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2024.06.10 02:06 Floby-Tenderson Alcohol or distilled water in spray bottle?
Whats in your field "foo foo" spray bottle? Distilled water? Soap/water blend? Rubbing alcohol?
I'm building out my pouch kit with a couple of nylon brushes, a spray bottle and plastic container for good coins. Not sure what's best to load in the spray bottle. About to start hitting a neighborhood built in the 20s next week after my predator shovel gets delivered tomorrow so I'm hopeful I'll have some silvers to clean.
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I'm building out my pouch kit with a couple of nylon brushes, a spray bottle and plastic container for good coins. Not sure what's best to load in the spray bottle. About to start hitting a neighborhood built in the 20s next week after my predator shovel gets delivered tomorrow so I'm hopeful I'll have some silvers to clean.
2024.06.10 00:51 Regent2014 Two years sober and it’s Pride
In my early thirties. Been sober from drugs for two years because of medical issues. The same year my body no longer processed drugs, alcohol, or caffeine, my first dose of an antidepressant put me in the ER.
Last year I hid from pride parties. This year I’ve gone to a few. Been also watching some gay films. Drugs usage is prevalent.
Not worried about relapsing because taking drugs again would almost spell a certain medical emergency for me. They would lead to a lethal arrhythmia that would be dangerous and would require medical attention. Throughout all of this, honestly, finding sobriety this early on, is the silver lining in all of this. Using is such a slippery slope and chasing the dragon in terms of dosage, is something I used to worry about because of how much tolerance I built.
So here I am feeling alienated and sad. Sad because of how dangerous my usage used to be towards the end. Sad because I feel bored and dramatic when I skirt around people prying why I’m sober now. Alienated because I haven’t met anyone my age in a simile boat. Even in Queer NA meetings, I’m the youngest by a decade plus.
The worst offenders are people I’ve met or previous friends of mine where drugs are their whole personality. Theyre convinced every party or music festival is about drugs and the only fun to be had is on being incomprehensible on drugs.
Last week at the party I went to, an acquaintance of mine was super G’d out. I tried to check on him while I was waiting for my Lyft but he was out of it and kind of combative so I let him do his thing. I’m all for safe usage. But the excess I see of it, especially while sober, makes me not miss it but sad for those who feel that’s the only way to have a good night.
Just wanted to share and of course, feel free to say hi if anyone can relate.
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Last year I hid from pride parties. This year I’ve gone to a few. Been also watching some gay films. Drugs usage is prevalent.
Not worried about relapsing because taking drugs again would almost spell a certain medical emergency for me. They would lead to a lethal arrhythmia that would be dangerous and would require medical attention. Throughout all of this, honestly, finding sobriety this early on, is the silver lining in all of this. Using is such a slippery slope and chasing the dragon in terms of dosage, is something I used to worry about because of how much tolerance I built.
So here I am feeling alienated and sad. Sad because of how dangerous my usage used to be towards the end. Sad because I feel bored and dramatic when I skirt around people prying why I’m sober now. Alienated because I haven’t met anyone my age in a simile boat. Even in Queer NA meetings, I’m the youngest by a decade plus.
The worst offenders are people I’ve met or previous friends of mine where drugs are their whole personality. Theyre convinced every party or music festival is about drugs and the only fun to be had is on being incomprehensible on drugs.
Last week at the party I went to, an acquaintance of mine was super G’d out. I tried to check on him while I was waiting for my Lyft but he was out of it and kind of combative so I let him do his thing. I’m all for safe usage. But the excess I see of it, especially while sober, makes me not miss it but sad for those who feel that’s the only way to have a good night.
Just wanted to share and of course, feel free to say hi if anyone can relate.
2024.06.10 00:26 DominicPalladino Two Thoughts on Sobriety: Keep Trying & Getting to a Point of Not Wanting To
I'm at day 15 of this streak but had 130-something before that. Two recent revelations to me that I want to share:
** There was no single silver bullet to stopping. There wasn't one quote or one saying that did the trick. There wasn't one episode or hangover that made it all possible. I understand some people hit a rock bottom so hard that it jolts them into permanent sobriety. For me, thank god, that never happened. I had plenty of times when I said to myself "never again" or "this could have been awful (drunk driving)" but none of those made me quit forever.
I quit hundreds of times. By "quit" I mean, fully intended not to drink for a long time. Sometimes it lasted two days, sometimes a week. Sometimes months. But the one thing that got me to where I am today is just always, always, always, trying again. ---- Or as Winston Churchill put it: Never, Never, Never Give Up.
** I recently realized that I don't even want to drink anymore. When I've stopped in the past for 100 days or 150 days, I still felt like I was a drinking. I still felt like I wanted to drink or could want to drink, but was abstaining because it's bad for me.
But this time, the entire 130+ days behind me and now, I feel like I don't want to drink. Like I don't even want it. Not just that it's bad for me or dangerous or I do stupid things, but I don't want it.
So if that's true, why am I at only 15 days? Well, I had a social situation back in April where I drank just to show I was part of a new group, a group that was important to me that I didn't seem stuck up or not with them. And, of course, being an alcoholic, that led to a few more days of drinking (sporadically over a month). --- But I didn't really want it. I didn't want to drink that first time. And I didn't want to be drinking those other six days.
So, for now, it was so easy to stop again.
Anyway, that's my current story. Hope it means something to someone. Certainly means something to me to have this place and all of you.
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** There was no single silver bullet to stopping. There wasn't one quote or one saying that did the trick. There wasn't one episode or hangover that made it all possible. I understand some people hit a rock bottom so hard that it jolts them into permanent sobriety. For me, thank god, that never happened. I had plenty of times when I said to myself "never again" or "this could have been awful (drunk driving)" but none of those made me quit forever.
I quit hundreds of times. By "quit" I mean, fully intended not to drink for a long time. Sometimes it lasted two days, sometimes a week. Sometimes months. But the one thing that got me to where I am today is just always, always, always, trying again. ---- Or as Winston Churchill put it: Never, Never, Never Give Up.
** I recently realized that I don't even want to drink anymore. When I've stopped in the past for 100 days or 150 days, I still felt like I was a drinking. I still felt like I wanted to drink or could want to drink, but was abstaining because it's bad for me.
But this time, the entire 130+ days behind me and now, I feel like I don't want to drink. Like I don't even want it. Not just that it's bad for me or dangerous or I do stupid things, but I don't want it.
So if that's true, why am I at only 15 days? Well, I had a social situation back in April where I drank just to show I was part of a new group, a group that was important to me that I didn't seem stuck up or not with them. And, of course, being an alcoholic, that led to a few more days of drinking (sporadically over a month). --- But I didn't really want it. I didn't want to drink that first time. And I didn't want to be drinking those other six days.
So, for now, it was so easy to stop again.
Anyway, that's my current story. Hope it means something to someone. Certainly means something to me to have this place and all of you.
2024.06.09 23:18 LADA_life Newly diagnosed with LADA… Some questions
Seeking some advice from the community - this is all super new to me anda bit scary but perhaps a silver lining is that it’s given me the push to do better by my body.
I got diagnosed end of 2023 from a routine annual checkup, initially as type 2 but I quickly got myself in at a with a specialis diabetes clinic. They ran a pile of tests:
A1C: 5.8% ZNT8: <15U/ml (negative) GAD65: 568kU/L Anti pancreatic islet cells: negative C peptide serum: 0.73 nmol/L
I had a follow up 3 months later and my c peptides have gone up (???) to 0.91 nmol/L. Is this odd to happen or expected?
No insulin at this point, using a CGM I am mostly under 150mg/dL even after eating as I’m following a low carb / almost keto diet. I do take a metformin pill daily.
If my BS is under control with diet (endo says under 100mg/dL fasting and under 150mg/dL is ideal), is there any benefit in dropping the metformin and seeing if my body can keep under the levels without extra drugs? Or would that stress my already struggling pancreas more? Obviously I will discuss with my endo but interested in the communities thoughts here?
In a kind of similar vein, even if reasonably well controlled BS, could it be beneficial to use insulin to get it even lower and potentially prolong the honeymoon longer?
If I have the BS under control - could there be any value in skipping the CGM for a period of time? There is a cost albeit I can handle it, and not having the sensor in my arm all the time might be nice if I don’t need it to be there. Any thoughts?
Final question; alcohol. How do you manage it? While I’m in honeymoon my endo pushed for absolutely zero consumption and I have cut back almost to none but I’m not sure how manageable this is long term. How did you manage it in your honey moon period? Any tips or suggestions?
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I got diagnosed end of 2023 from a routine annual checkup, initially as type 2 but I quickly got myself in at a with a specialis diabetes clinic. They ran a pile of tests:
A1C: 5.8% ZNT8: <15U/ml (negative) GAD65: 568kU/L Anti pancreatic islet cells: negative C peptide serum: 0.73 nmol/L
I had a follow up 3 months later and my c peptides have gone up (???) to 0.91 nmol/L. Is this odd to happen or expected?
No insulin at this point, using a CGM I am mostly under 150mg/dL even after eating as I’m following a low carb / almost keto diet. I do take a metformin pill daily.
If my BS is under control with diet (endo says under 100mg/dL fasting and under 150mg/dL is ideal), is there any benefit in dropping the metformin and seeing if my body can keep under the levels without extra drugs? Or would that stress my already struggling pancreas more? Obviously I will discuss with my endo but interested in the communities thoughts here?
In a kind of similar vein, even if reasonably well controlled BS, could it be beneficial to use insulin to get it even lower and potentially prolong the honeymoon longer?
If I have the BS under control - could there be any value in skipping the CGM for a period of time? There is a cost albeit I can handle it, and not having the sensor in my arm all the time might be nice if I don’t need it to be there. Any thoughts?
Final question; alcohol. How do you manage it? While I’m in honeymoon my endo pushed for absolutely zero consumption and I have cut back almost to none but I’m not sure how manageable this is long term. How did you manage it in your honey moon period? Any tips or suggestions?
2024.06.09 20:51 slayeveryday 30something F based in Manhattan looking for friends - strictly platonic!
30something F living in Midtown Manhattan. I'd love to connect with some ladies, open to men too BUT strictly platonic!!!
I enjoy a wide variety of activities - watching all genres of TV shows, movies. Trivia, dancing, painting, going to the park/ picnics in the park, walk along riverside/ on the highline etc. Travel, watching a sports game etc. - I would try almost anything out. I am interested in getting into gaming but probably more in the colder months. Open to going to an exercise class etc.
I do enjoy a few cocktails but can't drink excessively. This is why I'm searching for friends. It got to a point where I didn't enjoy hanging out with my friends because they would drink and become "weird", non-coherent, belligerent etc. when we met up/ went out. I'm obviously not going to "police" your intake but if you're more of a binge drinker I don't think we'd get along.
I would love to do activities that aren't centered around drinking but I understand that alcohol is readily available and can be brought into practically any situation activity. Again, I am NOT sober and I do enjoy going to bars and clubs occasionally! I'm just a lightweight and don't want to be responsible for other people's decisions. As corny as this sounds I get "high on life" and don't really need stimulants.
I'm not a saint/ nun and can get "wild" too but I just not interested in babysitting adults that should be able to handle themselves and know their limits.
I get along with almost all ages but millennials and Gen Z are more my vibe. I date younger guys (21 - 27 usually) and I would appreciate no judgement on that since it won't effect your life. I'm moderate but lean liberal.
I'll list some of my faves below to see if it resonates with anyone. Thanks for reading and hope to connect soon!
Movies:
Nightcrawler (Blew my mind!!! Parasite, Primal Fear, American Psycho, Goodfellas, The Silence of the Lambs, There Will Be Blood, What Dreams May Come, The Talented Mr Ripley, Leon: The Professional, Romeo and Juliet (Zeffirelli), Sunset Blvd, A Clockwork Orange, Freeway, The Devil's Backbone, The Shawshank Redemption, Dogtown and Z-Boys, The Lion King, NOPE! The Night of the Hunter.
Shows: THE WIRE!!! - best show ever!
The Sopranos, Sons of Anarchy, The Fall, House of Cards, The Night Of, Wiseguy, Mad Men, Freaks and Geeks, Mr Robot, Orphan Black, TWD, Parks and Rec, Killing Eve, Vikings, Breaking Bad, Boardwalk Empire, BCS, GOT, Parking Wars, True Detective, Fleabag, Dark (on Netflix) The Haunting of Hill House S1, RuPaul's Drag Race, Lovecraft Country, SUCCESSION!!! (L to the OG!!! I play Kendall's rap like 10 times a day)
Song: "Free Bird" Lynyrd Skynyrd, this song makes me go through all the emotions! Artists: Queen, The Clash, The Rolling Stones, Guns and Roses, The Jam, Elvis, Simon and Garfunkel, THE BEACH BOYS! Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band, Creedence Clearwater Revival, HARRY BELAFONTE! Nas, Nelly, Rihanna, Eminem, Tupac
National Soccer Team: Spain Soccer Club: Real Madrid
Books: Anything and everything by Diana Wynne Jones. The Long Walk - Richard Bachman/ Stephen King. The Devil in the White City, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, A Song of Ice and Fire nerd/ Game of Thrones... So many more!
Food: Seafood, Red Meat, Desserts
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I enjoy a wide variety of activities - watching all genres of TV shows, movies. Trivia, dancing, painting, going to the park/ picnics in the park, walk along riverside/ on the highline etc. Travel, watching a sports game etc. - I would try almost anything out. I am interested in getting into gaming but probably more in the colder months. Open to going to an exercise class etc.
I do enjoy a few cocktails but can't drink excessively. This is why I'm searching for friends. It got to a point where I didn't enjoy hanging out with my friends because they would drink and become "weird", non-coherent, belligerent etc. when we met up/ went out. I'm obviously not going to "police" your intake but if you're more of a binge drinker I don't think we'd get along.
I would love to do activities that aren't centered around drinking but I understand that alcohol is readily available and can be brought into practically any situation activity. Again, I am NOT sober and I do enjoy going to bars and clubs occasionally! I'm just a lightweight and don't want to be responsible for other people's decisions. As corny as this sounds I get "high on life" and don't really need stimulants.
I'm not a saint/ nun and can get "wild" too but I just not interested in babysitting adults that should be able to handle themselves and know their limits.
I get along with almost all ages but millennials and Gen Z are more my vibe. I date younger guys (21 - 27 usually) and I would appreciate no judgement on that since it won't effect your life. I'm moderate but lean liberal.
I'll list some of my faves below to see if it resonates with anyone. Thanks for reading and hope to connect soon!
Movies:
Nightcrawler (Blew my mind!!! Parasite, Primal Fear, American Psycho, Goodfellas, The Silence of the Lambs, There Will Be Blood, What Dreams May Come, The Talented Mr Ripley, Leon: The Professional, Romeo and Juliet (Zeffirelli), Sunset Blvd, A Clockwork Orange, Freeway, The Devil's Backbone, The Shawshank Redemption, Dogtown and Z-Boys, The Lion King, NOPE! The Night of the Hunter.
Shows: THE WIRE!!! - best show ever!
The Sopranos, Sons of Anarchy, The Fall, House of Cards, The Night Of, Wiseguy, Mad Men, Freaks and Geeks, Mr Robot, Orphan Black, TWD, Parks and Rec, Killing Eve, Vikings, Breaking Bad, Boardwalk Empire, BCS, GOT, Parking Wars, True Detective, Fleabag, Dark (on Netflix) The Haunting of Hill House S1, RuPaul's Drag Race, Lovecraft Country, SUCCESSION!!! (L to the OG!!! I play Kendall's rap like 10 times a day)
Song: "Free Bird" Lynyrd Skynyrd, this song makes me go through all the emotions! Artists: Queen, The Clash, The Rolling Stones, Guns and Roses, The Jam, Elvis, Simon and Garfunkel, THE BEACH BOYS! Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band, Creedence Clearwater Revival, HARRY BELAFONTE! Nas, Nelly, Rihanna, Eminem, Tupac
National Soccer Team: Spain Soccer Club: Real Madrid
Books: Anything and everything by Diana Wynne Jones. The Long Walk - Richard Bachman/ Stephen King. The Devil in the White City, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, A Song of Ice and Fire nerd/ Game of Thrones... So many more!
Food: Seafood, Red Meat, Desserts
2024.06.09 20:07 Able-Function1056 Success story with home remedies!
I F 23 was diagnosed with MC in April, I have had about 30 bumps over the past couple months on my buttcheeks and front of vagina. I originally thought they were pimples and then freaked and thought they were herpes. I got diagnosed at the ER and decided to do lots of research on how to get rid of them myself. Now I am down to 3 bumps that are almost gone! Here is what I did, I would shower every 2/3 days (unsanitary) but I found that giving them moisture with water almost gave them new life. I would wash them with hibiclens and dial gold soap. (both antiseptic) As soon as I would get out of the shower I would sit on a towel with a full length mirror and my flashlight and start my routine. I would use cotton balls to apply hydrogen peroxide and apple cider vinegar to each bump. (separate cotton ball for each bump to avoid contamination) I would then let that dry and then add tea tree oil, silver colloid, and wart remover to each bump with a qtip. (separate qtip for each bump) I would then let that dry and put bandaids on each bump. I would leave bandaids on for 2/3 days, I wouldn’t look or touch them until the next time I showered. I did this consistently for about 3 months now. They slowly dried up and have diminished to 3 bumps that are almost dead. I would use a combination of hydrocolloid bandaids and regular bandaids. I had slight chemical burns from all the chemicals I was using so consistently but that has mostly gone away now with very little scarring. I would be careful if you have sensitive skin. I also took zinc and multivitamins to try to boost my immune system. I would recommend no sex, I did have sex but I kept them fully covered in bandaids. (super sexy lol) I also would recommend not masturbating as this can easily spread the bumps. (depending on where you have them) I hope this can help anyone! I seriously thought my life was over and my mental health was so bad during these months but there is hope! It’s so easy to let this pesky virus ruin your life.
