Some things about me: I absolutely love everything to do with musicals, Disney, cartoons, and collecting small items that pique my interests. My hobbies include participating in musical theatre, roller skating, cooking/baking, shopping, going to theme parks, binging tv shows+movies, educating myself about niche history, and visiting farmers markets. You can find me at working at my job with kindergartners, or when I’m at school and not studying for my psych degree (currently a junior), I participate in my debate club, as well as DEI organizations in my spare time. I also appreciate long walks and picnics beside bodies of water. My aesthetic/vibe is definitely a soft girl, but overall I’m a very extroverted and bubbly person that is quite easy to talk to and get along with. If you’d like to chat and/or get to know me better, please directly message me as the subreddit advises and we can start a conversation from there! Preferably would like to hear from people around this area and the neighboring states, and within a 5 year age gap but these are not deal breakers😘
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Trip to White Tail, anyone else planning a trip?
Family of four planning a trip to White Tail either June 6-9 or 27 through July 2. Any other folks planning a trip? It's always nice to have other folks to hang with, plus our kids love having others to play with. Just to clear the waters, we are not swingers or interested in sex, just wholesome nude recreation.

Family of four planning a trip to White Tail either June 6-9 or 27 through July 2. Any other folks planning a trip? It's always nice to have other folks to hang with, plus our kids love having others to play with. Just to clear the waters, we are not swingers or interested in sex, just wholesome nude recreation.

On the Fringes of Jupiter’s Atmosphere
Aoide yawned for the second time in as many minutes, a long, jaw-cracking affair that left her red-rimmed eyes wet around the edges.
The thrum of DMS Calliope’s massive ion drives lulled her, caressed her like a gentle lover, amplifying her need for a few hours of rack time. She suppressed a third yawn with the back of her hand, sipped coffee long gone cold and glanced at the Chrono: 03:38 Sol Standard.
Nearly twelve hours on shift and the end of a six-month tour, and the vast storage bellies of her mining barge bulged with a Fed record haul. All readouts glowed green and were optimized for the return trip to the Mars orbital processing facility. Life was good. Well, as good as it could get on a deep space mining barge.
The corner of her mouth quirked.
Her commission for this tour would be enough for a year-long vacation at the newly built beach resort on Titan. That was all anyone talked about toward the end of a tour, the end of six months of cramped living and stale recycled air. She was ready to breathe, to stretch her legs and run. She wanted ocean air and sand between her toes, a warm breeze kissing her skin. She needed those things like a flower needs the sun.
“You awake over there, Captain?”
Aoide frowned at the interruption. She could almost smell the salt air she was so deep in her fantasy.
“Yeah, barely,” she said, swiveling her chair away from the view screen to look at the owner of the voice. There wasn't much to see anyway, and Jupiter’s hazy, sand-colored atmosphere provided little joy after years on the job. “You're early.”
Jokes stood leaning against the steel frame of the bridge’s doorway, with his curly black hair still damp from his allotted three minutes in the Fresher and the ever-present stupid grin on his young and too-pale face.
That how I look? Damn.
He had dark circles under his eyes, and his skin seemed thin, unnaturally pale. Everyone always resembled malnourished corpses after six months of no sunlight and three meals a day of the goop they called food on a deep space mining barge. God, she hated that shit. Like sugary snot, she thought. Or chunks of recycled vomit. You got used to it after years on the job, but she was ready for something real, something she could sink her teeth into and fill her belly with substance. Steak and eggs, she thought, and none of that synth shit either. The real stuff.
She gave a heavy sigh.
Twenty minutes and her tour was over. Jokes would button things up and begin the twelve-day journey to Ganymede station, where she’d catch a flight to Titan and soak in a real bath for a week. Maybe have a few cocktails and catch up on some reading.
“Here, take the conn,” she said, swinging the holographic control arm off her lap. She rose on stiff legs like a woman twice her age rather than the 30 standards printed on her Fed holocard. “I’m wrecked. Time for some rack. You good to finish the pre-trip optimization and storage leveling protocols?”
Jokes looked her over, and his smile faded. “You look like hell, captain.” He sipped his coffee, holding her eyes over the cup’s rim. “I look that bad?”
“Worse,” she said, walking over to a kiosk on the starboard wall and splashing the remains of her coffee down the recycler. She dropped the cup into a vacuum chute for the sanitizer and turned toward the bridge door. “You looked like shit to begin with and only got worse.”
He laughed and began his daily pre-op checks of the ship. Calliope was largely automated but still needed humans present for certain functions regulated by the Fed for organics only and in case something went wrong that the automatics couldn’t repair.
Aoide paused in the doorway and looked back. “Core three had a blip last night, something with the containment field. Automatics ironed it out, but I’d still keep an eye on it if I were you. You know, just in case.”
“Got it, core three. Things are good here,” he spoke without looking up while running checks and diagnostics from the various holo screens stationed around the bridge. “Get some rest. Once we start the burn back to Ganymede, there won’t be much rack time for any of us.”
“Yeah,” she said and left.
Her boots clunked on the metal flooring of the main corridor leading from the bridge to the mess, the Freshers and the crew cabins, small one-room “coffins” just big enough to crawl in and catch some sleep. Or maybe watch a holoflick or do some light reading. There wasn’t much else to occupy what little downtime you had on a mining ship with such scant amenities. Every bit of space that wasn’t essential for basic survival was devoted to the massive holds where the diamonds were stored and the great ion engines that powered everything. It took a lot of power to navigate Jupiter’s violent atmosphere. The deflector fields and stabilizers consumed much of what the fusion cores produced; the rest went to the advanced machinery that gathered the precious stones; the bridge and all crew areas were considered secondary systems.
Aoide stopped at one of the Freshers and punched in her code. She preferred to take her three minutes after shift when she felt the dirtiest. Plus, it helped her relax before bed.
She dropped her jumpsuit around her feet on the floor.
The sonic water pulsed over her skin and ran in steaming rivulets down her back, between her breasts, scouring away the sweat and filth of a twelve-hour shift. Three minutes later, she stepped out of the Fresher, still steaming and dripping, and walked naked down the corridor toward her bunk. There were no secrets on a mining ship, no pretense of modesty.
She toweled off in her cabin and crawled under the blanket, still nude. She liked the way it felt on her skin.
Sleep came like an avalanche. The dreamless sleep of the dead.
She woke hours later to the sound of the comm. “Captain?”
It was Tiesel, the ship’s engineer.
“What?” She croaked through one bloodshot eye. The Chrono projected on her ceiling read 22:46 Sol Standard. She was going to choke him. “I have 14 more minutes, god damn it.”
“Sorry, Captain, Jokes said you wanted everyone awake for the Burn toward Ganymede.”
Never mind choking, she was going to flay the hide from his bones.
Everyone was supposed to be awake for the Burn, true, but she had 14 precious minutes left and dreams of a sun-soaked beach. Cursing under her breath, Aoide swung her legs out from under the covers. Fucking Jokes. 14 minutes.
She got up, got dressed, and headed for the bridge. It was going to be a long trip back to Ganymede. But she could almost smell the salty air of Titan’s resort beaches.
Fucking Jokes. 14 minutes was 14 minutes. Her boots clunked down the corridor toward the bridge. Revenge was going to be a slow burn. She would wait, bide her time until he let his guard down. Then drop the hammer.
A smile creased her face. She had just the thing in mind. He was so proud of that hair.
Jokes wasn’t the only one who could play that game.
Or maybe she’d wait until the next tour.
Maybe not.

안영하세요!
I am a transgender woman in her early 40s. I now live in the American south where it is extremely sunny and hot.
My job sends me outdoors to places with no shade and driving in cars a lot. Whatever skincare choices I make, it has to prioritize SPF first and then extreme heat. I drink plenty of water by necessity from heat and testosterone blockers that are diuretic.
Currently use La Roche Posay SPF 50 and apply twice a day usually. Will get something else when it runs out.
At the moment, I only do basic things with my skin care. I want to do better than that and take it in a specifically Korean direction wherever and whenever possible. I am not attached to any of my products.
My skin is pretty resilient though I think estrogen therapy is making it slightly more dry. My nose has always been oily. Haven’t had acne in decades.
I use Acure brightening cleansing gel and scrub my face with my [Salux] washcloth that has body wash on it. That probably sounds terrible?
There are brown spots on my cheeks from the years I was not using sunscreen. Is there any hope? I searched and saw vitamin C, snail mucin, azelaic acid come up a lot.
Noticing also that my neck skin is starting to get thinner and more tissue-like. The same is with the skin directly under my eyeball. Do I need to moisturize overnight? Serums or other products? I saw on YouTube a ton of wild stuff, even sleeping with a face full of Vaseline overnight. Not sure if that’ll work for me? Just not sure where to start.
I have a very basic makeup routine as well. This is only for the days where I want to glam up. A few spots of Ilia true skin seerum concealer, Ilia super serum skin tint spf 40, bare minerals gen nude blonzer, milk makeup Blur + Set matte loose setting powder. It washes off pretty easily at the end of the day. But for days with extreme sun, do I put on sunblock first and then makeup on top, then reapply on top of it? No idea.
If it helps I have some profile data from Sephora:
Skin Type Combination
Skin Concerns Dark Spots Loss of Firmness / Elasticity Pores Fine Lines / Wrinkles
Skin Tone Light Medium
Color IQ Light Medium 2 • Warm 1 • Intensity 3 Captured 09/01/2023
If you read this far, thank you! I don’t really have good sources of help. I will be forever grateful to you and report back my findings to help everyone. 정말 고맙습니다!

For instance, in countries such as:
Japan

There was a Australian guy who filmed inside a train carriage only reserved for women (those show up during rush hour) which are designed to deter perverts or other predators, but he had the audacity to vlog inside a carriage that men aren't allowed to enter. (It's like how a man is NOT allowed to enter the women's restroom, as it's intended to be a safe space for them.)
He even claimed to be the "woman inspector" doing that for the sake of clout, the women inside the train were like "WTF is he doing here" as conveyed from their facial reactions. These carriages were also designed to deter male passengers like him from entering. (He's also filmed in a place where it is FORBIDDEN to film despite the girl in the kimono advising him not to.)
Around earlier this year, there was an content creator from Australia who went to some sort of art exhibit in Tokyo (it was some water-based art, as it was on the floor, with rainbow lighting) only to be walked on, but not for SWIMMING! which is what this dude did, since the organizers made it clear that SWIMMING is NOT allowed. (You can only walk on it, despite it being a body of water.)

Indonesia

There was a female tourist from Germany who decided to run around NAKED during an Hindu ceremony somewhere in Bali, at a sacred place where relgious ceremonies commonly take place. She even had the audacity to do that during a religious event. in front of other tourists. (Akin to: "walking around nude at a cathedral in Paris." for example.)
She even pryed the shrine door open in which she was reprimanded for doing that IN FRONT OF EVERYONE, while the dancers in traditional attire were entertaining the other tourists. That in itself is already disrespectful. At the end of the say she's only humiliating herself, all of this for the sake of clout, I guess. (There are people who believe in Hinduism in Indonesia.)
There was something similar in 2023, but from a Russian woman who took naked pics of her self in a tree deemed 'holy' by locals (as they deem it a manifestation of God), in which she received backlash for this reason, she was actually deported for this after the authorities were aware of it being posted on social media. (A Russian dude did the same thing, but on a sacred mountain.)
Especially with rented motorcycles or anything of that nature, western tourists take advantage of it so much, by BREAKING the road rules (too many accidents happen) tourists arguing with the cops, there was an tourist from Russia who ended up renting one of those bikes to only perform a reckless stunt with the bike falling into the water right after, from the pier.

Thailand

There were 2 American dudes who visited a temple suddenly got the idea on "let's snap a picture of our ass" (for the sake of instagram) which is completely retarded if you ask me, they were doing this at a sacred place too, in a temple where monks reside. (It's akin to "get a d*ck pic at a church" which is already disrespectful to the religion and culture.)
They were both arrested for doing this, as they were both committing indecency at a place of worship. Despite signage advising people to wear modest clothing upon entering the premises, they still did that anyway, despite the backlash they've received for it. (DISRESPECTFUL! Why do this at a place of worship or anywhere for that matter?)

In hindsight:

• Have there been cases where tourists actually got themselves in legal trouble due to their actions during their vacation in France?
• When it comes to obnoxious behavior from tourists who end up being a nuisance (or drunks) disturbing the peace, does that also result in damage of property at businesses or residences?
• Are there cases that tourists have desecrated historical monuments or disrespected religious sites and locations that angered French people?

I know for instance, in countries such as:
Thailand

There were 2 American dudes who visited a temple suddenly got the idea on "let's snap a picture of our ass" (for the sake of instagram) which is completely retarded if you ask me, they were doing this at a sacred place too, in a temple where monks reside. (It's akin to "get a snap of our tits at the church in Athens" which is already disrespectful to the religion and culture.)
They were both arrested for doing this, as they were both committing indecency at a place of worship. Despite signage advising people to wear modest clothing upon entering the premises, they still did that anyway, despite the backlash they've received for it. (DISRESPECTFUL! Why do this at a place of worship or anywhere for that matter?)

Japan

There was a Australian guy who filmed inside a train carriage only reserved for women (those show up during rush hour) which are designed to deter perverts or other predators, but he had the audacity to vlog inside a carriage that men aren't allowed to enter. (It's like how a man is NOT allowed to enter the women's restroom, as it's intended to be a safe space for them.)
He even claimed to be the "woman inspector" doing that for the sake of clout, the women inside the train were like "WTF is he doing here" as conveyed from their facial reactions. These carriages were also designed to deter male passengers like him from entering. (He's also filmed in a place where it is FORBIDDEN to film despite the girl in the kimono advising him not to.)
Around earlier this year, there was an content creator from Australia who went to some sort of art exhibit in Tokyo (it was some water-based art, as it was on the floor, with rainbow lighting) only to be walked on, but not for SWIMMING! which is what this dude did, since the organizers made it clear that SWIMMING is NOT allowed. (You can only walk on it, despite it being a body of water.)

Indonesia

There was a female tourist from Germany who decided to run around NAKED during an Hindu ceremony somewhere in Bali, at a sacred place where relgious ceremonies commonly take place. She even had the audacity to do that during a religious event. in front of other tourists. (Akin to: "walking around nude at a monastery in Greece." for example.)
She even pryed the shrine door open in which she was reprimanded for doing that IN FRONT OF EVERYONE, while the dancers in traditional attire were entertaining the other tourists. That in itself is already disrespectful. At the end of the say she's only humiliating herself, all of this for the sake of clout, I guess. (There are people who believe in Hinduism in Indonesia.)
There was something similar in 2023, but from a Russian woman who took naked pics of her self in a tree deemed 'holy' by locals (as they deem it a manifestation of God), in which she received backlash for this reason, she was actually deported for this after the authorities were aware of it being posted on social media. (A Russian dude did the same thing, but on a sacred mountain.)
Especially with rented motorcycles or anything of that nature, western tourists take advantage of it so much, by BREAKING the road rules (too many accidents happen) tourists arguing with the cops, there was an tourist from Russia who ended up renting one of those bikes to only perform a reckless stunt with the bike falling into the water right after, from the pier.

In hindsight:

• Have there been cases where tourists actually got themselves in legal trouble due to their actions during their trip in Greece?
• Are there cases that tourists have desecrated historical monuments or disrespected religious sites and locations that angered Greek people?
• In terms of tourists using rented boats, have there been times when they have violated [Greece's] nautical laws (on any Greek island) which results on inflcting injuries on others?

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This is a Chinese legend; approx. 6,000 words.
Content:
1 Constant Fair and Peach Flower Girl
2 Death with Eyes Open
3 Peach Flower Fortune
4 Wordless Tombstone
[5 Mental Illness Treatment]()
6 Fate Through
7 Nude Wedding

1 Constant Fair and Peach Flower Girl

[Constant Fair ]()is an orphan since childhood in Publican Liu’s pharmacy as a long laborer. He was not smart since he was a child, score of school was not that good, and always made mistakes when he grew up and learned how to do business. However, Publican Liu not only took good care of him in every aspect, but also always tolerated and harbored him, and did not hold him accountable for his faults. Constant Fair had never met Publican Liu since he was a child; he also often wanted to see him to salute and thank him in person, but it was always disrupted by some strange and unexpected arrangements.
Constant Fair knows, Publican Liu is eccentric, often go out to travel, leisure time in the study of ancient books, do not like to see people. In addition, Constant Fair also knows that he is not good health, there is a kind of what, no one can say the strange disease.
One day, Publican Liu commissioned a matchmaker to propose marriage to Constant Fair, to betroth his daughter, Peach Flower Girl, to him. He heard that Peach Flower Girl is intelligent, beautiful, and her medical skills are even more brilliant, to her matchmaking are more than to kick through the threshold, is not marriage. The matchmakers showed him articles written by Peach Flower Girl, told him what she had done, and created opportunities for him to meet her, so have a chance to see her in person. Constant Fair saw that Peach Flower Girl was beautiful; the articles she wrote were clearly organized, with wonderful words; the affairs she had done were all skillfully arranged. Constant Fair thought he was not worthy of her, so he refused. As a result, he heard later that the Peach Flower Girl was also unwilling and called him stupid.
Some days later, again, Publican Liu asked the matchmaker to marry Peach Flower Girl to Constant Fair and tried to persuade him. Constant Fair finally said, "As long as Peach Flower Girl is willing, I am willing." As a result, Constant Fair heard that Peach Flower Girl was not willing again.
After some time, Publican Liu asked the matchmaker to marry Constant Fair and Peach Flower Girl again, saying that, this time, Peach Flower Girl had already agreed. Constant Fair heard that Publican Liu and the matchmakers had been trying to persuade Peach Flower Girl to marry him, and that the father and daughter had quarrelled over the matter often recently. He thought to himself, "This is that Peach Flower Girl let me to delay for a few days so as to let her father have a rest and a few days of fun, and then it is me to reject it. Constant Fair then said to the matchmaker, “I'll think about it then”. After a few days, he told the matchmaker: “No.”
In this way, Publican Liu and the matchmakers used many ways to set up the marriage between Peach Flower Girl and Constant Fair, which was a long time coming, but just not possible. Time passed, Peach Flower Girl and Constant Fair both passed the age of normal marriage.

