Hello everyone, I'm a 24-year-old male who has been struggling with alcoholism for a year now. It started with 2 beers a night at university and in 3-4 months it escalated to a bottle of vodka a day. I was so desperate and couldn't go anywhere without a plastic bottle filled with vodka to hide it from anyone. During this period, no one ever noticed anything strange about me, but I was depressed from just the fact that I couldn't be off alcohol anymore.
Now let me get to this past month. I was having problems like dizziness, feeling like I was going to faint, and my blood pressure was around 140/95 all the time with a heart rate around 100-105 bpm. I was having very bad times and couldn't even sleep because of it, so I went to the doctors, and they started running all sorts of tests. I was worried to tell them about my alcohol use because my general practitioner is my aunt, so I kept it hidden from them. 3 weeks ago, they found out that I have pretty bad liver tests, high levels of ferritin and uric acid in the blood. On a CT scan, they also found out that I have a fatty liver.
This scared me fucking shitless. In one week, I cut down from 500ml of vodka to 250ml of vodka, and it was so fucking hard. I couldn't sleep, was sweating, and my heart felt like it would jump out of my chest. I was most worried about my heart because I had heard that it could potentially be dangerous, but I was so scared that I just went with it and continued. After that, I dropped from 250ml to 80ml of vodka in another week (so that means from 500ml to 80ml in two weeks). This jump subjectively felt better, but I still felt my heart pumping too fast, and I couldn't sleep much. Now it's been 2 and a half weeks, and I'm on 50ml (1 shot) a day in the afternoon. I feel much better, my heart rate dropped from 105 bpm to 80, which is huge, and I can't wait to drop alcohol altogether.
The problem is that I still sometimes feel like something is wrong with my heart. I sometimes get these episodes where I almost feel like I'm going to faint, and my head aches, sometimes my belly aches, but my most significant concern is my heart. When I had a CT scan 3 weeks ago, the doc said my heart and lungs are fine. Should I be worried, is it still the withdrawals, and is it just my body adjusting to life without alcohol? I take magnesium supplements and milk thistle extracts to help my liver plus vitamin B complex
I wish you all strength if you go through all of this. <3

I (27m) have been with “Lucy” (26f) for about four years. We’ve always been very open with our relationship as we’re both polyamorous and enjoy not being restricted to monogamy. We typically keep our other partners outside of each others lives as we’re both very busy people (we’re musicians) and tend to let each other do our own thing.
About six months I met Rose (20f) on tinder and we immediately hit off and began seeing each other. She’s utterly adorable, smiley, positive, and amazing in bed, and I love being with and around her. I’ve even brought up to Lucy how much I adore Rose and appreciate her. Lucy’s not the jealous type, and agrees through Rose’s pictures and texts that she’s beautiful and sweet. With how much Lucy seemed to like Rose, I had the idea that maybe the two could be introduced. Rose is also poly and pan (Lucy is bi) so I figured that maybe the two girls would hit it off. I mean, there’s always love to go around?
I brought it up to Rose who was apprehensive. She told me that this had never been asked of her by other partners, and that she prefers to keep her partner’s partners, especially long term, separate from her relationships. I assured her that Lucy was not the jealous type and there would be no competition or cattiness, I just wanted my two favorite girls to meet and get along. She wasn’t really listening to me about it, so I dropped it for the night before asking again a week later. She seemed nervous but said okay and that perhaps meeting other partners is a normal part of polyamory and that maybe she just hadn’t learned that yet.
We made plans to go out to dinner that night, and Rose was there when we got there. She looked absolutely adorable, which Lucy told her, but Rose just kind of smiled. She wasn’t acting like her typical self, usually she’s an excitable chatterbox but she barely spoke to me or Lucy the entire time. We kept encouraging her to answer questions and tried being as warm and lowkey as possible so she’d open up, but she was acting incredibly shy (even towards me, which felt really weird). I kept trying to quietly ask her if she was okay, but she just kept nodding and drinking water.
We had been at the restaurant maybe 45 minutes before Rose started crying and shaking and breathing heavy, and she got up and left. We waited for her, but she never came back. We wrapped up dinner early and went home so I could try to call Rose, but I got her voicemail.
I woke up to a text from Rose simply asking to never do that again. I said of course and that I wanted to see her, but she asked for space and since hasn’t really been replying to my calls or texts. She hasn’t been posting her adventures on snapchat or instagram lately either, and I just miss my old happy Rose and our time together.
I don’t believe what I wanted was too extreme, and I really don’t want to lose Rose over this. How should I go about this? I’m worried she doesn’t feel comfortable around me anymore, and Lucy is upset that the night went so poorly. I just want everyone to be happy.
tldr: My long term girlfriend seemed to like my girlfriend, so I wanted them to meet and my non-longterm girlfriend did not react or handle it well.

Kind of a random thing to post but NSI season is back and I know that this time last year I was searching for some tips. If anyone finds this I was the girl who broke both her legs in Charlie 1 last year cycle 3. Anyways, here are some super random tips for those of you about to go.

Feminine supplies, you can bring your own and you SHOULD, what they supply are tampons and overnight pads, they will not take them from you if you bring your own. Also put your hairbrush, hair ties, and gel in a similar bag to grab. They took my bag with my stuff in them and I was stranded with 2 hair ties until we got to go to the recruit store.
Bring a backpack, not a duffel, not a suitcase. Just trust.
Wear a polo and khaki pants, if you have a unit polo and belt even better. My unit did not tell me that and it really sucked to stick out like a sore thumb. If you're a girl come with your hair done.
If you have longer hair get a donut bun or bun twisties, I used both but much preferred the twisties. They will not issue supplies to do your hair.
When you shower (if you're female or just dirty) grab your display towel and put it inside of your rack, then grab another towel from the rack and use them, you will be on your period for random times, if you stain your white towel you're screwed. Leave a tampon in until after you shower or whatever.
You wash your waterbottles with bleach, they will taste like pool water. You're not drinking bleach you're fine. Really scrub the creases with a bleach papertowel if you can, mold will start to grow in them by week 2, and will make you more sick than you already are.
You WILL get sick. Try and take 1,500mg of vitamin C every day for a week before hand.
Try and get moleskin early your feet will be torn up, layer it on everyday BEFORE you get blisters.
Get the shoe insoles and extra cough drops, drip drop, and hair gel from the recruit store.
They don't use (a lot of) salt to cook the food, layer it on you'll start to pass out due to lack of electrolytes.
ONLY PETTY OFFICERS ARE ALLOWED TO SEE CHITS, don't get bullied into anything else and don't do anything outside of your chit if you get issued one, they are orders from the medical officers.
If you get allergy medication only take it at night, it will make you drowsy all day and fall asleep during classes.
Fix your uniform and the organization of your rack at night.
Learn to count before you go, you know who you are people who can't.
Journal what you learn and your experience, you'll enjoy it afterwards.
Just turn your brain off like 80% of the day, don't think too much into anything, it's good if the petty officers and MIDN don't know your name for being stupid.
Try not to get pink eye or covid or foot fungus or strep or whatever candidate crud is floating around.
Don't give up, I broke my legs (8 stress fractures on my left and six on my right from distance running pre-NSI and a bad accident at NSI) and I was out there doing fire fighting on 5,000mg of ibuprofen to pass, it's not that bad I promise. Let the Hooyah lobotomy happen. Enjoy being a boot while at NSI.
Don't try and get your family to see graduation, let them travel for your commission, NSI graduation is lame, you get to see them for 15 mins and then get loaded on a bus right after to be shipped home anyways, but if they're close go for it.
If you like keepsakes make a 'yearbook' I took a page off of my legal page and had all of my friends sign it on the last night, with words of encouragement/fun stuff. I framed it and love to see it and all the memories.
If you're not good at something ask someone to teach you at night, people will help you if you ask. It's important that you know how to drill. You don't want to be the reason your division is smoked.
For you nervous folks the gas chamber will be the easiest thing you do. Stress about it the least.
When I was there they wrote the daily schedule on the fishbowl whiteboard every night for the next day, it's a nice way to be in the know. They also put the shit list up there.