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2024.06.09 16:10 HoreyShetErmahGawd S24Ultra Looks \ Protection
 | So, I recently upgraded from an S23 Ultra 1 TB to a S24 Ultra 1 TB, both in the same lime green, online only color which,.. I absolutely love! What I love even more, is the fact that Samsung FINALLY went from just the silver\chrome-ish fingerprint magnet surround on each side of the screen... to FINALLY having the option of a darker color that doesn't show fingerprints quite as much, if any at all!! That is probably one of my favorite features of this new S24 Ultra of mine, the lime green and the dark surround where you actually hold the phone is absolutely phenomenal and looks amazing!!! 👍🏼🙌🏼👏🏼👌🏼🤌🏼🔥🎯💯 Furthermore I'm not sure if anyone else is extremely OCD with their new phones like I am but literally instantly after taking the phone out of its box it gets wiped down with alcohol pad, then dried, then gets a tempered glass privacy screen protector as well as slapped directly into some sort of phone case, which in my case lately, has been some type of minimalist phone case I've always had an OtterBox defender series phone case which are very nice and offer and extreme amount of protection from drops and whatnot but I always find that they are a little bit of a pain in the ass to pull in and out of your pocket and I don't really use the phone holstebelt clip very often like I used to, so I discovered Latercase online in my searches and really liked the full carbon fiber minimalist style phone case which I wound up buying... I'm extremely careful when I'm handling my phone so the risk of dropping it or damaging it is very minimal really,.. And lastly, to give it that extra bit of durability I just bought rear camera metal caps / lens protectors from casemate they were a breeze to install They come in a little bezel I guess?.... It's extremely easy to line up then you just have to put a bit of pressure on each lens for the adhesive to seal and voila, you're good to go and they match the darker color surround of the phone screen quite well too! I was a bit worried that these camera lens bezels would be too big for my carbon Latercase, And I would have to do some trimming to the case itself in order to be able to install the case onto the phone... but thankfully and as the packaging says, they work with pretty much most cases, which worked for mine! 🙏🏼 I've been a die hard Samsung Note/S series user since the Galaxy Note 8 and have pretty much owned the flagship model of each new release since, absolutely love them.. so, if anyone is trying to find good phone protection for their S24 Ultra.. this case\lens protector combo works great and doesn't add very much bulk to the phone itself but does add some level of protection 👍🏼 submitted by HoreyShetErmahGawd to S24Ultra [link] [comments] |
2024.06.09 09:09 iamkingsleyf 15 Different Types of Pictures Frame
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Maybe you need some standing photo outlines along with your sideboard or on your coffee table.
Perhaps you're after an embellishing overview for an extraordinary event photo, or you need to collate a blend of family photographs and art prints for an explanation display divider within the corridor.
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2024.06.09 06:01 rGamesModBot Indie Sunday Hub - June 09, 2024
Welcome to another Indie Sunday! This event starts at 12 AM EST and will run for 24 hours.
Please read the below guidelines carefully before participating. If you have any questions please don't hesitate to send us a modmail.
A reminder that Rule 8 is not enforced during this event for submissions which follow the participation guidelines.
Previous Indie Sunday
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Please read the below guidelines carefully before participating. If you have any questions please don't hesitate to send us a modmail.
A reminder that Rule 8 is not enforced during this event for submissions which follow the participation guidelines.
Submission Restrictions
- Games may be unreleased or finished
- You must provide video footage of the game in action. This can be a prototype, alpha, beta, etc. Images and concept art are nice but you must include a trailer or video of gameplay footage of the game.
- No key/game giveaways
- Only developers may make submissions for their games - if you would like to highlight a game on your own, please do so in this hub thread
- The same game/developer can not be shared more than once every 30 days.
Submission Format
- Submission must be a self-post (No direct links)
- Title: Game Name - Company (or individual) Name - Short description (for example: "classic turn based RPG" or "platformer inspired by Metroidvanias")
- Flair: Indie Sunday
- Body: Any links to trailers/footage, a description of the game, plans for release (platform, target date, etc), any additional information you'd like to add.
Weekly Spotlight
- Rogue Eclipse - HUSKRAFTS/Outersloth - Spaceflight Action Roguelike
- Chicken Merge Idle - Number Engineer - Merge battle game with prestige mechanics
- Shooting Range Simulator - Simulate Studios - Announce Traile An ultimate sim game
- World of Stickman Classic RTS - Mezhakov Sergey - Real-time strategy with Stickman heroes, Story and Mythology!
- DREAMOUT - Game Dynasty - Zelda-like adventure about an alpaca with alcoholism. Announcement trailer and release of demo version
- Super Fantasy Kingdom - Feryaz Beer - A roguelite city builder set in a relaxing fantasy world
- Granvir - Airborne Games - Roguelite Mech-Builder with Strategic Downtime Management
- Movies Tycoon - PixelCraze - Indie Tycoon game about building and running a film studio
- Sovereign Syndicate - Crimson Herring Studios - Victorian Steampunk RPG With Tarot Cards Instead of Dice - Available Now!
- Demiurges - Berih - mix of Heroes of Might and Magic 3 and card game.
- Good Kill -gamegine games- Immersive FPS Game where you take control of a door gunner in a helicopter during the Vietnam War
- Delearnia: Fractions of Hope - Win or Learn - Puzzle-adventure where you overcome your fear of... math?! [Demo out now]
- Maseylia : Echoes of the Past - Cubow Studio - A 3D Metroidvania
- LOK Digital - Draknek & Friends - daily puzzles now available in the demo
- The Fall of Aether Station - Nibble & Byte Game Studio - rogue-lite tower defense with real-time fleet mechanics
- Dawnmaker - Arpentor Studio - City Builder + Deckbuilder = Solo Board Game (with demo)
- Isle of Swaps - Fuzz Force - Swap cards in a roguelite deckbuilder inspired by trading Pokemon cards in the 90s
- UNKNOWN TAPES - TraviTeam - Jurassic Park Analog Horror
- Dice & Fold - Tinymice - Slay the Spire but with Dice (Dice Roguelike)
- Edge of Sanity - Vixa Games - Lovecraftian survival horror with art inspired by Darkest Dungeon
- Slay the Princess — The Pristine Cut - Black Tabby Games - Definitive Edition of Choice-Driven Horror-Comedy and Romance Visual Novel, Coming to PC and Consoles this Fall!
- Ells Tales - Ells&Pills - horror clicker with puzzle elements and retro stylization
- Goeland - Maarti Games - play as a manipulative seagull in this non-linear open-world game
- Coin-Op Vice - Andrei Fomin - 2.5D Top-down Retro Action
- Saddle Up and Drive - Sgriu Soft - Adventurous open world isometric driving game
- Endless Desert TD - Paw Strike Games - Tower Defense roguelike game featuring procedural map and handcrafted levels
- Zero Orders Tactics - Pauloondra - Puzzle strategy where you are not a general, but a GOD
- Grimshire - AcuteOwlStudio - A grim farming game where the village depends upon you for survival.
- Broken Soul - Katruna - Pixelated horror adventure
- Unbox the Room - Weird Penguin Games - relaxing puzzle game inspired by Unpacking
- Kinsfolk - Vinko Kodzoman - An atmospheric single player adventure game about fatherhood (inspired by games like Journey and Firewatch)
- Gods vs Horrors - Oriol Cosp Games - Roguelike card auto-battler where you recruit Gods from different mythologies to defend the Earth from Cosmic Horrors
- Defenders of the Omniverse - Babushka Entertainment - Reverse Bullet Hell Rogue-Lite
- Under The Island - Slime King Games - 2D Action JRPG in a fictive 90s World
- DRAKE - solarsuit.games - Space Western action RPG featuring real-time combat, organic roleplay, branched dialogues and a deep narrative!
- There's Always a Madman 2: Do Your Worst - Sunny Demeanor Games - An interactive spy novel where you try to stop a silver-loving madman from destroying the Golden Gate Bridge. Demo releases tomorrow June 10
- Die in the Dungeon - ATICO - Deckbuilding Roguelite with Dice Rolling and Frogs [Final Demo]
Feedback
Feel free to ask any questions in the comments below, or send us a modmail if it is urgent.Discussion
- Any of these games catch your eye?
- Any games you want to personally highlight that haven't been shared yet?
- Any projects that have had interesting development journeys?
- What indie game recommendations do you have?
2024.06.09 05:48 doggo_to_the_moono Herpes Cure Regimen: Updated
What's up guys, its Big_Orchid here on my other reddit account. Here's my whole regimen and some notes to help you all out!
Organic Herbs (Everything taken in the morning and at night)
Daily Health Routines
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Organic Herbs (Everything taken in the morning and at night)
- Wild whole cloves, not dried
- Green Walnut Hull
- Prickly ash bark
- Slipper elm inner bark
- Greater Burdock Root
- Dandelion Root
- Cat's claw (twice a day)
- Plantain leaf
- Wormwood
- Mary Ruth’s Organic Mushroom Complex
- Olive Leaf Extract
- Colloidal Silver
- Oregano oil (rub 2 drops on your spine also) Since it is very potent, use it for 14 days, then take a break for 14 days to avoid damaging the liver.
- 3% Food Grade Hydrogen Peroxide (used for cleaning fruits)
- Cilantro (yes it’s a vegetable but it is a natural chlorophyll building plant that pulls metals and toxins out of the body. Can just put some in your teas)
- Pears
- Red/Purple grapes with seeds are most powerful, seedless or green grapes is acceptable
- Mangos
- Oranges (no orange juice unless squeezed yourself)
- Pineapple
- Berries
- Watermelon
- Raw/Unfiltered/unheated honey
- Raw Apple Cider Vinegar (has antifungal properties)
- No L-Arginine fruits, only L-Lysine fruits (only recommend the fruits above)
- Wash the fruits in a bowl of distilled water and some food-grade hydrogen peroxide
- Should get western blot test if you can
- Below 0.90 is negative
- If you are between a 2.0-10.1 then you need a 10+ week detox
- If you are 10.0+ then you need a 14+ week detox
- Once you come out negative, you must still stay on the protocol for at LEAST 1 more month to ensure you are healed, then get tested again for reassurance. Stay on the fruits and herbs!
- Use Food Grade hydrogen peroxide and distilled water to wash your fruits
- Herpes is not a virus. It is a parasitic that comes with a viral load. Always keep that in mind.
- Hydrogen water is beneficial, since it oxygenates the body. You can buy a nice one on Amazon for like $80 and you should only put spring water in it.
- Sea moss is actually bad for herpes, it does not help unless its purple sea moss but sea moss overall is not needed
- Greens slow down the herpes healing process, just stick to only l-lysine fruits. Only if the greens are juiced, then they are accepted.
- Hemp seeds and nuts slows down the healing process
- Yahki Awakened has a $400 parasite cleanse bundle with most of the herbs you need. Not sure if it's 2 months worth, but probably only 1 month's worth. Does not say on website
- Stay disciplined. The longer you stay on protocol, the shorter the amount of time it will take to cure yourself. No cheating. No caffeine, sugar, alcohol, processed foods, vegetables, no jacking off, nothing. Stay true to yourself.
- Everyday things are very important also…. For example the clothes you wear should be 100% organic cotton or linen (at least your underwear, socks, and shirts). Your toothpaste should be organic and no fluoride. Your soap/shampoo/lotion should be organic. Your toothbrush should be made out of bamboo. Your toilet paper should be bamboo and BPA free/Bleach free. Your everyday cleaning supplies should be organic oils. Laundry detergent should be organic. Drink out of glass not plastic. You should have a showerhead filter so you’re not showering in warm chemical tap water which your skin absorbs, believe it or not. You see how deep this goes? Everything nowadays is poison and affecting you and you don't even know it….
- If you live somewhere where you can do ozone therapy, by ALL MEANS do it. In general, ozone is introduced to the body either through intravenous infusion, ozone sauna, direct injection into specific body areas or via inhalation. It can also be delivered as a topical cream or gel applied directly to the skin. I think the ozone sauna is the best option.
- Do not drink store-bought fruit juices even if they’re organic. They are pasteurized and all it is is sugar and water now. You must juice the fruits yourself or find something that's “raw cold pressed juice.”
- Stay away from bleach, super super toxic. Just like I said too, make sure all your cleaning products are organic essential oils.
- Stay away from radiation as much as you can. Some examples would include not living near a 5G cell tower, not using your phone that much, putting your phone on airplane mode if it’s in your pocket, not sleeping near wifi routers, turning off your wifi routers during sleep even, don’t use your laptop on your lap, etc.
- Diseases are not real. All it is, is the body naturally healing itself by creating detoxification symptoms.
- Aqua Panna is the best spring water since it's in glass and contains no contaminants compared to other spring water. It is quite expensive though.
- A good organic all natural multi-purpose cleaner you can make yourself would be concentrated lemon juice, concentrated lime juice, 35% food grade hydrogen peroxide, and some spring water. Or you can do spring water, vinegar, and baking soda.
- A good organic natural deodorant would be just limes or lemons. Squeeze them and then rub them underneath your pits.
- Lymph Node massages are very good to clear you out. Could do them once a week, but it’s expensive, so 1-2 times a month is fine. But if you just go outside and jump up and down on a “rebounder” for 10-20 minutes you can get your lymph nodes moving.
Daily Health Routines
- Getting sunlight for at least 1 hour. Sunlight is very important, it is the source of all energy. Tan your whole body too if possible (meaning fully naked)
- Grounding for 1 hour to reduce inflammation (or just get organic cotton grounding bed sheets for $100)
- Utilize deep Breathing exercises to oxygenate the body
- Meditate each day/night for 15-30 minutes to calm the mind and body
- Say to the universe out loud, “I am cured of herpes” Speaking in the present tense is better than saying “I will” or “I can” because you are re-affirming to the universe that it’s already here, not in the future, because only the PRESENT exists. The past and future do not exist.
- If you are a man, semen retention is required. If you HAVE to ejaculate cause you're mentally weak, then do so once a week MAX.
- Sleep is very important. Should not be going to bed super late and getting at least 8-9 hours of good sleep a night. Optimally going to bed around 10pm-11pm and waking up around 7am-8am is optimal.
- Go on walks alone for 20-30 min. Let your thoughts flow. Listen to some synthwave and realize how blessed you are to be alive and breathing and outside.
- If you workout only go 2-3 times a week and do low weight high reps.
2024.06.09 02:01 papaioliver I am actively fucking up my life
I dont know who will read this, but i just have to get this off my chest.
TL:DR at bottom
A bit of a backstory: I am 19 right now. 11 days from 20. During my life, i have had it all. The best family behind me anyone could ever ask for. They raised me well, gave me all the support and love humanly possible.
I grew up in an eastern european smalltown, been always above average, and slightly autistic at least, lets admit it. The typical gifted white suburban kid syndrome: never ever ran into problems during my life, everything seemd straight forward, always knew what i shold do with my life. During my blunder years, i have developed some pretty bad traits: a never had to struggle in my life for anything. Every single thing was handed to me on a silver plate. I really am just the luckiest person alive: always done well mentally, academically, and socially. Read the book once before when the teacher said put away your books, aced every exam still, after elementary(8 years here), got accepted to one of the best middle school of my country.
Experienced all the perks of middle school and the freedom of doing whatever the fuck you want during the stupidest years of your life, 15-19. And i did. Of course, procrastinating and not giving a fuck have not lifted me above average as in elementary, but i was still in the middle of the group. Again: everything others sweated blood for, handed to me on a silver plate. Straight goals in my life, stable personality, many friends, altough i still had my innocent nerdy kid persona, which was challenged majorly during the primal environment of a middle school coeducated dorm, but was never particularly bullied, countless friends and family, support and appreciation for who i was, altough i was just being as stupid as a middleschooler is.
Then covid came, and it somehow turned everything around. Not so many friends, no such concrete stable confidence, still being a lazy fucker who somehow lucked his way through everything. also during this time, i kinda started falling off, got into weed, not jsut alcohol, started going out and socialising less, falling off, but i had a great time, thinking about those times fondly, altough not so dearly. Rocked my way through the end exams of middle school with some last minute studying, i mean i absolutely still pulled from my little finger what others couldn't with teeth, tears and blood: got accepted into university as a dentist, still feeling like i am the top of the word.
During the last true summer break of my life, i started doing food delivery. 11:30am till 22-23:00 pm sometimes. During this time, the penjamin really took off in my country, weed being illegal but alternatives, such as Hexahidrocannabinol (HHC) being legal, available in a pen, just like an Elfbar: no neet to sneak out, to talk with the plug(some of you know arranging a meeting with those fuckers isnt as easy as it seems at all lmao), just getting high while laying in my bed. During this time, my weed addiction spiralled out of control, i got high every single night, this being my "well deserved downtime": just existing in my own little world in my bed, for 2 months. Those 4 years really did turned my personality to someone who isn't fit for a course that puts "Dr." in front of your name, this wil be important later.
Before the university, there is a social event hosted for us juniors called "junior camp", where you really are supposed to meet new people, and lay the basis of your entire uvicersity social life. And i took the penjamin(like 4th one in 2 months) with me. Now for those of you who dont know, weed can be a nice social drug, taken with moderation. If you get "schwasted, wake n baked" every day, the devils lettuce really puts you into your own world. No ambitions, no will to progress, just existing in your own little world, being fine as fuck with things as it is. Still had the best memory of my life though: being high as fuck in a water park they organised for us, literally youngsters in their prime, like 1500 of us, just being ourselves in the biggest pool party of the country. What i spent it doing: weed and cigarette breaks, taking slides, which literally felt like descending to hell, and walking around, aimlessly, not giving a fuck about the 1,5k people who came here to meet me and socialise, barely communicating with them, floating in my own world. This, and watching tje closing firework while being high are the best memories of my life until this day, guys if you can, take water slides and watch fireworks while being high, its definitely worth it.
And then came the first oath to myself that I've broken since then: that i will do a conversion of Paul, really focusing on the most important thing in my life: becoming a dentist, which is, besides helping people, is a ticket on first class to upper middle class, for someone from a bloodline of the poorest eastern european easants you can imagine. It takes 4 generations to break out of poverty, and i am the 4th. All the blood and sweat of my ancestors who worked their asses out, slaving away for the communist, them capitalist system, only for their kids to someday, amybe havve the chance i do hae right, now, and I am currently fucking up.
Now for those of you who dont know, university really is the most liberal form of education on the planet: you finally get your own timetable, the only mandatory attendance being the "practices", which you could just get through without putting anything on the table, and the lectures where they actually teach you university shit, not having a mandatory attendance, so who gives a fuck?
This gets us to the University: the first 2 weeks, i was being the typical student: al the lectures, learning from day to day, putting myself there in possibly the most alien environment i have ever been during my life. And turns out, i wasn't ready for the maturity and devotion a serious practice like dentistry takes. Man, i will literally be healing other people, everyones been to the dentist, and to get there, standing above your open mouth: Thats not something what is handed on a silver plate. No matter how smart, gifted, or special you think you are: this will only be achieved with tooth and nails. And i wasn't ready, not the slightest.
This is the point where i really started descending to the level of a fast food worker(no offence, which i was too): the first 3 months can be described with one word: Weed. no studying at all, just smoking that shit, feeling the buzz, it got to the point where i couldnt fall asleep without being hihg. Quite literally, i couldn'T imagine laying in bed, just...laying. IN november, i had it all came down on me, had a small breakdown, took the second oath i have broken: that i will change. This was the 11th of November, 2023
I cut back on weed, started attending lectures, realised that i have no fucking idea what the fuck are they talking about, so whats the point of attending? 3 more weks, sometimes begging to 5-6 different plugs, just to get my dose. Then came the so-called "exam period": where they excpt you to account for what you have "learned" during the "period of diligence". Of course, you can ace all your exams in literally 2 weeks, but for me, i was at diggind the foundation, while others were building the roof, already.
