Title is pretty self explanatory, so here we go!
Cave
I didn’t really get hooked on Showbiz tracks until somewhat recently, so when I re-listened, I was surprised at how incredible this song was! Absolutely love the driving verse, melodic chorus with the stunning high notes, and the piano interlude. It would be so cool if they bring it back live even if it’s in an alternate key, since it sounded excellent a half step down in 2009/2010!
Futurism
Damn does this song get me hyped up for literally anything. The eargasmic bassline and powerful high notes make this B-side truly remarkable, despite that being an appropriate description for about half of Muse’s songs. I can’t believe it didn’t make the cut on OOS because it elevates that masterpiece even more in my opinion.
Sing for Absolution
I wasn’t huge on Absolution for quite some time since the dystopian and dark vibe didn’t really grab me. A recent re-listen got me really digging this song though. The haunting feel that the piano provides and the desperation in Matt’s vocals make this one of their most noteworthy slower songs in my eyes. The ending is definitely a contender for some of Matt’s most sustained A4 phrases as well! He never seemed to fully go for it live which totally makes sense but is kind of a bummer at the same time.
Take a Bow
I’ve never heard a song use modulations like this one does, but it works so damn well! The gradual buildup keeps me on the edge of my seat and the synth arpeggios followed by that huge beat drop never fails to give me goosebumps. Side note: if you haven’t listened to Ian Cologne’s orchestral interpretation of this track then I highly recommend checking it out on YouTube!
Animals
Most of The 2nd Law has grown on me at this point, but I wanted to give a special shoutout to this track for being one of the most sublime in their entire discography. I love how calming the instrumentation is until the heavy bridge kicks in. Even if the lyrics evoke anger, I think it’s such a soothing song overall. I hope they experiment with odd time signatures more often in future songs too!
Defector
This Drones song doesn’t seem to get much love. I get that it follows the titans that are Reapers and The Handler, but I think it totally continues the momentum! The chorus is pretty fun and the instrumental section with the backing synths is beautiful. I’ve lately found that listening to this album from start to finish is one of my favourite journeys in their repertoire due to there being nothing that interrupts the concept and theme.
The Void
The lyrics are so damn repetitive and uninspired, but the instrumentation is gorgeous so it more than makes up for it. I think it concludes the ST theme so well with the futuristic/retro feel that about half the songs provide, and I especially admire how the melody comes full circle when the closing piano part mirrors the synth in the beginning. Those bass thuds at the end can blow up a subwoofer for sure.
Thanks for reading if you made it this far, and let me know what Muse songs have grown on you!

Source: https://www.mtgo.com/decklist/modern-challenge-64-2024-05-1412637370
Source: https://www.mtgo.com/decklist/modern-challenge-64-2024-05-1412637371

Winners

@afxmtg on 4c Living End
@McWinSauce on 4c Omnath [Kaheera]

Decklists

72	Tuesday Modern Challenge 1 (May 14 2024)
1.	4c Living End	(8-2) AFX	@afxmtg
2.	RW Burn	(7-3) absoluteragez
3.	BR Grief	(7-2) _Shatun_
4.	BR Grief	(6-3) KatieKat
5.	BG Yawgmoth	(7-1) lunaloveee
6.	BR Grief	(6-2) Capitano_CL
7.	UW Control [Kaheera]	(6-2) AnziD	@anzidmtg	[Twitch]
8.	Domain Zoo [Jegantha]	(6-2) Doomenstein
9.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(5-2) nahuel10	@Nahuel10Mtg
10.	BR Grief	(5-2) SpicyLeche	@SpicyLeche_94
11.	UR Murktide	(5-2) SoulStrong	@Mtg_SoulStrong	[Twitch]
12.	61-cards Amulet Titan	(5-2) mcwright_	@mcwright_
13.	BR Grief	(5-2) duduzin
14.	BR Grief	(5-2) _Batutinha_	@_Batutinha_	[Twitch]
15.	Temur Breach [Jegantha]	(5-2) kobayui
16.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(4-3) selesneal	@selesneal
17.	4c Living End	(4-3) Nowayh
18.	UR Murktide	(4-3) Shadowz2005	@Shadowz2005	[Twitch]
19.	BR Grief	(4-3) klien7
20.	UR Murktide	(4-3) bless_von
21.	Amulet Titan	(4-3) Oppa
22.	Mono G Tron	(4-3) AlpInco	@Alp_MTG	[Twitch]	[YouTube]
23.	Domain Zoo [Jegantha]	(4-3) _and_one_
24.	Mono R Burn	(4-3) deleon91
25.	BG Yawgmoth	(4-3) cigarettesaftershrek	@wheredmyjuulgo	[Twitch]
26.	4c Living End	(4-3) MeninoNey	@MeninooNey
27.	BR Grief	(4-3) yeojlil
28.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(4-3) CMack_	@CanMack1
29.	Mono G Tron	(4-3) ice_nine_BIGFAN
30.	BG Yawgmoth	(4-3) Graciasportanto	@MauroSasso2
31.	Amulet Titan	(4-3) HouseOfManaMTG	@HouseOfManaMTG	[Twitch]	[YouTube]
32.	BG Coffers [Umori]	(3-4) Walri
33.	5c Omnath Control [Keruga]	(3-4) GimmexGimme
34.	BR Grief	(3-4) pinkranger	@dahllia_mtg
35.	Amulet Titan	(3-4) Buwen
36.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(3-3) 416FrowningTable	@FrowningTable
37.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(3-4) rastaf	@MtgRastaf	[Twitch]
38.	61-cards Amulet Titan	(3-4) _EzMud1
39.	Domain Zoo [Jegantha]	(3-4) Manny-	@MannyStach
40.	Domain Zoo [Jegantha]	(3-4) LucasG1ggs	@GiggsMtg
41.	BR Grief	(3-3) Schiaveto	@Schiaveto_
42.	Mono B Coffers	(3-4) Arianne
43.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(2-3) Tinker_deck
44.	UR Murktide	(2-4) O_danielakos
45.	RW Convoke [Jegantha]	(2-3) Paul-Blart-Mall-Cop
46.	BG Yawgmoth	(2-4) RapperJ
47.	RG Crimes [Jegantha]	(2-3) medvedev	@m3dvedev
48.	Amulet Titan	(2-3) NathanOfTheGiltLeaf	@ParadoxEng1neer
49.	RG Prowess [Jegantha]	(2-4) CrazyMorango
50.	BR Grief	(2-3) Azja	@AzjaMTG
51.	61-cards Amulet Titan	(2-5) Martin_Dominguez	@RuloMTG
52.	BG Yawgmoth	(2-4) Xwhale	@Will__Krueger	[Twitch]
53.	BR Grief	(2-5) Marcuzinho
54.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(1-2) jben
55.	Esper Control [Kaheera]	(1-4) Viatt
56.	RG Prowess [Jegantha]	(1-4) AmazingtheMonkey
57.	Mono B Coffers	(1-2) __Noob__
58.	BG Yawgmoth	(1-2) Misplacedginger	@misplacedginger	[Twitch]
59.	Jeskai Urza	(1-3) gyyby297	@gyyby_mtg297
60.	Domain Midrange	(1-5) _Falcon_
61.	BR Grief	(1-4) Messi_10
62.	4c Control	(1-2) Hypsh
63.	BR Skelementals	(1-5) ShadowTitan1
64.	5c Humans	(0-2) zeman39
65.	BG Yawgmoth	(0-2) pepeteam
66.	UR Murktide	(0-2) TadaMoon
67.	RG Crimes [Jegantha]	(0-3) Dreddybajs	@PocketJacesCast	[Twitch]	[YouTube]
68.	RW Convoke [Jegantha]	(0-2) sheastrausman
69.	BR Grief	(0-2) hermanomlg
70.	BR Grief	(0-3) Porks
71.	Jund Creativity	(0-2) Limetrout
72.	UR Murktide	(0-4) Toki_85
	GW Emeria Control	littledarwin
	BG Yawgmoth	boytriton	@SergioGarciaJ12

