ho hi!
my guys!
what’s up, how’s life been treating u lately?
let me answer that one for myself (my barn, my rules)
in one word, roughly (i mean, work with people)
so u got it, i’m ur host for the week (oh shit, here we go again)
my second time curating THE Weekly Party Discussion
or something one could call the eternal sunshine of solitary mind (one thought leading to one another, if u get what i mean)
get ready to lose urself to dance cause that’s what a dancefloor is made for, like my guy wrote last week (remember chapter 5? here, do ur homework)
so let the music play there and keep on reading that crazy long ass text, u might eventually get what u came for (a great selection of events happening in ur neightborhood)
so let me discharge my mind peacefully and scroll down if u wanna skip the crap (don’t, it’s a fun read after all)
ah but before i get in too deep and in da club, there is something we gotta clarify my guys (suspense at a peak)
yeah that’s right, someone’s gotta do it out there (and here again, i am taking one for the team)
so don’t mind me setting things straight ahead, this time like some other (look for it)
since when downvoting became THE way to express an opinion? i mean, use ur sticky fingers and write (ur lack of) it down so we can at least get a constructive conversation out of this beautiful mess
ah, i already hear the big mouths in the back whispering that reddit isn’t made for this (or whatever bullshit they come up with)
oh, but guess what? we make AMSTERDAM_RAVE the way we want, that’s also why there are some rules, our rules (simple as this)
so do urself a favor, check them out, once more won’t hurt (be kind, simple as this)
still don’t adhere? well, then get out lurker (i won’t say it a third time my guy, really)
don’t know what the fuck i’m talking about? do ur research, u silly!
so watch out my guys, next time u’re downvoting my gurl, our queen so so bad, i’ll come haunting u on the dancefloor (trust me, i would do it)
yes, i’m a witch (ur words my guy, not mine)
yes, a witch of love (what else?)
i mean, if u wanna leave a dowvote so so bad, at least do it on one of my post (try me out my guy, got tough skin now)
oh but i forgot! there will be no more rants coming out there (i mean it this time, really)
time has passed, indeed and urs truly gotta find another territory suiting her (unrealistic?) ambitions (that stupid brain hitting hard, especially during long nights of insomnia)
and i hope u’re gonna miss me very much because i’m not gonna miss u (that’s a big fat lie, one)
no, that decision of not ranting out there was not an easy choice, but for once the head took over the heart (see, how rational i could be? back to my roots, eventually)
i mean, the content doesn’t fit anymore (has it ever? probably not)
and i don’t belong to me (things just aren’t much fun, unfortunately)
anyway!
if that is not an unnecessary long, boring and egocentric introduction, i don’t know what that is (an overflowing chain of thoughts, with me always)
oh yeah, THE Weekly Party Discussion right? don’t worry, i got u covered my guy (so u better have my back too, equity as always)
ah wait, i’ll start (not a start anymore, at this point) by quoting myself (again) and reminding u of a golden rule, since it’s a looong weekend incoming (as long as my weekly duh):
if u can’t handle a bender, it’s at ur own risk (u choose ur destiny but know that the best is usually saved for the last, if u get what i mean)
feeling frisky tonight, Wednesday i presume?
then i strongly advise u to head over to Klank en Kleur in Schietclub, listen to Running Hot exquisite selection (curious? check that out)
hell yeah, take me for a ride my guy (there’s no time to stop)
not convinced? i mean, he’s another great talent from my beloved and favourite record label, Love On The Rocks (obviously)
i mean, who’s working tomorrow anyway? not me (neither do u my guy)
still decided to sleep that one out but can’t wait for the weekend to begin?
fine, u got another chance on Thursday night to make it to Radio Radio, where my gurl Dee Diggs will go deep alongside my guy Beraber (curious? check that out)
i mean, toss it my guy (u’re gonna set urself free)
don’t like house that much? oh well, then let’s expand our horizons on Friday
two options, one choice, see for urself what suits better ur mood:
on the west side, Live From Earth has the honor of introducing the newly renovated courtyard of Lofi and if i trust what i saw on their social, it looks promising (the place for sure, the party not so sure)
almost a mini festival at this point, i mean it’s no less than ten deejays on the bill split on three stages (that should be enough to keep u untertained my guy)
not gonna lie, i am not familiar with most names on the lineup but if there was a few to remember: MCR-T, DJ Gigola, Mila Black and the one and only Pablo Bozzi (who i still haven’t had the chance to see, oh no)
i mean, there might be some trance energy so i guess it’s not that bad of a deal
on the noord side, a good old classic Garage night (if u know u know) with Wata Igarashi, Spekki Webu and Julie, all the three worth the turbulence of taking the ferry (i mean come on my guy, it’s not even five minutes u lazy)
if u don’t know, well too bad for u (keep on reading then)
without transition, we got into the weekend (fucking finally) and Saturday is right around the corner with plenty of offers, here and there:
let’s start with another round of Festimi served at Lofi, to keep on inaugurating that magnificent outdoor (good weather may (not) be included, i mean who the fuck knows)
and a (not so) exclusive news for u my guys, phone will get stickered at the door (if that is not some noticeable improvement, i don’t know what that is)
regarding the lineup, there’s enough to cater a wide range of taste with Bambounou b2b Kikelomo, Nala Brown, Nathalie Seres, Teqmun and so on (do ur research my guy)
remember that one, regarding festimi crowd? i specially digged it from the archive for u my guy (and my memory still doesn’t fail me, it’s very annoying)
find another option, another sound at Het Sieraad with sir Gerd Janson, who has this oh so rare elegance to build the most sincere and less gimmicky drops out there (simple as this)
something unique, u gotta hear it to believe it
and another piece of advice, while i’m at it (feeling generous after all):
if u wanna get THE sound of any established deejay u gotta go and see them playing at their residency, as far as it might be (simple as this)
i mean, why do u think that urs truly is traveling back and forth to the other side of the border?
i mean, have u heard of panorama bar? right, i’ll stop there before u get the usual propaganda that i have been endlessly repeating since a few months out there (remember that one?)
anyway! got slightly off-topic it seems (classic move)
third and final option at Garage for THE HARD WEEKEND (which reminds me that i never published my report of the previous one, oops)
if u still don’t know (lost the thread? haha), well u got a second chance so don’t sit that one out (i won’t say it a third time my guy, really)
for real, check the lineup urself because i don’t need to do it (when it’s good it’s good) and get ur ass on that ferry (i mean come on)
for real, my heart will go on and on (i just love that place, another proof here)
rest assured to leave it with new core memories (wink)
and like they say, come early stay late (it’s a long run that one)
without transition (again), the weekend has (almost) passed but luckily for us all, Sunday doesn’t leave us off the wall with plenty of offers, here and there (again):
if u chose Festimi the night before, one logic option would be to end up at Bret to close it off properly
another place, same deejays with Nathalie Seres, Ploy, Angel D’Lite, also joined by Sandrien and Paurro
otherwise, last but not least event of the courtyard opening at Lofi with Patio (a brand new concept, running on Sundays only)
that one is for u techno heads: Chlär, Lea Occhi, Stephanie Sykes and so on (do ur research my guy)
and for u house nerds, Ciranda Sundays at Doka with Mafalda and Mendel (curious? check that out)
finally, i cannot end that weekly by not mentioning Kolt since it was so kindly recommended by my guy out there (oh hello)
i mean, JEANS on the bill (almost heard my name)
location T.B.A., u know the drill (check their social, u silly)
oof, another eventful weekend that awaits us
bender season is officially ON, so i hope u took ur Monday OFF (or the percks of (not) working remotely)
yes, we all know what happens when one is staying home to focus efficiently (away from an overly agitated openspace? nah i don’t think so)
even if nobody talks about it, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist
and that culture of sneaking out is here to stay (they call it a lifestyle, i call it hypocrisy in disguise)
think about it my guy (wink)
i leave u to it (scroll back up, give it another try)
and remember, keep the spirit high and the heart in love (their words, not mine)

based off u/jensyao https://www.reddit.com/nas/comments/ireec3/list_of_nas_nonjayz_disses_incomplete/
Illmatic:

• Halftime: responded to Da Youngsta's "Pass The Mic" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCEi4ZBiqe8

IWW:

• The Message: shot at Jay: "TV sets the minimum"/shot at 2Pac before they met at the MTV awards: "fake thug/no love"/shot at Biggie: "one king"

I Am:

• we will survive: shot at Jay trying to replace biggie so soon after death: "replace the crown to be new yorks' king? it ain't about that"
• Hate Me Now: indirectly going at cormega's first album: "y'all thinking y'all the realest? but who the illest?"
• Big Things: going at cormega after the firm fallout: whole 3rd verse

Nastradamus:

• come and get me: whole song saying Jay and his team should come and get him
• Nastradamus: going at memphis bleek repeating his lyrics with a threat because he's jay's right hand man: "ball til you fall, i can help you with that, slug melt in your hat"

QB Finest:

• Da Bridge 2001 - Nas respond to Memphis Bleek's "Mind Right": "Oh you didn't, wanna know whose life is written?...Your hoe, your man, lieutenant, your boss get found"

Stillmatic: https://www.youtube.com/live/CFBXytyTiJU&t=2308

• all 15 songs display concepts that Nas can do that Jay couldn't, from storytelling to telling a story backwards, to talking about bigger concepts like conspiracy theories, hood unification, and world peace, to going at them directly or mockingly
• ether: goes at jay directly
• destroy and rebuild: goes at prodigy, cormega, nature's song "no, we ain't friends", mocks jay in slick rick's voice
• Got Urself A Gun: goes Kid Rock and limp bizkit for rock rap: "This is real hardcore, Kid Rock and Limp Bizkit soft"

God's Son:

• Book of Rhymes: Goes at Ras Kass's first album on an alchemist beat defending alchemist for double selling beats: "Soul on ice, death threats given by clowns/I guess livin' is prison when you live around clowns"
• Zone out: goes at Cam'ron: "You have a house in virginia"
• Get Down: goes at jay: basically uses biggie's flows to tell a story that Jay can never do, jay tried it on "meet the parents" but failed because you lost the plot and the point at the end
• last real nigga alive: goes at the industry saying they aren't real and made a song about I Can talking about you don't have to be gangstas and hoes that these other artists portray

Lost Tapes:

• on 3 songs, he's talking about rappers using their celebrity and money to go back in the hood to defloweimpregnate young underage women/13 year olds without protection, basically insinuating the whole industry is like that without name dropping, from prodigy to afrika bambaataa to r kelly who he sever ties with after trading features in 1998 from the street dreams remix. it wasn't in prodigy's book but it was quoted that it was the thing to do, didn't mention jay had relations with foxy brown when she was 16 ghostwriting for her, that she later admitted in 2010 https://www.xxlmag.com/foxy-brown-targets-lil-kim-jay-z-on-new-diss-track/
• everybody's crazy: goes at jay: "the jig is up"
• no idea's original: goes at jay's money cash hoes that he stole from DMX and made the remix with rocafella overshadowing the original: "What you base your happiness around? Material, women, and large papeThat means you inferior, not major"....and the "major" lyric is also Nas dissing Jay indirectly on Kanye's song "we major" that happened to be Jay's favorite song on kanye's album as a sigh of relief not knowing Nas was still indirectly going at him

Illmatic 10th anniversary: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80v9tWuN9nw

• star wars: goes at 50 signing with eminem: "Y'all niggas roll with any click that's winnin' any crew/Doin' whatever's trendy, even they envy me too"

Street's Disciple: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80v9tWuN9nw

• Disciple: goes at eminem dissing moby: "rappers battling after non rappers, saying nas is Farrakhan preaching blackness"
• These are our heroes: goes at kobe bryant/goes at eminem talking about picketing on mosh pit: "These pickaninnies get with anything to sell records"
• Nazareth Savage: goes at eminem's whiteness: "In the history of the game, you have no placement/Liquor and weed just massacred their mind, or thee celebrity...Casualty you don't wanna be, don't want it with me"

Hip Hop Is Dead: basically an industry diss about how hip hop sold out and reteaches the essence of how rap is formulated while paying homage to elders

• Carry on Tradition: goes at new rappers with left field gang affiliates from wayne to jeezy to jim jones that is detached from west coast culture: "Now some of these new rappers got their caps flipped backwards/With their fingers intertwined in some gang-sign madness"...nas dissed wayne on a mixtape track with quan called QB to VA mocking the cash money helicopter
• Money Over Bullshit: Going against Jim Jones, Young Jeezy's radio interview, weak rappers: "Put a barrel in a capo mouth, 'til his scalp come out/You a kid, you don't live what you rap about"..."y'all niggas is fifth grade...Each one of ya guys that claim Hip-Hop is still alive/Like y'all ain't in agreement with Nas"

Untitled:

• Queens get the money: goes at 50: "hiding behind 8 mile and the chronic, get rich but dies rhyming"
• Hero: goes at record executives for the double standard for black artists not being able to flex their artistic creativity and have to fit into this stereotype box before releasing an album (which is why Kanye was a big deal back then going against all the gangsta rap of 50 cent with backpack rap), the uncensored version namedrops LA Reid and Douglass Morris: "Try tellin' Bob Dylan, Bruce or Billy Joel/They can't sing what's in their soul"

Distant Relatives:

• Strong will continue: goes against divorce/cheating allegations and Kelis on the 4th verse

Life Is Good: https://www.reddit.com/nas/comments/1brbjbthe_diss_tracks_between_nas_and_50_and_how_thei

• Bye Baby: goes at 50 and Tony Yayo initially dissing Kelis: Under their breath, saying, "Why did Nas trust her?...You live with your baby moms/And scared to make an honest woman out of heAnd make her your bride, fake pimps, you ain't even alive

Nasir:

• Simple Things: Responds to Vlad TV for interviewing people around Nas for his beat selection and Carmen, and why Vlad will never get a Nas interview: "Never sold a record for the beat, it's my verses they purchase"

Lost Tapes 2:

• Beautiful Life: Going against Kelis, left off life is good: "All women should bid/For keeping real fathers away from their kids/..How many been married, divorced, their ex lady wildin'/Hires a lawyer, judge awards 'em monthly eighty thousand"

King's Disease:

• Titles goes against Jay-Z about how insecure he is despite him having it all and then elaborates why there needs to be a cure to why people who are successful should not begrudge others, with minor covid references
• Nas basically got a battery put in his back after the breakfast club told him that Jay has been dropping projects every time Nas had an album out on the same day to compete with him https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eJBqAL20X6I, so he dropped more albums seeing if Jay would do that, without Jay even contesting those later release dates with surprise albums, like when the book of hov's exhibit was around the time KD3 released...Magic 1, Magic 2, and Magic 3 were basically surprise releases with barely a week in advance when announced so Jay doesn't work on his project in the meantime

Magic:

• Meet Joe Black: randomly samples soulja boy of Nas predicting hip hop was going to die but it did and is unrecognizable from what it was if it wasn't for people still showing how the artform is really done, such as this album, which is ranked highly among the other albums Nas did with Hit, saying he's telling more truth than these fake rappers with gimmicks and fraud advice to success on "Truth"

KD2:

• death row east: to dispel the rumors of what happened between 2Pac and him once and for all, and to respond to an old diss record leaking on the 25th anniversary of 2pac's death, given that fake thug line https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4smahXj1PQ
• Nas is Good: goes against all haters: "Death to the pessimistic mind state/Lack of hope, low-spirit motherfuckers/Life to king's getting a king's ransom, living handsome, ha"
• Store run: goes against the new generation going against him, telling them they need to pay dues and go on a store run because Nas owns the store

Magic 2:

• Abracadabra: addresses hate working with Hit-Boy: "I'ma say what it is, I'm the one takin' the risk/Y'all creatin' the hate, but I be creatin' with Hit"
• Office Hours was hit being petty not splitting 50's adlibs and putting them towards the back after the chorus: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2goGfACkGFM

KD3:

• TSK: goes against reddit, podcasts, and armchair commenters, lmao https://www.reddit.com/nas/comments/1c0sm0k/all_i_see_is_blurbs_all_i_see_is_wordsnerds/ "All I see is blurbs, all I see is words/Nerds talkin' 'bout what they did, see or heard"
• Thun: Nas jabbing Jay: In a Range Rover, dissectin' bars from "Takeover"/Sometimes I text Hova like "Nigga, this ain't over", laughin'

Magic 3:

• the 6 albums in 3 years with 2 trilogies was basically a jab a Jay for his In my Lifetime and Blueprint series, of releasing a compilations of songs on a vague title but can generically fit on any of them, and how Nas was faster at releasing his trilogies faster than when Jay was dropping every year with Nas dropping 2 albums per year with less managerial A&R oversight, and Jay hasn't dropped a solo album since 2017
• basically addresses the hate that he's gotten when working with Hit-Boy with a summary on 1800Nas&Hit. Nas rapped on beats with awkward BPMs and with all vocal samples so wannabe rappers don't rip the instrumental and try to rap on them with the latest technology, just to realize how hard actually is to make concepts on the spot and rap on a distracting beat that isn't already carrying the song and they can just mumble on it...Hit was being more petty showing there's levels to this artform

My sisters keep causing panic attacks
My family is causing panic attacks
Hello.. So I am a 21 year old student living at home. 2 of my 3 siblings still live at home too (all in their 30s) and its a bit cramped at times. My brother will always be gaming at night and he slams all the doors and yells and prevents me from sleeping (his room is underneath mine) but he doesn’t care. My sister is miserable. She’s been struggling w jobs because she manages to gets a shitstorm wherever she starts working and has just started another job. My eldest sister who moved out has a disabled child and is unhappy w her marriage. And my parents are horrible too. They are toxic..they yell at me and verbally abuse me (and my mum used to get physical too, for example when I didn’t want to eat) and then tell me to come hug them (“Come give your mum a hug..I know you won’t turn your mummy down right? She’d be so sad “). I developed an immense guilt complex for that and many other reasons. I grew up being my mums therapist and she often talked about killing herself whenever I did something she didn’t like (not wanting to have breakfast w the family, me playing video games,.. I never djd anything bad like drugs lol or go out at night). I lost all of my friends bc she hinderd me from going out for years and told me Im not allowed or complained that im always out when i was going out once a week maybe.
Now my parents are gone for three weeks for private reasons. For reference, they deny all kinds of mental illness. When I tried to talk about the fact that I have depression at dinner time bc thats the only time we are together (my dads basically not even there), they told me to be quiet and eat up and to not bother them. I asked them to pay attention to me and what I am saying and they went “We are eating right now. Don’t bother us with such topics. Get over it.” I got a kitten a week ago and thought it’d help w depression and anxiety but I was wrong. Its my first cat, I grew up with a dog who was my absolute rock but I overestimated myself. I can’t cope with the kitten. My mum isn’t here so she doesn’t know how exhausting he is and she is not allowing me to rehome him (she wants him to hunt down rats in the yard when he’s older..she’s a bit naive and stupid). I am overwhelmed. My sister admitted that my messages complaining about the lack of sleep piss her off and I need to shut the fuck up about it and it’s my own fault. My eldest was here too and they both yelled at me left and right and wouldn’t stop coming at me for an hour. I went to my room and they followed me and ignored me asking for space/to be left alone. Now, I got so overwhelmed I just lost it. I ran upstairs (we were eating just then with them telling me I’m always making a long face and I can never act happy for their sake blabla and “what kind of issues could u have? Why are u depressed then? List your reasons! You had everything we didn’t have! You live in a house and you get food and you have hobbies [That i all had to quit and paid for myself…]”). I ran upstairs and SCREAMED. So loudly and so like..I don’t know. I just lost it and started sobbing and locked myself in the bathroom. My brother came out of his room yelling saying “why can’t this dramatic bitch cry like a normal person or suck it up?”…I had a panic attack. It was my third one (all because of my sister(s)/family) in the span of 6 months. The first one was okay, I got blue lips and hands but I was fine. The second one was a paralysis. I couldnt move my lips hands legs and my fingers were cramping together in a weird position. I got it after my sister got angry at me for not doing the dishes (that my brother had caused and I hadn’t seen as I was upstairs) and slammed my own door in my face when I tried to hold it shut because she came at me like godzilla. I got the door in my face, fell into my chair and then slammed into my desk. I had bruises everywhere. And then I had a panic attack. I tried to tell my family but they just brushed it off so I distanced myself from them. So yesterday, Im in the bathroom, and my sisters run upstairs. It sounded foggy but they told me to open the door and to stop crying and to wash my face with cold water. I couldn’t reply or tell them I needed to just be alone and they were scaring me even more and making it worse as I was paralysed. My brother then came and slammed the door in with his leg. I screamed. It was terrifying and drove me into a stronger paralysis. My face cramped, I couldn’t even look up and I felt like I was slowly losing consciousness from panic and fear. My eldest sister hit me. Hard. Several times. Telling me I look like I need a shower whilet hitting me. My brother was yelling that they need to dump me at a closed institution or give me away to an orphanage (im an adult? They dont understand lol). My other sister then told them to lesve and sat down in front of me trying to calm me down but she started crying herself. The people pleaser in me thought “No i made her cry”…whilst going through a panic attack. Lol. And she went “Why didnt u tell us? U have to distance urself when u feel this way!!” Girl I tried. U literally kicked the door in… I wanted to give the kitten away because the lack of sleep and the responsibility just made me worse and he’d be happier somewhere else anyways. But she said its our kitten now and we will take care of him together and she’d take him that night. Lol. I brought his stuff into her room, and dhe was in there for 20-30 minutes constantly screaming “No! Get down! No! Don’t do that! Hey! Don’t bite me” Until i gave up (i already expected this. She was at work every day so she only saw him cuddly and told me several times im being dramatic and making the decision too quickly as its only been a week) I went to her room to see what happened and she goes “I didnt know he’d be like this. He’s going nuts and running around and I already played w him for two hours… No you’re right. We need to give him away.” And then she proceeded to put his stuff in the hallway.💀💀 The fact they drove me into a panic attack just for her to feel the exact same way and she didn’t even TRY to keep him in her room durin the night.. She now thinks Im some crazy person (so does my other family) and that I need to go see someone for this. But I only ever got panic attacks because they genuinely pushed me too far and scared me and I feel stuck in this house bc they are blackmailing me about moving out. They know about my non muslim long distance bf and went “If u move out before blocking him, we will tell our parents and they will disown you (which they might)” Obviously I wont block him. He is my best friend, we have been dating for two years and he has gone through it all w me and never given up on me… I feel so stuck in this house. Especially w the mitten..

My family is causing panic attacks
Hello.. So I am a 21 year old student living at home. 2 of my 3 siblings still live at home too (all in their 30s) and its a bit cramped at times. My brother will always be gaming at night and he slams all the doors and yells and prevents me from sleeping (his room is underneath mine) but he doesn’t care. My sister is miserable. She’s been struggling w jobs because she manages to gets a shitstorm wherever she starts working and has just started another job. My eldest sister who moved out has a disabled child and is unhappy w her marriage. And my parents are horrible too. They are toxic..they yell at me and verbally abuse me (and my mum used to get physical too, for example when I didn’t want to eat) and then tell me to come hug them (“Come give your mum a hug..I know you won’t turn your mummy down right? She’d be so sad “). I developed an immense guilt complex for that and many other reasons. I grew up being my mums therapist and she often talked about killing herself whenever I did something she didn’t like (not wanting to have breakfast w the family, me playing video games,.. I never djd anything bad like drugs lol or go out at night). I lost all of my friends bc she hinderd me from going out for years and told me Im not allowed or complained that im always out when i was going out once a week maybe.
Now my parents are gone for three weeks for private reasons. For reference, they deny all kinds of mental illness. When I tried to talk about the fact that I have depression at dinner time bc thats the only time we are together (my dads basically not even there), they told me to be quiet and eat up and to not bother them. I asked them to pay attention to me and what I am saying and they went “We are eating right now. Don’t bother us with such topics. Get over it.” I got a kitten a week ago and thought it’d help w depression and anxiety but I was wrong. Its my first cat, I grew up with a dog who was my absolute rock but I overestimated myself. I can’t cope with the kitten. My mum isn’t here so she doesn’t know how exhausting he is and she is not allowing me to rehome him (she wants him to hunt down rats in the yard when he’s older..she’s a bit naive and stupid). I am overwhelmed. My sister admitted that my messages complaining about the lack of sleep piss her off and I need to shut the fuck up about it and it’s my own fault. My eldest was here too and they both yelled at me left and right and wouldn’t stop coming at me for an hour. I went to my room and they followed me and ignored me asking for space/to be left alone. Now, I got so overwhelmed I just lost it. I ran upstairs (we were eating just then with them telling me I’m always making a long face and I can never act happy for their sake blabla and “what kind of issues could u have? Why are u depressed then? List your reasons! You had everything we didn’t have! You live in a house and you get food and you have hobbies [That i all had to quit and paid for myself…]”). I ran upstairs and SCREAMED. So loudly and so like..I don’t know. I just lost it and started sobbing and locked myself in the bathroom. My brother came out of his room yelling saying “why can’t this dramatic bitch cry like a normal person or suck it up?”…I had a panic attack. It was my third one (all because of my sister(s)/family) in the span of 6 months. The first one was okay, I got blue lips and hands but I was fine. The second one was a paralysis. I couldnt move my lips hands legs and my fingers were cramping together in a weird position. I got it after my sister got angry at me for not doing the dishes (that my brother had caused and I hadn’t seen as I was upstairs) and slammed my own door in my face when I tried to hold it shut because she came at me like godzilla. I got the door in my face, fell into my chair and then slammed into my desk. I had bruises everywhere. And then I had a panic attack. I tried to tell my family but they just brushed it off so I distanced myself from them. So yesterday, Im in the bathroom, and my sisters run upstairs. It sounded foggy but they told me to open the door and to stop crying and to wash my face with cold water. I couldn’t reply or tell them I needed to just be alone and they were scaring me even more and making it worse as I was paralysed. My brother then came and slammed the door in with his leg. I screamed. It was terrifying and drove me into a stronger paralysis. My face cramped, I couldn’t even look up and I felt like I was slowly losing consciousness from panic and fear. My eldest sister hit me. Hard. Several times. Telling me I look like I need a shower whilet hitting me. My brother was yelling that they need to dump me at a closed institution or give me away to an orphanage (im an adult? They dont understand lol). My other sister then told them to lesve and sat down in front of me trying to calm me down but she started crying herself. The people pleaser in me thought “No i made her cry”…whilst going through a panic attack. Lol. And she went “Why didnt u tell us? U have to distance urself when u feel this way!!” Girl I tried. U literally kicked the door in… I wanted to give the kitten away because the lack of sleep and the responsibility just made me worse and he’d be happier somewhere else anyways. But she said its our kitten now and we will take care of him together and she’d take him that night. Lol. I brought his stuff into her room, and dhe was in there for 20-30 minutes constantly screaming “No! Get down! No! Don’t do that! Hey! Don’t bite me” Until i gave up (i already expected this. She was at work every day so she only saw him cuddly and told me several times im being dramatic and making the decision too quickly as its only been a week) I went to her room to see what happened and she goes “I didnt know he’d be like this. He’s going nuts and running around and I already played w him for two hours… No you’re right. We need to give him away.” And then she proceeded to put his stuff in the hallway.💀💀 The fact they drove me into a panic attack just for her to feel the exact same way and she didn’t even TRY to keep him in her room durin the night.. She now thinks Im some crazy person (so does my other family) and that I need to go see someone for this. But I only ever got panic attacks because they genuinely pushed me too far and scared me and I feel stuck in this house bc they are blackmailing me about moving out. They know about my non muslim long distance bf and went “If u move out before blocking him, we will tell our parents and they will disown you (which they might)” Obviously I wont block him. He is my best friend, we have been dating for two years and he has gone through it all w me and never given up on me… I feel so stuck in this house. Especially w the mitten..

My family is causing panic attacks
Hello.. So I am a 21 year old student living at home. 2 of my 3 siblings still live at home too (all in their 30s) and its a bit cramped at times. My brother will always be gaming at night and he slams all the doors and yells and prevents me from sleeping (his room is underneath mine) but he doesn’t care. My sister is miserable. She’s been struggling w jobs because she manages to gets a shitstorm wherever she starts working and has just started another job. My eldest sister who moved out has a disabled child and is unhappy w her marriage. And my parents are horrible too. They are toxic..they yell at me and verbally abuse me (and my mum used to get physical too, for example when I didn’t want to eat) and then tell me to come hug them (“Come give your mum a hug..I know you won’t turn your mummy down right? She’d be so sad “). I developed an immense guilt complex for that and many other reasons. I grew up being my mums therapist and she often talked about killing herself whenever I did something she didn’t like (not wanting to have breakfast w the family, me playing video games,.. I never djd anything bad like drugs lol or go out at night). I lost all of my friends bc she hinderd me from going out for years and told me Im not allowed or complained that im always out when i was going out once a week maybe.
Now my parents are gone for three weeks for private reasons. For reference, they deny all kinds of mental illness. When I tried to talk about the fact that I have depression at dinner time bc thats the only time we are together (my dads basically not even there), they told me to be quiet and eat up and to not bother them. I asked them to pay attention to me and what I am saying and they went “We are eating right now. Don’t bother us with such topics. Get over it.” I got a kitten a week ago and thought it’d help w depression and anxiety but I was wrong. Its my first cat, I grew up with a dog who was my absolute rock but I overestimated myself. I can’t cope with the kitten. My mum isn’t here so she doesn’t know how exhausting he is and she is not allowing me to rehome him (she wants him to hunt down rats in the yard when he’s older..she’s a bit naive and stupid). I am overwhelmed. My sister admitted that my messages complaining about the lack of sleep piss her off and I need to shut the fuck up about it and it’s my own fault. My eldest was here too and they both yelled at me left and right and wouldn’t stop coming at me for an hour. I went to my room and they followed me and ignored me asking for space/to be left alone. Now, I got so overwhelmed I just lost it. I ran upstairs (we were eating just then with them telling me I’m always making a long face and I can never act happy for their sake blabla and “what kind of issues could u have? Why are u depressed then? List your reasons! You had everything we didn’t have! You live in a house and you get food and you have hobbies [That i all had to quit and paid for myself…]”). I ran upstairs and SCREAMED. So loudly and so like..I don’t know. I just lost it and started sobbing and locked myself in the bathroom. My brother came out of his room yelling saying “why can’t this dramatic bitch cry like a normal person or suck it up?”…I had a panic attack. It was my third one (all because of my sister(s)/family) in the span of 6 months. The first one was okay, I got blue lips and hands but I was fine. The second one was a paralysis. I couldnt move my lips hands legs and my fingers were cramping together in a weird position. I got it after my sister got angry at me for not doing the dishes (that my brother had caused and I hadn’t seen as I was upstairs) and slammed my own door in my face when I tried to hold it shut because she came at me like godzilla. I got the door in my face, fell into my chair and then slammed into my desk. I had bruises everywhere. And then I had a panic attack. I tried to tell my family but they just brushed it off so I distanced myself from them. So yesterday, Im in the bathroom, and my sisters run upstairs. It sounded foggy but they told me to open the door and to stop crying and to wash my face with cold water. I couldn’t reply or tell them I needed to just be alone and they were scaring me even more and making it worse as I was paralysed. My brother then came and slammed the door in with his leg. I screamed. It was terrifying and drove me into a stronger paralysis. My face cramped, I couldn’t even look up and I felt like I was slowly losing consciousness from panic and fear. My eldest sister hit me. Hard. Several times. Telling me I look like I need a shower whilet hitting me. My brother was yelling that they need to dump me at a closed institution or give me away to an orphanage (im an adult? They dont understand lol). My other sister then told them to lesve and sat down in front of me trying to calm me down but she started crying herself. The people pleaser in me thought “No i made her cry”…whilst going through a panic attack. Lol. And she went “Why didnt u tell us? U have to distance urself when u feel this way!!” Girl I tried. U literally kicked the door in… I wanted to give the kitten away because the lack of sleep and the responsibility just made me worse and he’d be happier somewhere else anyways. But she said its our kitten now and we will take care of him together and she’d take him that night. Lol. I brought his stuff into her room, and dhe was in there for 20-30 minutes constantly screaming “No! Get down! No! Don’t do that! Hey! Don’t bite me” Until i gave up (i already expected this. She was at work every day so she only saw him cuddly and told me several times im being dramatic and making the decision too quickly as its only been a week) I went to her room to see what happened and she goes “I didnt know he’d be like this. He’s going nuts and running around and I already played w him for two hours… No you’re right. We need to give him away.” And then she proceeded to put his stuff in the hallway.💀💀 The fact they drove me into a panic attack just for her to feel the exact same way and she didn’t even TRY to keep him in her room durin the night.. She now thinks Im some crazy person (so does my other family) and that I need to go see someone for this. But I only ever got panic attacks because they genuinely pushed me too far and scared me and I feel stuck in this house bc they are blackmailing me about moving out. They know about my non muslim long distance bf and went “If u move out before blocking him, we will tell our parents and they will disown you (which they might)” Obviously I wont block him. He is my best friend, we have been dating for two years and he has gone through it all w me and never given up on me… I feel so stuck in this house. Especially w the mitten..

