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Hi, everyone! This is my first time posting here so please try to be nice to me. hehe char lang! so just like sa title of this post, I got married with my girlfriend, now wife, 6 months after we first met. Why am i posting? What's the catch?
It's because we got married in secret.
So ano ngayon if we got married in secret you say? Wala lang. I'm just really happy but I can't share it with the world just yet. I just want the world to know that I am now married with the woman I want to share my lifetime with and luckily I found this group so maybe I can share it here, this world right here.
I, 32F met my wife 25F in my workplace. To cut the story short, it wasn't all rainbows. She was in a long term relationship with a guy when we started going out and meron akong, sabihin nating fubu from the same workplace dati but i immediately ended it when I met her (wife). I know sasabihin niyo mga cheater, okay gets and totoo naman, some may even say na deserve ng wife ko yung narereceive niya na blackmail from her ex about posting their R18 photos and videos, and ako na aabangan daw niya ako (open for interpretation). Ang di ko lang magets, my then gf caught her ex-boyfriend cheating months bago kami nagmeet pero nag-aastang malinis yung ex-bf? Mmmm. I know may plan na sila dapat to get married this year, but not yet engaged. They were together for 5 years and alam kong baliw na baliw yung guy sakanya so diko gets kung bakit siya nagcheat. Also, my wife is out of my league, some people can't believe na pinatulan niya ako. She's really pretty, to say the least, a head-turner, bonus lang yun kasi super nice pa niya and matalino. Madami ding nagulat na hindi pala siya straight. Hindi kasi halata. My fubu? crush niya si wife. Even my gay-guy friend crush niya si wife. And I know a lot from our workplace e gusto siya, siguro from the day I met her hindi lang 10 guys yung halatang gumugusto sakanya.
Bakit kami kinasal in secret? Takot siyang icut-off siya ng parents niya. She's 25 but due to our chosen profession, she'll definitely need her parents' support pa muna and I admit diko pa kayang ibigay din yun. Sabihin niyo nalang na baliw kami. Hahahaha Sakin, I wanted to tell my parents, but since di pa niya masabi sa side niya, ganon nalang din sakin para fair so gets niyo na ba san ako nanggagaling? Only my sister and my trusted-workmate lang ang nakakalaam kasi sila yung witnesses sa wedding namin. Utah Online wedding pala just incase may curious.
Wala lang. Gusto ko lang i-share kasi I'm really happy. Also, if nadeads ako bigla tapos biglang tunugang may foul play, yung ex yung primary suspect. hahahah thank you! Cheers!

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Ove the last few months I've been doing some work to try and understand the extreme anxiety I have been experiencing which is 9/10 triggered between dates.
This is less about her and more about me and my neediness, past traumas catching up to me, hypervigilance to any small sign of a potential drop in attraction etc. That being said she is not the most needy or expressive girl I've ever dated. Before anyone immediately assumes that's some sign of a lack of attraction or an indicator of low interest - I have experienced girlfriends who are needy and will constantly love bomb and be in contact expressing their undying love for you, right up until they put their phone down to cheat on you with the guy they invited over behind your back... so no, i dont think measuring texts is a wise way of measuring their interest....yes, I'm sure I have trust issues, yes this has affected my ability to stay calm and relaxed. But the point I'm trying to make is that this isn't about HER making me uncomfortable. It's MY anxiety at play and I'm trying to sort through that.
9/10 when I have shared a text exchange I've had with her to someone familiar with ccw they tell me I must be confused because her messages are anything but dry, she is the one reaching out 9/10, she is the one pushing to see me 8/10 and inviting herself over. But there are uncertainties surrounding the relationship (as is totally normal to some degree, you never have full certainty) which seem to be amplified in my head when she is taking longer to respond, seeming a bit more dry, being even just slightly less affectionate in return to something I've said etc.
By this point, the subject of the anxiety is probably at question... it's fundamentally all revolving around texting. I'll be totally fine after we have seen eachother and then she reaches out and my brain does backflips trying to decode the meaning of her messages, what does she want? Did I say enough? Did I say too little? Is she losing interest? Is this all just a lie? Why does she seem so disinterested/sure of herself?
I can't read the tone, I can't see her facial expressions - and I always have the awareness in my mind that I might say something and not get a response for hours and sometimes it's even been days (unless I'm asking a specific question), in which case I just keep matching and mirroring and sometimes being spontaneous too. If I sense low effort I back off... if I sense her wanting my attention and validation I give a little and then try close the conversation. I know this is where I'm supposed to set a date or invite her over but experience with her has told me that she is not necessarily trying to make immediate plans by reaching out and we have a bit of a pattern where I tend to make more legitimate dates and she invites herself over during the week after work so I don't think I'm "missing an opportunity" or something. I think she just wants some of my presence in these moments.
There seems to be no clean etiquette around texting... you can "end" an exchange but there are no rules about how to end it, how to restart it, who should be restarting it etc. I really despise the pressure cooker that is texting. When we are together things are really good.... and then bam! Texts come and I'm back to this state of mind. Every text feels like a loaded gun in which I may miss or hit the target. If I don't respond, I have the NEED to respond in the back of my head, or following me like a dark shadow. If I haven't received a response I go into fight or flight panic mode waiting for a truck to hit me. It's so over the top.
I know this is extreme overthinking but that is where I am at. Let me try give an example of an anxiety inducing episode I'm experiencing now:
She messages, I message back, we make plans for weekend, she says something playful, I tell her something playful but sweet, she responds with a playful and sweet message (no questions or clear indication it requires a response) and it's late at night.... so I think to myself "ill respond tomorrow"
Tomorrow was yesterday and I realised I just have no energy to say anything in return... the more time went by the less natural a response would have seemed, then I thought maybe I could send her something else random if I came across it just so she doesn't feel "ignored" but I never came across anything not did I feel like it. I just had nothing and no energy to text her back.... it stresses me out feeling as if I'm being cold or that she might stubbornly get butt hurt by this. But what's crazy is that she has initiated silence like this before and it sends me spinning out.
Guys this sounds crazy enough, I am aware that this is ridiculous, that I'm supposed to not even have the energy or time to focus on shit like this but that's why I'm calling it anxiety and not just fear, it's totally irrational and overwhelming - I'm not stupid, or ill informed - just possessed by these thoughts and feelings that something must be resolved so I can relax again.
I guess if I had to turn this post into some questions they would be:
Is it fair of me to not want to text? Is it okay to be the one who goes quiet and non responsive or should we always leave the ball in their court? Am I doing the right thing by not forcing myself to keep communication going despite being overwhelmed? Should I focus solely on our time together?
What are some blind spots I might be missing due to my confusion/exhaustion? What standa out from what I've said?
EDIT: I forgot to add that sometimes I also just feel like I need space to get my head right or focus on other things going on in my life - and I just don't have the energy to keep making sure I'm saying enough/just enough/being attractive enough/not missing cues etc.... it is totally draining me and I don't understand why?

I think I might be at my breaking point, and I feel like I need to rant amidst all the uncertainties in my life. At the same time I feel weird sharing about my personal life to others, but sharing a burden of such kind seems like a remedy(maybe?). I will try to be coherent. (TL;DR in the end)

I've always been someone who's struggled with his identity. Even in my mid 20s when most start to grind for their future, I'm here passively failing at almost every juncture in life. I will not lie when I dare mention I was a happy to go child back in my early teen days. Shy & introverted, but at the same time motivated, smart, and a playful kid. Had a lot of friends, no close ones tho, but used to indulge a lot in sports and other activities with them. Once I moved to a different place prior to my 10th grade, it's where life started to shift for worse. I've started to struggle a bit with academics, motivation, friendship and health. Also, I realized how alone I was, as this is the stage in school life where most kids were in strong friendly relationships already, and being an outlier was certainly not helpful. My 12th results were horrible, compared to what I had dreamt in my younger days, with my eyes once set on becoming an astronaut too. No way with such horrible grades I was gonna be able to pursue anything of that sort. I was there lost and confused, gazing outside my window during my 12th break post the results. I had horribly fucked my jee advanced, and not a surprise as my motivation and intellectual for academics had already started a steep decline. Somehow, I still fought back and found a decent college. First year was great, maybe the move to a different city was a fixer, but I thoroughly enjoyed that time. All this was just for the first year tho, as the next three especially last 2 were just horrible. I still remember crying alone in my room during festivals when I had no one to hang out with, everyone was so distant from me. I resorted to video games, and although it was a terrible phase, but I'm happy I was able to enjoy some really great games, and amidst the loneliness it was the only sort of comfort for me.