55	Tuesday Modern Challenge 2 (May 14 2024)
1.	4c Omnath [Kaheera]	(8-1) McWinSauce	@McWinSauce
2.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(7-2) rastaf	@MtgRastaf	[Twitch]
3.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(7-1) Alan07	@AlanLB07
4.	Jund Saga [Jegantha]	(6-2) MestariMatti
5.	Domain Zoo [Jegantha]	(4-2) VictorVanDort
6.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(5-2) AlejandroAArenas
7.	BR Grief	(4-3) r0cknati0n
8.	BG Yawgmoth	(4-3) iloveyou
9.	RG Prowess [Jegantha]	(4-2) Ale_Mtg	@Ale_mora_02
10.	Mono G Tron	(4-2) OfFrost9
11.	Jund Creativity	(4-2) bolov0	@bolov0
12.	RW Burn	(4-2) FranMtg
13.	BG Yawgmoth	(4-2) ARCll
14.	UR Murktide	(4-2) SoulStrong	@Mtg_SoulStrong	[Twitch]
15.	Jeskai Prowess [Jegantha]	(4-2) Zorro7x4
16.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(4-2) mtgobazaar8
17.	Amulet Titan	(4-2) ice_nine_BIGFAN
18.	Amulet Titan	(4-2) HouseOfManaMTG	@HouseOfManaMTG	[Twitch]	[YouTube]
19.	UR Murktide	(3-3) O_danielakos
20.	BR Grief	(3-3) Schiaveto	@Schiaveto_
21.	Mono R Burn	(3-3) deleon91
22.	4c Living End	(3-3) MeninoNey	@MeninooNey
23.	Domain Zoo	(3-3) LucasG1ggs	@GiggsMtg
24.	UR Murktide	(3-3) bless_von
25.	Jeskai Prowess [Jegantha]	(3-3) Oppa
26.	4c Living End	(3-3) _J0SE_
27.	BR Grief	(3-3) Capitano_CL
28.	Jund Creativity	(3-3) musasabi	@flyingsquitou	[Twitch]
29.	BR Grief	(3-3) Marcuzinho
30.	Domain Zoo [Jegantha]	(3-3) Manny-	@MannyStach
31.	BR Grief	(2-4) SpicyLeche	@SpicyLeche_94
32.	BR Grief	(2-4) _Batutinha_	@_Batutinha_	[Twitch]
33.	BG Yawgmoth	(2-4) RelativeWind
34.	Amulet Titan	(2-3) NathanOfTheGiltLeaf	@ParadoxEng1neer
35.	Amulet Titan	(2-4) Buwen
36.	BR Grief	(2-4) _Shatun_
37.	BG Yawgmoth	(2-1) Misplacedginger	@misplacedginger	[Twitch]
38.	BG Yawgmoth	(2-3) TheTunnelingCat	@TheTunnelingCat
39.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(1-4) luvadepedreiro
40.	BG Yawgmoth	(2-4) Xwhale	@Will__Krueger	[Twitch]
41.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(1-2) jben
42.	UR Murktide	(1-3) Shadowz2005	@Shadowz2005	[Twitch]
43.	Jeskai Urza	(1-3) gyyby297	@gyyby_mtg297
44.	Domain Zoo	(1-2) raiden6
45.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(1-4) 416FrowningTable	@FrowningTable
46.	UW Mill	(0-4) vini_torres
47.	BR Skelementals	(1-4) ShadowTitan1
48.	BG Yawgmoth	(0-1) claudioh	@claudiohmtg	[Twitch]
49.	4c Omnath	(0-2) YSZzz
50.	RG Crimes [Jegantha]	(0-3) Dreddybajs	@PocketJacesCast	[Twitch]	[YouTube]
51.	BG Grief	(0-1) albertoSD	@Albertosd87Diaz
52.	BG Yawgmoth	(0-1) Golgarburr
53.	Temur Prowess [Jegantha]	(0-4) nahuel10	@Nahuel10Mtg
54.	RW Burn	(0-3) absoluteragez
55.	BG Yawgmoth	(0-2) boytriton	@SergioGarciaJ12
	GW Emeria Control	littledarwin

Full Metagame Breakdown

15 BR Grief 9 Rx Prowess (7 Temur, 2 RG) 7 BG Yawgmoth 7 Amulet Titan 6 UR Murktide 4 Domain Zoo 3 4c Living End 3 Coffers (2 Mono B, 1 BG) 2 Rx Burn (1 RW, 1 Mono R) 2 UWx Control (1 UW, 1 Esper) 2 Mono G Tron 2 RW Convoke 2 RG Crimes 1 Temur Breach 1 5c Omnath Control 1 Jeskai Urza 1 Domain Midrange 1 4c Control 1 BR Skelementals 1 5c Humans 1 Jund Creativity

11 Rx Prowess (8 Temur, 2 Jeskai, 1 RG) 9 BG Yawgmoth 8 Bx Grief (7 BR, 1 BG) 4 Domain Zoo 4 UR Murktide 4 Amulet Titan 3 Rx Burn (2 RW, 1 Mono R) 2 4c Omnath 2 Jund Creativity 2 4c Living End 1 Jund Saga 1 Mono G Tron 1 Jeskai Urza 1 UW Mill 1 BR Skelementals 1 RG Crimes

X-2 or better Archetype Breakdown

6 BR Grief 1 Rx Prowess (1 Temur) 1 BG Yawgmoth 1 Amulet Titan 1 UR Murktide 1 Domain Zoo 1 4c Living End 1 Rx Burn (1 RW) 1 UWx Control (1 UW) 1 Temur Breach

6 Rx Prowess (4 Temur, 1 RG, 1 Jeskai) 2 BG Yawgmoth 2 Amulet Titan 1 Bx Grief (1 BR) 1 Domain Zoo 1 UR Murktide 1 Rx Burn (1 RW) 1 4c Omnath 1 Jund Creativity 1 Jund Saga 1 Mono G Tron

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So I (32F) and my brother (45 M) had a tiff the other day. Some background to explain:
About a year ago, my husband and I got evicted from our home. We were paying rent like we were meant to, but the landlord got angry at us when I called her out on making us overpay for utilities (we were paying her's as well as ours, and when I found out, I was livid.) Shortly after, we were all made to leave the home as I had no solid proof to back us up. I had 3 kids + 1 stepchild at the time. The step child lived with her mom, so no change for her, but we were struggling to find a new place to rent. We are in fact still struggling, and all we've been able to afford in that time is a one bedroom apartment. My oldest two children are teenagers, and I had had a baby with my husband just a few months prior to the eviction notice.
Now, because of the limited space, and laws in my state, my eldest two children were required to stay elsewhere. Namely, with my brother. He offered, and I thanked him profusely for his generosity and have done everything I can to continue making my appreciation known. I am working and so is my husband. But even with both of us working, we are still having a hard time finding something bigger that is sustainable. I have seen how this sudden separation has affected my elder children, and I don't want to ever put them through this again. So I have been looking with the intention that it has to be in our budget long term, and affordable even if one of us lost their jobs. I refuse to put my kids through this hell again.
One of the places I have been consistently bugging about an available rental has finally gotten back to me with a big enough place, and below what our "safety" budget is. I am only waiting on them to finish their inspection/refurbish of the place, and then we can move in. We have put back tax money to make sure this move is doable as soon as they are done.
I am again pregnant (not on purpose, I was supposed to have had my tubes tied but I guess it didn't take properly according to my obgyn.) I was more than a little upset to find out, but I am not someone who would abort a child just because they weren't on purpose. My husband and I have decided to make this work as best we can, and we will still be moving to the same place as soon as we can, with minor adjustments to include the new little one. I was also briefly unemployed (a grand total of 2 weeks) and have just started a new job in the last few days which I think will be better for us in the long run anyway.
All this to say, my brother texted me about my son a few days ago. I have been picking him up from school and taking him to my brother's house afterwards every day. This is because my brother lives outside of the school district for my son's high school, and while my brothers children can take him, they often have after school things and my son wants to go "home" and do his homework straight after. Not a big deal. Sometimes my son calls me and tells me that he is getting a ride home with a friend, or his gf, and that's fine too. He's about to be a senior, so I don't mind the commute simply because he shouldn't be made to switch schools just because we failed to provide properly. Our car (we currently only have 1, and are looking to trade it for a van because we're going to need one), broke down randomly. It's 20ish years old, so this isn't entirely unexpected, just super inconvenient while we wait for the parts to come in to fix it. I told my son that if he needed me to come get him, that was fine, but that while we waited for the parts to come in, if he had someone else who could take him to my brother's house for the time being, that would be helpful for now.
At no point did I say I wouldn't come get him, or that he had to ask for a ride daily, or anything of the sort. I made sure he was aware I was still willing to come get him whenever, but that it would help keep the car from breaking down faster if he had a different way ( which he usually does anyway.)
This apparently trigger big brother. And he sent me a couple of messages asking why I was making my child "beg for a ride home" when I could have just let him know if our car was messed up so he could make other arrangements for my son to get there. I explained as succinctly as I could what I had told my son, and that he usually has a ride home that isn't me anyway, so I didn't think it would be a big issue. Nor did I tell him he absolutely had to go with someone else, but that if he had a different way that it would be helpful for the time being. My brother told me I should have discussed it with him instead, and not with my son. He said I was making him feel unloved and excluded, especially considering my pregnancy and the fact that I had another smaller child who I was "replacing" my elder two children with. (that's not a thing, and I have spoken to both of my children several times, and keep them in the loop on all the things happening while we wait for the house.)
There have been several instances where my brother and I have butted heads as far as the kids go, because he tells them to ask me if they can do x, y, or z, and when I answer as I normally would as their mom, and it doesn't align with that he thinks is correct, he then sends me passive aggressive messages and says that I need to consult him first. At first I thought this was a communication break-down between myself and kids, and they were leaving part of it out (the part where bro wanted me to consult him specifically,) but after checking their messages, that's not it at all. He literally tells them to ask me, and when I don't reply as he thinks I should, I get the messages that I mentioned before.
Now on the call he made, he went on for about 30 minutes, screaming at me and telling me I wasn't a good mother, and that I hadn't done anything for my children since they went to stay with him. I told him if he wanted money, I would send money, but that I wasn't trying to exclude my kids from anything, and I was still trying to find a place that was sustainable, and where I was waiting on the house. He knew these things already. He said he didn't want my money, just for me to make more of an effort to spend time with my kids. My eldest daughter also usually rides home with me from a different school. I have offered multiple times for both kids to come over to the apartment, or to come on day trips with us to places. They keep saying they have plans. Even when I specifically ask them to not make plans so I can see them, it ends up happening anyway. I don't dispute this because I don't feel I'm currently in a position to do so, and because teenagers are well.. teenagers. They have their own lives to lead in some respects and hanging out with mom isn't cool anymore, even when I miss them like mad.
I tried explaining all this to my brother but he was having none of it. I ended up parked under an overpass, crying my eyes out, to the point my husband was telling me to hang up because of the amount of stress it was causing me.
to be clear, I know I am failing as a mother right now, but there's nothing anyone else can say that I haven't said to myself, and have probably said even worse.
After a few more minutes of the non-stop berating I was getting, I yelled that as soon as I got my kids home we were completely done and he wouldn't have to worry about seeing the other kids ever again.
I feel i may have overreacted, though my husband says I didn't react enough. I don't know. I think hormones got the best of me, along with the stress of everything. Now my brother is back to being silent (which isn't new) and I feel even worse than when he was yelling at me.