Hello.. So I am a 21 year old student living at home. 2 of my 3 siblings still live at home too (all in their 30s) and its a bit cramped at times. My brother will always be gaming at night and he slams all the doors and yells and prevents me from sleeping (his room is underneath mine) but he doesn’t care. My sister is miserable. She’s been struggling w jobs because she manages to gets a shitstorm wherever she starts working and has just started another job. My eldest sister who moved out has a disabled child and is unhappy w her marriage. And my parents are horrible too. They are toxic..they yell at me and verbally abuse me (and my mum used to get physical too, for example when I didn’t want to eat) and then tell me to come hug them (“Come give your mum a hug..I know you won’t turn your mummy down right? She’d be so sad “). I developed an immense guilt complex for that and many other reasons. I grew up being my mums therapist and she often talked about killing herself whenever I did something she didn’t like (not wanting to have breakfast w the family, me playing video games,.. I never djd anything bad like drugs lol or go out at night). I lost all of my friends bc she hinderd me from going out for years and told me Im not allowed or complained that im always out when i was going out once a week maybe.
Now my parents are gone for three weeks for private reasons. For reference, they deny all kinds of mental illness. When I tried to talk about the fact that I have depression at dinner time bc thats the only time we are together (my dads basically not even there), they told me to be quiet and eat up and to not bother them. I asked them to pay attention to me and what I am saying and they went “We are eating right now. Don’t bother us with such topics. Get over it.” I got a kitten a week ago and thought it’d help w depression and anxiety but I was wrong. Its my first cat, I grew up with a dog who was my absolute rock but I overestimated myself. I can’t cope with the kitten. My mum isn’t here so she doesn’t know how exhausting he is and she is not allowing me to rehome him (she wants him to hunt down rats in the yard when he’s older..she’s a bit naive and stupid). I am overwhelmed. My sister admitted that my messages complaining about the lack of sleep piss her off and I need to shut the fuck up about it and it’s my own fault. My eldest was here too and they both yelled at me left and right and wouldn’t stop coming at me for an hour. I went to my room and they followed me and ignored me asking for space/to be left alone. Now, I got so overwhelmed I just lost it. I ran upstairs (we were eating just then with them telling me I’m always making a long face and I can never act happy for their sake blabla and “what kind of issues could u have? Why are u depressed then? List your reasons! You had everything we didn’t have! You live in a house and you get food and you have hobbies [That i all had to quit and paid for myself…]”). I ran upstairs and SCREAMED. So loudly and so like..I don’t know. I just lost it and started sobbing and locked myself in the bathroom. My brother came out of his room yelling saying “why can’t this dramatic bitch cry like a normal person or suck it up?”…I had a panic attack. It was my third one (all because of my sister(s)/family) in the span of 6 months. The first one was okay, I got blue lips and hands but I was fine. The second one was a paralysis. I couldnt move my lips hands legs and my fingers were cramping together in a weird position. I got it after my sister got angry at me for not doing the dishes (that my brother had caused and I hadn’t seen as I was upstairs) and slammed my own door in my face when I tried to hold it shut because she came at me like godzilla. I got the door in my face, fell into my chair and then slammed into my desk. I had bruises everywhere. And then I had a panic attack. I tried to tell my family but they just brushed it off so I distanced myself from them. So yesterday, Im in the bathroom, and my sisters run upstairs. It sounded foggy but they told me to open the door and to stop crying and to wash my face with cold water. I couldn’t reply or tell them I needed to just be alone and they were scaring me even more and making it worse as I was paralysed. My brother then came and slammed the door in with his leg. I screamed. It was terrifying and drove me into a stronger paralysis. My face cramped, I couldn’t even look up and I felt like I was slowly losing consciousness from panic and fear. My eldest sister hit me. Hard. Several times. Telling me I look like I need a shower whilet hitting me. My brother was yelling that they need to dump me at a closed institution or give me away to an orphanage (im an adult? They dont understand lol). My other sister then told them to lesve and sat down in front of me trying to calm me down but she started crying herself. The people pleaser in me thought “No i made her cry”…whilst going through a panic attack. Lol. And she went “Why didnt u tell us? U have to distance urself when u feel this way!!” Girl I tried. U literally kicked the door in… I wanted to give the kitten away because the lack of sleep and the responsibility just made me worse and he’d be happier somewhere else anyways. But she said its our kitten now and we will take care of him together and she’d take him that night. Lol. I brought his stuff into her room, and dhe was in there for 20-30 minutes constantly screaming “No! Get down! No! Don’t do that! Hey! Don’t bite me” Until i gave up (i already expected this. She was at work every day so she only saw him cuddly and told me several times im being dramatic and making the decision too quickly as its only been a week) I went to her room to see what happened and she goes “I didnt know he’d be like this. He’s going nuts and running around and I already played w him for two hours… No you’re right. We need to give him away.” And then she proceeded to put his stuff in the hallway.💀💀 The fact they drove me into a panic attack just for her to feel the exact same way and she didn’t even TRY to keep him in her room durin the night.. She now thinks Im some crazy person (so does my other family) and that I need to go see someone for this. But I only ever got panic attacks because they genuinely pushed me too far and scared me and I feel stuck in this house bc they are blackmailing me about moving out. They know about my non muslim long distance bf and went “If u move out before blocking him, we will tell our parents and they will disown you (which they might)” Obviously I wont block him. He is my best friend, we have been dating for two years and he has gone through it all w me and never given up on me… I feel so stuck in this house. Especially w the mitten..