That's all I can think of for now. Comment any other tips/questions :)

DAY: MAY 20 2024
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5-20-2024 How a simulation is informing COVID-19 vaccine policy after our ‘return to normal’
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Hello, in 2020 I took 11 drops of methylcobalamin 5000mcg. A few minutes after I felt horrible. Nasal congestion, headache, anxiety, confusion and worse of all insomnia. I did not sleep for straight 48 hours and then slowly I started to sleep for 1-2 hours a day. For 2 years, I slept for 5-6 hours a day. Even the digestion worsened day by day, my intestines became hard and I could not digest anything like before. I felt intoxicated and my intestine was hard, initially, even my liver was in serious pain. In few months after taking methylcobalamin, every time I had even a little bit of dairy, I could not sleep again. This has remained for long.
Last year, I had pneumonia and took plenty of antibiotics and I noticed that my sleep had improved but every time I had dairy (yogurt) the insomnia would come back and if I take antibiotics again, the insomnia would disappear. My point is that most likely it is the gut bacteria that got altered after taking methylcobalamin. When I did a blood test, my homocysteine levels were high.
This year I tried a very small amount of multivitamin and symptoms came rushing. With some antibiotics again, they disappeared. Last month, I took some Vitamin D (cholecalciferol) 50000IU, all at once in a capsule and since this one time of taking this capsule I have insomnia after eating even a small amount of meat or dairy. Even if I eat it in the morning. I tried taking magnesium and potassium supplements but not much success.
I have been taken Vitamin D on multiple occasions but never had such symptoms. I have gut issues for years, most likely SIBO but also some gut inflammation I guess. I've lost 30 kgs in the past because of my gut issues caused antibiotics to kill H Pylori.
Can some explain why do I have these symptoms and how to get rid of them. My gut is feeling hard again. Am I oveunder methylated?

I'm having a hard time correcting the topology of some Shapely polygons representing filled contours and was wondering if anyone had any ideas that could help. I'm converting MatPlotLib filled contours to Shapely Polygons, then sending those to different GIS datasets. The problem is that these polygons overlap each other since they are filled contours. They export just fine as Shapefiles though. (The answer in this StackOverflow post has a good visualization of my problem: qgis - Cutting all polygons with each other - mega slicing - Geographic Information Systems Stack Exchange)
As far as I can tell using a difference operation with a brute force nested loop against the Polygon list isn't working because it will only show the last hole and fill in the previous. So the only path forward I have been able to think of is to recreate each Polygon with the necessary inner holes. This is what I have come up with, but it isn't having the desired effect despite seeming to create new polygons with interiors.
Anyway, thanks for reading this far, and I apologize for any inefficiencies in my snippet.. I'm really just trying to get some results at this point.

polys = # List of Polygon objects levels = # List of Contour "levels" matching each polygon for i, poly in enumerate(polys): inners = [] # Any holes identified will be placed here for j, otherPoly in enumerate(polys): if i == j or levels[i] == levels[j]: continue # We skip the same contour level and object # Test if polygon contains the other if poly.contains(otherPoly): validHole = True dropInners = [] # See if this otherPoly is already covered or covers an identified hole for inner in inners: if otherPoly.contains(inner): validHole = True dropInners.append(inner) if inner.contains(otherPoly): validHole = False # Remove holes we found aren't necessary for badInner in inners: inners.remove(badInner) # Add this otherPoly as a hole if it passed above if validHole: inners.append(otherPoly) # Don't do anything if we never found any holes to add if len(inners) == 0: continue # Get list of coords for holes inCoords = [] for inner in inners: inCoords.append(inner.exterior.coords) # Make new polygon with the holes poly = Polygon(poly.exterior.coords, inCoords) Here is some sample before and after output of a couple of polygons: POLYGON ((-89.60251046025104 50.21160329607576, -89.59869230663948 50.24271844660194, -89.60251046025104 50.2468124430137, -89.63109822656115 50.24271844660194, -89.60251046025104 50.21160329607576)) POLYGON ((-89.60251046025104 50.21160329607576, -89.59869230663948 50.24271844660194, -89.60251046025104 50.2468124430137, -89.63109822656115 50.24271844660194, -89.60251046025104 50.21160329607576), (-89.63109822656115 50.24271844660194, -89.60251046025104 50.246812443013695, -89.59869230663948 50.24271844660194, -89.60251046025104 50.21160329607576, -89.63109822656115 50.24271844660194)) POLYGON ((-120.48117154811716 38.851306212489355, -120.3449782518005 38.883495145631066, -120.48117154811715 38.985473773505554, -120.52087412171866 38.883495145631066, -120.48117154811716 38.851306212489355)) POLYGON ((-120.48117154811716 38.851306212489355, -120.3449782518005 38.883495145631066, -120.48117154811715 38.985473773505554, -120.52087412171866 38.883495145631066, -120.48117154811716 38.851306212489355), (-120.52087412171866 38.883495145631066, -120.48117154811715 38.985473773505554, -120.3449782518005 38.883495145631066, -120.48117154811716 38.851306212489355, -120.52087412171866 38.883495145631066))

Hello!! I got rejected from NUS, just received it earlier today. Applied to CHS Social Work.
My Profile: - Final CGPA: 3.74 - Studied a related course in Poly - played an active role in CCAs, was in exco of a volunteering CCA - Had 6 months poly overseas internship, where I did events/marketing - went through both the ABA writing test & interview, felt like I did meh for the writing test & pretty well for the interview (felt like I showcased my passion, knowledge and experience pretty well)
will defo appeal, but i know the chances r low when it comes to appealing for the same course you got rejected from... however I don't see myself in another course other than Social Work/Psychology...
I actually also dropped out of jc to study in poly! I hate to admit it but I do feel like getting into nus was something I really wanted to “prove my self worth” / make dropping out seemed “worth it”😞 ok but oh wells
I have an offer from SMU PPS, which is what I probably will go for. But I honestly lean towards Social Work than Psychology, so I do feel a lil more inclined towards NUS Social Work. Any thoughts on why I wasn't enough for NUS?🥲🥲🥲🥲was it my gpa?

Hello, in 2020 I took 11 drops of methylcobalamin 5000mcg. A few minutes after I felt horrible. Nasal congestion, headache, anxiety, confusion and worse of all insomnia. I did not sleep for straight 48 hours and then slowly I started to sleep for 1-2 hours a day. For 2 years, I slept for 5-6 hours a day. Even the digestion worsened day by day, my intestines became hard and I could not digest anything like before. I felt intoxicated and my intestine was hard, initially, even my liver was in serious pain. In few months after taking methylcobalamin, every time I had even a little bit of dairy, I could not sleep again. This has remained for long.
Last year, I had pneumonia and took plenty of antibiotics and I noticed that my sleep had improved but every time I had dairy (yogurt) the insomnia would come back and if I take antibiotics again, the insomnia would disappear. My point is that most likely it is the gut bacteria that got altered after taking methylcobalamin. When I did a blood test, my homocysteine levels were high.
This year I tried a very small amount of multivitamin and symptoms came rushing. With some antibiotics again, they disppeared. Last month, I took some Vitamin D (colecalciferolo) 50000IU, all at once in a capsule and since this one time of taking this capsule I have insomnia after eating even a small amount of meat or dairy. Even if I eat it in the morning. I tried taking magnesium and potassium supplements but not much success.
I have been taken Vitamin D on multiple occasions but never had such symptoms. I have gut issues for years, most likely SIBO but also some gut inflammation I guess. I've lost 30 kgs in the past because of my gut issues caused antibiotics to kill H Pylori.
Can some explain why do I have these symptoms and how to get rid of them. My gut is feeling hard again. Am I oveunder methylated?