AITHA? Did I overstep and overreact considering the fact that he's doing me such a huge favor by keeping my kids safe while I try to stand on my feet again?

This will be my first time ever openly sharing about my addiction; from the root cause to the effects and struggles that having a porn addiction has impacted my life to this day
So I just recently turned 21 and I'm beginning to look around and realize that for as long as I've acknowledged that I have a problem and need to quit, I keep feeding the addiction KNOWING that it's ruining my life. I'm going to split this post into 3 sections explaining the following stages: The root causes/early development, Progression of my addiction to current day, and Main struggles from my PA and how I go about everyday life to heal. Not exactly sure why I'm posting this but I just feel like it's something I need to let out. Hope someone can relate or give me their take on it.
The root causes/early development: So I believe that my PA manifested due to a few different reasons: Playing "doctor" with my sister as a child, early age porn exposure, and then using porn as a coping mechanism to deal with any negative emotions. So starting w/ "playing doctor", it first happened at a very young age, somewhere between elementary school to 6th grade. I think most people know what that is but to keep it short basically my sister who is a year older than me introduced my to basically role playing as doctor and patient. I wasn't sure if SHE even knew it was wrong but the point is, it happened. I genuinely don't think she was doing in an abusive way but I'll never know. I don't remember the small details of exactly how it happened but what leads me to think this was a factor that contributed to my porn addiction is that I know now as an adult that it's wrong, however as we "played doctor" I only grew to enjoy it and occasionally we took things outside of "playing doctor" - which is why I don't know what to make of it... Long story short it went from "doctor" to us making up our own games like "spy" where we pretended to fight each other as spy's, getting "knocked out" unconscious while she'd touch... and I specifically remember wanting to play these games in hopes that it led to that. But even outside of playing games I grew to wanting to touch her and act on perverted thoughts as a child that were NOT normal for my age or in general. And sometimes I would sneakily act on them - which as I'm reflecting on right now makes me think that me KNOWINGLY trying to be sneaky and act on perverted thoughts at that young of an age had to have carried on with me as I got older (contributing to my porn addiction).. And then the last thing that I vividly remember was when I was probably 10-12 years old is when again we were actually kind of aggressively play fighting, somehow ended up with each other's hands DOWN THERE mutually and we kept going on with each other until she made me.... yeah. And that was the last memory I had of what started out as us "playing doctor". Fast forward to current date since that last memory and we've never spoken about those experiences (more on that later). Going onto the actual exposure of pornography and WATCHING porn, I was exposed to it somewhere in between the same timeframe as when I'd play doctor and the last memory of us playing (somewhere between the ages of 8-12). I can vividly remember the scene that played late at night on the tv that my parents had left on (I shared a room with them). And then moving forward from there, somewhere in between I would find videos on YouTube of this "prank" channel where he'd go up to paid actors, bet that if he beat them in rock paper scissors that they'd have to make out with him. And as a young kid at the time seeing a girl in a bikini making out with a guy as he grabbed on her ass just made me horny and I learned to masturbate from there. And I cant think of a stronger dopamine hit for a 8-12 year old little me at the time than seeing those videos and pleasuring myself. After this, I'd hit middle school where I was bullied a lot, all while lacking social skills necessary to make any genuine friends or deal with the emotional turmoil of being bullied. Fast forward a few months and I think I just progressively began to normalize using porn as a coping mechanism - All the way from whenever I just got mad while dying repetitively on the videogame, to avoiding the fact that I hated my life everyday that I went to school. I'd use porn to receive that "good feeling" whenever I could. And I think my sexual addiction got worse when I began touching myself in the shower almost everyday in middle school to the imagination of the pretty girls that were at my school, even though I had neverarely talked to some of them. It was just a thing for me where every night I took a shower, I closed my eyes and fantasized about doing stuff with them. And then the cycles of me normalizing these things continued and eventually I found out about REAL porn sites.
Progression of my addiction to current day: So shortly after finding the real porn sites I entirely opted to use those as much as possible as the cycle continued. So by my freshman year of high school I was already using porn sites regularly. I remember during summer and winter breaks, sometimes I'd sleep at my grandmas and stay up all night switching from ejaculating to porn, to watching my favorite youtuber and streamers, to going back to jerking off. It was a multiple times a day/night occurrence OFTEN. Sometimes even during the middle of the day I'd pretend to use the bathroom but really I had a porn video pulled up and I watched until I was done. And as time progressed one video didn't exactly cut it for me. I don't think its that I couldn't get off to the first video, but more so that I just had the urge to see more and didn't want to nut yet. I didn't even know if I was purposely edging or not. I did not even understand that edging was a concept yet. Its just something that occurred naturally for me. And during all of this, I am still somewhere in the age range of 13-15. Consistently ejaculating to pornography, further exploring the more basic categories of porn like anal and lesbian. I think a notable memory was one of the first times I watched porn in the middle of work during summer break (extended family owns a construction company so I worked over breaks). It's crazy because in construction all we have are porta-potties that are always hot and nasty and the urge just came over me one day to pretend like I was using the bathroom and get one off before I went back... I don't think I even realized at the time that I had an addiction because this was still early high school. It was just something I looked at as a good feeling and whenever the urges came to me I took any chance I got to fulfill them. Even if I was sharing a room with a family member, I'd be as slow and quit as I could, touch myself under the covers, finish in my underwear and then showechange the next morning like it was normal. Moving forward, this type of behavior continues all the way throughout high school and the feeling of ejaculating just is not as intense as it use to be, so I look up ways to spice it up and I tried shit all the way from sitting on my own hand til it goes sort or numb so it "feels like someone else is touching you", to doing it in more risky places like my backyard outside when I was home alone and had my pants pulled down all the way, to whatever else I could try. Reflecting back, I just look at all these actions as the progressions of a sexual/porn addiction that is still developing. And this is how I rationalize the way I developed a porn addiction. Now it wasn't AWFUL in high school but it was getting bad. I realized that I had actually had a bad addiction that needed to be addressed a few months after graduating high school. From that point forward It was something that I had acknowledged was an issue but nonetheless, continued to do out of habit and as a continued coping mechanism. Whether it was from the lack of relationships, to my current life situation/direction I was headed in, or just any negative emotion - I used porn to release. Sometimes I'd even just do it out of boredom, not even because I had a dying urge to get one off. And then after that point of realization, I sat in "depression" for a few months still going about my everyday life until one day my dad mentioned that I should try therapy. He knew nothing about the addiction but I did let him know I feel depressed and the many struggles that I faced - which I believe is due to my porn addiction. So long story short, I go to therapy for about 3 sessions and end up dropping it because it just wasn't something I felt was helping or enjoyed (more on that later). From there to current day, I've gone at MOST one week periods attempting to quit porn and every time I relapse. From the age of 1 to-current day 21 years old, the progression of the categories of porn that I watch has grown and a few different fetishes like face sitting, femdom, and role play has increased. I don't NEED to watch these specific categories to get off, however these are ones I've found myself most recently watching and edging to, sometimes for 1-3 hours at a time, usually at night on weekends or before I fall asleep. And to take it a step further, I had started pouring money into camgirl sites, phone sex sites, only fans, etc.. I live with my parents still so it's not to the point that I'm broke and have no money, but still what the fuck am I doing putting my hard earned money into a porn addiction... (I'm a functioning adult on a pathway to financial freedom, more on this later).
Main struggles from my PA and how I go about everyday life to heal: So I believe that the main struggles with my porn addiction consist of: the inability/struggle to create and maintain healthy relationships, low self esteem, poor social skills, lack of motivation, and the cognitive dissonance of continuing my addiction to porn even though morally I believe it is wrong to lust over. I believe all of these struggles that come with porn are connected to each other - minus the cognitive dissonance. But everything else kind of stacks on top of each other. So my thought process is that I already dealt w/ low self esteem and confidence from a very young age, and porn just completely enhanced those problems and made it even harder to fix/work on. If you're anything like me and have watched videos on the sciences of porn on your brain, and possible struggles that we deal with, I'm assuming you know how it goes for the most part. I'd say I show symptoms of all effects of being a porn addict, however I've learned to "act normal" to an extent. Like YES I struggle to make friends and hold conversations with people in general but I can make it happen. Sure it'll be a little awkward depending on who I'm speaking to, but I feel like I act normal enough to not be a total outcast and all out weirdo around people. But I just feel like every relationship I have with anyone is extremely surface level or unfulfilling. I feel like as a person I lack so much substance and personality due to the fact that I never really put myself out there and learned social skills when I was coming up. My mindset was molded into something like "keep your head down and stay out the way" in order to avoid conflict. So I never really put myself out there to develop any type of super crazy/interesting personality. I work, play videogames, go to the gym, watch anime. I feel like there's not much else - which might also be a side affect of my porn addiction. Lack of emotion. And I refuse to call it depression. Kind of got red pilled by Andrew Tate Philosophy and it entirely HAS helped me. Maybe it's real, maybe it's not - because when I was fresh out of high school and hyper focused on the bad parts of my life, I felt depressed as shit. Legit like I couldn't do anything to fix it. And the more I identified as "depressed" the more I allowed myself to look for things in my life to confirm that belief. So eventually I went on a self improvement journey and just stopped allowing "depression" to hold power over me. Now I don't believe in it so it's not something that can hold me down in that crippling way. HOWEVER, I DO believe in just being in a shitty situation - which is what I feel like having a porn addiction along with it's effects and symptoms is. It's a shitty situation and I can either allow it to keep ruining my life OR I can get up everyday and attempt to fix it. And I refuse to play the victim card. Sure, I may have been exposed to some fucked up shit at a young age and used porn as a coping mechanism. There is no denying that it happened and that it may have been unfair and out of my control. YES, that's my problem. I may be a victim of pornography but I do not have to ALLOW it to continue to ruin my life. Easier said than done but it's definitely possible and I will not blame my lack of discipline or call it "depression" because I'm unable to quit. The way I see it is, there is a lot of shit that happened to me in the past that I have to come to terms with, and then I must come up with a plan to improve and learn how to be better. For example, struggling to hold eye contact with people, hold basic conversation with people (specifically women), find confidence within myself, become more social, etc... These are all skills that we can practice and learn. Simply by going outside and putting ourselves in uncomfortable situations that allow us to put the reps in. I believe that if I quit porn and start walking up to 10 strangers a day and try having simple conversations with them, in time I can only get better at being social and connecting with people. It's gonna suck and feel like shit at first, but I truly believe that it's a way to improve and get better. As I stand in my current situation I would say I have a lot of work to do but I'm still a functioning addict. I have friendships and relationships with family but they are very lack luster and I long for something deeper and more intimate. I know I'm not ugly and have the ability to pull a good looking girl, shit I've turned down this really pretty girl who always asks to hangout simply due to the fact that I feel like I'm gonna fuck it up and have bad social skills. And its getting to a point where friends and family are wondering why I haven't had a girlfriend in years. Overall its a lack of self esteem, which hinders me from being able to confidently put myself out there as a person who's deserving of love/companionship, which then makes me sort of self isolate and stray away from any type of connection or opportunity to be vulnerable. Which just leads me to feeling like a loser or someone that is undeserving of love because I'm just in a shitty situation. And yeah. Its kind of a self sabotaging cycle because I feel like I understand what's going on but I don't have the discipline and don't put the work in to get better. But that's just my two cents. This post was extremely long and I probably rifted off topic a few times and had my thoughts all over the place, and I still have a lot more I could give input about but this is the jist of everything
If anyone has a support group or needs someone to talk to, 1. I'd like to join the group, or 2. Feel free to message me for any support or conversation.

