] - Having the entire process be minimal and simple
The only thing left is to make it simple and have access to both platforms in the same place. Here is my temporary but working solution. Everything comes down to using the following apps:

• RVX Music
• Soundcloud
• YTmusic desktop
• Soundcloud Webapp
• Musicolet(Android)
• Winyl(Windows)
• MediaHuman(windows)
• Syncthing(on both)

1. Download, install and setup MediaHuman to Keep Track of two playlists (one in each platform). This will make it download every track(or every new track added) every time you enter the program. it downloads beautifully with everything correct and working as mp3.
2. Create a playlist on your music platform to serve as the download button. Add songs to it when you want to have access to it offline. This is the playlist you'll keep track in MediaHuman.
3. Setup Syncthing to Sync the download folder of MediaHuman to a folder in your Android to make it send every music you download using MediaHuman directly to your phone. Some tips:

• Setup a trash system in syncthing to not lose your files in case of accidents;
• NEVER chose a SD card folder to be the receiver on android because it makes you delete the entire folder on both places. I tell this to you guys in sorrow after losing many important things because of it.

1. Use Musicolet and Winyl to listen to your offline music with class.

This brings the best of each world together: Listening to my ytmusic songs, my soundcloud songs, discovering bangers in both platforms, saving them for download in both devices and listening them offline using also both devices. The problem is, too many things going on at the same time (even though the process is not that hard and the usage is pretty simple) and i still have to use 3 different music programs on each platform. There is also no good similar way of doing this on Android only since there is no MediaHuman or other really good multiplataform music downloader for it. It works nice but it's too complicated.

Conclusion + Give suggestions

Now, after all that, i hope each of you guys find apps that suits you best for your needs. I also really really want to find something that really makes me give up my own music system to something less complicated if it's worthed. Please give me your suggestions if you know any other app worth mentioning or if you guys have a nice recommendation for my needs it'll be greatly appreciated.
Have a wonderful listening 🎵❤

Hi, I am conscious about my thumb flick when I eliminate it my chance of getting basket is awful, I just post this for those who is conscious about their thumb flicks, Kyrie uses it, Steph (not that much), Ray Allen (not that much), Reggie Miller, Trae Young, D Russ, try to search the YouTube channel named NBA 30 Vids
https://youtube.com/@NBA30_vids
you can see their jumpshot in slow motion
I finally decided to embrace it because in reality, as long as you making the basket is important
so for thumb flicks users that can shoot the basket, be confident 😉

MKBHD is cool, and seems to know electronics and electronics well. And is immensely popular. When companies send him products, they’re usually making a good decision, I think.
I am not an enthusiast of electronics. But I AM an automotive & EV enthusiast, and frankly, I don’t find MKBHDs vids bring me much value.
I find he consistently makes untrue statements and assumptions, in ways that many more experienced auto journalists would not.
3 examples:

1. Back when he got hands on the F150 Lightning, he started a stir about it possibly having 450 miles’ range. Seasoned reviewers would have know with certainty that they were seeing a “guess-o-meter”. Just like in the Mach E. Irresponsible use of a massive platform.
   
2. He recently remarked in his Speedtail vid that inductive charging for EVs is inefficient. That’s just not true. It IS true for smartphones… stay in your lane man. Other reviewers research exhaustively for vids but he just spouts opinions in what usually seem like one-take reviews.
   
3. In his CT video his first remark was that there are “no curves at all on the entire truck”. This irritated me, badly. Straight lines are the exception on that vehicle. It appears to be geometrically faceted but it’s just not, that’s part of what makes it interesting. Qualified journalists pointed out this reality in insightful ways. He, instead, misled millions.
   