2 Death with Eyes Open

In one middle night, a matchmaker who had become friends with Constant Fair came running to tell him, “I don't know what's wrong! old Publican Liu is acting like crazy! He said he would ‘die with eyes open’, until he sees you and Peach Flower Girl get married, and enter honeymoon house. He also secretly let people in the preparation of a small inner courtyard, to you and the Peach Flower Girl locked inside; not married to not let you two out. I thought, ‘What's going on here! I had to tell you!’ I also found out that they know that you and I are friends and have sent someone to watch me, so I found a chance to sneak out. With that said, I must return, in case of that I am discovered.”
Constant Fair was shocked when he heard this and thought, “This can't be done! Then I ruin Peach Flower Girl for life! No! I must Leave!” That night, he escaped from Publican Liu's pharmacy. He didn't go back to his hometown because he was afraid that Publican Liu would send someone to catch him.
Constant Fair lived a life of anonymity, wandering around. Of course, he also needed to make a living, and later he worked as a shopkeeper in a pharmacy. For the first few years, the business did quite well, and the business grew. Later, he realized that someone was working against him in business and went to resign with the proprietor. The proprietor said, "Now, our business is so big that we can fight with them! I trust you, and I don't blame you if you lose money." Constant Fair said, “I don't want to fight with them. To tell you the truth, I suspect those opponents are related to one of my former benefactors”. The proprietor understood the matter well and said: “In that case! I cannot force you.”
Constant Fair left the pharmacy and wandered to another place, where he found another job in a pharmacy. Something similar happened to the last job. He found out that there were against him in business, and still thought that those people were related to the former boss Publican Liu, so he voluntarily gave up the job again.
In this way, Constant Fair changed job after job, always feeling that someone was struggling with him and unwilling to fight back against his opponents, but his bad reputation spread, and he couldn't find a job. So, he went back home.
On his way to his old village, Constant Fair met a messenger. The messenger asked him, "Do you know Constant Fair from Fair Family Village?" He replied, “I am!” The messenger said, “The people in your home asked me to tell you that your father passed away.” Constant Fair thought to himself, “I have been an orphan since I was a child, and replied, “You are mistaken! I'm not the person you're looking for!” The messenger verified, “XXX County, YYY town, Fair Family Village, the name is Constant Fair!” Constant Fair replied immediately, “Yes! It is me!” The messenger added, “The news that the people in your hometown asked me to convey to you is that your father has passed away. I'm just a messenger, and the rest, I don't know!”
At this, Constant Fair felt uncomfortable in his heart and sensed that something was wrong. When he arrived home, he inquired if there was anyone else in the village also name Constant Fair. He found out, in his county, only has one Fair Family Village, and in the past 40 years, only his name is Constant Fair in the Village. For several days in a row, he felt a tightness in his chest.

[3 Peach Flower Fortune]()

On this day, Constant Fair went to the marketplace for a walk. From a distance, he saw a group of people surrounding a fortune-teller. Constant Fair never believed in ghosts, gods, fortune-telling, and the like. But somehow! That day he stood at the back of the queue and wanted to listen.
The fortune-teller saw Constant Fair immediately and said, “The one at the end of the line is in a hurry! Let him come first! Those in front wait a while.”
Constant Fair said, "I'm not in a hurry, I can wait."
The fortune-teller said, "Come over here if you're told to!"
Constant Fair walked up to the fortune-teller, and before he could say anything, the fortune-teller said, “Congratulation! You've got Peach Flower Fortune (Note 3)!”

Note 3, what is peach flower fortune? Equivalent to the Western world's "The Chosen One" (i.e., the Golden Boy, Adam), except that the peach flower fortune is expressed in terms of the woman's (Eve, Jade Girl) beauty, talent, rich, and power to express this concept. How did the fortune teller see it? The Chinese fortune-teller profession and the Chinese juristic teacher profession use the same set of books. The Golden Boy and Jade Girl is the basic model in that book, and the Peach Flower Catastrophe is one of the main cases in that book.

Constant Fair replied, “I don't know! I can still have Peach Flower Fortune!”
The fortune teller asked, "In the past, when you worked for someone, was there a proprietor who treated you very well, but you never saw him?"
Constant Fair replied, "Yes!"
The fortune-teller said, “He is dead, and with eyes glaringly open!”
Constant Fair heard, feel the head "buzz" a moment, the sky spinning, earth gravity vanishing, organs are moving. When he calmed down, felt his chest clogged, as if pressing a stone, heard the crowd talking about really God's calculations, a look to know! No wonder that he was said to be in a hurry!
Constant Fair turned around and started to walk home. The fortune-teller said: “Wait, I haven't finished yet! I think you really don't know! When Peach Flower Fortune comes, no one can stop it, there's no other way. You can only obey the wish of that old proprietor of yours and go to his house quickly. Even if you must spend all your money to pay for the betrothal gift, you still must gain their favor, wed their daughter, and enter honeymoon house, before you can be relieved of this Peach Flower Catastrophe.”
Constant Fair reached into his pocket and realized he had no money with him, so he said, "I'll go back to get the money and return it to you."
The fortune-teller said, “No need, I don't want your money.”
Constant Fair felt strange and asked why he didn't want his money. The fortune-teller said, “To tell the truth! Judging from your face, you won't live more than a hundred days. It's unlucky to spend dead people's money!"
Constant Fair said, "Thank you very much! I will definitely repay you when I have the chance in the future."
The fortune-teller added, "Wait! On the way, you must drink more water; drinking water will renew your life. Also, you must keep walking; if you fall, you may never get up again!"
Thanking again, Constant Fair went home, packed his bags, and went on his way that night.
A few days later, Constant Fair felt his chest getting more and more clogged, his stomach gurgling, and problems with his stomach and intestinal motility; sores began to grow on his skin. Whenever he arrived at a place, he first looked for a well, drank his fill, then filled two jugs of water to carry with him, ate something and immediately rushed on. In this way Constant Fair traveled day and night, rushing to Liu's medicine farm.

[4 Wordless Tombstone]()

The world had changed, and Publican Liu’s family moved back to his home village, Peach Flower Village, a long time ago. After a lot of trouble, Constant Fair was sent to the cemetery of Peach Flower Village by a carter who took pity on him.
At the cemetery, Constant Fair read the inscriptions on every grave, but he did not find Publican Liu's name. He was so tired that he sat down to rest in front of a wordless tombstone. At that moment, a woman wearing mourning clothes came to him. He hurriedly stood up and asked, "Dare I ask this big sister, whose grave is this?"
Woman replied, “This is my father's tomb.”
Constant Fair hurriedly asked, “Can I ask what your father's name is?”
Woman said, “My father said I was not his daughter, caused him to die with eyes open, would not allow me to say his name at his grave.”
The two then talked at the grave. Constant Fair first told his story; then the woman told hers.
Woman said, “When I was born, have a peach flower birthmark on my leg, so people called me Peach Flower Girl. When I grew up, I was picky in choosing husband, couldn't find one. My father appointed one for me, a longtime laborer in our medicine farm. His name was Constant Fair, was a fool. I did not agree. Later, my father had a small courtyard built up, and he planned to confine him and me there, not letting us out until we married. In the middle of a night, I created an opportunity for one of Constant Fair's friends to slip out, so Constant Fair ran away. My father sent people to look for him everywhere. A few years later, my dad became seriously ill, so we moved back to our home village. Not long after, my dad passed away.”
Peach Flower Girl said: “Before my father died, he said to me, ‘You are not a real woman, you are not destined to have a husband, and you can't enjoy the happiness of being a woman; therefore, I have detained a husband for you. You can only be happy if you marry him. One day, after I die, a man will come to my grave to commonwealth and bow to me. At that time, you will take these two letters: one is my will; another is eight hieroglyphics that I summarized what I have learned and done in my whole life. You ask him to guess the eight hieroglyphics. If he does, he is your husband. You kneel and ask to marry him.' My father handed this dagger (which is a Philosopher Stone Pestle) to me and said, ‘If he doesn't agree, you kill yourself with it.'"
Peach Flower Girl continued, “Years passed, and no one came to visit his grave. I had not the heart to marry anyone either. A few days ago, I heard that a man was going around looking for a grave. I asked my butler to see what was going on. He followed you and saw your fainting, so he carried you here. I will send someone to bring you some food later.” Peach Flower Girl finished her talk, turned around heading back to the village.

5 Mental Illness Treatment

Constant Fair felt more comfortable, but chest is still congested, in front of the grave to cry loudly, while crying while thinking: what is Publican Liu’s life doing? He thought about it for two days and two nights but could not figure it out.
At dawn on the third day, Constant Fair heard someone call his name, like his father. At that moment, the man said again, “Constant Fair! Do you not even recognize me!?” As the man set down the meal, he said, “Look at what I brought, all your favorite foods when you were a child.” Only then did Constant Fair notice that this meal delivery man was Uncle Grain, who had taken care of him as a child and treated him the best.
Uncle Grain said, “When the old master was alive, he would always ask me to bring you some of the delicious food made in the backyard kitchen. Every time, he told me, ‘Just say whoever sent it, do not say I sent it.’ These are all your favorites, eat them while they're hot to warm your body.”
Uncle Grain continued, “The day before yesterday, Lady said that you were not sick. I came to bring you food, saw that you were sick all over. Last night, I went to my Ninth Uncle's house, who is a famous medical doctor in this area. I told him about your condition and begged him bitterly. My uncle was cornered, so he told me, ‘This is a matter of life and death, you must not tell outsiders. Yesterday, a few of us old doctors discussed Constant Fair’s case. Your old Master Liu is a famous benefactor, who all know for hundreds of kilometers around. But he was so unfair to Mr. Fair that he put his life in danger. Publican Liu was a rare man of the world, and if he were to cast the curse of ‘Death with Eyes Open’, it would certainly be done seamlessly.’”
Uncle Grain said: "I then flattered my uncle: Uncle you very knowledgeable! But in the end, I don’t understand what the cause of Constant Fair's illness is. Our old master asked Constant Fair to guess the eight words that summarized his life's learning and doing, but how could Constant Fair guess out with his little literal inks? Can you make it simple for me? I need to understand, otherwise I came begging you for nothing!”
“My uncle said, Constant Fair is also a scholar! He grew up with Publican Liu, how could he be less educated?”
“I said, I watched Constant Fair grow up, he was stupid since he was a child! He was afraid of being beaten by the teacher at school, often skipped school. Old Master Liu trusted me and asked me to take care of him. I was lazy and concealed on either end. Every time our old Master Liu asked me, I told him that Constant Fair was smart and diligent, but he was always stupid and didn't learn well. Later, Master Liu asked me to lend Constant Fair his favorite books. Whether Constant Fair read it or not, I told old Master Liu that, ‘Constant Fair liked it so much that he read it two or three times, could almost recite it'.”
“My uncle scolded me, ‘Why do you work like this! Publican Liu's godly business is ruined by you!’.”
“I say, Uncle Ninth! It's useless for you to scold me, even to beat me. If Constant Fair sickly died, haven’t I been a man in vain! Then I won't live long. Constant Fair has been kind and filial since he was a child, how could he get this strange disease! Isn't this someone setting him up!”
“My Ninth Uncle immediately said, ‘That's right! Publica Liu died with eyes open; and he and Constant Fair had a factual father-son relationship. Constant Fair, he is a great rebel, self-inflicted sin, could not live! But he was framed also. That's what's illness with him. If word of this gets out, your Publican Liu will be disgraced! Don't you understand? Then what's the Liu family spying on everyone in our village now!”
Note 5: Uncle Dragon said that in the original story of Peach Flower Catastrophe, the original author used Taoism, Buddhism, Confucianism, God Theory, Ghost Theory, and other twenty more ancient Chinese philosophies to discuss the cause and treatment of Constant Fair's illness.
Uncle Grain said to Constant Fair, “I then knelt down to my Ninth Uncle and begged him to come up with a solution.”
“Ninth Uncle said, ‘I didn't realize that this matter had brought you into the circle. Yes, this happened in our Peach Flower Village, several of us old doctors feel frustrated and irritated. This medicine is the result of our discussion yesterday. But if the mental illness is not removed, Constant Fair's physical illness will not be cured.'”
Uncle Grain continued to say, “I said to my Ninth Uncle, ‘Our old Master is a learned man, and he asked Constant Fair to guess eight hieroglyphics, but with Constant Fair's little learning, he couldn't guess them! What, according to you, Uncle, are those words?”
“My uncle immediately became angry! He shouted, ‘Good Son’s Uncle (that is real name for Uncle Grain)! In terms of seniority, I'm your uncle; in terms of age, you're still two years older than me.' How can you say that?”
“Later, my uncle explained: ‘Publican Liu learned Taoism from Extremely-Vague Real-Human (Annotation, also being called Non-Position Real-Human that is True Suchness, is nature law) in his early years and was the closing door (i.e., the last) disciple, who had received real teachings. In terms of seniority, he is my teacher uncle. My teacher uncle set up a trap and I'm here to break it, that is I am cheating on teacher, terminating ancestors! But in terms of Publican Liu's personality, he's not a man who bites off more than he can chew and shows off his metaphysics; for a scholar, those should be a few common hieroglyphics.’”
“I asked my Ninth Uncle what I can do for Constant Fair then?”
“He said, ‘Tell Constant Fair truthfully all that Publican Liu had asked you to do to him behind his back！Let him comply with Publican Liu's wish, that's the only way out, otherwise, he surely dies.'"
Uncle Grain looked around again, handed Constant Fair the medicines for internal and external use, such as Shenling Baizhu San (that is a popular ancient remedy for gastrointestinal ulcers), and whispered, “I have to go, if not they may never let me bring you food again.”