3rd oath: i will put my best, really gonna study my ass off for this one, having no plans whatsoever, just getting through somehow, like i always did. I think this is the time where i have made the first real steps towards maturity: admitting my parents that i havent done shit, and the chance of failure is around 90%. They gave me the encouragement i needed, realy got back on track, and pulled my first half year. So much so, that i got a study scholarship: 13k HUF, 36 USD/month, lower middle class scholarship, but still, that meant im in the top 10 percent of students. Yet again, by partying all yer, doing everything in the last moments.
4th oath: after these few weeks of hell, i will really put myself there, study as the year goes along, being ready and up-to*date with everything. Like the adult i am
For 1 week, this really worked out. studies for hours every day, being with my "new friends": fellow dental students, whom i had a really good start with, but now, arent really close pals. They have had a complete change, a real 180 in their life: being out in a new environment, gangs and friend groups really started forming, and i was there sometimes, having a blast with them, but you know: not really a part of the gang, just the chill, stoner, pretty stupid streets dude, never being up to date, never really giving a serious fuck about them, still smoking weed and drinking with my old middleschool friends. They naturally started inviting me less and less, and slowly fell into the group of a workplace friend, who you really dont just meet after work, you know. Now this might just be my insecurity speaking, i literally have a 2 week vacation fixated with them to the beaches of Croatia, but yeah, just a chill dude whos around sometimes, not *the gang*
And then came the wrost 6 weeks of my life. During my all afternoon studying sessions, i started noticing a slight tingling in my legs and feet, and my visual snow, which ive always had for some degree, starting putting itself into second gear. I even jokingly told one of my friends who happened to study with me: "Man, i might have gotten some real nerve damage from all the weed and fake penjamins, a-ha-ha".
During the next few days, hell unfolded: imagine the worst kind of buzzing, not the gentle weed buzzingm but a genuinely alarming one, an impending sense of doom, and pretty serious unvellness: during an anatomy lecture about the cranial nerves. Figured a snus might help: stuffed a Killa cold mint(european snus is generally stronger than Zyn, this particular one being 4times as strong as the stongrst Zyn, and its still pretty mid in eastern europe lmao). Hell broke loose. If you are familiar with trip reports, i have went trhough something very similar to a bad trip, almost had to run out of the lecture, in front of the teacher and 60 of my classmates beceuse i genuinely thought im gonna die. Went out after surbibing the lecture, ambling around for 2 hours, walking to a pharmacy 45 minutes away and back, speaking with my parents, being in a complete panic which just made things worse.
This went on for a week, then i got to the doctor. The anatomy practice was always the low point: the best teacher of the institute explaining how a human body works, and i was shaking in a corner, not falling into the deepest panic attack i have ever had was taking up all my energy. Drumming with my leg,s counting the tiles on the floor again and again, not paying attention about some of the most important words ever said to me in my life. Went to the doctor that friday finally, and got good words that i am really studying anatomy, i must have known that the innervation of the top of the limbs and and the feet are completely different, so my CNS works just fine, but im describing the most common symptoms of stress induced anxiety. Also told him about my ever worsening visual snow: imagine those old TV-s who had no signal, and displayed what we called "ant football". That is my life, especially when i look at the sky, which was a thing i admired dearly: The giant cloud, not abstructed by any mountain, flowing, and ever changing, still are the most beautiful thing for me, compared with the mind.blowing sunsets we have here, in the great plains. Being robbed of that put me even deeper. The 75mg pregabalin i got described, once a day and night, havent done anything at all. INstead, they amplified my brain fog, the tingling and buzzling, and the feeling of looming dread. I havent known this at the time, so sometimes i took my daily two before the anatomy sessions, which made them truly like hell. Having to walk out multiple times in a span of 1,5 hours of the lesson, just to simply breathe. If someone closed the door of the dissecting room, all hell broke loose, i couldn't breathe. I was bumping into people on the way there and back, being so disoriented due to basically being drugged. Talked about my mother about this, she went through literally the same hell, while attempting university, just like his brother, my Godfather, who was a border guard during the East-German refugee crysis, having to shoot live munition centimeters in front of the feet of pregnant women during the fall of the iron courtain. And this was a true and horrific mental breakdown, a literal *Idegösszeomlás*, akai burnout
So long story short: missed the most crucial 8 weeks of the semester, where we were told in the beginning: if you miss a week, you are done for. The last parts of the period of diligence were spent studying like hell, with my symptoms greatly improvving: attended parties with the dentist gang, smoked weed again, and just laid the foundations for the period of exams, actually studying like hell, like i always wanted to, AND I STILL ACED IT, but with the looming over me the sword of damocles.
Now thinking back, i could've made it. I really cold have. I still can. I completed every single subject i could in the diligence period, cell biology being the hardest, I barely passed that subject with a "2", basically a B-, this will be very important later. The last exam date is at the 7th of july, but with 6 weeks for only the anatomy, and basically the chemistry of 5 years, thats should be enough, eh? Yeaahh, yet another broken oath, spent a week doing nothing, weed, youtube, and old friends, while everyone leraned their asses off. Started learning too, and i took it seriously. But any students, you know how it is:
Decided to check into the E-uni managament system of my country. "You have an offered grade, you can accept it *here*. Click link. "you can't accept, you have an exam applification of this subject". So this was the first semester where they made the application to the different exams at different dates open at March instead of the end of May, so students can "pre-plan their whole semester", the backstory of this is some uni drama equal in lenght of this post *hungarian text-* (Akinek esetleg volt dolga a Debreceni Egyetem Anatómiai-, Szövet-, és Fejlődéstani intézetével, az pontosan tudja miről beszélek lmao, a többiek úgysem értenék, H***igeci),
So, remember about my offered grade about cell biology? Wel, you have to accept it, because it LITERALLY MEANS THEY OFFERED IT AND YOU CAN DECLINE IT, this is stragiht up ez shit, of course who was the hero, who forgot to do this 5 seconds thing? My pretty faced self. All the while having an exam booked for the 28th of may, which obviously had passed, and i jsut realized this now, because the university e-administration site, which you should check every day for like 10 times, havent been opened by me for a month. And in my country, no matter what grade you get offered, if you take an exam and dont attend, thats automatically a failure overwriting literally any grade you had before. And i really put in the work. Really did got the offered grade, which means 55% on 2 intersemester exams, which both of them are hell. And all undone because im too fucking lazy and stupid to open a fucking website. Because i havent declined the offered grade, and this is the first year they implemented the early exam booking, i still have hope that the email i have written towards Students affairs will have an effect, and i will be able to accept the offered grade. We are talking about a subject where if you do have to take the exam, there is a 90% failure rate. 90. fucking. percent. I have 1 month to learn the Central Nervous System(at least i know that mostly by now), and the complete human body as it is from the shoulders upwards, embriology, histology of the semester, and 1 ENTIRE YEAR of university level chenistry. Im fucked already as it is, cell biology by itself would take 3 weeks of no life learning JUST TO HAVE A CHANCE, which i have completed, and willingly, and ignorantly have thrown away.
What happens if i fail? Well, the state pays 12 active and 3 passive semester. The course is 10 semesters, so i can passivate and then retry, and still have a chance like this once more, before falling out of State Sponsored Scholarship. A semester is 1,3 million HUF, 5 months on minimum wage if you dont eat, sleep, and save 100%. PER SEMESTER. So the world wont collapse, buti would lose everyone i met during university, dropping to a class of strangers, being the failed kid, so laying the path from the best kinda uni life to the worst, in terms of connections and social life. My family knows about my mental health, even my conserative KGB grandparents are very supportive, but i wouldn't be able to stand the shame myseelf.
Had an eye watering hours long convo with a genuine friend about my life, and that made me realise im still aint shit, things reall have to change. this is why im typing this, mainly for my own self. As the first page of a diary im planning on starting, to never forget the feeling of being in the literal bottom right now. I dont except anyone to read this, idk why im even posting this, i dont even except any advice, but ofc if you have made it this far, thank you for dwelving into the life of a hungarian smalltown trash, hope you can learn
Not gonna reread this fucking yapping, sry for the typos and language, english isn't my first one
So this was it guys, my Magnum Opus of literature, the biggest yapping session of my life so far. Still spent 1,5 hours typing this even on my pc, instead of studdying, on 1,5mg alprazolam(xanax benzo), about to smoke a jo. Yet another broken oath
TL:DR: Failed to mature up for a hardcore branch of university, and a silly mistake will destroy my entire semester, and im still not studying, typing this
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TL:DR at bottom
A bit of a backstory: I am 19 right now. 11 days from 20. During my life, i have had it all. The best family behind me anyone could ever ask for. They raised me well, gave me all the support and love humanly possible.
I grew up in an eastern european smalltown, been always above average, and slightly autistic at least, lets admit it. The typical gifted white suburban kid syndrome: never ever ran into problems during my life, everything seemd straight forward, always knew what i shold do with my life. During my blunder years, i have developed some pretty bad traits: a never had to struggle in my life for anything. Every single thing was handed to me on a silver plate. I really am just the luckiest person alive: always done well mentally, academically, and socially. Read the book once before when the teacher said put away your books, aced every exam still, after elementary(8 years here), got accepted to one of the best middle school of my country.
Experienced all the perks of middle school and the freedom of doing whatever the fuck you want during the stupidest years of your life, 15-19. And i did. Of course, procrastinating and not giving a fuck have not lifted me above average as in elementary, but i was still in the middle of the group. Again: everything others sweated blood for, handed to me on a silver plate. Straight goals in my life, stable personality, many friends, altough i still had my innocent nerdy kid persona, which was challenged majorly during the primal environment of a middle school coeducated dorm, but was never particularly bullied, countless friends and family, support and appreciation for who i was, altough i was just being as stupid as a middleschooler is.
Then covid came, and it somehow turned everything around. Not so many friends, no such concrete stable confidence, still being a lazy fucker who somehow lucked his way through everything. also during this time, i kinda started falling off, got into weed, not jsut alcohol, started going out and socialising less, falling off, but i had a great time, thinking about those times fondly, altough not so dearly. Rocked my way through the end exams of middle school with some last minute studying, i mean i absolutely still pulled from my little finger what others couldn't with teeth, tears and blood: got accepted into university as a dentist, still feeling like i am the top of the word.
During the last true summer break of my life, i started doing food delivery. 11:30am till 22-23:00 pm sometimes. During this time, the penjamin really took off in my country, weed being illegal but alternatives, such as Hexahidrocannabinol (HHC) being legal, available in a pen, just like an Elfbar: no neet to sneak out, to talk with the plug(some of you know arranging a meeting with those fuckers isnt as easy as it seems at all lmao), just getting high while laying in my bed. During this time, my weed addiction spiralled out of control, i got high every single night, this being my "well deserved downtime": just existing in my own little world in my bed, for 2 months. Those 4 years really did turned my personality to someone who isn't fit for a course that puts "Dr." in front of your name, this wil be important later.
Before the university, there is a social event hosted for us juniors called "junior camp", where you really are supposed to meet new people, and lay the basis of your entire uvicersity social life. And i took the penjamin(like 4th one in 2 months) with me. Now for those of you who dont know, weed can be a nice social drug, taken with moderation. If you get "schwasted, wake n baked" every day, the devils lettuce really puts you into your own world. No ambitions, no will to progress, just existing in your own little world, being fine as fuck with things as it is. Still had the best memory of my life though: being high as fuck in a water park they organised for us, literally youngsters in their prime, like 1500 of us, just being ourselves in the biggest pool party of the country. What i spent it doing: weed and cigarette breaks, taking slides, which literally felt like descending to hell, and walking around, aimlessly, not giving a fuck about the 1,5k people who came here to meet me and socialise, barely communicating with them, floating in my own world. This, and watching tje closing firework while being high are the best memories of my life until this day, guys if you can, take water slides and watch fireworks while being high, its definitely worth it.
And then came the first oath to myself that I've broken since then: that i will do a conversion of Paul, really focusing on the most important thing in my life: becoming a dentist, which is, besides helping people, is a ticket on first class to upper middle class, for someone from a bloodline of the poorest eastern european easants you can imagine. It takes 4 generations to break out of poverty, and i am the 4th. All the blood and sweat of my ancestors who worked their asses out, slaving away for the communist, them capitalist system, only for their kids to someday, amybe havve the chance i do hae right, now, and I am currently fucking up.
Now for those of you who dont know, university really is the most liberal form of education on the planet: you finally get your own timetable, the only mandatory attendance being the "practices", which you could just get through without putting anything on the table, and the lectures where they actually teach you university shit, not having a mandatory attendance, so who gives a fuck?
This gets us to the University: the first 2 weeks, i was being the typical student: al the lectures, learning from day to day, putting myself there in possibly the most alien environment i have ever been during my life. And turns out, i wasn't ready for the maturity and devotion a serious practice like dentistry takes. Man, i will literally be healing other people, everyones been to the dentist, and to get there, standing above your open mouth: Thats not something what is handed on a silver plate. No matter how smart, gifted, or special you think you are: this will only be achieved with tooth and nails. And i wasn't ready, not the slightest.
This is the point where i really started descending to the level of a fast food worker(no offence, which i was too): the first 3 months can be described with one word: Weed. no studying at all, just smoking that shit, feeling the buzz, it got to the point where i couldnt fall asleep without being hihg. Quite literally, i couldn'T imagine laying in bed, just...laying. IN november, i had it all came down on me, had a small breakdown, took the second oath i have broken: that i will change. This was the 11th of November, 2023
I cut back on weed, started attending lectures, realised that i have no fucking idea what the fuck are they talking about, so whats the point of attending? 3 more weks, sometimes begging to 5-6 different plugs, just to get my dose. Then came the so-called "exam period": where they excpt you to account for what you have "learned" during the "period of diligence". Of course, you can ace all your exams in literally 2 weeks, but for me, i was at diggind the foundation, while others were building the roof, already.
3rd oath: i will put my best, really gonna study my ass off for this one, having no plans whatsoever, just getting through somehow, like i always did. I think this is the time where i have made the first real steps towards maturity: admitting my parents that i havent done shit, and the chance of failure is around 90%. They gave me the encouragement i needed, realy got back on track, and pulled my first half year. So much so, that i got a study scholarship: 13k HUF, 36 USD/month, lower middle class scholarship, but still, that meant im in the top 10 percent of students. Yet again, by partying all yer, doing everything in the last moments.
4th oath: after these few weeks of hell, i will really put myself there, study as the year goes along, being ready and up-to*date with everything. Like the adult i am
For 1 week, this really worked out. studies for hours every day, being with my "new friends": fellow dental students, whom i had a really good start with, but now, arent really close pals. They have had a complete change, a real 180 in their life: being out in a new environment, gangs and friend groups really started forming, and i was there sometimes, having a blast with them, but you know: not really a part of the gang, just the chill, stoner, pretty stupid streets dude, never being up to date, never really giving a serious fuck about them, still smoking weed and drinking with my old middleschool friends. They naturally started inviting me less and less, and slowly fell into the group of a workplace friend, who you really dont just meet after work, you know. Now this might just be my insecurity speaking, i literally have a 2 week vacation fixated with them to the beaches of Croatia, but yeah, just a chill dude whos around sometimes, not *the gang*
And then came the wrost 6 weeks of my life. During my all afternoon studying sessions, i started noticing a slight tingling in my legs and feet, and my visual snow, which ive always had for some degree, starting putting itself into second gear. I even jokingly told one of my friends who happened to study with me: "Man, i might have gotten some real nerve damage from all the weed and fake penjamins, a-ha-ha".
During the next few days, hell unfolded: imagine the worst kind of buzzing, not the gentle weed buzzingm but a genuinely alarming one, an impending sense of doom, and pretty serious unvellness: during an anatomy lecture about the cranial nerves. Figured a snus might help: stuffed a Killa cold mint(european snus is generally stronger than Zyn, this particular one being 4times as strong as the stongrst Zyn, and its still pretty mid in eastern europe lmao). Hell broke loose. If you are familiar with trip reports, i have went trhough something very similar to a bad trip, almost had to run out of the lecture, in front of the teacher and 60 of my classmates beceuse i genuinely thought im gonna die. Went out after surbibing the lecture, ambling around for 2 hours, walking to a pharmacy 45 minutes away and back, speaking with my parents, being in a complete panic which just made things worse.
This went on for a week, then i got to the doctor. The anatomy practice was always the low point: the best teacher of the institute explaining how a human body works, and i was shaking in a corner, not falling into the deepest panic attack i have ever had was taking up all my energy. Drumming with my leg,s counting the tiles on the floor again and again, not paying attention about some of the most important words ever said to me in my life. Went to the doctor that friday finally, and got good words that i am really studying anatomy, i must have known that the innervation of the top of the limbs and and the feet are completely different, so my CNS works just fine, but im describing the most common symptoms of stress induced anxiety. Also told him about my ever worsening visual snow: imagine those old TV-s who had no signal, and displayed what we called "ant football". That is my life, especially when i look at the sky, which was a thing i admired dearly: The giant cloud, not abstructed by any mountain, flowing, and ever changing, still are the most beautiful thing for me, compared with the mind.blowing sunsets we have here, in the great plains. Being robbed of that put me even deeper. The 75mg pregabalin i got described, once a day and night, havent done anything at all. INstead, they amplified my brain fog, the tingling and buzzling, and the feeling of looming dread. I havent known this at the time, so sometimes i took my daily two before the anatomy sessions, which made them truly like hell. Having to walk out multiple times in a span of 1,5 hours of the lesson, just to simply breathe. If someone closed the door of the dissecting room, all hell broke loose, i couldn't breathe. I was bumping into people on the way there and back, being so disoriented due to basically being drugged. Talked about my mother about this, she went through literally the same hell, while attempting university, just like his brother, my Godfather, who was a border guard during the East-German refugee crysis, having to shoot live munition centimeters in front of the feet of pregnant women during the fall of the iron courtain. And this was a true and horrific mental breakdown, a literal *Idegösszeomlás*, akai burnout
So long story short: missed the most crucial 8 weeks of the semester, where we were told in the beginning: if you miss a week, you are done for. The last parts of the period of diligence were spent studying like hell, with my symptoms greatly improvving: attended parties with the dentist gang, smoked weed again, and just laid the foundations for the period of exams, actually studying like hell, like i always wanted to, AND I STILL ACED IT, but with the looming over me the sword of damocles.
Now thinking back, i could've made it. I really cold have. I still can. I completed every single subject i could in the diligence period, cell biology being the hardest, I barely passed that subject with a "2", basically a B-, this will be very important later. The last exam date is at the 7th of july, but with 6 weeks for only the anatomy, and basically the chemistry of 5 years, thats should be enough, eh? Yeaahh, yet another broken oath, spent a week doing nothing, weed, youtube, and old friends, while everyone leraned their asses off. Started learning too, and i took it seriously. But any students, you know how it is:
alarm set at 7:30 am.Then i got the worst news i have ever gotten
10 minutes of snooze, every single day, the next time i wake up more rested than i should have been after 10 minutes, i check the clock, 8:50AM.
