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2024.05.14 02:47 elsa78910 34f My SO’s ex 29F sent this long message idk who to believe. Have any women had a similar experience?
His ex sent me this message. Sorry it’s so long! Has anybody else gotten a similar message in the past? How did you react?
Message below: “It’s been over a year of me wondering whether I should just come out and ask you or message you… but being afraid that if I do, and I’m wrong, it’ll be a the biggest mistake of my life. I have begged and begged him to tell me what you are to him, and he denies having anything more than a platonic friendship with you.
I want to preface this message with, I have no ill will towards you, I just want some answers… answers I don’t believe I’m going to get from Jared. I don’t know if he’s mentioned anything about me. So here goes…
November 2022, I sent Jared an email, telling him I loved him, missed him, and though I didn’t require a response back, I wanted him to know how sorry I was for everything that had happened and things had ended. He responded with a lengthy email telling me he still fervently loved me and how he too was sorry for how things had ended. That email lead to the last year and a half of events.
December 2022, I drove down to Roanoke and surprised him at the Carilion garage. He left the hospital as fast as he could that night, and we spent the rest of that evening together, catching up, and he left for Key West two days later. Two weeks later, he came up to DC and we had a late birthday celebration for him at Clyde’s in Georgetown and went to see A Christmas Carol at the Ford Theater. A few weeks later we drove to Jersey to see Matchbox20, by now it was the end of January 2023. Almost every week off, for the last year, he would come up and see me, if even for only two days, or I would drive down to Roanoke and spend the week with him. We spoke about our past, the hurt, and future, he told me numerous times that when he pictured marriage and children, it was only with me, but he needed time. This part is important, and I’ll come back to it later. We celebrated my birthday at a restaurant in Navy Yard, two weeks before you guys left for London. Chris video chatted with that night while we were at the restaurant eating Wagyu, and they discussed the new shipment of sunglasses Chris had gotten for Miggieswear.
The weekend of the Super Bowl, he had come seen me earlier that week, the day after he left I came to Roanoke and left the day of the Super Bowl. He told me his parents were having a viewing party and he had to go home and cook. I’m now assuming he left my Airbnb and came to your place.
That February he planned a trip to London, with Nicole, Ryan and Chris, and what he told me were, Nicole’s “friends.” Nicole happened to post a picture of you guys sitting on the plane and I was shocked, why would Nicole’s friend be sitting between him and Ryan. I sent him a message while you were on that 6 hour flight, telling him that if he had been seeing somebody, then why didn’t he tell me? There was no point in us spending time together if he had moved on. His response to me was “do you even know what you’re looking at? I’m surprised you don’t recognize her, that’s Nicole’s friend. You’re jumping to a lot of conclusions right now and don’t know what you’re talking about.” Something in my gut didn’t believe it but I wanted to trust that, so I did. I put you out of sight, out of mind. When he got back, he told me how he wished I’d been there with him, we both love history and old buildings, it’s a place we would have found magical together. I don’t know who came up with the idea of going to London, but part of me always thinks I’m the one who put it there when I shared the pictures i had taken when I went there the year we had been no contact.
We went to a Kenny Chesney concert in Charlottesville that March when I got back from my family trip to India, and he got back from London. Between work, us both traveling with our families, we were excited to see one another. We were going to go to St Augustine, but because of the weather, we stayed in Roanoke and saw Kenny Chesney in Charlottesville. The original plan had been to spend the night in Charlottesville at a hotel, but we couldn’t get one last minute so we ended up driving back to Roanoke and sneaking into the basement at his parents house and sleeping in his bed at 3am.
A few months later, we went to Richmond, and stayed the weekend, exploring the city, and watched Hamilton at the Altria Theater. A few months after that, we went to Savannah and Atlanta, where he got a flat tire driving into the garage, and spent the rest of the weekend at a yoga retreat. July, he asked me to go to Boston with him and his brother, for 4th or July weekend, but I couldn’t because my siblings were in town. Every single week, he came down and either stayed with me, or made a quick trip to spend time with me…
This past September, I found out he took you to Justin’s wedding, and I broke. I needed more from him. I have known him, been intimate with him, shared my every fear, worry, I have brought him home cooked meals from DC and surprised him at work with dinner, I’ve made him care packages. I’ve made Ryan Easter baskets and sent him birthday presents and encouraged Jared to put him in academic classes, I’ve helped Jared look into private schools for Ryan, and weighed the pros and cons of the options. I had no expectations in return from him other than, at the very least, a mutual respect and HONESTY.
I’ve seen him quite a few times since September and I last saw him in Roanoke at the beginning of March 2024. We sat in front of each other, in his car before he went into work that Monday night, and he told me, again, that when he thinks of marriage and a future, I’m the only one he pictures a marriage and children with. I’m not saying this to hurt you, or to make a point, I’m saying it because i don’t know what to believe anymore.
I became suspicious of his relationship with you, when he mentioned going to Macchu Picchu and hiking through the mountains. As all women have the ability to find out details they might later regret, I did the same thing. Except I didn’t believe he had actually gone to Macchu Picchu. I knew his passport had been long expired since around or before COVID, and I knew he had renewed it before he went to London. But that was when I realized you were the girl in the photo that Nicole posted. When I confronted him about Macchu Picchu, he told me he had been joking and he had also already told me he’d been joking. He had NEVER told me it was a joke, he had actually refused to show me photos when I asked him for pictures from the trip… he had then proceeded to change the topic, which is what had even raised red flags in my head.
My point is, I have asked him point blank so many times whether you two have a relationship. You tell me you still love me, that you picture marriage and a family with me, but this girl is a part of your life, and you took her to a wedding with you, while I was on a trip with my siblings, you took her to London with you, and you continue to tell me she’s just a friend. I asked him again on Tuesday night/Wednesday Morning after he left work, if you two are dating, and he said no. He asked me why I’m so hyper-fixated on somebody who’s just a friend when he has a million other female friends.
In September, he told me he needed a month to clear his head, that he wanted to commit to me, but he was afraid and that he needed to get over the fear and roadblock of our past break up. I gave him grace and understood. So we took a 4 week break. Some time during that time period, he sent me a snap of doves, and said “doves, and swans mate for life.” He sent me Ed Sheeran songs telling me he wants to find his way back to me. “No Strings Attached… you are the one I love”
In November, he messaged me and told me he had a surprise for me and to look for something in the mail. He loves the Count of Monte Carlo, it’s one of his favorite movies, and he told me it was in reference to that. A few weeks later I got a candle, a silver 400 dollar Buddha candle from Thomson Ferrier. I didn’t understand the reference to the Count of Monte Carlo, but it was a beautiful gesture and present… especially because he knew how much little gestures from him mean to me.
Fast forward to January, I got another 350 dollar black skull candle from him, from Thomson Ferrier. At this point I was upset, angry and livid. I called my sister in tears that evening. I had come back to him because he told me he loved me, that he “has a fire that burns so deeply” when he thinks of me. If i had known that wasn’t true, i would have closed the chapter a year and a half ago. I don’t want $700 worth of gifts and candles, I want more. I want marriage, I want children, I want our lives to move forward, I want communication. Out of anger, I packed up the candle, his sweatshirts and clothes that he had left at my place this past year, and mailed them back to his house. I’m sure it’s sitting somewhere in his basement closet/ bedroom… along with his white Huq sweatshirt, a picture of us I had up in my house, and various articles of clothing.
What upsets me is that he didn’t just involve me this year, he involved my family. He sent my mom presents, my parents in return sent him gifts. My sister, parents and cousins messaged him asking him to come around more. There was no point in involving my family, if he was going to involve himself with you. There was no point in involving himself with me, if he was going to involve himself with you. Those leather Indian shoes sitting in his room, my dad bought those for him. That blue sweater, those green pants and that maroon shirt, my parents bought those for him just this last year.
I don’t know what he’s told you about me, but I will say this. I was your age when we started dating. I was 29 years old. He was single, that’s what everyone in our residency program thought. He would tell everyone how Shari left him one day, all of a sudden just got up and left. “I saw the look behind her eyes just change when she looked at me.” He would tell everyone his horrific dating stories. When i started dating him, there was no doubt in my mind he was single… but I was wrong. He wasn’t single, he was dating Devon, one of the nurses from Carilion, and he had been for the past 4 years prior to that. At one point when he moved to Norfolk, she had even moved in with him. Even Shari was visiting him in Norfolk during this time period. I would have never suspected it, nobody in our residency program did. It wasn’t until one day, when he told me his friends were visiting from home, and they were all going to a concert together, that I found out. Her profile picture was of the two of them together, and her Facebook relationship status said “in a relationship.” Out of my own naivety, i believed him when he told me she was crazy and obsessed with him. He told me, to him, they were just friends but she wanted more. Women do a lot of things, but no woman is dumb enough to think she’s your girlfriend when she’s not. When we moved back to our hometowns, Devon was there waiting for him. He disappeared one day for 24 hours, told me that he was helping his dad’s friend who was stranded in NC. A year and a half later, i would find out that was a lie and that he had been at a concert Florida Georgia Line concert with her. She had been visiting his grandmother with him, staying at his parents home. The irony is that a few weeks after he took her, he took me to the same concert in Scranton. Him and his family didn’t bat an eye when a month later, I showed up and was the “new girlfriend.”
Eventually Devon found out about his lies and left him, but again, stupid me thought she was a crazy girl who just wanted so badly to be with him, that she built their relationship up in her head.
Dignity, respect for humans, empathy, are the most important qualities in a human being.
What I don’t wish is for you to be in my spot in 5 years. He will paint you in his colors, make you fall in love with MB20, and take you to Augustana concerts, he’ll tell you that you understand him, and his heart in a way that nobody else does. He’ll bond with you over music, and send you songs that make you feel he’s talking about you. He is so good at making you feel seen, and involving you with his family. He’ll say he had a vision of a girl that looks like you, coming into his life, and here you are, his soul mate. And one day, the same way that Shari, Devon and I got lost in him, the reality of everything will come pouring down on you. Be careful, there are signs between the lines, and the smiles, and good times. Make sure you don’t miss those, whatever you decide.
My relationship with him, started off just like yours. Another girl on the periphery, and teetering the line of inappropriate. Everything you call him out on, will always have an excuse, and you will believe him because he’s the “good guy” who goes above and beyond for people.
I don’t wish for any woman to go through the pain I’ve gone through, the manipulation, the lies and the emotional abuse. I can’t tell you what to do, but I will say, be careful and don’t be blind to the small things that will one day become huge. The novelty will fade, and though Jared isn’t the devil, he has a lot of growing up to do at 40. It was not okay to toy with me and drag me through the mud this year. It wasn’t okay to minimize his relationship with you and lie to me about it. It’s not okay to, to this day claim to see a life with me and not commit to it. I deserve better, and you deserve better.
How men talk about their ex’s and other women is an indication about how they will one day talk about and treat you. That is the worst and best lesson i have learned. I’m 34, years of my life wasted, and he took another year of my life knowing full well, this is how it would end. He’s sat on the phone with me for hours talking about how stupid PA’s are and if you were going to not be a doctor, at least become an NP, who has better bedside knowledge. Why would he say that, because i suppose you’re a PA and it minimizes the significance of even having a relationship with somebody who isn’t as intelligent as he is. The lack of respect will always be there, you just have to look for it.
Dishonesty, and manipulation are a plague, and if that’s who you are at 40, it is who you will always be unless you recognize that something needs to change. Where there is no accountability, there can be no change. I’m not the exception, I’m the same as the two girls before me. He’ll show you text messages where he never responded to me, even though he replies on Snapchat where every thing is erased. I cannot believe i didn’t see the signs. He will make me look crazy and laugh at me, the same way he showed me messages from Jen, and Elisabeth, and Devon, and made them sound crazy to me. I guess that’s his MO. The same way he told me you were nothing to him.