6 Fate Through

Constant Fair sent Uncle Grain away, while eating while tears dripping. He was sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes crying, sometimes angry, sometimes leisurely, thinking, thinking, thinking, he remembered what happened to him when he was a child (what is called Fate Through).
Constant Fair lost his mother when he was young and lived with his sick father. One day, he saw children eating candied haws on the street, and he cried and asked his father for them. His father carried him outside the courtyard of Publican Liu, pointed to the big house of the Liu family and said: "You are engaged to the eldest lady of this family, but our family is poor! We don't expect this marriage. Dad is sick. When Dad is gone, you come to his house. When you grow up and make money by yourself, then you can buy whatever you like!"
At this time, Constant Fair came up with the first four hieroglyphics of eight, “former generation’s marriage reasoning factor”.
On the fourth day, three shopkeepers came to visit Constant Fair and said, “To tell you the truth! We were all present when the old Boss Liu died. He really could not rest in peace. Why did he die with eyes open? We all know! Peach Flower Girl is stubborn, she never believed a word the old Boss Liu said since child. Death with eyes open, all because of worrying about her! The spirits keeping term had not even passed, so she gritted her teeth and said, ‘My dad died with eyes open because he was mesmerized by that stupid guy Constant Fair.’ She swore she would kill you and sent people around to look for you.”
Constant Fair said, “Thank brothers, for your truthful words, but I am still willing to stay here for spirits keeping, and to think out his will.” After the shopkeepers left, Constant Fair threw himself on the Publican Liu's wordless tombstone and cried aloud. While crying, while thinking, I was stupid since childhood, not good at reading, often beaten and scolded by teachers. When I grew up, I was slow in learning to do business and often made mistakes. Fortunately, Publican Liu's favoritism harboring, I strugglingly learned some pharmacy to rely on for life. Since leaving Liu's family, I was not able to return home, and there was no place to complain about the bitter, barely able to support myself, until now nothing has been accomplished. The old master Liu chose me to take care of his family, causing the merchant group to fall apart. Crying, Constant Fair felt a stream of warmth flow like warm water from top of his head to his whole body, after that, he felt much more comfortable in his heart and body than before.
On the fifth day, several shopkeepers came to advise Constant Fair again: "Old Master Liu is erudite and a rare man of the world, how can we guess his mind! The Peach Flower Girl is a temperamental person with a goddess’ face and a scorpion’s heart, no one can get a good fruit with her. It's not worth wasting time here for a woman like her. Go! We several old brothers will gather money for your treatment, we don't need her Peach Flower Girl!"
Constant Fair said, “Thank brothers, for your truthful words, but I am still willing to stay here for spirits keeping and to figure out old master’s last words.” After the shopkeepers left, Constant Fair threw himself on the wordless tombstone and cried loudly. As he cried, he thought, “Is it true that I don't have that kind of learning and can't come up with that kind of words!?”
For many days, Constant Fair's friends came to persuade him every day: “What if you guessed those eight words? Peach Flower Girl will not do what our old boss wanted! You are so sick now, and she said you are not sick. Since you came back, no one has seen her sad for you. She is still happy, admiring flowers in the backyard, and still has leisure heart to read books. Some people also saw her laugh stealthily in the garden.”
One day, in the Peach Flower Village's auditorium, Peach Flower Girl was deliberating with the shopkeepers when a little servant ran in in a panic, shouting, “It's no good! The new Boss fainted on the mountain!”
Peach Flower Girl rebuked sharply: "Shut up! Who is your new Boss!"
The little servant hurriedly changed his words and said: “The new son-in-law fainted on the mountain!”
Peach Flower Girl was furious: “Get out of here! Let you watch him! It's that if he dies, don't let the wild dogs carry his corpse away, so that I can have something to build his grave and wear mourning for him!"
A shopkeeper said anxiously to Peach Flower Girl: “Big Boss! You're the best healer in this house, we must immediately go to the mountain to look!”
Peach Flower Girl was indeed a skilled healer, after a few pinches here and pokes there, Constant Fair woke up. Peach Flower Girl stood up and said, “He's not sick”, then, went back to the village.
On this day, several shopkeepers came to Constant Fair's tent again and said: “O brother! This time we are not here to advise you, but to bid you farewell. As you know, the world is going downhill, and people's hearts are not in the right place. It is hard to business nowadays, the business of all our pharmacies is getting worse day by day, also we must support our families.”
Constant fair became anxious when he heard this: “You've all left! What about our lady!?”
A shopkeeper said angrily: “This is something I really don't understand! Your own life is at stake, and you're still thinking about her!”
Constant Fair froze, sighed, and muttered involuntarily: “This is my fate!”
The shopkeeper yelled: “I know you don't believe in God, Buddha, or ghost, when did you start believing in fate!?”
At that moment the old butler came running in a great hurry, gasping for breath as he said: “I thought I wouldn't be able to catch up with you!”
A shopkeeper said to him: “I thought you weren't leaving! Why do you still come to us!”
Constant fair asked the old butler: “Why don't you leave？”
The old butler said: “I took an oath! Once the old Big Boss told me in tears, ‘Peach Flower Girl has been afraid of being alone since she was a child! I'm most afraid that in the future she won't even have anyone to talk to around her.' So, I swore, ‘Don't worry! Big Boss, no matter what happens, I'll stay by her side and talk to her.’”
A shopkeeper asked: “Then what are you doing here?”
The old butler said: “I was afraid that our lady had secretly changed the old Big Boss’ will, so I made a copy and replaced the real one with a fake one. I also have no place to keep this will, I trust you shop managers and want you to keep it for me.” The old butler said, handing the letter to the shopkeepers, and added: “I must go back; our lady can't be left without someone to talk to.”
Constant Fair realized and said: “I guessed it! Brothers! Our lady is a person who loves face, for my sake, stay for a few more days.” Saying this, he wrote eight hieroglyphics, “Former Generation’s Marriage Factors, Predetermining Fate”.

7 Nude Wedding

Early the next morning, Constant Fair, and the shopkeepers, as well as the villagers, all came to the hall of Peach Flower Village for the ceremony of announcing Publican Liu’s Will. Peach Flower Girl opened the letter with the eight-hieroglyphics testament and saw that Constant Fair had guessed correctly, so she said, "Then I will go and fetch the will."
The people waited in the hall. The old butler, anxious, went to Constant Fair and whispered, “The false will, I'm afraid she'll change it too!” Shopkeepers all felt that it made sense. So, the old butler led the way, and the group went together to the backyard to look.
One smells the smell of burning paper as one enters the study. Peach Flower Girl was there reading the will! Seeing that people were coming, she smiled and said, "I just wanted to read my father's will first, so I made the group wait impatiently! Good! Let's just go back to the hall!"
The old butler tugged at Constant Fair's sleeve and whispered, "Announce the will right here!" One of the shopkeepers understood and said, "Big Boss! Everyone is here, let's read the will here!"
Peach Flower Girl smiled and said, “It's not so bad to be in a hurry for a while, I think it's better to look dignified in the hall. Constant Fair! What do you think?”
Constant Fair said, "I also think that there is more solemnity in the hall, there are still many clan members waiting there!"
On the way back to the hall, the old butler pulled Constant Fair aside and asked, "When you entered the house, didn't you smell the odor of burning paper?"
Constant Fair replied, "I did!"
The old butler said, "Isn't it obvious! She created a fake will and burned the old boss’ will. By the time we got back to the hall, the ink on the will she wrote was dry."
Constant Fair replied, "The old boss made the will, and his daughter wants to change it. What does that have to do with me?"
When the old butler heard this, he fell and said, "This has something to do with me! I've been the old boss’ butler for 50 years, and I can't even keep his will safe, so how am I going to see the old boss after I die! Constant Fair! You must help me!"
Constant Fair said to him, “You do this and this…”
When the two of them returned to the hall, people were waiting for them! Peach Flower Girl asked Constant Fair, "Who do you think will read the will?"
The old butler volunteered, “If the people trust me, I am willing to issue the will on behalf of Publican Liu." The people all agreed that the old butler was indeed the right person to represent the old proprietor Liu, so he read out the will.
According to the will, all the property of Publican Liu is inherited by Constant Fair, and Peach Flower Girl and Constant Fair hold a nude wedding in front of Publican Liu's grave. When the old butler handed over the will to the clan for checking, people find that what is written in the will is different from what the old butler read, so they asked the old butler, “what is going on?”
Peach Flower Girl heard and saw clearly: butler did not read it as she had written it; he had recited the will of Publican Liu. Shame on her; everything was just as Papa had said, and she didn't even have one trustworthy person by her side. "What's the point of you living! It's better to die!" Thinking about what her father had said, the Peach Flower Girl literally pulled out the Philosopher-Stone Pestle, wanted to kill herself.
Constant Fair was prepared and snatched the dagger with one hand. Peach Flower Girl was stunned, and her anger rose from her heart. At this moment, people heard a "plop" sound! It turned out to be the old butler kneeling while howling loudly: "Old master! I'm sorry! Lady! I'm sorry!"
People were shocked, and hurriedly asked what was going on. The old butler crawled to Peach Flower Girl and hugged her legs, crying as he said, "My lady! It's all because of me, the old family slave that I'm all faults!"
Peach Flower Girl asked in surprise, "Old Uncle! What are you doing! Stand up if you have something to say and speak slowly."
The old butler said, “If you don't forgive me and promise me you won't kill yourself anymore, I'll die here on my knees. If Missy is dead, I don't want to live anymore! But I can't die, I don't have the face to see the old master!”
People advised Peach Flower Girl, “Speak up! The old butler is so old, it's not decent for him to kneel like this!” The two of them were at a standstill for a while. Peach Flower Girl was over it and had a step to take. She promised to forgive the old butler and not to kill herself.
People asked the old butler, "What on earth is going on? No one understands if you don't tell them!"
The old butler said, “I was afraid that Missy would read the real will and commit suicide, so I wrote a fake will and gave the real one to those shop managers for safekeeping.”
People then asked those shop managers, “Where's the real will? Take it out quickly!”
The clan checked the will and confirmed that it was Publican Liu's handwriting. Constant Fair suggested, “Burn this fake will, don't make things difficult for the old butler.”
Those shop managers asked Peach Flower Girl, “Big Boss! What should we do about this?”
How smart Peach Flower Girl is! After looked and listened, she understood everything and said, “Then leave it all to you managers!" She stood up and went back to the backyard. Those shop mangers discussed, this is a matter of life and death! Everyone who should be here is already here. The wedding should take place immediately!
On the same day, everyone went to the mountain. Constant fair and Peach Flower Girl married naked in public in front of the grave. As soon as the two of them kowtowed in front of Publican Liu’s wordless tombstone, people saw turquoise smoke rising from Publican Liu’s grave. Crowds cheered: Auspicious! Auspicious! Auspicious! Auspicious!
What is auspicious? As the old saying goes something old, something new, something borrowed, something turquoise blue!
What is the old? The wordless tombstone is the tombstone of an ancient god, and there is this legend in many cultures around the world, no one knows how old it is.
What's the new? The ancient wordless tombstone manifests words again, this Peach Flower Catastrophe story is new.
What is borrowed? The eyes of audiences and readers of the Peach Flower Catastrophe are borrowed. Publican Liu left words in his will: I want Constant fair and Peach Flower Girl to nakedly commonwealth and bow to my grave, let the audience and Peach Flower Catastrophe story readers laugh at this pair of beastly unfilial children instead of me.
What's the turquoise blue? That turquoise blue smoke! Turquoise blue is a greenish blue color, a constant of Constant Silent Sky which can represent God.
The End

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I woke up in a place I was not supposed to be.
It was a dark, damp place, but as I rose and cracked my back, I noticed it was warm still, and even somewhat humid. The walls were made of solid, smooth granite, and there was no ceiling. Instead, a brilliant night sky filled with stars along with all sorts of exquisite nebula and aurora was all I could see, so perfect it almost felt like the work of a master painter.
I sat up and cracked my back, looking around. Elegant wall sconces were bolted to the marble with silver, and they glowered with exotic blue flame. The walls rose up a good twelve or so feet, just high enough for it to be near impossible to climb from the wetness. Most interesting, however, was a depression in the center of the room in the shape of a square, filled with crystal clear water. In the center, a single giant water lotus floated, nearly ready to bloom but not quite there yet. A fountain bubbled at the far end of the pool, creating an elegant little water cycle that was strangely mesmerizing.
“Hello?” I spoke, my voice echoing off the walls. Nothing, no response. I turned around and looked behind me, but nothing still, just another granite wall, albeit one with some strange runic engravings. This has to be a dream, right? I remembered falling asleep in the best room of the Inn, so all of this meant nothing.
“Does it, though?” An effeminate voice from behind me spoke. I spun around and extended my claws instinctively, ready to fight, but all I saw was a woman. She was a petite thing, kneeling on a plush matt next to the pool, scooping out some of the water with an elegant jug carved from onyx that resembled an amphora, albeit short and stout. Her hair was a silky black, like strands of twilight, and it fell down her shoulders effortlessly. Her eyes were almond-shaped and a deep jade green, and her roman nose was thin and angular, as was her chin. A white robe covered her body as she knelt over and pulled the jug out before carefully pouring some into a ceramic teapot over a small fire next to her.
“Who are you? Why am I here?”
“I thought all of this meant nothing,” she said in a coy manner, although her simple smile did curve upward in a more mischievous manner at the corners. “If it all means nothing, then why ask for my name, or for your purpose?”
“You can't just… how can you even hear my thoughts? That's not possible,” I spoke, but I immediately knew I was wrong. The Journal could hear my thoughts so apparently nothing was sacred.
“It seems that the rules perturb you,” she spoke as she tossed a few ingredients into the teapot, mint and lemongrass, ginger and sassafras. Then she popped the lid on gently and sat in a kneeling position, analyzing me, “that is to be expected, but you'll become acquainted with them soon enough. With every test comes rules.”
I gulped, uncomfortable with how unconcerned she was by the fact that a mostly nude lizard guy was just standing in front of her. “Okay, then, what is your name?”
“You first,” she said, and I could see her lips barely form into a shit-eating grin, although it quickly returned to its former, placid shape, “I am only toying with you, novice. As for my name… well, I have gone by so many. You may call me Araquiel, for I shall lead you to judgment.”
Her words made my blood freeze. “Judgment? What do you mean?”
She merely laughed, but it wasn't a malicious laugh. “Be not afraid, don't treat this as some kind of court trial, but rather a… field test. You will understand eventually.”
“I'm so sick of not knowing what the hell is going on,” I hissed, “I don't even know who I am? And now I have to play these games with you people?”
“Most would kill for your opportunity,” she spoke calmly, although her tone of voice carried a certain weight it hadn't before, “most would sacrifice everything, even life itself. What you are experiencing is something that could determine the fate of so many worlds. Yet, it is also quite an enigmatic way of going about things, I will admit. The proctor is a bit peculiar in that regard.”
“Proctor? You make this sound like the SATs, not me being forcibly given amnesia and dropped into some stupid fantasy world.”
“They are comparable,” she explained, “your decisions will decide the fate of so much, and you also have tools at your disposal.” She then held out her hand, and in it appeared the Journal that I had initially found in the room within the tomb. “Your journal, yes? He is undoubtedly your most useful tool, although the true extent of his abilities is only available to the most experienced and creative. Think of him as a calculator: he can answer your questions, but like any calculator his ability to conjure the answers you seek will always be limited.”
“Then what's the use? Why can't I just ask him what to do? He's always such a smartass…” I said, my frustrations initially taking precedence over the fact that a journal of all things will had a gender.
“You're using him wrong, and not trusting your own intuition,” she explained, pulling the teapot off the fire and opening it before wafting the smell towards her nose, “I always pick and choose my words carefully and with purpose, and when I compared him to a calculator it was for a good reason: he isn't some psychic who will read your future, nor a magic eight ball who can blindly make choices for you, he simply takes the details you have, and sheds light on them, such as all calculators do. He cannot tell you the meaning of life, but he can help you piece the clues you find throughout it together, and answer questions about any local lore. You will always know his intentions, and therefore there is strength in his limitations, not weakness.”
And then what are you supposed to be, if you're not that supposed Proctor?” I asked, “I must be here for a reason, right?”
“It seems we have come full circle, from apathy to curiosity,” she spoke as she poured the tea into two little teacups, one for each of us, “And what am I? An excellent question. Think of me as a kind of very special ruler, but instead of inches or centimeters I'll measure your progress, although it's also so much more. Needless to say, when you wake up, you will have changed from the previous day’s events. Not by much, mind you, but over time the little changes will become noticable, and you eventually may even be able to determine in what direction these changes will go. But for now, take solace in the fact that you are growing.”
“And what have you measured? What makes me… change?”
“Achievement. Yesterday you had slain your first powerful foe, the old dreygur king Fredrik Ornsson. As you achieve milestones and do great things, your body, mind, and soul will be shaped into something more defined than a simple wandering swordsman.”
“I don't know what to think of that.”
“Then don't,” she commanded, and I felt compelled to obey, “simply step into the water so we may wash off the imperfections whittled away by the blade, and then we may continue.”
Seemingly acting on its own, my body stepped forward, and eventually I dipped myself into the water, laying down in the pool and floating on my back. It felt wonderful, like a rush of cool wind on a hot summer day, and when I opened my eyes the sky seemed even more brilliant than before. The woman pulled out a sponge, and not the modern, industrial kind but rather a dried out sea sponge shaped into a cylinder, and then she snapped her fingers. With a soft, glowing light the lotus bloomed a mesmerizing pink, and she plucked off a single petal before blowing on it. It crumbled to dust and fused with the sponge.
“Relax, and enjoy this. You have had a rough day, and I shall wash you anew.”
I didn't remember how long it lasted, but I knew that it felt amazing. The smell was sweet and refreshing, like lemon, linen, and a warm ocean breeze, and each movement was delicate and purposeful. She sang a simple tune as she worked, which felt important somehow. “Only those amongst the stars know just where we are, only those who shape our dreams know exactly what they mean…” It was simple, but I didn't doubt that to her the meaning it held must have been incredibly profound.
When she was finished, I sat up in the water, and I felt different. I felt more awake and alert, and everything felt better. The night was cool but not chilly, and as she handed me a teacup I was actually in a good mood for once.
“Drink. Take on the new after you have been rid of the old,” she explained. I did so, expecting the test to taste hot, but it didn't. It was cool and refreshing despite it producing plenty of steam, with subtle hints of sweet, sour, and earthy notes from the ingredients. Instantly, I felt invigorated, and while I wanted to stand up and move around, she pushed me back down in the water.
“Now it is time to go. Have patience, and stay true to your heart, and you shall pass this test.”
“Why can't you just tell me what I need to do to pass the test? What am I being tested on?”
“If I told you, it would invalidate the point of the test,” she explained, “The most effective test of one's character is the kind you cannot prepare for. Now wake up: you have much to do. Wake up and be a hero.”
And then I woke up. In fact, I shot up in the bed, breathing heavily. What was that dream? It felt so real. I could practically still feel the water on my skin, but then as I ran my reptilian hands across my body I realized I was dry, and I didn't even have skin to begin with: I was covered in thick blue scales and bony plates along my back. That still felt wrong, and I knew it would take time to get used to.
I sat in the bed with my legs dangling over the side, wearing only my linen braies and rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. The invigoration from my dream must have been symbolic, because I felt like shit. My back felt great, and my feet didn't ache, but I had that sick feeling you'd get in the morning, or after a short nap, and didn't sleep enough. I wasn't tired, but I wasn't awake either.
The window was closed, or at least the shutters were since there was no glass, but I could still hear frogs and toads croaking outside, and the birds singing. It was cold too, some would say frigid, but the fireplace kept the cold seeping from the shutters at bay, allowing me to stand up without more than my undergarments. I dressed in the only set of clothes I had, and realized that I was going to need a lot of stuff. Even with the rations and the gold, my pack was barely a third full, and I could probably get another set of clothes just in case these ripped or got too dirty and needed a wash.
As I stepped out of the room, dressed and armored up, the entire Inn turned and stared at me. There were maybe a dozen, if not more, people eating breakfast and drinking ale. I gulped and thought about turning back, but Æstrid came out from behind the bar and waved her broom around. “Back to yer meals you fools, the lord deserves some respect.” She then hobbled over to me and bowed. “Forgive em M'lord, they don't know any better, you aren't exactly dressed for the part.”
“I figured,” I said with a sigh, “And they don't like dragon-kin?”
“No… maybe, I suppose, not since Kothtal failed to return. He swore to slay the members of the cult out in the wilds, but he never returned. It's not their fault, they just put all their hope in him, and he either died out there or left.”
I thought about that for a moment, and then remembered what the lady from my dreams, Araquiel, said. “I should look into that, see if I could find his body. He deserves a proper burial, doesn't he?”
“Aye, he does, M'lord,” Æstrid said, “And I think the Høbding would appreciate it if you brought honor to his old mentor, especially since he's been in mourning since his father passed. The lot of us would appreciate it, now that I say it, if you brought him back so he could be buried.”
I nodded. “I'll look into that, and I'll bring back his body, but I need to prepare first. In the meantime, I could go for some breakfast.”