Awesome, get out of bed and shower. Check the time again: 11AM.
Cool, the whole day ahead of me. Just a siiiingle youtube video, while i pass the morning fatigue and the rapid morning hearthbeat of 5 years of chainsmoking, yet another amazing dedication of my life.
Then its 12AM, time to dinner! Post dinner fatigue is exactly a 30min video, 12:30PM, imma begin studying.
Next time i look at the clok, its 14:27. I really lock in until 6pm, then my parents cone home. I talk with them for what feels like 20-25 minutes.
Look at the clock again. 20:21PM. How the fuck did the whole fucking day passed again? i truly lock in for the rest of the day
23:35, i can't anymore. Starting to watch trash streams on youtube, braincells dying every second
Time spent with studying: 2-3 hours.
Every. Single. Fucking. Day.
Decided to check into the E-uni managament system of my country. "You have an offered grade, you can accept it *here*. Click link. "you can't accept, you have an exam applification of this subject". So this was the first semester where they made the application to the different exams at different dates open at March instead of the end of May, so students can "pre-plan their whole semester", the backstory of this is some uni drama equal in lenght of this post *hungarian text-* (Akinek esetleg volt dolga a Debreceni Egyetem Anatómiai-, Szövet-, és Fejlődéstani intézetével, az pontosan tudja miről beszélek lmao, a többiek úgysem értenék, H***igeci),
So, remember about my offered grade about cell biology? Wel, you have to accept it, because it LITERALLY MEANS THEY OFFERED IT AND YOU CAN DECLINE IT, this is stragiht up ez shit, of course who was the hero, who forgot to do this 5 seconds thing? My pretty faced self. All the while having an exam booked for the 28th of may, which obviously had passed, and i jsut realized this now, because the university e-administration site, which you should check every day for like 10 times, havent been opened by me for a month. And in my country, no matter what grade you get offered, if you take an exam and dont attend, thats automatically a failure overwriting literally any grade you had before. And i really put in the work. Really did got the offered grade, which means 55% on 2 intersemester exams, which both of them are hell. And all undone because im too fucking lazy and stupid to open a fucking website. Because i havent declined the offered grade, and this is the first year they implemented the early exam booking, i still have hope that the email i have written towards Students affairs will have an effect, and i will be able to accept the offered grade. We are talking about a subject where if you do have to take the exam, there is a 90% failure rate. 90. fucking. percent. I have 1 month to learn the Central Nervous System(at least i know that mostly by now), and the complete human body as it is from the shoulders upwards, embriology, histology of the semester, and 1 ENTIRE YEAR of university level chenistry. Im fucked already as it is, cell biology by itself would take 3 weeks of no life learning JUST TO HAVE A CHANCE, which i have completed, and willingly, and ignorantly have thrown away.
What happens if i fail? Well, the state pays 12 active and 3 passive semester. The course is 10 semesters, so i can passivate and then retry, and still have a chance like this once more, before falling out of State Sponsored Scholarship. A semester is 1,3 million HUF, 5 months on minimum wage if you dont eat, sleep, and save 100%. PER SEMESTER. So the world wont collapse, buti would lose everyone i met during university, dropping to a class of strangers, being the failed kid, so laying the path from the best kinda uni life to the worst, in terms of connections and social life. My family knows about my mental health, even my conserative KGB grandparents are very supportive, but i wouldn't be able to stand the shame myseelf.
Had an eye watering hours long convo with a genuine friend about my life, and that made me realise im still aint shit, things reall have to change. this is why im typing this, mainly for my own self. As the first page of a diary im planning on starting, to never forget the feeling of being in the literal bottom right now. I dont except anyone to read this, idk why im even posting this, i dont even except any advice, but ofc if you have made it this far, thank you for dwelving into the life of a hungarian smalltown trash, hope you can learn
Not gonna reread this fucking yapping, sry for the typos and language, english isn't my first one
So this was it guys, my Magnum Opus of literature, the biggest yapping session of my life so far. Still spent 1,5 hours typing this even on my pc, instead of studdying, on 1,5mg alprazolam(xanax benzo), about to smoke a jo. Yet another broken oath
TL:DR: Failed to mature up for a hardcore branch of university, and a silly mistake will destroy my entire semester, and im still not studying, typing this
2024.06.09 01:57 abp120 9 months suffering - what am I doing wrong?
What am I doing wrong? I’ve become so depressed and feel so helpless. I have never suffered from depression. I’m having suicidal thoughts! I’m doing everything I can to fix this and nothing seems to work. The depression has led me to dark places. I am a cook and foodie. I use to cook 4x a week for my husband and I. I go to Europe with family in 12 days where I’ll be going to eating a michelin star restaurants and Im so nervous. On vacation, I will go from eating out never to eating out for almost every meal.
I developed gastritis from NSAIDS and stress in October 2023. The NSAIDS use was from a orthopedic surgery. I had an endoscopy in Nov ‘23 that showed mild gastritis. GI doc said there’s no treatment and that 80% of people who get endos have mild gastritis. She gave me 40mg omeprazole and told me to avoid spicy foods, acidic foods, alcohol, and coffee. So I did just that. By Dec and January I was 10x worse. Since January i’ve had yellow weird stools with undigested food, feeling extremely full after a couple bites, tight swollen stomach, bloating, stomach burning, and right side rib pain. I’ve tried everything. supplements DGL, Zinc Carosine, Megamuscosa, Digestive enzymes, etc. I saw my therapist to help with stress. I did meditation daily. I followed the gastritis healing diet as best as I possibly could and I see a naturopathic doc. Naturopathic diet worked but it was extremely restrictive just carrot boiled pure, eggs, almond milk, broth, banana and chicken for 2-3 weeks. I could only do it for one week but it helped! At that point, I discovered the PPI was really making me sick so I weaned off in May and now I take 10-20mg famotidine and sucraflate. The extremely full feeling went away after I got off PPIs but all my other symptoms remain. My GI doc hasnt been helpful at all. She said I shouldnt be in pain anymore. I’m getting a second opinion in July and I just want another endoscopy to help me understand whats going on in my stomach. My GI doc refuses to give me another endo despite my symptoms being 10x worse. She ordered me a HIDA scan, ultrasound, and CT. All came back normal. But im not surprised bc the symptoms are in my stomach! I think I have ulcers now but who knows.
This is what I currently eat every single day for the last 3 weeks.
6am: famotidine 10mg-20mg 7:30am: 3 GF pancakes (they’re like small silver dollars) with banana, tablespoon of maple syrup, and chamomile tea with almond milk 11am: sucralfate 12:30: 2 eggs with spinach, sometimes mushroom with 2 slices of turkey or avocado sometimes I’ll have another banana or date with peanut butter if I have a sweet tooth 4:30pm: sucralfate 6pm: white rice, grilled zucchini, spinach, mushroom with protein (chicken, cod, or canned tuna), chamomile tea with almond milk 10pm: bedtime 12pm: I wake up and take a sucralfate
Exercise: yoga 30 mins daily, peloton bike 2-3x a week, walk my dog 2 miles a day
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I developed gastritis from NSAIDS and stress in October 2023. The NSAIDS use was from a orthopedic surgery. I had an endoscopy in Nov ‘23 that showed mild gastritis. GI doc said there’s no treatment and that 80% of people who get endos have mild gastritis. She gave me 40mg omeprazole and told me to avoid spicy foods, acidic foods, alcohol, and coffee. So I did just that. By Dec and January I was 10x worse. Since January i’ve had yellow weird stools with undigested food, feeling extremely full after a couple bites, tight swollen stomach, bloating, stomach burning, and right side rib pain. I’ve tried everything. supplements DGL, Zinc Carosine, Megamuscosa, Digestive enzymes, etc. I saw my therapist to help with stress. I did meditation daily. I followed the gastritis healing diet as best as I possibly could and I see a naturopathic doc. Naturopathic diet worked but it was extremely restrictive just carrot boiled pure, eggs, almond milk, broth, banana and chicken for 2-3 weeks. I could only do it for one week but it helped! At that point, I discovered the PPI was really making me sick so I weaned off in May and now I take 10-20mg famotidine and sucraflate. The extremely full feeling went away after I got off PPIs but all my other symptoms remain. My GI doc hasnt been helpful at all. She said I shouldnt be in pain anymore. I’m getting a second opinion in July and I just want another endoscopy to help me understand whats going on in my stomach. My GI doc refuses to give me another endo despite my symptoms being 10x worse. She ordered me a HIDA scan, ultrasound, and CT. All came back normal. But im not surprised bc the symptoms are in my stomach! I think I have ulcers now but who knows.
This is what I currently eat every single day for the last 3 weeks.
6am: famotidine 10mg-20mg 7:30am: 3 GF pancakes (they’re like small silver dollars) with banana, tablespoon of maple syrup, and chamomile tea with almond milk 11am: sucralfate 12:30: 2 eggs with spinach, sometimes mushroom with 2 slices of turkey or avocado sometimes I’ll have another banana or date with peanut butter if I have a sweet tooth 4:30pm: sucralfate 6pm: white rice, grilled zucchini, spinach, mushroom with protein (chicken, cod, or canned tuna), chamomile tea with almond milk 10pm: bedtime 12pm: I wake up and take a sucralfate
Exercise: yoga 30 mins daily, peloton bike 2-3x a week, walk my dog 2 miles a day
2024.06.09 00:30 Proud_Bag_6167 Colloidal silver and zinc oxide ointment
I have heard this combo works wonders. Anyone have experience with this remedy?
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2024.06.08 18:59 Early_Elephant_6883 Does anyone else deal with a hoarder who also very likely has a lifetime of untreated mental illness?
I hate this group because it's only enabled and fueled my dad's paranoia and delusional thinking. He's likely got undiagnosed autism which only makes it worse. My parent's house is drowning in crap, and the older they get the more it's turning into a safety hazard.
In 2020 he went on a rant about how the mailman hates Trump and won't give him his newspaper. He doesn't know the mailman and has never spoken more than hello to them. Well as it turns out, EVERYONE'S mail was delayed.
When he brings up politics, I either ask him to stop or just leave the room. There's just no reasoning with him. There was never any reasoning with him. He's been into cults since the days of LaRouche. And he's always been into alternative medicine. He's gone through so many phases over the years, colloidal silver, coffee enemas, oregano cures everything (he stopped that when it didn't prevent COVID, I've probably blocked out the rest lol.
Sometimes his voice to me is like nails on a chalkboard. It's like having a Fox news anchor in your house that you can't easily shut off. It's caused me to have issues of my own growing up because I never learned how to communicate in a way that's actually healthy.
And he wonders why he only has one friend...
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In 2020 he went on a rant about how the mailman hates Trump and won't give him his newspaper. He doesn't know the mailman and has never spoken more than hello to them. Well as it turns out, EVERYONE'S mail was delayed.
When he brings up politics, I either ask him to stop or just leave the room. There's just no reasoning with him. There was never any reasoning with him. He's been into cults since the days of LaRouche. And he's always been into alternative medicine. He's gone through so many phases over the years, colloidal silver, coffee enemas, oregano cures everything (he stopped that when it didn't prevent COVID, I've probably blocked out the rest lol.
Sometimes his voice to me is like nails on a chalkboard. It's like having a Fox news anchor in your house that you can't easily shut off. It's caused me to have issues of my own growing up because I never learned how to communicate in a way that's actually healthy.
And he wonders why he only has one friend...
2024.06.08 00:41 Ralts_Bloodthorne Nova Wars - Chapter 71
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I, in my benevolence, provide with, not only with life, but a life of ease and comfort. From the lawsec that keeps you safe from deviants and perverts to the food you eat to the luxuries you enjoy, they all flow from me. You exist and thrive due to my benevolence.
You are all my children, and I care for each of you, providing peace, security, and plenty. - Dra.Falten Empress propaganda, Spurwide Mar-gite Conflict
Strechen woke up slowly, her mouth dry. She reached for the reticle as she got up, hooking it over her ear, inserting the earphone plug, then running the tap to the hollow of her throat, and dropped the reticle over her eye. She stood up, went into the frontroom, then to the kitchen, and punched up a Bingo Cola Crystal Suprablast Cherry Sparkle Lime Twister.
She slugged one down, punched up another, then moved over to sit down on the couch, sipping at the second one slowly.
There was a clink in her ear. She tapped the frame strut next to the reticle.
"Strechen," she said quietly.
"This is medical. Your vitals spiked. I'm reading minor dehydration and some trace nutrient lack. Are you feeling all right?" a female Terran voice asked.
"Yes. I have dry mouth," Strechen said.
"You received a repair injection less than 24 hours ago. Let me add a quick drink and snack to your nutriforge. That should take care of any needs you have," the female said. "How is your psychological and emotional state?"
"I'm fine. Just woke up from the dry mouth," she said.
"All right. It appears, from the limited data we have, that your species suffers and adrenaline and cortisol equivalent spike upon having your motor control and neural system control returned to conscious oversight," the Terran woman said. "We'll keep monitoring so we can keep establishing baselines. My apologies for disturbing you."
The nutriforge pinged.
"It is all right. I appreciate the concern," Strechen said.
"Have a good night," the female Terran said.
"And you," Strechen said.
The metallic clink signified the communication had ended.
Strechen got up and moved over to the nutriforge. There was a can of fizzypop and a bowl of noodles with meat and sauce as well as two edible eating sticks. She picked them up and walked back to the couch, sitting down.
The drink was delicious, the food was even better.
She finished them up and tapped the table. A set of controls lit up under the tabletop and she tapped one of them just like the reticle instructed. She watched the dish and the two fizzypop cans dissolve away before tapping another icon and getting a new drink.
There was a tapping at her suite door. She glanced and the hologram popped out of the wall showing Tawtchee, dressed in a rumpled Dra.Falten Army uniform, standing there with a narcobrew in his hand. She used the 'blink context menu' to open the door and the other Dra.Falten slouched his way into the room.
"Thought you'd be awake," he said. He looked around. "Found out that Terrans sleep four to eight hours in a night, stay awake for sixteen to twenty hours," he sat down on the couch. "We sleep either in three blocks of three hours or ten hours while being awake for ten."
"Their origin world had a twenty-four hour day, with a high enough axial tilt that different seasons had different day/night times," Strechen said, pointing at the table. "I watched a little bit on Terran history."
"I did too," Tawtchee said. "I wanted to know a bit more about our hosts. More than just the legends and myths we had learned."
"More than what you discovered when you met Hrekkel," Strechen guessed.
Tawtchee nodded. "I found out the reasons behind some things that have always haunted me."
Strechen frowned. "Like what?"
"Why their teeth chatter. Why the robots look like skeletons. Why they are colored black, with red eyes, and white enameled teeth," Tawtchee said. He shivered. "In some ways, finding out why was worse."
Strechen frowned. "Well, the black is the metal, the red is just the infrared lamps in their eyes, skeletons for bare minimum of resource use. The teeth. I don't know."
Tawtchee gave a short, barking, self-mocking laugh, then bruxed his back teeth for a moment. "No. None of that," he waved at the ship around them. "They built this. Do you think they're really worried about resources?" he shook his head. "No. The reasoning is simple to understand but disturbs me."
"What was it?" Strechen asked, her curiosity getting the better of her.
Tawtchee closed his eyes, exhaled sharply, then opened it.
"I asked a Terran. Just a random Terran, if they could answer a question. I told him about the robots, what they did, then asked why they were like that," Tawtchee closed his eyes again and sighed deeply.
Strechen reached out and took one paw in both of hers.
Tawtchee looked at her. "He asked me if I had been scared. I told him it was the most terrifying thing I had ever experience, before or after. He smiled and said: that's why."
Strechen straightened up, reaching up with one hand to smooth her fur between her ears and down the back of her head.
"The teeth chatter so that you know that the one chattering its teeth sees you. It also calls in the others, who begin chattering their teeth, so you, the prey, know that they are coming for you, or for a victim. The eyes glow red so that it causes fear. They are black so they blend in with the night," Tawtchee closed his eyes and shivered. "The last part though, the last reason..."
The shadows seemed to deepen in the room.
Tawtchee opened his eyes.
"Because it's funny."
Strechen blinked several times. "Because making them like that is funny to them?"
Tawtchee nodded. He got up and moved to the nutriforge, bringing up a new narcobrew, then a pack of BobCo tabac-sticks. He puffed on the self-light and sat down.
Strechen dialed up an ashtray and another drink for her.
This one with alcohol in it.
"Did you pay attention to the fact this entire ship is just to support twenty combat units?" Tawtchee asked.
Strechen frowned. "And the combat forces for those units."
"Did you notice what those units were?" Tawtchee asked. He leaned forward and tapped at the table a few times, then growled slightly and tapped a few others.
"How many I help you today, honored Dra.Falten?" the pixel Terran in red and silver asked, manifesting above the table.
"Display a Ringbreaker's combat suit, please," Tawtchee said.
"Certain portions are redacted for security reasons," the Terran said. She dissolved and a large suit of power armor appeared above the table.
"This ship, and everything else, is to support twenty of these suits," Tawtchee said.
Strechen looked it over. It had a gun on the back that swiveled down so the handgrip could be held by the right hand. It had shock padding and recoil compensation built into it. Missile launchers on the lower legs and the left shoulder. Heavily armored forearms, the right arm had a 'vibro-sword' built into it. The main gun had a bore diameter of 120mm, the missiles were 66mm.
It stood four meters tall, two meters wide, a meter thick.
"This can't be right. Just twenty of these?" Strechen said. "It isn't as heavily armed as our own heavy power armor suits."
Tawtchee nodded. "One of these suits can destroy a city in a matter of minutes. It can fire from the surface of a planet and hit targets on a nearby moon with pinpoint accuracy. Its main gun fires its projectiles at horrific speeds," he shrugged. "Hrekkel could probably break it down for us, but a solid shot from the weapon hits with several billion joules of force concentrated on the impact point."
Strechen tapped the table. "What kind of point force does the main gun of the Ringbreaker suit do?" she asked the silver and red Terran.
The Terran smiled, pointing up. The weapon flashed, the ammo belt flashed, and the ammo container flashed. "The Novastar XII suit's main gun, using solid shot, can fire one shot every two seconds sustained fire or five shots a second on rapid fire. Each shot delivers the equivalent of a 250 kiloton atomic blast upon the surface of the impact point in a meter width," her smile got larger. "However, solid shot is rarely used, usually when the nanoforges need to cool down and deslush. Usually Ringbreaker rounds consist of munitions that cause gravity and temporal distortions, subspace ripples, dimensional foam sizzling, as well as utilizing advanced anti-matter and esoteric particle interactions."