I was going to send you this message, two months ago… i then decided not to because he convinced me he wasn’t dating you… I saw him less than a month ago in Roanoke, i begged him to tell me that he was in a relationship with you. He said he wasn’t, again, he told me he was going to a wedding alone with only Ryan and that he wasn’t taking you. I then begged him to tell me that we were done and that he didn’t love me anymore. His response was idk what’s going to happen a year from now, i know I’ll see you again. His response every time has been when im ready for a relationship, emotionally, do you want me to finally let you know? I don’t care to be with him anymore. I’m so over it but i really think you should know the type of person you’re dealing with.
He has put me through so much hell for a year and a half of my life, stringing me along acting like he’s doing me a favor while he works on his own mental health and claims to still love me when we are together.”
TLDR: my SO’s ex messaged me saying he’s been seeing both of us for the past year and a half. Has anybody experienced this before. She sent me pictures from the past year of them and their text exchanges
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Message below: “It’s been over a year of me wondering whether I should just come out and ask you or message you… but being afraid that if I do, and I’m wrong, it’ll be a the biggest mistake of my life. I have begged and begged him to tell me what you are to him, and he denies having anything more than a platonic friendship with you.
I want to preface this message with, I have no ill will towards you, I just want some answers… answers I don’t believe I’m going to get from Jared. I don’t know if he’s mentioned anything about me. So here goes…
November 2022, I sent Jared an email, telling him I loved him, missed him, and though I didn’t require a response back, I wanted him to know how sorry I was for everything that had happened and things had ended. He responded with a lengthy email telling me he still fervently loved me and how he too was sorry for how things had ended. That email lead to the last year and a half of events.
December 2022, I drove down to Roanoke and surprised him at the Carilion garage. He left the hospital as fast as he could that night, and we spent the rest of that evening together, catching up, and he left for Key West two days later. Two weeks later, he came up to DC and we had a late birthday celebration for him at Clyde’s in Georgetown and went to see A Christmas Carol at the Ford Theater. A few weeks later we drove to Jersey to see Matchbox20, by now it was the end of January 2023. Almost every week off, for the last year, he would come up and see me, if even for only two days, or I would drive down to Roanoke and spend the week with him. We spoke about our past, the hurt, and future, he told me numerous times that when he pictured marriage and children, it was only with me, but he needed time. This part is important, and I’ll come back to it later. We celebrated my birthday at a restaurant in Navy Yard, two weeks before you guys left for London. Chris video chatted with that night while we were at the restaurant eating Wagyu, and they discussed the new shipment of sunglasses Chris had gotten for Miggieswear.
The weekend of the Super Bowl, he had come seen me earlier that week, the day after he left I came to Roanoke and left the day of the Super Bowl. He told me his parents were having a viewing party and he had to go home and cook. I’m now assuming he left my Airbnb and came to your place.
That February he planned a trip to London, with Nicole, Ryan and Chris, and what he told me were, Nicole’s “friends.” Nicole happened to post a picture of you guys sitting on the plane and I was shocked, why would Nicole’s friend be sitting between him and Ryan. I sent him a message while you were on that 6 hour flight, telling him that if he had been seeing somebody, then why didn’t he tell me? There was no point in us spending time together if he had moved on. His response to me was “do you even know what you’re looking at? I’m surprised you don’t recognize her, that’s Nicole’s friend. You’re jumping to a lot of conclusions right now and don’t know what you’re talking about.” Something in my gut didn’t believe it but I wanted to trust that, so I did. I put you out of sight, out of mind. When he got back, he told me how he wished I’d been there with him, we both love history and old buildings, it’s a place we would have found magical together. I don’t know who came up with the idea of going to London, but part of me always thinks I’m the one who put it there when I shared the pictures i had taken when I went there the year we had been no contact.
We went to a Kenny Chesney concert in Charlottesville that March when I got back from my family trip to India, and he got back from London. Between work, us both traveling with our families, we were excited to see one another. We were going to go to St Augustine, but because of the weather, we stayed in Roanoke and saw Kenny Chesney in Charlottesville. The original plan had been to spend the night in Charlottesville at a hotel, but we couldn’t get one last minute so we ended up driving back to Roanoke and sneaking into the basement at his parents house and sleeping in his bed at 3am.
A few months later, we went to Richmond, and stayed the weekend, exploring the city, and watched Hamilton at the Altria Theater. A few months after that, we went to Savannah and Atlanta, where he got a flat tire driving into the garage, and spent the rest of the weekend at a yoga retreat. July, he asked me to go to Boston with him and his brother, for 4th or July weekend, but I couldn’t because my siblings were in town. Every single week, he came down and either stayed with me, or made a quick trip to spend time with me…
This past September, I found out he took you to Justin’s wedding, and I broke. I needed more from him. I have known him, been intimate with him, shared my every fear, worry, I have brought him home cooked meals from DC and surprised him at work with dinner, I’ve made him care packages. I’ve made Ryan Easter baskets and sent him birthday presents and encouraged Jared to put him in academic classes, I’ve helped Jared look into private schools for Ryan, and weighed the pros and cons of the options. I had no expectations in return from him other than, at the very least, a mutual respect and HONESTY.
I’ve seen him quite a few times since September and I last saw him in Roanoke at the beginning of March 2024. We sat in front of each other, in his car before he went into work that Monday night, and he told me, again, that when he thinks of marriage and a future, I’m the only one he pictures a marriage and children with. I’m not saying this to hurt you, or to make a point, I’m saying it because i don’t know what to believe anymore.
I became suspicious of his relationship with you, when he mentioned going to Macchu Picchu and hiking through the mountains. As all women have the ability to find out details they might later regret, I did the same thing. Except I didn’t believe he had actually gone to Macchu Picchu. I knew his passport had been long expired since around or before COVID, and I knew he had renewed it before he went to London. But that was when I realized you were the girl in the photo that Nicole posted. When I confronted him about Macchu Picchu, he told me he had been joking and he had also already told me he’d been joking. He had NEVER told me it was a joke, he had actually refused to show me photos when I asked him for pictures from the trip… he had then proceeded to change the topic, which is what had even raised red flags in my head.
My point is, I have asked him point blank so many times whether you two have a relationship. You tell me you still love me, that you picture marriage and a family with me, but this girl is a part of your life, and you took her to a wedding with you, while I was on a trip with my siblings, you took her to London with you, and you continue to tell me she’s just a friend. I asked him again on Tuesday night/Wednesday Morning after he left work, if you two are dating, and he said no. He asked me why I’m so hyper-fixated on somebody who’s just a friend when he has a million other female friends.
In September, he told me he needed a month to clear his head, that he wanted to commit to me, but he was afraid and that he needed to get over the fear and roadblock of our past break up. I gave him grace and understood. So we took a 4 week break. Some time during that time period, he sent me a snap of doves, and said “doves, and swans mate for life.” He sent me Ed Sheeran songs telling me he wants to find his way back to me. “No Strings Attached… you are the one I love”
In November, he messaged me and told me he had a surprise for me and to look for something in the mail. He loves the Count of Monte Carlo, it’s one of his favorite movies, and he told me it was in reference to that. A few weeks later I got a candle, a silver 400 dollar Buddha candle from Thomson Ferrier. I didn’t understand the reference to the Count of Monte Carlo, but it was a beautiful gesture and present… especially because he knew how much little gestures from him mean to me.
Fast forward to January, I got another 350 dollar black skull candle from him, from Thomson Ferrier. At this point I was upset, angry and livid. I called my sister in tears that evening. I had come back to him because he told me he loved me, that he “has a fire that burns so deeply” when he thinks of me. If i had known that wasn’t true, i would have closed the chapter a year and a half ago. I don’t want $700 worth of gifts and candles, I want more. I want marriage, I want children, I want our lives to move forward, I want communication. Out of anger, I packed up the candle, his sweatshirts and clothes that he had left at my place this past year, and mailed them back to his house. I’m sure it’s sitting somewhere in his basement closet/ bedroom… along with his white Huq sweatshirt, a picture of us I had up in my house, and various articles of clothing.
What upsets me is that he didn’t just involve me this year, he involved my family. He sent my mom presents, my parents in return sent him gifts. My sister, parents and cousins messaged him asking him to come around more. There was no point in involving my family, if he was going to involve himself with you. There was no point in involving himself with me, if he was going to involve himself with you. Those leather Indian shoes sitting in his room, my dad bought those for him. That blue sweater, those green pants and that maroon shirt, my parents bought those for him just this last year.
I don’t know what he’s told you about me, but I will say this. I was your age when we started dating. I was 29 years old. He was single, that’s what everyone in our residency program thought. He would tell everyone how Shari left him one day, all of a sudden just got up and left. “I saw the look behind her eyes just change when she looked at me.” He would tell everyone his horrific dating stories. When i started dating him, there was no doubt in my mind he was single… but I was wrong. He wasn’t single, he was dating Devon, one of the nurses from Carilion, and he had been for the past 4 years prior to that. At one point when he moved to Norfolk, she had even moved in with him. Even Shari was visiting him in Norfolk during this time period. I would have never suspected it, nobody in our residency program did. It wasn’t until one day, when he told me his friends were visiting from home, and they were all going to a concert together, that I found out. Her profile picture was of the two of them together, and her Facebook relationship status said “in a relationship.” Out of my own naivety, i believed him when he told me she was crazy and obsessed with him. He told me, to him, they were just friends but she wanted more. Women do a lot of things, but no woman is dumb enough to think she’s your girlfriend when she’s not. When we moved back to our hometowns, Devon was there waiting for him. He disappeared one day for 24 hours, told me that he was helping his dad’s friend who was stranded in NC. A year and a half later, i would find out that was a lie and that he had been at a concert Florida Georgia Line concert with her. She had been visiting his grandmother with him, staying at his parents home. The irony is that a few weeks after he took her, he took me to the same concert in Scranton. Him and his family didn’t bat an eye when a month later, I showed up and was the “new girlfriend.”
Eventually Devon found out about his lies and left him, but again, stupid me thought she was a crazy girl who just wanted so badly to be with him, that she built their relationship up in her head.
Dignity, respect for humans, empathy, are the most important qualities in a human being.
What I don’t wish is for you to be in my spot in 5 years. He will paint you in his colors, make you fall in love with MB20, and take you to Augustana concerts, he’ll tell you that you understand him, and his heart in a way that nobody else does. He’ll bond with you over music, and send you songs that make you feel he’s talking about you. He is so good at making you feel seen, and involving you with his family. He’ll say he had a vision of a girl that looks like you, coming into his life, and here you are, his soul mate. And one day, the same way that Shari, Devon and I got lost in him, the reality of everything will come pouring down on you. Be careful, there are signs between the lines, and the smiles, and good times. Make sure you don’t miss those, whatever you decide.
My relationship with him, started off just like yours. Another girl on the periphery, and teetering the line of inappropriate. Everything you call him out on, will always have an excuse, and you will believe him because he’s the “good guy” who goes above and beyond for people.
I don’t wish for any woman to go through the pain I’ve gone through, the manipulation, the lies and the emotional abuse. I can’t tell you what to do, but I will say, be careful and don’t be blind to the small things that will one day become huge. The novelty will fade, and though Jared isn’t the devil, he has a lot of growing up to do at 40. It was not okay to toy with me and drag me through the mud this year. It wasn’t okay to minimize his relationship with you and lie to me about it. It’s not okay to, to this day claim to see a life with me and not commit to it. I deserve better, and you deserve better.
How men talk about their ex’s and other women is an indication about how they will one day talk about and treat you. That is the worst and best lesson i have learned. I’m 34, years of my life wasted, and he took another year of my life knowing full well, this is how it would end. He’s sat on the phone with me for hours talking about how stupid PA’s are and if you were going to not be a doctor, at least become an NP, who has better bedside knowledge. Why would he say that, because i suppose you’re a PA and it minimizes the significance of even having a relationship with somebody who isn’t as intelligent as he is. The lack of respect will always be there, you just have to look for it.