I have the Plus with the stock OS on the SD card that it came on. Not a single complaint. Actually, no, there is one. I wish that I could sort the "favorites" to be in alphabetical order. What a great little device. I pumped so many quarters into these games in arcades, damn, getting close to 50 years ago ? Not to mention soooo many hours playing the hell out of my Atari 2600.
I tried to understand what I read on Google, saw on YouTube and found here. And now I am even more confused. I thought Garlic was the only alternative OS. Now there seems to be a baker's dozen.
What I am looking to do I think should be simple. I want to use a 2nd SD card and add the missing games that I love. Mainly a few MAME games. Jailbreak, Phoenix, Star Castle. The Dreamcast game Kiss Psycho Circus. Half Life too if it was on DC, I don't remember if it was or not. Both games I played on PC. Iron Man X-O Manowar on the PS1 and Yar's Revenge and Halloween for the Atari 2600.
Now, I am to put to the new (2nd) SD card into the device and boot it up. Once I do that, all of the partitions, folders, etc. is automatically created, right ? Then, power the device down and put the card into a reader for my Macbook. Then drag the roms into the appropriate folders. MAME games into the MAME / ROMS folder and so on and so forth, right ?
It's kind of ironic. Eons ago I learned how to copy dual layer PS2 games. Many intricate steps using specific software and burning using a specific disc at a specific speed. And now I am trying to put games older than those onto this little magnificent device.
Thanks for any help.

Hi everyone, this is my first time posting one reddit and it's a quite of a long question, but I just don't know what to do.
My boyfriend and I have been together 3 years and we've lived together almost all of that time. Almost a year (11 months) ago I found out he was cheating on me (kinda? idk, I'll explain). He had been using reddit to find snapchat accounts for girls to exchange nudes with. He'd been doing it for about 2 months and with about 10 girls (that I know of). They would normally sext a bit and then not talk again. I confronted him and he admitted to me that he had/has a porn addition, and that he'd been doing this type of thing on and off since he was about 15. He said he never really saw it as cheating because to him it was kinda like "interactive porn". He said that it almost felt like a seperate part of his life and he couldn't connect with the part of himself that did it. He said it was only when he actually saw the effect it had on me that what he was doing became real to him.
Anyway, we decided to work through it and he started going to therapy to work on himself/his porn addition. It took a bit of time to get back to normal, but eventually our relationship returned to normal and we've been pretty good recently. Here's the thing: most of his bad behaviours/actions are due to low self esteem. He struggles to accept good things in his life and so tends to self-sabotage them (which was part of the reason the cheating happened in the first place). It also kinda follows a cycle - every 6(ish) months he'll do something really bad that we need to heal from (e.g. the cheating, getting super drunk and doing something dumb, etc). It's gotten a lot better since he's started therapy, but the cycle is basically like this: we're doing really well, he does something to self-sabotage, the relationship struggles and we have to heal/build up trust again for 1 or 2 months, the relationship recovers and we do well for 4 or 5 months, the cycle repeats.
I'm worried because it's been almost 6 months since the last incident. Our relationship has been pretty good recently, but the last time he cheated we were in such a good place and that's why he sabotaged it, so us doing well doesn't really put my mind at ease.
I've noticed recently that he's started being a bit more secretive with his phone again. For example, he'll tell me about some funny shit he saw on reddit, but when I ask to see the post he doesn't show me and says he'll send it to me. It doesn't matter how many times I ask to see it, it won't give me his phone. Another example: the other night I was in our bedroom and he was in the kitchen. I didn't have my phone but I needed a calculator, so I asked to use his because it was on the bed. He said yes, but then immediately came into the bedroom, watched me use the calculator and then asked for his phone so he could watch a YouTube video.
When he first cheated, to regain/build up trust in our relationship he gave me the passwords to all his social media and we had a deal I could go through his phone anytime I wanted. As soon as I felt like things were back on track, I logged out of everything (and deleted the passwords so I couldn't log in again). I also stopped going through his phone a few months back, and we've been really good at communicating - I'll normally just ask him outright how he's doing with the porn addiction and if there's anything I should know (he always says no). I don't want to ask to go through his phone again because that feels like a huge step backwards and I know it'll make our relationship feel tense/weird for a few days, but something just feels off. I just don't want to do anything rash because I do have quite severe anxiety and it might just be projection, but it's around the point in the cycle where something bad happens, I've noticed a bit of a disconnect between us (more unnecessary fights and stuff) and then there's the phone secrecy too.
What should I do? I love him endlessly and I know he loves me, but I don't want to ignore warning signs and brush them off as me being paranoid if they're not, ya know?
Sorry it's so long...thank you! :)

Is there a step-by-step tutorial somewhere on how to use the weeknd-toolbox? I have a brand new Nokia 2780, and all I want to do is remove the browser, store, and YouTube. I am a power user as far as computers go, reasonably familiar with working in Linux, but I have no experience working on phones in this way.
To start with, how and where do I follow the instructions for Building in the weeknd-toolbox:

CROSS_COMPILE=aarch64-linux-gnu- TOOLCHAIN_PREFIX=arm-none-eabi- ./build.sh

Thank you!