So, I know this isn't a place for a kid like me, but I just have to get it off my chest. I 13F live with my grandparents since I am 2. My mother has left me at a very young age and I developed serious mental health problems such as health problems. I have iron defiency, lack of vitamins, depression and pretty bad bipolarism. I keep on lashing out in school at schoolmates and teachers. I was diagnosed with depression during winter 2020, and bipolarism during spring 2023. I know, many will probably say that I am lying but no, I am for real. I have been through alot of therapy and take daily medication.
Now, to my grandma, she takes my mental health situation to her pro. She often makes comments like "Be careful or you'll lash out" or "This is all your fathers fault" No, it's not my fathers fault and he tries his best to support me. She talks about him on family functions if he isn't present because of work and tells everyone how he abandonned me and visits rarely, which isn't true. He can't visit alot because he works alot outside the country. He earns good money, but has to work alot. My grandma already makes him PAY MY RENT (Not to mention I am still a minor). She also tells him that my geades are dropping drastically, but my worst grade right now is a 3 in Geography.
A few days ago I was in my room playing Fortnite with a few friends. My grandma bursts into my room and yells at me because I didn't do the dishes. She proceeded to say "Just because you're mentally sick doesn't mean you can be so spoiled and lazy!" My friends heard all of it. I stood up and started screaming how she should shut up and stop talking shit. I yell for about 20 minutes until I break down in tears. My grandma storms out of my room and tells this all my grandpa. My grandpa is a very understanding person, and he helped me alot through my episodes and manias. He told me that it's okay and I should just calm down for now.
My grandma hasn't talked to me since and just gives me dirty looks. I told my dad about it and he said she needs some time to cool off. But she also neevr apologised to me when she completely messed up my room or destroyed my english homework because she didn't like my handwriting. I really don't understand her at times and why she makes my life harder than it already is.
Should I apologise or wait for her to apologise? And AITA?

48-year-old woman, 5’4”, 121 lbs, exercise daily. Only medications are Zyrtec and vitamins. Social alcohol use, no illicit drugs, cannabis edibles around once a week for insomnia. (Recreational use is legal in my state).
I exercise for 40-60 minutes every day, including running, bootcamp, and weight training. My resting heart rate is in the low 40s and my BP is generally on the low side of normal, usually 90/60ish.
This morning my heart rate got over 200 for about five minutes after I completed a 40-minute cardio workout. I didn’t feel out of breath or like my heart was beating hard. After five minutes, my HR dropped back to the 50s. (For reference, my heart rate sometimes, but rarely, gets into the 170s when working out, but even with running, usually doesn’t get higher than 150.)
The internet is telling me I should have gone to the ER with a heart rate over 200. This has never happened before and I didn’t do anything out of the ordinary. Is this a cause for concern?

Hello,
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***

Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :

Afterfall Insanity Extended Edition
Archery Practice VR
Be King
Beast Boxing Turbo
Betrayer
Blackwater Bayou VR
Cloud Chamber
Defenders of Ardania
Depths of Fear :: Knossos
Dollar Dash
Droplitz
eXceed - Gun Bullet Children
Grind Zones
Leviathan: Warships
Magicka: Wizards of the Square Tablet
On The Path
Peaky Blinders: Mastermind
Quadrant M4
Quixzel Rush: Pumpkin Bash
Quixzel Rush: Tooth Protector
Run Away
Shadows: Price For Our Sins Bonus Edition
Sine Mora + Ex
Space Rangers
Spaceguy 2
Star Shield Down
Trials of The Illuminati: Animated Christmas Time Jigsaws
Trials of The Illuminati: Assorted Jigsaws
Trials of The Illuminati: Snack Time Jigsaw Puzzles
Trials of The Illuminati: Women of Beauty Jigsaws
Two Brothers
World War 1 Centennial Edition
ZombieRush

Challenges, Lootboy, second hand, might have some dupes in it (also might not be up to date) => i can exchange them for games but also for trading cards, based on grey market value Vs trading cards market value :

A Game of Dwarves
A New Beginning - Final Cut
A New Beginning
A Valley Without Wind
Abandon Ship
Alien Spidy
Aliens versus Predator Classic 2000
Angvik
Animals
Anna - Extended Edition
AquaNox
Ashes of the Singularity: Escalation
Astervoid 2000 Soundtrack
Aura: Fate of the Ages
Avencast
Bad Rats
Bang Bang Racing
Beat Hazard
Beat Hazard Complete
Bionic Heart 2 - Deluxe Edition
Bionic Heart
BlazeRush
CAPSULE
Car Mechanic Simulator 2014
Cargo! - The quest for gravity
Ceville
Commander: Conquest of the Americas
Commandos 3: Destination Berlin
Contagion
Crash Time 3
Dangerous platform
Dark Fall: Lost Souls
Dark Fear
Darwinia
Darwinia Soundtrack
Dead Hungry Diner
Deadly 30
Deep Dungeons of Doom
Demigod
Deponia
DESOLATE
Disciples II: Galleans Return
Disciples II: Rise of the Elves
Dragon Blast DLC
Driftmoon
Drop Hunt - Adventure Puzzle
Dungeons - The Dark Lord
El Matador
Escape From Russia: Mobilization
Europa Universalis III Chronicles
Fated Souls 3
Fester Mudd - Episode 1
Figment
Final Slam 2
Finding Teddy
Flatout
Flower Shop: Summer In Fairbrook
Galactic Civilizations I: Ultimate Edition
Ghost Master
Girlfriend Rescue
Going Under
Grand Ages Rome Gold
Grav Blazer
Greed: Black Border
Grotesque Tactics 2
Grotesque Tactics: Evil Heroes
Hacker Evolution Source Code
Hail To The King
Hard Reset Extended Edition
Heileen 2: The Hands Of Fate
Hell Let Loose - Hot Drop (DLC)
Hero by Chance
Holy Avatar vs. Maidens of the Dead
Home
Huntsman: The Orphanage
Imperial Glory
inMomentum
Ion Assault
Just Ignore Them
Kalaban
KAMI
Kingdom Wars 4 - The Plague: Kingdom Wars
Knights of Honor
Konung 2
Konung 3
Labyrinthine Dreams
LEAVES - The Return
Leisure Suit Larry in the Land of the Lounge Lizards: Reloaded
LYNE
M.U.D. TV
Majesty 2
Mata Hari
Maverta Island
Megabyte Punch
Memory Booster
Men of War: Assault Squad GOTY
Mind: Path to Thalamus
Miner Wars 2081
Mini Motor Racing
Molecular Warfare
Multiwinia
NASCAR Heat Evolution
Night Wanderings
Norega Barracks + Academy DLC
Oil Rush Bundle
One Finger Death Punch 2
Onikira - Demon Killer
Overcast - Walden and the Werewolf
Patrician IV
Patrician IV Gold
Perimeter
Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic
PixelJunk Monsters Ultimate
Planets Under Attack
Plush
Poof
Praetorians
Primal Carnage
Purgatory: War of the Damned
Puzzle Art: Cats
Puzzle Kingdoms
Quell
Quell Memento
Quell Reflect
R.I.P.D.: The Game
Race! Beauty! Bugs!
Razor2: Hidden Skies
Red Faction Guerrilla Re-Mars-tered + Armageddon Bundle With DLC (Nordic D)
Red Johnson's Chronicles - 1+2
Reign: Conflict of Nations
Rig N Roll
Rise of Flight: Channel Battles Edition
Sacred Gold
Save the Dodos
Self Shot
Sex Chess
Shadowgrounds Survivor
Shannon Tweed's Attack Of The Groupies
Skara - Starter Pack
Skeleton Troubles
Sky Mercenaries
Smalles Class DLC
Soulcraft
Space Empires V
Space Pilgrim Academy: Year 3
Spirited Heart Deluxe
Square's Route
Star Ruler
Steel Storm
Stellar Interface
Stoirs VR
Stunt Hill
Swamp Jump
Sweet Lilly Dreams
Switch Galaxy Ultra
Switch Galaxy Ultra Charity Pack 1
Tennis Manager 2021
The Deed II
The End of Labyronia: Nerubis
The God's Chain
The King's Heroes
The Old City: Leviathan
Theatre of War 2: Africa 1943
Theatre of War
Theatre of War: 3 - Korea
Theatre of War: Centauro
Theatre of War: Kursk + Caen
Toby: The Secret Mine
Trainz Simulator 12 - Coronation Scot DLC
Tropico 3
Tropico 4
Trulon: The Shadow Engine
Turba
UFO Afterlight
Ultimate Soldier
Undefeated
Uplink
Us and them
Valnir Rok
Vault Cracker
Vegas: Make It Big
Velvet Assassin
Vessel
Victory: The Age of Racing - Steam Founder Pack
Warriors' Wrath
Wasteland Angel
Who's that Flying
Windforge
Zombie Pirates
Zombie Shooter