Dishonesty, and manipulation are a plague, and if that’s who you are at 40, it is who you will always be unless you recognize that something needs to change. Where there is no accountability, there can be no change. I’m not the exception, I’m the same as the two girls before me. He’ll show you text messages where he never responded to me, even though he replies on Snapchat where every thing is erased. I cannot believe i didn’t see the signs. He will make me look crazy and laugh at me, the same way he showed me messages from Jen, and Elisabeth, and Devon, and made them sound crazy to me. I guess that’s his MO. The same way he told me you were nothing to him.
I was going to send you this message, two months ago… i then decided not to because he convinced me he wasn’t dating you… I saw him less than a month ago in Roanoke, i begged him to tell me that he was in a relationship with you. He said he wasn’t, again, he told me he was going to a wedding alone with only Ryan and that he wasn’t taking you. I then begged him to tell me that we were done and that he didn’t love me anymore. His response was idk what’s going to happen a year from now, i know I’ll see you again. His response every time has been when im ready for a relationship, emotionally, do you want me to finally let you know? I don’t care to be with him anymore. I’m so over it but i really think you should know the type of person you’re dealing with.
He has put me through so much hell for a year and a half of my life, stringing me along acting like he’s doing me a favor while he works on his own mental health and claims to still love me when we are together.”
TLDR: my SO’s ex messaged me saying he’s been seeing both of us for the past year and a half. Has anybody experienced this before. She sent me pictures from the past year of them and their text exchanges
2024.05.14 02:21 DarkAlley614 Just a Vent Rant or Lament
TW/CW: Family abuse, helicopter parents, lack of autonomy, etc.
We are a system dating a system. Long distance (10000+ miles). Met them before, in-person, for a week.
System wide we speak daily and used to go on video chats as we go about our day (as with a lot of long distance relationships). They used to live away from their abusive mother as they were in college and live on a college managed apartment.
Recently they got academically suspended and while they technically could still live there as long as they passed some background checks (such as criminal records etc), their mum threatened to accuse them of stealing their car and call the police on them if they refuse to move back with her. And according to our partner system, their mom always has a way to lie to the police to get them to believe them.
Even whilst living away from their mother, they have been under the vice grip of their mom. They are bodily 22 and we are bodily 34. Even whilst living away, all their electronics are tracked (apple brand) by their mum, with parental controls, their bank is monitored by their mom (we don't know how but the account is under our partner system's name and it's a personal account), and they financially depend on their mom. They are sometimes told by their mom they aren't allowed to have friends.
Their mom has their DID diagnostic reports but still remains in denial of their DID.
Oftentimes their mom will call them, usually daily, sometimes multiple times a day, only to micromanage them, treat them like they are some 6 year old with zero autonomy respected, and giving them constant overwhelming stress that their trauma responses bleeds into our partnership. Quarrels with their mom on the phone everyday.
Now because of the academic suspension, and even though they could still continue to live where they used to live (next to the college), their mom, via threats as mentioned above, forced them to move back with her. They are now living with her.
We as a system cannot fathom how much problems their mom would cause them. We pain for them. And they would be under constant CCTV monitoring with audio with kinda zero privacy. As of now they probably can't even leave the house "without valid reason", nevermind that they are a legal adult.
Now they can't even update their apps from the app store because their mom disabled the entire apple account via parental controls and they can't even download an app for DID therapy (our DID therapist found them one). Specifically Telehealth. Now they can't even download an app for therapy. And God forbid their mom finds out they are going for therapy for DID.
Oh wait. Did I also mention? They don't have money for therapy. And finding their mom for therapy money isn't going to work out if she's going to find out it's for their DID, seeing an ISSTD certified therapist. And how is therapy going to be confidential if they are going to be monitored by a sound enabled CCTV anyway? Good grief.
Oh forgot to mention. Even their mom has access to their email account. And now they are living with her.
We will miss what we usually do with them while they weren't living with their mom. So much more when this is a hyper long distance relationship. We are fighting for their right to autonomy as well as access to DID therapy. We want to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
End of rant. Thank you for listening.
Tim
Secondary Protector
Memory Gatekeeper
Relationship Protector
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We are a system dating a system. Long distance (10000+ miles). Met them before, in-person, for a week.
System wide we speak daily and used to go on video chats as we go about our day (as with a lot of long distance relationships). They used to live away from their abusive mother as they were in college and live on a college managed apartment.
Recently they got academically suspended and while they technically could still live there as long as they passed some background checks (such as criminal records etc), their mum threatened to accuse them of stealing their car and call the police on them if they refuse to move back with her. And according to our partner system, their mom always has a way to lie to the police to get them to believe them.
Even whilst living away from their mother, they have been under the vice grip of their mom. They are bodily 22 and we are bodily 34. Even whilst living away, all their electronics are tracked (apple brand) by their mum, with parental controls, their bank is monitored by their mom (we don't know how but the account is under our partner system's name and it's a personal account), and they financially depend on their mom. They are sometimes told by their mom they aren't allowed to have friends.
Their mom has their DID diagnostic reports but still remains in denial of their DID.
Oftentimes their mom will call them, usually daily, sometimes multiple times a day, only to micromanage them, treat them like they are some 6 year old with zero autonomy respected, and giving them constant overwhelming stress that their trauma responses bleeds into our partnership. Quarrels with their mom on the phone everyday.
Now because of the academic suspension, and even though they could still continue to live where they used to live (next to the college), their mom, via threats as mentioned above, forced them to move back with her. They are now living with her.
We as a system cannot fathom how much problems their mom would cause them. We pain for them. And they would be under constant CCTV monitoring with audio with kinda zero privacy. As of now they probably can't even leave the house "without valid reason", nevermind that they are a legal adult.
Now they can't even update their apps from the app store because their mom disabled the entire apple account via parental controls and they can't even download an app for DID therapy (our DID therapist found them one). Specifically Telehealth. Now they can't even download an app for therapy. And God forbid their mom finds out they are going for therapy for DID.
Oh wait. Did I also mention? They don't have money for therapy. And finding their mom for therapy money isn't going to work out if she's going to find out it's for their DID, seeing an ISSTD certified therapist. And how is therapy going to be confidential if they are going to be monitored by a sound enabled CCTV anyway? Good grief.
Oh forgot to mention. Even their mom has access to their email account. And now they are living with her.
We will miss what we usually do with them while they weren't living with their mom. So much more when this is a hyper long distance relationship. We are fighting for their right to autonomy as well as access to DID therapy. We want to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
End of rant. Thank you for listening.
Tim
Secondary Protector
Memory Gatekeeper
Relationship Protector
2024.05.14 02:11 90s_TV_Commercials 31/M - Looking for some post work chats
I’m relaxing post work, hanging out with my cat and wouldn’t mind some people to chat with.
My discord has been kinda slow lately and needs to be cleaned out and filled with some new peeps to talk to.
I don’t have many requirements except that you’re talkative. I don’t like dry conversations any more than Anakin Skywalker likes sand. Also at least 25/26 years of age yeah?
Me: Plays golf horribly, enjoys spicy food, long walks on the beach, video games and has a slight problem buying books when I already have stuff to read.
Massively dislikes spiders and aggressive hornets but otherwise likes animals, especially frogs and my cat who is a Royal pain in my ass.
I like fantasy of varying sorts, spooky stuff and cold weather, sweet tea, thinking about what I’d do if I won the lottery, and wishing I didn’t have a fear of flying. Hates radishes but likes water chestnuts even though they’re basically the same thing.
I like lame jokes and geeking out about nonsense. Let’s talk about our hopes and dreams for the future.
just looking for people who match my vibe. If you think that’s you then shoot me a message with a little about yourself!
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My discord has been kinda slow lately and needs to be cleaned out and filled with some new peeps to talk to.
I don’t have many requirements except that you’re talkative. I don’t like dry conversations any more than Anakin Skywalker likes sand. Also at least 25/26 years of age yeah?
Me: Plays golf horribly, enjoys spicy food, long walks on the beach, video games and has a slight problem buying books when I already have stuff to read.
Massively dislikes spiders and aggressive hornets but otherwise likes animals, especially frogs and my cat who is a Royal pain in my ass.
I like fantasy of varying sorts, spooky stuff and cold weather, sweet tea, thinking about what I’d do if I won the lottery, and wishing I didn’t have a fear of flying. Hates radishes but likes water chestnuts even though they’re basically the same thing.
I like lame jokes and geeking out about nonsense. Let’s talk about our hopes and dreams for the future.
just looking for people who match my vibe. If you think that’s you then shoot me a message with a little about yourself!
2024.05.14 02:02 Key_Economy1921 [TOMT][Youtube animated video][2010s-2020s] 2d animated video about two boys (or girls) and one of them is a monster who runs away after being found out.
A 2d animated video about two boys (or girls, can’t remember but the comments were talking about how it was gay) and one of them is some kind of monster, creature or demon. One of the boys has slightly tan skin and dark gray hair while the other (the monster) has red skin, white hair, horns(?) and white wings. I think the video starts by showing the monster boy with his previous lover, who gets killed, so the monster boy runs away and then meets with the human. The human boy befriends him and helps his friend hide his appearance by painting (?) him so he can blend in with the humans. They live together and everything seems perfect until something wrong eventually happens and the monster boy, distraught by the almost being found out, asks his friend to cut off his wings. A scene ensues in which the human struggles to cut off the wing, seeing how much pain the monster boy is in, he decides to not cut the other one. The monster boy then escapes I think, not wanting his friend to get in trouble for hiding him from the humans. That is where my memory ends, but I do remember that the ending features the pair reunited and they travel to some grassy plains in which they can be together in peace.
It could have very well been a music video, it certainly had the vibes of one. I’ve searched high and low for it with no avail, if it’s unavailable it’s fine, I just want a name attached to this memory. Thank you very much for your help!
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It could have very well been a music video, it certainly had the vibes of one. I’ve searched high and low for it with no avail, if it’s unavailable it’s fine, I just want a name attached to this memory. Thank you very much for your help!
2024.05.14 01:58 Mega-Pert Why exactly do people still recommend Gamecube controllers so often?
Disclaimer: I am not good at the game. I've played for the better part of 3 years very casually, am capable of semi-decent tech skill with limited consistency, and have never entered a tournament in any variety. I currently use a ProGCC, but I've used the GCC a couple of times from either just trying it out randomly or at parties and whatnot.
When I started melee, I had access to both a GCC and Switch procon, but went with procon since that was what I was using to play Ultimate at the time. I've never once felt like being on a procon has been disadvantageous at any point (other than shield dropping, that took a long time to get used to without notches). Box controllers have light shield macros, so I've also configured those into my Dolphin settings since the procon only has digital inputs. I've never had hand pain, never needed to claw, and never struggled with many of the inputs that people seem to complain about with the game.
I've heard so many conflicting takes on the GameCube controller at this point. YouTube videos and comments alike seem to love praising it for its practicality and whatnot, and I've heard many people go as far as to praise its ergonomics. I saw in another thread posted not long ago that many people are still preaching how important a GameCube controller is to start the game. At the same time, we have people switching from GCC to box-style controllers because it has irreparably damaged their hands. To the casual player, claw feels like shit, but not being able to jump and special quickly feels even worse.
All's to say, what is the actual consensus? If the ergonomics of the GameCube controller are bad to the point that players swap off it, why doesn't anyone ever even consider trying another controller type other than a box?
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When I started melee, I had access to both a GCC and Switch procon, but went with procon since that was what I was using to play Ultimate at the time. I've never once felt like being on a procon has been disadvantageous at any point (other than shield dropping, that took a long time to get used to without notches). Box controllers have light shield macros, so I've also configured those into my Dolphin settings since the procon only has digital inputs. I've never had hand pain, never needed to claw, and never struggled with many of the inputs that people seem to complain about with the game.
I've heard so many conflicting takes on the GameCube controller at this point. YouTube videos and comments alike seem to love praising it for its practicality and whatnot, and I've heard many people go as far as to praise its ergonomics. I saw in another thread posted not long ago that many people are still preaching how important a GameCube controller is to start the game. At the same time, we have people switching from GCC to box-style controllers because it has irreparably damaged their hands. To the casual player, claw feels like shit, but not being able to jump and special quickly feels even worse.