This will be my first time ever openly sharing about my addiction; from the root cause to the effects and struggles that having a porn addiction has impacted my life to this day -
So I just recently turned 21 and I'm beginning to look around and realize that for as long as I've acknowledged that I have a problem and need to quit, I keep feeding the addiction KNOWING that it's ruining my life. Im going to split this post into 3 sections explaining the following stages: The root causes/early development, Progression of my addiction to current day, Main struggles from my PA and how I go about everyday life to heal, and And I think that there are so many aspects of dealing w/ a PA that just makes me feel like, not hopeless but if I had to put the feeling into words its basically like waking up everyday feeling ashamed what I'm doing to myself but not even allowing myself to feel bad for myself because although I didn't understand during the development of my PA, I continue to let it ruin my life day after day.
The root causes/early development: So I believe that my PA manifested due to a few different reasons: Playing "doctor" with my sister as a child, early age porn exposure, and then using porn as a coping mechanism to deal with any negative emotions. So starting w/ "playing doctor", it first happened at a very young age, somewhere between elementary school to 6th grade. I think most people know what that is but to keep it short basically my sister who is a year older than me introduced my to basically role playing as doctor and patient. I wasn't sure if SHE even knew it was wrong but the point is, it happened. I don't remember the small details of exactly how it happened but what leads me to think this was a factor that contributed to my porn addiction is that I know now as an adult that it's wrong, however as we "played doctor" I only grew to enjoy it and occasionally we took things outside of "playing doctor" - which is why I don't know what to make of it... Long story short it went from "doctor" to us making up our own games like "spy" where we pretended to fight each other as spy's, getting "knocked out" unconscious while she'd touch... and I specifically remember wanting to play these games in hopes that it led to that. But even outside of playing games... I grew to wanting to touch her and act on perverted thoughts as a child that were NOT normal for my age at the time. And sometimes I would sneakily act on them - which as I'm reflecting on makes me think that me KNOWINGLY trying to be sneaky and act on perverted thoughts at that young of an age had to have carried on with me as I got older.. And then the last thing that I vividly remember was when I was probably 10-12 years old is when again we were actually kind of aggressively play fighting, somehow ended up with each other's hands DOWN THERE and we kept going on each other until she made me.... yeah. And that was the last memory I had of what started out as us "playing doctor". Fast forward to current date since that last memory and we've never spoken about those experiences (more on that later). Going onto the actual exposure of pornography and WATCHING porn, I was exposed to it somewhere in between the same timeframe as when I'd play doctor and the last memory of us playing (somewhere between the ages of 8-12). I can vividly remember the scene that played late at night on the tv that my parents had left on (I shared a room with them). And then moving forward from there, somewhere in between I would find videos on YouTube of this "prank" channel where he'd go up to paid actors, bet that if he beat them in rock paper scissors with them that they'd have to make out with them. And as a young kid at the time seeing a girl in a bikini making out with a guy as he grabbed on her ass just made me horny and I learned to masturbate from there. And I cant think of a stronger dopamine hit for a 8-12 year old little me at the time than seeing those videos and pleasuring myself. After this, I'd hit middle school where I was bullied a lot, all while lacking social skills necessary to make any genuine friends or deal with the emotional turmoil of being bullied. Fast forward a few months and I think I just progressively began to normalize using porn as a coping mechanism - All the way from whenever I just got mad while dying repetitively on the videogame, to avoiding the fact that I hated my life everyday that I went to school. I'd use porn to receive that "good feeling" whenever I could. And I think my sexual addiction got worse when I began touching myself in the shower almost everyday in middle school to the imagination of the pretty girls that were at my school, even though I had neverarely talked to some of them. It was just a thing for me where every night I took a shower, I closed my eyes and fantasized about doing stuff with them. And then the cycles of me normalizing these things continued and eventually I found out about REAL porn sites.
Progression of my addiction to current day: So shortly after finding the real porn sites I entirely opted to use those as much as possible as the cycle continued. So by my freshman year of high school I was already using porn sites regularly. I remember during summer and winter breaks, sometimes I'd sleep at my grandmas and stay up all night switching from porn completion, to watching my favorite youtuber and streamers, to going back to jerking off. It was a multiple times a day/night occurrence OFTEN. Sometimes even during the middle of the day I'd pretend to use the bathroom but really I had a porn video pulled up and I watched until I was done. And as time progressed one video didn't exactly cut it for me. I don't think its that I couldn't get off to the first video, but more so that I just had the urge to see more and didn't want to nut yet. I didn't even know if I was purposely edging or not. I did not even understand that edging was a concept yet. Its just something that occurred naturally for me. And during all of this, I am still somewhere in the age range of 13-15. Consistently ejaculating to pornography, further exploring the more basic categories of porn like anal and lesbian. I think a notable memory was one of the first times I watched porn in the middle of work during summer break (extended family owns a construction company so I worked over breaks). It's crazy because in construction all we have are porta-potties that are always hot and nasty and the urge just came over me one day to pretend like I was using the bathroom and get one off before I went back... I don't think I even realized at the time that I had an addiction because this was still early high school. It was just something I looked at as a good feeling and whenever the urges came to me I took any chance I got to fulfill them. Even if I was sharing a room with a family member, I'd be as slow and quit as I could, touch myself under the covers, finish in my underwear and then showechange the next morning like it was normal. Moving forward, this type of behavior continues all the way throughout high school and the feeling of ejaculating just is not as intense as it use to be, so I look up ways to spice it up and I tried shit all the way from sitting on my own hand til it goes sort or numb so it "feels like someone else is touching you", to doing it in more risky places like my backyard outside when I was home alone and had my pants pulled down all the way, to whatever else I could try. Reflecting back, I just look at all these actions as the progressions of a sexual/porn addiction that is still developing. And this is how I rationalize the way I developed a porn addiction. Now it wasn't AWFUL in high school but it was getting bad. I realized that I had actually had a bad addiction that needed to be addressed a few months after graduating high school. From that point forward It was something that I had acknowledged was an issue but nonetheless, continued to do out of habit and as a continued coping mechanism. Whether it was from the lack of relationships, to my current life situation/direction I was headed in, or just any negative emotion - I used porn to release. Sometimes I'd even just do it out of boredom, not even because I had a dying urge to get one off. And then after that point of realization, I sat in "depression" for a few months still going about my everyday life until one day my dad mentioned that I should try therapy. He knew nothing about the addiction but I did let him know I feel depressed and the many struggles that I faced - which I believe is due to my porn addiction. So long story short, I go to therapy for about 3 sessions and end up dropping it because it just wasn't something I felt was helping or enjoyed (more on that later). From there to current day, I've gone at MOST one week periods attempting to quit porn and every time I relapse. From the age of 18-curerent day 21 years old, the progression of the categories of porn that I watch has grown and a few different fetishes like face sitting, femdom, and role play has increased. I don't NEED to watch these specific categories to get off, however these are ones I've found myself most recently watching and edging to, sometimes for 1-3 hours at a time, usually at night on weekends or before I fall asleep. And to take it a step further, I had started putting money into camgirl sites, phone sex sites, only fans, etc.. I live with my parents still so it's not to the point that I'm broke and have no money, but still what the fuck am I doing putting my hard earned money into a porn addiction... (I'm a functioning adult on a pathway to financial freedom, more on this later).
Everyday life and dealing with my addiction: So I believe that the main struggles with my porn addiction consist of: the inability/struggle to create and maintain healthy relationships, low self esteem, poor social skills, lack of motivation, and the cognitive dissonance of continuing my addiction to porn even though morally I believe it is wrong to lust over. I believe all of these struggles that come with porn are connected to each other - minus the cognitive dissonance. But everything else kind of stacks on top of each other. So my thought process is that I already dealt w/ low self esteem and confidence from a very young age, and porn just completely enhanced those problems and made it even harder to fix/work on. If you're anything like me and have watched videos on the sciences of porn on your brain, and possible struggles that we deal with, I'm assuming you know how it goes for the most part. I'd say I show symptoms of all effects of being a porn addict, however I've learned to "act normal" to an extent. Like YES I struggle to make friends and hold conversations with people in general but I can make it happen. Sure it'll be a little awkward depending on who I'm speaking to, but I feel like I act normal enough to not be a total outcast and all out weirdo around people. But I just feel like every relationship I have with anyone is extremely surface level or unfulfilling. I feel like as a person I lack so much substance and personality due to the fact that I never really put myself out there and learned social skills when I was coming up. My mindset was molded into something like "keep your head down and stay out the way" in order to avoid conflict. So I never really put myself out there to develop any type of super crazy/interesting personality. I work, play videogames, go to the gym, watch anime. I feel like there's not much else - which might also be a side affect of my porn addiction.