Consoles (from IGN) :
Backfirewall_ (XBox) Home Sheep Home: Farmageddon Party Edition (XBox)
Enclave HD (Nintendo Switch America Region)

Wayfinder Early Access on PS5

Wishlist :
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are (not always up to date) :

9 Years of Shadows
A Plague Tale: Requiem
ABRISS
Achilles: Legends Untold
AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH
ALTF4
Axiom Verge
Axiom Verge 2
Battletoads
Bendy and the Ink Machine
BERSERK and the Band of the Hawk
Blade of Darkness
Blasphemous 2
Bleak Faith: Forsaken
Boneraiser Minions
Bud Spencer & Terence Hill - Slaps And Beans 2
CARRION
Choo-Choo Charles
Cookie Cutter
Cuphead
Deadlink
Double Dragon Gaiden: Rise of the Dragons
Dread Delusion
Dread X Collection: The Hunt
ELDEN RING
Enter / Exit the Gungeon
Gearshifters
GetsuFumaDen: Undying Moon Delux
Ghost Song
Good Knight
GRAVEN
GTFO
Hand of Fate 2
Hands of Necromancy
Hidden Deep
High On Life
HYPERVIOLENT
Impaler
Just King
LEGO® Star Wars: The Skywalker Saga
Loot River
Lost in Random
Lost Ruins
Madshot
Mago
Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy
Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord
New Tales from the Borderlands
Noita
Piko Interactive LLC various oldies
Prince of Persia (various)
Project Warlock II
Prototype 1 and 2
Resident Evil 4 (New)
River City Girls 2
River City Girls Zero
River City Melee : Battle Royal Special
River City Melee Mach!!
River City: Rival Showdown
River City Saga: Three Kingdoms
Rogue: Genesia
Seasons after Fall
Sir Whoopass
STASIS: BONE TOTEM
Super Catboy
The Knight Witch
The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt
Trine 5: A Clockwork Conspiracy
Ultratron
ULTRAKILL
UNSIGHTED
Void Scrappers
Warhammer 40,000: Darktide
Warhammer 40,000: Shootas, Blood & Teef
Windbound

DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W) * Resident Evil Village Winters Expansion * Cyberpunk 2077: Phantom Liberty * Saints Row - Expansion Pass * Rain World: Downpour
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades

Hello,
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***

Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :

Afterfall Insanity Extended Edition
Archery Practice VR
Be King
Beast Boxing Turbo
Betrayer
Blackwater Bayou VR
Cloud Chamber
Defenders of Ardania
Depths of Fear :: Knossos
Dollar Dash
Droplitz
eXceed - Gun Bullet Children
Grind Zones
Leviathan: Warships
Magicka: Wizards of the Square Tablet
On The Path
Peaky Blinders: Mastermind
Quadrant M4
Quixzel Rush: Pumpkin Bash
Quixzel Rush: Tooth Protector
Run Away
Shadows: Price For Our Sins Bonus Edition
Sine Mora + Ex
Space Rangers
Spaceguy 2
Star Shield Down
Trials of The Illuminati: Animated Christmas Time Jigsaws
Trials of The Illuminati: Assorted Jigsaws
Trials of The Illuminati: Snack Time Jigsaw Puzzles
Trials of The Illuminati: Women of Beauty Jigsaws
Two Brothers
World War 1 Centennial Edition
ZombieRush

Challenges, Lootboy, second hand, might have some dupes in it (also might not be up to date) => i can exchange them for games but also for trading cards, based on grey market value Vs trading cards market value :

A Game of Dwarves
A New Beginning - Final Cut
A New Beginning
A Valley Without Wind
Abandon Ship
Alien Spidy
Aliens versus Predator Classic 2000
Angvik
Animals
Anna - Extended Edition
AquaNox
Ashes of the Singularity: Escalation
Astervoid 2000 Soundtrack
Aura: Fate of the Ages
Avencast
Bad Rats
Bang Bang Racing
Beat Hazard
Beat Hazard Complete
Bionic Heart 2 - Deluxe Edition
Bionic Heart
BlazeRush
CAPSULE
Car Mechanic Simulator 2014
Cargo! - The quest for gravity
Ceville
Commander: Conquest of the Americas
Commandos 3: Destination Berlin
Contagion
Crash Time 3
Dangerous platform
Dark Fall: Lost Souls
Dark Fear
Darwinia
Darwinia Soundtrack
Dead Hungry Diner
Deadly 30
Deep Dungeons of Doom
Demigod
Deponia
DESOLATE
Disciples II: Galleans Return
Disciples II: Rise of the Elves
Dragon Blast DLC
Driftmoon
Drop Hunt - Adventure Puzzle
Dungeons - The Dark Lord
El Matador
Escape From Russia: Mobilization
Europa Universalis III Chronicles
Fated Souls 3
Fester Mudd - Episode 1
Figment
Final Slam 2
Finding Teddy
Flatout
Flower Shop: Summer In Fairbrook
Galactic Civilizations I: Ultimate Edition
Ghost Master
Girlfriend Rescue
Going Under
Grand Ages Rome Gold
Grav Blazer
Greed: Black Border
Grotesque Tactics 2
Grotesque Tactics: Evil Heroes
Hacker Evolution Source Code
Hail To The King
Hard Reset Extended Edition
Heileen 2: The Hands Of Fate
Hell Let Loose - Hot Drop (DLC)
Hero by Chance
Holy Avatar vs. Maidens of the Dead
Home
Huntsman: The Orphanage
Imperial Glory
inMomentum
Ion Assault
Just Ignore Them
Kalaban
KAMI
Kingdom Wars 4 - The Plague: Kingdom Wars
Knights of Honor
Konung 2
Konung 3
Labyrinthine Dreams
LEAVES - The Return
Leisure Suit Larry in the Land of the Lounge Lizards: Reloaded
LYNE
M.U.D. TV
Majesty 2
Mata Hari
Maverta Island
Megabyte Punch
Memory Booster
Men of War: Assault Squad GOTY
Mind: Path to Thalamus
Miner Wars 2081
Mini Motor Racing
Molecular Warfare
Multiwinia
NASCAR Heat Evolution
Night Wanderings
Norega Barracks + Academy DLC
Oil Rush Bundle
One Finger Death Punch 2
Onikira - Demon Killer
Overcast - Walden and the Werewolf
Patrician IV
Patrician IV Gold
Perimeter
Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic
PixelJunk Monsters Ultimate
Planets Under Attack
Plush
Poof
Praetorians
Primal Carnage
Purgatory: War of the Damned
Puzzle Art: Cats
Puzzle Kingdoms
Quell
Quell Memento
Quell Reflect
R.I.P.D.: The Game
Race! Beauty! Bugs!
Razor2: Hidden Skies
Red Faction Guerrilla Re-Mars-tered + Armageddon Bundle With DLC (Nordic D)
Red Johnson's Chronicles - 1+2
Reign: Conflict of Nations
Rig N Roll
Rise of Flight: Channel Battles Edition
Sacred Gold
Save the Dodos
Self Shot
Sex Chess
Shadowgrounds Survivor
Shannon Tweed's Attack Of The Groupies
Skara - Starter Pack
Skeleton Troubles
Sky Mercenaries
Smalles Class DLC
Soulcraft
Space Empires V
Space Pilgrim Academy: Year 3
Spirited Heart Deluxe
Square's Route
Star Ruler
Steel Storm
Stellar Interface
Stoirs VR
Stunt Hill
Swamp Jump
Sweet Lilly Dreams
Switch Galaxy Ultra
Switch Galaxy Ultra Charity Pack 1
Tennis Manager 2021
The Deed II
The End of Labyronia: Nerubis
The God's Chain
The King's Heroes
The Old City: Leviathan
Theatre of War 2: Africa 1943
Theatre of War
Theatre of War: 3 - Korea
Theatre of War: Centauro
Theatre of War: Kursk + Caen
Toby: The Secret Mine
Trainz Simulator 12 - Coronation Scot DLC
Tropico 3
Tropico 4
Trulon: The Shadow Engine
Turba
UFO Afterlight
Ultimate Soldier
Undefeated
Uplink
Us and them
Valnir Rok
Vault Cracker
Vegas: Make It Big
Velvet Assassin
Vessel
Victory: The Age of Racing - Steam Founder Pack
Warriors' Wrath
Wasteland Angel
Who's that Flying
Windforge
Zombie Pirates
Zombie Shooter