It became much worse when the corona phase struck, I was still in my last year, but it sucked so much with online because I had planned long back to enjoy my last sem, reach out to friends and go on some hikes or shit. Now, a guy who's already been lonely and depressed grew even more distant to everyone, lost much of contact with everyone. Life was absolutely shit. There was a girl in uni I had a crush on, and maybe I believe she liked me too, we were normal friends, but even she seemed not interested and I didn't felt like forcing it further. Soon, I was in a terrible state, sleeping barely 3 hours, wasted my time watching Youtube and Twitch, playing video games, and listening to just melancholic music and thinking about ending my life, but I just didn't had the courage.

Somehow through all this clusterfuck I was able to find a decent enough job, it's sort of chill on most days, but boring. The work was fine for the first couple of years, but I absolutely don't enjoy the work and the teammates, and wanna move out. Have been job hunting for a couple of months, but no luck so far. During this time, tried to bring in few changes in life, like not spending too much time on any social media, it's been great as I'm not getting constantly bombarded with toxicity online. Also, started to goto gym, it's only been almost 2 months, but already have felt so good, from being a unhealthy loser to a healthy loser is somewhat of an achievement unlocked. So, yeah for the most part my life is just me going to work, goto gym, study for a better job, and repeat. On weekends or off days I spend time with family and play video games. Sadly, there's no part where I got to hangout with friends or s.o. because I got none. I know most people say you don't need those if you got family, but I feel like you need them, since some things are better shared with friends. I've felt like I'm a patient stuck in a high security mental asylum, and with no escape, a deadlock infinite loop. Currently contemplating my life choices about finding a better job, even still not sure which field I wish to pursue in IT, and at the same time thinking about moving to abroad, no I'm not rich, would've to take loan, but thinking maybe that may motivate me again to push further in life. I seriously want some normalcy, but I'm somewhat stuck in life, absolutely hate every fucking day, I'm seeing a dark future. I wish someone could fix me (self-insert Blade Runner 2049 reference).

I know a lot of you might be busy in life and all of this may seem too much of yapping, so here's an ai summary (TL;DR) :-

I am reaching my breaking point and need to vent about the uncertainties in my life. It feels strange to share personal details, but I believe it could be helpful. I have always struggled with my identity, and in my mid-20s, I am failing at almost everything. I used to be a happy and motivated child, but when I moved before 10th grade, my life took a turn for the worse. I struggled with academics, motivation, and friendships. I felt alone and different from my classmates. My 12th-grade results were terrible, crushing my dreams of becoming an astronaut. Despite this setback, I managed to find a decent college. The first year was great, but the next three, especially the last two, were horrible. I found solace in video games during this lonely time. Things worsened during the pandemic as my plans to enjoy my last semester and spend time with friends fell apart. I fell into a deep depression, sleeping only three hours a night and contemplating suicide. Eventually, I found a decent job, but I don't enjoy the work or my colleagues. I've been searching for a new job without success. I have made some positive changes in my life, such as reducing my time on social media and going to the gym. While my life now revolves around work, the gym, and studying for a better job, I miss having friends and a significant other. I feel trapped and uncertain about my future. I am considering changing careers or moving abroad to find motivation. I long for normalcy and someone who can help me.

Throughout our whole relationship (most I wasn’t aware of) my boyfriend has been cheating on me by chatting to random guys on gay dating apps. I only found this out through catching him numerous times watching X rated videos whilst I was asleep next to him and getting off to them. I caught him chatting to guys after multiple of these instances and me waking up abruptly through my sleep.
I’ve forgiven him multiple times, tried to find ways around it and speak to him about it but he always ends up going back and doing the same stuff. He also has a raging porn addiction which I’ve also tried to support him through and he’s promised to cut it all off and of course never did.
I feel bad in a sense because I know he hates himself but him hating himself means I have to face the consequences. He’s now moving out by himself and I’ve told him we need to split and it’s the end because he’s going to take full advantage of being alone 24/7 to do all the things I felt deeply uncomfortable with.
He’s also exploited x rated pictures of me to receive other people’s too.
He’s absolutely ruined me throughout all of this but I do still love him and it seems as though he does love me too but I just cannot face how someone can hurt you so much and still claim to love you.
What do I do?

A fan went on my old cyberpower Tracer iv I may try to fix it but I decided it was time to leave it as a repaired back up or retire it. And so I just spent 1573.25 on a new tracer viii with next day shipping for 140 extra dollars because #halflifeforlife #sourcemodsmatter I have servers to run and modding to do. Peep the specs what do u guys think
Tracer VIII Ultra I15U IDA 100 Black https://www.cyberpowerpc.com/system/Tracer-VIII-Ultra-I15U-IDA-100-Black
*BASE_PRICE: [+1339] ADAPTER: 2400Watts AC Adapter BATTERY: 4 cell 4S1P 6450mAh 99.8wh Li- polymer Battery SW Gas Gauge IC, soft pack CABLE: None CPU: Intel(R) Core™ Processor i7-14700HX 8P/16 + 12E Max Turbo 5.5GHz 33MB Cache DDS: None FREEBIE_MN: None HD_M2SSD: 2TB Corsair MP600 ELITE Series (PCIe Gen4) M.2 SSD - Seq W: Up to 7000/6500 MB/s, Rnd W up to 1000/1000k with heatsink [+153] (Single Drive) HEADSET: None INSTANTOFF: Extra $100 Instant off on all Custom Build Laptops [-100] INSTANTREBATE: Extra $50 Instant off on all GeForce Gaming Desktops and Laptops [-50] KEYBOARD: Membrane w/ NumPad Gaming Keyboard MEMORY: 16GB (16GBx1) DDR5/5600MHz SODIMM Memory [+30] (Corsair Vengeance [+15]) MICROPHONE: Built-In Microphone MONITOR: None MOPAD: None MOTHERBOARD: Intel Raptor Lake HM770 MOUSE: 121.2 *74.9 *0.8mm Glass Alike NETWORK: Supports 10/100/1000/2500 Mb/sec NOTEBOOK: TRACER VIII ULTRA I15U IDA RTX 4060 I7-14700HX AX211 MEMB RGB KB WQXGA 120HZ SRGB 100 240W 4 CELL (NB-409-227) NOTEBOOK_COVER: Tracer VIII I15U IDA Black Cover OS: Windows 11 Home PROMOSALE1: CyberPowerPC Black LUXE 15 to 17 Inches Gaming Laptop Backpack [+9] RECOVERYUSB: None RUSH: Notebook Standard processing time: ship within 7 to 10 Business Days SERVICE: STANDARD WARRANTY: 1-Year Limited WARRANTY and Life-Time Technical Support SOUND: Build in ALC274+1308 SPEAKERS: Built-in 2 speakers USB: USB-A (USB3.2 Gen1 x2, 5Gbps)@Right x2. USB-A (USB3.2 Gen2 x1, 10Gbps)@Left x1. USB-C (TBT4)(Gen2,DP1.4a x2:dGPU, HBR3, 32.4Gbps, support PD off charge 100W/DP1.4)@Rear x1) USBHD: None VIDEO: NVIDIA(R) GeForce RTX™ 4060 8GB GDDR6 Video Card [AI-Powered Graphics] (Included) VIDEOCAMERA1: HD webcam with Digital Microphone support [+0] WNC: Intel WIFI6 AX211, IEEE802.11 a/b/g/n/ac/ax support (Included)