A police officer received a call to help another officer, who he had known for many years. The call was designated as "suspicious circumstance."
The call was from a son who said that when he went to check on his mom at her old farmhouse, he had heard noises from downstairs in the basement.
It took the officer about 15 minutes to get out to this old farmhouse outside of town. It was yellow stucco and very old. He could see the old knob and tubing wiring on the outside of the house.
There is an upset old woman on the porch, the mom, and then a younger adult male standing next to her, the son, and then his fellow police officer standing next to them.
He goes up to them and gets all the information. When the son got to his mom's farmhouse to check on his mom, while he was talking to his mom on the main floor, he heard a noise in the basement like something being dropped. He dismissed it as perhaps an animal.
However, then there were more noises of things moving around and then he also started hearing voices.
The son said he thinks maybe someone is living down there taking advantage of his mom. He says the basement is unlivable as it has a dirt floor and no electricity.
The mom is upset. She said she didn't want the son to go down in the basement. And now, the mom didn't want the police officers to go down in the basement either.
So, he asks her why she doesn't want them to go down there. She says, "Because the others are down there."
And he asks her what she means by that. She says "The others were here long before me and they will be here long after me."
He says he understands but that they need to go check the basement. The mom says nicely "You are both good boys. Don't go down there."
Meanwhile, the officer sees that the fellow officer has a very scared look on his face. This fellow police officer has helped the police officer who is calling into the show many many times. The intuition from him has saved both of them in many situations. So, this guy trusts him a lot. He pulls him to the side and says "What's going on here?" The fellow police officer says "There is a very dark fog around this house."
The two police officers decide to go clear the basement with their weapons drawn. They let dispatch know they are going to clear the basement and then they make their way into the old house.
They go through the front door and enter an entryway. There is a kitchen to the left. There are two double doors to a living room on the right. They go through the kitchen and then through a small hallway towards the garage where there are steps down to the basement.
They open the basement door and start going down the steps. The steps are very steep and narrow like steps on a boat. There is no electricity downstairs. He only has the light on his gun. He said every single inch of his exposed skin felt like it was under assault from a thickness in the air.
They get downstairs and to the left are a bunch of old boilers. First a wood fire one, then an oil fire one, and then an updated furnace. To the left are steep stairs that go back outside through a bulkhead entrance (like the wizard of oz -- those basement doors that are flat in the ground).
And, in between the boilers and that bulkhead stair is a door to a back room inside the basement. And they focus on opening up that door.
The fellow officer opens the door and he goes inside. The room is filled with old wooden items and some boxes. There is nothing for anyone to hide behind. In the center of the room near the back is an old rocking horse. The white paint has been chipping and the hair on the horse has faded severely.
They both stand there looking at the rocking horse. He says he was drawn to the rocking horse in a very weird way.
Then he hears his radio as dispatch is calling. Dispatch says "Security check" as in "Are you guys ok?" He answers back that they are ok and dispatch says "What is taking you so long." He thinks this is very odd since usually dispatch does not interrupt you when you are clearing a house like that as they know you are highly focused.
He looks over to his fellow officer and he is staring at that rocking horse. His eyes are glossed over in a daze. He shakes his fellow officer and his fellow officer snaps out of it. They make their way back upstairs. They both talk in the kitchen that they are going to have to talk about this with each other after they leave the house to get their bearings back.
They go back out on the porch. The old woman has a smirk on her face. She says "Didn't feel good did it? You should have listened shouldn't you?"
He gets back in his vehicle and he asks dispatch why they interrupted him. Dispatch says he was gone too long. He says he wasn't gone long. Dispatch says he was gone for 10 minutes. He says he was not gone for 10 minutes. He says he was gone for about 2 minutes before they interrupted him.
There are more calls that come in and they move on to those.
However, later, back at the police station, they review the police body camera. Sure enough, once they get down into that room with the rocking horse, both he and the fellow officer freeze for 7 minutes looking at that rocking horse. They do not move. They do not speak. You can hear them both breathing for 7 minutes on the video. The only reason they snap out of it is because dispatch interrupts them on the radio. They both stood looking at that rocking horse for 7 minutes without realizing it.

This is going to be long (see TL;DR), but since getting my Slim 7 Gen 8 AMD last year I've been endlessly annoyed by one thing: the fans.
Thermal performance when pushed is great, it clearly has a suitable cooling solution for gaming loads. However, (and maybe this is my ADHD), no matter which power mode it was in the random on / off of the fans during idle or light usage was infuriating, as if the machine was intentionally designed to operate on the knife edge of the fan curve.
It seemed like the tiniest CPU temperature spikes from normal usage were triggering the fan curve up 2 steps rather than ramping progressively, and these fans whine like no other when they're spooling up.
That is, until a few weeks ago, when my motherboard somehow fried itself (a different issue altogether, non-cooling related failure). The Lenovo onsite tech botched the thermal paste and definitely used something that wasn't PTM, which made a problem that was already driving me crazy even worse.
So I picked up some PTM 7950 and Upsiren U6 putty from Aliexpress, repasted the CPU / GPU dies and replaced the stock pads with putty.
After putting it back together and running the PTM through a stress test to melt it down (for good measure I popped it back open afterwards and gave the cooler screws a tiny extra twist to lock it down), I can say that it was now running better than how it came from the factory 6 months ago. The fans were turning on more progressively, rather than being a huge distraction when they go straight to 2200rpm and stopping on a dime a few second later.
Idle was now around 45-48C, but it was still bugging me that light internet browsing was enough to kick up the fans. "Gaming laptops are just loud and hot!", yadda yadda yadda. Not good enough for me.
Then today I stopped and thought – since the BIOS doesn't allow fine adjustment of the curve, and it seems like the temperature spikes are just the nature of the AMD 7840HS, trying to keep the machine silent is a losing battle, short of neutering the performance with power limits.
So what if the answer to my desire to have no fan noise...is constant fan noise? I fired up Legion Toolkit and loaded a custom profile based on the Balanced preset, with the one tweak of raising the lowest point of the fan curve (fan off) up one tick.
The result? The fans spin all the time at 1800rpm, but the noise level is low enough that it borders on white noise. Way less distracting than random acceleration / deceleration, and when they do need to go faster it's a much smoother transition.
YMMV, and maybe I got a dud from the factory, but I'm finally happy. Hopefully this helps others, as my searches turned up plenty of posts talking about the same behavior. And of course, proceed at your own risk and watch YouTube tutorials, it's not rocket science but the job requires a delicate touch.
TL;DR: if your fans are driving you crazy consider re-doing the PTM and going with a better thermal pad solution – just because they used good materials from the factory doesn't mean the application was perfect. Also, these fans are most annoying when they're spooling up, and if it's driving your ADHD mad having them on low all the time is way less distracting than letting them turn on and off.

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The significance of this development has prompted the Company to update the AITX Mission Statement.
AIR will be utilized throughout all AITX subsidiaries and made available for licensing in the future. For Robotic Assistance Devices, Inc. (RAD), this means the Generation 4 RAD devices and software (ROSA™, RIO™, AVA™, ROSS™) will be fully AIR-capable. AIR will also be the software backbone for RADCam™ from subsidiary RAD-R, providing home security performance levels not currently known to be available in the marketplace.
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The Company noted that it is making preparations for the first AIR demonstrations in the next few weeks which will be available on the AITX YouTube channel.
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AITX, through its subsidiaries, Robotic Assistance Devices, Inc. (RAD), RAD-R, RAD-M and RAD-G is redefining the $25 billion (US) security and guarding services industry through its broad lineup of innovative, AI-driven Solutions-as-a-Service business model. RAD solutions are specifically designed to provide cost savings to businesses of between 35%-80% when compared to the industry’s existing and costly manned security guarding and monitoring model. RAD delivers these tremendous cost savings via a suite of stationary and mobile robotic solutions that complement, and at times, directly replace the need for human personnel in environments better suited for machines. All RAD technologies, AI-based analytics and software platforms are developed in-house.
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I struggle with trauma management questions like 'guy has pneumothorax and they can't do a tube thorocotomy because he's missing one eye, what's the next best step?'
...
Do you think it'll help with that?