She moved around the suit. "The standard ringbreaker round is designed to scour away dirt and bedrock on the surface of a Dwellerspawn habitat to the scrith, as well as destroy any Dwellerspawn encountered. A single shot of the primary usage round will blow a crater to the scrith approximately twenty miles wide and two miles deep, with a kinetic shockwave of up to a hundred miles," she reached out and tapped the suit. "The psychicly active laminate armor of the Novastar XII is capable of protecting the pilot even from its own rounds. With gravity and temporal anchors, a Novastar XII can fire point blank to destroy a Dwellerspawn hive."
She moved around it to touch the legs. "With a properly warmed and slushed nanoforge, the 2.75 inch rocket packs in the legs, each packing four rockets, can fire one rocket volley of four every one point three seconds for up to six hours, with one volley every three seconds for as long as there is mass available," she pointed at the shoulder. "The 66mm rocket pack on the shoulder is capable of sustained, directed fire of multiple types of munitions, including rocket and graviton engine boosted weapons capable of hitting high orbit targets."
She bowed. "Is there any other data I might provide?"
"No, thank you," Tawtchee said.
The Terran made of silver and red vanished in a sparkle.
Strechen looked at him. "That's..."
Tawtchee nodded. "Horrifying," he paused. "Now, for the one that should truly terrify you, Field Captain."
"What?" Strechen asked.
"They don't care that we know the capabilities of this suit of armor," he said. He tapped the table. "You can bring up the specs on all of their war equipment. Everything but repair manuals and schematics and something called 'creation engine templates' and look them over. From bullets to grenades to soft body armor to tanks to strikers, to these 'ringbreaker suits', you can examine the stats on all of them."
"So?"
Tawtchee stared at her.
"They don't care if we know. Do you know why?" he asked, leaning forward slightly.
Strechen thought. "Because we can't replicate it?"
Tawtchee shook his head. "No."
"Then why?"
"Because they outgun us so badly they might as well be doing magic," he said. He pointed at the ringbreaker suit. "That's a walking planet cracker, Field Captain. One of those is a walking planet cracker and nothing we have could stop it, maybe not even mar it."
He leaned back after dismissing the hologram.
"They let us know because they don't care."
Strechen just swallowed.
0-0-0-0-0
All of her adult life Commander Navelu'uee had served the Empress faithfully. She had entered military school at seven years of age, had entered the military at thirteen as a fully grown adult. Her family lineage extended back nearly a thousand years, all of it faithful service to the Holy Duology and the Dra.Falten people.
...die at fifty... slithered through her brain as she followed a Terran male through the ship to the bridge of the massive space-born fortress she was currently inside of.
...die at fifty... kept moving through her head.
She had dreamed of a long line of females, that she had known were her ancestors, all with numbers above them. When the numbers reached fifteen, the next descendant appeared next to the ancestor. When the number reached fifty, the ancestor vanished.
In her nightmare, the numbers kept blurring by faster and faster, ancestors appearing and disappearing. Their accomplishments vanishing with them.
She had screamed in her dream when her mother had vanished and she looked up to see her numbers flashing by once her two daughters and her son had been born.
The Terran medical technician had called her, instructed her to get a snack and a drink from the nutriforge, then gone back to sleep.
Her dreams had been swirling colors and disconnected pleasant sounds afterwards.
Several blast doors went by, each opening and closing, until finally she stepped out of a door and onto the Control Bridge.
It was full of Terrans, all working at their consoles and work stations. One half of one wall was covered in 2.5D screens. There were multiple holotanks in the middle of the room, which was terraced in a semi-circle.
At the top of the terrace, in a large throne-like seat, was the High Lord Captain, commander of the vessel and the remaining ships.
She could see the scientist Hrekkel standing next to the Expediter who, frankly, terrified Nave. Over, out of the way, Field Captain Strechen stood with the male soldier that the Terror Guardians had scarred with that map.
Strechen terrified her too.
Hrekkel motioned and Nave moved with Strechen and the male over to stand next to Hrekkel.
"I found out where we are going," Hrekkel said.
Nave felt her stomach clench.
It was going to be bad news, she knew it.
"The Terrans have computed, and our own military intelligence services concur, that backtracking the trail of the Mar-gite is our best choice," Hrekkel said. He brushed at his ears. "The Lord Captain as well as someone called the Lord Preceptor, have informed the Dra.Falten Empire of their intent upon reaching each Mar-gite infested system."
"What's that?" Nave blurted out before she could stop herself.
"Planet crack each planet, ignite each gas giant," he said. He shivered. "It's the only way to stop the Mar-gite from using the planets and gas giants to produce more of themselves."
"He also plans on destroying any of the large Mar-gite Clusters found in each system before we move to the next, following the Mar-gite," Leeu stated, her voice cold and empty.
"Where are we following them too?" Commander Nave asked.
"Past them," Hrekkel said. He looked at the other Dra.Falten. "The Lord Preceptor has made his intentions clear."
"Which are?" Nave asked.
"To push past the Mar-gite to whatever is guiding or driving them into our territory," Hrekkel said. "To take the war of the Mar-gite's masters."
Nave felt a cold chill go down her spine.
There was a sharp, warbling tone that stopped any further conversation.
"Prepare for Transit Space entry," Nave heard.
She closed her eyes.
And felt the ship jump to lightspeed in her bones.
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I, in my benevolence, provide with, not only with life, but a life of ease and comfort. From the lawsec that keeps you safe from deviants and perverts to the food you eat to the luxuries you enjoy, they all flow from me. You exist and thrive due to my benevolence.
You are all my children, and I care for each of you, providing peace, security, and plenty. - Dra.Falten Empress propaganda, Spurwide Mar-gite Conflict
Strechen woke up slowly, her mouth dry. She reached for the reticle as she got up, hooking it over her ear, inserting the earphone plug, then running the tap to the hollow of her throat, and dropped the reticle over her eye. She stood up, went into the frontroom, then to the kitchen, and punched up a Bingo Cola Crystal Suprablast Cherry Sparkle Lime Twister.
She slugged one down, punched up another, then moved over to sit down on the couch, sipping at the second one slowly.
There was a clink in her ear. She tapped the frame strut next to the reticle.
"Strechen," she said quietly.
"This is medical. Your vitals spiked. I'm reading minor dehydration and some trace nutrient lack. Are you feeling all right?" a female Terran voice asked.
"Yes. I have dry mouth," Strechen said.
"You received a repair injection less than 24 hours ago. Let me add a quick drink and snack to your nutriforge. That should take care of any needs you have," the female said. "How is your psychological and emotional state?"
"I'm fine. Just woke up from the dry mouth," she said.
"All right. It appears, from the limited data we have, that your species suffers and adrenaline and cortisol equivalent spike upon having your motor control and neural system control returned to conscious oversight," the Terran woman said. "We'll keep monitoring so we can keep establishing baselines. My apologies for disturbing you."
The nutriforge pinged.
"It is all right. I appreciate the concern," Strechen said.
"Have a good night," the female Terran said.
"And you," Strechen said.
The metallic clink signified the communication had ended.
Strechen got up and moved over to the nutriforge. There was a can of fizzypop and a bowl of noodles with meat and sauce as well as two edible eating sticks. She picked them up and walked back to the couch, sitting down.
The drink was delicious, the food was even better.
She finished them up and tapped the table. A set of controls lit up under the tabletop and she tapped one of them just like the reticle instructed. She watched the dish and the two fizzypop cans dissolve away before tapping another icon and getting a new drink.
There was a tapping at her suite door. She glanced and the hologram popped out of the wall showing Tawtchee, dressed in a rumpled Dra.Falten Army uniform, standing there with a narcobrew in his hand. She used the 'blink context menu' to open the door and the other Dra.Falten slouched his way into the room.
"Thought you'd be awake," he said. He looked around. "Found out that Terrans sleep four to eight hours in a night, stay awake for sixteen to twenty hours," he sat down on the couch. "We sleep either in three blocks of three hours or ten hours while being awake for ten."
"Their origin world had a twenty-four hour day, with a high enough axial tilt that different seasons had different day/night times," Strechen said, pointing at the table. "I watched a little bit on Terran history."
"I did too," Tawtchee said. "I wanted to know a bit more about our hosts. More than just the legends and myths we had learned."
"More than what you discovered when you met Hrekkel," Strechen guessed.
Tawtchee nodded. "I found out the reasons behind some things that have always haunted me."
Strechen frowned. "Like what?"
"Why their teeth chatter. Why the robots look like skeletons. Why they are colored black, with red eyes, and white enameled teeth," Tawtchee said. He shivered. "In some ways, finding out why was worse."
Strechen frowned. "Well, the black is the metal, the red is just the infrared lamps in their eyes, skeletons for bare minimum of resource use. The teeth. I don't know."
Tawtchee gave a short, barking, self-mocking laugh, then bruxed his back teeth for a moment. "No. None of that," he waved at the ship around them. "They built this. Do you think they're really worried about resources?" he shook his head. "No. The reasoning is simple to understand but disturbs me."
"What was it?" Strechen asked, her curiosity getting the better of her.
Tawtchee closed his eyes, exhaled sharply, then opened it.
"I asked a Terran. Just a random Terran, if they could answer a question. I told him about the robots, what they did, then asked why they were like that," Tawtchee closed his eyes again and sighed deeply.
Strechen reached out and took one paw in both of hers.
Tawtchee looked at her. "He asked me if I had been scared. I told him it was the most terrifying thing I had ever experience, before or after. He smiled and said: that's why."
Strechen straightened up, reaching up with one hand to smooth her fur between her ears and down the back of her head.
"The teeth chatter so that you know that the one chattering its teeth sees you. It also calls in the others, who begin chattering their teeth, so you, the prey, know that they are coming for you, or for a victim. The eyes glow red so that it causes fear. They are black so they blend in with the night," Tawtchee closed his eyes and shivered. "The last part though, the last reason..."
The shadows seemed to deepen in the room.
Tawtchee opened his eyes.
"Because it's funny."
Strechen blinked several times. "Because making them like that is funny to them?"
Tawtchee nodded. He got up and moved to the nutriforge, bringing up a new narcobrew, then a pack of BobCo tabac-sticks. He puffed on the self-light and sat down.
Strechen dialed up an ashtray and another drink for her.
This one with alcohol in it.
"Did you pay attention to the fact this entire ship is just to support twenty combat units?" Tawtchee asked.
Strechen frowned. "And the combat forces for those units."
"Did you notice what those units were?" Tawtchee asked. He leaned forward and tapped at the table a few times, then growled slightly and tapped a few others.
"How many I help you today, honored Dra.Falten?" the pixel Terran in red and silver asked, manifesting above the table.
"Display a Ringbreaker's combat suit, please," Tawtchee said.
"Certain portions are redacted for security reasons," the Terran said. She dissolved and a large suit of power armor appeared above the table.
"This ship, and everything else, is to support twenty of these suits," Tawtchee said.
Strechen looked it over. It had a gun on the back that swiveled down so the handgrip could be held by the right hand. It had shock padding and recoil compensation built into it. Missile launchers on the lower legs and the left shoulder. Heavily armored forearms, the right arm had a 'vibro-sword' built into it. The main gun had a bore diameter of 120mm, the missiles were 66mm.
It stood four meters tall, two meters wide, a meter thick.
"This can't be right. Just twenty of these?" Strechen said. "It isn't as heavily armed as our own heavy power armor suits."
Tawtchee nodded. "One of these suits can destroy a city in a matter of minutes. It can fire from the surface of a planet and hit targets on a nearby moon with pinpoint accuracy. Its main gun fires its projectiles at horrific speeds," he shrugged. "Hrekkel could probably break it down for us, but a solid shot from the weapon hits with several billion joules of force concentrated on the impact point."
Strechen tapped the table. "What kind of point force does the main gun of the Ringbreaker suit do?" she asked the silver and red Terran.
The Terran smiled, pointing up. The weapon flashed, the ammo belt flashed, and the ammo container flashed. "The Novastar XII suit's main gun, using solid shot, can fire one shot every two seconds sustained fire or five shots a second on rapid fire. Each shot delivers the equivalent of a 250 kiloton atomic blast upon the surface of the impact point in a meter width," her smile got larger. "However, solid shot is rarely used, usually when the nanoforges need to cool down and deslush. Usually Ringbreaker rounds consist of munitions that cause gravity and temporal distortions, subspace ripples, dimensional foam sizzling, as well as utilizing advanced anti-matter and esoteric particle interactions."
She moved around the suit. "The standard ringbreaker round is designed to scour away dirt and bedrock on the surface of a Dwellerspawn habitat to the scrith, as well as destroy any Dwellerspawn encountered. A single shot of the primary usage round will blow a crater to the scrith approximately twenty miles wide and two miles deep, with a kinetic shockwave of up to a hundred miles," she reached out and tapped the suit. "The psychicly active laminate armor of the Novastar XII is capable of protecting the pilot even from its own rounds. With gravity and temporal anchors, a Novastar XII can fire point blank to destroy a Dwellerspawn hive."
She moved around it to touch the legs. "With a properly warmed and slushed nanoforge, the 2.75 inch rocket packs in the legs, each packing four rockets, can fire one rocket volley of four every one point three seconds for up to six hours, with one volley every three seconds for as long as there is mass available," she pointed at the shoulder. "The 66mm rocket pack on the shoulder is capable of sustained, directed fire of multiple types of munitions, including rocket and graviton engine boosted weapons capable of hitting high orbit targets."
She bowed. "Is there any other data I might provide?"
"No, thank you," Tawtchee said.
The Terran made of silver and red vanished in a sparkle.
Strechen looked at him. "That's..."
Tawtchee nodded. "Horrifying," he paused. "Now, for the one that should truly terrify you, Field Captain."
"What?" Strechen asked.
"They don't care that we know the capabilities of this suit of armor," he said. He tapped the table. "You can bring up the specs on all of their war equipment. Everything but repair manuals and schematics and something called 'creation engine templates' and look them over. From bullets to grenades to soft body armor to tanks to strikers, to these 'ringbreaker suits', you can examine the stats on all of them."
"So?"
Tawtchee stared at her.
"They don't care if we know. Do you know why?" he asked, leaning forward slightly.
Strechen thought. "Because we can't replicate it?"
Tawtchee shook his head. "No."
"Then why?"
"Because they outgun us so badly they might as well be doing magic," he said. He pointed at the ringbreaker suit. "That's a walking planet cracker, Field Captain. One of those is a walking planet cracker and nothing we have could stop it, maybe not even mar it."
He leaned back after dismissing the hologram.
"They let us know because they don't care."
Strechen just swallowed.
0-0-0-0-0
All of her adult life Commander Navelu'uee had served the Empress faithfully. She had entered military school at seven years of age, had entered the military at thirteen as a fully grown adult. Her family lineage extended back nearly a thousand years, all of it faithful service to the Holy Duology and the Dra.Falten people.
...die at fifty... slithered through her brain as she followed a Terran male through the ship to the bridge of the massive space-born fortress she was currently inside of.
...die at fifty... kept moving through her head.
She had dreamed of a long line of females, that she had known were her ancestors, all with numbers above them. When the numbers reached fifteen, the next descendant appeared next to the ancestor. When the number reached fifty, the ancestor vanished.
In her nightmare, the numbers kept blurring by faster and faster, ancestors appearing and disappearing. Their accomplishments vanishing with them.
She had screamed in her dream when her mother had vanished and she looked up to see her numbers flashing by once her two daughters and her son had been born.
The Terran medical technician had called her, instructed her to get a snack and a drink from the nutriforge, then gone back to sleep.
Her dreams had been swirling colors and disconnected pleasant sounds afterwards.
Several blast doors went by, each opening and closing, until finally she stepped out of a door and onto the Control Bridge.
It was full of Terrans, all working at their consoles and work stations. One half of one wall was covered in 2.5D screens. There were multiple holotanks in the middle of the room, which was terraced in a semi-circle.
At the top of the terrace, in a large throne-like seat, was the High Lord Captain, commander of the vessel and the remaining ships.
She could see the scientist Hrekkel standing next to the Expediter who, frankly, terrified Nave. Over, out of the way, Field Captain Strechen stood with the male soldier that the Terror Guardians had scarred with that map.
Strechen terrified her too.
Hrekkel motioned and Nave moved with Strechen and the male over to stand next to Hrekkel.
"I found out where we are going," Hrekkel said.
Nave felt her stomach clench.
It was going to be bad news, she knew it.
"The Terrans have computed, and our own military intelligence services concur, that backtracking the trail of the Mar-gite is our best choice," Hrekkel said. He brushed at his ears. "The Lord Captain as well as someone called the Lord Preceptor, have informed the Dra.Falten Empire of their intent upon reaching each Mar-gite infested system."
"What's that?" Nave blurted out before she could stop herself.
"Planet crack each planet, ignite each gas giant," he said. He shivered. "It's the only way to stop the Mar-gite from using the planets and gas giants to produce more of themselves."
"He also plans on destroying any of the large Mar-gite Clusters found in each system before we move to the next, following the Mar-gite," Leeu stated, her voice cold and empty.
"Where are we following them too?" Commander Nave asked.
"Past them," Hrekkel said. He looked at the other Dra.Falten. "The Lord Preceptor has made his intentions clear."
"Which are?" Nave asked.
"To push past the Mar-gite to whatever is guiding or driving them into our territory," Hrekkel said. "To take the war of the Mar-gite's masters."
Nave felt a cold chill go down her spine.
There was a sharp, warbling tone that stopped any further conversation.
"Prepare for Transit Space entry," Nave heard.
She closed her eyes.
And felt the ship jump to lightspeed in her bones.
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2024.06.07 21:26 ExtremeMaleficent657 I just found this group
And good god am I grateful.
My parents have been separated for years, but their shared “truth” during covid lockdowns really brought them together. Which, in a way, I’m grateful for their having each other. They live together out of necessity so it was nice to see them share beliefs.
But it’s all been so frightening. My dad is refusing medication he needs to take colloidal silver and baking soda, my mum is anti-trans, the two of them bond through chemtrails spotted, anti-immigration and racist-leaning, and watching the predominantly American and Canadian billionaire YouTubers (I’m in Ireland so forgive me but they’re who I’ve noticed) who are corrupting. My dad in particular is so lost in it all. He plays videos through the night so when he gets up in the morning his mind is saturated with it all.
When I asked them both if they’d forgive me if I got the covid vaccine, my mum said “of course” and my dad said “absolutely not”. Even now, years later, they’re scared for me because my boyfriend could be passing me on “spike proteins” through sex.
I miss them both so much. They were powerful forces of right when I was growing up, standing up for minorities and speaking your mind. I grew up in protests for really good causes.
This is a rant, but I had no idea that this kind of community was out there. I look forward to reading through your shared stories and I’m with you through it all.
Edit: typo
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My parents have been separated for years, but their shared “truth” during covid lockdowns really brought them together. Which, in a way, I’m grateful for their having each other. They live together out of necessity so it was nice to see them share beliefs.