Consoles (from IGN) :
Backfirewall_ (XBox) Home Sheep Home: Farmageddon Party Edition (XBox)
Enclave HD (Nintendo Switch America Region)

Wayfinder Early Access on PS5

Wishlist :
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are (not always up to date) :

9 Years of Shadows
A Plague Tale: Requiem
ABRISS
Achilles: Legends Untold
AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH
ALTF4
Axiom Verge
Axiom Verge 2
Battletoads
Bendy and the Ink Machine
BERSERK and the Band of the Hawk
Blade of Darkness
Blasphemous 2
Bleak Faith: Forsaken
Boneraiser Minions
Bud Spencer & Terence Hill - Slaps And Beans 2
CARRION
Choo-Choo Charles
Cookie Cutter
Cuphead
Deadlink
Double Dragon Gaiden: Rise of the Dragons
Dread Delusion
Dread X Collection: The Hunt
ELDEN RING
Enter / Exit the Gungeon
Gearshifters
GetsuFumaDen: Undying Moon Delux
Ghost Song
Good Knight
GRAVEN
GTFO
Hand of Fate 2
Hands of Necromancy
Hidden Deep
High On Life
HYPERVIOLENT
Impaler
Just King
LEGO® Star Wars: The Skywalker Saga
Loot River
Lost in Random
Lost Ruins
Madshot
Mago
Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy
Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord
New Tales from the Borderlands
Noita
Piko Interactive LLC various oldies
Prince of Persia (various)
Project Warlock II
Prototype 1 and 2
Resident Evil 4 (New)
River City Girls 2
River City Girls Zero
River City Melee : Battle Royal Special
River City Melee Mach!!
River City: Rival Showdown
River City Saga: Three Kingdoms
Rogue: Genesia
Seasons after Fall
Sir Whoopass
STASIS: BONE TOTEM
Super Catboy
The Knight Witch
The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt
Trine 5: A Clockwork Conspiracy
Ultratron
ULTRAKILL
UNSIGHTED
Void Scrappers
Warhammer 40,000: Darktide
Warhammer 40,000: Shootas, Blood & Teef
Windbound

DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W) * Resident Evil Village Winters Expansion * Cyberpunk 2077: Phantom Liberty * Saints Row - Expansion Pass * Rain World: Downpour
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades

Hello,
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***

Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :

Afterfall Insanity Extended Edition
Archery Practice VR
Be King
Beast Boxing Turbo
Betrayer
Blackwater Bayou VR
Cloud Chamber
Defenders of Ardania
Depths of Fear :: Knossos
Dollar Dash
Droplitz
eXceed - Gun Bullet Children
Grind Zones
Leviathan: Warships
Magicka: Wizards of the Square Tablet
On The Path
Peaky Blinders: Mastermind
Quadrant M4
Quixzel Rush: Pumpkin Bash
Quixzel Rush: Tooth Protector
Run Away
Shadows: Price For Our Sins Bonus Edition
Sine Mora + Ex
Space Rangers
Spaceguy 2
Star Shield Down
Trials of The Illuminati: Animated Christmas Time Jigsaws
Trials of The Illuminati: Assorted Jigsaws
Trials of The Illuminati: Snack Time Jigsaw Puzzles
Trials of The Illuminati: Women of Beauty Jigsaws
Two Brothers
World War 1 Centennial Edition
ZombieRush

Challenges, Lootboy, second hand, might have some dupes in it (also might not be up to date) => i can exchange them for games but also for trading cards, based on grey market value Vs trading cards market value :

A Game of Dwarves
A New Beginning - Final Cut
A New Beginning
A Valley Without Wind
Abandon Ship
Alien Spidy
Aliens versus Predator Classic 2000
Angvik
Animals
Anna - Extended Edition
AquaNox
Ashes of the Singularity: Escalation
Astervoid 2000 Soundtrack
Aura: Fate of the Ages
Avencast
Bad Rats
Bang Bang Racing
Beat Hazard
Beat Hazard Complete
Bionic Heart 2 - Deluxe Edition
Bionic Heart
BlazeRush
CAPSULE
Car Mechanic Simulator 2014
Cargo! - The quest for gravity
Ceville
Commander: Conquest of the Americas
Commandos 3: Destination Berlin
Contagion
Crash Time 3
Dangerous platform
Dark Fall: Lost Souls
Dark Fear
Darwinia
Darwinia Soundtrack
Dead Hungry Diner
Deadly 30
Deep Dungeons of Doom
Demigod
Deponia
DESOLATE
Disciples II: Galleans Return
Disciples II: Rise of the Elves
Dragon Blast DLC
Driftmoon
Drop Hunt - Adventure Puzzle
Dungeons - The Dark Lord
El Matador
Escape From Russia: Mobilization
Europa Universalis III Chronicles
Fated Souls 3
Fester Mudd - Episode 1
Figment
Final Slam 2
Finding Teddy
Flatout
Flower Shop: Summer In Fairbrook
Galactic Civilizations I: Ultimate Edition
Ghost Master
Girlfriend Rescue
Going Under
Grand Ages Rome Gold
Grav Blazer
Greed: Black Border
Grotesque Tactics 2
Grotesque Tactics: Evil Heroes
Hacker Evolution Source Code
Hail To The King
Hard Reset Extended Edition
Heileen 2: The Hands Of Fate
Hell Let Loose - Hot Drop (DLC)
Hero by Chance
Holy Avatar vs. Maidens of the Dead
Home
Huntsman: The Orphanage
Imperial Glory
inMomentum
Ion Assault
Just Ignore Them
Kalaban
KAMI
Kingdom Wars 4 - The Plague: Kingdom Wars
Knights of Honor
Konung 2
Konung 3
Labyrinthine Dreams
LEAVES - The Return
Leisure Suit Larry in the Land of the Lounge Lizards: Reloaded
LYNE
M.U.D. TV
Majesty 2
Mata Hari
Maverta Island
Megabyte Punch
Memory Booster
Men of War: Assault Squad GOTY
Mind: Path to Thalamus
Miner Wars 2081
Mini Motor Racing
Molecular Warfare
Multiwinia
NASCAR Heat Evolution
Night Wanderings
Norega Barracks + Academy DLC
Oil Rush Bundle
One Finger Death Punch 2
Onikira - Demon Killer
Overcast - Walden and the Werewolf
Patrician IV
Patrician IV Gold
Perimeter
Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic
PixelJunk Monsters Ultimate
Planets Under Attack
Plush
Poof
Praetorians
Primal Carnage
Purgatory: War of the Damned
Puzzle Art: Cats
Puzzle Kingdoms
Quell
Quell Memento
Quell Reflect
R.I.P.D.: The Game
Race! Beauty! Bugs!
Razor2: Hidden Skies
Red Faction Guerrilla Re-Mars-tered + Armageddon Bundle With DLC (Nordic D)
Red Johnson's Chronicles - 1+2
Reign: Conflict of Nations
Rig N Roll
Rise of Flight: Channel Battles Edition
Sacred Gold
Save the Dodos
Self Shot
Sex Chess
Shadowgrounds Survivor
Shannon Tweed's Attack Of The Groupies
Skara - Starter Pack
Skeleton Troubles
Sky Mercenaries
Smalles Class DLC
Soulcraft
Space Empires V
Space Pilgrim Academy: Year 3
Spirited Heart Deluxe
Square's Route
Star Ruler
Steel Storm
Stellar Interface
Stoirs VR
Stunt Hill
Swamp Jump
Sweet Lilly Dreams
Switch Galaxy Ultra
Switch Galaxy Ultra Charity Pack 1
Tennis Manager 2021
The Deed II
The End of Labyronia: Nerubis
The God's Chain
The King's Heroes
The Old City: Leviathan
Theatre of War 2: Africa 1943
Theatre of War
Theatre of War: 3 - Korea
Theatre of War: Centauro
Theatre of War: Kursk + Caen
Toby: The Secret Mine
Trainz Simulator 12 - Coronation Scot DLC
Tropico 3
Tropico 4
Trulon: The Shadow Engine
Turba
UFO Afterlight
Ultimate Soldier
Undefeated
Uplink
Us and them
Valnir Rok
Vault Cracker
Vegas: Make It Big
Velvet Assassin
Vessel
Victory: The Age of Racing - Steam Founder Pack
Warriors' Wrath
Wasteland Angel
Who's that Flying
Windforge
Zombie Pirates
Zombie Shooter