Anyways, I’ve unfollowed him because I don’t think he deserves to be placed on the same level of the likes of Jason Cammissa just because he took a liking to EVs. His conjecture is bland to people who have been into EVs for years. Kyle of Out Of Spec or, say, Transport Evolved have a magnitude greater knowledge.

felt like sharing!
became enlightened at the age of 14 since then its been exciting watching humanity mature to where we are today on this timeline, like bashar says, as we create time to exist
felt like sharing videos that have resonated on my journey
let it be light and easy whenever I watch(listen to) light language videos or when I'm ready to accept energy from creator families/angels-gabriel, michael, jesus/Galactic families/whatever
I intent for my heart to open and I make sure my spine is straight and chest is open whether I'm watching or listening sitting or laying down
and I jam and dance and respond and reflect and play or simply be myself whether I chose to be in my ego on that day or however I am it is a grounding while I unconditionally watch myself live life like a movie
1) https://youtu.be/w-UD6DrXBvs?si=J8y0jFwBfxsZuhAO 8 hours of amazing channelors together
2) Daniel Scranton, he channels a small message everyday, I experience miracles everyday and I learn lessons everyday. and His messages always resonate the day after. meaning I learned a lesson for my physical ego on Earth today. Daniels message then explains and confirms what I experienced the next day/tomorrow. this has been continuous since I was 14. Meaning the beings he channels simply read the energy of our collective consciousness in the timeline were in
3) bashar, explained that home is where we are, and that we will only find more of who we are in the unknown, and we are unconditional love as an infinite eternal soul
4) sadhguru, he is a famous Indian guru, taught me to generate self bliss on self start, happiness of self start, ecstacy and so on. Just like bashar saying situations don't matter only your state of being (creates physical matter, shifting parallel earth's and timelines)
5) charis Melina brown, I assumed she said this world is a sexual paradise in one of her videos. I then labeled this world as such, and I entered my slut phase. this is where I learned my beliefs created my reality in that way. I commented on Charis' video about this. and she said she only said this world is a 'paradise'. I assumed she added 'sexual'
6) light language videos (just straighten your spine whether laying down or sitting, and open your heart, intend your heart to open... thats it.. let the energy do the work throughout your day, life is just a movie, your movie)
7) Omnec Onec (woman from venus) her book is amazing https://youtu.be/QWq2cEoSjI4?si=bCh-IghgIBm3ZtLh https://youtu.be/2V9Qc29syBc?si=mTtzpUGTguHziw3w https://youtu.be/H6QW-CY8-FE?si=run75uHE2s_OoCKL https://youtu.be/4EjsOl3FSjY?si=Jx2jw3AmbjFKqJeb
8) Riley Martin, His book is amazing about his ET friend, "the coming of Tan"
9) Nora Harold and Wendy Kennedy, amazing channelors. https://youtu.be/ues-haPex2M?si=b5Re5hdSYll5l8uT https://youtu.be/1BGA64pEGL8?si=2bGtERY5VSYOVXqT https://youtu.be/6HVafyevazY?si=UjfEab1Bcy0HJqp6 https://youtu.be/-78oQt9bjVI?si=vZS-3GfEx_egnsLX (amazing video!!)
10) aerokinesis and more https://youtu.be/Uw8MwOFXXE0?si=6E345JozBk-94Npz
11) kryon channeled by lee Carroll 12) abraham hicks by Esther hicks, she has thousands of videos on YouTube, every topic you'd like to research she most likely has a video about it
13) if you wish to know about humanity's history from the viewpoint of "the founders" (hour long video) https://youtu.be/ZNBWAg7yEY8?si=GXtpq0dZGgvX516z
-pamela (vid about humanity's beginnings) https://youtu.be/FAICfQO3uT0?si=aCACNENrsZei3_pr
14) eckhart tolle 15) teal swan and her synchronization workshops are amazing https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLiDGSQiS-Y3QFGaL0WpZ6OurRKXl99q1h&si=d_0bvEOYdkhFBTMK https://youtu.be/W50IsYhocHA?si=31LiNLN8YgDRhLpI
16) Billy meier !! amazing human who recorded his ET experiences https://youtu.be/xW-pp3TvTY8?si=dOXSB_UMQHADzPbM
17) there are many channelors that have been on YouTube and have stopped for whatever reason, this kid Zachariah is an amazing channelor.. and human https://www.youtube.com/live/ADT3_6bEahc?si=Pi0jvFLrqaUvE3IW
18) https://youtu.be/Og7X664a0hQ?si=SCgTZ6EwLxJ0SqsE his arcturian name in the English language is Ehani.
19) random video of dead alien https://youtu.be/bMGatrWkG2c?si=xWVAkLVu8nBPBoKc I advise you to not believe what you see as bashar says believing is seeing. seeing is not believing you get to choose and resonate and to vibrate your own truth so do your own research and create ur own reality
20) video of a human using energy to heal humans through electricity https://youtu.be/0AZU8S9F0yI?si=TzGX2WpzGh_BRSmm he can create fire, purify someone's blood, and stuff :)
21) cyril takayama https://youtu.be/TYsYwqdSHuA?si=dyRdAbnwhejjwzqo even when you slow down his videos... you cannot find any slip ups... it makes you question if he's actually a real magician on Earth...
as bashar says. every reality exists. the only question is whether or not it is relevant to you and your reality.
well for me it's relevant because me and cyril share the same zodiac and the same near birth month and date. I love magic
22) another miracle I've experienced is, I use my imagination, I imagine my soul/spirit jumping from a timeline to another that is above it...that is the highest timeline for me and everyone. the Ascension timeline or the timeline we meet our Galactic family or whatever.
today I'm wealthy, all my friends and family are wealthy, few are new multi millionaires, I have houses of my dreams, cars, women, and more and my passion is about serving humanity right now
one way I track how I've skipped timelines is celebrities birthdates have changed or famous people that I love. I notice their birthdates have changed.
changing our DOB is logically impossible (but that is one way I manifest miracles in my life)
so I've seen UFOs I talk to creator everyday from my ego mind playfully I cannot use telepathy or telepathy
but I have experienced miracles everyday since I became enlightened at the age of 14
this is my excitement. to share stories of miracles. if it resonates to the people of reddit <3 much love!!
do not judge wisdom from other entities. for it is their truth, and their only sharing a part of themselves with you. and this is the path of a greater resonance of our hearts beating together <3
despite humanity transforming the negativity and darkness I felt like sharing some love and light and miracles!!
feel free to share any of your Life's miracles and experiences of its beauty
feel free to share any of your favorite spiritual videos
or music that are your permission slips
to produce bliss on self start
or ways you have manifested dreams for urself or others