But it’s all been so frightening. My dad is refusing medication he needs to take colloidal silver and baking soda, my mum is anti-trans, the two of them bond through chemtrails spotted, anti-immigration and racist-leaning, and watching the predominantly American and Canadian billionaire YouTubers (I’m in Ireland so forgive me but they’re who I’ve noticed) who are corrupting. My dad in particular is so lost in it all. He plays videos through the night so when he gets up in the morning his mind is saturated with it all.
When I asked them both if they’d forgive me if I got the covid vaccine, my mum said “of course” and my dad said “absolutely not”. Even now, years later, they’re scared for me because my boyfriend could be passing me on “spike proteins” through sex.
I miss them both so much. They were powerful forces of right when I was growing up, standing up for minorities and speaking your mind. I grew up in protests for really good causes.
This is a rant, but I had no idea that this kind of community was out there. I look forward to reading through your shared stories and I’m with you through it all.
Edit: typo
2024.06.06 23:58 Routine-Operation234 Holding myself accountable. A tell from a recovering alcoholic and codependent
I don’t know if this belongs here. But I want to hold myself accountable so here it is. Warning this could trigger as it talks about my temptation and the abuse I inflicted and experienced.
I remember having my first beer when I was maybe 7 we were on a trip and I remember giggling as we drank it. My mom and dad passed around beers to me and my two younger siblings. The next time would be maybe around 14-15. I remember this event it was another family function and I remember going to sleep and couldn’t stop talking. I remember it well because my family thought I was so funny. I believed I was while drinking. I never heard them laugh that much at me. I wanted more.
Then I had my first serious boyfriend at 15. By then my parents were drinking nightly and there would be parties and I would drink. I’d shotgun and out drink anyone. I thought that was cool. I remember drinking with him my ex. We got black out a few times and I smoked weed with him. When we would break up I had an extremely hard time, I’d cry daily. That was when my aunt swept me under her wing and I began partying with 30+ year olds. I remember being groomed and staying up all night drinking. I’d find my moms hidden vodka through the house and steal it all the time. My next two relationships would revolve around alcohol and partying. I wouldn’t drink every night but it became frequent. I was senior in highschool I began blacking out a lot, when my then boyfriend went to boot camp. I think at times he was the only thing holding me together, him and alcohol I was 18.
I then met a narcissist at 19. It would be filled with abuse. Years older and we bonded over, you name it alcohol. I’d drink to cope and do everything but leave the relationship. I continued to put my worth outside of myself.
He would leave me at 22. A year later I’d become clean and enroll into college, moving away from my parents. I drink my first year of college to cope: but stopped over the summer when I moved into a dry housing. I’d go on to meet my husband who never drank before and has no urge too.
I finally stayed sober until I was 27 when my then boyfriend of 5 years encouraged me to relapse when I was stressed at the beginning ofcovi. I found out he was cheating on me the entire 5 years. I drink more. I found out I was pregnant and stopped. Now it’s been another 4-5 years of being sober. We patched up the damage and have two beautiful children. I have since went nc with parents.
I blamed my parents for years. They still drink. I blamed them for not showing me better. I blamed them for basically everything. I carried guilt and shame and thought if I forgave my mom and ignored her addiction or gave her grace they might could ignore my faults too. I thought I’d could manage a distant relationship with them, but this hurt and prolonged my healing.
But I want to be accountable. I would like for her to be as well and my dad, but that is outside of my control. What is my control is healing, taking ownership, and learning from these diseases.
I’m sorry to those I hurt. Ex’s I was horrible too. Hurting people along the way because I was hurt and broken.
I’m deeply sorry to my brothers who suffered I’m sure watching me and watching our parents was beyond torture. I wish I had been stronger to avoid the temptation. I wish I had been a better sister and friend.
If there is any silver lining to this story, is that I have two children who have never seen me drink and never will I encourage them to.
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I remember having my first beer when I was maybe 7 we were on a trip and I remember giggling as we drank it. My mom and dad passed around beers to me and my two younger siblings. The next time would be maybe around 14-15. I remember this event it was another family function and I remember going to sleep and couldn’t stop talking. I remember it well because my family thought I was so funny. I believed I was while drinking. I never heard them laugh that much at me. I wanted more.
Then I had my first serious boyfriend at 15. By then my parents were drinking nightly and there would be parties and I would drink. I’d shotgun and out drink anyone. I thought that was cool. I remember drinking with him my ex. We got black out a few times and I smoked weed with him. When we would break up I had an extremely hard time, I’d cry daily. That was when my aunt swept me under her wing and I began partying with 30+ year olds. I remember being groomed and staying up all night drinking. I’d find my moms hidden vodka through the house and steal it all the time. My next two relationships would revolve around alcohol and partying. I wouldn’t drink every night but it became frequent. I was senior in highschool I began blacking out a lot, when my then boyfriend went to boot camp. I think at times he was the only thing holding me together, him and alcohol I was 18.
I then met a narcissist at 19. It would be filled with abuse. Years older and we bonded over, you name it alcohol. I’d drink to cope and do everything but leave the relationship. I continued to put my worth outside of myself.
He would leave me at 22. A year later I’d become clean and enroll into college, moving away from my parents. I drink my first year of college to cope: but stopped over the summer when I moved into a dry housing. I’d go on to meet my husband who never drank before and has no urge too.
I finally stayed sober until I was 27 when my then boyfriend of 5 years encouraged me to relapse when I was stressed at the beginning ofcovi. I found out he was cheating on me the entire 5 years. I drink more. I found out I was pregnant and stopped. Now it’s been another 4-5 years of being sober. We patched up the damage and have two beautiful children. I have since went nc with parents.
I blamed my parents for years. They still drink. I blamed them for not showing me better. I blamed them for basically everything. I carried guilt and shame and thought if I forgave my mom and ignored her addiction or gave her grace they might could ignore my faults too. I thought I’d could manage a distant relationship with them, but this hurt and prolonged my healing.
But I want to be accountable. I would like for her to be as well and my dad, but that is outside of my control. What is my control is healing, taking ownership, and learning from these diseases.
I’m sorry to those I hurt. Ex’s I was horrible too. Hurting people along the way because I was hurt and broken.
I’m deeply sorry to my brothers who suffered I’m sure watching me and watching our parents was beyond torture. I wish I had been stronger to avoid the temptation. I wish I had been a better sister and friend.
If there is any silver lining to this story, is that I have two children who have never seen me drink and never will I encourage them to.
2024.06.06 22:50 dougtheboon OCD PASSION PROJECT
 | Found a great deal on a 1999 - 2000 Authentic Away jersey; however, it incorrectly had the 2002 All-Star Patch applied to it and had several signatures on the back in Silver Sharpie. submitted by dougtheboon to hockeyjerseys [link] [comments] A little elbow grease, rubbing alcohol, and OxiClean and she’ll soon be ready to be customized properly (just a little more work to get the last of the patch adhesive residue off the front). Currently considering turning it into a Norstrom, Laperriere, or Palffy and adding the proper NHL 2000 patch on the front. Whose name would you put on the back??? GOKINGSGO 👑🏒 |
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2024.06.06 09:14 ConsequenceSure3063 Best Evil Eye Nails
 | submitted by ConsequenceSure3063 to u/ConsequenceSure3063 [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/ja5sri9viw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e67cbcb352c2a82da58536e37e796f042e72ff51 Welcome to our roundup of the latest and greatest in Evil Eye Nails! Discover the perfect combination of style and superstition as we explore the latest trends and must-have designs for your fingertips. Dive in and prepare to be captivated by the mesmerizing world of Evil Eye Nails. The Top 19 Best Evil Eye Nails
Reviews🔗Hamsa Hand Symbol Evil Eye Nail Decalshttps://preview.redd.it/pax008gviw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=472d57c8f7f8a3839a2bf9ebb3d356b12697d379 In my quest for unique nail art, I recently stumbled upon these self-adhesive nail decal stickers. The variety of symbols they offer, such as the Evil Eye, Hamsa Hand, and Hand of Fatima, is intriguing and perfect for those who love a little mysticism and spirituality. Applying the stickers was a breeze, and the size of the decals made them versatile for both my fingers and toes. The adhesive was strong enough to stay in place overnight, but gentle enough not to tear my nails. It was nice to have the option of using tweezers for precision placement, too. However, the delicate nature of these stickers can be a bit tricky. I found that they were most effective when applied on dry, clean nails and immediately after removing the protective film. The stickers also broke easily during the removal process, so caution was required. One aspect that really made a difference was the seller's customer service. They promptly addressed any issues that arose and made sure to send a replacement sticker without any hassle. The variety of shipping options was also quite convenient, allowing me to receive my stickers within a reasonable timeframe. In conclusion, while these self-adhesive nail decal stickers might be a bit fragile, they offer a fun and unique way to express oneself through nail art. The seller's excellent customer service and the convenient shipping options are major bonuses, making this product worth considering. 🔗Large Evil Eye Nail Decals for a Stunning Nail Arthttps://preview.redd.it/5deaev2wiw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=4805502f424d8be8cb2953e836539f3bd1a9242a I recently tried out the Evil Eye Nails from the ShellsVinylDecals shop on Etsy, and I must say, I was impressed! These large, adorable Evil Eye Nail Art decals are perfect for adding a touch of magic to any outfit. The stickers are easy to use and super easy to apply, making them a great option for both beginners and experienced nail enthusiasts. One of the highlights of my experience with these Evil Eye Nails was their versatility. Not only did they work well with gel polish, but I was also able to use them with regular nail paint without any issues. The stickers have a smooth finish, which gave my nails a professional look. However, there was one downside to my experience - sometimes, the stickers would peel off after a day or so. This was not a major issue, as it only happened occasionally, and it was mostly due to my own application technique rather than the quality of the product. Overall, I highly recommend the Evil Eye Nails from ShellsVinylDecals to anyone looking for a fun and unique nail art addition to their collection. The large size of the decals, the easy-to-use application process, and the wide variety of designs available make them a great choice for both casual and serious nail enthusiasts alike. 🔗Stylish Space-Themed Halloween Press-On Nailshttps://preview.redd.it/wbubq9jwiw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=802d7ce96e377043a1b9dd1ad0eb85d0767f0576 I recently tried these handmade Press-on Nails for Halloween, and let me tell you, they were quite a hit! I'm usually skeptical about press-ons, but these were surprisingly well-made and held up quite well. The designs were unique and stood out, making my fingernails look like they'd been dipped in a pot of glittering evil eye space punk magic. One thing that really impressed me was the attention to detail. The press-ons themselves were incredibly sturdy, and despite my initial worries about the adhesive, they lasted for several days without any issues. The nail file and other accessories included were also a nice touch. However, there were a couple of downsides. First, the color I received was slightly different from the picture, which was a bit disappointing. Secondly, the instructions for measuring were a bit confusing, even though I had a nail sizing kit. Overall, these Press-on Nails are a fun and unique addition to any Halloween outfit. Just be prepared to spend a bit of time figuring out the right size and color. 🔗Elegant Evil Eye Nail Decals for Stunning Manicureshttps://preview.redd.it/sqng3bxwiw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=6bdd561f33a8b7bc225180c47d0ac9414c9a115a I've been using these Evil Eye Nail Decals for quite some time, and let me tell you, they've been a game-changer in my beauty routine. These decorative, eye-catching stickers are surprisingly easy to apply, making them perfect for anyone looking to switch up their nail game. First off, just imagine the look on people's faces when they see these intricate geometric designs in my choice of evil eye style. It's like having my very own superpower! I love the way they transform my plain nails, and it's such a confidence booster. It's also great because now I don't have to worry about ruining my nails with nail art that can be such a hassle to maintain. The application process is a breeze, and it feels like a spa day every time I put them on. I like that I can customize my nails depending on my mood. If I'm feeling bold, I might go for a bigger sticker, and on days I just need a subtle touch-up, I simply apply a smaller one. It's the perfect solution for those who can't commit to an elaborate manicure but still want to look their best. One of the things I appreciate the most is how these decals stay in place for days. I've tried other types of nail stickers before, but they wouldn't last as long as these. The high-quality adhesive ensures I can flaunt my new look throughout the week without having to mess with maintenance. It's like having my own personal shield against chipped or peeling nails. However, I did notice that it's best to encapsulate them with gel or acrylic for longer-lasting results. Using regular polish is fine, but I've found that applying two top coats will keep the edges from getting caught on things and ensure maximum wear time. Overall, this product has made my life incredibly easy, and I couldn't be happier with my new nail game. It's always refreshing to mix things up, and these Evil Eye Nail Decals are the perfect way to do so. If you're looking for something easy, effortless, and fun to add a touch of style to your nails, give these decals a shot. You won't be disappointed! 🔗Affordable and High-Quality Evil Eye Nail Stickers Decals Set of 75 Designshttps://preview.redd.it/jhwu1s9xiw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=4dd3ae76744a4e056f7e6a16282db46c3603f047 I discovered these Evil Eye Aesthetic Nail Sticker Decals, and I must say, they're a breath of fresh air in the world of nail art. As someone who loves the appearance of professionally done nails but can't find the time to visit a salon, I was thrilled to find an alternative solution. The decals are incredibly thin, almost as if you aren't wearing anything on your nails at all. They're also surprisingly durable and can last for a few days with proper application. What's even more impressive is their ability to stick securely to natural, acrylic, gel, and any other artificial nails. Applying the decals is a breeze; they're perfect for those on the go who want to achieve a salon-quality manicure in minutes. They adhere easily and feel lightweight, which is a welcome change from other nail stickers that often feel bulky and inconvenient. However, there are a couple of cons to consider. While the decals do come with a good selection of designs, the variety might not be enough for everyone. Additionally, if you're looking for the most opaque decals possible, these might not be for you—but for the price point, it's a small sacrifice. Overall, I'm thoroughly satisfied with my experience using these Evil Eye Aesthetic Nail Sticker Decals. They've become a staple in my daily routine, allowing me to achieve that polished and professional look without the hassle of going to the salon. Plus, the added bonus of receiving a set of 75 designs for an affordable price is a sweet treat. 🔗Striking Evil Eye Nail Water Decalshttps://preview.redd.it/oow72koxiw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=928c3433dc164de8ce109c4b103fee432e5126ad As someone who loves experimenting with nail art, I was intrigued to try the Evil Eye Nail Art Blue Eye decals. They arrived quickly, neatly packaged, making it a pleasure to unbox them. The first thing that caught my eye were the various sizes of decals catering to different nail sizes. The process of applying the decals was a breeze. I'd always heard about the water method, but for someone like me who's new to the whole concept, it was pretty straightforward: trim, clean, paint the nails, cut the decal, plunge it into water, moisten the nails, stick it on, dry, and finish off with some nail polish. It was easy to follow and didn't need fancy tools. The decals themselves were beautiful, with detailed intricacy that really helped them stand out. However, one thing I noticed was that they may not be as durable as some nail art products. With daily wear, I found the patterns needed a touch-up a bit more than I hoped. That was the only downside. But overall, these Evil Eye Nail Art decals made my nails look fantastic, and I loved the variety of patterns and sizes they offer. If you're looking for unique nail art that you can change regularly, these are a great pick. 🔗Stylish Silver Rainbow Holo Evil Eye Nail Decalshttps://preview.redd.it/njs38i5yiw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=6e3ae00a907f42d7309aef73b6c4f41cb1842f8d Recently, I tried the Rainbow Holo Evil Eye vinyl nail decals, and I have to say, these little beauties have made quite the impression. Intrigued by the color-shifting material, I was excited to experiment with them on my nails. The decals arrived perfectly packaged, with clear instructions on how to use them. One of the highlights of these eye nail stickers is the mesmerizing silver oil slick material that seamlessly turns into a rainbow of colors in various lighting conditions. Not only do they look stunning on nails, but they also have multiple other creative uses, such as decorating phone cases or embedding in resin. To remove the stickers from my backings, I found that they work best with gel nails or nail encapsulation. I appreciated the fact that the parts were intact and simply cut them in half to make it easier to remove when lifting the sticker. These high-quality decals are perfect for both personal use and professional nail techs. Overall, my experience with the Rainbow Holo Evil Eye vinyl nail decals was excellent. The stunning design, easy application, and versatility of these unique nail stickers make them a must-have accessory for anyone looking to add some extra flair to their nail game. 🔗Stylish Blue Evil Eye Press-On Nailshttps://preview.redd.it/bonkmgdyiw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=9022a7d44a88e6f87ec1c9252a875f3620bb0d11 Hey there, I tried out these Blue Evil Eye Nails and let me tell you, they're surprisingly comfortable considering the pattern on them. The seller was super responsive and offered custom sizing in case the standard set didn't fit me perfectly. I appreciated the detailed sizing chart they provided, making it easy to pick the right size. Each set comes with its own glue that worked seamlessly with the nails, leaving them securely in place. One of the things I loved most about these nails was the fact that they didn't budge or chip even after multiple uses. And the best part? They've received nothing but rave reviews from other satisfied customers. The only drawback, if you can even call it that, is that these nails aren't for everyone, given their unique pattern. 🔗Stunning Evil Eye Press-On Nails for a Dazzling Lookhttps://preview.redd.it/m795ezmyiw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=6ebd91eaf1de02ea24db0343c55b7e3ae5ebdde7 Recently, I had the chance to try out these EVIL EYE nails for a special occasion. I loved the vibrant colors and how they stood out on my hands. The nail glue and additional tools in the set made it easy to apply and take off when necessary. However, one downside was the wait time for processing and shipping, as these nails are made to order. Also, there were no options for returns or exchanges, so it's essential to choose the right size for your hands before purchasing. Overall, I had a great experience with these nails, and they definitely turned heads at the party! The attention to detail and handcrafted quality were apparent, making them worth the wait. 🔗Stylish 3D Evil Eye Nail Stickers for Creative Nail Artworkhttps://preview.redd.it/ydzq0rfziw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=93ed283e1d97692f3257e6d1059082e09295c369 I recently tried the 3D Evil Eye Nail Stickers for the first time, and I must say, they're a game-changer. The stickers come with clear instructions on how to apply them to your painted nails, and the results are amazingly cool and eye-catching. The stickers are easy to remove once you're done, thanks to the nail polish remover they recommend using. One thing that stood out to me is the packaging – it's not just carefully packed, but also comes with the option to have your order shipped with a tracking number for an extra fee. The seller, Infinity Nail Supply, also offers returns and exchanges if you're not satisfied with your purchase. However, I would also like to mention that the shipping is free, but it's done through USPS First Class without a tracking number. This might be something to consider if you want to have more control over your package's journey. Overall, I'm really happy with these stickers and would definitely recommend them to fellow nail enthusiasts. 🔗High-Quality Press-On Evil Eye Nails with Free Shipping & Stickershttps://preview.redd.it/o3hgugjziw4d1.jpg?width=720&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=57026f11baa3d6a8386e578d0a077325a4e1e3a5 Trying these Evil Eye Press On Nails was an absolute game-changer for me, and I was immediately blown away by the level of quality. The handmade nature of these press-on nails really shines through, both in their craftsmanship and durability. The nail set comes with not only the press-on nails themselves, but also important accessories such as a nail file, tube of nail glue, and alcohol prep pads. 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2024.06.06 06:28 Revolutionary_Gap681 Red Dead Redemption (2) Series (for HBO Max)
Not gonna get into the major specifics, just the cast, and before anyone says anything, I'm gonna bring up one thing:
NO, NORMAN REEDUS IS NOT JOHN MARSTON!!!!