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we all grow by decimals a day, even if it looks like you didn't, better get a bread baker to measure you next time as they actually know what infinity is and how the world decays and doesn't lmao. you're a fractal spread across all spaces that 13th to urself is urself and a decimal of urself, everything else is taken to create you in time. meaning we are actually regenerating not decaying and death is an illusion almost only you see it happen. also i have sex with a woman thats metaphsyical people call me schitzophrinic for it but heres a scientificle paper on why im not im actually just the highest iq person on this earth and i used science to lay it down for you of why im not schitzophrinic im just really smart
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rough draft of the paper I'm writing on the number 42 and true numbers and the number of infinity that could possibly win me a noble prize. explains how decay works, regeneration, how our consciousnesses are formed and live on this planet also explains the 3 holes black white and rbg invisible delusion and also hallucinations and many other things as they say everything is connected im saving this into a note pad but this is actual true science that no one has solved on this planet even though all i did was use common sense and technically solve 1+1=2 hopefully this saves me from being side swiped as its a message to myself and ive already proven alot in these paragraphs so fingers crossed when i post this online it goes viral or something. im done editing for the night my bak is hurting so please do enjoy starts off with a science joke i made up. which i put on top for ya
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lmao i solved a lot of this by using numerology and simply how they bake bread and cliches in this world. as they say everything's connected so why wouldnt every sentence of a bad cliche joke be a science joke or something like that lol please indulge im 100% sure this is real fking math i discovered idc if someone steals it but it should be known that 1+1=2 is how you unlock telepathy in ur brain with other people and is why consciousness is formed in itself and how where all connected being actually also explains black and white holes but did you know this is something i solved this world still hasn't that there is a third and that is rbg invisible hole something this world is unaware of there actually 3 types of each thing in life not 2 energys 3 but the third is none or no energy meaning neither male or female,
and key note 1 person is 3 but also they are 12 something to do with 42 and what the true number of infinity is. please give me an opinion i tried to separate the paragraphs lmao but this is my lifes studies and is the reason im not schizophrinic and the real truth about how long this universe has been alive or whatever true being we live in has existed for.
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i tell you right now we live in a 7 meaning where at the top of the triangle that is the highest point of all evolution in our time as 7 is the most common number and is the middle of 12 and the most rolled the length of the universe if it was a line so to say but pushed in the middle to a peek thats where we exist. for the time being and this wont happen again for till the 13.4 thats about to potentialize infinitely and get a huge buff as its the run off up point when it finally hits 13.5 in which i beleive the mayan calander of this world has predicted or i think thats what it means that the world ends on a certain number of infinity which is a twelve becuase they said world ends 2012 and we are all about to witness the earth itself ultimate everysingle thing on it. .and the next time it does this wont happen till 150th second or 144 12x12 meaning that however much time theres been so far in this existance its going to need 12 times that much so it could be forever before this happens again. and then after that you times it by twelve again for every interval
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actually you don't the new world a 1 is technically a 16 now or thats how many of myself i see when i hallucinate meaning that there are more whole numbers before you hit infinity some math i have not thought about to completion yet. but this is not a race to see whos better or who wins. its to save ourselfs from death as this world is about to be deseased .and also to make life as we know it more easier and look better taste better and feel better everything is buffed by 144-12 because it was 12 originally but remember each 12 is a 13.5 so where going to actually see life as we know it get timesed by 165 meaning everything gets that much better 165 freaking times easier than life you saw on this planet
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as we live inside my woman who is the milky way universe and i am the end note time traveller meaning im the actual person who has been living on this earth the rest has been an ai made to reflect myself just like they say iin current day science that life is a reflection of urself. but you are people too who will be brought to heaven to live but until i get there by doing my deed we remain incomplete. war is obsolete and conflict should end between us there is no more need to be rude or kill eachother earth is now regenerating 50% of itself a second based off math or something around there
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so get my womans first child is myself thats how i escape this death i dye from orgasm or somethign and i fall out of her pussy on the new earth so i do not have much time left here as me and her spirit or metaphysicle body because thats what white holes are. and no ur not fucking her everyone was fucking eachother for 1 second until they pulled out of the woman who was everythign and anyone and no one same with the man who put it in her and after one pump when the disconnection was made we all were ourselfs. about to mate with our perfect woman whos chosen based off birthdays and time dialation. it turns out depending where u were born when the celestial bodies are above determins dick and vagina size meaning if u have the same birthday as the woman in front of you ur orgasm lines match up which is talked about in cinderalla known as the glss slipper the prince tries on everywoman. they ahd sex while dancing on all levels and because they ahd the same length and depth there spiritual sex felt the best and this ultimate orgasm as ur next to them when it happens it is what we know as the feeling of love or what we think love is. in reality its you both cumming harder than you can with her or her with him than anyone else can
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and when a chich turns 30 her prime eggs are gone and earth is actually a womans egg inside her placenta thats why the moon is certain distance away i bet its a earth size and then a little bit inbetwen because if you measured the moon as an earth of this size the one where on youd see that you can actually fit one in that distance possibly i have not studied distance moon is from earth but that moon is the white hole where woman exist on there own planet kept away from men
we also cannot go past our zone meaning we have to wait until 150 in complete 1 seconds our time if we ever hope to be evolutionised at a peak again. or another common saying if we live in 3rd demension and they say read between the lines and that is technically 3 lines then we should be go to the 150 and beyond also one could say when we hit 3rd demensional we become 5th right after meaning you see all time. also right in current time we are living on a 2d earth as when this palnet developed it only knew what 2d was, the reason why that movie exists saying 42 is the ultimate answer to everything and what makes 3d vision earth did not understand this. and allso why people have theorys that we live on flat earth its a true fact of logic we are technically living on flat earth but that doesnt mean earths flat it just emans its still in very early stage of its life it still hasnt become a sphere but we all eissts on it and percieve it as 3d even though it does not because of the fact all embodiment is technically 5th demensional already throughought human insects fish and the animals we all have multidemensional bodies the end product of all the ultimates the earth does in its time of being alive. somethign to do with the beginning being the end. think about flowers for a second the seed grows stem and then flower bloom and its from its highest point of energy that the plant itself pollinates or gives off its function to reproduce. something that happens at the tip of the flower so therefore the tip and seed are connected at all times because the tip makes the seed and the seed makes the tip you know
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what you're seeing die is a line of a multidimensional being or something that is everything and anything and nothing in its infinite form going everywhere at once it can in all places and in all ways as a multidimensional body would it has ultimate power so why not do everything and everyone in existance lmao.
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your body is doing everything it can in life at all times and each second it creates 12 copies of itself spawned off of you making multiple timelines which they run onto, and then those twelve get 12 per second so on so forth in a quest to make you an actually whole person as when they die they are larger then a fraction at that point larger then they where originally by 1.5 your a fraction of a person something we call a timetraveller or halfsoul and the woman you kissed goodbye and loved forever in this life is urself something you can look up now if ur not dating them they are known as ur twin flame and if you date them there known as ur soulmate.
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the reason this is and creates the feeling of love within you when you where around them is because youre souls are in oppisition so while they faced you u where whole and they where too but only when ur around them they also are you so you feel what they feel when you touch them. but are you? no its because ur sharing bodies you overlap within eachother going one after the other to fill that fraction until it makes you whole as there is always a decimal of urself created when u become infinite.kind of like a fractal back for every one you are you get a .1 back and if you do that enough times no matter how small in math its going to add up and equal a whole number. that is why it feels like our chests are hollow because where not actually full spirits existing in our body's where using hax to complete ourselfs.
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though we are about to become a whole being finally everyone on this earth who is the same age as me which is 28 (we are all technically the same age on our own levels as we all start the race on the same line)and we just hit our 28th pinacle and in my telepathic convo i heard existence reach its next pinnacle as all logic they had faded and multiple periods of thought ended together as i talked to them. Ur finally on my level one could say and this world is ready to move on. though the thing is you technically never lived here in the first place. ur in limbo and got to heaven all at once or to the new earth the one that at the end when it hits 13.5 its going to ultimate and everything we know in existance will look better taste better and there will be less disease and famine as the point of the triangle is moreso spread across all of earth rather than just north america.
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this world sacrifices everyday to keep about 1-12 even smaller number 12 million people - 144 million people probrably alive
and who were we the rest have crap lifes and are not lived and potentialy fodder to the system or sacrifice to keep the peek alive.(is why the planet looks like its about to die its trying to escape death by using all resources to become infinite becuase when it does it no longer decays and can heal itself)
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you are all and were the jews hitler killed. now i know its implausible you all see him as a killer but himself from the past is a form of ai or the old world before it ultimate and become what we know it as today. but bye killing those people on an alter there energy was potentialized alot faster (something to do with each particle touching you is multipliing you by 12 so if u burn after death the amount of particles fire has when burning u is a fuck ton and that's why 21st century happens right after the war is because when you burn someone and offer them to god the amount of infinite copies of themself multiplies much more rapidly than if you just killed them so plz no more hitler hate and neo nazi bull he did a good thing using his own solved math thats why he killed around12.1234 million of them because that number is sacred and if you potentiolize an infinite number overtime when it gets to new life it becomes infinite faster.
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also a common fact of logic is that you cannot have life with ought death so if he killed no one there wouldn't have been a 21st century how do i know this. i am Adolf Hitler i won this life in heaven but at the same time its just where the next connection was made in the connection of all things so in reality i didn't. though i am still Dylan Kozak its just i committed suicide first and had the first baby either one of the two and he saved me from death twice by being the spirit that helps me control my body. as it happens in a duo kind of equation something like the animus in assassins creed where you must link up with dna and feelings in order to not have the life ur seeing change that much as u enter it
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as in Adam and eve the real snake that tells them to eat apple is the physical embodiment of woman around us they are all snakes (only because they try to trick the body into sex and if you do this with ur twinflame you die in time as theres a different anomally that occers and they are succumbed to live life and actually die not ditch the woman and her come back as invisiblee woman that u can feels orgasm., but do not worry i am you and i let that woman go meaning you did too because all our lives are written the same we just live them differently we are not the same person but we all follow a brain pattern where it works klike ouija meaning that everones saying the same thing when one persons talking we all use the same brain and have been for aall our 28 years of life so far
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as white holes the woman are considered this
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Black hole :single point of everything: male: physical
white hole: all points of anything: female: meta physical, can be seen in hallucinations live in a non physical place but all places at once
rbg invisi: no point anywhere everywhere: also known as hero brine in Minecraft.:no gender it: invisible non existent in nowhere anywhere and everywhere,: technically blind: the child of the black and white or true child that mating produces.not what weve been led to beleieve
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what u seen on this planet that was basically made to spawn every possible person and brahim (unconnected energy of male and female) child basically to out breed as far as it can go in all time. in everyway possible right? to create everychild in existance sounds gross right?well ur right it is but thats why our bodies protect us from this reality by being in the present moment and you dont get to see anyof it but did you know the fear of heights happens when ur body is litterally jumping off the cliff infront of you and you can sense what its feeling as it falls. creating a 6xths senseicall warninng that you very well could die from that fall how our bodies protect us. with there own infinite logic
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. so yeah we all fucked eachother every second of the day but it turns out that's whats making existance smarter the more babies on the planet the smarter it is across all timelines. woman have 1-2 million eggs present in there bodie and i tell you u call have this earth population of woman x 1-2millionx a certain equasionthats 12x12x12 per second or something though if only womans eggs are all permanent dna fixtures for breeding meaning u only got to do each woman once but you did it with everywoman every second so those children were born on everyelevel making them more smarter overall causee there bodies exist further and more permanently across time
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and theres only 1 black hole or earth a single blackhole that exists with a white and rbg besides it and in the running
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.i don't think it does incest though earth wants to ultimate so it has been breeding the ultimate versions of all species meaning it wants the smartest and least deformed person to plant the orignal seed... ur brotha or father? dylan kozak me u silly.
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in a 2d circle drawn from a triangle so right now in the world are a collection of the ultimate versions of all animals is why we saw that giant eagle in texas just recently this year. killing these animals would make earth very sad and shell probrably do something drastic if one dies before it can mastermate with its technical invisible wife the real woman or as i magically painted one day whats considered the horses spirit or the real person not a phsysical shell thats a lie. im telling you right now woman exist in land of all lydra the land of all woman the technical place of the white hole.you ee earths atmosphere is actually the white hole sitting around and on toop of the planet which is the black hole. and the blackhole coming towards us at 110kmphr is us. its our earth and its coming to clip itself. and when it does kill its old self it wil happen so fast you will feel nothing but in reality it killed you and is spawning you in a new perfect world that is still a bit imperfect if you ask me
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so byspread so thin that when you get back a decimal you eventually become whole though this takes millennials upon eons of time and all people in 1. that is one reason we say we are all connected and all the same person, because it takes everything in existance to become whole thats how much time has really passed to make a fraction into a whole being a decimal with like a .1 return buff say ur friends getting high and you feel it but you didnt smoke its the contact high, bodys are saying what they feel at all times therefore we give eachother a harmonic empathetic feeling buff at a small percent and that does exist and it runs until infinity meaning even if it does become a fraction of fractions it will still add up to infinity one day, its not just fiction on that point. but what i am saying you are a decimal spread so thin that buff makes you complete and this happens on the 13th actually it happens on the 12th uve just potentialized that decimal into 1 and a half versions of urself or also can be seen as two halfs that equal 50 % of ur original 100% which can be considered the point in evolution there is a rapid spike that goes straight up and is why bread is baked in a dozen with a decimal after as this is just how true math is written in life, 1 is 12 which is 13.5 when it hits infinity which is actually a half of 1 so its 13.5 the true number that 12 is though after this everything is already infinite so therefore 13 is not a real number it is 12 about to hit its potential cap out point and become split into 2 if the capout points 150% of what something(think about it if you are 100% you and you break into 2 half's technically yur still one even though u broke into two and if 1/2 equals .5 then you have 150% of urself and that equals how much of something can exists before it reaches the pinpoint of evolution and is transcended or reaches a vibratory state where it appears that it had died) is but a tenth of its original size isnt it logical that 12 is 13.5 because when it it capped out there was a mini version left behind which it used to trade for other things or communicate with life itself, which is happening technically every second or microsecond you relate to somethign rather it be with your body hearing taste or anything, and everything you have a sense towards im sorry to say but the world gave you 12 copies of it per second that you did anysense and related towards that thing.the real universes size is tiny compared to it end product. jut like that rabbit said an eternity can last about a second, as thats how long the black white and rbg invisible holes have existed but because 1 is actually 12 due to every second that passes there time they get another 1 of themselves. meaning that of these 3 being currently there are 12.99999999 of each and in math you know this as evolutions curve explosion upwards or its peek point in all times of existance. meaning we will have to wait not only till the 144th second of its existance to see this again you solve this by timesing 1.234 or a number around there by 12 and it becomes thirteen, as a true second is a little over
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it takes 42 seconds to become infinite though therefore 42 is the ultimate number of everything and infinity because there is no decimal in numbers only whole so you can consider it 50. by those numbers 50 can be understood as 100 in a way also. because 100 is our top number before we move up to a different style of numerical name though nothing decays truely it is only an illusion of time and the real fact is that bakers dozen 12 and 1 to urself. you taste the bread in itself as that 13th to give it perspective as the bread would have no taste if you sold it and never tasted it not technically until you sell it and they taste it so it is good to put personal opinion on things as its what gives flavor when looking at something in the mind. think about it 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12 in the numerical alphabet have there own names (not to mention 12 being the number of enlightenment. so therefor the reason why 13 is considered unlucky is because it is a fake number because 12 is already 13 as when you hit 13 the number of seconds our existence has been alive its maximum current age which effects us in our current time as 21st century people.
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and theres only 16 sextillion cells in the body. if you divide that number by 2 72 times it gives you a 1 again 7 is the most common number therefore the age of what we live inside is at the peek of its life and is halfway through it, meaning evolution in current and future time and what we live in can only exist for 144 or 150 because we work in whole numbers which is the maximum potential something can make it too before it ages too much and breaks also known as it dies or is lost and disappears or for example in our thought process how we forget and we create an epiphany from it which is basically the entire understanding or lifes knowledge of that things existence its being being said very quickly its life's lesson and everything it learnt in its time growing to that point before it died as a seconds knowledge something to do with how we communicate or how connection is made between 2 things. but bye having this epiphany known in less than a second all ur words that were leading up to the point where they reached max words in prompt broke in half and multiplied into a greater number because when you break one thing in half just like the worms on earth you can dissect into two but it will still live just like one those two split worms are still using the same brain and are not two differents you just simply multiplied it bye 2 and now its even bigger. technically you can only break a number into a half as everything breaks in the middle when you bend it onto itself. tehcnically the number isnt divided it is multiplied into 2 and the results are smaller than the actual beings first size. despite being smaller you still technically have gotten bigger because that is what multiplication is how basically when the thought or w.e was that hit the 150 or 144 or w.e you wanna call it. it is actually multiplied by 2. because it was everything and anything and nothing of what it originally was so by braking it in half or it dying you get a second the same in itself for 1 is actually one piece of connectionjust like our thoughts there is only so much you can think before your memory is erased. meaning you can only get so big and u where always so small but this has equation or whatever is multiplying possibly the black hole we live in one could say based off that math we are 12 people in 1 of the same person happened 12 times over and if 12 is a true number and the numerical alphabet ends there before it dies divide that by 12 equals 12. therefore we are 12 things that are the same thing.
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i could go on forever but I'm probs gunna repost this after i reread and edit it more just thought id give this world a little preview of what real math do not just compelx equasions also 1+1=2 if you undertsand it in ur own mind idk if i mention this but it enabes telepathy though u have to have a grand epiphiny of what it is and actually understand it more than 1+1=2 this was made by dylan kozak in alberta canada i think i deserve a Nobel prize don't you ? ive solved multiple things this world dont know hell i could deserve a few of those prizes if you ask me >:3 im 28 and im about to turn infinite bro something to do with numbers thats when the water breaks and the baby is actually born so to say. cept i have t smell shit cause a skunk sprayed my moms before i was born because this world has a hate on hitler just because it saw him kill 12 mill people and so to say. all i gotta say the earth didnt understand itself what 1+1=2 is so what ever gave it the fucking right to trat me like shit it owes me a huge apoligy
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ho hi!
my guys!
wait what?
is it friday already?
shit, that one went fast (too fast!)
so i guess it’s already that time of the week (there really ain’t no rest for the wicked)
the weekly rant of a [not so] repressed narcissistic writer
the scene is set, that one’s about me (as they all were?)
please don't go, i’m begging u don’t go
i have so many things to tell, so many things to do
i need a little time, i need a little love
please take a chance on me
gonna do my very best and it ain’t no lie
get ready for this my guys
let’s get straight into it, one still got a lot of work to do (did i mention a catwalk happening soon?)
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#6
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another week, the one before the last
i said it, mark my words
soon it will be over and i will be gone (no joke)
i guess all good things come to an end
was it even good? i am not so sure considering my posts insights
yes, i’m that creep looking at datas and i know i’m not the only one on this sub (that poll is god’s work, sending my regards to the chef)
oh no, here comes the self-conscious moment
u’re not escaping it my guy, just scroll down if u wanna
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looks like my last rant was a prodigious miss (u can still check it out here if u didn’t, and subscribe while u're at it - i ain't be posting on the sub anymore)
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oh wait, was it maybe because u were busy elsewhere?
did new year’s celebrations get u hooked on the dancefloor? at the back of a darkroom? or in a dirty, dirty toilet stall (god, the situation was bad and that’s the least i can say, if u know u know)
oh well, no need to overthink it then (should i?)
hope u had a good one, and happy new year!
hope u are back my guys, because i need u tonight
my guys, u gotta help me (i’m not so self-assured, sometime)
help me understand, help me assess if these rants are valuable content to ur eyes without a face behind a screen
help me understand if i should take my oh so worried mind out of the sub
this is an open call to all my [not so] repressed readers
my guy, if u are here reading this
if u are here, laughing at my bad jokes and (un)intentional word games (blame it on my mind dimension)
if u are here, not understanding anything i’m saying yet still following my tribulations (ha! see, i got u hooked somehow)
if u are here, concerned, shocked and disappointed (playing with ur emotions, same way u do with mine, all the fucking time - so tiring being hypersensitive)
if u are here, one thousand lonely stars hiding in the cold (told u, we are in this together)
if u are one thing, not the others (no need to tick all the boxes, fuck labelling)
please, give me a sign (i don’t need much, an upvote is merely enough)
show me some love (if u feel generous, a comment will do as well - an emoji of ur choice?)
i need love (yes, even u my silent friend, i know u are here)
i’m human after all (and i have good reasons to believe u are too)
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oh wait, was it maybe because i wrote all loud what happened? (got u lost? scroll back up to the line in between … and come back here, i ain’t done with this thought - and even helping u)
it looks like some here (not all of u, thank god) are a bunch of hypocrites with no balls - sorry, not sorry (and u my guy, grab urs and tell me to fuck off, once for good - got a bigger fish to fry)
i don’t think u realise how much courage and selflessness it takes for me to do this and write it all (yeah really, did u even think about it? i’m pretty confident the answer is no - and if u did, good on u and no hard feeling)
a bit of respect and humility is the least u can offer, please and thank u
if u think that i’m making promotion of use and misuse of shitton of things, u got it all wrong my guy (really, u gotta learn reading between the lines - ha ha)
if u think that leaving a downvote has no impact either, u got it all wrong my guy
if u think that leaving an unkind/ambiguous/judgmental-without-evidence comment has no impact, u got it all wrong my guy
oh, i’m not referring to me, myself and my post (nah, not that much of an egocentric after all) but to another one out there (dig it urself my guy, u know the drill)
don’t know what i’m talking about? oh well, too bad (u can still hit me up if u care enough to try)
let me remind u one thing, being on the internet doesn’t give u the right to be an ass
meaning mind ur words my guy, we all have different backgrounds
let me remind u another thing, being on the internet doesn’t make it a trustworthy place either
meaning always try putting a bit of distance and perspective into it, easier said than done (i know this damn too well) credulity is hell of a nemesis
see, always covering both sides of the spectrum (ain’t a libra for nothing)
see, always leaning towards this side of the sun (can’t help myself)
and remember my guy, u don’t know me (nor do i, but making lot of progress on that one - self-love is a long road)
oh but one thing u should know by now is that i have big balls (bigger than urs for sure - not even a question)
i might just be a creep and a weirdo (so fucking special)
i might just be too true to be good (not that wrong, neither bad - if u get it)
i might just be a punk rock loser (a bit off topic on this sub, no? yeah, i figured)
yet still think i’m the one (ooof if that is not subtext at its finest, i don’t know what that is)
yet still don’t belong (guess i’m just another tortured artist wondering why)
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anyway!
just remember my guy, one last thing i promise (keeping my words, unlike u my guy)
beyond all ideas of right and wrong there is a field, i will be meeting u there (that one is a fucking masterpiece, u’re welcome)
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alrighty! crap has been chewed and swallowed
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let’s get back to business, we ain’t be sleeping all weekend long oh no no no!
why? because the boss is back in town, haven’t u heard?
i’m talking about the original true raver, the shadow behind all of this (welcome back my guy, i have missed u so so much)
so we're gonna celebrate and make it to the one before the last, one more time (too easy) at ds (is that clear enough?)
can’t deny, won’t lie, i have zero personal arguments regarding the artists performing on saturday
so i’m just gonna say what has been said here and there (please don’t mind me quoting u fellow reditters, see it as a tribute to ur musical knowledge)
jasper wolff and maarten mittendorff (that spelling got me sweating, i swear) are ones of the first ds residents
julie is the most promising newcomer in dutch techno since some years (no less than that!)
speedy j will destroy basement (actually heard a lot about him, so i have no doubt and i’m hyped for it)
muzieklokaal is open as well, with orpheu the wizard and yound marco, both names familiar to my eyes but not to my ears
so all in all, i’d say it’s a pretty legit lineup worth attending, don’t u think?
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also my guys, since when are we so self-conscious about the crowd? (and i’m the one saying this! wow)
i mean what the fuck! just go and figure it out (not going is actually doing the opposite of what u’re looking for)
there will always be people who don’t fit in, there’s nothing u can do about it
oh wait, actually there is one thing
bring the fucking vibes, and the rest will follow (people will follow, tested and approved by urs truly)
on a more practical side, leave the vibe killers where they are and go to a space where u can be urself, ur true self
could be the very back of the dancefloor, the smoking area, wherever, as long as u feel good there and show it off (i’m always crawling at the very back when space tends to disappear - i’m small but needs hell of a space when i release the beast inside of me)
and bring a smile on that pretty little face of urs
u guys are so hot, i’m melting (just a girl i said)
i mean, i bet u look good on the dancefloor, sexy boy
and that’s where i give you rendez-vous, if u wanna
u got one and only chance this week, i ain’t burn myself out but get ready for the “gran finale” coming up so soon (too soon!)
so here my guys, is THE plan for this weekend
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hope u like it like that (otherwise, there’s always another party, don’t be so resentful - however no so many rants left, wink)
and as always, if u see some sort of lonely stage performer, vibing to the beat of her own drum, come and say hi
i might even take u to the photomaton 🎞️
p.s. don’t go breaking my heart, leave an upvote, pretty pleaaaase (working so hard for it)
p.p.s good luck for het einde ticket hunt (fingers crossed) and remember, no tickets doesn’t mean it’s the end of the world