I am really confused about my sexuality. The first time I ever jerked off was when I was a young teen and it was actually to a woman with big 00s. But overtime I realized that I was more into--to be honest but vulgar--men's cocks. I also looked at men in a romantic way and I always had my eye out for men's bulges. I also prefer a guy's ass to a woman's ass.
But like, that's it. What I think about when jerking off is how hot the other person is. I've always been confused when I hear people talk about watching hardcore porn, and I mean like full penetration and everything, because I am not attracted to that shit. It's like nasty, and when it comes to "you pretending your the one in the video" I can't even come close to that. Idk whenever I tried watching straight hardcore porn when I was younger I was repulsed by it and had to stop watching in seconds, and the same kinda with gay porn too. It's like the reaction you get staring at the sun or being sent a gore photo. I'm just not a hardcore porn guy. For some reason my primary form of porn is like clothed, and sometimes nude but not involving sex.
When it comes to having sex with someone, I am very confused. I know i'm not straight, because I've listened to Men for my whole life and I know how they talk about women. How they talk about like "eating pussy" or attraction to women's vaginas, and while I can understand finding a round ass attractive, I am so far removed from the mindset of whatever those people are thinking that I know I'm on Neptune and they're on Earth when it comes to being straight. As for Men, the golden question always arises, are you top or bottom or verse. My answer is I don't know. My christian upbringing already makes me feel like an FBI-most-wanted person whenever I do or think about gay shit, so I know that I'm biased AF toward not being a bottom.
But that being said while I said earlier I like Men's asses this is where I am about to be dumb. I cannot reconcile being attracted to ass, but also knowing that that's where poop comes from. Eating ass seems nasty as fuck. Not saying eating V is any better. Like it's literally dirty, I have had such bad bowel movements this year alone it makes me wonder how I could ever top someone knowing how stinky their ass is.
What get's me the most is the smell, it's what causes bathrooms to smell so horrible. Like I literally can't imagine fucking a dude and it not smelling like shit and farts. As to how cocks are no different because they also excrete bodily fluid, idk piss seems so much less gross and messy. Piss is like silly water, but I am grossed out by that too and if a dude i'm with pisses i would feel grossed out and turned off. Idk poop smells a lot worse and it just seems so much worse than piss. I mean cum is already like white piss. I am so sorry if you're still reading this.
One time this dude sent me a photo of his asshole, and I jumped because it was just nasty to see that. I thought, are people really attracted to that? (The same thought as before but not with vaginas this time.) Hell even the famous Goat-see image where a dude spreads his cheeks wide enough to fit a cargo ship in, actually first came from a gay porn magazine, meaning people were actually jerking off to that. And I cannot fathom that. Idk I seem to be stuck in this stun lock where I'm obviously horny or whatever but repulsed by it at the same time so I'm just like IDK what to think.
I know all this sounds stupid as fuck and I can understand if you take this as like a troll post or something but these are my honest thoughts. I posted about this in a relationship advice subreddit and I got banned, and the mods told me to fuck off. So there's that. Anyway thanks for reading, here's some background on me since I don't post here often.