I'm really trying to go with age-appropriate actors for these roles (although I will make exceptions based on appearance) and for a lot of you who don't realize this, in RDR2, John is in his mid-20s. Norman Reedus is almost 50.
Anyway... to the cast!!
CAST
Travis Fimmel (Vikings & WarCraft) as ARTHUR MORGAN - The Main Protagonist & Dutch's Right-Hand Man
Jeffery Dean Morgan (Supernatural, The Walking Dead & Watchmen) as DUTCH VAN DER LINDE - The Silver-Tongued Leader of the Van der Linde Gang
Sam Corlett (Vikings: Valhalla & Chilling Adventures of Sabrina) as JOHN MARSTON - The Wayward Protege
Ben Foster (30 Days of Night, X-Men: The Last Stand & Hostage) as MICAH BELL - The Hot-Headed Psychopath
Ella Purnell (Fallout: The Series & Army of the Dead) as ABIGAIL ROBERTS - The Prostitute-Turned-Thief & John's Common-Law Wife
Trevante Rhodes (Moonlight & Bird Box) as CHARLES SMITH - The Quiet Hunter & Fighter
Florence Pugh (Black Widow, Midsommar, & Fighting With My Family) as SADIE ADLER - The Vengeful & Blood-Hungry Widow
Henry Winkler (Happy Days, The Waterboy & Scream) as HOSEA MATTHEWS - The Professional Con Man & Co-Leader of the Van der Linde Gang
Ethan Suplee (Remember the Titans, American History X & Mallrats) as BILL WILLIAMSON - The Dimwitted Ex-Soldier & Explosions Expert
Diego Boneta (Rock of Ages & Pretty Little Liars) as JAVIER ESCUELLA - The Loyal Musician & Gunslinger
Alex Murphy (The Young Offenders) as SEAN MACGUIRE - The Boastful Irishman
Caleb McLaughlin (Stranger Things) as LENNY SUMMERS - The Young & Book Smart Thief
Owen Teague (It & The Stand 2020) as KIERAN DUFFY - The Ex-O'Driscoll Gang Member & Horse Tamer
Sacha Baron Cohen (Borat, Talladega Nights & Hugo) as JOSIAH TRELAWNY - The Magician & Huckster, On-and-Off-Again Member of the Van der Linde Gang
Will Sasso (MadTV & The Three Stooges) as MR. SIMON PEARSON - The Former Navy Veteran & Camp Cook
Ian McDiarmid (The "Star Wars" Saga) as LEOPOLD STRAUSS - The Austrian Loan Shark
Ralph Ineson (The Witch, The Green Knight & Camelot) as REVEREND ORVILLE SWANSON - The Disgraced Man of the Cloth
Patricia Arquette (True Romance & Escape to Dannemora) as MISS SUSAN GRIMSHAW - The Gang Den Mother
Colby Minifie (The Boys & Fear the Walking Dead) as MOLLY O'SHEA - The Former Socialite & Dutch's Woman
Thomasin McKenzie (Last Night in SoHo & JoJo Rabbit) as MARY-BETH GASKILL - The Runaway & Hopeless Romantic
Dakota Blue Richards (The Golden Compass & Skins) as KAREN JONES - The Fun-Loving Thief & Alcoholic
Storm Reid (A Wrinkle in Time & Euphoria) as TILLY JACKSON - The Kind-Hearted Thief
Mark Addy (Game of Thrones, The Full Monty & The Flintstones in Viva Rock Vegas) as UNCLE - The Lazy Panderer & Degenerate
Jim Parsons (The Big Bang Theory, Young Sheldon & Hidden Figures) as AGENT ANDREW MILTON - The Determined & Morally Corrupt Pinkerton Agent
Martin Freeman ("The Hobbit" Trilogy & Black Panther) as AGENT EDGAR ROSS - Agent Milton's Uncaring Partner
Jake Roberts (Professional Wrestling Legend) as COLM O'DRISCOLL - Dutch's Sadistic Arch-Enemy & Leader of the O'Driscoll Gang
Daisy Ridley ("Star Wars" Sequel Trilogy) as MARY LINTON - Arthur's Ex-Fiance
Vicenzo Amato (Unbroken & Golden Door) as ANGELO BRONTE - The Crime Lord of Saint Denis
John Malkovich (Con Air & Being John Malkovich) as LEVITICUS CORNWALL - The Cutthroat Oil & Railroad Tycoon
Graham Greene (The Green Mile & Dances With Wolves) as RAINS FALL - The Pacifist Chief of the Wapiti Indian Tribe
Booboo Stewart (The Twilight Saga & American Satan) as EAGLE FLIES - The Chief's Brash Son
Carol Kane (The Princess Bride, The Addams Family Values & When a Stranger Calls) as CATHERINE BRAITHWAITE - The Wicked & Vile Matriarch of the Braithwaite Family
Wyatt Oleff (It & It: Chapter Two) as BEAU GRAY - The Gray Stable Boy & Penelope's Secret Lover
Teagan Croft (DC's Titans & The Osiris Child) as PENELOPE BRAITHWAITE - The Socialite & Beau's Secret Lover
Omar Sy (The Intouchables & X-Men: Days of Future Past) as HERCULE FONTAINE - The Leader of the Guarma Freedom Fighters
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NO, NORMAN REEDUS IS NOT JOHN MARSTON!!!!
I'm really trying to go with age-appropriate actors for these roles (although I will make exceptions based on appearance) and for a lot of you who don't realize this, in RDR2, John is in his mid-20s. Norman Reedus is almost 50.
Anyway... to the cast!!
CAST
Travis Fimmel (Vikings & WarCraft) as ARTHUR MORGAN - The Main Protagonist & Dutch's Right-Hand Man
Jeffery Dean Morgan (Supernatural, The Walking Dead & Watchmen) as DUTCH VAN DER LINDE - The Silver-Tongued Leader of the Van der Linde Gang
Sam Corlett (Vikings: Valhalla & Chilling Adventures of Sabrina) as JOHN MARSTON - The Wayward Protege
Ben Foster (30 Days of Night, X-Men: The Last Stand & Hostage) as MICAH BELL - The Hot-Headed Psychopath
Ella Purnell (Fallout: The Series & Army of the Dead) as ABIGAIL ROBERTS - The Prostitute-Turned-Thief & John's Common-Law Wife
Trevante Rhodes (Moonlight & Bird Box) as CHARLES SMITH - The Quiet Hunter & Fighter
Florence Pugh (Black Widow, Midsommar, & Fighting With My Family) as SADIE ADLER - The Vengeful & Blood-Hungry Widow
Henry Winkler (Happy Days, The Waterboy & Scream) as HOSEA MATTHEWS - The Professional Con Man & Co-Leader of the Van der Linde Gang
Ethan Suplee (Remember the Titans, American History X & Mallrats) as BILL WILLIAMSON - The Dimwitted Ex-Soldier & Explosions Expert
Diego Boneta (Rock of Ages & Pretty Little Liars) as JAVIER ESCUELLA - The Loyal Musician & Gunslinger
Alex Murphy (The Young Offenders) as SEAN MACGUIRE - The Boastful Irishman
Caleb McLaughlin (Stranger Things) as LENNY SUMMERS - The Young & Book Smart Thief
Owen Teague (It & The Stand 2020) as KIERAN DUFFY - The Ex-O'Driscoll Gang Member & Horse Tamer
Sacha Baron Cohen (Borat, Talladega Nights & Hugo) as JOSIAH TRELAWNY - The Magician & Huckster, On-and-Off-Again Member of the Van der Linde Gang
Will Sasso (MadTV & The Three Stooges) as MR. SIMON PEARSON - The Former Navy Veteran & Camp Cook
Ian McDiarmid (The "Star Wars" Saga) as LEOPOLD STRAUSS - The Austrian Loan Shark
Ralph Ineson (The Witch, The Green Knight & Camelot) as REVEREND ORVILLE SWANSON - The Disgraced Man of the Cloth
Patricia Arquette (True Romance & Escape to Dannemora) as MISS SUSAN GRIMSHAW - The Gang Den Mother
Colby Minifie (The Boys & Fear the Walking Dead) as MOLLY O'SHEA - The Former Socialite & Dutch's Woman
Thomasin McKenzie (Last Night in SoHo & JoJo Rabbit) as MARY-BETH GASKILL - The Runaway & Hopeless Romantic
Dakota Blue Richards (The Golden Compass & Skins) as KAREN JONES - The Fun-Loving Thief & Alcoholic
Storm Reid (A Wrinkle in Time & Euphoria) as TILLY JACKSON - The Kind-Hearted Thief
Mark Addy (Game of Thrones, The Full Monty & The Flintstones in Viva Rock Vegas) as UNCLE - The Lazy Panderer & Degenerate
Jim Parsons (The Big Bang Theory, Young Sheldon & Hidden Figures) as AGENT ANDREW MILTON - The Determined & Morally Corrupt Pinkerton Agent
Martin Freeman ("The Hobbit" Trilogy & Black Panther) as AGENT EDGAR ROSS - Agent Milton's Uncaring Partner
Jake Roberts (Professional Wrestling Legend) as COLM O'DRISCOLL - Dutch's Sadistic Arch-Enemy & Leader of the O'Driscoll Gang
Daisy Ridley ("Star Wars" Sequel Trilogy) as MARY LINTON - Arthur's Ex-Fiance
Vicenzo Amato (Unbroken & Golden Door) as ANGELO BRONTE - The Crime Lord of Saint Denis
John Malkovich (Con Air & Being John Malkovich) as LEVITICUS CORNWALL - The Cutthroat Oil & Railroad Tycoon
Graham Greene (The Green Mile & Dances With Wolves) as RAINS FALL - The Pacifist Chief of the Wapiti Indian Tribe
Booboo Stewart (The Twilight Saga & American Satan) as EAGLE FLIES - The Chief's Brash Son
Carol Kane (The Princess Bride, The Addams Family Values & When a Stranger Calls) as CATHERINE BRAITHWAITE - The Wicked & Vile Matriarch of the Braithwaite Family
Wyatt Oleff (It & It: Chapter Two) as BEAU GRAY - The Gray Stable Boy & Penelope's Secret Lover
Teagan Croft (DC's Titans & The Osiris Child) as PENELOPE BRAITHWAITE - The Socialite & Beau's Secret Lover
Omar Sy (The Intouchables & X-Men: Days of Future Past) as HERCULE FONTAINE - The Leader of the Guarma Freedom Fighters
2024.06.06 01:30 No_Category3046 I’m not going to tell my new roommate I found bed bugs
It’s fucking horrible, I know. I’m turning myself inside out trying to think of the right way to handle this situation. I’ve never thought of myself as particularly selfish, and I’m a terrible liar. Everything about this is antithetical to who I am as a person. So why am I considering doing such a despicable thing?
My new roommate, Megan (29F) and I (22F) met two months ago after finding each other on one of those roommate apps. The age gap is a little big, I’ll admit, but it hasn’t really presented an issue yet. Because I work with local housing programs at my job, I’m more knowledgeable than most twenty-somethings about housing policy and landlords. Megan, although 29, lived with family for the first half of her twenties and has lived in student housing or been couch surfing for the latter half. As a result, she has never lived on her own before and is at a loss when it comes to renting. In addition, personality-wise I’m a pessimistic and jaded 58-year-old in the body of a 22-year old, and Megan is a little naive by nature. So it kind of fits.
Megan and I have never lived together before and are little more than strangers, but we’ve also spent the last two months getting to know each other as well as we possibly can. Although Megan is staying with a friend and has no deadline for moving, my current lease is up at the end of June. Two months seemed like plenty of time to establish a solid roommate relationship. Lucky for us, we get along extremely well. Both our habits and lifestyles seem to compliment each other. Since we met, we’ve been apartment hunting. We were ready to sign a few different leases, but all of them fell through at one point or another for reasons outside our control. But last week, we finally signed the lease on a great apartment, thank God. Our official move-in date is June 22. Everything seems to be going great on that front.
Enter the bed bugs. I found a bed bug in the bedroom of my current apartment a little over three weeks ago. I had a white trash bag sitting on the floor, and I saw a little black bug, the size of a small appleseed, crawling on the plastic. I instantly recognized it and submitted a maintenance request to my property manager that same day, with a picture attached. That was Sunday, at the beginning of May. I put in the request and then forgot about it for a few days. I figured an exterminator would come by soon and the problem would be resolved quickly. I even wondered if maybe I’d been lucky, and it was just the one.
Ten days later, on a Wednesday, I decided to check for bugs. I hadn’t seen a thing since then, and I hoped that maybe I’d been wrong about it being a bed bug. I lifted up my mattress and found nothing. And then I looked over my box spring. Still nothing. I sighed in relief, and turned the box spring over so I could examine the underside. That’s when I found at least 20 live bed bugs, from so-small-I-can-barely-see to ridiculously-bulbous-and-large, skittering along the bottom edges. There were also at least a dozen pale white eggs, so small I’d have missed them, if it weren’t for the rest. I think I stopped breathing. Earlier that week, I’d lost some faith in the exterminator and bought a can of Raid foam spray. I immediately grabbed that can and began spraying everything I could. I took lots of pictures and collected the biggest bugs in a jar filled with rubbing alcohol. I’d started to wonder if I’d need evidence, if maybe the exterminator and my PM just weren’t worried enough. Well, they would be now.
As I sprayed and sprayed, and as the hours ticked by, I became angrier and angrier. I wondered why no one had come yet. Even then, angry as I was, I could understand why there was no urgency. It’s possible the exterminator and my PM didn’t believe my roommate and me, picture or no. You see, a few months back, my current roommate, Ash (20NB) knocked on my door late one night and told me they’d found a bed bug crawling on one of their stuffed animals. Perfectly calm, I asked to see it, but they said they didn’t have it. As soon as they saw the bug, they squished it immediately and flushed it down the toilet. While this might have made sense to them at the moment, I was furious. Although I’d never had bed bugs before, I knew that there were lots of bed bug look-alikes. It could have been practically anything. Without evidence, the only thing we could do was act as if it was a bed bug, and that meant we would need to panic. And panic we did. Ash and I stripped our beds bare and spent the next few hours running all of our bedclothes through the dryer. Then we checked every inch of our rooms for more evidence of bugs. Nothing. Nothing but nothing. They sent in an exterminator who sprayed down Ash’s mattress, and who then told us to spray the furniture down with rubbing alcohol and remain vigilant. And then, once no more bugs were found, we both moved on.
Cut to now. I don’t know if the bed bugs I found came in with me or Ash recently, or if they’re just the result of what Ash found all those months ago. I don’t know if they came from up or downstairs, or if they’ve been here since before we moved in a year ago, waiting and dormant. I live in a duplex, so there’s every possibility they came through vents or contact with my neighbors. For some reason, I feel like they’re new, and I think Ash was mistaken that first time. But at the end of the day, there’s no way of really knowing.
That Wednesday night, I was awake until 3am, combing through the mattress and box spring, spraying and grabbing bugs with tweezers. I grabbed what fabric I could and ran up and down the stairs, throwing everything into the dryer and cooking my belongings on the highest heat possible. It seemed like it would never end. I think I had entered some kind of frenzied mania and couldn’t rest. The old floors creaked something awful, and I knew my downstairs neighbors would be enraged by all the noise, but I couldn’t find it in me to care. Ash was gone that night, and I was alone. I texted Ash updates as I cleaned, and I called both my PM and the exterminator directly, leaving voicemails for both of them.
The exterminator must have heard the panic in my voice loud and clear that morning, because he showed up the very next day at 10am and sprayed my bed with insecticide while I was at work. Ash let him in. In the end, even with all the evidence I provided, even with the jar full of dead bugs sitting on my nightstand, he still didn’t believe me. He called me afterward and said he couldn’t find a single bug in my box spring. I couldn’t believe it, and part of me wondered if he’d half assed the spray job because of it.
That Wednesday marked the beginning of my troubled sleep. It’s when I started getting itchy red welts along my arms and shoulders, and when I spent most nights sitting up, scrolling through article after article about the best methods for eradicating bed bugs. They’re nocturnal, you know, and they hide during the day. The best time to look for them is in the early hours of the morning, around 2 or 3am. Every other day, I’d flip my bed and check the seams with tweezers and a flashlight. I’ve found 3-5 bugs on the mattress since then, but that’s about it.
This would be the kind of thing to break me. It’s been a very, very hard year. It started last summer when my car was totaled in an accident – not my fault, but the other guy had expired insurance and, well, you know. I was still in college at the time and had to pull out seven grand in additional student loans to afford a new car. This led to a chain reaction of debt, and I’ve been sinking deeper and deeper into a bottomless pit. I also moved out for the first time a year ago. Yep, that’s right – this is my first apartment. Yippee! I’ve been working a job that I hate but can’t leave for the past year as well. I’m thrilled to say that I was offered the job of my dreams and will be starting next month. But I will also be moving to the new apartment that same weekend. My best friend was supposed to help me move, but she backed out because of the bugs, and now it looks like I’ll be moving all on my own (and no, I can’t afford movers).
It’s strange how so many life events seem to occur around the same time. I’m under so much stress, it’s like the universe is trying to kill me. Discovering bed bugs right when things seem to finally be looking up is the worst kind of irony.
I spent a weekend wallowing in self pity. I gave myself that time to feel sorry for myself and complain to my close friends and family – the only ones I could trust with this kind of a secret. And then I picked myself back up and started drawing up a plan. I am well on my way to becoming a certified bed bug expert. I have a list of methods for resolving a bed bug infestation, and if I can put these methods into a defined process, then maybe I can beat this thing. Maybe, just maybe, I can get this situation resolved to the point where I can move to the new apartment, and the bugs won’t be traveling with me. I don’t want to bog this post down with specific cleaning details, but as a general overview, I’ve been undergoing a combination of routine vacuuming, scrubbing, steam cleaning, at-home heat treating, air tight sealing, DE dusting, and discarding. I’ve been changing out of sealed bags when I leave the house to avoid carrying bugs on me. I’m hoping to get 2-3 rounds of insecticide sprays from my landlord’s pest company before I move out completely (the next spray on schedule is June 5). I’ve discarded almost all of my furniture, and most of my belongings will be sealed away in storage for at least two years to ensure any remaining bugs are dead. I’ve vacuumed, steamed, dusted, and permanently encased my mattress and box spring. Essentially, I’m throwing everything I possibly can at the wall until something sticks.