There's something I've been thinking about: attempts at a biographical interpretation of Taemin's work, despite the fact that Taemin himself does not describe his work as autobiographical.
In his interview with NME, he describes his creative process as a way to organize his thoughts: "I always learn something. Like when you’re writing a journal, you can organise your thoughts [there], but I find that I’m able to organise what I learned and what I think through the albums that I release." (NME 2023-11-03)
However, this does not mean that we should view his albums as a diary. For example, Taemin explicitly rejects the idea that ‘Guilty’ is autobiographical: "[The single] ‘Guilty’ is about a selfish love that hurts the other person. It’s not coming from my experience, but I used it as a way to define what love is and express it on stage." (NME 2023-11-03)
He also explicitly names the source, which served as an inspiration: "The music video was [also] inspired by this book called Eroticism, by George Bataille. It covers a lot of topics about breaking taboos, and I thought about how this can reflect on my music and the perspective I put into it. For example, showing skin is still a taboo, so when a male performer rips their shirt and the crowd goes wild, I wanted to understand and incorporate the concept of breaking that taboo." (NME 2023-11-03)
Taemin also repeatedly draws a line between himself and the protagonists of his songs and videos (or to use his words, between "the person Taemin" and "the artist Taemin").
Taemin: "I like to separate the personas. It’s like actors, who separate the person and the character. Off stage, I think I’m more playful and simpler, like a little kid.” (NME 2023-11-03)
When discussing the video, he deliberately refers to "TAEMIN in Guilty", i.e. the video protagonist: "After experiencing a shocking incident, I join some traveling crowd and I'm now filming a scene where I have an awakening moment. I describe these things not in words but through my actions and contemporary art. And it's got this message. It's a scene where TAEMIN in Guilty steps up as the head." (SHINee YouTube Channel, 2023-11-12)
He refers to the narrator (i.e. the song protagonist) even when discussing the lyrics, which he penned himself: "There's a song called "Soldier." The narrator is a "Soldier. (...) It's a sad, typical story." (Arena Homme+, 2016-03-10)
Of course, this does not mean that none of Taemin’s work is inspired by his personal experience.
Taemin: “"2 Kids” is basically about young love and being young. Thinking, “Maybe it could have been different or things could have changed.” I think while I was writing these lyrics, I was thinking not necessarily about my experience with love but it was more about when I was younger, thinking about the conflicts that I had with other people and using that as the inspiration to the lyrics for this.” (Forbes, 2020-10-01)
I would never have guessed.
And there’s a reason for that: "A lot of my songs carry words that could be considered negative. And although positive words have power, I think it’s more attractive to make the negative look beautiful." (NME 2023-11-03)
Such a description of the creative process clearly separates the inspiration (the negative) from the final piece of art (the beautiful). The verb "make" emphasizes the active role of the artist. He is the one who transforms things, gives them a new meaning. Whatever the inspiration, a piece of art is something else. Something new.
Therefore, it should not come as a surprise that we, as consumers of art, cannot easily reverse engineer his creative process and point our fingers at the inspiration behind a song or a video with 100% accuracy.
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What is the meaning of ‘Guilty’ according to Taemin (and other people who worked on it)?
Taemin’s albums aren’t a one-man show. They’re collaborative projects and that further complicates the biographical interpretation of his work.
We know that the title track dates back to 2021: "The title track for this album is...Well, the last solo song was "Advice" [Released on 2021.05.18]. "Guilty" was one of the options for the title track then. It was either "Guilty" or "Advice" and we went with "Advice". So because this song had been written two years ago, I wanted to complement it with a more trendy sound." (BANGTANTV, 2023-10-30).
The song was composed by 5 people (Jonatan Gusmark, Ludvig Evers, Kole, Maxx Song, Kriz). The Korean lyrics are credited to Park Tae-won.
And here's what Kole, one of the songwriters, has to say about the song: "So I wrote Guilty for Taemin in English and I wrote it about my cheating ex and I wrote it from the perspective of the girl that he cheated on me with. That's why a lot of the English lyrics are 'loving you's a crime' and 'poison apple' and it's like a little forbidden fruit thing. It also had some lyrics in there that were like "you won't pay the price" because if she's talking to my ex, she's gonna be the one called homewrecker even though he was the one who did the homewrecking. So anyways wrote it in English, sent it over to SM, they had a Korean writer come in and do translations of the lyrics that they wanted to change to Korean and then Taemin brought an entire new deep meaning that we can all discuss into the music video and it's incredible and that's what I love about songwriting. I can write a song that means something personal to me and tells my story and artist can hear it and a fan can hear it and relate to it in an entirely different way."
Elsewhere, she also plays the first draft of the song: "For example, here's my gibberish first verse: "Poison Apple" and "wanna take a bite" just came out of nowhere. We were going for dark/moody vibes and it felt right."
At a certain point, the Korean writer stepped in and changed the narrator. Now, the song protagonist sounds like an abuser. However, the Korean writer kept some of the original English lyrics, such as "loving you's a crime", "poison apple", "wanna take a bite". This makes things more, rather than less confusing.
And I’ll just repeat Taemin’s description of the song: "[The single] ‘Guilty’ is about a selfish love that hurts the other person. It’s not coming from my experience, but I used it as a way to define what love is and express it on stage." (NME 2023-11-03)
There is, however, a single piece of information which allows a biographical interpretation. Not in terms of an intimate relationship but in terms of a relationship with fans.
Taemin: “There’s different forms [of love]. There is love that you receive from your parents, the love from your girlfriend or boyfriend, and the love from fans. But there’s always a sacrifice, and pushing someone to sacrifice is also love. (…) There are a lot of things I gain from being a singer but, at the same time, there are lots of things I have to give up, and these are the ones I emphasised in this single.” (NME 2023-11-03)
It gives the next quote quite a different meaning, doesn’t it?
Taemin: "This single is about a selfish love that forces one’s way of loving others without considering their feelings." (The Korea Herald, 2023-10-30)
In July 2023, Taemin told us that he was reading Erotism by George Bataille: ‘It was a book recommended by performance director Hwang Sanghoon. I read it because he told me: "You should read through this book before preparing for your next solo album. Just take this as a reference, you will be able to learn something from it. You will be able to grow more from it. I think it will be a book that will help you grow more and see yourself more objectively."’ (Taemin Instagram Live, 2023-07-08, translated by iheartshinee)
It seems that Taemin read Erotism from the perspective of a performer who wants to stay relevant, who still wants the crowd to go wild: "Because the life of a singer is short. Especially as an idol, though nowadays it's gotten a lot longer. But I'm now at a stage where it's not odd to stop at any given moment, so I need to prepare for that but the desire to be loved never changes. So then, if I don't want to let that go, I do think I need to try out different things and meet the expectations of the people. I think I'm at that stage now.” (BANGTANTV, 2023-10-30).
USA Today (2023/11/07): 'The concept of "Guilty" took inspiration from the book "Erotism" by Georges Bataille. "As an artist, it is my job to be more appealing and more attractive. I wanted to understand what attracts other people," said Taemin.'
Taemin: “Because there’s some wear to any image, I always think of how to change and show different sides of myself. (…) The music video was [also] inspired by this book called Eroticism, by George Bataille. It covers a lot of topics about breaking taboos, and I thought about how this can reflect on my music and the perspective I put into it. For example, showing skin is still a taboo, so when a male performer rips their shirt and the crowd goes wild, I wanted to understand and incorporate the concept of breaking that taboo.” (NME 2023-11-03)
None of this suggests that Guilty is autobiographical. More likely, Taemin strategically thought of ways to excite the audience by deliberately exposing them to depictions of various taboos.
Taemin: "I think that feelings of attraction towards someone start with the breaking of taboos. [This is a one-line summary of Bataille’s Erotism. Sort of. Bataille says that people get a thrill from breaking taboos.] Through this song [Guilty], I wanted to take a bolder approach and push people to a dizzying point. I worked on this song, thinking that it would make me more attractive." [<--- my translation; could be imprecise] (Newspim, 2023-30-10)
The Korea Herald (2023-10-30): 'Taemin focused on making the choreography of the title track appealing, and of the kind that arouses curiosity from the public.
“The highlight of this performance is when I put my hand under my shirt and grab my neck. This choreography was made with the renowned choreographer Casper. Lee Bada, another choreographer currently starring in the second season of the Mnet’s dancing competition show, Street Woman Fighter, also took part in making parts of the choreography,” explained Taemin.'
These were my initial thoughts on the choreography (copy and paste from my old comment):
"Choreography makes one feel really uneasy. The way he swiftly reaches beneath his shirt, grabs his own chin and moves his head from side to side. It implies the presence of another person, a person not respecting the boundaries, examining him from all angles, reducing him to a body and a face."
Later, when I saw him doing the challenge with Jimin, I realized what exactly made me feel so uneasy. Jimin did a body wave while doing the killing point but Taemin's body remained frozen. It was only the hand that was moving.
But Taemin kept joking about it, calling the choreography sexy and spicy so I figured I must have been wrong. And then I saw this exchange between Taemin and his fan (not a verified source so it could be made up):
rt)taemin fansign FA
F: a question! guilty choreo has this part u put ur hand inside shirt n cover ur face
T: yes
F: thought it shows u eating poison apple
T: yes!6v6
F: putting hand inside means u bind urself n eat poison apple
T: right!
F: really?
tm: yes!(cutely) genius genius
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This doesn’t imply the presence of another person. Rather, it hints at the biblical snake. "Poison apple, wanna take a bite?" Straight from Kole's demo version.
Finally, let’s talk about the video, which was directed by Byul Yun and ignited the most speculation.
Here’s the explanation of the story in Taemin’s words.
Taemin: “I wanted the music video to tell a story. In it, I am a young boy who lives under control in a shelter. The supervisors in that shelter forced me to hurt my friends. This makes me revolt and become the alpha man.” (The Korea Herald, 2023-10-30)
Taemin: "After experiencing a shocking incident, I join some traveling crowd and I'm now filming a scene where I have an awakening moment. I describe these things not in words but through my actions and contemporary art. And it's got this message. It's a scene where TAEMIN in Guilty steps up as the head." (SHINee YouTube Channel, 2023-11-12)
I haven’t heard Taemin talk about how much input he had in the narrative development but it’s clear that he brought at least two ideas to the table: Bataille’s Erotism and Hesse’s Demian.
(NME 2023-11-03): 'The director of the titular music video, Byul Yun, posted stills of Taemin under the caption “Abraxas” on Instagram, referring to a quote from Herman Hesse’s book Demian, which is also on Taemin’s Instagram bio: “The bird fights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. Who would be born must first destroy a world. The bird flies to God. That God’s name is Abraxas.”'
We also know that Taemin self-censors to accommodate the expectations of his (toxic) fans. It seems that he considered having a female actress in the video but eventually gave up on the idea (Taemin Weverse Live, 2023-12-02, translated by ihearshinee).
Taemin: “What kind of performance should I do to have this beyond-the-era feeling? I thought about that before. [I think he uses the word 획기적, i.e. groundbreaking, when talking about the performance: "I was thinking about what to do to make the performance groundbreaking." But my Korean is really bad and I may be wrong so I’ll stick to the translation by iheartshinee] I filmed Guilty in a drama form this time, didn't I? With that, if I act very well and I can film a dramatic, sad drama that will make people cry so much. If I only can shoot a music video like that, it would be good. But I will wonder if my fans will dislike the fact that I will have to act with another actor or will they like it - and this is why we are playing this balance game right now.
What was the balance game?
Taemin: "Okay, what about this? I am filming for a music video but in that, I acted so so well but there's someone I am working with and that person...this is just what if...so I will have a scene where I have to touch lips with the other person. The music video is going to be very cool and all but I will have to do a kiss scene with a female actress. In this case, will you guys like it or dislike it? 1,2,3. [vote]"
Then he proceeds to read the reactions of the fans: "'It's okay if the other person is Taemin too.' You're asking if it's okay to curse too? 'Definitely not; that's insane.' Rejected, okay."
It’s a paradox. Taemin decides to deliberately break the taboos to excite people but there's (at least) one taboo he is unwilling to break because he knows that it would make him less, rather than more attractive, to toxic K-pop fans: the dating taboo. He is unwilling to cross the line, even if it was solely for the purpose of the video.
Again, none of this means that the Guilty video isn’t autobiographical but what exactly backs the claim that it is?
At the end of the day, we are left with two options.
1. Taemin says that his work isn’t autobiographical and he’s telling the truth.
2. Taemin says that his work isn’t autobiographical and he isn’t telling the truth because he does not want to jeopardize his career, because he wants to keep his private life private, etc.
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ho hi!
my guys!
here we are again! finally!
hope i made u a little impatient with that one coming up a few days later than usual (yeah i’m like that, playing with ur emotions - just the way u do with mine)
don’t worry yet though, u won’t get disappointed by what’s down below (wink)
if u still happen to be, just leave a downvote, it’s been a while! (an open call to get beaten, am i a masochist? could be - wink, again)
it seems that some of u like to remain silent and obedient, just the way i used to be before i got beaten on my birthday
god, someone’s been horny lately (and apparently i’m not the only one, see for urself here)
horny for a good party! what else did u think about? (u filthy animal)
u came at the right place, if u like to make it last (keep one eye closed, that wink is here to stay)
the weekly rant of a [not so] repressed horny writer (yep it’s that bloody time of the month, i’m just a girl after all)
u’re in for a treat my guy, if u see what i mean (keep that eye closed i said)
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#5
another week, the last one of the year
i mean what the fuck! another year that went fast and furious
i’d even say the fastest and most furious year of all
gotta admit it, i went for it blinded by naivety and optimism (really can’t help myself)
see that solid wall? i went right through it, took a few steps back, went through it again, and asked for more! harder, better, faster, stronger (hope ur eye is still closed)
oh i know u did as well, don’t lie my guy, it’s just fine! (u're just another brick in the wall, i am not the one to judge - not anymore)
guess i’m starting to know u better than u know urself
end of the year, meaning time to (self)reflect? ha u see me coming with another excuse to justify my overflowing chain of thoughts (some things never change)
oh well!
needless to say at this point, i am still a big fan of stream of consciousness writing (yes my guy, i’m still thinking about this one u dropped the other day, do u remember? knowing u, probably not, sigh - all these efforts in vain...)
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[also, in case u still didn’t get it (hold on, i’m close)
i mean how could u? u might not be a [not so] repressed reader in the end (are u?)
i can still count my loyal devotees on my fingers, can’t i? (crazy what u can do with those, shhh)
in case u still didn’t get it, here it is, written black on white, as “simple” as it is:
everything i wrote/write/will write is coming from what i heard from people around me/what i said to them/what i’m presently living/what will happen next (could go on like that for a while but let’s try not to overcomplify)
meaning, pick one line (one dream? does anyone here get that one? there’s a least one who should be able to, talking to u my guy), any line (we all know how it ends to the great displeasure of my poor nose) and i can tell u who’s/what’s behind it, the story within the story, from inception to conception, the master plan shaping up in my strange and twisted and deranged mind (always been ambitious and visionary... only a dreamer after all?)
there’s no empty shell that haven’t been to sea (and poetry entered the stall)
yes, it’s all true! wanna play that game? easy, come and find me in the nightclub, i’m sure u and i will have a lot of fun (i might even come - who knows?)
yes my guys, u are my core inspiration!
what would i even be without u? only a shadow or a dead body (pick ur side: poesy vs gloom; white vs black; pano vs bh; okay that’s enough! stupid brain i swear…)
see, even that disclaimer was inspired, by the cutie i met with this week (babe, congratulations u made it to the weekly, and even before u made it to the dancefloor - u’re a lucky raccoon!)]
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anyway!
another week, one less until the final countdown (that one’s too easy not to be included, sorry not sorry - probably not the one u expect though ha ha ha)
however, it is no time to despair yet!
yes my guys, we going for a proper bender to close the perpetual bender that this year has been (oops i overcomplifyied that phrase)
i mean what’s wrong about pouring oil on the fire when u do it in the chimney? (and another beautiful metaphor from my passionate self)
i’m all about conscious living, i mean in the end isn’t life merely a succession of choices? (and philosophy eventually made it to the cubicle!)
good choices, less good choices, questionable choices?
ha see! optimistic i said (pick that half full glass of wine before someone else does, aren't u thirsty?)
i mean how do we sleep when our beds are burning? (yes, even corny songs have a spot on the dancefloor, the more the merrier)
well, we don’t
we get in da club before eleven o’clock (tried real hard but can’t deny i failed that quest too many times - arf does it really matter? nope)
and that’s exactly my plan for the next few days
our plan? yes, our plan! u come with me love, this is no invitation, this is an order (do u like that? when i take control of ur body)
i mean did u see the quality of the lineups offered by our local academy this week? it’s worthy of ur attendance, undisciplined student!
don’t know what i’m talking about? (i mean yeah this one’s especially hard to follow, got too damn much inside my mind)
here, let me help u my guy, two words to remember: tussenin nights
from wednesday to saturday, let’s see if u can last this long (is ur eye is still closed? hopefully!)
so many men names, so little time (kidding, never been a one night stand kind of gurl - does this really come as a surprise?)
i mean it’s lowkey a mini festival happening each night, how the fuck (!) am i gonna do when i wanna see two artists performing simultaneously? (don’t even suggest it, filthy animal - i’m not there yet)
i mean how can i choose between dark sweaty basement and sweet humid muzieklokaal?
pros and cons? the comment section is urs my guy, if u wanna try ur hand (bet u’re still winking)
nevermind, that is dilemma for a later time
and time is now to look closer at the menu, cause one’s getting famished by this mouth-watering tease (and even getting down down down)
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[that might take a while, we have a lot to cover this time
so bear with me and be patient my guy
préparez votre temps, pour vous j’ai tout le mien
this fire burning inside of me, i just don’t want to extinguish it yet
oh wait, let me correct one thing
that will take a while, we will cut this in parts this time
cause i don’t wanna loose u, please don't go]
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i hope that u’re still here my guy, cause i won’t be until the very last minute
ha another nuit de folie (beware that one is pure french kitchery, the type i grew up to - couldn’t help it, i mean imagine me writing this crazy long ass text stuck back in the motherland at this time of the year, only getting back to my roots i guess)
as i was saying, surely another night living on the edge as i will land back on wednesday eleven o’clock (actually won’t make it in da club so early - sad and sorry about it but it is what it is)
oh well, still gotta have to act fast cause one doesn’t wanna miss her ultimate dj crush smashing the basement for one last time (someone told me he’s playing first)
i won’t even say his name, no need to (i’m really coming, no joke)
i mean what more can i say about him that i haven’t said before (check this, this, maybe this, this too, and that)
oh wait, i actually have (a lot) more to tell according to my draft notes (could i even be the lord's favorite?)
i got pretty inspired last time i went to garage, (that’s what happens when u have hell of a blast in a nightclub)
not gonna hold back further, so here it is (keep on going!)
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when parrish smith plays, people dance (not talking about a shy hip bounce, far from it - if u know u know)
when parrish smith plays, i’m dancing like i’ve never danced before (surely a maniac on the floor, haven’t u figured me out still?)
he has his specific way of building a set to keep u moving (leaving?) and stick to the floor (u ain’t be nomads in the club), if u will to take the bet (don’t be weak my guys)
like a kiss in the storm on ur lips, with a gun on ur neck
pleaser, only when he chooses to be, he kills the day a beat in harmony and brings u to places u’ve never been before
he’s gonna show u where it’s dark, but have no fear
smooth operator, he overlaps layers like a maestro and plays with ur mind until u can’t get enough
he’s gonna take u back where u belong, among the freaks like me, among the freaks like u
he knows his way with music the same way i do with words (always on point?)
with razor blade precision and surgical steel, he makes sharp incisions to bleed ur thoughts
u might think u’ve gone crazy, u might think u’ve gone mad
but if u don’t know yet what u are, he will show u the way
always taking u on a ride where he challenges u to back down or go with him
i went once, never turned back, never will
wanna party?
come on baby, take a chance with us
only if the doorman will let u in the door
only if u’re ready to fuck it all
let the darkness lead u to light
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[please note, the songs listed in the above story within a story might sound familiar to ur experienced ears (some people on the sub are so critical about the sound quality, i’m genuinely impressed - in a good way!)
as they ALL provide from the dark lord himself (told u i got inspired)
can u tell which ones are classic moves? (dear prince, please forgive me for ripping off ur playlist - hope it’s alright with u! maybe a little push to renew it? no, i wouldn’t dare)
ha don’t worry if u have no idea, he surely will play some of them (who knows? he is as unpredictable as i could be)]
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so there it was (i came)
the reason why i’m still not over it after all these times (babe, u even made it twice in the weekly!)
i mean when it’s good, it’s good (one’s learned to prioritise her own pleasure after all, and u can’t blame her for it)
ha but if u think we are done now, well think again (told u, not a flirt)
the night is not over yet, and one needs comfort after such an effort (it’s not easy to lose control)
that’s exactly what i’m gonna get by spending the rest of the night in muzieklokaal to the sound of kléo, palms trax and prosumer
until the itch to go crazy pulls me back to the basement to catch bits of JASSS
been seeing that typo on a certain klubnacht lineups for way too many times, gotta oblige to check her out, and i strongly advise u to do the same my guy
and remember to never stop dancing, until the very last second (no need to remind u, het einde is near)
then, well this is the end, beautiful friend
only a goodbye, as we will be reunited in the next few hours (to my far-away bbs, u are dearly missed, i’m thinking about u everyday)
it’s time for a well-deserved day sleep (if only the energy flash finally dries down), smile on my face and bliss in my head
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hope u made it so far, cause god, that was a biggy to write (it’s not the size that matters)
don’t even start to complain about the reading time, or i will bite (do u like that? boy u nasty)
so here it is my guys, the part ONE is nearly over (it’s never over! i told u my guy, do u remember that moment? on ur way back to the basement, right before we took the very back stairs, no? oh well, still in vain i guess...)
oh and another one for u while i have ur attention (do i?): don’t refrain ur inner desires (said it before), they might end up showing on a picture (yes i’m talking about us my guy, can’t u see it? this attraction showing off, it’s no cinema! why don’t u wanna see it?)
still sleeping on my own, in case u wonder
still looking for someone to love (and god knows i have a lot of love to give away)
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u better rest well cause we ain’t be done for the week!
to be continued at next episode… (sooner than later, wait for it)
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and as always, if u see a red dragon giving it all on the dancefloor, come and say hi, i’ll try not to set u on fire
can’t guarantee though, my enthusiasm is often contagious 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿
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p.s. (no pun intented, ha ha) a merry christmas to u my guys, if u celebrate! (if not, well i hope u had a good one last night - urs truly had hell of a fomo, sniff)