All's to say, what is the actual consensus? If the ergonomics of the GameCube controller are bad to the point that players swap off it, why doesn't anyone ever even consider trying another controller type other than a box?
2024.05.14 01:55 zman972112 Astra Protocol 2 poor performance
I have the Steam version. I have to set the resolution of my monitor to a very low setting to get it to run anywhere near a bearable speed. I have also disconnected a second monitor because I saw something about using an older library for graphics, and being slow with multiple monitors. I'm running on Windows.
Changing my resolution and such is a pain in the butt. Is there any advice specifically for this game? My computer runs most all games just fine.
I'm using the command "SELF DESTRUCT" to kind of check the speed ... I expect the 10 second countdown to be somewhat close to 10 seconds. The best I'm able to achieve appears to be less than half-speed.
This game appears very interesting, and I like the idea of the steep learning curve, but this performance bottleneck is getting in the way. I didn't even realize it was SOOO SLOOOW until I watched a video on YouTube and realized this :D
Considering what I've seen, and the size of the game itself, it should be very performant. During one of my attempts, some NPC ship knocked an asteroid into another and watching the event unfold on the scanner was quite interesting. Too bad it was so damned slow ...
submitted by zman972112 to spacesimgames [link] [comments]
Changing my resolution and such is a pain in the butt. Is there any advice specifically for this game? My computer runs most all games just fine.
I'm using the command "SELF DESTRUCT" to kind of check the speed ... I expect the 10 second countdown to be somewhat close to 10 seconds. The best I'm able to achieve appears to be less than half-speed.
This game appears very interesting, and I like the idea of the steep learning curve, but this performance bottleneck is getting in the way. I didn't even realize it was SOOO SLOOOW until I watched a video on YouTube and realized this :D
Considering what I've seen, and the size of the game itself, it should be very performant. During one of my attempts, some NPC ship knocked an asteroid into another and watching the event unfold on the scanner was quite interesting. Too bad it was so damned slow ...
2024.05.14 01:48 annalisimo My experience with Dr. Kasey Li's EASE procedure - 5 DAYS Post Op
I did EASE expansion with Dr. Kasey Li. This is what my EASE experience has been like.
This is a pretty niche and long post, but I’ve been going through this expansion process as a 32 year old woman, going through my first week of expansion. I figured I’d share my experience as I know how much I was eating up these posts during my research. I also made a video that's a bit less detailed if that is more digestible.
Here is a breakdown of my experience day by day.
Day 0, Wednesday:
Had surgery at Stanford hospital and aside from a mild billing heart attack they gave me, it was a great experience. Kind, knowledgeable staff, great bedside manner. After surgery I woke up and could immediately breathe better. Nasal breathing feels like moving from a coffee straw to a regular size straw. Swallowing and talking were out of the question with the TPD in my mouth though. Took about 90 minutes to wake up and then I was released.
The first night was ROUGH. I maybe slept for 4 hours. Woke up repeatedly with bleeding. Finally stopped trying to sleep and reached out to Dr. Li at 6 am because my mouth was FULL of congealed blood.
Day 1, Thursday:
I was supposed to have my first follow up appointment on Friday, but due to the bleeding Dr Li came in bright and early at 6:30 am. He responded to my 6am text within 5 minutes and was like “How soon can you get to my office? I’ll be there”. We rushed over and he gave me some local anesthetic injections and cauterized the surgical site. He made sure I was very comfortable and that the bleeding had stopped before sending me home. The rest of the day went pretty smoothly. Swelling got much worse this day. Had to ice pretty much constantly to keep it down. Definitely uncomfortable but I had really good pain management.
Day 2, Friday:
Had my official follow up appointment and he turned the device for the first time. Turning was weird but not painful. Gave me some more injections as I had had a bit more bleeding on the opposite side. The swelling got intense this day. My cheeks were huge and hot and I was having a bit more jaw pain. Dr Li said my pain and swelling would peak around 48 hours and that was definitely the case. I just took my meds, rotated between ice and heat and overall had a smooth day with some bleeding again over night.
Day 3, Saturday:
Woke up with more (but far less) congealed blood in my mouth. Texted him at 9:20 AM to see what I should do and he texted back immediately saying meet me at the office at 10. Performed injections to stop the bleeding, cauterize, rinse and repeat. He sends me home. Still eating only a liquid diet. Still swollen. But not uncomfortable like it was. Not really icing much at this point, mostly focusing on heat, and feeling pretty human. Can go on walks and had a tiny bit of pasta (the most solid food I’ve had at this point). There is a tiny bit of bleeding at one point but it stops quickly and I go about my day pretty much normal and for the first time have no bleeding through the night!
Day 4, Sunday:
Slept great, no blood. Swelling still very present but going down. Was able to walk around, get around the city, virtually no jaw pain until about 4 pm when truly out of nowhere my incision site where the appliance is placed starts bleeding AGAIN. I quickly try to gently catch the blood by packing in gauze trying to stop the bleeding and avoid going into the office as it was Mother’s Day.
It bleeds through the gauze for 1.5 hours and I finally reach out to Dr. Li. He once again responds almost immediately and tells me I can come into the office or try and stop it, but that his preference is always to see patients in person. I try to get it to stop for about another hour with a couple false stops, but I’m unsuccessful yet again, so I make my way to the office where he meets me at almost 8:00 PM. He is very kind and understanding and just says “Shit happens, I’m there for my patients”.
He injects me, cauterizes it again, tells me I should stop talking advil as that can be an anticoagulant and is just very kind and understanding. I was supposed to have my second follow up on Monday morning, but he turns my device for me for the second time that night instead to try and avoid me having to go into the office again the next day. Turning is still uncomfy but not painful. He waits with me to make sure the site is stable, and then waits with me outside while wait for my ride.
Day 5, Monday:
Woke up with no blood in my mouth, swelling still going down. Pain levels very minimal. Breathing feeling smoother. My left TMJ (which I’ve had issues with in the past is more crackly and sore than usual, so I’m watching that carefully. So far so good. Just staying in bed and hoping to make it through the day/night with no bleeding.
Impressions so far:
I’ve had the most bleeding of any patient Li has had by far. Not totally sure what that’s about, and I’m sad I had to be the first, but the way he responds and handled my case made me SO HAPPY I just spent the money and went with him. No other doctor I've ever had has given me this level of care.
He is expensive, but he is worth EVERY penny because when you’re his patient, you feel like a priority. I traveled for the procedure (meaning 3 weeks away from home) and was really out of my element and comfort zone and had more complications than most of his previous patients (he said about 5% have repeat bleeding after surgery, but that the amount I had was an anomaly.)
My breathing is better, and will continue to improve as I expand. Even with the TPD device in that is taking up most of my palate, I have so. much. more. space for my tongue. It feels really good! My bite is weird now that my upper jaw is larger and that’s going to take some getting used to. And my TMJ is a bit sore.
Things to avoid week 1:
No straws. No vigorous exercise. No lifting over 10lbs. No hot foods/drinks. No hard/chewy foods. No nose blowing. I’d recommend staying away from herbs like garlic or ginger as they thin the blood I don't know if that was part of my problem, he said sometimes these things just happen and there was nothing I did wrong, but I'd just recommend staying away from any foods that can thin the blood and research them ahead of time. I'm vegan, and now I know that a lot of fruits/veg can thin the blood. So if you're veggie like me or try to eat a lot of "health foods" tread carefully. Have lots of gauze on hand.
Ask me anything. I'm here for another 1.5 weeks and am pretty bored. Happy so answer any questions about Dr. Li or EASE!
submitted by annalisimo to orthotropics [link] [comments]
This is a pretty niche and long post, but I’ve been going through this expansion process as a 32 year old woman, going through my first week of expansion. I figured I’d share my experience as I know how much I was eating up these posts during my research. I also made a video that's a bit less detailed if that is more digestible.
Here is a breakdown of my experience day by day.
Day 0, Wednesday:
Had surgery at Stanford hospital and aside from a mild billing heart attack they gave me, it was a great experience. Kind, knowledgeable staff, great bedside manner. After surgery I woke up and could immediately breathe better. Nasal breathing feels like moving from a coffee straw to a regular size straw. Swallowing and talking were out of the question with the TPD in my mouth though. Took about 90 minutes to wake up and then I was released.
The first night was ROUGH. I maybe slept for 4 hours. Woke up repeatedly with bleeding. Finally stopped trying to sleep and reached out to Dr. Li at 6 am because my mouth was FULL of congealed blood.
Day 1, Thursday:
I was supposed to have my first follow up appointment on Friday, but due to the bleeding Dr Li came in bright and early at 6:30 am. He responded to my 6am text within 5 minutes and was like “How soon can you get to my office? I’ll be there”. We rushed over and he gave me some local anesthetic injections and cauterized the surgical site. He made sure I was very comfortable and that the bleeding had stopped before sending me home. The rest of the day went pretty smoothly. Swelling got much worse this day. Had to ice pretty much constantly to keep it down. Definitely uncomfortable but I had really good pain management.
Day 2, Friday:
Had my official follow up appointment and he turned the device for the first time. Turning was weird but not painful. Gave me some more injections as I had had a bit more bleeding on the opposite side. The swelling got intense this day. My cheeks were huge and hot and I was having a bit more jaw pain. Dr Li said my pain and swelling would peak around 48 hours and that was definitely the case. I just took my meds, rotated between ice and heat and overall had a smooth day with some bleeding again over night.
Day 3, Saturday:
Woke up with more (but far less) congealed blood in my mouth. Texted him at 9:20 AM to see what I should do and he texted back immediately saying meet me at the office at 10. Performed injections to stop the bleeding, cauterize, rinse and repeat. He sends me home. Still eating only a liquid diet. Still swollen. But not uncomfortable like it was. Not really icing much at this point, mostly focusing on heat, and feeling pretty human. Can go on walks and had a tiny bit of pasta (the most solid food I’ve had at this point). There is a tiny bit of bleeding at one point but it stops quickly and I go about my day pretty much normal and for the first time have no bleeding through the night!
Day 4, Sunday:
Slept great, no blood. Swelling still very present but going down. Was able to walk around, get around the city, virtually no jaw pain until about 4 pm when truly out of nowhere my incision site where the appliance is placed starts bleeding AGAIN. I quickly try to gently catch the blood by packing in gauze trying to stop the bleeding and avoid going into the office as it was Mother’s Day.
It bleeds through the gauze for 1.5 hours and I finally reach out to Dr. Li. He once again responds almost immediately and tells me I can come into the office or try and stop it, but that his preference is always to see patients in person. I try to get it to stop for about another hour with a couple false stops, but I’m unsuccessful yet again, so I make my way to the office where he meets me at almost 8:00 PM. He is very kind and understanding and just says “Shit happens, I’m there for my patients”.
He injects me, cauterizes it again, tells me I should stop talking advil as that can be an anticoagulant and is just very kind and understanding. I was supposed to have my second follow up on Monday morning, but he turns my device for me for the second time that night instead to try and avoid me having to go into the office again the next day. Turning is still uncomfy but not painful. He waits with me to make sure the site is stable, and then waits with me outside while wait for my ride.
Day 5, Monday:
Woke up with no blood in my mouth, swelling still going down. Pain levels very minimal. Breathing feeling smoother. My left TMJ (which I’ve had issues with in the past is more crackly and sore than usual, so I’m watching that carefully. So far so good. Just staying in bed and hoping to make it through the day/night with no bleeding.
Impressions so far:
I’ve had the most bleeding of any patient Li has had by far. Not totally sure what that’s about, and I’m sad I had to be the first, but the way he responds and handled my case made me SO HAPPY I just spent the money and went with him. No other doctor I've ever had has given me this level of care.
He is expensive, but he is worth EVERY penny because when you’re his patient, you feel like a priority. I traveled for the procedure (meaning 3 weeks away from home) and was really out of my element and comfort zone and had more complications than most of his previous patients (he said about 5% have repeat bleeding after surgery, but that the amount I had was an anomaly.)