_PRICE: (+1396)

 SUBTOTAL $1,396.00 Sales Tax (6.25%) $87.25 Shipping: UPS 1 Day $139.00 Shipping Discount $-49.00 

 GRAND TOTAL $1,573.25 

N.B.: I'm mainly looking for the games listed in the title and at the bottom of the thread. Feel free to post other offers, but if I haven't responded to your comment(s) by my next posting, I likely wasn't able to find a trade that interested me.
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For sale (for Steam Gift Cards or gifted Steam Wallet balance):
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• Dark Souls™: Prepare To Die™ Edition (removed from Steam Store; $350 $400 or best offer)
• Fall Guys (removed from Steam Store)
• Fall Guys - Dragon Hugger Pack (removed from Steam Store)
• Fall Guys - Icy Adventure Pack (removed from Steam Store)
• Marvel's Avengers - The Definitive Edition (removed from Steam Store)
• Spec Ops: The Line (removed from Steam Store)

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• Humble Hunie Sakura Bundle (can also trade for a full "charity" bundle (Australia Fire Relief Bundle or similar))
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For trade:
*signifies that a game is tentatively up for trade, assuming I buy the bundle
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• Nioh 2 – The Complete Edition
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• White Day: A Labyrinth Named School

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• Gal*Gun: Double Peace
• The Invisible Hours
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• ROCKETRON
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• Dead Age
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• Cook, Serve, Delicious!
• Tower of Time
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• 112 Operator
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• Surviving the Aftermath
• The Long Dark

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• Duck Game
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• WWE 2K23
• The Jackbox Party Pack
• Outward (redeems as the base game only, not the linked Definitive Edition)
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• Blade Assault
• Founders' Fortune
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• Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous - Enhanced Edition
• ScourgeBringer
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• HOT WHEELS UNLEASHED™
• Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor Game of the Year Edition
• Sonic CD (removed from Steam Store)
• LEGO® Harry Potter: Years 1-4
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• STRIDER™ / ストライダー飛竜®
• Bionic Commando
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• The Mean Greens - Plastic Warfare
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• Project CARS (removed from Steam Store)

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• 5D Chess With Multiverse Time Travel
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It has been almost 2 months since the divorce, and since he moved out. Most of it has been pretty peaceful, some has been hard. (Ex. In the settlement he received most of my cash assets and retirement funds when the reason I filed for divorce is b/c he was a secret gambler who gambled away $120K in 2 yrs behind my back, and $40K of new CC debt).
When I found out in October, I was devastated. I filed for separation and it converted quickly to divorce. We had to live in the same house. New information came out every few weeks, about secrets and his lies and his debts that he hid from me. I felt humiliated, scared and very alone, like my life as I knew it was over. Around the same time, I went off the deep end and entered bad decision territory when an old situadionshipnfrom college showed up in town randomly, we flirted and I was just in a horrible emotional place. I said, screw everything. We kept talking and eventually some months later I made poor choices with him. I'm going to admit it to you and this is embarrassing: he was/is married. We both knew it was wrong, but both felt starved for feelings and attention. A month later, my STBXH found out and he was hurt. I was angry, and I feel I lost capacity to have emotions. The fling ended around this time, and I have regrets.
During part of the separation, my now Ex has vapid and horrible to me: Recording me in our home without me knowing, listening in on my private conversations with family; actively taking videos of me if we were having words or even if I was doing something normal (like eating) - trying to say I was abusing alcohol; threatening me with legal action when I was grabbing a popsicle late at night. He also went the opposite way sometimes, leaving me support and love notes. Saying he didn't want this to happen (and I thought, of course now - you're in some seriously financial trouble).
Where am I going with this? I was triggered today when I saw he is still late/defaulting on credit cards. I know, it's not my problem anymore, right? But I do care about his mental health. He didn't care about mine around the time he moved out, when he got all my cash and things in my house started breaking (dishwasher, plumbing) and I didn't have funds anymore to cover.
So I called him to ask how he was doing. He said he is fine, and then went on a tangent about me and the morally wrong life I'm living: 1. I was on a dating app (so was he, and I'm not anymore) and that's apparently wrong - "what if someone sees you and you get a reputation?"; 2. That I'm a homewrecker because I had a fling/affair when we were separated (yes, I know we lived together and that is distasteful). I know now it was wrong on a lot of levels, I wish I could take it back. 3. That I'm the one who was emotionally unstable (I've been in therapy since September, almost every week, and that was before the separation. My therapist thought I was being gaslit).
I feel like it's a reckoning. I've spend a lot of time reflecting on what I've done, how we got here. I'm doing self work. I know I cannot change him. But he made me feel somehow terrible, judged and shamed. I'm a great mom. I just got promoted at work. I have hobbies. I practice self-care. I'm now dating someone since earlier this year - taking it slow and I like spending time with him.
So, fellow redditors: Is it shameful to be on an app because someone wants to date as a single mom? Divorce because we lost so much to his compulsive gambling he hid away? He is making it seem like he is God's gift to parenting and is such a stand-up guy, and I'm a morally repugnant devil who deserves nothing good. Am I so wrong?
I know I should limit contact except for the kids and there is no closure to be found. I was worried because I want him to be happy and OK. He dislikes me, I don't care for him. Somehow I still care what he thinks. Is this normal?

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129: Microscopic Tail Light Fragments “Found” In John O’Keefe’s Shirt After 18 Months Of Withholding Evidence From Karen Read’s Defense
After today’s testimony from three (3) witnesses seeing Karen’s Lexus, I went down a new rabbit hole and I am prepared to hear I’m crazy… but hear me out.
What if John did not make it into the house and it was not a accident or crime of passion, nor a physical fight or dog attack but a fire hydrant reflector pole and a COVER UP?
We’ve been shown photos of Solo Cups with bloody snow balls and paper Stop and Shop bags. We heard Detective Lenk testify that the tail light “shattered” when they removed it. Video going into the Sally Port garage is unprecedentedly missing and so are notes and photographs of those 129 microscopic pieces of tail light. Correct?
WHAT IF Karen and John argued and John got out, glass in hand, drunkenly slipped on the snow and fell on the fire hydrant and its reflector pole breaking off shards of reflective fiberglass?
I would not have posted this had I not found on a web search that these poles will “shatter” to the point that people have had to use tweezers to get them out.
This would still suggest a “cover up” in planting a larger piece of actual tail light. Please tell me why this could or could not be feasible and I know, I know…why and how would this make it to a triial? Why are the people acting so sketchy? If something like this happened then the adults are the bad people putting the young adults through this. I don’t care if nobody thought Karen would go to prison. For the love of Zeuss, this story needs a Hero. Nobody is telling the truth and I don’t think Karen knows either.

I name-dropped a recipe I like in a meme subreddit completely unrelated to cooking, ended up sharing the recipe, and people seemed to really like it, so I thought I'd share in a cooking subreddit. I first saw a video on YouTube about it, but it was so long ago now. Spent a lot of time experimenting to refine it to suit myself.
I really like this recipe because it tastes good, it's fairly quick, plus it gives me time to prep and clean while it's still cooking. When I'm alone it lasts me 4-5 meals. Kids and teens will love it. They love burritos right? Even my elderly parents like it.
Burrito casserole (but my family calls it "Mexican Lasagne")
Prep + cooking time: 90 minutes (optional rest time an additional 120 minutes), since the cooking phase is a lot of waiting, I usually chop my next ingredients while the previous ones are cooking
Difficulty: Beginner-suitable (I am a beginner)
Essential equipment: Oven, deep stovetop pan, round casserole dish about the size of a tortilla wrap
Serves: 4-5 people
Ingredients:

• olive oil
• 3 medium-to-large onions
• 500g mince meat
• 1 bell pepper (Red is good for colour, green or yellow acceptable)
• 1 jar of preserved jalapenos
• approximately 300g frozen peas/corn/carrots mix (I say approximately because I buy a 1kg bag of frozen mixed chopped veggies at a time and always eyeball it)
• 1 can of four-bean mix or other canned beans. Which four beans are in the four-bean mix don't really matter. For reference, the one I use is a mix of cannellini beans, spagna beans, red kidney beans and chick peas. I've tried another one with a different four beans, but both were good.
• melting cheese, approximately 700-800g (I usually have a 1kg bag on hand, probably the most expensive item on the list)
• packet of tortillas, about 8 pieces (I usually only end up using 6)
• taco spice mix (one part ground coriander, one part ground cumin, one part paprika, one part garlic powder, one part onion powder, and optionally, one part chicken bouillon) -- mix it yourself, it's SO much cheaper than the little ready-made packets which are 10-20x the cost by weight
• bucket of Greek yoghurt as a 'side' to eat with the casserole, won't go into the actual cooking

Instructions:

1. Dice three medium to large onions and caramelise in a deep pan with a splash of olive oil or other cooking oil. (Optional: once caramelised, remove from pan and put aside. This allows you to cook the meat in the next step fully without risk of burning the onions.)
2. Cook 500g mince meat through fully, gradually breaking it up using your wooden spatula. Ensure all juices are evaporated. Re-add the caramelised onions if removed earlier.
3. Add one chopped bell pepper, and add a large amount of chopped jalapenos (roughly 2/3 of the amount of onions), more is better than less.
4. Once heated through, add mix of peas/chopped carrots/corns to the same volume as the jalapenos (frozen vegetable mix is convenient, but thaw by boiling or steaming first before adding).
5. Add a drained can of four-bean mix (or other canned beans).
6. Add approximately 6 tablespoons of taco spice mix (one part ground coriander, one part ground cumin, one part paprika, one part garlic powder, one part onion powder). Optional: add a tablespoon of mushroom or chicken bouillon. Stir through. The meat/vegetable mix (henceforth, the burrito mix) should thicken up with the addition of the spices. Add more spice to taste if needed.
7. Ensure the spices don't stick to the bottom of the pan. If it does, add a few drops of hot water and scrape the bottom with your wooden spatula and it should come right off and mix with the rest of the burrito mix. Don't add too much water; burrito mix should be relatively dry, so if it ends up wet, continue heating and stirring until the burrito mix becomes quite dry again. Once mixed through and the taste is ideal, remove from heat source.
8. In a round casserole dish, lay down a tortilla wrap. Use a knife to cut the tortilla so it fits the base of the dish perfectly. Spoon in a THIN layer of the burrito mix, then a layer of melting cheese. Lay the next tortilla wrap, pressing down on the previous layers to compress, to fit as much as possible in the dish. Repeat until dish is filled to the top. Top-most layer should be cheese, then the burrito mix under it. Do not put a tortilla on the top layer. (Optional: instead of using a tortilla wrap as the bottom-most layer, start with a thin layer of burrito mix, then tortilla, then burrito mix, then cheese.)
9. Bake in an oven at 200 degrees Celsius, until cheese on top starts to brown (no more than 20 minutes), or to prevent the cheese from burning while ensuring the tortillas are cooked, bake for 10 minutes before adding top-most layer of cheese, adding the cheese layer and then baking another 10 minutes.
10. Optional: Allow to cool for about two hours or more (like a pie) -- cutting and serving too quickly can cause the casserole to fall apart when served. If allowed to sit for a while, the 'lasagne' is more likely to keep its shape and look more presentable. (Casserole should still be warm after a couple hours.)
11. Cut into large square slices like a lasagne. Eat with sour, unsweetened Greek yoghurt.

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I (32F) have been dating this guy 34M for a year. A year ago, We met on a dating app in a certain city where I was working temporarily(I was on a sabbatical and working with an art festival) and he was attending a friends wedding. We ended up connecting greatly on music and whatnot and spent 2 nights together. He then returned to his city but pursued me. I had a job offer there and then we met again. And soon, though I didn't take the offer and returned to my hometown, it turned into a long distance relationship.
We took trips and met in his city and other places , for about a week each month but we always stayed in luxurious hotels, mostly paid by him. he was super loving and attentive and everything I dreamed of. He earned well and established this story of how he travels between his hometown and city of work frequently. Now I can see that it was blatant love bombing.
The first 6-8 months of our relationship, I was also smoking up(h) and then quit. He was the one supplying it to me. I have proof. Pretty soon, I slipped into anxiety and depression and have been pretty low since some months now. However, we still continued dating. His availability kept decreasing. I felt things were off/was doubting he is cheating on me but I kept thinking it's me and my anxiety that's telling me these negative things. I did ask him such questions directly and ofcourse he would deny them.
I would blame and hate myself for being depressed and not being able to talk/be a "good girlfriend " on our calls. He would call me only on his commute to the office or gym and somehow, I was so in my head, I didn't even notice. The calls before sleeping were almost none, by now.
2 weeks ago, I caught him lying over a small thing and the got hurt/a bit alert. He apologised, gave a reasonable excuse and I let it go. I once video called him out of the blue and he wouldn't show me his home. I was sharing this with my friend, who hinted that he maybe married and after some checks, I just found out yesterday that he is married since 2016. And has a 3 year old kid.
He doesn't know I know yet. I have pictures, WhatsApp chats as proof. And all the hotels we have been to will have both our id proofs. I plan to tell his wife too. I don't know whether to do it on mail or in person.
Is this a punishable crime? To have hid his marriage. Does it count for fraud/scam/sexual abuse. Do I even file a case or just disclose things to his wife(I have her number and email). I want to confront him in personal but I think that emotional release may be even more disturbing.
If I file a case, how does it look going ahead? I just really want to punish him and now, im realising he may have done this so many times before to be able to be so smooth at this.
I have no clue what to do. I have been so deep in depression and so ashamed by it. I am realising how badly Gaslight i was for a year..I am also figuring out my next career step since the sabbatical, have been working on design projects and my self esteem has dipped majorly.
I thought I finally found the one. I thought I'll be marrying this guy. And get away with it!!!! HOW?! I'm unable to process what's happening.
Note: Yes, I'm in therapy. Have been for more than a year, looking for another therapists. Have also consulted psychiatrists for meds, one of them diagnosed me with ADHD but I'm unable to get over my fear of meds. I want to get better without them( yes, exercise, yoga, sleep, meditation )And I'm trying. But so far, I am having a hard time being motivated to do anything.

Okay, so my entire life people have assumed for some reason that I was gay (personal interests like music taste I listen to everything, pop culture, and having primarily female friends). So it made me question myself in high school and wonder if I was but I didn’t really find myself attracted to guys so… I waived that off.
But now I’m older and also in a relationship with a girl I really love and am physically and emotionally attracted to (4 years now). And I’ve also been in other relationships with girls who I’ve had similar feelings for.
I discover that my body insecurities have lead to other curiosities. Seeing men who are more built than me, looking to see what men have bigger dicks than me. And also finding them attractive but never wanting anything physically to do with them.
My curiosity eventually lead to anon chat video sites where at first I didn’t indulge but just looked to see how common a big dick was… then it lead to me jerking off with them. Enjoying be watched and praised. But when it got a little… well gay… I would become uncomfortable and disconnect. And I considered it like a “bro jerk” if that makes sense? Lol I hate that term but yeah. Also would only jerk in front of bigger dicks sometimes.
I still have a strong attraction to women but I find myself being able to place when men are attractive and sometimes when they are in better shape than me or better looking than me wondering if they have big dicks. Is this just me being insecure and also having a weird voyeur kink… or what? This is very confusing because I still have no desire to fuck men or date them… I’ve also had dreams about men (oral primarily) but have never once wanted to fuck one.
This is a very complex phenomenon for me so if you have any questions for clarification please let me know. I feel like I did a poor job at explaining this.
Also should mention: I’m a 25 year old virgin who has done a handful of everything but sex. Just in case that is relevant.