So that brings us back to this terrible decision I have to make – do I tell Megan about the bed bugs? This might be the worst thing I could ever do. It’s immoral and unethical on every level, and so unbelievably selfish. I’m putting Megan at the risk of an infestation without her consent. And it’s not just any kind of pest infestation, but one of the worst. I’ve heard that most would prefer cockroaches over bed bugs, because at least cockroaches can be killed using poison. Bed bugs, unfortunately, have evolved to survive most pesticides. As such, they are almost impossible to eradicate. That’s why there’s no such thing as a silver bullet method – you have to take extreme action for every method you can think of.
I’m going round and round in my head, trying to weigh my options here.
Option 1 – Tell Megan right now about the bed bugs. Fun fact about Megan: she’s deathly terrified of bugs and insects in general, and the mere possibility of bed bugs would send her into a coma. She’d drop me as a roommate, plain and simple. Even if I’m on the lease, she’d find a way to ensure I never enter that apartment.
Option 2 – Find a new roommate. With a month before my lease is up, I’d be thrown into the desperate situation of finding a new roommate and an apartment on extremely short notice. While I could maybe pull that off, it’d probably go rotten eventually because we’d either not be compatible or, more likely, I’d have to tell them about the bed bugs regardless. Who in their right mind would rent with me knowing that? I wouldn’t.
Option 3 – What about Ash, my current roommate? Ash is moving in with their partner of four months and does not want me around. More to the point, Ash has some pretty intense conflict avoidance. Whenever things get hard, they tend to bolt. The day after we found out we had bed bugs, they packed what they could and have been living at their partner’s for over two weeks. While I was digging for ways to fix this and cleaning our apartment top to bottom, they were avoiding the apartment completely, hoping the problem would go away on its own. So that’s not really an option.
Option 4 – Could I try to sign another lease in my current apartment? There’s a few reasons why this couldn’t work. For one thing, this house is over a hundred years old, filled with an infinite amount of cracks and crevices in the floors, the walls, and the ceiling. If I stayed, the bed bugs wouldn’t be going anywhere. The only way to possibly eliminate them would be for everyone to move out and for an exterminator to spray every inch of this place and then some. Even then, it probably wouldn’t work because they’d have burrowed deep into the floorboards to wait out the insecticide, and they’d just resurface in a year or so. Likewise, I’ve burned some serious bridges with the PM company and my downstairs neighbors and I’m not on good terms with either, for reasons I won’t go into here.
Option 5 – Couch surf with someone. Throw my belongings into storage and find another place to stay short-term or long-term. Same result as Option 2 – if I came to you, asking for shelter, and you knew I had bed bugs, would you let me stay in your house? Even though I take all my precautions, there is still a very slight possibility I could carry a single bug into your house. Would you take that risk? Even if someone consented, I couldn’t bear it if I accidentally carried bed bugs into the home of a friend or family member. Even if it technically wouldn’t be my fault, I wouldn’t forgive myself for making that decision. Also, my small collection of friends and family have told me point blank that I’m not allowed into their homes, even just to visit. So that’s out.
Option 6 – Find a place to live on my own without implicating a new roommate. You might remember me mentioning my bottomless pit of at least three kinds of debt. Add to that my feeble salary and the shithole of an economy we’ve got on our hands, and you know why I’ve accepted that I’ll be living with roommates for at least another ten years. I just can’t afford it, otherwise that’s where my mind would have been, too.
Option 7 – Don’t tell Megan. Go about my precautions and cleaning process, continue to have the exterminator spray the place down, and continue to be hypervigilant for the months and years to come. If I’m lucky, and if I do everything right, we might never need to have the conversation. This last one is what I’m leaning into the most, and I know that makes me a coward.
I’m not thinking clearly, and I know that. I have two jobs, one full-time and one part-time, and I’m using energy drinks every day just to stay awake, something I don’t like doing. I had so many plans and vacations scheduled for this summer, and every single one has gone straight out the window. In the past year, I had collected a number of furniture items (a couch, a desk, a dresser, and a new mattress and box spring, to name a few) that are all on the curb, or soon will be. I’m starting over from scratch, and have flushed hundreds (soon to be thousands) of dollars down the drain. Suffice to say, my mental health has deteriorated. I’m exhausted and scared, and I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m constantly on the verge of a mental breakdown and I’m tearing at the seams. The worst part is that I can’t really talk to anyone about it, because the fear of bed bugs can do more harm than the bugs themselves.
I’ve been doing everything I possibly can to fix this, all on my own. My friends don’t want to be anywhere near me, and my mother and sister are empathetic to my problem, but have no way to help. No one will step foot in my house, not even my current roommate who still lives here. While there’s a possibility I can resolve this before moving, there’s a small part of me that knows, several months from now, I will find more bedbugs. I will have brought Megan into this mess without telling her, and that will be what kills me.
I’m sorry. I’m trying very hard to think rationally, but I’m just so tired. I’ve never felt so hopeless and depressed. I’ve been talking to my therapist about it, but she hasn’t really been helping. So I guess now I’m turning to prostrating myself in front of a jury composed of Internet strangers.
So what’s the verdict? What would you do?
I'm posting this to multiple threads, hoping to pick up some traction. I'm in desperate need of advice and opinions.
Edit: I am leaving the apartment I live in (where I found the bed bugs) and will be moving into a new apartment altogether with Megan. I'm trying to get rid of them so I don't carry any with me to the new place. Sorry for any confusion.
Edit2: I'm sorry this is such a long post. It started out as a personal brain dump that I copy and pasted into a Reddit post with very few edits. There's a lot of extra bits I probably didn't need!
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My new roommate, Megan (29F) and I (22F) met two months ago after finding each other on one of those roommate apps. The age gap is a little big, I’ll admit, but it hasn’t really presented an issue yet. Because I work with local housing programs at my job, I’m more knowledgeable than most twenty-somethings about housing policy and landlords. Megan, although 29, lived with family for the first half of her twenties and has lived in student housing or been couch surfing for the latter half. As a result, she has never lived on her own before and is at a loss when it comes to renting. In addition, personality-wise I’m a pessimistic and jaded 58-year-old in the body of a 22-year old, and Megan is a little naive by nature. So it kind of fits.
Megan and I have never lived together before and are little more than strangers, but we’ve also spent the last two months getting to know each other as well as we possibly can. Although Megan is staying with a friend and has no deadline for moving, my current lease is up at the end of June. Two months seemed like plenty of time to establish a solid roommate relationship. Lucky for us, we get along extremely well. Both our habits and lifestyles seem to compliment each other. Since we met, we’ve been apartment hunting. We were ready to sign a few different leases, but all of them fell through at one point or another for reasons outside our control. But last week, we finally signed the lease on a great apartment, thank God. Our official move-in date is June 22. Everything seems to be going great on that front.
Enter the bed bugs. I found a bed bug in the bedroom of my current apartment a little over three weeks ago. I had a white trash bag sitting on the floor, and I saw a little black bug, the size of a small appleseed, crawling on the plastic. I instantly recognized it and submitted a maintenance request to my property manager that same day, with a picture attached. That was Sunday, at the beginning of May. I put in the request and then forgot about it for a few days. I figured an exterminator would come by soon and the problem would be resolved quickly. I even wondered if maybe I’d been lucky, and it was just the one.
Ten days later, on a Wednesday, I decided to check for bugs. I hadn’t seen a thing since then, and I hoped that maybe I’d been wrong about it being a bed bug. I lifted up my mattress and found nothing. And then I looked over my box spring. Still nothing. I sighed in relief, and turned the box spring over so I could examine the underside. That’s when I found at least 20 live bed bugs, from so-small-I-can-barely-see to ridiculously-bulbous-and-large, skittering along the bottom edges. There were also at least a dozen pale white eggs, so small I’d have missed them, if it weren’t for the rest. I think I stopped breathing. Earlier that week, I’d lost some faith in the exterminator and bought a can of Raid foam spray. I immediately grabbed that can and began spraying everything I could. I took lots of pictures and collected the biggest bugs in a jar filled with rubbing alcohol. I’d started to wonder if I’d need evidence, if maybe the exterminator and my PM just weren’t worried enough. Well, they would be now.
As I sprayed and sprayed, and as the hours ticked by, I became angrier and angrier. I wondered why no one had come yet. Even then, angry as I was, I could understand why there was no urgency. It’s possible the exterminator and my PM didn’t believe my roommate and me, picture or no. You see, a few months back, my current roommate, Ash (20NB) knocked on my door late one night and told me they’d found a bed bug crawling on one of their stuffed animals. Perfectly calm, I asked to see it, but they said they didn’t have it. As soon as they saw the bug, they squished it immediately and flushed it down the toilet. While this might have made sense to them at the moment, I was furious. Although I’d never had bed bugs before, I knew that there were lots of bed bug look-alikes. It could have been practically anything. Without evidence, the only thing we could do was act as if it was a bed bug, and that meant we would need to panic. And panic we did. Ash and I stripped our beds bare and spent the next few hours running all of our bedclothes through the dryer. Then we checked every inch of our rooms for more evidence of bugs. Nothing. Nothing but nothing. They sent in an exterminator who sprayed down Ash’s mattress, and who then told us to spray the furniture down with rubbing alcohol and remain vigilant. And then, once no more bugs were found, we both moved on.
Cut to now. I don’t know if the bed bugs I found came in with me or Ash recently, or if they’re just the result of what Ash found all those months ago. I don’t know if they came from up or downstairs, or if they’ve been here since before we moved in a year ago, waiting and dormant. I live in a duplex, so there’s every possibility they came through vents or contact with my neighbors. For some reason, I feel like they’re new, and I think Ash was mistaken that first time. But at the end of the day, there’s no way of really knowing.
That Wednesday night, I was awake until 3am, combing through the mattress and box spring, spraying and grabbing bugs with tweezers. I grabbed what fabric I could and ran up and down the stairs, throwing everything into the dryer and cooking my belongings on the highest heat possible. It seemed like it would never end. I think I had entered some kind of frenzied mania and couldn’t rest. The old floors creaked something awful, and I knew my downstairs neighbors would be enraged by all the noise, but I couldn’t find it in me to care. Ash was gone that night, and I was alone. I texted Ash updates as I cleaned, and I called both my PM and the exterminator directly, leaving voicemails for both of them.
The exterminator must have heard the panic in my voice loud and clear that morning, because he showed up the very next day at 10am and sprayed my bed with insecticide while I was at work. Ash let him in. In the end, even with all the evidence I provided, even with the jar full of dead bugs sitting on my nightstand, he still didn’t believe me. He called me afterward and said he couldn’t find a single bug in my box spring. I couldn’t believe it, and part of me wondered if he’d half assed the spray job because of it.
That Wednesday marked the beginning of my troubled sleep. It’s when I started getting itchy red welts along my arms and shoulders, and when I spent most nights sitting up, scrolling through article after article about the best methods for eradicating bed bugs. They’re nocturnal, you know, and they hide during the day. The best time to look for them is in the early hours of the morning, around 2 or 3am. Every other day, I’d flip my bed and check the seams with tweezers and a flashlight. I’ve found 3-5 bugs on the mattress since then, but that’s about it.
This would be the kind of thing to break me. It’s been a very, very hard year. It started last summer when my car was totaled in an accident – not my fault, but the other guy had expired insurance and, well, you know. I was still in college at the time and had to pull out seven grand in additional student loans to afford a new car. This led to a chain reaction of debt, and I’ve been sinking deeper and deeper into a bottomless pit. I also moved out for the first time a year ago. Yep, that’s right – this is my first apartment. Yippee! I’ve been working a job that I hate but can’t leave for the past year as well. I’m thrilled to say that I was offered the job of my dreams and will be starting next month. But I will also be moving to the new apartment that same weekend. My best friend was supposed to help me move, but she backed out because of the bugs, and now it looks like I’ll be moving all on my own (and no, I can’t afford movers).
It’s strange how so many life events seem to occur around the same time. I’m under so much stress, it’s like the universe is trying to kill me. Discovering bed bugs right when things seem to finally be looking up is the worst kind of irony.
I spent a weekend wallowing in self pity. I gave myself that time to feel sorry for myself and complain to my close friends and family – the only ones I could trust with this kind of a secret. And then I picked myself back up and started drawing up a plan. I am well on my way to becoming a certified bed bug expert. I have a list of methods for resolving a bed bug infestation, and if I can put these methods into a defined process, then maybe I can beat this thing. Maybe, just maybe, I can get this situation resolved to the point where I can move to the new apartment, and the bugs won’t be traveling with me. I don’t want to bog this post down with specific cleaning details, but as a general overview, I’ve been undergoing a combination of routine vacuuming, scrubbing, steam cleaning, at-home heat treating, air tight sealing, DE dusting, and discarding. I’ve been changing out of sealed bags when I leave the house to avoid carrying bugs on me. I’m hoping to get 2-3 rounds of insecticide sprays from my landlord’s pest company before I move out completely (the next spray on schedule is June 5). I’ve discarded almost all of my furniture, and most of my belongings will be sealed away in storage for at least two years to ensure any remaining bugs are dead. I’ve vacuumed, steamed, dusted, and permanently encased my mattress and box spring. Essentially, I’m throwing everything I possibly can at the wall until something sticks.
So that brings us back to this terrible decision I have to make – do I tell Megan about the bed bugs? This might be the worst thing I could ever do. It’s immoral and unethical on every level, and so unbelievably selfish. I’m putting Megan at the risk of an infestation without her consent. And it’s not just any kind of pest infestation, but one of the worst. I’ve heard that most would prefer cockroaches over bed bugs, because at least cockroaches can be killed using poison. Bed bugs, unfortunately, have evolved to survive most pesticides. As such, they are almost impossible to eradicate. That’s why there’s no such thing as a silver bullet method – you have to take extreme action for every method you can think of.
I’m going round and round in my head, trying to weigh my options here.
Option 1 – Tell Megan right now about the bed bugs. Fun fact about Megan: she’s deathly terrified of bugs and insects in general, and the mere possibility of bed bugs would send her into a coma. She’d drop me as a roommate, plain and simple. Even if I’m on the lease, she’d find a way to ensure I never enter that apartment.
Option 2 – Find a new roommate. With a month before my lease is up, I’d be thrown into the desperate situation of finding a new roommate and an apartment on extremely short notice. While I could maybe pull that off, it’d probably go rotten eventually because we’d either not be compatible or, more likely, I’d have to tell them about the bed bugs regardless. Who in their right mind would rent with me knowing that? I wouldn’t.
Option 3 – What about Ash, my current roommate? Ash is moving in with their partner of four months and does not want me around. More to the point, Ash has some pretty intense conflict avoidance. Whenever things get hard, they tend to bolt. The day after we found out we had bed bugs, they packed what they could and have been living at their partner’s for over two weeks. While I was digging for ways to fix this and cleaning our apartment top to bottom, they were avoiding the apartment completely, hoping the problem would go away on its own. So that’s not really an option.
Option 4 – Could I try to sign another lease in my current apartment? There’s a few reasons why this couldn’t work. For one thing, this house is over a hundred years old, filled with an infinite amount of cracks and crevices in the floors, the walls, and the ceiling. If I stayed, the bed bugs wouldn’t be going anywhere. The only way to possibly eliminate them would be for everyone to move out and for an exterminator to spray every inch of this place and then some. Even then, it probably wouldn’t work because they’d have burrowed deep into the floorboards to wait out the insecticide, and they’d just resurface in a year or so. Likewise, I’ve burned some serious bridges with the PM company and my downstairs neighbors and I’m not on good terms with either, for reasons I won’t go into here.
Option 5 – Couch surf with someone. Throw my belongings into storage and find another place to stay short-term or long-term. Same result as Option 2 – if I came to you, asking for shelter, and you knew I had bed bugs, would you let me stay in your house? Even though I take all my precautions, there is still a very slight possibility I could carry a single bug into your house. Would you take that risk? Even if someone consented, I couldn’t bear it if I accidentally carried bed bugs into the home of a friend or family member. Even if it technically wouldn’t be my fault, I wouldn’t forgive myself for making that decision. Also, my small collection of friends and family have told me point blank that I’m not allowed into their homes, even just to visit. So that’s out.
Option 6 – Find a place to live on my own without implicating a new roommate. You might remember me mentioning my bottomless pit of at least three kinds of debt. Add to that my feeble salary and the shithole of an economy we’ve got on our hands, and you know why I’ve accepted that I’ll be living with roommates for at least another ten years. I just can’t afford it, otherwise that’s where my mind would have been, too.
Option 7 – Don’t tell Megan. Go about my precautions and cleaning process, continue to have the exterminator spray the place down, and continue to be hypervigilant for the months and years to come. If I’m lucky, and if I do everything right, we might never need to have the conversation. This last one is what I’m leaning into the most, and I know that makes me a coward.
I’m not thinking clearly, and I know that. I have two jobs, one full-time and one part-time, and I’m using energy drinks every day just to stay awake, something I don’t like doing. I had so many plans and vacations scheduled for this summer, and every single one has gone straight out the window. In the past year, I had collected a number of furniture items (a couch, a desk, a dresser, and a new mattress and box spring, to name a few) that are all on the curb, or soon will be. I’m starting over from scratch, and have flushed hundreds (soon to be thousands) of dollars down the drain. Suffice to say, my mental health has deteriorated. I’m exhausted and scared, and I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m constantly on the verge of a mental breakdown and I’m tearing at the seams. The worst part is that I can’t really talk to anyone about it, because the fear of bed bugs can do more harm than the bugs themselves.
I’ve been doing everything I possibly can to fix this, all on my own. My friends don’t want to be anywhere near me, and my mother and sister are empathetic to my problem, but have no way to help. No one will step foot in my house, not even my current roommate who still lives here. While there’s a possibility I can resolve this before moving, there’s a small part of me that knows, several months from now, I will find more bedbugs. I will have brought Megan into this mess without telling her, and that will be what kills me.
I’m sorry. I’m trying very hard to think rationally, but I’m just so tired. I’ve never felt so hopeless and depressed. I’ve been talking to my therapist about it, but she hasn’t really been helping. So I guess now I’m turning to prostrating myself in front of a jury composed of Internet strangers.
So what’s the verdict? What would you do?
I'm posting this to multiple threads, hoping to pick up some traction. I'm in desperate need of advice and opinions.
Edit: I am leaving the apartment I live in (where I found the bed bugs) and will be moving into a new apartment altogether with Megan. I'm trying to get rid of them so I don't carry any with me to the new place. Sorry for any confusion.
Edit2: I'm sorry this is such a long post. It started out as a personal brain dump that I copy and pasted into a Reddit post with very few edits. There's a lot of extra bits I probably didn't need!