A police officer received a call to help another officer, who he had known for many years. The call was designated as "suspicious circumstance."
The call was from a son who said that when he went to check on his mom at her old farmhouse, he had heard noises from downstairs in the basement.
It took the officer about 15 minutes to get out to this old farmhouse outside of town. It was yellow stucco and very old. He could see the old knob and tubing wiring on the outside of the house.
There is an upset old woman on the porch, the mom, and then a younger adult male standing next to her, the son, and then his fellow police officer standing next to them.
He goes up to them and gets all the information. When the son got to his mom's farmhouse to check on his mom, while he was talking to his mom on the main floor, he heard a noise in the basement like something being dropped. He dismissed it as perhaps an animal.
However, then there were more noises of things moving around and then he also started hearing voices.
The son said he thinks maybe someone is living down there taking advantage of his mom. He says the basement is unlivable as it has a dirt floor and no electricity.
The mom is upset. She said she didn't want the son to go down in the basement. And now, the mom didn't want the police officers to go down in the basement either.
So, he asks her why she doesn't want them to go down there. She says, "Because the others are down there."
And he asks her what she means by that. She says "The others were here long before me and they will be here long after me."
He says he understands but that they need to go check the basement. The mom says nicely "You are both good boys. Don't go down there."
Meanwhile, the officer sees that the fellow officer has a very scared look on his face. This fellow police officer has helped the police officer who is calling into the show many many times. The intuition from him has saved both of them in many situations. So, this guy trusts him a lot. He pulls him to the side and says "What's going on here?" The fellow police officer says "There is a very dark fog around this house."
The two police officers decide to go clear the basement with their weapons drawn. They let dispatch know they are going to clear the basement and then they make their way into the old house.
They go through the front door and enter an entryway. There is a kitchen to the left. There are two double doors to a living room on the right. They go through the kitchen and then through a small hallway towards the garage where there are steps down to the basement.
They open the basement door and start going down the steps. The steps are very steep and narrow like steps on a boat. There is no electricity downstairs. He only has the light on his gun. He said every single inch of his exposed skin felt like it was under assault from a thickness in the air.
They get downstairs and to the left are a bunch of old boilers. First a wood fire one, then an oil fire one, and then an updated furnace. To the left are steep stairs that go back outside through a bulkhead entrance (like the wizard of oz -- those basement doors that are flat in the ground).
And, in between the boilers and that bulkhead stair is a door to a back room inside the basement. And they focus on opening up that door.
The fellow officer opens the door and he goes inside. The room is filled with old wooden items and some boxes. There is nothing for anyone to hide behind. In the center of the room near the back is an old rocking horse. The white paint has been chipping and the hair on the horse has faded severely.
They both stand there looking at the rocking horse. He says he was drawn to the rocking horse in a very weird way.
Then he hears his radio as dispatch is calling. Dispatch says "Security check" as in "Are you guys ok?" He answers back that they are ok and dispatch says "What is taking you so long." He thinks this is very odd since usually dispatch does not interrupt you when you are clearing a house like that as they know you are highly focused.
He looks over to his fellow officer and he is staring at that rocking horse. His eyes are glossed over in a daze. He shakes his fellow officer and his fellow officer snaps out of it. They make their way back upstairs. They both talk in the kitchen that they are going to have to talk about this with each other after they leave the house to get their bearings back.
They go back out on the porch. The old woman has a smirk on her face. She says "Didn't feel good did it? You should have listened shouldn't you?"
He gets back in his vehicle and he asks dispatch why they interrupted him. Dispatch says he was gone too long. He says he wasn't gone long. Dispatch says he was gone for 10 minutes. He says he was not gone for 10 minutes. He says he was gone for about 2 minutes before they interrupted him.
There are more calls that come in and they move on to those.
However, later, back at the police station, they review the police body camera. Sure enough, once they get down into that room with the rocking horse, both he and the fellow officer freeze for 7 minutes looking at that rocking horse. They do not move. They do not speak. You can hear them both breathing for 7 minutes on the video. The only reason they snap out of it is because dispatch interrupts them on the radio. They both stood looking at that rocking horse for 7 minutes without realizing it.

I need help, I want F4M Mommy ASMR but it seems like I've already watched everything on YouTube. I don't that weird yandere stuff, but that's all I can find.
Can one of yall point me in the right direction? I really need to sleep.