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I’m a trans bisexual male. Me and my crush of 8 YEARS, went to the same school till year 8. We don’t go to the same hs but I see him online and around the neighbourhood. I always have sudden urges to see him again or hit him up. bc I have dreams or daydreams about about us. And seeing him again would put these emotions away.
I was about 8-9 years old when I met him. Over the past 8 years I’ve been with other people, I’ve liked other people. But my mind is always brought back to him. I’ve never liked someone for so long and wanted somebody this desperately. And it wasn’t like we had a close friendship, we were just classmates in most situations. The first 2 years my feelings for him were strong, and he knew I liked him since my friends would tell him. Whenever he’d ask tho I’d say no. I had a feeling he did like me back at some point but we never got anywhere bc I’d always run away like an idiot.
I saw him just two days ago taking a run (he lives just down the road from me.) he looked EXACTLY the same and I’ll be real, I stopped just to watch his back run off down the road. He’s always running around the neighbourhood bc he’s a sports freak. A soccer addict guy. I went and searched him up on Insta on my alt acc. (All he posts is soccer.) The urge to dm him on my main account, just to talk or to hangout with him is rising slowly. But I’m hesitating.
Why do I think I even have a chance with this dude. Why do I think he’d even want to talk or hang out. Our friend groups are so different and he’s probably busy all the time. He’s probably not even gay or bi or ANYTHING, and yet there’s this small sliver of hope that he’ll like me back even if I’m a guy now. Since he’s never dated anyone, atleast not that I know of…maybe he likes a girl, I think about that all the time. If I STAYED a girl would he like me back? Nope. Before I came out transgender I was the most masculine girl around. but I don’t feel jealous or mad, knowing he probably likes girls. The only emotion I feel rn for him is need. Even if he just wants to be friends I’m fine with that, I crave him in my life after so much years of wanting him.
How the heck do I start up a conversation with him tho? I’m thinking of all the worst things that will happen. Do I just say “hi do u remember me, we use to go to school together. Oh yea and also I’m a guy now..” DO YK HOW AWKWARD THAT IS. (ik that’s basically what I have to say) I’m stupid for still liking this guy who probably doesn’t even think about me anymore bro.
How do I tell him I’ve been thinking about him, that I still miss him, he’ll be weirded out and I’ll look like an idiot. Telling him I still miss him after just complete nothingness between us after so long. Do I just ask him “do u want to hangout?” I’m the last thing he’d even care about. He’d rather date a soccer ball then an actual human. If I told my friends about him they’d just tell me “there’s nothing special about this guy all he does is play soccer?” AND I KNOW THAT. But he was my first gay crush. What do I do I’m an idiot.

(continuation of part 1)

III. Searching for Aerith Beyond FFVII

There were absolutely no answers in Remake or OG (at this point in my research, Rebirth wasn’t released yet), no matter how much I looked; nothing at all hinted at how Cloud could’ve obtained the memories of OG that emerge in Remake as MOTFs. I knew I had to look elsewhere to search for more clues, so I decided to check every piece of media ever released by SE with a mention of Cloud or Aerith in it, digging for hints in the compilation and beyond.
And boy, did I find them.
III. a) Core Worlds and Suspension Worlds
There are a couple of general FF rules that we need to establish before going forward.
It’s important to note that there are multiple realms in which the FF stories take place, each with a different name, history and society. This ensures that all FF stories occur separately, never intercepting or interacting— though they do have creatures like moogles and chocobos in common, as well as concepts like airships, gil, magic and some form of crystal. For simplicity, I will refer to these separate worlds in which the numbered FF games (FFI, FFII, FFIII, etc) occur as “core worlds”.
Characters from different core worlds may appear together in non-numbered FF games, the events of which have no impact on the core world at all: it seems that sometime after a FF character has reached the end of their core world’s plot-line, they may somehow be summoned to far-removed realms where they will face new adventures. I call these far-removed realms “suspension worlds”. One example of a FF game that takes place in a suspension world is Dissidia Final Fantasy, wherein characters from multiple core worlds unite to accomplish a mission as a team.
III. b) Final Fantasy Tactics
First on our list of non-compilation SE games to explore is 1997’s Final Fantasy Tactics (FFT), a game whose plot takes place in the suspension world of Ivalice. Let’s plot out the relevant events, and then analyze!
III. b) i. Fact-Finding
The main character of FFT, Ramza, encounters a brunette flower peddler with Aerith’s iconic, gravity-defying bangs:
\"Aeris\" in FFT's Ivalice
If you choose to buy a flower from her, she express her relief: apparently, business isn’t going well because no one is interested in flowers. The girl wistfully dreams aloud:

“When is my knight in shining armor going to take me away from here...?”

Later, Ramza and his companions encounter a mysterious machine that can summon people from across universes. The machine is activated, and a rather rude young man with spiky blonde hair appears. Cloud claims he used to be in SOLDIER, and says the last thing he remembers is “getting stuck in the current”. He looks to be disoriented and lost, and suffers from piercing headaches. Mere moments after being summoned to Ivalice, Cloud rambles:

“What’s this? My fingers are tingling… My eyes… they’re burning… Stop… stop it [Se]phiroth…”

He dashes out of the room, but not without announcing:

“I must go… must go to that place…”

Outside, Cloud encounters the brunette flower girl Ramza met earlier. She offers Cloud a flower, but he only stares at her wordlessly:

“Flower girl: Buy a flower? Only 1 gil.
Cloud: …
Flower girl: Something wrong? Do I resemble someone?”
Cloud: No… it’s nothing.”

As soon as Cloud leaves, a gang of ruffians surround the flower girl and start harassing her, demanding payment that’s apparently overdue. One of them finally calls her by her name: “Aeris”. He grabs her, insinuating that he might sexually assault her in lieu of payment. Aeris is not strong enough to push him away. That’s when Cloud returns:

“Cloud: Get your hand off her!
Thug: What did you say!?
Cloud: Didn't you hear me? Get your dirty hand off her!
[…]
Cloud, to Aeris: Go… now.”

Aeris heeds Cloud’s advice, fleeing the scene before a fight between Cloud and the thug can break out. After Cloud scares the ruffians off with the help of Ramza and his companions, he speaks once more:

“I lost… something very important… Ever since, I’ve been lost […]. What should I do? What about this pain [?] Must go… to the Promised Land.”

III. b) ii. Fact Analysis
There’s a lot to unpack here, all of which you probably clocked in your head upon reading, but let’s put it down in writing.
While FFT Cloud’s memory is far from perfect, the Aeris he encounters in Ivalice doesn’t recognize him at all. FFVII Ultimania Omega addresses this question without answering it:

“[The flower seller’s] name is Aeris, and she has the same appearance and tone of voice as the Aeris of FFVII. However, when she comes across Cloud, she does not recognize him. Could she really be the same Aerith who appears in FFVII but with memory loss, or is she a completely different character?” (“#4 Proof of Omega”, “FFVII in Other Games”, “Final Fantasy Tactics”, page 560).

Regardless of her unknown identity and inability to recognize Cloud, FFT Aeris’ fantasy of a “knight in shining armor” is quite reminiscent of the flower girl/bodyguard dynamic we’ve come to know and love. Cloud’s armor doesn’t shine, but in my opinion, if you’re looking for the dystopian, corporatocratic equivalent of a knight, you can’t get much closer than a supposed-former-SOLDIER-turned-bodyguard. Additionally, despite his rude and cold attitude toward Ramza’s gang, the urgency with which Cloud swoops in to save the flower girl from the ruffians betrays a softer, warmer side to him: the flower girl/bodyguard dynamic strikes again!
FFT Cloud’s dialogue borrows two lines from the speech OG Cloud makes as Aerith lies dead in his arms (disk 1, chapter 28): “My fingers are tingling. My mouth is dry. My eyes are burning!” and “What are we supposed to do? What about my pain?” You might’ve noticed that this glimpse of grief Cloud experiences in FFT bears a resemblance to the fourth MOTF 4 experienced by Remake Cloud (see section “II. a)”). Could it be that FFT Cloud and Remake Cloud have something in common?
Shortly after being summoned to Ivalice, FFT Cloud declares that he must go to “that place”, a mysterious line that is later elucidated when he tells Ramza that he must go to the Promised Land and find the “very important” thing he’s lost. The Promised Land is the Cetra culture’s afterlife, meaning FFT Cloud is looking for someone who’s died, someone “very important” to him. OG suggests this is none other than Aerith:

“Cait Sith, reading Cloud’s fortune: You will find [what] you pursue. However, you will lose the most precious thing” (disk 1, chapter 16, English translation by Kotaku’s “Let’s Mosey: A Slow Translation of Final Fantasy Seven: Part Eight” by Tim Rogers, 9:42-9:52).