My breathing is better, and will continue to improve as I expand. Even with the TPD device in that is taking up most of my palate, I have so. much. more. space for my tongue. It feels really good! My bite is weird now that my upper jaw is larger and that’s going to take some getting used to. And my TMJ is a bit sore.
Things to avoid week 1:
No straws. No vigorous exercise. No lifting over 10lbs. No hot foods/drinks. No hard/chewy foods. No nose blowing. I’d recommend staying away from herbs like garlic or ginger as they thin the blood I don't know if that was part of my problem, he said sometimes these things just happen and there was nothing I did wrong, but I'd just recommend staying away from any foods that can thin the blood and research them ahead of time. I'm vegan, and now I know that a lot of fruits/veg can thin the blood. So if you're veggie like me or try to eat a lot of "health foods" tread carefully. Have lots of gauze on hand.
Ask me anything. I'm here for another 1.5 weeks and am pretty bored. Happy so answer any questions about Dr. Li or EASE!
2024.05.14 01:40 Doomer____ 24 [M4F] (Germany/Europe) - I don't feel terribly alone.. or maybe it's a comfort lie, I wish that at the end of the day I could talk to my person and nights weren't so empty
I find myself deeply longing for a sincere and profound connection. Hopefully, you are looking for the same?
I think most of us are afraid in some sense to love and to be completely vulnerable yet despite the risk we long for it.
The capacity to love, sometimes even in the face of pain, is one of the most beautiful aspects of being human. It's a strength, and not always a weakness.
At my core, I'm a person of love, of care, of deep unyielding affection for those I hold dear.
Through the journey of healing and self-discovery, I've realized that I have much love to share. Love that is not bitter, but kind; not resentful, but forgiving; not closed, but open and willing to grow alongside someone special.
I'm sincere in my attempt to forge a connection and hope you are too, I'd try to share things about me that might give you idea of the person I am.
Essence of Me:
I am a mix of old-school romance and modern sensibility, holding onto the ideals of loyalty and sincerity. I think handwritten notes, surprise dates, and the belief that small gestures make a big difference. I am someone who thrives on deep connections and meaningful interactions.
I’m someone who believes in the power of midnight conversations, in the healing balm of shared laughter, and in the silent solidarity of presence.
I believe in the power of empathy and the importance of being there for those who matter, even if it's a call at 3 AM. I value integrity, kindness, and a good/weird sense of humor. I find beauty in the mundane, the kind of person who finds joy in the little things and believes in taking the time to truly understand and appreciate others.
Physical Attributes:
I find solace in music that echoes my moods, books that transport me to other worlds, and quiet moments in nature that ground me. I cherish activities that nurture growth, whether they're intellectual debates, serene walks, or shared laughs over coffee. I'm drawn to the arts as much as to the simple pleasure of a sunset.. I also have a keen interest in cooking and experimenting with new recipes, finding the act of creating something delicious for others as a form of expression and care.
To sum up some typical interests include: Philosophy, nature, languages, books, reading, writing, video games, sports, art, poetry, travelling etc
What I Am Looking For:
I'm in search of someone who values open and honest communication as much as I do. Someone who understands that relationships are about growth, learning, and supporting each other through life's myriad challenges and joys. I am looking for someone who is eager to prioritize getting to know each other, willing to open their heart, and ready to build something meaningful together.
Expectations:
What am I seeking? Not a perfect person, but a real one. Someone whose heart speaks the language of kindness, whose spirit dances to the tune of sincerity. I dream of a connection where words are just the beginning, where vulnerability is not a weakness but our strongest bond. I yearn for a love that’s both a safe harbor and a grand adventure, a partnership built on mutual respect, understanding, and the shared bravery of baring one’s soul.
I seek a fellow traveler in this journey of life, one who understands that while our pasts may shape us, they do not define us. Someone who stands at the intersection of hope and reality, ready to embark on a path not devoid of challenges but rich with the promise of true companionship.
Epilogue of Hope:
If my words have stirred something in your heart, if you too are navigating the vast oceans of life in search of a genuine connection, then perhaps we are two stars meant to align in the constellation of fate. I extend my hand, my heart, and my story to you – not in desperation, but with the quiet confidence of one who has faced the night and yearns for the dawn.
Laconic messages with just "hi", "what's up," "I have a question," and the likes will be most likely ignored. If I can beat my own laconism when introducing myself here, so can you.
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I think most of us are afraid in some sense to love and to be completely vulnerable yet despite the risk we long for it.
The capacity to love, sometimes even in the face of pain, is one of the most beautiful aspects of being human. It's a strength, and not always a weakness.
At my core, I'm a person of love, of care, of deep unyielding affection for those I hold dear.
Through the journey of healing and self-discovery, I've realized that I have much love to share. Love that is not bitter, but kind; not resentful, but forgiving; not closed, but open and willing to grow alongside someone special.
I'm sincere in my attempt to forge a connection and hope you are too, I'd try to share things about me that might give you idea of the person I am.
Essence of Me:
I am a mix of old-school romance and modern sensibility, holding onto the ideals of loyalty and sincerity. I think handwritten notes, surprise dates, and the belief that small gestures make a big difference. I am someone who thrives on deep connections and meaningful interactions.
I’m someone who believes in the power of midnight conversations, in the healing balm of shared laughter, and in the silent solidarity of presence.
I believe in the power of empathy and the importance of being there for those who matter, even if it's a call at 3 AM. I value integrity, kindness, and a good/weird sense of humor. I find beauty in the mundane, the kind of person who finds joy in the little things and believes in taking the time to truly understand and appreciate others.
Physical Attributes:
- Height: 5'11" (181cm)
- Build: Slim
- Hair: Deep black, kept in check
- Eyes: Light, sometimes dark brown :3
- Beard: Short, fashionable, and pristinely groomed
- Complexion: FaiTanned
I find solace in music that echoes my moods, books that transport me to other worlds, and quiet moments in nature that ground me. I cherish activities that nurture growth, whether they're intellectual debates, serene walks, or shared laughs over coffee. I'm drawn to the arts as much as to the simple pleasure of a sunset.. I also have a keen interest in cooking and experimenting with new recipes, finding the act of creating something delicious for others as a form of expression and care.
To sum up some typical interests include: Philosophy, nature, languages, books, reading, writing, video games, sports, art, poetry, travelling etc
What I Am Looking For:
I'm in search of someone who values open and honest communication as much as I do. Someone who understands that relationships are about growth, learning, and supporting each other through life's myriad challenges and joys. I am looking for someone who is eager to prioritize getting to know each other, willing to open their heart, and ready to build something meaningful together.
Expectations:
- Mutual respect and understanding
- Openness and honesty in communication
- A shared desire to prioritize our relationship and growth
- An interest in exploring life's depths and joys together
What am I seeking? Not a perfect person, but a real one. Someone whose heart speaks the language of kindness, whose spirit dances to the tune of sincerity. I dream of a connection where words are just the beginning, where vulnerability is not a weakness but our strongest bond. I yearn for a love that’s both a safe harbor and a grand adventure, a partnership built on mutual respect, understanding, and the shared bravery of baring one’s soul.
I seek a fellow traveler in this journey of life, one who understands that while our pasts may shape us, they do not define us. Someone who stands at the intersection of hope and reality, ready to embark on a path not devoid of challenges but rich with the promise of true companionship.
Epilogue of Hope:
If my words have stirred something in your heart, if you too are navigating the vast oceans of life in search of a genuine connection, then perhaps we are two stars meant to align in the constellation of fate. I extend my hand, my heart, and my story to you – not in desperation, but with the quiet confidence of one who has faced the night and yearns for the dawn.
Laconic messages with just "hi", "what's up," "I have a question," and the likes will be most likely ignored. If I can beat my own laconism when introducing myself here, so can you.
2024.05.14 01:40 RoyalAd4228 Did anyone else did kind of messed up mentally by the experience of surgery?
I'm more than 3 wks post op and am still having a really hard time getting pleasure from anything or sticking to a schedule. I know everyone says to make a list of video games movies etc to watch but I genuinely did not do much of anything for most of those 3 weeks because of my mental state. I'm sort of going back to normal now in terms of energy levels but it's hard not to cry and cry for at least an hour a day lol, I feel really emotionally shaken up.
I've been crying a lot especially since having left my parent's place a few days ago. I think I figured out why I couldn't do anything to distract myself post op, and why I've been crying so much, and it's something that I don't think is talked about enough. Honestly, the experience itself of having top surgery can be really scary-I hesitate to use the word "trauma" because I don't want to trivialise people who have PTSD and whatnot. It feels ridiculous to be "traumatised" from an elective surgery that I literally wanted and am happy with the results of. However my symptoms at this point do kind of mimic some sort of post-trauma response and I'm wondering if others have had a similar experience.
My mind keeps going back to being in the operating room. I was being put under and I guess my heart rate or something really spiked. I remember the doctors looking kind of panicked or rushed, like something bad was happening. I've never been so scared in my life, and as I faded away I felt completely alone in the world, like I needed someone in my life like my parents or a friend to be next to me but I didn't have anyone because it was the OR. Even typing this is making me relive it, I feel so silly to be so emotionally effected by those 5 minutes but it's really messing me up.
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I've been crying a lot especially since having left my parent's place a few days ago. I think I figured out why I couldn't do anything to distract myself post op, and why I've been crying so much, and it's something that I don't think is talked about enough. Honestly, the experience itself of having top surgery can be really scary-I hesitate to use the word "trauma" because I don't want to trivialise people who have PTSD and whatnot. It feels ridiculous to be "traumatised" from an elective surgery that I literally wanted and am happy with the results of. However my symptoms at this point do kind of mimic some sort of post-trauma response and I'm wondering if others have had a similar experience.
My mind keeps going back to being in the operating room. I was being put under and I guess my heart rate or something really spiked. I remember the doctors looking kind of panicked or rushed, like something bad was happening. I've never been so scared in my life, and as I faded away I felt completely alone in the world, like I needed someone in my life like my parents or a friend to be next to me but I didn't have anyone because it was the OR. Even typing this is making me relive it, I feel so silly to be so emotionally effected by those 5 minutes but it's really messing me up.
Side note, but of course there also is the terror of having to learn how to do wound care on your own (I wasnt really shown that stuff at all by any nurses or doctors at the hospital), which I think also has left a mark on me mentally. I didn't GET to relax, play games, and watch lots of TV. I didn't get to just be happy that my chest is male now. Instead I was frantically googling and basically doing a crash course on wound care and nursing stuff, which of course scared me in the process because I kept convincing myself I had horrible infections. I think I am also carrying a bit of pain over how stressed I was for the first two weeks.Anyway! Didn't want this to be a big emotional dump, but just thought maybe some of y'all could relate? or maybe it's just me, that's ok too. But to anyone who is about to have the surgery and is maybe as mentally ill as I am, don't be scared, but also prepare to have emotional support after surgery because although I know about post op depression I totally didn't anticipate this specifically.
2024.05.14 01:38 Doomer____ 24 [M4F] (Germany/Europe) - I don't feel terribly alone.. or maybe it's a comfort lie, I wish that at the end of the day I could talk to my person and nights weren't so empty
I find myself deeply longing for a sincere and profound connection. Hopefully, you are looking for the same?
I think most of us are afraid in some sense to love and to be completely vulnerable yet despite the risk we long for it.
The capacity to love, sometimes even in the face of pain, is one of the most beautiful aspects of being human. It's a strength, and not always a weakness.
At my core, I'm a person of love, of care, of deep unyielding affection for those I hold dear.
Through the journey of healing and self-discovery, I've realized that I have much love to share. Love that is not bitter, but kind; not resentful, but forgiving; not closed, but open and willing to grow alongside someone special.
I'm sincere in my attempt to forge a connection and hope you are too, I'd try to share things about me that might give you idea of the person I am.