I noticed many people who mention nerve pain type symptoms never think of this? It’s basically your small fibers in where an emg/nerve studies will come out negative due to it being only for large fiber nerves. Is this the reality in this case it would be a non dependent meaning it doesn’t start it hands or feet it can literally be anywhere in your body. Don’t you guys think about this or am I fear mongering?
Basically all your test will be normal unless you see a neuromuscular neurologist and have a small fiber biopsy which will confirm the damage. Which offers no benefits cause there is no treatment to fix the issue.
I’m looking at everything at this point? And not to mention does with “cpps” will basically be stuck with this for life base on what all those doctor vids and medical articles and that’s fucking insane I’m low key unemployed and my mental is obviously deeply affected. I don’t see myself being able to have a family or have sex with a penis that no longer feels normal.. It saddens me cause all the people I know are enjoying their lives and will have a future while I’m honestly extremely depressed and have dark thoughts if you know what I mean..
I am on dating apps which shows how gravely on missing out on dating girls and of course sex life. I feel disabled at the age of 25 and now 27… sorry for the vent but it’s reality right now for me.

The Conception

• A) "Clayton and I were sexually intimate."
• B) "After heavy grinding, I felt some of his juices on my ultimate landing spot"
• C) "If you [Clayton] were inside of me, you could feel how tight I am from not having sex in 15 months."
• D) "He raped me against my consent!"
• E) Reality: two blowjobs

The Pills

• A) JD got them in CA at PP. They let her take them home because she was out of state and conflicted. (email to CE)
• B) Here is the photo of the pills I got from PP (email to CE)
• C) PP wouldn't give me pills because I'd have to take the first round there in front of them. (Affidavit from 149pg doc)

Pregnancies

• A) One (or two) with MM
• B) "Twins" w/GG conceived 7/1/2021
• C) "No previous pregnancies" Uncle :) Joe email 8/22/21
• D) Victim Zero 2014
• E) Victim "A" date unclear
• F) Somebody in 2018/2019 (MomDoc records from 11/14/23
• G) "Twins" w/CE conceived 5/20/23
• H) Total Babies: 0 - 9