&

“Cloud, after seeing Aerith’s hand reach for him through the Lifestream: … I think I'm beginning to understand.
Tifa: What?
Cloud: An answer from the Planet… the Promised Land... I think I can meet her... there” (disk 3, chapter 3).

Finally, let’s try to understand where on the OG timeline Cloud was summoned to this suspension world from and what he remembers. His comment about getting stuck in a current has to be about the Lifestream; apparently, on top of its atemporal nature, it can act as a conduit to other worlds. One only enters the Lifestream if they’ve somehow fallen into the core of the planet or once they’ve passed away and returned to the planet. Both scenarios merit consideration.
On the one hand, it’s possible that Cloud was summoned to Ivalice after he and Tifa fall into the core of the planet: this point in the FFVII OG timeline occurs after Aerith’s death and shortly before Cloud finds out he was never SOLDIER, which matches the gaps in FFT Cloud’s memory quite well. However, this scenario does not account for the vagueness with which FFT Cloud remembers Aerith and her death. Most importantly, Cloud’s realization that he can find Aerith in the Promised Land occurs much later in the game (FFVII OG, disk 3, chapter 3) than when he falls into the Lifestream with Tifa (FFVII OG, disk 2, chapter 8).
On the other hand, FFT Cloud’s vague yet persistent memories of Aerith suggest that he’s been summoned to Ivalice after his eventual death post-OG, but also that he’s lost quite a large portion of his memories. His incomplete memory loss is likely the result of Cloud’s individuality’s erosion by the Lifestream after death, which we discussed in section “II. a) ii.”. We can therefore surmise that by the time he is summoned to Ivalice from the Lifestream, Cloud has been dead for long enough that the Lifestream eroded a large portion of the memories of his lifetime. This post-death scenario is likelier than the first. The memory of Cloud’s realization that he was never SOLDIER must be gone, which explains why he claims otherwise upon being summoned to Ivalice. Contrastingly, vestiges of Cloud’s OG memories of Aerith cling to his soul, even after others have been wiped clean. Could this be a consequence of their soulmate bond? Could the strength of Cloud’s love and grief for Aerith have made his memories of her stronger and more difficult for the Lifestream to erode? Could it be both?
One thing is clear: Aerith is of fundamental importance to Cloud, even when he can’t quite remember her. In fact, the only other character he remembers and/or mentions in FFT is Sephiroth. It does make sense that the memories of those who have marked one’s soul forevermore would be the most difficult for the Lifestream to erode.
III. c) Dissidia Final Fantasy
The next stop on our travels through suspension worlds is 2008’s Dissidia Final Fantasy! Now strap in, because here’s where things get really serious.
III. c) i. Fact Finding
In the suspension world of Dissidia Final Fantasy (DFF), the goddess of harmony Cosmos and the god of discord Chaos are engaged in a never-ending cycle of conflict. Both deities need warriors to fight on their behalf, so they recruit core world characters into their respective teams by summoning them to DFF. Some of these summoned characters are FFIV’s Cecil, FFVI’s Terra, FFVII’s Sephiroth, FFX’s Tidus, and of course, FFVII’s Cloud. The warriors find themselves in the suspension world of DFF with no memories of their core worlds’ plotlines. However, as the DFF adventure progresses, they are able to recover pieces of their memories here and there. It isn’t clear how much they come to remember. Ultimately, the warriors hope to return home to their core worlds by fighting in this war and seeing to its end.
Cloud is summoned to DFF as a warrior on the side of Chaos, who seeks to destroy all existence. Sephiroth is also on Chaos’ side, meaning the two are teammates despite being enemies in their core world of FFVII. It just so happens that Tifa is a summoned warrior in DFF too, though she’s fighting on Cosmos’ side. Intrigued by her vague familiarity, Sephiroth hypothesizes that killing Tifa will bring back his memories of OG’s plot line: before long, the masamune wielder finds Tifa alone and corners her into a one-on-one fight. Thankfully, Cloud swoops in and saves her before Sephiroth can do any harm. Tifa is thankful for Cloud’s help, though confused that Cloud would elect to assist her and turn against a fellow warrior of Chaos; she doesn’t remember what Sephiroth and Cloud mean to each other in OG. In fact, Tifa doesn’t even remember Cloud’s name or that they share a core world, though Cloud feels somewhat familiar to her. For his part, Cloud at least remembers that Tifa is someone he cares about from his core world. As Tifa thanks Cloud for saving her from Sephiroth, something she says elicits an odd reaction from the warrior of Chaos:

“Tifa: The way you showed up and fought that guy off. It was a pretty cool thing to watch. You were like a hero, charging in to save the girl.
Cloud gasps at her words. She doesn’t notice” (Dissidia 012: Treachery of the Gods, report 5: “Unexpected Fulfillment 2”).

On another note, Cloud knows he will have to fight Tifa once the Cosmos-Chaos conflict comes to a head, as they are on opposing teams. He thinks to himself:

“Once [her] memories return, [she]’ll lose the will to fight just like I have. So... Before that can happen, I have to act...” (Dissidia 012: Treachery of the Gods, report 5: “Unexpected Fulfillment 2”).

In order to end the cycle of the conflict and to avoid fighting Tifa, Cloud decides to try and defeat Chaos himself. Predictably, Cloud is no match for the deity. As he dies, Cloud pleads the following to the goddess Cosmos:

“Cosmos, goddess of harmony. If you can hear me, listen to my plea. I beg you. Save her. Save my friend… Tifa.”

Cosmos hears him and responds immediately:

“Cosmos: An end to this conflict, and a life spared? This is your heart's desire? If your will remains unchanged, I shall bring you here when the battle draws to a close. Cloud. My chosen" (Dissidia 0.13: Treachery of the Gods, report 7: “Unexpected Fulfillment 3”).

Cloud’s wish is granted by Cosmos: the first phase of the conflict ends without Tifa getting hurt, and she is sent away from the suspension world of DFF before the second phase begins. Cloud is saved from death, and Cosmos enlists him into her team of warriors for phase two: this time, Cloud is fighting on the good side.
Now we enter phase two of the war. Cosmos tells her team of ten core world warriors that in order to save the world from Chaos’ destruction, they must collect what she describes as crystals containing the power to persist through darkness. I call these the “DFF crystals”. There are ten DFF crystals in total: one for every warrior in Cosmos’ group to find. To obtain their crystal, each hero must overcome a trial that will confront them with whatever personal struggle they faced in their core world; if they prove themselves worthy, their DFF crystal will appear to them. On one hand, some warriors’ DFF crystals simply take the form of the crystals found in their core world. For example, Onion Knight’s DFF crystal looks to be nothing more than one of FFIII’s elemental crystals, which hold little to no personal significance to him. On the other hand, some warriors’ DFF crystals symbolize something more personal to their respective warriors. For instance, Cecil’s DFF crystal looks to be one of FFIV’s dark crystals, which specifically represent the dichotomy of light and darkness he struggles with in his core world’s plot line. Cosmos describes the quest for the DFF crystals as follows:

“Cosmos: The crystals embody the strength to face despair. With ten gathered, there is hope yet to save the world. The path to your crystal will be perilous... and different for each and every one of you. But you must believe in and follow your own path. Even if you know not where that path leads" (Dissidia 013: Light to All, prologue: “A Final Hope”).