Essence of Me:
I am a mix of old-school romance and modern sensibility, holding onto the ideals of loyalty and sincerity. I think handwritten notes, surprise dates, and the belief that small gestures make a big difference. I am someone who thrives on deep connections and meaningful interactions.
I’m someone who believes in the power of midnight conversations, in the healing balm of shared laughter, and in the silent solidarity of presence.
I believe in the power of empathy and the importance of being there for those who matter, even if it's a call at 3 AM. I value integrity, kindness, and a good/weird sense of humor. I find beauty in the mundane, the kind of person who finds joy in the little things and believes in taking the time to truly understand and appreciate others.
Physical Attributes:
I find solace in music that echoes my moods, books that transport me to other worlds, and quiet moments in nature that ground me. I cherish activities that nurture growth, whether they're intellectual debates, serene walks, or shared laughs over coffee. I'm drawn to the arts as much as to the simple pleasure of a sunset.. I also have a keen interest in cooking and experimenting with new recipes, finding the act of creating something delicious for others as a form of expression and care.
To sum up some typical interests include: Philosophy, nature, languages, books, reading, writing, video games, sports, art, poetry, travelling etc
What I Am Looking For:
I'm in search of someone who values open and honest communication as much as I do. Someone who understands that relationships are about growth, learning, and supporting each other through life's myriad challenges and joys. I am looking for someone who is eager to prioritize getting to know each other, willing to open their heart, and ready to build something meaningful together.
Expectations:
What am I seeking? Not a perfect person, but a real one. Someone whose heart speaks the language of kindness, whose spirit dances to the tune of sincerity. I dream of a connection where words are just the beginning, where vulnerability is not a weakness but our strongest bond. I yearn for a love that’s both a safe harbor and a grand adventure, a partnership built on mutual respect, understanding, and the shared bravery of baring one’s soul.
I seek a fellow traveler in this journey of life, one who understands that while our pasts may shape us, they do not define us. Someone who stands at the intersection of hope and reality, ready to embark on a path not devoid of challenges but rich with the promise of true companionship.
Epilogue of Hope:
If my words have stirred something in your heart, if you too are navigating the vast oceans of life in search of a genuine connection, then perhaps we are two stars meant to align in the constellation of fate. I extend my hand, my heart, and my story to you – not in desperation, but with the quiet confidence of one who has faced the night and yearns for the dawn.
Laconic messages with just "hi", "what's up," "I have a question," and the likes will be most likely ignored. If I can beat my own laconism when introducing myself here, so can you.
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I think most of us are afraid in some sense to love and to be completely vulnerable yet despite the risk we long for it.
The capacity to love, sometimes even in the face of pain, is one of the most beautiful aspects of being human. It's a strength, and not always a weakness.
At my core, I'm a person of love, of care, of deep unyielding affection for those I hold dear.
Through the journey of healing and self-discovery, I've realized that I have much love to share. Love that is not bitter, but kind; not resentful, but forgiving; not closed, but open and willing to grow alongside someone special.
I'm sincere in my attempt to forge a connection and hope you are too, I'd try to share things about me that might give you idea of the person I am.
Essence of Me:
I am a mix of old-school romance and modern sensibility, holding onto the ideals of loyalty and sincerity. I think handwritten notes, surprise dates, and the belief that small gestures make a big difference. I am someone who thrives on deep connections and meaningful interactions.
I’m someone who believes in the power of midnight conversations, in the healing balm of shared laughter, and in the silent solidarity of presence.
I believe in the power of empathy and the importance of being there for those who matter, even if it's a call at 3 AM. I value integrity, kindness, and a good/weird sense of humor. I find beauty in the mundane, the kind of person who finds joy in the little things and believes in taking the time to truly understand and appreciate others.
Physical Attributes:
- Height: 5'11" (181cm)
- Build: Slim
- Hair: Deep black, kept in check
- Eyes: Light, sometimes dark brown :3
- Beard: Short, fashionable, and pristinely groomed
- Complexion: FaiTanned
I find solace in music that echoes my moods, books that transport me to other worlds, and quiet moments in nature that ground me. I cherish activities that nurture growth, whether they're intellectual debates, serene walks, or shared laughs over coffee. I'm drawn to the arts as much as to the simple pleasure of a sunset.. I also have a keen interest in cooking and experimenting with new recipes, finding the act of creating something delicious for others as a form of expression and care.
To sum up some typical interests include: Philosophy, nature, languages, books, reading, writing, video games, sports, art, poetry, travelling etc
What I Am Looking For:
I'm in search of someone who values open and honest communication as much as I do. Someone who understands that relationships are about growth, learning, and supporting each other through life's myriad challenges and joys. I am looking for someone who is eager to prioritize getting to know each other, willing to open their heart, and ready to build something meaningful together.
Expectations:
- Mutual respect and understanding
- Openness and honesty in communication
- A shared desire to prioritize our relationship and growth
- An interest in exploring life's depths and joys together
What am I seeking? Not a perfect person, but a real one. Someone whose heart speaks the language of kindness, whose spirit dances to the tune of sincerity. I dream of a connection where words are just the beginning, where vulnerability is not a weakness but our strongest bond. I yearn for a love that’s both a safe harbor and a grand adventure, a partnership built on mutual respect, understanding, and the shared bravery of baring one’s soul.
I seek a fellow traveler in this journey of life, one who understands that while our pasts may shape us, they do not define us. Someone who stands at the intersection of hope and reality, ready to embark on a path not devoid of challenges but rich with the promise of true companionship.
Epilogue of Hope:
If my words have stirred something in your heart, if you too are navigating the vast oceans of life in search of a genuine connection, then perhaps we are two stars meant to align in the constellation of fate. I extend my hand, my heart, and my story to you – not in desperation, but with the quiet confidence of one who has faced the night and yearns for the dawn.
Laconic messages with just "hi", "what's up," "I have a question," and the likes will be most likely ignored. If I can beat my own laconism when introducing myself here, so can you.
2024.05.14 01:30 Mizzno [H] Games [W] Cornucopia, Headbangers: Rhythm Royale, art of rally, Games (Listed Below), Steam Gift Cards
N.B.: I'm mainly looking for the games listed in the title and at the bottom of the thread. Feel free to post other offers, but if I haven't responded to your comment(s) by my next posting, I likely wasn't able to find a trade that interested me.
For sale (for Steam Gift Cards or gifted Steam Wallet balance):
For trade:
*signifies that a game is tentatively up for trade, assuming I buy the bundle
WANT:
IGS Rep Page: https://www.reddit.com/IGSRep/comments/ti26nz/mizznos_igs_rep_page/
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For sale (for Steam Gift Cards or gifted Steam Wallet balance):
- Dark Souls™: Prepare To Die™ Edition (removed from Steam Store;
$350$400 or best offer) - Fall Guys (removed from Steam Store)
- Fall Guys - Dragon Hugger Pack (removed from Steam Store)
- Fall Guys - Icy Adventure Pack (removed from Steam Store)
Marvel's Avengers - The Definitive Edition (removed from Steam Store)Spec Ops: The Line (removed from Steam Store)
- Humble Hunie Sakura Bundle (can also trade for a full "charity" bundle (Australia Fire Relief Bundle or similar))
- Humble Sekai Project Bundle (can also trade for a full "charity" bundle (Stand with Ukraine Bundle or similar))
For trade:
*signifies that a game is tentatively up for trade, assuming I buy the bundle
- Destroy All Humans! 2 - Reprobed
- Life is Strange: True Colors
- Scorn
- There Is No Light: Enhanced Edition
- Arkham Horror: Mother's Embrace
- Blood Rage: Digital Edition
- Gloomhaven - Solo Scenarios: Mercenary Challenges
- Small World
- Small World - A Spider's Web
- Small World - Be not Afraid...
- Small World - Cursed!
- Small World - Grand Dames
- Small World - Royal Bonus
- Splendor
- Splendor - The Cities
- Splendor - The Strongholds
- Splendor - The Trading Posts
- Terraforming Mars
- A Short Hike(?)
- A Story Beside(?)
- Aces & Adventures(?)
- Arcade Spirits(?)
- Battlestar Galactica Deadlock(?)
- Beyond Blue(?)
- Cat Quest(?)
- Cook, Serve, Delicious! 3?!(?)
- EARTHLOCK(?)
- Harmony's Odyssey(?)
- Homeworld Remastered Collection(?)
- Lacuna – A Sci-Fi Noir Adventure(?)
- Minecraft: Java Edition - MCC Island Jingle Jam Rewards Pack(?)
- Monster Prom(?)
- Sifu Deluxe Cosmetic Pack(?)
- Spirit of the Island(?)
- SUPERHOT(?)
- Tinytopia(?)
- Toodee and Topdee(?)
- Train Valley 2(?)
- Turbo Golf Racing(?)
- Valthirian Arc: Hero School Story(?)
- Xenonauts(?)
- Back 4 Blood
- Batman: Arkham Asylum Game of the Year Edition
- Batman: Arkham City - Game of the Year Edition
- Batman: Arkham Knight Premium Edition
- Batman™: Arkham Origins
- Injustice 2 Legendary Edition
- Mad Max
- Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor Game of the Year Edition
- Middle-earth: Shadow of War Definitive Edition
- Mortal Kombat 11
- Mortal Kombat 11 Ultimate Add-On Bundle
- Mortal Kombat XL
- Bionic Commando: Rearmed
- Dragon's Dogma: Dark Arisen
- Lost Planet 3 - Complete
- Mega Man Legacy Collection
- STRIDER™ / ストライダー飛竜®
- 112 Operator
- 911 Operator
- The Amazing American Circus
- Armello
- Backbone
- Calico
- Euro Truck Simulator 2
- Farming Simulator 17
- Ghostrunner
- Guilty Gear X2 #Reload
- Lust from Beyond: M Edition
- Monaco: What's Yours Is Mine
- Orbital Racer
- Pathfinder: Kingmaker - Enhanced Plus Edition
- PAYDAY 2
- Pilgrims
- Soulblight
- Space Crew: Legendary Edition
- Starfinder Core Rulebook (Paizo key) and Starfinder Adventure: Junker's Delight (Paizo key)
- Strange Brigade
- Stygian: Reign of the Old Ones
- System Shock 2
- System Shock: Enhanced Edition
- Ticket to Ride
- XCOM® 2
- X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack
- Vampire: The Masquerade - Coteries of New York
- Vampire: The Masquerade - Shadows of New York
- Werewolf: The Apocalypse — Heart of the Forest
- Day of the Tentacle Remastered
- Grim Fandango Remastered
- Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic
- STAR WARS®: Knights of the Old Republic™ II
- Highway Blossoms
- HunieCam Studio
- KARAKARA
- Sunrider Academy
- Sunrider: Liberation Day - Captain's Edition
- The Elder Scrolls: Legends: 2 Card Packs (Skyrim) 1 Event Ticket 100 Gold 100 Souls
- ESO Vanity Pet: Bristlegut Piglet and 15 Days of ESO Plus
- Ame no Marginal -Rain Marginal-
- KARAKARA
- Memory's Dogma CODE:01
- Narcissu 10th Anniversary Anthology Project
- Narcissu 10th Anniversary Anthology Project - Season Pass
- A Kiss For the Petals - Remembering How We Met
- Sakura Angels
- Beach Bounce
- Beach Bounce - Soundtrack
- Blue Rose
- Lionessy Story
- My Personal Angel
- Natural - Beyond Nature -
- Postmen Of Horizon (removed from Steam Store)
- Koi-Koi Japan [Hanafuda playing cards]
- Mahjong Pretty Girls Battle
- Mahjong Pretty Girls Battle : School Girls Edition
- Poker Pretty Girls Battle: Texas Hold'em
- Pretty Girls Mahjong Solitaire
- Guns of Icarus Alliance
- Guns of Icarus Online
- Impossible Creatures Steam Edition
- Lethal League
- Tempest: Pirate Action RPG
- Tempest - Treasure Lands
- Tempest - Original Soundtrack
- Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf
- Warhammer: End Times - Vermintide
- Tenta Shooter
- Gun Gun Pixies
- DUSK
- For The King
- Book of Demons
- PlateUp!