For the original post, visit here: https://www.reddit.com/CharlotteDobreYouTube/comments/1cfl5w1/exposing_exhusband_coming_soon/
Hello everyone, we have some major updates to this coming Petty Revenge story that will involve exposing my ex-husband for who he is and trying to protect the next person from falling into his trap. They will be coming in a separate post once I get everything together.
This is my story for context with the ex-husband. It will be a longer post, to be warned. Trigger warning for those who may be sensitive to stories about abuse and self-harm
Since my original post, the woman who is currently with my ex-husband, (not with as in together, anymore. With as in living with currently until she can find a new place for her and her kids), we have continued to stay in contact, and boy is this the drama intensifying. In short, the ex-husband is still playing his horrible games and turning her life into an ever-living hell.
Some backstory on my side. I will shorten my ex-husband to EH.
I (28F) and EH (36 M) met when I was 18 and he was 26, so there was a bit of an age gap, but that did not matter to either of us. We got engaged roughly 4 or 5 months after we started officially dating and we moved in together at the request of my parents as we could not fit everyone into the same home we were renting at the time. Things of course started off great. He seemed like a decent man who had his life at least somewhat figured out. He loved to cook and usually worked in some form of cooking-related job. However, never really seemed to be able to keep a job for too long but at the time, I didn't think much of it, given I was 19 and wearing rose-tinted glasses.
Since he couldn't hold a job and we usually had to ask his grandmother for money to keep up with the rent (both worked basically minimum wage jobs at the time) so after a year out of the house, we had to move back in with my parents.
Once we got settled back in there, I started a better-paying job and he had started a new job that was at least okay paying as well so for a bit we were doing okay. We made enough that we adopted 2 horses together and boarded them at a nearby facility. One came in late spring, the other in the summer of about 2016. So after 2 years of being together.
We got married that same year in the fall. Everything seemed perfect. Then came the wedding night... What I thought was my monthly woke me in the middle of the night before it was time to get up to leave for our honeymoon because I was suddenly bleeding very heavily, it freaked me out and we silently went to the ER without telling my family to not cause alarm. Come to find out, I was having a miscarriage. I was a little over 6 weeks pregnant and did not know. Needless to say, not exactly the best way to start your marriage, and did not go on our honeymoon. We never told my parents it happened and very few people know.
We held off until the following year, 2017, to go on our honeymoon. While we were on our honeymoon, I got a call that my mare had come down with a fever and the stable owner was calling vets out to see what was wrong. The first vet played it off saying it was just minor, gave her penicillin, and told the stable owner to give her a cool bath to help her cool down and see if it helped. It did not. They called a 2nd vet after that was not working for a second opinion, and my mare was diagnosed with Potomac Fever. Since it had been a few days since she started her fever, giving her the correct medicines at that point as she was getting very poorly was a 50/50 chance of whether they would help or not. We did cut our vacation as short as we could, but we ended up having to wait to come home as our board check removed what we had left to come home on so we had no money until we got paid again, luckily that same week.
The day before we were able to return, my favorite singer, Chester Bennington passed away. I was devasted. When we did get to the stable, we bought some supplies the stable owner advised us to get, mainly wraps and bags of ice to help ice my mare's feet to try to help keep her fever at bay. We were advised by the vet when they stopped by the check on her that the next day they would bring out an x-ray machine to see if the bones in her feet had turned down or not. If they had not, then she had a chance of making a full recovery and staying sound, and everything would be okay. If they had, then she would likely never be able to be ridden again and need a lot of corrective shoeing and therapy which would be very expensive. We were also trying to keep her on her feet as if she went down and we could not get her back up, it would be a death sentence.
The next morning I went to the stable as early as I was able and.. disaster. I was met by the stable owner and he had advised that my mare had been down when he checked on her sometime in the early morning, around 3 or 4 AM. He was able to get her up then but wasn't able to tell how long she had been down before he found her and got her up, however, she had gone down again and had refused to get up. I was so heartbroken and went to her and tried for a good hour or so while my parents showed up. I was in tears telling them we'd probably be putting her down because she was down. We did get her up, but the damage at that point was done. She was down way too long and she has very noticeable nerve damage. Hardly able to walk, went to the bathroom in spurts, and was so unsteady on her feet that she could barely stay up. When the vet came, we let her know what was going on. They looked her over and advised that her fever was gone, but the damage would probably be permanent without very expensive therapy throughout the years and would never be the same again. It was the humane choice to let her go and she crossed the rainbow bridge that day. I only had her a year and 2 weeks on the nose, but she was my best friend, my heart horse, and I miss her terribly to this day, soon to be 7 years later come July.
After this happened, EH and I went through a bit of a rocky patch. For a week or so he was supportive and seemed to care that I was grieving the loss of my mare, but after a little while it turned into arguments about how I could still be upset, time had passed we still had our other horse so I should be fine, all sorts of crazy things. I couldn't understand how he could say those things to me, especially when he knew I was so close with my mare and had many great plans with and for her that were now of course, not possible. He didn't care so I just stopped going to him when I was upset about it.
Fast forward to late fall of 2018, we decided to move out of the home we were living with my brother in and move into a house owned by his grandmother for a work opportunity for my EH. He ended up getting the job which solidified us moving. Moving didn't go so bad, however, I had to leave my job to move so I was without for a bit until I got a job at the same place he was working at, which was a casino. Usually, we worked separately as he was a cook and I was a cashier for the different food areas, but sometimes we worked in the same area. I much preferred to be in a different area than him cause if we worked in the same restaurant that night, it would get exhausting with him trying to joke around and make passes at me in front of people and joke around that it was the husband and wife team and everything was great. The first few times it happened, sure it was actually kind of funny because we had worked through some stuff and were doing okay at that point, but it did get a bit old and repetitive at some point, and never had any personal space. Plus, I was the one driving because he had a suspended license at the time so I was stuck with him most of the time after the new food court opened. We got our first puppy together for my 22nd birthday the day after New Years, 2019.
We moved on to work with a co-worker at a duck farm in the area we lived which was kind of a fun job. He was hired full-time and I was part-time. We took care of thousands of ducks every day doing whatever needed to be done from farm maintenance, giving them vaccines, sorting them, tagging them, etc. I kind of miss that job as it was an interesting one to have. All was well during these times, but we did sometimes have arguments because he felt since I didn't work as much that this somehow meant I was being lazy around the house and could stand to do more cooking and cleaning (which I was already doing a majority of anyway). It turned into a lot of gaslighting arguments that made me feel like maybe I was not doing enough so I took on more than what I was already doing. With the new puppy and at that time 7 fish tanks ranging from 5 gallons to 150 gallons with over 100 total fish and the entire house to clean and outside work to do, I was busy most of the time he was not home. Of course, as soon as he got home, he would find 1 dirty little thing that I didn't get to or something that wasn't to his standards and he'd excuse me for doing nothing or not knowing how to do anything right. We got jobs working for the same place after the duck farm mysteriously let him go for unknown reasons, which I can now only assume were his fault. We met some nice co-workers and got our second puppy from one in late fall of 2019. My dogs could be Irish twins because their birthdays are a little over 9 months apart.
Things started to decline after this, especially during covid, 2020. I got it very early on when they didn't know what it was and was bad enough that I could not work at all because I was struggling to breathe and function most of the time for months afterward. He did help me some but not much more than getting cough medicine and checking on me every once in a while other than that, he wasn't around me much due to having to work or just not coming around me when he was home, which fair, didn't want to bring sickness to the workplace. We were laid off from that job though in the downsizing.
In that time, he started abusing online slot games, and the extra money we had that we had previously discussed was to be saved for either a newer vehicle or even maybe a home of our own down the road he used to get coins or boosts in his games. They were not the ones you could win actual money from so he was just purely wasting hundreds of dollars pretty much every week or every couple of weeks on these games. I also found he had been spending money online on sites such as OF and other smut websites and paying for NSFW stuff online. Also found he was cheating on me with one person on OF when I got a pinged message from his email chats on my laptop. I, of course, wanted to see what was happening and found everything he had been saying to this girl.
He was telling her around times we'd go visit my parents for the weekend that he was going out of town to his family but didn't say with whom. They would ask him how he was single and he would just say "Oh I don't know, just unlucky I guess" and things along these longs. I wasn't even given roommate status, He stated he lived alone. Had the 2 dogs, all the fish, was woah is me with it all. I confronted him about it and of course, he tried to deny everything, tried to say I was probably the one cheating, and was just trying to blame him, you know, totally normal sane reaction... not. We got into it pretty good, nothing physical, but we did not talk to each other for a bit, I had considered leaving to be with my best friend at that time, but ultimately we started talking and wanted to attempt to work things out. He of course promised not to do it again, he'd be better, all that good stuff so I decided to give him another chance. Of course, I realize that was a major mistake now, but you live and learn, unfortunately.
Things smoothed out for a bit and went back to being okay again. We had a chance to expand our animals so we took it, it was kind of an apology gift in all honesty. We gained 4 rabbits from my best friend in the late-ish summer of 2020. I met her for the first time in the at the time 8 years we had been talking (we met online) so that was great. I am coming to realize that gaining all the animals we did in our time together may have been a coping mechanism for me because I had something that was depending on me and loved on me so in some ways I realize I do have a lot of animals due to this, but I am also an animal lover and love all of my animals and they are very much spoiled rotten every day. They still bring me immense joy and are a highlight of my life even if they were gained with EH. We still had our other horse, a gelding, at this time yet as well and he had been moved to a new boarding facility that was close to where we had moved to. So things were great at this time. In 2021 in the summer I gained a leopard gecko, and in the fall I gained a Russian tortoise as well.
Backtracking a little to around the end of August 2020, I gained my current job and I was excited to start a new at-home job so I could work and not have to worry about going out and potentially getting deathly sick again. I do have RA so I do have a compromised immune system. He started back to work where we were working as they had started hiring people back, so I was happy to have a quiet background which was needed for my job. Well, that did not last long. 2 weeks after going back, he didn't go to work for a day or 2 and I asked him if he was going to work. He stated he was using his paid vacation time and had taken the next 2 weeks off because he "needed a break" from work because he was feeling burnt out even though he had only been back 2 weeks and wanted some time to do stuff around the house. I thought this was odd and he never asked if this was okay... I only found out when he stayed home instead of going to work as scheduled.
He did go back after those 2 weeks off but he only stayed about another month and it happened again that he did not go in for a day or 2 when he was supposed to be working so I asked him what was going on. He told me he had quit the job because it was burning him out and he did not enjoy the job anymore. I found this odd yet again because he did not express any of these feelings before doing so and never asked me. I was furious and asked him how he thought this was okay because in our budget I had made up for us (because he wouldn't) there was no way for us to survive on my income alone for long and we would likely have to destroy our savings to stay afloat. He stated he would look for another job right away, he just wanted some time to figure out what he wanted to do. How, when he had only just gone back to work after about 5 months off, I don't know, but it was what it was, I made it clear he had to find work.
At that time, around the beginning of 2021 or so, maybe more coming into spring, he started his online slot spending again, and I had found he never deleted his OF account and was talking to another girl that I didn't know about saying the same things he was before, except he was talking to this girl the ENTIRE TIME he was talking to the other one. I just didn't catch it cause he had deleted messages so I didn't see it apparently when I found the first one. So not only had he lied about going to delete the OF and other smut stuff, but he had actively continued to talk to another girl for the entire year and a half almost that he claimed he was working on us and our relationship.
Needless to say, I exploded internally and waited for him to come home after helping his gram with something. I had a plan. When he got home, I played it cool like any other day. Asked him how his gram was, what he did at her house, and all that, normal. Then, I calmly asked him who the OF girl was. The color of his face went pale. Or paler anyway. At first asked, who? And acted confused. I reiterated my question of who OF girl was, this time, seriously to let him know the jig is up. He stated he didn't know who I was talking about and didn't know anyone by that name. I pulled up his OF account on my computer and was like, oh really? then explain all of this, and scrolled through the months of messages with this girl.
He had the AUDACITY to continue denying it was him and said he probably got hacked. I found a picture of him fully in the nude in the full-length mirror in the bathroom that he had sent her and said, "Oh yeah? Then how do you explain this picture?" and continued to more of his parts he was sending to the girl and continued to ask and this to all them. He had nowhere to hide. I had also already downloaded copies of everything and sent them to my best friend (the one we got the rabbits from) so in case he wanted to delete everything and call me crazy, I had the proof that I was not and he did these things.
Eventually, he admitted to continuing talking to her even though he said he had stopped. His reasoning? Apparently, he didn't feel the same spark in our marriage or relationship that he had originally felt and felt like I was distancing myself from him and it just wasn't the same between us. He also stated that he felt as if his efforts to make our relationship work weren't being seen by me and he didn't feel appreciated in the relationship. I, of course, asked him what he meant because at that point I had been just trusting his word that he wouldn't do anything else and would stop. He hadn't done anything else. No romantic gestures, no help around the house, offering to grab food when we needed it, take care of me while I was sick, offer to take over any form of bills or anything financial that I was solely doing at that point because he didn't want the responsibility of and had stated beforehand he didn't want the responsibility of.. nothing. Absolutely nothing. Everything was always on me, and I was the one burdening myself and driving myself crazy, even when I had another health scare thinking I had a DVT because I had sudden swelling in my left leg around my knee area and would get sudden bouts of breathlessness and was advised to take it easy and remove as much stress as possible for a bit in case I did have one to avoid a possible clot from going into my brain or lungs. Luckily, I did not have it, or any clots. I was under so much mental and physical stress that my body was reacting negatively.
This did not stop him from continuing my stresses at all. I also developed Vocal Cord Dysfunction when I had covid and stress makes it worse so on top of the sudden swelling and breathlessness, the stress was also activating the VCD and constantly making it feel like someone was choking me full force, which would trigger anxiety attacks because of course I felt like someone was choking me full force and like I couldn't breathe and wasn't breathing or at least wasn't breathing normally. It's an awful experience that I wouldn't wish even on my worst enemies.
Despite all the cheating, I never mentioned a word to my parents even up until that point, but they had a feeling something was going on because I was probably being a bit distant with them. I didn't want anyone to know at the time and thought I could fix things. Things only got worse. When he did finally get a job, not until mid-2021, so at that point he'd been out of work almost a year, he again picked up his gambling habits. What made things worse and started to spin more out of control was the pizza shop he had gotten a job at installed slot machines for their customers to play if they wished.
You can only guess what happened from there. While he was making decent money at the time, I saw hardly any of it because he would gamble most of his income at those slot machines. I would tell him what bills needed to go out of our joint account (I had a separate account for myself for my pay, but a portion went into the joint) from his pay, and he would say okay got it won't spend anything over that, won't play this week since we won't have a lot left over, etc etc etc... and magically pretty much all of the money would be gone and I would be forced to dip into our savings to save our bills from going out of date and overdue and gets fees we could not afford.
For context, the joint account was after I paid most of everything else out of my account before seeing what needed to go out of the joint account as well. Usually, the joint account would be needed to cover our rent to his gram, groceries, gas, vet appointments for the animals, medical or dental appointments for myself or him, and pretty much anything other than rent that was a necessity. I took care of the actual main bills out of my pay. As stated above, EH wanted nothing to do with the financial responsibility of ensuring all the bills such as our electricity, water, heat, phones, and internet were paid for on time because "I was better at keeping track of that stuff". I took that on because since I worked from home, I needed to make sure 100% I would have internet and electricity, or else I wouldn't have a job, and I couldn't lose my job over something so stupid as not paying my bills on time. I am not that irresponsible.
In about mid-fall 2021, he was at work and I had requested the day off to take our dogs, then 2 and 3, to the vet for their yearly check-ups and vaccinations so they were good for the coming year. He had just gotten paid the day before and I checked the joint account before I left the house with the dogs and saw that so far, he had not done anything with the money, so all was good and I proceeded to take the dogs to the vet. They did fine. It comes time to check out and pay for the vet visit and... the debit card for the joint account declines and says insufficient funds. Confused, I asked them to try it again before looking because I knew I saw that there was more than enough to cover their bill before I left. Nothing, same thing, it says it's declined due to insufficient funds.
I began to panic because, at this point, we had $0 in our savings because of his antics up until that point, and if I used my bank card, while it would go through, would put me into the negative until payday, which was not until the next week. I checked the joint account and low and behold, within the 2 or 3 hours I was gone, he somehow blew through almost $1,000 in withdrawals to gamble, pretty much his entire pay and I had less than $100 in that account. He had gambled his entire pay when he knew I was out to a vet appointment at that current moment. I paid with my bank card so I could leave, as at that vet clinic, you had to pay for the services before leaving or they would not let you leave, or not let you leave with your animals at the very least until the bill was paid in full. They had no bill me later options.
Needless to say, I was fuming the entire drive home and immediately messaged him about it when I got home and the dogs settled. He messaged me back right away with a BS excuse that he forgot that was what was happening that day even though right above those messages he could see I reminded him I was going to the vet, told him I was leaving for the vet, and was at the vet currently, all of which he replied to.
It of course ended up in an argument when he got home and after a long time arguing he stated he didn't understand what all the fuss was about since I had covered the bill just fine. He was using his pay the way he wanted and that's how it should be. He dared to say my pay went to what I wanted and it wasn't fair I was putting such a tight leash on him and his spending when I spent money on myself all the time, which is not true. I reminded him of this very quickly and showed him my bank account was in the negative because of today due to paying all of the necessary bills we needed, not because I was spending on myself and reminded him if I didn't pay the internet and electricity especially, I wouldn't be able to work which was not in the cards with how his spending was.
I forbade him from spending anything without my okay at this point and in a last-ditch effort, took away and cut up his bank cards and hid mine where he wouldn't find them. This did stop his spending because he didn't have a way to spend. I would only give him my bank card if he asked to get something we needed or he needed, and he was to give it back immediately after use or as soon as he could give it back if he took it to work to get something after work like smokes or something for the house. If any cash withdrawals went out, he wasn't allowed to take it again for a while. This continued into 2022 and it worked, I could relax a little as he was starting to earn trust. Say what you will, but it had to be done. At the end of 2021, 2 days before New Year 2022, we, unfortunately, lost our other horse to a long battle with sickness so we were down to just our dogs, the rabbits, reptiles, and 3 fish tanks because we decided to downgrade on the fish keeping. After all, water was getting expensive to maintain all 7 we had.
The loss of our gelding, unfortunately, turned out to be a good thing, as after we had him euthanized and I had allowed EH to have a bank card of his own again because he had been doing very well, it wasn't long before he was back to his old habits of draining his pays. Only, without the about $400 a month board for our gelding going out anymore, it was much worse. There would have been no way we would have been able to afford to keep him after that. It got to the point I again, took his card away, but then he started finding where I was hiding both of my cards and would drain not only the joint account but also my account. This led to us getting behind in rent especially, on some of my credit card payments which had by that time gotten completely maxed out, and on payments to loans I had taken out to try to get us back on track. Not good.
This continued to no avail throughout 2022. I had many conversations with friends trying to see if there was anything I could do. I was at my wits end with all the constant fighting over finances, continued accusations of cheating, making me feel like I was worthless and not doing enough to try to get him to see reason, wondering why I was not good enough for him to want to change and get his act together, mental and emotional abuse, manipulative actions, almost anything you can think of. I wanted it to stop and I was getting tired of trying. My mental and emotional health declined greatly. My friends of course wanted to support me in whatever I wanted to try to do, but they also didn't like seeing me decline as much as I was.
I had a mental breakdown one night and basically did a 2005 Brittany Spears to my hair. I didn't shave everything off, however, a good 90% of my hair was shaved off and what I did have left was very much chopped and looked horrible. I did get most of it fixed, but needed help with the back, so I asked him to try to fix it up so it didn't look so chopped off. I was already not the best mentally and my anxiety was through the roof. I had simply asked him to just be careful and not accidentally cut or nick me. Pretty simple. As I was anxious, I asked him a few times, and was a bit flinchy when he was close to me. He took this the wrong way and threw the scissors down and started screaming at me that if I wasn't going to calm down and hold still I could do it myself and blew past me out the bathroom door. The door almost hit me when he swung it open and I just completely lost it. I sobbed and was in such a bad state of mind that I ended up scratching my arms to the point I made them bleed and covered with scratches. He didn't care or do anything about it, he had gone outside and taken the car and drove up leaving me there alone. I bandaged up my arms. They stung for weeks and I still have a few light scars. Not a very proud moment, but one that drew me closer to knowing I had to leave. The stress I was under was too much.
My now current boyfriend, whom we'll call BF, (32 M) came into the mix towards the end of summer 2022, introduced to me by my best friend after she found him gaming in Fallout, mixed in with my friends, and took their stance as well that if I wanted to try to make things work, he would try to be as supportive as possible. Over time though, he and my friends slowly cracked and smashed through my rose-tinted glasses to help me see that what was happening was not my fault, and was not an okay situation to be in. My best friend then distanced herself thinking I was choosing BF over her after we started talking more and we were hanging out more playing games together. She decided to end our 11-year friendship amid things even though she knew I needed her and we were not replacing her with each other, we just happened to be growing closer. We attempted to include her in things but she chose to leave and distance herself, stating to me later she regretted ever introducing us.
My BF and other friends became my main support systems, and I decided enough was enough and it was time to let go. I had fallen out of love with my EH for some time but didn't want to admit to it. The marriage was over. I told EH I wanted a divorce but he did not believe me. He said I was being crazy for thinking we should end things, but I knew I was not.
While he was at work one night toward the end of October 2022, I went online and found a service that would assist me in getting the papers we needed to start the divorce process and bought them on the joint account so he could see I was serious.
When he came home, I was on the computer with my friends on Discord, playing a game together. He came in screaming with an anger I had never heard before... He had screamed at me before, but this was different. He was screaming at me to get out of the house, that I needed to get out now, he didn't want to see me in the morning, he didn't care if he wasn't allowed to do that cause he was doing it anyway, he was so angry and my friends and BF heard him through my headset. One of my friends told him to shut up and calm down and EF snapped and screamed at them to shut up and stay out of it.
He then came straight for me and slammed my laptop shut so hard I was afraid he broke it, ripped my headset off my head, and threw me from my chair, continuing to scream at the top of his lungs that he wanted me out right then and there if I wanted to me that way. It all happened so fast, I couldn't stop shaking and looking at him, not expecting this. He had never put his hands on me before. Ripping the headset off my head nearly caught on my industrial earring, which would have been horrible if it caught and ripped out. Luckily it didn't.
Once I got past the initial shock, I stood up and lit into him that he couldn't just kick me out because he was mad I was finally done with him and the relationship, and the audacity he had to lay his hands on me. I needed time to get a place to live because of my work. I needed to get my options figured out, get the animals we had sorted out if I could keep them all or not, everything. I needed to make sure I was sorted out and he would have to deal with the fact that I had to do these things before I could get out of the house.
His anger turned into tears and he began crying and pleading with me not to go and crying he'd do better and be a better person and all the things he promised beforehand. He couldn't believe what he saw when he saw the request for divorce papers, he was sorry for putting his hands on me, the works. It did not work. I assured him I was going and needed to get things sorted out.
The next day I called my parents and told them what had happened and that I needed a place to stay or at least help looking for a place to stay. My parents and brother agreed that they would take me in as they owned and lived in a house, and I could live in the basement of the house so I had a room to myself and had room for my animals as well. I did have to rehome 2 of the 4 rabbits, however, they went to a loving home with a cousin of my brother's girlfriend who was experienced with rabbits and currently had some that 2 could intermingle with. So that worked in my favor.
I didn't think I would have room for both dogs and rabbits remaining, so EH decided he wanted to keep 1 dog and 1 rabbit. He wanted our first dog (the one gotten for my 22nd birthday) and the original rabbit he chose from my now former best friend. I agreed and kept our 2nd dog and the original rabbit I chose from my former best friend. I also was keeping the leopard gecko, tortoise, and fish. However, my parents agreed that if in the future EH ever decided to get rid of or no longer wanted our first dog and the other rabbit, they would allow them to come as well (important in a bit).
I made the move to my parent's house in mid-November 2022 and started the process for divorce. While I was getting the first papers ready to go and sent to EH to start the process, EH would continuously text me and harass me even when I asked him to stop messaging me. He would continuously say he wanted me to stay with him, he would change, ask how I could do this to us as by that time we have been married 6 years and together for 8. Trying to manipulate me into coming back with promises of change.
My response was to send him the first official papers to start the divorce process. In my state, once you initiate the process and request for legal divorce, and the request is approved, you have to wait 90 days before you can then submit the final paperwork to request to make the divorce official because the relationship is not going to work, both parties want the divorce, etc.
I had to send the papers a second time because they were not done properly the first time, but the second try was approved so the 90-day waiting time to submit the final papers began.
He continued to harass and message me multiple times throughout the first month, and then his harassment to try to get me to stay turned into distasteful language and cursing me out, saying he didn't need me he already moved on and had someone else so didn't need me anymore. All ploys were more than likely to see if I would suddenly want him. I did not react other than to say good because I had also already moved on and was with someone, my BF, so I was looking forward to being rid of him so I could be with my BF in peace and not have to worry about him anymore.
At that, he stopped messaging me finally, and I moved all correspondence to email instead of text and messenger for more formal communications only when I had updates regarding our pending divorce.
In about April 2023, I had a bad feeling about the well-being of my first dog and other rabbit so in an update email to let him know we had reached the 90th day so the next day I could start getting the finalization paperwork in, I asked him how both were doing and if I may have a picture of them just to ease my mind that they were doing okay and was maybe just nerves about losing them for good.
He met this simple request with utter anger and venom, stating he didn't have to tell me how they were doing and wasn't going to send any pictures. I was being crazy, they were fine so I shouldn't be asking or worrying about anything. This set alarm bells off in my mind because it was just a simple request to see how they were doing, and so far, legally, still, partly my animals until the divorce was final. I advised him of this and this time demanded proof that both the dog and rabbit were doing well or I would be calling animal welfare as a precaution to ensure their well-being and would want them back ASAP if not met, as I wanted them back if he was not taking care of them.
He again refused stating he didn't have to prove anything and that if I asked again, he'd report me for harassment and false accusations of animal abuse. Not wanting any legal trouble with a pending divorce, I dropped it and didn't ask again.
However, 2 weeks later I got a nasty email saying if I wanted my other dog and rabbit back so badly I could have them, as the dog had been whining so much it was annoying him and he didn't want to deal with it anymore. His sister was getting married in 2 weeks, so I asked if he wanted to have them out before or after the wedding since I was attending the wedding along with my brother and his girlfriend and would be in the area, but could get them earlier if needed. He opted for the week before the wedding because he wanted her especially gone. I asked about the rabbit and he said he changed his mind and wanted to keep the rabbit, but if I wanted her too, I could take her as well. I kindly advised the rabbit would be coming back with me as well as I did not want her alone with him anymore. I told my parents what was up and they agreed they could come home much to my relief.
That weekend in May 2023, my brother and I went to EH's house to pick up my dog and rabbit. The moment I saw them, I was so heartbroken and angry. The rabbit was in a tiny hutch meant just to hold them while we cleaned their big enclosure that obviously had not been cleaned or taken care of in some time and dirty murky brown water to drink. It was obvious she had been couped up there for some time, as her enclosure wall panels were broken down and on the porch. My dog was completely emaciated and in horrible condition. Her nails were overgrown, and she was skin and bones. You could see her ribs, spine, and hip bones, and her face was sunken in. Neglected and not taken care of or fed in some time.
I was so angry I grabbed them and put them in the vehicle and let my brother take care of EH. He talked to him for a bit as I called my parents crying telling them what kind of state my animals were in. They were furious. When we got home, they had the dog I kept outside so he could see his sister come home and they wanted to film their reunion and also show what EH did to her. My mother broke into tears when I carefully got my dog out of the car. She was so excited to see my parents again and her brother. And he was so excited to finally see her again. He had been so depressed without her as he grew up with her of course. It was a beautiful reunion but so depressing and sad because of how deplorable of a condition she was in.
My rabbits immediately went to each other when I put the other into the enclosure with the one I kept. They knew who each other were as well and they started grooming each other and cuddling together like they used to like nothing happened. Both my dogs and my rabbits are inseparable now. They can't stand to be away from each other.
The divorce was finalized in June 2023 and I made sure I had no forms of contact with EH again, blocking him on everything.
I can say I have found a wonderful man in my BF and he has helped me so much and been with me through all of this, we couldn't be happier to be able to be together without people asking how we're together if I'm married to someone else even though I was getting a divorce and no longer with EH. Mainly very religious family members who made a fuss about it, but still was a bit ridiculous.
If you reached the end of this and read every bit, if you have any questions feel free to comment below. An update in a separate post will be coming within the next day or so about what's going on with the woman who is currently with the ex-husband.
This was my story in this, context you may or may not want as not everyone's stories gets told. I am telling mine now as everyone in these situations should.