From this exposition, simply keep in mind that: Cloud must find his crystal by overcoming a personal trial, and his crystal may have the appearance of an object in OG that’s important to him.
Once the team is debriefed on their mission, Cloud remains reticent to fight; he doesn’t much like the mysterious nature of this conflict. Not knowing exactly what they’re all fighting for is clearly bothersome to the swordsman, and the idea of thoughtlessly engaging in battles leaves a bad taste in his mouth. Fellow warrior Firion understands that without a reason to fight, Cloud’s heart just isn’t in it. He imparts upon Cloud that he must have a dream he’s fighting to protect, something he wants to see come true, to motivate him to stop Chaos from destroying all existence. Unfortunately, Cloud doesn’t have a dream to preserve, or can’t find one for himself:

“Cloud: I've looked, but I'm still empty-handed. And without a dream, what do you suppose I should do? […] Maybe what I'm looking for... isn't here” (Dissidia 0.13: Light to All, chapter 1: “Beyond Doubt”, “Gateway of Good and Evil”).

Another fellow warrior, Cecil, expresses worry for Cloud, whose response evokes the main theme of FFVII OG:

“Cecil: Everyone's worried, Cloud. But... Do you shoulder a larger concern?
Cloud: Concern... Maybe a sense of loss" (Dissidia 0.13: Light to All, chapter 1: “Beyond Doubt”, “Beyond the Continent”).

Whatever Cloud is looking for “isn’t [there]”, and he feels “a sense of loss”: Cloud’s motivating dream has been lost to him. This is later reasserted in a conversation with Terra, another warrior of Cosmos:

“Terra: And you, Cloud... What's your dream?
Cloud: I've lost mine" (Dissidia 0.13: Light to All, chapter 3: “The Chosen Battle”, “Gateway of True Intent”).

Later, Cloud encounters and fights Sephiroth, who is still a part of Chaos’ team. Sephiroth is defeated, but not before he’s taunted Cloud with his habitual puppet talk. However, Cloud remains strong and refutes Sephiroth’s manipulation, asserting that only he can determine his own path. This must’ve been Cloud’s personal trial, because his crystal appears at that very moment: it is a small, light green orb that looks like materia from his core world. Having pocketed his crystal, Cloud decides he must find his own reason to fight. Interestingly, his search is depicted as intertwined with Fate:

“Cloud: Even if I have my doubts... I have to find my own answer […] Until then, I'll keep fighting.
Narration: The warrior has vowed to keep fighting— and keep fighting he will […]. Etched in destiny, his quest for answers continues on” (Dissidia 0.13: Light to All, chapter 1: “Beyond Doubt”, “Gulg Gateway”).

Later, the nemeses meet again in a segment called “Recurring Tragedy”. Their interactions here are particularly interesting. Sephiroth speaks of making Cloud suffer through despair and pain as though referencing their history together:

"Sephiroth: This disease called hope is eating you alive. The world of suffering was born out of such half-baked ideals.
Cloud: If that's the case, I have to endure the suffering. There's no moving on if I run from it.
Sephiroth: If that is what you wish for, you shall drown in the pain. I'll lead you to true despair. [My] shadow is burned into your heart. We'll meet again, Cloud. I'll keep coming back— as long as you are who you are."
Sephiroth disappears. Cloud looks out into the distance before the scene ends.
“Cloud: No thanks. The one I really want to meet is…” (Dissidia 013: Light to All, epilogue: “Conclusion of a Cycle”, “Recurring Tragedy”).

This final line suggests Cloud has finally found a reason to fight: he wants to meet someone unspecified.
Finally, after the war has ended, we arrive at the final cutscene of DFF. I will let you read the full script, with notes added by me in bold behind the spoiler censors. Please do not read my notes if you do not wish to encounter spoilers for FFI, FFII, FFIII, FFIV, FFV, FFVI, FFVIII, FFIX or FFX:

“[The] heroes are all standing together in a grassy field with a forest behind them. Birds are chirping, the sun is shining brightly, and the wind is blowing gently. The heroes look around them in awe. They're all holding their crystals.
WoL: The battle has come to an end...
Tidus notices that his crystal has begun to emanate a blue glow.>! His crystal is a movie sphere from his core world of FFX: a capsule containing sounds and images that people record for later viewing. Tidus’ crystal likely represents the specific movie sphere recorded by his love interest Yuna, which revealed that she’d loved him from the beginning.!<
Tidus: Gotta go, huh...
The blue glow transfers to him as well. He turns to look at the others
[…] Tidus grins at the others, then turns and runs toward a nearby lake. He leaps into it in a manner reminiscent of [the events] of FFX. He vanishes as he descends toward the lake.
Zidane: We're not vanishing. We're returning—
Zidane is sitting on a tree limb as he says this. His crystal begins to glow gold, as does he. His crystal is shaped like a highly important ‘progenitor of all life’ crystal from his core world of FFIX.
Zidane: — to where we're supposed to be.
Zidane spins around the tree limb with the use of his tail and launches toward the sun. He's lost to view.
A white feather then drifts down from that direction and Squall catches it. The feather is reminiscent of his love Rinoa Heartilly, whose character symbol is a white feather. In fact, Squall’s crystal looks like a mix of his revolver gunblade from FFVIII and Rinoa’s feather motif. [Squall glows blue.]
Squall: Perhaps we can go on a mission together again.
Squall vanishes.
Cloud is then visible, standing in [a] flower field. The flowers are white and yellow. Cloud has his crystal, a light green materia from his core world of FFVII, in hand.
Cloud: [(Chuckles shortly, like a scoff)] Not interested.
Cloud walks off into the flower field, gaining a green glow. He vanishes.
A snowflake then falls into Terra's right hand as her crystal begins to glow pink. The flames drawn on her crystal represent her power, which is connected to the element of fire: her character arc in FFVI.
Terra: I think I've learned how to keep going. Thank you— and take care.
Terra glows pink and then vanishes. Bartz throws a stick. He's glowing pink as well.
Bartz: When you're having the most fun, that's when time always flies. His crystal is the Adamantite from his core world of FFV.
Bartz vanishes.
Cecil: It's mine to pass on—
A moon appears behind Cecil and goes through its phases as he begins to glow blue. His crystal has shadowed and illuminated parts, representing the duality of his character, which is central to his personal arc in his core world of FFIV. It also represents his brother Golbez, who has chosen the darkness. Cecil considers his familial bond with Golbez his guiding light and hopes to be with him someday.
Cecil: — this strength I've gained from everyone.
Cecil vanishes.
Onion Knight hugs his crystal and looks up toward the sky. His crystal is shaped like those found in his core world of FFIII**.**
Onion Knight: Everyone... thank you!
OK briefly glows blue and then vanishes.
There are wild roses at Firion's feet. He and WoL are looking toward the sky. WoL suddenly begins walking away while Firion looks down and sees the roses.
Firion: This isn't the end. Another dream is waiting to begin.
His crystal is the color of the wild roses that were at the center of his dream and of his motivation to fight Chaos. The roses are also the emblem of the Rebel Army he was a part of in his core world of FFII. His crystal is shaped like Pandaemonium, the final dungeon of his core world story. Firion gains a violet glow and then vanishes.
WoL is walking through the field and then comes to a stop. He's looking at something.
WoL: May the light forever shine upon us.”