Consoles (from IGN) :
Backfirewall_ (XBox) Home Sheep Home: Farmageddon Party Edition (XBox)
Enclave HD (Nintendo Switch America Region)

Wayfinder Early Access on PS5

Wishlist :
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are (not always up to date) :

9 Years of Shadows
A Plague Tale: Requiem
ABRISS
Achilles: Legends Untold
AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH
ALTF4
Axiom Verge
Axiom Verge 2
Battletoads
Bendy and the Ink Machine
BERSERK and the Band of the Hawk
Blade of Darkness
Blasphemous 2
Bleak Faith: Forsaken
Boneraiser Minions
Bud Spencer & Terence Hill - Slaps And Beans 2
CARRION
Choo-Choo Charles
Cookie Cutter
Cuphead
Deadlink
Double Dragon Gaiden: Rise of the Dragons
Dread Delusion
Dread X Collection: The Hunt
ELDEN RING
Enter / Exit the Gungeon
Gearshifters
GetsuFumaDen: Undying Moon Delux
Ghost Song
Good Knight
GRAVEN
GTFO
Hand of Fate 2
Hands of Necromancy
Hidden Deep
High On Life
HYPERVIOLENT
Impaler
Just King
LEGO® Star Wars: The Skywalker Saga
Loot River
Lost in Random
Lost Ruins
Madshot
Mago
Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy
Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord
New Tales from the Borderlands
Noita
Piko Interactive LLC various oldies
Prince of Persia (various)
Project Warlock II
Prototype 1 and 2
Resident Evil 4 (New)
River City Girls 2
River City Girls Zero
River City Melee : Battle Royal Special
River City Melee Mach!!
River City: Rival Showdown
River City Saga: Three Kingdoms
Rogue: Genesia
Seasons after Fall
Sir Whoopass
STASIS: BONE TOTEM
Super Catboy
The Knight Witch
The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt
Trine 5: A Clockwork Conspiracy
Ultratron
ULTRAKILL
UNSIGHTED
Void Scrappers
Warhammer 40,000: Darktide
Warhammer 40,000: Shootas, Blood & Teef
Windbound

DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W) * Resident Evil Village Winters Expansion * Cyberpunk 2077: Phantom Liberty * Saints Row - Expansion Pass * Rain World: Downpour
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades

As temperatures soar during the summer heat wave, the risk of dehydration increases significantly. Dehydration, a condition that occurs when the body loses more fluids than it takes in, can have serious health consequences. It’s crucial to understand the dangers of dehydration and the importance of staying hydrated, especially in extreme heat.

Symptoms of Dehydration

The symptoms of dehydration can vary depending on the severity of the condition. Mild to moderate dehydration may cause:

Thirst
Dry mouth
Fatigue
Dizziness or lightheadedness
Dark yellow urine
Reduced urine output

Severe dehydration can lead to more serious symptoms, such as:

Extreme thirst
Very dry skin
Rapid heartbeat
Rapid breathing
Sunken eyes
Confusion or irritability
Fainting

The Dangers of Dehydration

Kidney Problems: Chronic dehydration can lead to kidney stones and urinary tract infections. In severe cases, it can cause kidney failure.
Cognitive Impairment: Dehydration affects brain function, leading to problems with concentration, alertness, and short-term memory.
Heat Injury: Lack of adequate fluids can result in heat-related illnesses, such as heat cramps, heat exhaustion, or heat stroke.
Seizures: Electrolytes like potassium and sodium help carry electrical signals between cells. When electrolytes are out of balance due to dehydration, involuntary muscle contractions and loss of consciousness can occur.
Hypovolemic Shock: This is a severe condition resulting from low blood volume, causing a drop in blood pressure and reduced oxygen supply to organs. It can be life-threatening if not treated promptly.

Preventing Dehydration

The best way to prevent dehydration is to drink plenty of fluids each day. Water is the best choice, but other beverages and foods can contribute to overall fluid intake. Aim to drink at least eight 8-ounce glasses of water per day, and more if you are physically active, pregnant, or nursing.

Herbal Formula to Support Hydration

To support hydration and provide additional health benefits, consider incorporating a herbal tea blend into your daily routine. This blend includes herbs known for their hydrating and restorative properties.
Hydration Herbal Tea Blend

Hibiscus: Rich in antioxidants and vitamin C, hibiscus helps maintain hydration and supports the immune system.
Chamomile: A soothing herb that aids in relaxation and digestion, chamomile also has mild diuretic properties that help maintain fluid balance.
Licorice Root: Known for its soothing properties, licorice root helps maintain electrolyte balance and supports adrenal function.
Ginger: Promotes digestion and circulation, helping to ensure proper nutrient absorption and hydration.
Peppermint: A refreshing herb that aids digestion and provides a cooling effect, which can be particularly helpful in hot weather.

Conclusion

Dehydration is a serious risk during summer heat waves, but it is preventable. By staying mindful of your fluid intake and taking steps to keep cool, you can protect yourself from the dangers of dehydration. Remember to drink regularly, choose hydrating foods, and avoid activities that increase fluid loss. Stay safe and stay hydrated this summer!

Name: Hersheal D. Shabba Age: 20 Height: 6’0 Weight : 189 lbs Devil fruit: Saru- Saru no mi (Ape-Ape Fruit) Model: Stone Monkey Affiliation: Straw hats pirates, (True Mono Disciples) Positions: Lookout Epithets: Monochrome Gangsta Personality: Likes to talk to himself, sing to himself, Dance when he thinks he’s alone, Easily distracted by something obscure or minor (ADHD), ADD Neutral: street smart, hard headed, spiritual, artistic Positive: Humble, loyal, generous, passionate Negative: Short Fuse, awkward Appearance: half Lunerian white and black hair Afro Twists, slits in eyebrows, Red eyes, yellow camouflage zip up , Gold dripped headbands, Asterisks like scar on left cheek, Mini Black wings Height: pre-time skip 5’11 post time skip: 6’0 Build: pre time skip: Skinny lean and toned out with some muscle Post time skip: Hero built like BaKi Hanma Dream: To be The world’s strongest man, finding out the secrets of the celestial dragons and taking down the celestial dragons powers and techniques : Immense Strength Enhanced Speed Enhance Senses (especially sight) Enhanced Acrobatics Healing Factor Invulnerability Shape-shifting Cloning Cloud Manifestation Ape-like Practices Primate Communication Wizard form (Black Fur) Lunarian form(White Fur) True Monkey King (Golden Fur) Victorious Fighting Monkey King Conqueror’s Haki (Advanced) Observation haki (Advanced) Armament Haki (Advanced) Monkey King style Roast Session Hawk Arrow Eagle Kick Atom Smasher Twin Atom Smasher Divine Breaker(Atom Smasher + Advanced Conqueror + Advanced armament haki) Buster Cannon (Combined Atom Smasher) Great Sage Devastation (Combined Divine Breaker) Able to Travel Dimensions 72 earthly transformations Laser Eye beam Musical Attacks Spirit Geyser Heavenly Ragnarok Big Steppa One inch Punch Fourth wall awareness Immortal elixir Immortal peach Protagonist Summons Weakness: standard Devil fruit weaknesses Traveling to dimensions gives him splitting headaches till he passes out Magical Golden headband
Ruyi Jingu Bang: Divine Hawk Arrow Strike raid Supra Twister Great Sage Festival Longinus slash Calamity Falls Mega Flare Lethal Flame Raging Storm Holy rain White Horse Dragon Flame Great Sage Meteor Zettaflare Exoflare Terraflare
Clones: •Triple Power Bomb •GSDD (Great Sage Death Drop) •Gravesite Finisher •Replicamikaze •5 k Shabba Barrage •Roly Poly Slam •Poetry in Motion
Universal Transponder Snail