Waking up in the middle of the night I find myself restless
So much has come into focus in the last few days. The station, my first steps on another world. It is all a bit overwhelming. Relaxing my thoughts drift off thinking about how I got here. A young girl on Europa, being selected for training after my aptitude tests, the Academy on Ganymede. Then as always my thoughts drift back to… her…
Lucy…
We started as rivals at the academy. We were from different worlds. Me from Europa, a wet ocean world remote and isolated, her an inner worlder from the hot dusty plains of Venus. We were water and fire.
The professors pitted us against each other from day one, based on our aptitude tests we were the top of the class. They split the class into teams and gave us challenges. I like to say I got the better of her, I was fast out the gate winning a few challenges. But Lucy turned back on me in a vengeance, she had a magnetism to her that caused our classmates to almost be addicted to her. People from my team would defect over to Lucy. Soon I found myself vastly outnumbered.
One day after Lucy and her team thrashed me again in a simulated strategy challenge. I left and I needed to be alone. I showered, went into the sauna. Replaying the moves again and again. How was I going to get the upper hand? She outnumbered me so much.
Everyone knew to leave me alone in the sauna. It was where I thought, relaxed, my place of peace. I was frustrated, I leaned back against the wall and let my hands wander. Gently down my body, letting my stress evaporate as I tease myself…the door opened…. And it was Lucy. A cocky grin on her face.
We had been thinking about nothing but each other, and we had both become obsessed. When that tension broke. Let me just say in a sauna fire and water combine to make something beautiful. Lucy and I did as well.
She moved towards me quickly, letting her towel drop, she was direct with a purpose. Grabbing the back of my head and kissing me deeply. I was shocked.. surprised... Excited..
I grabbed her head as well and kissed her deeply. A deep need inside of me welling up, our lips slid across each other's as our tongue intertwined. I poured my life's water of passion into her. She flared up and accepted my passion. Her hands explored my body as I moved my knee between her legs.
Fuuuccckkk…. When she arched her back… so beautiful… MMM nnngghhhh an orgasm washes over me in my bed while thinking of Lucy.
Panting… even after all this time, separated by a waygate and unfathomable distance my body still yearned for her, I still yearned for her. Rolling onto my side I stare out my window into the vastness of space and the void. My fingers rhymically dance on my pussy. Fingers sliding in and out
You're taught at the academy not to develop attachments, especially since the top prize, the highest honor of our training, to one day fly a deep space exploration through a waygate. Which would put us alone, in a different system. Isolated, like I am now.
Even if I power up my waygate in record time and rush home. Lucy is most likely gone. She was my alternate, meaning had I been unable to go this time she would have. It also means she most likely deployed to her own system and would be gone before I returned. Likely I would never see her again.
Biting my lips and pressing a hand out onto the glass…yes…yes.. there
Fuck again….Fuucckkkkk LLLLuuucccCC
EeeeeeeeeerrrrrreeeemmmmmAAAAAA, a beautiful black haired woman orgasms in a bed identical to Emeras save the ambient lighting is blue inside of pink.
Fuck…. That was good. I find myself panting as I step out into the hallway of my ship. 2 days since the waygate, 6 months since I last saw Emera. Since she departed through her gate. Stars know if she still lives.
It was a rare happening, another gate coming online shortly after Emera’s departure. I thought I would be flying routine patrols around the system. Now I'm alone. Alone with my thoughts of her, and my AI Julia. Fuck. Why couldn't we have gone together. Why only one pilot to a ship. Who knows, maybe she's thinking of me. Technically the systems we are in are closer together than home. That's something…
You're probably wondering if I was outnumbered and Lucy normally had my number in competition then how did I get to leave first. Yes, I did sleep with high command. That was only my closing argument though. You see Lucy had her magnetism that caused people to be addicted to her, she drew people in. However, I was better at strategy and nuanced maneuvers.
The rules weren't strict on the teams, people defected all the time. Keeping your people together was part of the challenge. I decided to break that challenge.
No Battle Plan survives first contact with the enemy afterall. Why not break the competition itself
My enemy wasn't Lucy, trust me we had been together enough at this point my heart swelled when I saw her. My enemy was the rules, and proctors.
There had to be two teams in the academy for the lessons to work. But the rules only set a minimum not a maximum.
Lucy and her best 4 left hers, and me and my best 4 left mine. We formed a new team with Lucy and I at the head. The proctors were fuming. I was called into their offices again and again. Which is what led to me sleeping with a few of them to get ahead. It is always good to solicit a meeting with superiors, it can always be turned to your advantage.
In the Academy, there were 50 of us girls. The proctors let us keep our 3rd team, but declared no one else could join us. It was the ten of us vs double our number on both the other teams. Not ideal… but we had Lucy and I together. My, how we shined
We out maneuvered, out paced, and out thought the other teams again and again and again..
Entering into the final the proctors split everyone up, eliminating the large teams. Just to try and stop us from sweeping the competition. Instead there would be 25 teams of 2 members each of our own selection. Lucy and I naturally selected each other.
We set down on a terraformed valley on Mars, all the other duos were around in the area. The mission was complex. Gather knowledge, survive in the wilderness, there were simulator villages where we had to set up relations, and if possible… eliminate other teams.
The gravity is different from what I'm used to, my body feels heavy. Sluggish, they train us in this and soon I'll adapt. But first landing it hits me like a weight. Ffuuuccckkk I murmur as I land my account ship on the surface. Lucy seems to float, Venus having a higher gravity than Mars.
Lucy always compares a new celestial body to a lover. Well for me Mars just grabbed my hair, slapped my ass and pushed in
Fuck I can't imagine landing on Earth. Triple this, fuck that! Give me my moon mother's oceans anyday.
I suck deep and hard on the control in my mouth and all three extract from me. I am about to get up from the control seat when I feel a palm in the small of my back
“Lucy not funny, let me up” I say
She giggles, and rubs my ass cheeks before her fingers rub against my lips
I moan biting my lip as I push myself against her hand
“I knew the gravity here would give a Moonie like you a good fucking, you're so wet my love”
Rolling my head back and forth..”quickly we have to debrief and set up camp” I moan
She smacks my ass again and her fingers deftly slide to work, one hand pinning me to the chair while she teases my sex, her thumb rubbing in perfect circles on my clit and her fingers pulling on my g-spot
“Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes uuuhhhhh my love it feel so good” shaking my hips back and forth I feel it building as I rock my hips on her hand
Squeezing….my leg….quivering… my voice squeaking… “uuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh ffuuuccckkk” I moan as I feel the orgasm wash over me…
Lucy slaps my ass playfully and licks her fingers… “let's go my love, stop playing around we have to set up camp” she giggles
“Oh!! You!!” I get up and rush after her slapping her ass when I catch up
Carryalls follow us out of the ship.. I immediately sent out the scout drones and assessed our landing spot. Allocating tasks and running diagnostics.
Lucy set about converting the ship to a shelter and arranging power arrays, and deciding on perimeter defenses
We were a perfect power duo. Our carryalls and scouts were soon all at work, and Lucy was finishing up the shelter
I needed to repay her, so I slowly walked up behind her. She heard my heavy steps in the gravity. Turning to look at me she beamed at me. My heart melted and grabbing both sides of her face I pinned her to the side of the ship. Our bodies intertwined and our lips locked.
She moaned at me giggling, pushing my knee between her legs, we quickly undressed each other. Her mouth on my breast, as my hand glided down to her slick vagina.
Grabbing her chin roughly and turning her head up exposing her neck I sink my teeth into it as I push forward with my knee back and forth pressing my fingers in and out of her.
A deep moan emanates from her, licking my bite mark I kiss up her neck until my forehead is resting on hers. Eye to eye, I watch the pleasure build in her. Thrust after thrust of my knee. My fingers pressing into her g-spot every time, my palms pressing and grinding onto her clit
“Cum for me my love, give me your sweetness, I want your water to bethe first drink I have on this planet” I breath
I feel her pussy tighten and grip my fingers. Her legs twisting around me… she goes silent… a flush rises in her flesh… we kiss deep, and long, and passionately as I feel her gush onto my hand as orgasm rapts her body..
I watch her eyes dilate and relax. I kiss her gently again before kissing down, my lips slick on her smooth pubic mound kissing it gently, heat rising from her pussy. Opening my mouth and pressing my tongue in I drink of her orgasm
My fingers inside pressing to work again, she cries out as she rocks her hips grinding her lips to mine. As she gushes another orgasm into my mouth..
I can still taste and feel it now on my tongue… I coo and rock back and forth on my ship
Releasing her, and helping her up I grin
Walking away the top of my leotard open my breasts exposed to the sun.
“I'm up by one my love, and you taste so GGGGOOOOoooOOooddddDD” I giggle setting back to work.
Days and weeks pass Lucy and I set up our camp. Wen find nearby teams before they find us. We quickly fall on them in the night, clearing our immediate area, eliminating them from the contest. We bathe in a nearby pool under a waterfall, sun ourselves on the rocks, make love on the soft moss of the forest.
I don't know if I've ever been happier, ever been more at peace l than I was then with Lucy. Her and I… her and I against the world.
We make good progress setting up relations with 12 of the 15 villages. Our camp is well stocked. We receive updates from the proctors from dead drops. Seems out of the 25 teams only 8 remain. Lucy and I have eliminated 7 ourselves.
We need to be the last standing, triumphant together.. so that maybe.. maybe we can convince them to send two of us on a ship. Imagine the wonders, this wouldn't be temporary, but would become our life.
Lucy and I talk about it often. We can convince them. We'll defeat the others then refuse to turn on each other.
It was our dream.. explore the stars together.. hand in hand..
I remember one evening as if it was yesterday...
It is clear in my mind's eye. Lucy sitting in a tree eating a martian stonefruit. I was swimming in the waterfall pool. We had just picked up the dead drop. We were far ahead of the other teams. Victory seemed in our grasp.
Breaking the surface, turning and floating on my back. My torso from my breasts to my pubic mound above the water. The faint glow of Phoebus overhead. The serenity…
Lucy dropped from the tree and sat on a rock at the pool's edge. The waterfall cascading down the rocks behind me. Dipping her foot into the water a light kick splashing me. An intoxicating giggle… the tension.. I felt it urge inside me.. the desire to have her, she felt it too
Swimming to her rock, taking her foot in my hand I raise it to my lips kissing it gently. My hands rubbing her heel and soles, and up her taunt legs kneading the stress from her.. one.. then the other..
Lucy leans back onto her elbows lavishing in the attention her flesh bare, form lithe, look sultry…
She loves when I worship her body, I emerge from the water my grip, skin, and kisses cooling to the touch. Her body heated, taut, and wanting…
The desire consumes me, as I kiss my way up her body. Her head rolls back and forth. Lucy grabs the back of my head as I reach out and grab hers.
The look in her eyes I'll remember forever. Rarely is so much said with no words. I pull her head up as she pulls my head down. Our lips connect, passion explodes in my chest as an electric charge jolts into my veins. Soft moans onto her lips. Lucy's knee spreads my legs and presses against my vagina. She pushes on my shoulders, grinding her knee into me. My slick pussy aches for her touch, as I rock my hips against her leg. Moaning into her mouth with every subtle change of pace.
She turns us to the side, I slot my knee between her legs as we writhe together intertwined urging and moaning as we devour each other.
Hands gliding and sliding, pinching and pulling. My cool slick body, smashed into her hot taut form. She bites my lip and I roll my head back and moan as she smacks my ass
“Fuuuuccckkkkk yyyyyeeessss Luuucccyyyy, Fuuuccckkk Mmmeeeeee Lucy!”erupts from my lips
“I thought you'd never ask, darling” she coos
She grabs my ass hard and uses it to flip me under her. Her hand dancing down my body. As I writhe, rock, and hump her knee between my legs. I’m in heat, devoured by my need.
She grips my jaw tightly staring down at me.. dominant and in control. Her finger pushing inside me and pressing against my button, pulling up steady and persistent. Her thumb deftly circling my clit. She plays my body like a master violinist. Slow beautiful notes building and building. The pleasure grows inside me. My muscles grow tense. Her eyes locked on mine as my toes curl, my legs squeeze her knee and hand. Quickly her pace quickens building into a crescendo, my muscles burning. I feel the flush coming, a squeak escapes my mouth, I feel my eyes dilate, my body tight like a string…I’m her instrument
Lucy plunges her face and kisses me deep and passionately. I explode.
My body quivering and shaking, as orgasm crashes into me like a rogue wave. I can't contain myself as I scream and moan into Lucy's mouth, my life breath leaving my body as my pussy spasms around her fingers. Overstimulated I shake side to side my hand digging into her skull.
Primal lust surges inside me, face to face my forehead pressed into hers. I grab her inside leg and arm and turn us. Lucy lands on her back, as I bite hard into her lip. A snarl of lust escaping my lips as I need to feed on her body. I press my hands into her. Feeling the soft flesh, filling me.. driving me
My own legs still suffering aftershocks. I kiss down her body, biting, pinching , and sucking Lucy's nipples, ribs, stomach. My lips slip down her smooth pubic mound… to her pussy
Pushing Lucy's legs apart I dive in with my tongue. The taste of her sex becoming my everything. My fingers spreading and entering
Tight vaginal walls greet my tips with a velvet soft grip. As my tongue flicks onto her clit. Lips enveloping and sucking. I hear Lucy's breath sharply pull in, her hand lands on the back of my head as I grab her other hand in mine. The grip tight. Wanting.
Pushing upwards again and again and again with my hand and fingers. I feel her pussy spasm. It grips grips and milks my fingers tighter and tighter as the tips dance on the soft ridges of her. Up and down my head bobs as I suck on her clit. My tongue swirls around it, I moan and hum. Vibrations from my soul spread across her enraptured body.
Her grip tightens on my hand, nails digging in…
“Yesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesssssssssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee” she moans sharply
Lucy’s legs squeeze down on me . Her whole body goes still tight….. A moment of pure sexual divinity…
A guttural moan erupts from her mouth as she gushes onto my fingers, I move my lips to taste her. Our hands gripped tight together as wave after wave of orgasm wash over her like the tide. I keep my pace and tenacity.
“FUUUUCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!?” Lucy screams her back arched pussy driven into my mouth…
Her body collapses, as I roll to the side panting, managing to crawl up. Holding each other close. Soft gentle kisses, like rain drops in a storm.
“Mi amor” we whisper to each other foreheads pressed together
Time passes.. we clean ourselves in the pool. Giggling and laughing like lovers do. Helping each other back to camp. Walking through the forest hand in hand back to our bed
Our dream died that night…
We were naked, curled up in each others arms when the alarm sounded..all the alarms
Proximity alert for 14 signals… they had teamed up on us. 14 on 2 they were going to eliminate the front runners while they still had the numbers.
FUCK.
Lucy and I turned and quickly downed our emergency biotic vials just as a concussive blast hit our ship shelter.
“Fuck! They aren't supposed to attack equipment!” I yell
“The proctors must have sent them, they shouldn't be intervening with that!” Lucy says
“You're better in a fight, charge them and I'll flank” I yell
We nod at each other and we are off naked as the day we were born
Lucy bursts from our ship her shield bursting out in front of her
I dart out the side and task our scouts and drones to make dive bomb attacks on the intruders
I leap over a blast, grab a tree branch and swing. I land my legs on either side of the head of one of the attackers. Twisting myself I flip over and knock her out. Back on the run, I see Lucy take out another one as drones dive in and out of the chaos.
Lucy blocks to her right and charges, blasting herself high into the air, twirling before blasting herself downward, tackling her target to the ground and eliminating her.
She's about to get blasted from behind when I take the attacker in the flank, knee to the solar plexus. My hand on the side of her neck I thrust up hard with my knee. In the low gravity she lifts and flies off into the trees as I raise my hands and blast another in the side.
She turns just in time to block my attack, when Lucy rockets into her side with her elbow. Her lithe form is lit in by the light from Phobos in the night. Gleaming with the slightest amount of sweat.
Without looking Lucy backflips and bounds over a concussive blast in the low gravity. The blast takes the other girl in the side, eliminating her. Lucy rights herself as she gracefully glides to the ground. The moonlight catches her nude form perfectly. The girl who fired before at her takes aim. Lucy fires behind herself and strikes downward with wicked speed, dive bombing her opponent.
The girl FIRES, Lucy FIRES TWICE!
The blasts collide and send shockwaves out, nearly knocking me from my feet. Lucy's second attack smashes into the girl eliminating her, Lucy flips through the air almost as if she was flying. I've never seen another person with the same amount of control in low gravity as her. She a goddess in her element
She lands one knee and hand on the ground head up and charges the next enemy
Amazed at Lucy's tenacity, I start up again picking off another girl as Lucy charges at a group of four, her shield tall and strong in front of her. She's running at full tilt.
I sweep to the side to take the group in the flank
I launch my assault firing concussive blast again and again. I hear Lucy scream.. I look over and see her taken in the back from a cheap shot hiding in the trees above. Eliminated
They all turn on me 7 on 1
Despair flows into me… tears… then it is burned away to be replaced
RAGE… RAGE OVERWHELMS ME
MY LUNGS light with fire
NOOOOOOOOONNNOOOOOOOONNNOOOOO YOU COCKSUCKING PUTAS!! ME CAGO EN TU PUTA MADRES!!! I WILL RIP YOUR ARMS OFF AND BEAT YOU WITH THEM!!! I WILL NOT BE STOPPED BY YOU!!!
I start moving faster than ever before, the passion and bloodlust over taking me. Gone are the strategic calculations. Only battle remains! Only the RAGE! Steaming up inside me!
They all fire on me, and in the air above me expecting me to leap.
I fire 2 blasts behind me then 3 more in front of me concussive impacts quake the air as it seems to heave. The kinetic impacts bring the air to broiling. It sears my flesh as I rocket through the small opening.
Their faces are slack jawed. Dumbfounded as I unleash pandemonium and chaos. I blast not them but the trees around them
Sending trees and debris crashing in the wake of the concussive blasts.
Leaping I land on a falling tree, swiftly running up the trunk
Firing again and again and again.. one of their shield breaks and I dive at her, my knee taking her straight in the jaw, I hear the crack as she hits the ground. Not a moment spared I grab a log and fire it at another two girls caught off guard by me behind their shield wall.
Bounding away and somersaulting through the air, I hook a girl's neck behind my knee just as she is about to fire. Swinging around her body I grab her arms as she fires and aim them at her allies. I fire directly into her back
Her concussed body goes flying at her allies; they drop their shield so as to not hurt her, only to find me blasting through behind her. My feet hit a still standing tree and with both my arms out I fire again… and again… and again..
Both go down hard screaming in pain
Pain that is nowhere near my emotional pain
I hit the ground and scream
STAND AND FIGHT YOU CUNTS!!! FACE ME!!! I AM EMERA TRIUMPHANT!!! DAUGHTER OF EUROPA MOON MOTHER!! UNBENT, UNBOWED, UNBROKEN!!!
I scan around me.. all I hear is groans and whimpers and cries in pain.
My chest heaving up and down, my body dripping in a primal sweat coating my nude form in the moonlight.
I hear a crackle of a speaker
All combatants defeated!
Victory to Emera of Europa!
Falling to my knees exhausted, crying, over extended, Lucy comes over to me rubbing her back and takes me into her arms. Rocking me back and forth
“They ruined it! They ruined everything! They'll separate us now!!” I yell my head into her chest shaking back and forth. My whole body was overwhelmed and quivering with emotion.
“Every little thing is going to be alright mi amor” Lucy says as she cradles me…
I jolt awake.. Lucy's smile fills my mind…