Terminations

• A) "I would never have an abortion because I have PCOS and infertility." (JD's affidavit in The MM Chronicles)
• B) "I would never have an abortion because my grandmother was almost an abortion." (Email to CE's parents)
• C) "People are reproduction shaming me because I've had two abortions!" (Crying_on_Facebook.vid)
• D) "MM coerced me into one (or two?) abortion(s). GG coerced me into aborting our 5w4d gestation twins at 4w!"
• E) "I would never have an abortion because I'm public figure an advocate against DV and abortion coercion."
• F) JD's MomDoc records show two terminations: elective at 8w in 2019 and spontaneous at 8w in August 2023. (Exhibit in 149pg filing)

Meds

• Claim 11/2/2023 "I only take prescribed prenatals and Lamotrogine for my epilepsy. My doctors took me off everything else for my pregnancy"
• Reality: a whole lot more (Barrow clinic notes)

The Epilepsy

• MM gave me epilepsy during violent intimacy
• I was diagnosed in 2020 via
• Barrows notes seem to indicate JD claims 3 "seizures" in 2017. They do not seem to believe/concur with her claim.

The Miscarriage

• December 28? 2023: no longer pregnant
• In December email to RS, claims still pregnant
• In February 2023, claims found out at a medical appt in November that she'd miscarried a month or two earlier (October or September)
• In April 2023, claims
• Exhibit in April 2023 demonstrates JD was aware of not being pregnant as of 10/16/23, although she informed the neurologist the following day that she was 22 weeks pregnant with boy/girl twins.