I've been on myo-inositol and d-inositol for 3 months, just started taking prenatal vitamins too daily. For the first time in 3 years my body is sending me the right signals for ovulation and my LH has gone from 0.05 to 0.53 in 2 days, however today I checked at the same time and it has dropped to 0.24. I'm a bit worried if this means no ovulation? However I looked online and it said 40% of women have double peaks, so one sort of peak on the first week followed by the actual peak a week later on day 16 so I don't know I just have a double peak. My symptoms for ovulation are all here still and increasing so I'm unsure. Its been 3 years since I've regularly ovulated and had a clear test each month so I have no idea what is normal or not, especially with pcos, any advice is appreciated x

I will keep this short .
(18M) 238 pounds 6foot i have been sticking for the last two weeks at 1000-1300 calories.
i daily eat 2 meals of 150-200 of grilled chicken and 150-200 white pasta and alot of water some fasting ranging from 12-18 hours.
I haven’t dropped a gram i tried yesterday to walk and i did walk 6 km and fasting right now and I weighted as soon as i woke up nothing changes what should i do ? .
Also the last two weaks i only ate sugar in form of vitamins gummies and nothing else so i have cut any unnecessary sugar or sweets .

It's May 21, and I still haven't received my financial aid package or even any document that shows how much I will be paying for the colleges I got accepted to (Cal Poly Pomona and UC Riverside). Even if my financial aid didn't go through correctly, I find it weird that I didn't even get a final statement/document of how much I will be paying. The FAFSA says my document was processed, and yet no sign of any financial statement has dropped for me. Anyone in the same spot as me or know what I should do? Or am I doomed and I messed up something?

I messed up !!!! Helpp !!!
Im 23M, started skin care around in january ( and hair care too ). I have a normal to ( very little) combination skin. I had a very good skin. With out any pimples. It was smooth. But i wanted to So i started with
cetaphil moisturizer ( twice daily) Aqualogica sunscreen ( yellow one, in the morning as i rarely go outside) cetaphil cleanser ( twice daily )
After these adjusted to my skin, introduced
minimalist retinol ( 0.3% ) weekly twice in the night garnier vitamin c ( twice a week in the morning ) using suncreen after using these
made sure theres atleast a day gap bw vitC and Retinol and made sure to use only one drop per quadrant of face.
For hair I never cared much, But i have hairfall so started
Derma roller before oiling 5-7 drops Rosemary oil mixed with coconut oil every three days Love beauty and planet argain oil shampoo
for couple of months it was great
my skin is good and hairfall also quite reduced But from last 2 months, it got worse. I am not even sure why.
I an getting heavy pimples on the cheeks. My skin got dark. My scalp got very weak. Hairfall got worse and it is scaring the shit out of me.
i havent changed anything. but still this is happening.
So, thought of stopping active ingredients for couple of days to see if theres any change.
Stopped retinol and vitC in april and used only moisturizer and sunscreen. Now i am still seeing pimples. I stopped using moisturizer and sunscreen. It was good few days but after xouple of days again pimples started. I thought may be cetaphil cream is getting heavy, so i switched to lotion, which is very light. I am still seeing pimples heavily.
Now I am not even sure what to do. Need help and advice for my hair and skin 🥲
tldr: Started skin and hair care in january, it was good for couple of months then it got worse. it messed up skin and scalp very badly and need help for it

Blood tests appear fine, but I can't get my guardians to set me up with a primary care provider. Symptoms include constant chills to the point of not being able to walk, constant stomach pain, dropping and breaking things almost 24/7, and tripping to the point where I can barely get up out of bed and walk without being in pain from muscle weakness anymore. I take sleeping meds along with anxiety pills, but I don't know if they're enough anymore. . . . . . . . . . . . .
I've had labels thrown at me ranging from bipolar like my mother from a licensed psychologist to a schizophrenic who thinks they have ghosts in their bones by EMTs. They constantly ask how much caffeine I drink even though I only drink one cup a day (ranges in size). I would switch over to decaf in a heartbeat, but it's no longer sold on store shelves where I live and I'm stuck with what's available. I've tried to cut back on soda/kool-aid/etc. and mostly drink cold water from their dispenser to save money. I usually go for a sprite when I'm out at a restaurant. All my blood tests come back fine aside from Vitamin D and my stool looks completely normal. I do have the rounded gels for vitamin D, but I forget to take them.
I left my phone at therapy on accident so using this time to see if I can make sense of the outside world, but all it really does so far is prove the point of why I'm addicted to my phone in the first place. While everyone else aimlessly scrolls through TikTok, browsing actual social media like Twitter and Reddit is the only way to connect with the outside world in a small rural town with next to nothing but a trashed up Dollar General. I feel hopeless when it comes to everyday civil rights issues taking place around the world while I'm stuck with old boomers who pray for our demise.
It's not safe to get an apartment where I live because of all the drugged up deadbeats banging on people's windows and helping themselves to everyone else's spaces while the cops do nothing. I've also had all kinds of people come up to me and fantasize about wanting to kill my pets in front of me, so that's another thing I have to worry about as well. There's even been issues with people pulling out knives on each other, so even though I've bought pepper spray for myself I dont think it's enough to protect my entire living space from being pillaged. It might injure my pet if the perpetrator decides to aim for my pet first and I can't spray them in time.
Steel padlocks don't mean jack fucking shit when people can pick up a screwdriver from somewhere and unscrew the hinges off the door while I'm gone just like my sister's kids did to me growing up. Security cameras don't mean much either if all the meth heads are just gonna come back and rip through all the replacements without any consequences from the police whatsoever. Not only is it unsanitary and unsafe, but I wouldn't be able to find clothes that fit me without traveling out of state either. I would like to start walking again, but I'm scared of falling in the middle of a busy highway or tumbling into a ditch somewhere. Even then it wouldn't matter how much weight I lose due to cup size being controlled by horomones. The only reason I'm so concerned about my heart is because my mother's side of the family has heart issues really bad.
I do go to group therapy (CBT), but they've practically given up on the "mental health" aspect because it triggers all the other clients into not wanting to come anymore, with some being in even worse conditions than I am (CSA, domestic violence, etc). Whenever we try to provide reasonable explainations on how coping mechanisms can trigger volatile reactions out of other family members, we're constantly being invalidated and told that we're just choosing to be miserable. Everyone is always a stuck up about how family is so important and how we need to "love" them from a distance. However, I can't just go anywhere else for therapy because the only other psychologists they have for miles (ones at the facility) will literally raise their voice and scream at residents in front of everyone else if they don't get their way. I can't go to the other group therapy that the residents because some of them reek so bad to the point of giving me flashbacks of my parents' roach infested hoards.
Everyone gets onto my ass about leaving things on the table when I go use the restroom, but the truth is that I'm already tired of having my all shit stolen since I was 10 while everyone in my life sat around and told me to quit crying and bitching about everything. I do try to watch other residents and keep my personal items within arms reach, but I can't keep up when I can barely exit my bed and walk down the fucking halls just to eat. That's all on top of my parents consisting of three different hoarders and losing track of everything I bring over there (not to mention all the roaches, mice, and animal waste all over the floor).
I've gotten a lot more freedom since moving away from the cult, but everything I did to cope has practically gone out the fucking window due to thieves and lack of internet (they won't fix the damn router bc they dont know anything about tech). I used to have a Bluey box full of different characters from the show (ordered online ofc), but everything's so filthy that I can't really bring anything out besides toys or stuffed animals. I have an entire tote of books I've never even touched because the place is way too nasty to have them out and risk them getting ruined.
Whenever my belongings do go missing, I'm told to just suck it up and forget about it. I'm scared to fucking death end up with holes in them from being burnt or get mixed up with other women's clothes and get caught being worn them when they supposedly "know better" according to staff. I had a female resident at the religious group home scream and cry to the point that my entire fucking body weight against the damn door wasn't enough to stop her from barging into my bedroom and harass me for shit (that's after all the BS with my sister's kids for over a decade), so I'm not even gonna try to talk to anyone directly anymore.
If I told anyone in my family about my concerns, they would just get pissed and ramble on about how it's my choice to be there, how I need to stop bitching about everything not going my way, and that I should've just stayed at the religious group home. Therapists keep acting like it's all my fault in regards to my emotions, that I just need to work on myself and tell me there's nothing else they can do. Nothing fucking matters when everything on my broken ass tablet requires internet and my consoles are broken. Hell, I'd be having a blast with my 2DS XL if the thing didn't fall apart within the first month. All I really wanted it for was to emulate old PC games and hook it up to the TV. I figured that if I had all my games on one device with the bare minimum accessories needed to make it function, I wouldn't have to feel like a damn hoarder anymore.
I love the tiny library of games I have on my Wii, but my remote is absolutely dirty as fuck with roach poop and other crud. There's no way to clean it without literally soaking it in something. The console itself has all kinds of encrusted gunk on the side from where my hoarder father attached velcro to the side of it. Constant chills makes it practically impossible to sit up and play the games as well (I'm lucky just to be able to stand up anymore). My library is small enough that I'm willing to fuck around with gyroscopic controls for fun. It's not even the biggest priority to me anyway because there would be so many other games to play in the mean time.
I figured with the Steamdeck I could could prop it up against the bed or set it on a table use a controller with it if I reach a point to where I can't see the TV screen from my bed. I can't apply for a job at Walmart to pay for the thing myself because of my balance issues causing me to fall and the inability to grip anything (which would result in massive damages to inventory). I'm also worried about them taking all my earnings since my SSI check isn't enough to cover rent and I need state supplement. I thought about selling my art on Redbubble and save up that way, but my 2022 Samsung tablet that I got a few months ago glitches out when I try to draw stuff and crashes whenever I try to play certain games.
I can honestly forget about recieving one for Christmas/birthdays because for whatever reason, everyone has to have their way when it comes to gift giving and god fucking forbid you try to establish the most basic of boundaries or else you're nothing a spoiled bitch. It's one thing for the Steamdeck to be out of budget, and it's another to deliberately go against a person's wishes when it comes to simple shit like candy or soda when they obviously fucking know better. It doesn't help that everyone goes apeshit over the concept of making a "wishlist" like their life depends on it, only to hand me a sack full of random shit from the Dollar Tree and call it a day. It's also impossible to give it all away when nobody else wants it (I don't have transportation to Goodwill) and throwing away new items is a trigger for me.
I know the Steamdeck wouldn't really fix anything outside of the clutter issue and I probably shouldnt be getting one with my current impairments, but it would provide me with something to do outside of being on social media 24/7. Given the total squalor I grew up in as a child, I'd be genuinely happy with a lot of things outside of the Steamdeck if it weren't for my living situation literally preventing me from doing so:
_ toys
_ art
_ exercise bike
_ walking outside