As you can see, everyone’s crystal is very important to the story of their core world, and in the cases of at least Tidus, Squall, Terra and Cecil, the crystals represent something very personal. What about Cloud and his crystal, then? What about the dream he lost and the person he wants to meet? Let’s begin analyzing to answer these questions.
III. c) ii. Fact Analysis
Firstly, it’s clear to me that the Cloud that appears in DFF is a post-OG Cloud, given how many plot points from OG he interacts with. I’m reticent to say whether or not this post-OG Cloud is dead like in FFT, as he recovers many of his memories of OG during DFF and there is no evidence of him having passed away and joined the Lifestream.
The second thing I’d like to point out is Cloud’s strange reaction when Tifa compares him to a hero who swoops in and saves the girl from the bad guy. Cloud gasps, indicating that her words mean something to him; the trope Tifa references must therefore be included somewhere in the FFVII OG plot-line. Some of you are surely ahead of me by now, having realized that only the tragic antithesis of this trope appears in OG: Cloud is unable to save Aerith from Sephiroth (disk 1, chapter 28). Whether or not DFF Cloud remembers Aerith herself at this point, it’s clear he recalls the pain and guilt of losing Aerith to Sephiroth.
Next, let’s address Cloud’s lost dream: to meet an unspecified person. It seems Cloud is aware at this point that in OG, he was eternally separated from the person he dreams of meeting. So, who was he separated from in his core world? Who can he never meet again, even if his team of warriors defeats Chaos and Cloud returns to the realm of FFVII? There are a few options —his mother, his father, Zack, Jessie, Biggs, Wedge, and any other person he knew who died—, but the sheer narrative weight that Aerith’s untimely death carries makes it clear who he truly wants to meet. This is corroborated by Cloud’s “I think I can meet her… there” line in OG (disk 3 chapter 3), by FFT Cloud’s search for Aerith during his appearance in Ivalice, and by Cloud’s strange reaction to Tifa’s comparing him to a hero who swoops in and saves the girl from the bad guy. All the available evidence suggests that Cloud’s dream is indeed to reunite with Aerith, and that this dream is “lost” to him because she was killed by Sephiroth (disk 1, chapter 28). This would also explain the title of the DFF segment “Recurring Tragedy”, since as we all know, the ultimate tragedy of FFVII OG is Aerith’s death. Considering Sephiroth was the one to take Aerith away from Cloud, Sephiroth’s threats of drowning him in despair in “Recurring Tragedy” only solidify this interpretation of Cloud’s lost dream.
Finally, we arrive at the ending cutscene. Cosmos’ warriors return to where they belong to try and accomplish whatever dream they held as motivation during the Cosmos-Chaos conflict, each carrying their DFF crystal. Cloud is shown standing in a field of white and yellow flowers and walking deeper into it with a light green materia in hand. Why was a white and yellow flower field chosen to represent DFF Cloud’s dream? The answer is obvious. White and yellow flowers symbolize Aerith: she sold Cloud a yellow blossom upon first meeting him in OG (disk 1, chapter 1), and her yellow and white flowerbed cushioned Cloud’s fall when the two reunited in the Sector 5 church (disk 1, chapter 4). What’s more, we have the iconic credits video of the original cut of Advent Children to refer to, wherein Cloud is seen driving near flower fields. Aerith stands there (3:20), seemingly waiting for him. Here’s what Nomura had to say about this credits scene:

"[...] we filmed the video for the ending credits in Hawaii. There are fields of flowers on both sides of the road, and the colors —yellow and white— are the same as the flowers in Aerith's church […]. With Aerith, 'flowers' have been her image throughout the series” (FFVII Reunion Files, “Countdown to Reunion”, “Stories from CG Production”, page 87).

Even in the Advent Children Complete cut of the film, where Aerith is not shown standing in the field, the flowers and their symbolism of Aerith remain. That being so, it’s more than fair to say that the white and yellow flowers in DFF’s ending cutscene serve as yet another confirmation that Cloud’s dream is to be with Aerith.
With all of this established, we can address the nature of Cloud’s DFF crystal. As we established, every core world has its own version of a crystal, each possessing a distinct appearance, function and meaning. Materia are the crystals of FFVII, so one could be satisfied by the proposition that Cloud’s DFF crystal is simply meant to represent a random materia. However, I think Cloud’s crystal is specifically the White Materia, as it represents Aerith’s sacrifice, her importance to the plot and what she died fighting for. If any one object symbolizes her death, it’s the White Materia; it’s even given closeups during the event (2:33-3:02). Besides, unlike any other materia in FFVII, the White Materia is known to glow a light green when Holy has been activated:

“Bugenhagen: If [the prayer] reaches the planet, the White Materia will begin to glow a pale green” (FFVII OG, disk 2, chapter 15).

Here are pictures of the White Materia in OG and Advent Children, and two pictures of Cloud's DFF crystal (in order) so you can compare for yourself:
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Cloud's DFF Crystal
Cloud’s DFF crystal
So far, in both suspension world games we’ve examined (FFT and DFF), Cloud is searching for Aerith. As a final note on DFF, it may interest you to know that codirector of the Remake trilogy Toriyama was actually a writer for DFF: he may have carried some themes from DFF to Remake…
III. d) Detour: The Final Fantasy 30th Anniversary Farewell Exposition
Before we hop onto the next suspension world, let’s return to ours for a quick detour: the 2018 Final Fantasy 30th Anniversary Expo. Themed with farewells and tragedy, this expo showcased the heartbreaking goodbyes featured in different FF games. Artwork, clips, quotes and images aplenty here! As the highly anticipated Remake was going to be coming out approximately a year and a half later, the FFVII section of the expo featured a few sneak peek Remake designs. This means the expo was at least partly curated with the Remake trilogy in mind; there could be interesting material in the FFVII section of the expo related to Remake. Let’s dive in!
Unsurprisingly, the focus of the FFVII section is Cloud and Aerith, since she is the loved one he lost in OG. Zack is also given a mention, however Aerith was the glaringly central star of the show. To showcase how important Aerith’s farewell in particular was to the expo, the FFVII portion was introduced by a photo of Cloud lowering Aerith into her watery grave and a video of her tragic death:
Final Fantasy 30th Anniversary Farewell Exposition, FFVII Introduction
The description under the video screen reads:

“She was gone in the blink of an eye. But the pain never went away.
Aerith awoke the ultimate magic to protect the planet and the people she loved. Yet her life came to a sudden end at the hands of Sephiroth, a man bent on seeing the world destroyed. Even the usually stoic Cloud couldn’t hide his grief at the unexpected death of an irreplaceable companion. ‘My fingers are tingling. My mouth is dry. My eyes are burning.’ True words, revealing Cloud’s deep sorrow” (Final Fantasy 30th Anniversary Exposition).

Conveniently enough for us, the expo’s tagline is “Who is the person you want to meet again?” Given that Aerith holds the spotlight in the FFVII section of the expo, it’s clear who SE is telling us Cloud wants to reunite with. Recall Cloud’s unfinished line in DFF: “The one I really want to meet is..." (Dissidia 013: Light to All, epilogue: “Conclusion of a Cycle”, “Recurring Tragedy”). We theorized that he must be referring to Aerith, and now, we are certain.
The expo also had pamphlet descriptions of the farewells depicted. Here is the general summary of FFVII‘s farewell story according to that pamphlet:

“The story follows the lead character Cloud, but it is the heroine, Aerith, who opens Cloud’s eyes and helps bring him closer to understanding the mystery that is his past. Through her, we draw closer to the truth of the story.
This scene, in which the heroine Aerith is lost, is easily the most shocking and tragic in the story. No one expected to say goodbye to such a major character in the middle of the story. Rumors of a secret way to revive Aerith spread, and it was clear players were having a hard time saying goodbye to her too. Even now, twenty years later, it still feels like a shocking turn of events” (Final Fantasy 30th Anniversary Exposition Pamphlet, page 36).

It’s interesting that SE would mention the rumors of Aerith’s revival circulated by players back in 1997, especially as fans were awaiting Remake’s release…
In light of everything we’ve analyzed so far, it can be said that between FFT (1997) and this farewell expo (2018), SE has consistently demonstrated that reuniting with Aerith is post-OG Cloud’s goal. That’s a period of over two decades— two decades of wishing, seeking, longing in real-world time for this character. This is a huge long-term commitment for SE to make, and you can bet the devs don’t take it lightly. Again and again, once the events of the OG game have ended, Cloud is shown to desire a reunion with Aerith. This ever-present and ever-insistent theme will become very important to us later in this analysis.
(continued in part 3)