i had too many pressures and health issues that contributed to it the pressures disconnected me from myself and what i wanted ot do because i was constnatly forcing myself to do things i didnt want to do and i felt like i was losing sense of self. before i'd recall memories and like meditate myself into a coherent sense of self and bc of the pressure it was like i was getting fragmented i was blamed for my health issues, gaslit that they weren't real, doctors also didnt know what was causing them, besides being blamed and judged for my intuition and interests. i burnt out but was forced to keep going despite it, my health issues worsening, also i had to kinda fight to do what i needed to do for my health. id imagine bad situations and possibilities that i could encounter and how to act in them and solve them, including how to talk myself out of potential harassment and beatings. this would be related to masking and bc of all the pressures while being gaslit, over time my sense of self was getting so distorted bc i was filling my mind with what would other people think and their perspectives, i became more of a mask than an actual person. emotions were becoming more of something to perform to appease and entertain others, which also took a lot of strain esp trying to reconcile it with my genuine emotions and twist them around it, and esp bc i was trying to manipulate my micro body language. i forced myself to exercise when i shouldnt have - various reasons i shouldnt have, and it actually contributed to my healt issues. i felt dizzy when doing push ups like smth was weighing on my brain but i forced myself to keep going despite it until one time i felt like smth hit me in the head been prone to boredom since a kid, maybe especially my circumstances and when i wouldnt be able to do smth i found enough meaning and or stimulation the boredom id feel like it would start killing me and or turn into rage. im also HSP + OCD and good memory and my health sisues or whatever would be things related to me being in pain and not healing as fast as id like too long and the pain would distract me from enjoying my life and doing what i need or want to do so id feel like i was rotting, kinda dumb why i have to explain pain is bad, id also feel like smth was taken out of me somehow, and was concerend any setbacks i'd have from pain could affect me long term, say smth bad happens to me again and bc of the previous pain holding me back im less developed and less able to handle and maintain myself thus sink even further back. and i'd feel like i'd need to rebuild my sense of self again after traumatic events which would take time and effort. id be surprised at how much rage and force people would use about mundane problems or non problems, bias problems, esp bc i was ofc conscious that i can be biased and try to think first and hold my rage back anyway. reminds me of genuinely entitled toddlers who think the world revolves around their emotions, and people as now strong men, who instead of having self control, aggrandize their entitlement and rage. this itself enraged me, besides mayhbe absorbing it from them, bc those people are fundamentally telling you that they, their needs and thoughts are fundamentally more important than yours and you, and they are deserving and you are not. up to that point in sevearl cases i'd already like for instance noticed if i i forced myself to exercise it would build up rage that can be hard to control, and i thought only a man who has enough self control and awareness and intelligence and perception should be that strong to avoid mistreating others. yet most strong men i found were exactly the opposite and sometimes narcissistically humble bragging about being nice or doing something for someone sometimes, again reminding me of a toddler who never got validation and now feel like they're something by getting a fake sense of respect. or maybe they grew up with parents who were indulging their selfish entitlement instead of reprimanding them when needed. ive also watched vlogs where men have said they learned they could produce a lot of force if they just let themselves get angry that they learned as kids and just started abusing it becuase it made them feel powerful. the only INFJ i knew irl was prolly borderline and the other possible one must have had some issue bc he somehow thought being kinda early-mid teenager he figured his relationship would last for life and broke his heart when it didn't, and it surprised me bc at the time i thought "why are people at this age thinking that they love someone when they barely know anything, barely know themselves and anyone else, esp with the interacitons ive seen of them??" i kept reading toxic things on the internet but also hearing them on the irl including mysognisitic, victim blaming, disabled blaming, drug addict blaming, homeless blaming, trauma blaming, basically everything that's narcissism and pride against vulnerable grups and arguing with it in my mind non stop overclocking, mirroring and maybe absorbing them even, bc id also try too argue from their standpoint to argue them to my point, while wanting to avoid conflict. bc of health issues + the stress i started developing hyperinsomnia, not knowing what it was too. it was rotting my brain to try to keep myself awake and i was losing my sense of self and reality further. during psychopathy the negative thoughts were possessing me and replacing me so much instead of thinking about the negative thoughts and aruging with them, they were posessing me/all i had, like i had them and nothing else, also i wasl osing memories and vocabulary (both related to ASPD (worse verbal intellignce + a lot of ppl say they start losing memories when they figured they could block how they feel), ways of expression. i was trying to on purpose develop Se, physical strength and motor coordination, awareness of environment by hearing and sight, which contributed to people's words and what i saw written getting direcrtly imprinted on my brain and mind and echoing in them bc of how much i was repeating it to argue and be aware. dogs, drunkards and my dad screaming randomly during night, would wake me up and keep me up for hours, bc of my hypersensitivity i was developing and how anxious my mind was but also bc of other health issues that contributed to hyperinsomnia. i was also bulding up aggression in me to be able to defend myself bc of lacking force in my body. for some reason i started losing fine motor coordination, my drawing lines were shaky and i couldnt control them much anymore, iwas driving the pen/cil too hard down and couldnt control it, i also started physically breaking things on accident bc of how hard my grip was which was also caused by muscle tension and strain. i saw about an autistic INTJ who became a psychopath when in his late teens he was assaulted and maced outside his eyes covered in blood while getting hit in the face and he said he started seeing despite being blinded (during the fight not like blind blind) and won, he became a psychopath and assaulted a random person at one point for no reason and started using weed to calm himself down. but hes higher IQ than me, doesnt have my