- Kingdom Two Crowns
- White Day: A Labyrinth Named School
- Warhammer 40,000: Gladius - Relics of War
- Chivalry: Medieval Warfare
- Steel Rats™
- Hue
- Sifu Deluxe Edition Upgrade Bundle (Epic key)
- Gal*Gun: Double Peace
- The Invisible Hours
- Synergia
- ROCKETRON
- Project Nimbus: Complete Edition
- Dead Age
- Spirit Hunter: NG
- Slain: Back from Hell(?)
- Cook, Serve, Delicious!
- Tower of Time
- Danger Scavenger
- Survive the Nights
- Valfaris
- Nongunz: Doppelganger Edition
- This War of Mine
- 112 Operator
- 911 Operator
- Book of Demons
- Broken Age
- Brothers - A Tale of Two Sons
- Crying Suns
- Crying Suns
- Dear Esther: Landmark Edition
- Driftland: The Magic Revival
- Liberated (GOG key)
- Moon Hunters
- Out of Reach: Treasure Royale
- Wanderlust: Travel Stories (GOG key)
- WARSAW
- X-Morph: Defense + European Assault, Survival of the Fittest, and Last Bastion DLC (I believe this redeems as the linked Complete Pack, minus the soundtrack)
- ΔV: Rings of Saturn(?)
- Arcade Paradise
- Calico
- Say No! More
- Fallout: A Post Nuclear Role Playing Game
- Fobia - St. Dinfna Hotel
- Phoenix Point: Year One Edition
- Deliver Us The Moon
- Morkredd
- Rogue Heroes: Ruins of Tasos
- Spirit Hunter: NG
- Survivalist: Invisible Strain
- Warhammer: Vermintide 2
- ENDLESS™ Space 2
- Surviving the Aftermath
- The Long Dark
- Duck Game
- SCP: Secret Files
- WWE 2K23
- The Jackbox Party Pack
- Outward (redeems as the base game only, not the linked Definitive Edition)
- Outward - The Soroboreans
- Outward Soundtrack
- Blade Assault
- Founders' Fortune
- Hokko Life
- Monster Crown
- Othercide
- Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous - Enhanced Edition
- ScourgeBringer
- Ancestors: The Humankind Odyssey
- HOT WHEELS UNLEASHED™
- Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor Game of the Year Edition
- Sonic CD (removed from Steam Store)
- LEGO® Harry Potter: Years 1-4
- LEGO® Harry Potter: Years 5-7
- STRIDER™ / ストライダー飛竜®
- Bionic Commando
- Full Metal Furies
- Ultra Street Fighter® IV
- Starbound
- Mafia III: Sign of the Times
- BioShock 2
- Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor Game of the Year Edition
- Sherlock Holmes: The Devil's Daughter
- The Mean Greens - Plastic Warfare
- Crusaders of the Lost Idols Legendary Starter Pack
- Project CARS (removed from Steam Store)
WANT:
- 5D Chess With Multiverse Time Travel
- Astebreed: Definitive Edition
- Avernum: Escape from the Pit
- BlazBlue: Calamity Trigger
- CrossCode
- Dead Rising 4
- Dungreed
- Mega Man X Legacy Collection 2
- Mega Man Zero/ZX Legacy Collection
- Mortal Kombat Komplete Edition
- Myst (2021)
- NBA 2K23
- NECROPOLIS: BRUTAL EDITION
- Omensight: Definitive Edition
- OPUS: Echo of Starsong - Full Bloom Edition
- OPUS: Rocket of Whispers
- OPUS: The Day We Found Earth
- Power Rangers: Battle for the Grid
- RAGE
- Resident Evil Village
- The Jackbox Party Pack 5
- The Jackbox Party Pack 6
- The Jackbox Party Pack 7
- Wonder Boy: The Dragon's Trap
- Zombie Army 4: Dead War
- any extra copies of WWE 2K23
IGS Rep Page: https://www.reddit.com/IGSRep/comments/ti26nz/mizznos_igs_rep_page/
2024.05.14 01:29 uwhy Does anyone here have trouble farting as well? (bonus tip on how I debloated/burped today)
So I often get the deadly combo- I cannot burp (I'm one of you people), and no farts come out, resulting in extreme bloating, discomfort, even pain. No matter how much I push or relax, farts are trapped inside, to the point where I'm gagging involuntarily (but no burp or air vomit). Pooping doesn't help either. Does anyone have any tips on how to fart easily?
Today I had the worst case of bloating in a bit. Tried everything and nothing helped. Air vomit was my last resort because that makes me uncomfortable. So I did the "side neck sit ups" exercise exactly as demonstrated in this video: https://youtu.be/DDZ8zMZHUuA
(The next part might sound gross but we're probably all okay with it right?)
After 13 reps lying on the right side, initially it felt like I was going to throw up (had a meal 30 mins earlier). I sat straight, and felt something come up. Took the risk and opened my throat (like you would in order to vomit), and all that came out was air, though it didn't make a burp-like sound. But it worked. And then came another, and another, and another (a total of 6), but the final one felt like it brought up a bit of stomach stuff with it so I stopped. But felt instantly better afterwards.
Might try it again in dire circumstances. But I'd much rather fart, and suggestions for inducing that would be very helpful. Additionally, what can I do to find out why is it so hard for me to fart?
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Today I had the worst case of bloating in a bit. Tried everything and nothing helped. Air vomit was my last resort because that makes me uncomfortable. So I did the "side neck sit ups" exercise exactly as demonstrated in this video: https://youtu.be/DDZ8zMZHUuA
(The next part might sound gross but we're probably all okay with it right?)
After 13 reps lying on the right side, initially it felt like I was going to throw up (had a meal 30 mins earlier). I sat straight, and felt something come up. Took the risk and opened my throat (like you would in order to vomit), and all that came out was air, though it didn't make a burp-like sound. But it worked. And then came another, and another, and another (a total of 6), but the final one felt like it brought up a bit of stomach stuff with it so I stopped. But felt instantly better afterwards.
Might try it again in dire circumstances. But I'd much rather fart, and suggestions for inducing that would be very helpful. Additionally, what can I do to find out why is it so hard for me to fart?
2024.05.14 01:28 FrozenSentinel1 Circle of Fortune feedback compilation after 800+ Hours
Hey folks,
I got a lot of positive feedback on the CoF tools / guides I posted here recently and one of the most common asks was for me to compile a list of concerns and issues to help increase visibility of the various pain points CoF players have been experiencing in 1.0.
To avoid this coming across too negative I just want to start by saying I love the shit out of Last Epoch, and haven't had this much fun playing a game for as long as I can remember. I have literally dumped hundreds of hours into Cycle 1 alone, and specifically fell in love with Circle of Fortune as a system that makes solo players feel less penalized for not engaging in trade.
This is purely meant to be constructive feedback, and in no way are my opinions meant to be taken as anything more than just that. I'm just one player out of many many thousands hoping to encourage some open discussion!
I've put my thoughts into video format, as there was a lot to go over. The video has chapters to make it easier to digest;
https://youtu.be/kL4meUguZPI
Below are the topics covered:
submitted by FrozenSentinel1 to LastEpoch [link] [comments]
I got a lot of positive feedback on the CoF tools / guides I posted here recently and one of the most common asks was for me to compile a list of concerns and issues to help increase visibility of the various pain points CoF players have been experiencing in 1.0.
To avoid this coming across too negative I just want to start by saying I love the shit out of Last Epoch, and haven't had this much fun playing a game for as long as I can remember. I have literally dumped hundreds of hours into Cycle 1 alone, and specifically fell in love with Circle of Fortune as a system that makes solo players feel less penalized for not engaging in trade.
This is purely meant to be constructive feedback, and in no way are my opinions meant to be taken as anything more than just that. I'm just one player out of many many thousands hoping to encourage some open discussion!
I've put my thoughts into video format, as there was a lot to go over. The video has chapters to make it easier to digest;
https://youtu.be/kL4meUguZPI
Below are the topics covered:
- CIRCLE OF FORTUNE - MOST BRILLIANT ARPG SYSTEM EVER?
- CIRCLE OF FORTUNE VS MERCHANT GUILD - BALANCED?
- 1 - BOSS DROPS
- BOSS DROP SUGGESTIONS
- 2 - EXILED MAGE DROPS / EXPERIMENTALS
- MAGE DROP SUGGESTIONS
- 3 - EXALTED ITEMS
- 4 - EXALTED ITEMS (DESIRABLE BASE TYPES)
- EXALT ITEM SUGGESTIONS
- 5 - RARE ITEM PROPHECIES
- 6 - "EARLY GAME" PROPHECIES
- 7 - LENSES - LIMITED VIABLE CHOICES
- LENS SUGGESTIONS
- 8 - FACTION VENDOR
- 9 - LP PROPHECIES
- 10 - SOME ITEMS HAVE MUCH WORSE PROPHECY REWARDS
- 11 - PROPHECY PRICE INCONSISTENCIES
- 12 - MORE EXPERIENCE = MORE FAVOR - TO WHAT END?
- 13 - COF DEPENDS HEAVILY ON CORRUPTION
- 14 - UI/UX - UNCLEAR PROPHECY EVENT REQUIREMENTS
- 15 - UI/UX - PROPHECY SEARCHABILITY
- 16 - UI/UX - PROPHECY ICON CLARITY
- 17 - WEAVER ITEMS FROM PROPHECIES
- PROPHECY ROLLING SUGGESTIONS
- 18 - UI/UX - ISSUES RUNNING & FULFILLING PROPHECIES
- PROPHECY FULFILLMENT SUGGESTIONS
- 19 - UI/UX - PROPHECY SCREEN CLUTTER / PAINFUL LOOTING
- PROPHECY CLUTTER SUGGESTIONS
- NON PROPHECY LOOT PERSONALIZATION SUGGESTIONS
2024.05.14 01:18 MatRodSil Specifications of Windows surface Go 2/3 as a desktop
Hi. I am a student of mechatronics engineering, and after the first year in college, I started using a digital drawing table and OneNote as my primary notebook📒. Computers at my College are a pain to configure tho, so I've been thinking about buying a windows surface to use intead, since it seems to work as a notebook📒 that I can use to draw, note keeping, calculus and all. But also as a desktop notebook💻 in which I can run vscode, and some alike programs. I don't intend to use it for gaming or things that might need a really good PC. Sometime ago I fell for Buying a Surface RT thinking it was Go from recommendation, but as you may imagine, besides note keeping, I can't do much else with it nowadays. So I've been searching more carefully about Surface models and alikes. I want to ask users with more experience with it, do you think a Surface Go would suffice for these activities and still be useable as a normal tablet? I want to be able to use OneNote to save relevant pdf info, draw and keep track of everything, but also to be able to run computer programs, personalize my Google Chrome, download apps, watch videos and tutorials on YouTube etc. Appreciate it, thanks for your time. Cheers.
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2024.05.14 01:00 ClipperSmith Want to improve your running technique? Get a jump rope.
Here is an article I recently published on my Substack. If you'd rather read (or listen to an audio version) it outside of Reddit, you can do so here.
Why jump rope isn’t already touted as a leading running drill tool is completely beyond me. But then again…
I'm by no means an "experienced runner"—having started running in 2021 at the age of 34. So, at the time of this writing, about 3 years.
Despite this, I managed to silver-medal my age group in my first race ever.
And it was a 10k. And I was wearing barefoot-shoes.
And I had only been running before that race for about 3 months.
How the heck did I manage to pull this off?
The answer eluded me for a while. Then I remembered—ah, I’ve been jumping rope nearly every day for 2 years.
But how do those connect?
But first, why the heck would some guy start jumping rope at age 32?
About 2 years before I started running, I took up jump rope really just as a fun outdoor hobby.
Even though I was pretty inactive and a bit overweight, that’s not the reason I started skippin’.
One day, I came across some footage of boxer Lulu Hawton doing some jump rope training.