In a flash of inspiration I suggested a small AU idea on discord... And people encouraged me to cook and cook hard. So I did and here's the result. I will likely have this as a 'backburner' fic to Broken Birds, writing one when I have no energy for other, so this will be lower in priority, but I hope it's enjoyable for you anyway.
Thanks to SpacePaladin15 for great universe, characters and letting fanfiction flow, as well as JulianSkies for inspiring the name of the fic and several other discord members (you KNOW who you are) for encouraging my horribleness. Without further ado... Let's open the doors of this AU.
CW: Arxur Dietary Habits, Child Suffering, Dismemberment
Memory Transcription Subject: Stynek, Venlil Cattle
Date [standardized human time]: July 12, 2136
Fur surrounding my eyes hurt from layers upon layers of dried tears. I’ve cried so much over past months, with nobody to tell me it’s going to be okay. I missed mommy. I missed my teacher. I missed my friends. I was surrounded by strangers, some of different species, but mostly venlil. None of them cared when I cried. Most cried by themselves, and to themselves instead. Nobody wanted to really talk to me, except this one other venlil child I met. I don’t even remember the name he told me. But he did know something. That me and him wouldn’t be eaten for a while because we’re too young. Unless someone important wanted to eat us. That’s why adults are bitter at the children. We weren’t in the ‘breeding pen’, whatever that meant, but in the food pen. And until I was old enough to be ‘sufficiently edible’, I’d stay here. Adults knew that. They knew that when arxur came around and chose meals out of the crowd, they’d ignore the scrawny child, so they were bitter at my luck.
I wanted to cry again, but at this point, no tears were coming out. I wished I could talk to the boy, but we got separated when they moved me and a bunch of adults onto the ship. I overheard some adults mumbling about us being rations. That made me cry more when I realized what it meant. Did it mean I was lied to? That I really was old enough to be eaten after all? I regretted wanting to grow up sooner. I was always upset when mom told me I couldn’t do something. I had to listen both because she was my mom and because she was our Governor. Now I missed hearing her voice, even if it was just telling me that I must go to bed on time and stop snacking too much before second meal.
It’s been days since I was brought to the ship. Unlike the pens I’ve been in before, this one was slowly emptying. Before, new people always were thrown in to replace ones taken to be eaten. Every day a few people would be grabbed by the arxur and dragged out. Some screaming and pleading for mercy. Those just get ignored, as everyone, myself included, huddles together in far corner. Others would accept their fate and let themselves be taken. Those are even sadder. More people start crying after seeing someone who looks dead even while still breathing taken to be finished off.
I rubbed my temple where there was still a small wound. Every cattle taken to this ship had their implants removed. I couldn’t understand anything non-venlil were saying. Or arxur for that matter. Not that much was being said...
Suddenly every head was up and all ears were flicking. I slightly turned my head to see towards the entrance. An arxur, standing in doorway, slowly scanning the crowd with predatory glint. My sense of time was barely intact, but schedule was rigid, it was too early for feeding time today. So why are they here and why are they selecting a prey already?
Suddenly I realized that it was looking directly at me, its binocular gaze locking onto my eye. I couldn’t help my reaction, yelping and flinching away, trying to scuttle towards the corner. But it seems the arxur made its choice. As it stepped and started walking towards me, the crowd parted. It was almost like that experiment with anti-magnets my teacher showed once in class, except I was the one repelling everyone around me. I tried reaching out and crawling towards them, but they just furthered the distance. Nobody was willing to contest arxur’s chosen meal.
“Please... I don’t want to...”, I cried, but it fell on deaf ears. Then I felt it. A scaly hand of a monster wrapped around my ankle. I tried thrashing, but before I could, I was lifted upside down, hitting my head on cold hard floor in process. Ow... It hurt. My vision blurred, from both the hit dizzying me and the tears that were now filling my eyes. I was being taken out... To be devoured by predators... Daddy... Mommy... “Mommy... Mommy!”
I didn’t hear anything but my own cries and clacks of arxur claws against metal floor as I was taken out of the pen. Outside of pen always seemed like nicer place to be. It was better lit and cleaner from what little I could glimpse whenever door opened. Now I’d give anything just to go back to the dirty pen, huddled together with people who don’t care about me... I didn’t want to die! I wanted to go home! To my mom and dad... Why... Wasn’t I too young? Why did that boy lie to me?! I hated him!
I couldn’t even tell where I was being taken. I knew nothing about layout of the ship. It was cleaner, it was brighter. But also there were more arxur than singular one that kept coming into the pen to take people. Being carried upside down by the leg hurt and made it disorienting but even with that I couldn’t miss how every time I entered an arxur’s field of vision, their head sharply turning to stare directly at me right until we turned another corner. I realized that I was crying out loud by now, but of course predators knew no emotion, they ignored my anguish.
Then finally, it seems, we reached a destination. I was brought to a room with a big table. Table? It was ridiculous to think predators even use tables... But there were three sitting at it. One was an arxur, particularly large and imposing. But two others were... creatures I’ve never seen before. One glimpse was enough to tell me they were predators. And they were covered in clothing, more than I’ve seen anyone ever wear. Worst thing is though, they were clearly talking to the big arxur, with external translator on the table constantly translating arxur’s hisses into the other predator’s growling noises.
This is it. Arxur found another sapient predator. The worst monsters in the galaxy now found allies. Least I could comfort myself with was that mommy would be safe... But now I felt like it’s not just me that’s about to end, but whole universe.
The arxur that was carrying me smacked me down onto the table, a fair distance away from others. I kept crying and sobbing. I think some pleads for help and for my mom came out, but I couldn’t even make out my own words. I was so scared. I was ready for fangs to pierce into my neck. And yet I wasn’t, I wasn’t ready, please, anything by that. Both the big arxur and the new predators were staring me down in hunger as I felt the worst pain of my life. My leg, held firmly to the table, burned in agony... and then pain was all I knew there. I couldn’t feel anything below my knee other than pain. Pain... Pain! I cried out at the top of my lungs, but pain wasn’t getting better. My cry did not stop until my throat burnt, but that pain was like an itch compared to what my leg felt like.
With sight blurred, I saw it. The arxur that held me down dropped my own ankle down near the big one that seemed to be in charge, staining table with orange blood. Big arxur tore a chunk off, extending it towards other predators, but they seemed to just talk. Then big arxur stopped for a few moments, tossed the chunk into its horrid mouth, and motioned to one still holding me down.
Then, for a second time in last few minutes I experienced the most agonizing pain in my life, surpassing even the pain before at least tenfold. It burned! It hurt! My throat, already sore and barely able to make sounds got revived for just long enough to let out another cry before giving out again. I wanted to pass out as I was butchered alive, but it was just so painful that I couldn’t... I was forced to be aware of how the rest of the leg, from knee to hip, was brought towards the mystery predators, sliced in half and then... That explained why it hurt so much more. Why it still hurts even more. The blade that second chop was done with was red hot, and now used to burn away at the chunks presented to the predators. They recoiled from heat, as pieces of me were presented, but after a few moments of consideration, reached out and tore a few small pieces of orange legs off my dismembered calf, starting to chew. The one with long fur on their head, seemed to almost choke on the heat, while the one with dark coloration just stared at me intently, making eye contact that I could perceive even through pain and tears directly with me, hungrily chewing, no doubt wanting more than scrap it was given...
I couldn’t watch anymore I closed my eyes, beginning to whine and sniffle. I tried calling out for mom, but my mouth was suddenly clamped shut with a band, so I couldn’t even make any more noises. Pain made it hard to move at all, and with my leg chop being replaced with a burn, I wasn’t bleeding... so I couldn’t even get the release of death. Worse yet, predators were far from eager to finish me off. I was always told their bloodthirst was the only thing that defined them, but they just left me to suffer on the table as they kept talking in their horrible noises. Their sadism was much stronger than bloodlust, that’s the only explanation...
As I lay there, I eventually let my eyelids slide open. The new predators and arxur were engaged in some conversation, piece of leg in front of arxur in charge gone completely, and pieces in front of mystery predators visibly smaller. Arxur regularly typed some things, demonstrating some things on the screen. A bunch of warrior arxur banded together, a big star chart divided in weird ways, some weird colorless picture of countless dead prey animals, unfamiliar and likely non-sapient... And then a video. A venlil exterminator, fighting off a group of arxur. She managed to get two monsters burnt before getting overwhelmed, their mask torn off before their head is bitten off by one of the greys. The moment it happens, new predators both turn their eyes towards me instantly, opened wide with hunger. I flinched away again, tears managing to flow again. The arxur were horrible... They were about to sic those new predators on Venlil Prime, I knew it in my heart. They gave them taste of our flesh, and showed them how we might be dangerous... despite the fact that we were weakest and helpless. The new predators will make us into their cattle with ease and be empowered, before proceeding to move onto the rest of Federation...
There was movement. The predators and big arxur all stood up, then locked their hands in some contest of strength momentarily. The predator with long head fur pointed towards me, and then they all stared at me for a moment. Then the conversation moved on. The arxur holding me down grabbed me again, by my remaining leg and carried me off. I felt some blood drip down my fur with me being turned like that...
There was more walking, but it was even harder to pay attention in the haze that was covering my mind. I understood what the people that were taken without struggle felt now. I didn’t want to fight anymore. I just wanted it to be over... It hurts... It hurts so much...
I felt my arms moved, hands tied behind my back, and then I was handed over to the dark-colored mystery predator. It wasn’t as large as an arxur, but it could still lift me with ease, tossing me over the shoulder like I’m a sack of ipsom flour. A momentary look around showed that I was inside a smaller shuttle now, built very different from what the insides of larger ship was. I was... being taken elsewhere again. Why...?
Some more talking in the scary predator languages, and the door separating mystery predators and the arxur closed. Once that happened, there was instant rush. I found myself tossed into some white and cold room, still bound. I could hear the predators argue, that much loud yelling at one another could only be an argument. I felt the hum of ship starting up and vibration of launch. Then after a bit, I saw the long furred predator rush past me and towards something in the back of room, at which points it made noises so horrid, that I found myself crying again. I don’t know what it was doing back there, and I didn’t want to know. The dark colored one just kept looking over the burnt stump where my leg once was. And all throughout they kept growling and shouting at one another... I was going to be torn in half between the two, wasn’t I?
Instead I felt the binds on my arms and around my face cut. First thing, I opened my mouth and took a deep breath... Only to choke on air, as it was even cooler than I expected... White room, cool air, hungry predators looking over my bloodied bits and making horrid noises... I was about to be refrigerated to be kept for future. I was rations that arxur graciously gifted to these monsters. Why...? Why me?!
I tried crying, but my throat refused to make noise after earlier screaming tore it apart. Only low coughs escaped as tears completely filled my vision. There was more. More pain, a burst of it where my leg was supposed to be, then a small prick at my other leg... More memories, of my happy family and friends at school, replaced with grimy cattle pens and constant fear... More regrets at things I wanted to do and try, but never got to... But none of it mattered. I was already dead. Even if I was still breathing and moving, I was dead the moment a grey grabbed me and dragged me onto that cursed cattle ship of theirs... It just took me until now to truly comprehend it.
The last thing I thought of as pain dulled out, finally giving way to bliss of unconsciousness, was my mom’s soft wool and warm embrace, and how I never got to feel it properly for last time before dying... Mommy... I’m sorry...

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Hi Z! I hope you're doing well. I know you frequent this sub, since dito din tayo nagkakilala sa reddit I know if ever man dumaan to sa NF mo, babasahin mo. Last I heard, you were doing okay na! I'm so proud of you! I saw din yung posts mo sa IG, you named your cat Elijah, that was gonna be the name of our kid diba? I almost cried when I saw that.
I know we didn't get the proper closure, but we had good time right? I will always treasure the memories of you laughing, you almost falling off the stairs just because I said na we will going on that trip sa Batanes that we always wanted. I'm sorry for not being enough Z, I really thought I was doing everything I can to help you but in the end, I ended up pushing you away because of my problems and insecurities.
But knowing you, pag Nakita mo akong nagpost ng ganto, you'd say "Ano ba yan, delete mo nga yan, balikan kita sige ka, charoott," you always had this sense of humor that made me really fall for you. I just wanted to say I miss you. I miss our gaming nights, I miss our daily updates, I miss talking to your family din, say hi to tita for me, as she said "the son na di ko inire" HAHAHAHA.
I know you're in a better state na din. You have taken so much better of your body na din, since Nakita ko na active ka na ulit. No more bedridden days! Pero not too much Z ah! baka mamaya biglang tumawag si tita ulit, babatukan talaga kita.
I'm writing this not to see if we can get back together, or something. This is me reminiscing the time that could've been. If only I had the guts back then, If I wasn't so much of a coward to help you and I stood my ground when you told me that you had a heart condition, that made you really sick. even going up the stairs can trigger a reaction. That made you feel like being a burden to me, you were not, but due to some reason, you had to step away. If I only knew. I would've fought for us.
This is my last letter for you. This has been in my drafts for a few months na.
Eli, take care of your mommy okay? don't let anyone get in the way of her happiness. Kalmutin mo mga kupal na nanlalandi sa mommy mo. HAHAHA. Make sure na she finds the right one, I'll leave all these to you.

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