health issues and is much more physically fit, so i was concerend if this happenned to me even if i won i wouldnt be able to function at all afterwards. well for me the violent urges were initially and i wanted them to be towards particular people, but for some reason bc i was losing my sense of self and reality and memory access walled off, my urges were not towards any person or animal in particular, i was just sizing up everything and had thoughts about what it would be like to attack them cuz i didnt feel real, i had some will or sense of self resisting it and had to try very hard to resist it all, it s hard to explain what happens in that kind of fragmented mind. like my urges i didnt feel like were mine but "I" was idsappearing and had to fight to restrict them bc it wasnt waht i wanted but how can i want anything if "I" am not. at some point i became so exhausted i became desperate and invited God into my body and it somehow made me manic and like wntin to kill my parents so i had to restrain my own body and translate myself out of that mindset which are very few words to describe how arduous and scary that was. they wanted to kick me out or make me get a job or go to uni but they were gaslighting me about my health issues and my life was getting so bad i didnt know how to function anymore i started getting aggressive towards them in expression i was also forced to explain myself at some points about vulnerable things, i didnt like how they pushed me around and controlled my life thne violated my emotions and health. i started looking at muscle anatomy diagrams and trying to understand how fvareity and small muscles worked in the face head neck tongue and eyes to recalibrate my use of them bc they were causing tension and hyperinsomnia and other healht issues including psychopathy, and i was wathcing people's expression in reality and on videos trying to undertand how they use their muscles, what thoughts they have and trying to imaggine them in my brain and copy muscle activations + use that in creative ways to generate my own emotions relative to theirs and start being able to generate a self that's stronger and can contrl my violent urges better over time. i didnt understand other people or myself in regards to them and often thought maybe im wrong, why am i contradicting so much of what everyone else does, is the problem with me, esp bc i keep getting told if most ppl disagree with me then maybe im the problem (no turns out a lot of the time they were and actually developing narcissism is related to losing your own sense of self identiy and integrity to comply with insane external demands (while i dont pretend to be perfect, and i think some narcs are imposing demands on themselves out of insecurity)). i learned to guess psychopaths, autism, and other personality disorders and personality tpyes by facial and body structure, muscle function and activity, which is why different people hgave different mannerisms and postures, expressions and even voice related to personality, personality types disorders and illnesses. warning, to have proper control of myself my identitty and my emotions and be stable, it can be difficult if your not properly wired and ur body isnt properly aligned bc i became hypersensitive/hypermirroring of other people that i'd get lost in them and their isssues and their mindsets too, ironically by trying to mirror them to wake up and wire my own emotions and personality, this is why im saying proceed with caution and i hope u find better ways and wiring to deal with your issues than me, bc i dont want to misguide someone into getting lost. itengrity of mind seems to be related to integrity of body. the reason i felt like i lost smth significant and part of my thought processes, when doing push ups, was bc i had somehow forcefully misaligned my bones to compress parts of my brain and blood vessels in my brain that made it feel like headachess, dizziness, nausea and darkness, and i was attempting to shift my bones, release and rebuild my brain while reamining in control. other potential issues like cervical instability from being hit, has been already scientifically correlated to depression and cluster B personality disorders (i can link you a youtube vid about it), and also cavities bc they can cause nerve damage and even brain infection, which may mess up the muscles and alignment in your body by affecting the brain but also direct,y the muscles and whatever's happenign around your teeth and jaws to shift you out of balance, and this is related to poverty and criminals becoming irritable and low IQ. how is a psychopath impulsive yet planning and calculated simultaneously? for me part of that aws an impulse to like get satisfaction right, and bco f hwo i was stuck the most basic way to do it was materialistically so i concluded it would invole joining a comp0any and manipulating my way towards the top, while it was also clear that the top must be full of sociopaths and narcissists who have no qualms about exploiting others and ive found info about that + socioaths who did the exact thing i was thinking of doing, except ofc i didnt want to actually ruin random people's lives, but it was hard to resist and fight against that too. so i was stuck in that kind of mindset, constantly having some extreme urges yet thinking of ways to avoid doing the wrong thing, be it bc im trying to restrain myself or bc im trying to achieve smth and if i go to prison or ruin my reputation or whatever i will not get what i want. even if its a long term goal its still an impulse in that theres a force driving you to it and holding you stuck/that is the only thing you see. for example when you have many feelings and see many things, you can think about them in variety and make more "conscious" choices and psychopathy is also kinda related to the unconscious. well i also concluded if i wanted to avoid terrible things, while not getting kicked out on the street or forced through abusive circumstances anymore, whijle i also have to care for other people, i needed magico r spirituality at this point, and i was asking the universe for answers if there was smth else, cuz i wasnt sure at that point, but i was getting more and more answers and started getting into spirituality and wichcraft. eventually i also concluded that the conspiracy theories are real because i also met a lot of psychos who were using wichcraft spirituality and esoterics + those rich explotative sociopaths, and bc i started understanding the symbols and signs, i started seeing them everywhere and drawing more connections and information. eventually i also started seeing patterns suggesting that witchcarft is evil + other sins and the spirituality we are taught is false/deceptive (tho that was kinda clear to me in ge beginning, i just thought ppl were kinda foolish and mistaking the information, a lot of it is actually also used to manipulate and deceive you and fake on purpose) and bc of bad things happening one on top of the other that i related to sins and witchcraft i became christian.

Great vid on the JFK assassination and 911
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4oVpt_I9iQQ&t=188s&ab_channel=HiddenReality