Greetings and Salutations! I can't believe I'm a little over halfway with this book; needless to say, I'm enjoying it more than the first one :) Anyway, thanks everyone for indulging me in my insane thoughts about this series so far. Hope you enjoy!
Ch. 31

• Nice, glad Feyre is still training and isn't a Mary Sue. Excellent choice, Sarah J
  
• The bickering between the inner circle is just great. I’d like to know what's going on with Mor, Cassian, and Azriel and if they're a loose throuple or not
  
• Oooh Amren, Rhys, and Feyre are the only ones going to Summer Court? Good squad. Poor Cassian is butt hurt. I'm sure he’ll run back to Nesta for some good ‘ol scowling.
  
• The flirting between Rhys and Feyre is a bit cringe, but cute
  

Ch. 32

• Getting glammed for the Summer Court, I like
  
• Lol they have card games in Prythian too? Were the bros playing strip poker last night? Better question, why weren't the women invited?!
  
• Winnowing is a must have ability in Prythian, it’s ridiculously useful
  
• Summer Court time!
  
• Adriata seems like a cool place; if all the beaches here are nude beaches this becomes my no. 1 court
  
• And his name. Is. Tarquin! Greetings and Salutations, High Lord🤝
  
• Lol this bro is staring at Feyre's tits, wtf
  
• “Her breasts are rather spectacular, aren't they? Delicious as ripe apples.” LOL I think Rhys upgraded to chad status just now
  
• “And here I was, thinking you had a fascination with my mouth.” Hahaha Feyre always needs to put Rhys in his place, doesn't she? And Tarquin is thinking “what the hell have I stepped into?”
  
• I'm getting House Velaryon vibes when imagining Tarquin and the Summer Court
  
• Dude…I thought Cassian had an issue with eye-fucking, Tarquin seems like he's fully erect each time he sees Feyre lol
  
• Ohhhh yeah I didn't even think that the Summer Court would send word to Tamlin, are they close allies? And still no response from Tamlin after Feyre sent her note. Bro must still be sulking.
  
• A pleasure barge??? Let the sea-faring orgies commence!
  
• Fun introduction; Curious to see where this goes!
  

Ch. 33

• Oh that makes sense, I guess Tarquin wanted to see how much of the summer court abilities Feyre has gained…but for sure he just wants to bang
  
• lol Feyre knows which buttons to press to get Rhys riled up. That's probably the ability she's mastered most. I bet she saves him again somehow, asserts her dominance, and the walls just come down and he becomes straight up infatuated with her.
  
• Oooh another classic romance scene, the soon to be Feysand doused in water, both inches away from each other…disappointed we didn't get a description of Feyre's or Rhys's pointed nipples
  
• “...he knew what a treasure you are.” Rhys spittin’ his game again!
  
• “Love can be a poison.” BASED Rhysand.
  
• Yessss orgy boat time!
  
• Oh wow Tarquin is a baby high lord, barely even 80 yrs old! So weird to think that Rhysand and Tamlin are more than 5x his age
  
• “The lesser faeries are to be neither seen nor heard as they work.” LOL did these faeries create the Milford School? I bet Buster is hiding on this barge somewhere
  
• Bro, Tarquin coming in with the progressive ideals, I dig
  
• “I didn't care if I had no shield, if my thoughts were wide open and he read them like a book.” Holy eff Feyre has it bad. On a much more important note…WTF ARE YOU DOING? You're not only jeopardizing the mission, you're also putting every single citizen in Velaris at risk by having them be discovered by a Daemati with your shields down. Sack up sister and keep those emotions in check or else get outta fuck town
  
• Dude, Feyre only falls for High Lords, doesn't she? Does she plan on “making the seven” by banging each High Lord from every court? She can for sure tally up 3 by the end of this book
  
• I highly doubt Rhys is banging Cresseida, just his typical 4D chess move
  

Ch. 34

• Oh Nuala and Cerridwen are here too? It didn't look like they were on the guest list initially
  
• Omg the pettiness between Feyre and Rhys is ridiculous. And poor Tarq the Mark is in the middle of it all :( This is high school all over again.
  
• Nice, Tarquin is actually remarkably perceptive for his young age
  
• Oh? Is Feyre gonna be a triple agent? Rhys, Tamlin, and Tarquin’s ‘emmissary’? She can barely handle getting dressed, she’d be turrible
  
• I'm wondering if Tarquin is playing the naive, young high lord bit to lower Rhys, Feyre, and Amren's defenses. Feyre doesn't sense the book anywhere so I'm guessing it's either warded or it's not in Adriata at all. Regardless, I bet Tarquin has his own plan to draw out the night court somehow. Oooh what if Tamlin shows up? That'd be wild
  
• Oh geez the petty squabbling continues…Feyre wants the Night Court D real bad
  
• Damn, Rhys just came right out and said he was jealous of Tarquin. I find it fascinating that he's only direct with Feyre and says how he feels. He's not like this with anyone in the inner circle. They honestly just need to bang and most of this friction would be gone
  
• “To the stars who listen– and the dreams that are answered.” MIC DROP. He said the thing! Finally I know where this quote is from, I've been seeing it each time I'm on the subreddit. Also, is it safe to assume that 99% of all ACOTAR fans are Rhys simps? I'm kinda getting that vibe based off of the reddit topics and the banner quote. I get it, but the based choice is Luke the Duke ;)
  

Ch. 35

• Oh nice she found the book’s location! Let the heist begin!
  
• Whoa Feyre is straight up incepting Tarquin's mind, that's some next level shit
  
• Yeah even Rhys is impressed. That's an insane power, but haven't we just found the solution? Just call for a meeting with King Hybern, incept the crap out of him to forsake his mission for world domination, and have him strip naked and live with the bogges in the forest. Case closed.
  
• Yeah, this ability definitely raises some moral/ethical dilemmas…and Rhys is like ‘yeah…ends justify the means though’ lol
  
• Stealing the book tomorrow night! Cue the Ocean’s Eleven soundtrack.
  

I feel like shit’s about to go down here real soon… Can't wait 😁 As always, thanks for reading!

So, I have been trying to fix something for a few days but I can't seem to fix.
The other day I was playing and I was doing the Railroad Side Quests. After a while I realized my characters voice lines would not play. So, what I did was I reloaded from a previous save that wasn't too far back. But, the problem still persisted. After testing previous saves, I found one where the voice lines did play, but, if I were to start from this save, I would have lost 29 hours worth of progress.
I have done multiple things that people have claimed to fix their issues with a problem similar to this (e.g. submerging in water, saving, loading said save, and stepping out of water).
I do not have a mod like "Silent Protagonist," that can't be a contributor to this issue.
Also, I have tried turning all my mods off, but even with that, the problem still persisted.
Do I really have to lose a ton of progress just to get my characters voice back? Or is there a tool or something I could use to fix this issue?
Also, here is my load order:
PLUGINS:

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Inside the Valhalla library Aphrodite comfortably read a book on the table . Behind her were a few men looking and leering near her . It wasn't unusual for a crowd of men to gawk at Aphrodite beauty or try and follow her around constantly. Her beauty often sparks jealousy with her one sided "rivals " such as Eve or other women filled with envy. It's gotten so bad that Aphrodite has to hide herself whenever Cain and Abel show up to flirt with her unless she wants to deal with Eve's jealous wrath. "What are you reading? " A man with a family Russian accent spoke out before snatching the book from her . " I'm reading a Spanish adventure novel about a woman named Sofia traveling to France to find the truth about her father who is the Duke of Madrid " Aphrodite explained. "Aphrodite.." Rasputin shook his head " Women are only good at 2 things and I think we know what they both are " . "Well holy monk for your sake I think we should end this conversation " Aphrodite rolled her eyes reaching her hand out "Give me the book back ". " I'm just saying Aphrodite that reading leads to thinking and for a beautiful woman like you, it's not necessary …even though you are a human " Rasputin pointed out. Aphrodite swiped the book then walked away ignoring the annoying russian's taunts.
Once she got home Aphrodite sat at the table continuing to read , before Ragnarok she used to live in a stay near her parents Zeus and Hera but after the nightmare of that tournament it changed her view of God and life in general. She can't live her life sheltered forever for being a daddy little girl . She promised Zeus and Hera that she will do something with her life . A fresh new start in the world they call Valhalla , Aphrodite stretched her arms and legs then took a shower . Once she was done the phone rang . "Hello " Aphrodite answered, " Oh really…yes……thank you…okay I'll try " she hung up before going to sleep in the lingerie she wore . The Next morning Aphrodite ran out of the bed getting ready for a new day . The doorbell rings, causing Aphrodite to turn around "Coming ! " . Once the door opened a young man with short brown hair and amethyst purple eyes smiled. "Eros ! " Aphrodite hugged him tightly, He awkwardly pressed against her shoulder , "Hi Aphrodite " Eros introduced himself. The awkward guy was always considered Aphrodite's true friend as he was never interested in her sexually or romantically, just platonic. "Are you ready Eros !" Aphrodite smiled, patting his hair. "It's a little bit early to travel right now " Eros pulled out a bag "here I made breakfast". "Thanks" Aphrodite and Eros sat on the table munching on the mini pancakes Eros made. “Why are you going on this trip again? “ Eros asked . “I'm going to travel around Valhalla for a while, probably looking for a modeling career …the city is insanely stuffy at times and I just want to catch a break..is that too much to ask ? “ she wondered. “No ..in fact I feel the same way plus it's an extra pain when you are the pretty one and everyone fangirls over you especially when you are asexual “ Eros pointed out. “Actually I'm not Ace ..I can experience attraction or even so called “fall in love “ but..i want someone who loves me for me . Someone who doesn't cat call me every 5 seconds , I want someone to look at my eyes not my ..well “ Aphrodite paused . “Your what? Your earrings ? Your headband ? “ Eros questioned, “Yes ..that's definitely what I'm talking about “ Aphrodite turned her head around. “Back when I was alive all I did was chase the sunlight..now I want to chase more …i will never stop running until I get what I want “ Aphrodite shouted. “Well I hope you stretch and drink plenty of water before you do all that running “ Eros commented “what is your job ?” .
“Well I heard about a job somewhere in Madrid, I was hoping to get a steady job so far then rise up to be a celebrity like deal with higher ranking people “ Aphrodite smiled. “You mean like beauty guru and influencer “Cariño” Eros slid his phone to Aphrodite. The woman in the picture had long braided twin tails covered in red pink ribbons down . She sported an expensive designer dress with diamond high heels showing off an opal purse taking a selfie in the mirror. “Holy moly she is so cool ..” Aphrodite starred. “Now rumor has it that she is connected to the royals but she hasn't confirmed..but she hasn't denied either “ Eros smirked “ However I think she is just a rich girl living on daddy's money “ . “ I don't exactly care what her income is, I'd kill to have those shoes “ Aphrodite eyes shined, “ I'm sure they cost more then this house “ Eros said. “ Don't remind me “ Chibi Aphrodite felt embarrassed, “Turn that frown upside down !” Eros clicked on a video from her YouTube.In the video she wore her normal masquerade because her face is never revealed. She spoke in a thick Spanish accent . Due to Cariño's large fanbase she is nice enough to put on subtitles. Eros pressed on the Greek one letting it load ,”Hola Senoritas ! Today we are going to learn how to turn your old worn down dress into a brand new can do ! “ Cariño mentioned. “Is that a Louis Vuitton ….” Aphrodite turned white, “ Okay she is a little out of touch but she is trying ..just go get the most worn down dress you own ” Eros stated.
Once the video montage was over Aphrodite wore her white silk dress with golden ribbons and high heels. “ I haven't worn this since I was alive…” Aphrodite twirled around. Eros pressed on the live stream revealing the next video Cariño showed off a broken prosthetic face mask split into two. She grabbed a stick of glue pasting the two together. “Don't worry about amigos, it's a divine mask. All you have to do is squeeze it together and..it's done “ the masked glowed sleeping it shut . Cariño snapped her fingers popping out dozens of white diamonds putting it on the mask making it shine . “That's all for today folks ..adios “ she hung up,The scene changes to “Cariño “ point of view , Once the camera was off she took off her mask revealing her true appearance.” Margarita Maria Teresa of Austria Also known as simply Margret Hasburg or the princess of Madrid. “ I swear Carlos and Balt break this mask one more time ..” she took a deep breath. After a trip to Madrid visiting her home in the Royal Alcázar . The smell of hot smoke and raven feathers filled the air. A tall 6ft 6 handsome man with long black hair and a small mustache approached her . Next to him is a 6 ft 3 teenager holding a baby , “ Balt ..Jose ..Philip it's been awhile “ She looked around the palace “Where is Carlos ? “ .“Dungeon ..Eugenia is trying to bathe Carlos ,” Balt answered. “Hold on, you sent a tiny 5ft 2 witch to take care of a 7ft dragon demon …” Margret stared at him. “ Well I mean they bathed together all the time when she was little “ Jose shrugged. “Yes when she was 6…bloody hell “ Margret rolled her eyes . Suddenly the witch teleported to her wearing her diving suit and snorkeling gear . “Yeah Charles escaped, I tried searching everywhere..… “ Eugenia stated. The demons and one witch searched through the chambers until a sound was heard.
Eugenia looked through the paintings of Carlos , a nude painting of him . Carlos ii of Spain is a demon full of mystery and wonder . He stood at 7ft tall with a mask covering his entire face . His hair a mixture of blonde and ginger flowed all the way down his back . His exposed skin revealed his pale appearance similar to the moon itself. His eyes were bloodshot as if he was staring at you all lost and confused. All of his limbs were covered in glowing chains that all snapped apart . The only thing covering his genitals was the Fern standing on top of a chair. “Eugenia “ Margret spoke to her “Remind me again why you commissioned a naked picture of my brother on the fucking hallway “ . “ I feel like the answer should be obvious so there is no point of further discussion of that painting “ Eugenia replied. “Nah I want answers “ Margaret hissed , “I think you should be more concerned of where Carlos is “ Eugenia shrugged as it was pretty clear she wasn't talking .
Meanwhile outside Charles popped out of a bush wearing a different mask , he sniffed around the grass feeling the wind between his hair. Before he knew it he was running on all fours chasing the shadows that the trees made . Night time soon came along. Aphrodite and Eros walked through the empty streets having lost touch of each other , “Eros ? Erooosss “ she called out but there was nothing. “Oof “ Aphrodite was pushed feeling sharp teeth try to claw and bite her. The creature went straight to her neck and stomach blood spilling in all different directions. “No ..I'm going to die again..” She screamed “HELP “ at the top of her lungs. . The rush of pain continued until Aphrodite heard a whimper then a snap . The creature's head rolled down the pavement but I was too dark to know what exactly it was . Aphrodite felt faint from the blood loss , she saw a shadowy figure coming closer to her . “Please ..,don't ..hurt me..”she reached her hand out before fainting on the road. Charles stood over using his four arms to carry her damaged body . He stopped for a moment during what the others would think if he was carrying a human home . Madrid isn't exactly human friendly. The next morning Aphrodite woke up sitting on an oak tree trunk . “Was that …a dream “ she looked around “ No that had to be …” . “Aphrodite! “ Eros ran to her “Where were you!?I've been looking for you all night ! “ . “ I have …no idea ! “ Aphrodite was confused. Morning came and the demon's found the bloodied Charles sleeping in the dungeon. “Should I put holy chains on him ?” Eugenia's wand glowed. “Nah ..let him sleep ..in fact I need you to come with me “ Jose called her over . Eugenia Martinez Vallejo aka the palace jester is a plus size small witch that wears a small red gown , hood and witch hat . She is considered Charles' right hand woman and is currently 25 years olds . Being a Bruja she can change clothes, use magic and shape shift .
Inside the meeting room the demon siblings and Eugenia sat in their chairs “Alright …so it's about Carlos “ Joseph tapped on the table continuing “ What are we going to do with him ?”. “You mean giving him a bride ? Our sperm donor tried that twice , They both ran away the first chance they got …let's face it nobody is ever going to love our brother like WE do he doesn't need a wife “ Balt explained. “No …not that ! he needs a caregiver “ Joseph stated , “What ? “ they both looked at him. “Listen I am struggling to take care of both my handicap feral brother and run Spain at the same time ALONG with our little brother Philip , all of you are busy with your own lives plus it doesn't help that our bitch of a mother hired an exorcist so now he has severe PTSD after months of torture ‘ Joseph was on the verge of tears “ Do you think i WANT this ? He was given to me the moment he was three and in the span of 35 years and …he needs help..this is my fault “ he slammed his face on the floor. “No it's not the sperm donor who thought a 3 year old would make a great king then dumped 3 more babies onto you plus your own daughter “ Balt stated. “Still I feel nothing but shame..I was supposed to protect my brother no matter what but I failed him therefore I failed Spain “ Jose sighed. “I'll go “ Eugenia raised her wand up “ Without him I'd still be wandering the streets of my old home “ She mentioned. “ Alright..Eugenia your job is go find a pure hearted creature to help care for Carlos ! Find someone who will love him as much as we do “ Joseph gave her the order. “No need to ask twice “ Eugenia flew out of a window , wearing her full Bruja gear heading towards Madrid.
Eugenia flew over her broom heading towards Madrid , she felt her hat ruffle back and forth until a black paw touched her face .In Front of Eugenia is a black cross eyed cat that jumped out grabbing her cheek. “Bisco !?” Eugenia pinched the loose skin of the cat's neck, freezing him stiff. Bisco dropped on Eugenia's lap , flicking his tail back and forth . The little derpy expression on his face along with his crossed eyes made it difficult to stay mad at him. “How did you even get here ? “ Eugenia questioned , “ I took a nap as a mouse under your hat then all the ruffling woke me up “ Bisco looked around “So you decided to take a trip outside of the palace ? “ . “ You could say that …however I'm on a mission “ Eugenia answered . Bizco's ears perked hearing that , the semi relaxed tail was now swinging back and forth. “Not what you think …I gave to find a woman that might love Carlos the way we do ? “ Eugenia repeated . “ I …what ? “ Bizco didn't quite get it and honestly neither did Eugenia herself. Carlos the ii wasn't exactly known for his beauty and grace. Infact 70% of Madrid doesn't even know what he looks like . “Carlos really needs friends because he has the social skills of a wet corn dog,Jose this close to losing his sanity over it, this is what happens when you close a puppy they turn into a big dog that acts like a puppy but it's not a puppy it's a wolf now and it doesn't know how to feed himself without help! “ Eugenia breathed heavily. “I don't get it..” Bizco became dizzy. “Carlos is a big boy now and he needs big boy friends because a king that is this isolated isn't healthy. ..hey wait a minute..” Eugenia paused . “Any ideas Eugenia “ Bizco purred next to her . “ Yes ..we find a random person on the street and see if they are interested in meeting the king and being his friend! “ Eugenia thought about it . “Okay let's go ! “ Bizco agreed.
Back at the palace Carlos laid naked in his dungeon , the cloth laying over his crotch area . Carlos also known as the feral everyone sees him as a feral monster ready to slice the flesh of anybody who crosses him. They aren't 100% wrong tho nor are they 100% right . This didn't matter at the end of the day as the Spanish king prefers to be alone in the dark where nobody can get hurt by him . Jose opened the door taking the chains off of Carlos. “It's time for you to take a bath “ he smiled, " you are going to have a visitor “. The scene cuts to Jose giving Carlos a bubbly bath . “Where have you been last night ? You smell horrible ! '' Jose asked . “Wandering the forest naked as usual “ Caros answered as if it should have been obvious . The bubbly clear water turned a slight red ,“Carlos what the hell ? '' Jose grabbed his arm noticing the oozing gash . “I may or may not have gotten into an altercation with a chupacabra,” Carlos responded. “And when were you going to tell me ? '' Jose furrowed a brow . “I wasn't, “ the redhead shrugged. “I'm going to ignore that comment…anyway Carlos you are going to have a council meeting today so you will have to dress up to impress “ Jose told his younger brother scrubbing his hair. Carlos sat quietly for a few minutes as Jose washed his back . “Now wash your face, “ Jose turned around. Carlos took off his Mask laying it on the top . Carlos ii of Espana true face was now feeling to the steaming air , Being a habsburg he has a giant jaw however his cheeks were long gone instead his gums and teeth were sharp teeth . The only thing that even remotely resembled a mouth was his two lips . The rest was just bare gums and teeth. Carlos opened his mouth long barbed tongue slithering out. He slowly grabbed the small bowl next to him, washing his face with the warm steaming water . After he was finished Carlos put the mask right back on getting out of the tub . He embraced the coldness once again . This time he is completely naked stretching his body before getting all the force to shake the wetness off then laid down . “Oh brother..” Jose wrapped a towel around his waist with his tail. “vamos a cambiarte “ “ Jose dragged Carlos away from the tunnel.
Back In Madrid Eugenia and Bizco were still seeking a “play date “ . Without warning Bizco jumped out of the Eugenia broom . He ran aside on the top roof, his crossed eyes briefly straightening up . “Don Juan Martín Martín, get back here right now ! “ she yelled at him . Bizco was too far from her to hear . He was too focused on catching his prey . A Madrid mouse ran for its life through the wheels of the road . The honking noises rang in Bizcos ears making him snarl .Due to Juans physical disabilities along with the mental ones he simply wasn't always fast enough to get what he wanted. Even as an animal he traveled by limping because of his unstable legs . Despite the many issues the shapeshifter faced, Bizco never gave up. He wanted to blend in like other normal deities amd not let his disabilities get to him. However no matter how much he wants to deny and ignore it reality is often disappointing. Bizco jumped up towards the mouse, his curved white claws stretching out . As if Fate decide to play a cruel joke he missed by a long shot smacking his head on the concrete pavement. A bright light flashed before his eyes . Within a split second the bus crashed right into the feline at full force . “ I think whatever happened to you was just a very bad DREA-” Eros fell down. The bus tilted upward ,glasses shattered all over the place with Aphrodite and Eros flinging over the other side of the bus. Panic filled the place of demons trying to escape the horrific scene . Aphrodite found herself sore from her injuries that night . She reached out slowly trying to escape the bus . “Did we just get hit by another bus ..” Eros opened his eyes . The inside of the bus was split in half most of it was tired inside out. All of the demon's suddenly disappeared as I they were never there. “La hostia..” Eugenia quickly flew over . Aphrodite looked around noticing a cat covered in a thick layer of shattered glass and blood . The shiny black quartz cat eye shined brightly. The cat didn't move for a couple seconds hurting Aphrodite even more. “ Kitty ! “ Aphrodite screamed, rushing over towards the cat . Bizco stood on all fours more blood pouring out in various wounds across his fur . He flickered his tail smiling a little.
“I …almost..caught it..” he smokes, falling back down only for Aphrodite to catch him at the last second. “Did that cat just talk ?” Eros questioned but Aphrodite paid no attention. “Stay calm little kitty ..” she rubbed Don's gem “we will take you to a vet ..” . Bizco closed his eyes now in a relaxed state, his gem glowing a powerful black color . His claws and paws transformed into a hand with nails and his jester uniform was completely torn up . The cat's face turned into a middle aged Spanish man with a 5 o'clock shadow . For some reason the cat ears and tailed stay . “Is that even a cat ???” Eros wondered , “Wow Eros you are really asking the wrong questions at the worst time “ Aphrodite didn't care . Eros thought about it for a moment. This is not Midgard so he really shouldn't treat it as such. “Oh you found my cat ! “ Eugenia flew by going along with it “What did I tell you about running into traffic? “ She sounded like an angry mother . “ I don't know..” Bizco held his necklace tightly. “Oh brother, how am I going to explain this to Izu and Car…” Eugenia thought of a plan . She turned around to Aphrodite and Eros . “Thank you both so much for saving My Bizco! How about we try and give him medical attention “ . “You are right we should call the ambulance “ Aphrodite pulled out her phone . “Nononono Bizco doesn't do hospital “ Eugenia twirled her wand speaking something in French. Within seconds a bright light blinded Aphrodite and Eros until they found themselves comfortable on a Limousine. “What ..what is going on ..why ..why am I wearing a tuxedo “ Eros shook his head everywhere. “Ooo a white dress, I look so cute !” Aphrodite screamed. “Come on Aphrodite, this is not normal ! “Eros kept poking around. Bizco looked completely healed playing with a ball of yarn . “Next off ! To the Palace ! “ Eugenia drove the Limousine way past the legal limit . “I should have stayed home “ Eros rubbed his cheek “This has gotta be dream “.

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2023 timeline
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Video archives
Entropy’s stream the story of everything that happen (if you YouTube search entropy + live stream more videos will appear)
Bobo and co live stream
Bobo and Co live stream about their personal experience with DissociaDID as someone who knew them irl and online
4 hour accountability video archived on the way back machine
General video’s archive / DissociaDID / Team piñata/ Bobo&co / Entropy live stream and more. Videos about the earlier controversy’s pre 2022 and past friends speaking out
Miscellaneous video archives
Hiki’s Google Drive
Lux’s Google Drive
Ama’s Google Drive
P’s Google Drive
Text based timelines
2020 hiatus time-line
Kya&Co/DissociaDID 2022 time-line
One person’s (overly comprehensive) take on the history and impact of dissociadid
racism
Black Lives Matter incident
More on the racism
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Two
Reddit post discussing Nadia - Indigenous alter
Indigenous person speaks out on racism + Direct youtube
More on the racism
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Two
Three - British Indian accent
SRA posts
seems to have plagiarized her alters and headspace form Illuminati books
Directly asking SRA victims their trauma on Facebook and the specifics
claims being kidnapped and water tortured at a young age
SRA trauma possibly stolen from a book
Victim of stolen trauma comes forward
More victims come forward of alleged stolen stories and spying in facebook groups
Is Omega the alter stolen
DissociaDID addressing the SRA claims
SRA, Anti-semitism, the jewish question and how they are all interconnected
has found a lot of stuff here / here
DDLG claims / flirting with minors / minor endangerment / team piñata
Team Piñata allegations summary
Team piñata mentions since the breakup
The 4 hour accountability video transcript (2020)
highlight part one / part two
Valentines live stream (2021)
Highlight / full video
Uncandid episode (2022) highlight
YouTube video (2022) Where they mention past relationships(I don’t have a highlight clip so here’s the full video part one and
two)
community post clarifying everything after mentioning their relationship in the alter update video(s) if you want a highlight for this someone tell me the time stamp.
On TikTok(2023) video one / video two
Kyaandco and Team Piñata at Disney land, people often accuse this of being fetish content of the kink ddlg.
Lack if boundaries with minors, flirting with minors & sexual comments towards minors on an account marked 18+ only archived
DissociaDID trying to keep people quiet about their ex fiancé making CP art
Their opinions on team piñata actions in 2022
Posting videos where their littles look nude
DissociaDID posts what is considered soft core and pov porn on TikTok, you can find videos similar, if not content exactly like Mara’s air humping video and Kya’s chest shot on porn sites. TikTok is a public app that is 12+, both profiles are public with way to manually age restrict children from seeing it, their videos can randomly appear on anyones suggested page due to the algorithm.
Examples
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on an account marked 18+ due to its content being sexual/sensual, they posted a thirst trap to a children’s song where children sing, this video is made to get a rise from people sexually or be seen as sensual.
Recent sexual aggression/harassment towards a commenter in tiktok
Supporting Team piñata
Unreliable testimony’s from “mental health” providers / Misinformation
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Spreading misinformation
Promoting anti recovery sentiments by treating alter splits and fusions as death, this is fear mongering that stops people from wanting to heal.
Posting Triggering Eating Disorder content that could trigger other people with ED’s into relapsing
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Two (body checking)
[Three] body check in Nan’s hat, their body has been cropped from the photo to not trigger anyone
Using their platform to abuse and bully an threaten to doxx people Add on provided by
The Two Bullying Videos "Not Liking Myself" - Quick Response to the 2nd Video
Impact of the First Video
Their Non-Apology for the Second Video, where they say TR is "playing the victim"
Tripling Down - "It's not bullying"
Order of Events’
A Viewer's Account of the Livestream
Kya Announces New 18+ Policy for Lives
Comment and Reply to Twilight's Reign
12/15/22 - The Two Bullying Videos
The Effects of the First Video
Twilight's Response to the Second Video
Doubling Down on Video Two
DARVO: Kya's Non-Apology to Twilights-reign
Reply Used in Kya's Video, Under TR's "Not Liking Myself" Thread
Twilights-reign's mentioned "Hate Video"
Attempts to Distract: Two-Week TikTok Dump DissociaDID has illegally copyrighted a small channel called Granddadslounge 3x which can result in her channel being terminated and she will no longer be able to monetized her videos even if she makes a new channel because of youtubers copy right guidelines He talks about it on their channel in lots of videos
Buried comments in this subreddit by other YouTubers who personally knew DD Buried comment left the entropy system Buried comment left by M&M buried comment left by M&M
Buried Comment by Axolotsinatrenchcoat + another comment buried comment by the Entropy system
Miscellaneous
Trauma they’ve claimed so far Scamming on Patreon and other subjects
DissociaDID Patreon: DO NOT SUPPORT. Brief explanation inside Patreon Perks
Examples of DissociaDID art they sell on Patreon monthly that is all either copied or traced without credit.
Inappropriate sexual content
Giving unsafe sex advice
Inappropriate interactions with minors
Sexual comment towards a minor on an account marked 18+ about a minor's gag relax and how they can teach them work 'work on it
Inappropriate interactions with minor's in comments on tiktok
Simulating Sex on tiktok where minor's can see, their account is not age restricted and there is no warning so even if a parent is watching they would not be able to scroll away before the simulated sex begins
Sexualizing children's media (overlay of the children's / toddler's show)
Claiming sadism is not sexual
talking to minor's on a video about sex in which video has very unsafe sex advice that is dangerous
Lack of asking for consent
Using Mike their underaged minor to flirt with people / encourage flirting
Their (current) usernames across social media
Facebook : DissociaDID
Instagram : DissociaDID
Patreon: KyaandCo
Podcasts (spotify & other streaming services):
Candid (podcast with Bradid system)
SantiTea (podcast with team piñata)
TikTok : kyaandco, TheDemoness, kyaandco_backup
Twitch : thesystemstream
Youtube : DissociaDID
Former usernames:
DeviantArt: https://www.deviantart.com/cnwilkinsonart
Instagram: CalamityNinja Patreon: DissociaDID
Tumblr: CalamityNinja and https://
cnwilkinsonart-blog.tumblr.com/
TikTok: Ninandco, DissociaDID
Twitter: https://twitter.com/cnwilkinsonart and ninnamonroll
Revised + new links 2024 Pinned post - The controversy and why people are upset with DissociaDID /Ninandco / Kyaandco