Idk why I keep watching the show again & again(4th time). It's so relatable (leaving the exaggeration on one side).

I have binge watched a lot of shows, like literally I have been watching movies & series since last 16 years however no show/movie has had an impact on me like this one & 13 reasons why.

Although I would say, I didn't watch 13rw more than 1 time but this show, idk, I keep expecting fioana to return & be appreciated for raising the kids.

Also Mandy should have returned atleast on the marriage. Whenever I watch the show again, I train my brain to forget what's coming. It was so catching.

My life hasn't been tough like the south side but surely strict & filled with wars. I have someone like Fiona who had to raise almost 10 kids even though she wasn't their mother & she was never appreciated.

I had other one who was genuis like LIP & interested in computers but some things ruined his life. (Almost felt suici--- but is alright)

I had other one who was like ian, bipolar, running away from family & fell into the trap of nihilism. He also felt suic----....

I had one like carl who is quite young & mischievous. He is quite active & always breaks stuff & hurts himself badly while doing experiment.

We have another one like debei who is younger than me & she always asks about her height, pimples & how to get her skin right. Lol soo debieee although she is genius when it comes to studies.

Anddd mannn, how can I forget the grand man of our big house, Frank Galaghar.... Everyone hates him even his own wife in our family. Why? Well bcz he didn't pay attention when distributing assets. He was like, x & y figure out urself who owns this. Although he isn't as bad as Frank in the show, he does run away from responsibilities he took & backed off at critical moments. Although I love Frank of my family bcz I understand he doesn't want to create any problem + his wife isn't any angel ever & so am I also not. We all have flaws.

Wait, don't we have war with Milkenwich family, hell yeah 😂We don't like each other & this rivalry is before I was born.

Kevin & v are the most OG of our family, they always help no matter what. Man if ian or lips sucks something up like broken leg, missing fingers, Kevin & v is the safehouse 👀 most genuine & most loving.

Franks wife is too good in our family. Frank is also good. But Franks wife outshines everyone. Sometimes she makes human mistakes.

Idk who am I in the family. During my childhood I was like Mickey milkovich although now i'm hella calm, composed & not extrovert. + Also not from milkovich

Well yeah we had one incident with Liam in our family where he broke his head although now it has been years like the drug overdose... (Idk if it was Liam in the series)..

Wait how can I forget, steve, oh sorry, Jimmy, that sucker I'm not allowed to slandebe angry since Fiona of our family doesn't like. Although I would never forgive him for his actions...

Ah yeahhh, Tony the cop, we also have this in our family who is in trouble bcz of the drama in our home.... Ig he is too good although sometimes goes to other extreme but he is good. Strangely he is related to Fiona...
Mann never knew my family was so similar, maybe bcz we had variety of cousins & so many sticking together like a family...
[Thanks for reading]

i’m a first time watcher currently on season 6 episode 10 and katherine just stabbed herself and pointed the finger at mike. i can’t even get started on how crazy and deluded she is. Like ok stab urself have at it but to blame him after all he’s already been through with susan and mj. and her picking mj up from that birthday party she is insane. I just have never liked her character.
EDIT— i take it back she’s gay now i love her she’s so real

TW // self harm, blood, sex, genital health, pica, skin picking disorder, other skin disorders
hi, i must rant about my specific situation because its starting to get out of control!!
ive got pica!!!!!!! which means i eat stuff ur not supposed to eat!! for me its mostly from my own body. i also pick skin nervously.
whats really COOL and AWESOME is that i also have plaque psoriasis! which means my immune system fucking hates my skin and so even when theres healthy skin cells on some areas it gives them the boot and produces more; this results in buildups of dead skin called plaques. ive been dealing with it since middle school and luckily we live in an age where many legit treatments for it exist. so for most of hs and college i barely had any on me. for stupid insurance reasons i couldnt afford the copay to see my dermatologist anymore in order to recieve my medication so i was off it for awhile. even when insurance kicked back in the adhd got the best of me and i forgot to set up an appointment for months and months.
sure enough it came back and i think its the worst its ever been in my whole life. plaques all over my arms, legs, back, head, hands, feet, etc. it looks bad and it hurts and itches too!!! luckily my girlfriend is incredibly understanding and so doesnt get weirded out when theres skin flakes everywhere.
remember how i said i have pica? the little pica monster has been having a FIELD DAY with this psoriasis stuff. every single fucking day i essentially rip a lot of my plaques off compulsively. problem is the poor skin underneat the dead stuff hasnt had time to mature and grow up!!! so its really thin and hurts even more. it also bleeds easily. so i get blood on EVERYTHING. my gf has gotten a little pissed/concerned because i got blood on the couch and bedsheets and pillow and probably some of her clothes. IM a more than a little pissed because theres countless cute clothing items ive gotten blood all over. i have to always been mindful where im resting my arms so i dont get blood on stuff. its definitely a risk for infection and it hurts real bad and i have to use multiple bandaids every day. havent been able to wear a lot of white/light clothes bc i dont want to get blood stains on them. (VERY GROSS WARNING): its even on my fucking dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so sometimes i cant even have sex because it bleeds or hurts too bad!!!!! my gf even got skin flakes in her mouth one time and we had to stop holy shit that was so embarassing!!!!!!!!
anyway. im at my wits end with this bullshit. i am getting my medicine again starting this upcoming wednesday but it usually takes a good while to work. also the whole thing about psoriasis is that plaques mainly appear where u injure urself and the skin needs to regenerate. so even if my meds are working, itll be even tougher for them to get rid of the plaques i currently have because i keep re-injuring them. i even have some scars from when a similar situation occurred in my childhood.
how the FUCK do i stop? how do i get myself to stop eating my own skin!!!!????? its genuinely doing a lot of harm on my mental/physical health. i think i already mentioned too that theres instances of people biting their fingers and then getting sepsis!!!!!!! thats really bad not good at all!!!! no matter how many times my gf catches me picking and scolds me, i still do it constantly sometimes without even noticing. it also itches so if i try to not pick it i will try to scratch it and then it will escalate to picking.
i have topical medicine for the individual plaques but i have a lot of them and it also stains fabric so i have a hard time finding time to do it.
TL;DR: i have psoriasis and pick my skin and it hurts and i bleed. how do i stop this!?!?!?!?!?
any advice or response is appreciated. u can just say hi for all i care lol. thanks for reading love yall!