playing games on the 2DS again

All of these "coping" mechanisms would come back to me if I were able to move to a different area in my own setting where I don't have to constantly worry about pest infestations from the neighbors, getting evicted for no reason, and random strangers trying to kill me or my pets. I've looked everywhere for supported independence programs and absolutely all of them require a medical waiver with a waiting list of up to 10 years. I absolutely need these services for my own safety as a neglected autistic person to ensure that people aren't just gonna come out of the woodworks and try to assault me on my own property. If I move to a more stable area, I could finally get a decent job without having to worry about coworkers coming up to me and taking shit out of my hands for not knowing any better. I could finally have stuff to do outside of technology and be comfortable with my own surroundings.
Even if all of this is just anxiety, I'm still fucked over when in it comes to actual health issues like gingivitis (as confirmed by Aspen Dental) and getting my wisdom teeth removed due to the lack of a primary care physician. I've done everything I can to and they just won't do anything to get me in to see a doctor. I try to brush my teeth when I can but hurts too much to do so. I also feel overwhelmed with trying to organize everything as I keep getting way more brushes than I possibly need and people will not take no for an answer. I don't even know how to prepare for death anymore as I don't even have loved ones. The only people I've ever been given true contact with are my hoarder parents and mentally unstable sister and that's it; no friends or anything.
There's nothing I can really do to repeal the guardianship without taking everyone to court, which is impossible with my sister's busy schedule and unwillingness to work with anybody else. I only because it gives me something to do finally outside of being locked up all week until I go to a half-assed therapy session for three hours. However, they usually go straight home and aren't really willing to go anywhere that costs money aside from restaurants since we have next to no food at the house (even then it becomes unsafe to eat due to all the roaches and mice).
The bane of her existence is to scream about how much of a lazy ass I am despite turning my parents basement into a hoarded up shithole that's flooded out with animal waste to the point of attracting mice. I know her issues aren't my problem, but back in the day she'd come up behind me and pinch my sides to aggrivate me. She also threw pants/shoes/etc. at me while I was on the bed and even shoved me out of the way after accusing me of hiding something I wasn't supposed to have in the kitchen drawer (I was a legal adult at the time). I usually lay flat in bed to avoid confrontation, but ignoring her makes her volatile so I'm screwed either way. I'm pretty sure she's beating and starving her dogs as well, but nobody really gives a fuck. I've got too many of my own issues to even try worrying about them. She's known to be a neurotin junkie for years since moving in with my parents and was even caught smuggling Adderall at work while the cops didn't give a fuck and turned her loose the next day.
I would've called the cops only if there was another child still in the house, but can't do so otherwise because of the risk of charges being brought against me for slander and libel (APS labeled the case as unsubstantiated). I can't just go around risking all my freedom and housing over sick animals that would more than likely be euthanized anyway. Not that animal control would do anything to begin with, of course. I know it feels redundant to even go over there every weekend in those conditions, but I'm tired of being cooped up all day. I'm tired of not having access to a PC with internet and not being able to breathe due to all the secondhand smoke.
I have finally have regular access to food and meds at the facility, but I'm bored with nothing that makes me feel comfortable anymore. I used to walk around town because of my issues with knocking stuff off tables, bumping into everything, and tripping all the time. I used to play games on my tablet to get through the day, but the internet no longer works since switching it over to a new name and the staffare too lazy to just reset the router (everything is infested with ads). We do have bingo during the week, but most people only play for cigarettes and that's it. I can't hold any kind of conversation with anyone else because they'll just ramble on and on about random shit that happened thirty years ago. I used to play Fortnite and Warframe on my Switch Lite, but it broke after I dropped it and we don't have repair shops where I live. It would only hold charge from 45 minutes to an hour with half the games being broken anyway, so I don't even know if it's even worth saving at this point.
I can barely make use of group therapy (CBT) because of how cold I am and how much my stomach hurts. I try to sit outside when I'm not cold as there's nothing to really do around town anyway, but it's nothing more than cigarette butts and spit everywhere (along with rotten food that attracts flies). There's nothing the staff can really do to make the residents pick up after themselves and they can't ban smoking (even if other residents have health issues) because it's the only reason why anyone gets out of bed. The people where I live don't really believe in PTSD outside of veterans, let alone C-PTSD. The mere concept of it would go against everyone's idea that "family is everything, even if they do things we don't like". We barely have mental health services as it is so I'm basically screwed into staying where I'm at even though I live in fear of being punished. I'll see what I can do to get the medicine lady to up the hydroxozine a bit, but I don't know what else there is to even do beyond that point aside from huddling in bed and freezing 24/7 for the next decade until I'm approved for the waiver.

Poly drops vitamin

Finally made it! - My story

Why nightmares and ‘daymares’ could be early warning signs of autoimmune disease

Wayfinder Early Access on PS5

Wayfinder Early Access on PS5

Wayfinder Early Access on PS5

Symptoms of Dehydration

The Dangers of Dehydration

Preventing Dehydration

Herbal Formula to Support Hydration

Conclusion