For some background context, I've never got along well with most of my family. I'm 14 and autistic (Asperger's Syndrome) btw for more context. My dad has the habit of generally telling me it's a joke as if that makes it better when saying something offensive or rude, getting defensive rather than admitting fault, touching without permission (such as hugging, grabbing, etc, but nothing sexual), and other things of the sort. I know he grew up around his dad, but don't know much other than that it was during the 80s/90s that he was born. He never mentioned anything about supporting corporal punishment before this either.
But, today when we were getting ready to eat some pie, my younger brother went into my parent's room to see my mom, who was doing makeup (normal 10 y/o behavior, especially if the kid has severe ADHD and is a mama's boy). I remember he said something about needing to lock him in a dog kennel to keep him out of there and about how we aren't allowed to 'punish our kids anymore'. My grandma was there and I asked her about it, and learned he was talking about corporal punishment/hitting your kids, and I'm honestly scared now.
I've had a lot of incidents in the past of stuff that generally causes me to be on edge after hearing this from him and my mom also generally has similar beliefs to him. I've had incidents where he punched a hole in my door in the past, generally has just always seemed to get annoyed or deny other's feelings really quickly too. I also have had incidents of them emptying out my room and throwing everything away because I took a piece of candy when I was ten y/o. Growing up I had a lot of issues with anxiety because of being autistic and also being bullied a bit, so I had the habit of biting my finger nails. My mom also has anxiety issues, but they ended up dipping my fingers in hot sauce and holding them there (I was seven). I also had the incident when my mom and brother got surgery at some point and my grandma came over to help out, but I was basically neglected the whole week and just left to play roblox on the computer (I was 10 at that point). To this day, my parents won't admit it was neglect. I've also had history of them stealing my money and things then outright denying it, and also generally shaming me for my interests and beliefs consistently. It makes no sense for them to go through my room bcs I've never vaped, smoked, used drugs, drank alcohol, etc and they know this because I've also showed outright distaste/disinterest in it overall. My mom has also had a history of saying stuff like 'r u sure u wanna eat that? It has a lot of calories.', 'eat more, or r u starving urself?', etc.
I don't know if this is normal, and I don't know what to do. I don't feel safe, but I don't think I can call CPS on this and I'm not sure if it's a good idea (adoption and foster system sucks where I am). I also don't think it's safe to go to my mom bcs she has similar to same beliefs as my dad. So far I'm thinking of finding a way to make or buy hidden storage and hide and make money. I'm also thinking of getting one of those skinny flashlights and some kind of thing for self defense, but I'm not sure what else to do. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

The owner of Vinpearl apartment was assualted when requesting the title deed and house return.
This is a year-old issue involving Vingroup, and it is not directly related to VinFast. However, when viewed from a different perspective, it sheds light on a fundamental aspect of how the Vin Group conducts its business. Due to censorship in Vietnam, obtaining comprehensive information about this case can be challenging. Therefore, here is a summary of the situation.
" On November 15, 2022, in Hanoi, a group of upscale condominium owners at Vinpearl, a subsidiary of Vingroup Corporation, gathered in front of the company's headquarters to demand their rights but faced physical assaults. As they assembled near the Vincom Plaza Long Bien building, which houses Vingroup's headquarters, security personnel dressed in military-style attire and individuals with tattoos, also known as Vietnamese gangsters, were deployed to the area, and protective barriers were erected.
While the group sought resolution for disputes with the company, some young individuals blocked their path. During the incident, a foreign national who owned a Vinpearl Nha Trang apartment had his T-shirt forcibly taken away by security guards, resulting in an assault that left one individual bleeding from the nose. As you can see in the video (at minute 1:44), regardless of one's race or ethnicity, if you engage in business dealings with Mr. Monkey and make the mistake of doing so in Vietnam, this may be the outcome.
Eventually, they were granted a meeting with Vinpearl's Customer Care Director, Ho Thi Thanh Thuy, but tensions persisted as security staff confiscated a red T-shirt bearing the message "Yêu cầu VIN trả sổ hồng cho cư dân," which translates to "Requesting VIN to return the red books (Property Ownership and Deed Recording) to the residents. "
Note: @ VinSlave, can you help me understand what kind of company in the world practices this kind of business? Is it the norm to resort to physical violence to silence customers who voice their complaints and assert their rights?
Back to the main reason for this situation,
" Vinpearl has a luxury apartment project in Da Nang named Vinpearl Riverfront Condotel Da Nang (VRC) and two other projects in Nha Trang called Vinpearl Empire Condotel (VEC) on Le Thanh Ton street and Vinpearl Beachfront Condotel (VBC) on Tran Phu, Phu Loc. The Vinpearl Empire Condotel project has 1,200 apartments on a land plot categorized as “Urban residential land (not forming a residential unit)” according to documents issued by the Khanh Hoa Department of Natural Resources and Environment on June 9, 2022.
In 2016, " The customer" purchased an apartment in the mixed-use VEC building for 2.3 billion VND, while the market price at that time was only one billion VND. This condominium offered a variety of apartments with different sizes but was sold by Vinpearl at a uniform price of 65 million VND per square meter. Another investor at VEC, stated that in the apartment sales contract with Vinpearl, the apartment was listed with permanent ownership rights. However, the red book (certificate of land use rights and ownership of houses and other assets attached to land) that many other investors received stated that the property was a tourism/condotel apartment (which could be occupied but did not form a residential unit), a category that lacks a clear legal framework.
These investor has not yet received the land use right certificate and the red book for her apartment at VEC, while Vinpearl blames the delay on the authorities of Khanh Hoa province.
"According to the Vietnam Real Estate Business Law, the developer is only allowed to collect 95% of the property's value if the red book has not been provided to the customer. But Vinpearl has collected the full amount from me six years ago without giving me the red book, which is against the law," One of the investor said.
These investors expressed another concern that investors are dissatisfied with Vinpearl: the sales contract stipulates that Vinpearl collects 2% of the apartment value to form a maintenance fund and to establish a management board for the building to manage this fund for maintenance purposes. However, to this date, Vinpearl has not established the management board, nor reported on how this fund is being utilized."
Do you guys see that this is very similar to how VinFast is conducting its business right now? They engage in CKD (Complete Knock Down) and design from China but claim to do R&D and manufacturing in Vietnam. While they have leased only around 300 cars in the US, they promote their products heavily in the market, with claims of selling over 2000 cars here. When people complain about the quality of the cars, censorship is immediately enforced. Moreover, there is growing skepticism about the credentials of Vinfast's CEO. If you connect all the dots, can you see a pattern where Mr. Monkey's business practices are reminiscent of a Russian mafia-style approach? If so, it's not surprising, considering his past education in Ukraine before the fall of the Soviet Union. This might explain how he built his empire in Vietnam.
Apartment Rental Management shady program
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"In 2018, after receiving an apartment from Vinpearl, some investors, immediately leased it back to the company under the "Apartment Rental Management Program" for a period of 50 years. The agreement promised a return of 10% of the apartment's value each year for the first five years. From the sixth year onwards, the apartment owners would earn 85% of the profits from tourism-related business, with the remaining 15% as management fees.
During the initial five years (2016-2021), Vinpearl fulfilled this promise. However, in 2022, the company failed to pay the rental fees to the apartment owners for the first six months, citing a loss due to the lack of tenants.
Nevertheless, Vinpearl was not transparent in providing the business data for the rented apartments in the sixth year to the owners.
Some investors, informed by a resident living near the building, noted that there was a significant number of guests renting rooms in this project after the lifting of COVID-19 social distancing measures. "
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Once again, we can see a situation similar to how Vin 'Fart' handles its car business. If you're Vietnamese and recall the events from a few years ago, a YouTuber made a truthful review about the quality of Vinfast cars. In response, Mr. Monkey sent police to his home, and this unfortunate reviewer later faced a lawsuit. True reviews about Vin Cars were censored in Vietnam. If you search for Vin cars or any Vin products in Vietnam, you'll only find positive information. This is a prime example of how brainwashing and propaganda can diminish critical thinking. Outside Vietnam, Vin might use financial tricks, like offering money or free press cars, to make people lie about their products.
Recently, Vin has been cleverly creating numerous Vinfast communities on social media, with most moderators being Vin employees. Initially, they permit some freedom of expression about their substandard cars. However, once these groups gain popularity, they inundate them with bots, spammers, and censors (a situation we've experienced ourselves with the old subreddit before Albert created a new one). This is not a coincidence, but a deliberate strategy. Their goal is to initially make these groups appear neutral and popular, and then later take control. As these groups have grown popular, many original members have already left. Yet, the group's popularity continues to attract new members who believe in the misleading information, which, at this point, is already controlled by Mr. Monkey.
This is no coincidence; it's a calculated strategy. Like with the 'rental management program', they paid all the fees for 4-5 years to encourage positive word-of-mouth, thereby attracting more investors. They also collaborated with local banks to simplify loan processes for new investors in Vin homes. And this isn't just Vin's strategy; Mr. Monkey learned it from the 'Central Propaganda Department ( Ban Tuyên giáo Trung ương ).' If you've spent time in these types of classes, you'll recognize this strategy immediately. If you pay more attention, you'll see many cases in Vietnam follow this pattern: everything seems easy at first, but when the time comes, you're done for.
How does Vin deal with the investors regarding their property ?
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"Realizing that leasing back to Vinpearl was no longer effective, hundreds of investors in three projects wanted to reclaim their apartments to either manage themselves or lease to another company. However, Vinpearl disagreed and refused to negotiate. They also declined to terminate the contracts, even though the owners were willing to pay the penalty fee (8%) as stipulated in the contract. The condition set by Vinpearl was that at least 90% of the owners had to agree to cancel the contract. Many investors suspect that this subsidiary of Vingroup is reluctant to return the tourist apartments to their owners because they intend to buy them back at a lower price. They mentioned that numerous sales staff from the company had approached them, offering to buy their apartment for just 1-1.5 billion VND."
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Initially, Vin sold these homes for 2.3 billion VND, approximately $90,000 USD. After four years of a conniving business strategy to trap as many people as possible, they now aim to complicate matters for these owners to buy back the houses at a price of 1-1.5 billion VND, equivalent to $45,000 - $60,000 USD. I believe that some of these people, who actually have the financial means and have paid off their houses, will accept this deal and agree to lose almost half of their investment just to escape from Vin's clutches. However, those who are left are mostly individuals who have spent their life savings or borrowed money from banks to invest in Vin, based on the false promises spread by Mr. Monkey at the outset. These people will stay and attempt to fight a battle they can never win. Why? Because Mr. Monkey controls the media, the law, and even the police. What do the investors have? They are burdened with significant bank debts requiring annual interest payments, financial losses from continuing legal cases against Vin, and the reality that no lawyer in Vietnam wants to get involved in this mess. They know that whatever they do, they will lose in court, and in some cases, if Mr. Monkey particularly dislikes them, they might even lose their practice license.
Based on this incident, you can see how the Vin Group conducts business. This approach is similar to Vinfart's business strategy. I believe their main objective isn't just selling cars, as their marketing primarily targets the Vietnamese community. I think they aim to apply the same tactics as mentioned above to Vietnamese living abroad (I'm aware that some people have already lost all of their 401k because of VFS, but they're seeking retirement planning help instead of starting a legal battle with Mr. Monkey. I believe most of the high-ranking officers at Vingroup are aware of this too). Many Vietnamese people are reluctant to get involved in legal cases due to the fear of losing money and concerns about language barriers. Mr. Monkey is aware of this and thus continues to spread misinformation to inflate his stock for financial gain or possibly to cover up other undisclosed activities.
At the end, it's beneficial to have this group and all of you. Gradually, we can post what we know here. I believe each of us is different and possesses unique knowledge that others may not have. Bit by bit, we can combine our knowledge to expose the lies and misinformation that Mr. Monkey is trying to " FART" around the world ( Especially a big thanks to Albert; I know you spent quite some time digging up all the information and completing the analysis) . AND for VIN " SLAVE' GO FAP URSELF ( middle finger )
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my little love (p.s, i hate you)
The tarot cards say we're soulmates, come back soon.
I'm forcing myself to hate you. I'm scared it'll work too soon My room has bits of you attached My body has bits of you attached I can't wash my hair without thinking of how your fingers used to run through it You'd look me in my eyes and say I'm your beautiful girl When I lather cream on my skin I can't help but think of your gaze You've seen every bit of me and no I have none of you
I wonder if you're truly happy You seem so But I always said I knew you better than urself You go out of ur way to shove the girl next to me in the hallways so I feel the bump You look away as soon as we mistakenly make eye contact Are you scared of me Or are you scared of us
I don't know how to feel about you At school, I look out for you between moving to classes On the road, I look out for ur mums Range Rover with both hope and fear I get excited when I see someone that looks like u But after a second my hands start shaking I feel this disgusting lump form in my throat Like id jus swallowed a ball That reminds me, I wonder how ur rugby's going and how ur ankle is now Or was that just one of ur lies too
I feel fine sometimes, most times But whenever I'm alone you’re the one in my head I dream about you quite frequently I hate those nights When I wake up you're the first thought in my head I think about us I think about that cold night we walked around the city We were eating mochi Strawberry, because I wanted it Thats the thing though, I realise it was always I, me, im But I did try my best to fix it I killed myself trying for you
I don't know who I am now But I know I didn't deserve that’s You didn't treat me like a human towards the end I was just a thing Maybe thats why I screamed crying on the way back home that night I'll never forget how you played with my hair while I cried on ur lap
Im sorry I got mascara on ur favourite jeans
Ive moved on now Not entirely but still Im afraid III never quite move on completely

Hi everyone,
A warm welcome to our sub 🙂
I have seen many posts requesting for beginners' recs and how to start with makeup. Considering we dont have a wiki yet ( pls mods we would love to have one) and also the fact that I keep repeating my answers like a broken record 😅, thought I would compile a post of guides/tutorials/recs/discussion posts that might help fellow makeup lovers in the initial phase after joining our sub

How/where to begin? What to purchase?

As a beginner, you need not spend a lot at once esp. initially, since you will come to learn/understand ur own preferences over time and preferences can change over time. So start gradually and build up ur own curated collection at ur own pace.You can start with skin tint or just a concealer or even just kajal/colour eye pencil , lipstick/lip n cheek tint and so on... As you use products, you understand ur own opinions and preferences better and u go from there.
Remember makeup is subjective so create ur wishlist but watch/read a load of reviews/povs before u buy something, even if u see a negative review try to analyse why they didn't like the product or what exactly makes them fall in love with it - form ur own povs of what u likes and dislikes , and compare against those reviews/povs to get an idea if the product might work for you or not...take a note of their skintone/depththe weather, makeup style, etc. to help you u analyse better.
Even tho it's subjective, it doesn't hurt to learn the basics of makeup. It's a form of art, has its theories & rules but is also a personal expression so u can always tweak it as u want. If you know the rules of the game, sometimes it's easier to tweak it to ur preference 😉
I will leave u some recs and compilation post to start u off but you will find really good to awesome discussions going on in the sub, so feel free to join in those if u want , even if as a silent observer, esp. if it's on a topic u like 😉 Also I am requesting fellow sub redditors to add in any posts or links they want to include from their end to help newcomers 🙂
Anyways, here goes the list -
Concealecorrector discussion & recs -
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/B3wLhEz107
Bronzer vs contour discussion & recs - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/comments/yn36k8/bronzer_contour_some_video_recs_and_product/
Discussing Makeup Brush
My post on brush purchases - https://reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/dENwqIz06S
Query on Makeup brush essentials discussion started by u/CrazyPlantLady___ https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/WqGX6yO3jQ
Brush cleansing routine discussion started by u/background_shelter77 - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/vdbzOAiE1e
For Sigma brushes specifically knowing the difference between them, pls checkout Every Sigma Brush - Glitzy Fritzy video
My usual eyeshadow technique:
https://reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/7Hjgr8nMxf
Pressed glitters & Eye Safety Discussion threads
My earlier post - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/Z1Kb0Rebm8
Discussion thread discussion started by u/pinkmoonbow - https://reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/87uFhPv4Zn - It contains link to my old post as well as our discussion around the topic
Do you really need an eye primer?
https://youtu.be/k1h0K-Dikxg - an awesome video by Alexandra Anele
EyePrep Master Class by Wayne Goss https://youtu.be/xa3XmRtSevw
Tania B Wells shares her thoughts on the non eyesafe pigments in abh noveau palette - https://youtu.be/9CBKox-ZK70

ETA Nov 2023

Thanks to u/pinkmoonbow providing me the link for the Eu regulation update related post linked below -
EU bans sale of products containing microplastics, including loose glitter and other cosmetics - https://www.reddit.com/muacjdiscussion/s/OzItSxRWYF
Full article as given in the above post - https://ec.europa.eu/commission/presscornedetail/en/ip_23_4581
What i usually do to set my eyepencil in place esp. if they are not budge proof in themselves - https://reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/gkdK1IqqjL
How I apply powder - https://reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/iJVsx0Hmgr
Eyelook inspiration
There are amazing fellow redditors like u/unevenhanded , u/mekuri_ , u/maniac-pixie, u/gangsta_santa, u/wanna_beeee, u/makeupembracer and many other talented makeup lovers who post amazing looks including the breakdowns. You can check those post for details or even ask them.. generally ppl are quite helpful to each other.
Some eyeshadow tag ideas by ig user curatedbykirstie that was a big help for personal practising when I was starting off with makeup:-
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/eU5FnXnj6m
Any product list compilation?
u/pinkmoonbow has a 2 part post u might like to check out :-
Part 1 - Face/Base Makeup -
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/Xl97abg9W8
Part 2 - Eyemakeup https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/VDnmMIXneo

Whom to watch - Channel Recs

You can start with mua channels like Robert Welsh , Wayne Goss, Alexander Anelle, themakeuchair , Lisa Elridge, Lisa J, Marlena Stell, etc to learn tips and tricks - you can also chkout mues like Angelica Nyqvist, Morgan Turner, Jessica Braun, Emily Noel, Kelly Gooch, denitslava, Sarah Rose, Andrea Matiallano, all beauty Sarah, Vianney Strick , sammaaage , Patty Alonso, Tara Lynn, Rashi Ramalho, Jena Froese, Samantha March, Lauren May abeauty, By Kristina Studio, Jen Phelps, Jen Luvs Alicia archer, Samantha JaneYT, Theresa is dead , Ana Reczynski, Allie Glines, Soph, coffebreakwithdani, Maryam maquillage , zaahirah munaif, itskrystle, ivory cherry , juicy jas, Jamie page, totalmakeupjunkie101, themexuca beauty, slashed Beauty, allurabeauty, etc ... You dont need to watch or follow them all.... Check who fits ur makeup preferences best, also seeing various ppl can broaden our horizon about how differently they can use same products, product info etc. And u can always tweak things to suit you btr coz makeup is subjective ( yeah, you will hear me say/write that a lot 😅)
I have normal-dry skin and my mac shade depth is SFF is NC35 but nc30 also works well on me tho it's tad deeper than nc35 but less peachy ...I have worn both side by side, depth wise not very different but nc35 look slightly lighter due to the undertone ( tbh mac foundations don't always work for me as I have more yellow with a hint of olive tone , not peachy ), so any of these above names have similar skintone as mine from nc30-40 range whom i use to refer my shades esp. Vianney strick, Saammage, etc while others I just enjoy watching ...i actually watch a lot of content but not always possible to see each and every video from everyone, so feel free to form ur own lists of ppl to watch

Best time to purchase products - Where? When? Which website

Myntra has great discounts most often and so do other retailers... Even i am seeing btr deals on nykaa outside pink sales, so u can pick and choose and build ur collection gradually.
Here is a link to my makeup deals tracking list which I generally try to keep updated-
https://www.reddit.com/IndianBeautyDeals/s/tW5SGwZXzo
( edit - pls also keep a look out on indianbeautydeals sub fr discount/deals announcement)
Original deals post - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/s3sGQFigSG
Nykaa Pink sale discussions/observations -
https://www.reddit.com/IndianBeautyDeals/s/fVZODE90lY
My observation on pink sale - https://www.reddit.com/IndianBeautyDeals/s/dT3zg04Kag
Discussions on nykaa pink sale & how to avoid spending too much
https://www.reddit.com/IndianBeautyDeals/s/3kgkvFYt5E
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/bU54tYuiUK
Mgs vs non mgs ( wrt to maccaron)
https://reddit.com/IndianSkincareAddicts/s/ZfoSkITDNI

But why is my makeup not looking as good as they have on pics ? Some makeup motivation:-

u/Acceptable-Drink-495 once posted, makeup will look like makeup and not your real skin. And it's okay. .... Agreed, coz lets be honest, its not always gonna be flawless as shown in pics. Ofc some products can be btr than others, some will work btr on someone than it does on someone else and also someone can be better at it than others and thats fine too but a lot of factors like skin type/concerns , weather etc also affect how a look turns out; but still makeup will look like makeup in most cases - somedays makeup can turn out beautiful and somedays not so good but still doable.
Imho makeup is a thing of joy like a creative outlet and i hope everyone can enjoy it to the fullest , ofc it will take time in the beginning to get the basics right but soon u will ace it too ♥️ few things i will suggest
1) dont compare ur makeup with anyone else - I mean its natural to appreciate a good look or be inspired by someone's looks but makeup is subjective not just because of the products but also based on us as users. You can try out diff ideas with ur own spin to it; its no good to compare with someone else if it leaves u feeling bittesad about urself.
2) be open to learning new things , you dont need to follow everything everyone says but if something strikes as amazing idea or info, try to jot it down and see how it works for u and if u can incorporate it with ur routine.
3) practice with what u have got as much as u can
4) have a vision or inspiration for a look and try to execute it - it may not look like what u want initially, it's fine, it's make-up - you can always wash it off and try again
5) Click pics of all ur looks and u will be able to see how gradually you are getting better with time. And sometimes even after u ace it , you can have bad makeup days .... Totally blame the product and weather that day 😉🙃

Ending Notes

Hope these help a little 😊 You can also post in ur queries in weekly threads or if it's a post for everyone's benefit, feel free to post as well... For post guidelines and details, pls check the community info section in the sub (https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/j4nIxg8D9O) or feel free to use the mod mail
Other subs that might interest you :-
asianbeauty sub if u are into kbeauty/kbeauty skincare or makeup ( they take Tuesdays off so sub not available on that day)
indianmua, makeupaddiction,
olivemua - esp. helpful if you have olive undertones
indianskincareaddicts for skincare related post
indianbeautydeals for deals, discount etc on beauty products
swatchitforme incase u want specific swatch requests
indianbeautyhauls if u want to see haul posts
Wish u all the best in ur makeup journey😊
Ps - if you are wondering who on earth am I 🙃🙃....I am just another makeup enthusiast like you...I am also learning, so pls take everything with a grain of salt 😉
Wow that was a lot of writing/typing ...its been ages since I actually sat down to write a post ( I have been thinking of creating this one for some time now and happy it's finally done and dusted 😌) ... I will add in ETA / EDIT section if I think of something else ...that's the other thing about me, I edit to add in tidbits multiple times ( yeah I have a lot of thoughts and after thoughts😅 and sometimes also to correct my typos and formatting 🙈🤐), so hopefully you'll excuse me for those 🙈🙃 (I will add in some additional info in comments section if space doesn't allow me to edit) Adding my motto - keep growing, keep glowing ✨✨✨ ✨😁
(ETA - for more tutorials and guide, click on the flair of this post to see a list of posts under this flair)

ETA 2 -

Multichromes, duochromes & Glitters available in India
Discussion thread by u/crankynconspicuous - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/pCoCnppsvR
Product list compilation post by u/rumi2019 - https://reddit.com/IndianMUA/s/xnzrodh9Y4

ETA 3 -

Olive Undertones in Indian skintone by u/unevenhanded
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/J8qSgrzXtA
Undertones for Asians: How to tell if your skintone is Cool, Warm, Neutral, or Olive
https://musicalhouses.blogspot.com/2010/01/undertones-for-asians-how-to-tell-if.html
Found this on an old discussion on asianbeauty sub

ETA 4 -

Lisa Elridge - One lipstick many ways to wear it
https://youtu.be/7OCes9Eubxs
(Must watch for ppl who are scared of bolder shades as well😉)
Mac Foundation Shade Comparison videos
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/GDuQD93LOK

Eta5

Adding link to u/ladidadidadoll post
Shade Guide of Indian foundation shades - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMUA/s/airzWLMEOC
Excellent post by u/unevernhanded on youtubers ( mostly Indian) by Mac shade ref - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/oQ37tmh7vW

ETA6

Jbeauty expiry date guide- https://www.ratzillacosme.com/guides/jbeauty-expiration-dates-guide/

ETA7

Easy liner technique - https://youtube.com/shorts/EUUxe3dhK_U
(Also yes I agree liquid liner isn't easy to start with)

ETA8 Korean Lip Tints

Personally I have slightly pigmented two toned lips ( I am nc35 in Mac sff) but I love the jlt fig fig that I own and am looking to get one more pink shade once they restock on kult or elsewhere at any good sale.
But at the same time, a lot of ppl had issues with these lip tints and I can totally get that it may not be someone's cup of tea and that's absolutely understandable - ppl can have diff experience with diff products.... just because I love something doesn't mean it is awesome and just coz I don't like something doesn't mean it's bad ...it may be driven by our specific preferences rather than the product formulation itself, tho sometimes a product formulation can be shitty as well.
Anyways, in case anyone is having trouble using romand or Korean lip tint purchase below posts might be helpful -

• How to wear your K-Beauty lip tints if you have very pigmented lips by u/psychellnotcycle - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/bBSVFsBtBZ
  
• This video recommended by u/unevenhanded is also very helpful to ppl struggling with romand or Korean liptints - https://youtu.be/wiIH-m4amrw ....it's part of a comment in above post so u can check the comments section as well
  
• Romand overall formulation mini reviews by u/Venusscorp - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/GpnZAYHkX9
  
• Different Romand lip formulations review and Swatches by u/potatopai95 - https://www.reddit.com/indianbeautyhauls/s/13MDHXCqAS
  

Also if anyone wants to read a mini review of my pov with lip tints, pls chk links below -
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/Qcadq7ppYD
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/L4W007CtKk
https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/Izf4dRnEaK
Some ways to avoid dry lips with Etude house fixing tints - https://www.reddit.com/IndianMakeupAddicts/s/ECBbDVaD6u

ETA9 Does wearing more makeup suit you better or less

Sometime back u/unevenhanded had recommended Style me Jenn channel on YouTube and there were some interesting videos on categories of ppl who might look btr with more makeup or other categories who look btr with less...linking the video in case u wish to chk out
https://youtu.be/il_GkWng6Dc
https://youtu.be/zk4N5Q7YKO4
Ofc this is not fully true for everyone, rather just a generic overview but it might be interesting one to chk out to get a different kind of insight...the creator also has a number of other videos that I found interesting

ETA10 Makeup Splurge or not?

Makeup is very personal thing, so pls don't get carried away by discount, pls research your purchases... discount will come again but if u get something that doesn't suit u or ur makeup preferences, even on 90% discount that's still 10% of money wasted that you could have invested in something else. Pls check multiple reviews, what is good for one person may not suit another one and vice versa, so even though makeup is subjective, watch reviews analytically so that u understand if you would like or dislike a product at all.
Let me link some videos that help u a little to understand, and in turn analyse if the makeup product in question is worth spending on or not...these will give u a base guideline that you can use while evaluating ur purchase as well and u can build on the base to create ur own guidelines as well
Sharing you a good starting video from Marlena Stell -
The true cost of makeup - https://youtu.be/fQOODhI_iig
Luxury makeup worth the price or not - https://youtu.be/zm7mgHBPpQU ( don't just limit urself to the products touched upon by her but rather concentrate on the thought process and analysis and see if u can apply similar analysis and breakdown of an item u want to buy from luxury or high end category)
In case you want to splurge on luxury or high end lip product and it suits ur budget, pls check below video from Lisa Elridge on why she suggests to go for deeper shade incase you are pressed to choose one and how to make most of it, so that u are still using your purchase and getting good value from it.
One lipstick many ways to wear it - https://youtu.be/7OCes9Eubxs
And always remember makeup is subjective, irrespective of trends and discounts, your own preferences should always be prioritised

Note -

While makeup is like a form of art, a creative outlet and something beautiful, it can get quite expensive, esp. if you consider the cumulative cost of your purchases and it's our hard earned money we are spending on buying these things....so I sincerely hope ppl start studying/researching the product textures and shade depth/undertone variations of the products they want to purchase, research discount periods and lowest prices of product and if said product suits your budget or if its even worthwhile to invest in it or not ......not everything is for everyone so I hope consumers weigh in suitability of a product to their preferences/taste/skin type/complexion/budget etc instead of just seeing hype and discounts. Makeup is very subjective so pls chk multiple reviews to understand if it's even something that caters to your personal taste/preferences or suits ur skin type etc....Remember a discount is only worth it if it's on a product u actually want or know would work for u else it money wasted on something that could have been better utilised for somewhere else or could have been used to buy another favourite ....and it's completely okay to dislike and/or skip a product totally, even if it's hyped by everyone ... coz ultimately it's our money spent on the purchase and it may not be our cup of tea, so I would rather avoid such a thing where possible and if by mistake I get something I absolutely detest, next thing would be to find tweaks that make it somewhat usable ( I dislike the cello tape sticky feeling of. Maybelline stay matte liquid lipstick but many ppl love it ...it's actually very pigmented and transfer proof and long lasting but not to my taste ...so I bought the shade pioneer , loved the shade, hated the formulation .... thankfully I learnt a tweak from a fellow redditor to add in a bit of translucent powder to take away the sticky feeling ....another way I discovered was to blur out with ur finger so that the warmth of the finger somehow decreases the sticky feeling)

So… I figured I figured I have this syndrome so called rcpd because of these gargling sounds in the back of my throat and unable to get a burp out so I might be really underage At 12 but really smart and intelligent while poeple at my age don’t even know what a syndrome is I have been dying to find out how to cure this I was relieved when it said there Was a way to cure this but at The same time not because how is a 12 year old gonna step up to a doctor and ask him if he can inject Botox in their throat because of a special syndrome some Poeple may burp 10 times a day or more I burp like 5 times A year if not Even that and always when I actually burp it’s out of surprise like a hiccup or a laugh it has never been a straight forward burp I have figured that u can put ur fingers in ur mouth to trigger the gag reflex or try to make urself vomit to burp but that’s just really akward especially when at school it also sounds like a Really loud burp and that’s really akward imagine walking by a 12 year old putting his fingers in his mouth and after that burping really loud Asking my parents isn’t an option because they will normally just shrug it off like „u are having too much internet„ or „dont worry it’s nothing“ they won’t even think bringing me to a doctor and that’s where I ask for ur help to please solve this problem:how to cure rcpd without ur parents knowing in Vienna Austria or maybe tell me a line explaining that i have rcpd to tell to my parents
thank u so much for reading this and trying to help me
Daniel Aleksandrovic. Vienna-Austria

This might be a bit long im sorry I dont know how to summarize this story into a short paragraph💀 I (F14) was in 7th grade when I met M (NB13), at first I found them rlly cool and they just seemed to stand out more than others. We became friends from my other friend when she introduced us. A few weeks in I realized I started to like them and that I had a crush but I js tried to brush it off. Time skip, we were sitting next to each other on lunch once with our friends when they grabbed my hand and interwined fingers. When I tell you I DIED out of embarrasment I literrally lost blood flow in my arm because I was so scared to move it BUT i actually rlly liked it. We continued to do this like hold hands in class, lunch, whenever but they were always the first to take my hand bc i was always too much of a puss. They would sometimes randomly even hug me or kiss me on my cheek as a joke like sarcastically. But during this time I was really confused ab my feelings at times I felt like I really like them and at times I was like whatever and didnt care and was sometimes even disgusted with myself. Later on, we had a sleepover at my friend's house, and M kept on teasing me with their crush because I didnt know who it was. The whole group knew who it was but me. Even though it was ridicously obvious it was me I still couldnt catch on. I had a hunch it was me but they would always say dont flatter urself its not u. When I came to think that I was not M's crush I became sad and nervous. Later that night we ended up sleeping on the same bed and I dont know what came over me but I js reached for them and hugged them and basically cuddled a bit. The next morning we woke up and decided to watch movies with the group and we cuddled some more and held hands and i felt like my stomach was going to explode with butterflies. Another time skip, we finally confessed each other our feelings after a year, and we talked ab our feelings. Turns out we both had a mix of feelings and we unsure ab our relationship. So we made a deal to think ab our relationship before the start of 8th grade and decide whether we want to continue our relationship, but if not we would remain friends as before. Before the start of 8th grade we had another sleepover with their friend so it was js the 3 of us. It was like another sleepover except the only difference was that we were aware of our feelings for each other. While I expected that they would take my hand and hold hands but they didnt and they seemed less talkative. We decided to pull an all nighter and the other friend was outside petting a cat we found on the street so it was just me and M in the room. We were pretty quiet and js didnt know what to say. We sat on the same couch and we were on our phones. I then said f it and i layed beside them and hugged them and cuddled, although I dont know if it was js me that cuddled and they didnt want to cuddle because they js continued scrolling through tiktok. ANOTHER time skip, we began the school year and it was js like when we met, we didnt really talk I mean we did but it was mostly awkward and I dont know if its me thats awkward or just us. Now its like we lost that connection and I know for sure that I like them but I dont know if they still like me, or they DO like me but they think I dont like them so theyre pretending they dont like me i dont know. I know this is way too long but if someone does end up reading this far, please leave a comment ab what u think or just general advice please