In addition to her seemingly effortless rope handling skills and rhythmic footwork, what caught my eye was a giant grin that spread across her face about 45 seconds into the video. While she was probably skipping to warm up for a match or a training session, something was abundantly clear.
She was having a blast.
And this was from a prize fighter! None of the usual boxer mean-mugging—she looked more like a kid on a carousel.
So, after buying a $10 jump rope on Amazon, I took to the driveway in my swim trunks (yes, I was so inactive, I didn’t own gym shorts).
And…whoo, did I suck.
After a few months of making puddles of sweat in my driveway as well as wheezing sounds so loud that I’m surprised the neighbors didn’t whistle EMS, I eventually got pretty decent at it.
And I lost about 45 pounds in 6 months—probably also from making some lifestyle changes merely to make jump rope less of a slog. Not the original plan, but hey, not too shabby.
After about a year, I found myself constructively critiquing other people’s beginner jump rope videos.
Though jumping rope is inherently enjoyable, 30-minute skipping sessions of staring at the wall without something in your headphones can be a bit drab.
One fateful day, about 2 years into being student of the jump rope, I began listening to the book Born to Run: A Hidden Tribe, Superathletes, and the Greatest Race the World Has Never Seen by Christopher McDougall.
Even before I got to the end of the book, running—just like jump rope— sounded fun**.**
Yeah, I know that sounds counterintuitive—unless you’ve read the book.
“I knew aerobic exercise was a powerful antidepressant, but I hadn’t realized it could be so profoundly mood stabilizing and — I hate to use the word — meditative. If you don’t have answers to your problems after a four-hour run, you ain’t getting them.”
Ok, ok—I’ll bite.
I proceeded to dive into all of the normal “Couch to 5k” running programs I could find and took my jump rope to a nearby park with a 1k walking path—sprinkling in running between jump rope sessions.
But something wasn’t adding up.
There was a lot of advice about walk-running to build endurance until one could run a block, two blocks, a mile.
Not to brag, but I wasn’t experiencing most beginner snags.
**“Ah, I know why—**I did most of my newbie wind-sucking two years ago!”
This isn’t to say I wasn’t still periodically sucking wind but after two years of consistent boxer skips and double-unders, getting gassed felt like part of the fun and not a medical emergency.
I also felt much springier than the average beginning runner—able to run for miles all over the city in the most minimal of footwear.
And so, I tried my hand at my first race—a donut-themed 10k. And silvered in my age group.
(Ok, there was only two of us…but my time was still respectable. 😂)
Running became an amazingly freeing activity, like getting my driver’s license for my legs.
But I still didn’t understand why running was coming easier to me than the average newcomer.
Digging still deeper, I unearthed another exciting revelation—this time from multi-decade sub-3-hour Boston Marathon runner and one of the foremost running experts on the planet, Dr. Mark Cucuzzella.
“Running with a jump rope is also an amazingly simple drill for posture, balance, and rhythm.”
In other words—form. Overall technique.
Digging a little keeper and experimenting on myself, I discovered just how similar proper running technique and proper jump rope technique were.
Both require:
And like running, without proper technique, jumping rope just doesn’t work—though the consequences are different.
For a jump roper, due to the lower impact, the risk of injury is quite minimal.
Most newbie rope slingers will report sore calves, slightly tender Achilles tendons, and the odd shin splint if they go full Rocky at it. No need to worry, though—most of these injuries see themselves out as the skipper becomes more experienced.
However, for runners, the injury story is more severe.
The next time you’re at a park with a good path, take a seat on a bench and watch the runners. See if you can spot folks reaching far out in front of them with straightened legs—smashing heels into the pavement.
This style of running results in everything from screaming knees, plantar fasciitis, lower back pain, to hips issues.
But why do all of these occur to new runners, but rarely to new jump ropers?
Most new runners commit a major physiological no-no when they begin their running journey: they treat running like fast, aggressive, airborne walking.
“Well, what is it supposed to be?”
Synchronized jumping.
Simply put, proper running is nothing more than a series of coordinated single leg jumps through space with each landing compressing the springs for the next stride.
To compare this synchronized jumping to the aggressive airborne walking of heel-led running, you can test these in just a few seconds.
Step 1: Stand up.
Step 2: Kick off your shoes.
Step 3: Jump up and down three times.
How did you land?
Probably on your mid-foot, knee bent slightly, with your weight stacked above your pelvis.
And did you use your compressed “leg springs” to launch you into the following two jumps?
Oddly enough, if you were to add a jump rope to this, you would on your way to spinning side swings like Lulu Hawton.
If you were to take this same technique one foot at a time moving forward, you would be running in a way that increases speed, preserves stamina (springs!), and drastically decreases your likelihood of injury.
Let’s try the same test with a few tweaks.
This time, jump, but land on your heels.
Your knees probably remained fairly straight and you felt the impact in your ankles, knees, hips, and possibly even your lower back.
Now, imagine attempting to jump rope this way.
It simply doesn’t work.
Not only would there be no second jump due to the lack of spring but the pain would stop you in your tracks—even in cushioned shoes.
But if jump rope technique and proper running technique are nearly identical, what are aggressive heel landings doing in running?
While a jump roper landing on their heels would resemble Frankenstein’s monster in an express lane to an orthopedist, this is how many people perform the aggressive airborne walk—aka, a heel-striking, over-striding run.
But why do we run this way? Well, our shoes let us get away with it.
Thick heel cushioning and a bit of forward momentum do a great job of masking the pain of repeated blows against every joint up the chain—for a while, anyway. Eventually, the chickens come home to roost in the form of stress fractures, meniscus tears, plantar fasciitis, “runner’s knee,” IT-band syndrome, and more.
Not to brag (and maybe to knock on some wood), I have never experienced any of these injuries in my three years of running.
Is this because I’m some kind of running genius with all of the cheat codes? Haha, I wish! It’s simply sheer luck that I started out with jumping rope before running—an activity that shares the same injury-preventing techniques.
So, are the shoes totally to blame? No.
It is possible to run with proper form in shoes with raised, cushioned heels. But it’s not as easy.
When your heel is totally cushioned, you will be able to run with a heel strike in the same way you can hit your head against a brick wall while wearing a football helmet. And in both instances, it will eventually become less about the forces outside of the foam and more about the forces inside the cushion against each other that do the most damage.
“So, how can getting a jump rope help me become a better runner?”
Jump rope is a tremendous training tool for runners for the same reason why running barefoot can also be helpful—the feedback is immediate.
Though running with inefficient and injurious form is possible, the feedback from doing so isn’t so immediate. When it comes to jumping rope, however, you won’t get through too many skips if you don’t learn to utilize the springs in your legs. The rope doesn’t pull punches.
So, get a rope and get started.
If you’re new to jump rope, I would recommend acquiring two pieces of equipment.
Firstly, find a jump rope with a little bit, but not too much, weight to it. The weight will help you feel the position of the rope during it’s entire rotation and remain in better sync with your wrist spins
My favorite rope for this purpose is a 7mm PVC model called the Hererope, which costs a whopping $15. If you find this to be too thick or heavy, a cheap 5mm PVC model will work as well.
Secondly, to protect your rope and provide a nice jumping surface, I would recommend a large foam-rubber exercise mat. My favorite is a massive 78” mat for $32—which is probably the cheapest jump rope mat you will find.
When it comes to footwear, barefoot is ideal. This will help strengthen and mobilize your feet—including your likely overly-supported neglected arches.
And just how does one begin to jump rope?
From jumping with both feet, move onto learning an alternating leg bounce—essentially a jog skip. Right, left, right, left—all while keeping an imaginary belt level with the horizon.
By now, you’re essentially running in place with an extremely efficient technique.
Now, apply your jump rope skills to your running!
This is going to seem quite bizarre, but it is possible (and even beneficial) to take your jump rope for a run.
You may find it quite helpful to return to this drill once or twice a week. Also if you find your form slipping a bit or becoming slugging mid-run, feel free to skip imaginary rope to try to correct your technique mid-stride. It will restore lightness and springiness to your running.
I still find myself bringing my wrists to my pockets and spinning imaginary jump rope handles if I feel my technique is collapsing a bit or if my running is becoming less springy.
And remember, most importantly—have fun. 👍
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Why jump rope isn’t already touted as a leading running drill tool is completely beyond me. But then again…
I'm by no means an "experienced runner"—having started running in 2021 at the age of 34. So, at the time of this writing, about 3 years.
Despite this, I managed to silver-medal my age group in my first race ever.
And it was a 10k. And I was wearing barefoot-shoes.
And I had only been running before that race for about 3 months.
How the heck did I manage to pull this off?
The answer eluded me for a while. Then I remembered—ah, I’ve been jumping rope nearly every day for 2 years.
But how do those connect?
But first, why the heck would some guy start jumping rope at age 32?
About 2 years before I started running, I took up jump rope really just as a fun outdoor hobby.
Even though I was pretty inactive and a bit overweight, that’s not the reason I started skippin’.
One day, I came across some footage of boxer Lulu Hawton doing some jump rope training.
In addition to her seemingly effortless rope handling skills and rhythmic footwork, what caught my eye was a giant grin that spread across her face about 45 seconds into the video. While she was probably skipping to warm up for a match or a training session, something was abundantly clear.
She was having a blast.
And this was from a prize fighter! None of the usual boxer mean-mugging—she looked more like a kid on a carousel.
So, after buying a $10 jump rope on Amazon, I took to the driveway in my swim trunks (yes, I was so inactive, I didn’t own gym shorts).
And…whoo, did I suck.
After a few months of making puddles of sweat in my driveway as well as wheezing sounds so loud that I’m surprised the neighbors didn’t whistle EMS, I eventually got pretty decent at it.
And I lost about 45 pounds in 6 months—probably also from making some lifestyle changes merely to make jump rope less of a slog. Not the original plan, but hey, not too shabby.
After about a year, I found myself constructively critiquing other people’s beginner jump rope videos.
- “Unlock your boxer skip. Then you’ll be able to skip forever without getting tired.”
- “Here’s how to do Double-Unders, though they’re overrated.”
- “You’re skipping like it hurts. Relax and skip easy. Smile every once in a while and you’ll feel it all over.”
Though jumping rope is inherently enjoyable, 30-minute skipping sessions of staring at the wall without something in your headphones can be a bit drab.
One fateful day, about 2 years into being student of the jump rope, I began listening to the book Born to Run: A Hidden Tribe, Superathletes, and the Greatest Race the World Has Never Seen by Christopher McDougall.
Even before I got to the end of the book, running—just like jump rope— sounded fun**.**
Yeah, I know that sounds counterintuitive—unless you’ve read the book.
“I knew aerobic exercise was a powerful antidepressant, but I hadn’t realized it could be so profoundly mood stabilizing and — I hate to use the word — meditative. If you don’t have answers to your problems after a four-hour run, you ain’t getting them.”
Ok, ok—I’ll bite.
I proceeded to dive into all of the normal “Couch to 5k” running programs I could find and took my jump rope to a nearby park with a 1k walking path—sprinkling in running between jump rope sessions.
But something wasn’t adding up.
There was a lot of advice about walk-running to build endurance until one could run a block, two blocks, a mile.
Not to brag, but I wasn’t experiencing most beginner snags.
**“Ah, I know why—**I did most of my newbie wind-sucking two years ago!”
This isn’t to say I wasn’t still periodically sucking wind but after two years of consistent boxer skips and double-unders, getting gassed felt like part of the fun and not a medical emergency.
I also felt much springier than the average beginning runner—able to run for miles all over the city in the most minimal of footwear.
And so, I tried my hand at my first race—a donut-themed 10k. And silvered in my age group.
(Ok, there was only two of us…but my time was still respectable. 😂)
Running became an amazingly freeing activity, like getting my driver’s license for my legs.
But I still didn’t understand why running was coming easier to me than the average newcomer.
Digging still deeper, I unearthed another exciting revelation—this time from multi-decade sub-3-hour Boston Marathon runner and one of the foremost running experts on the planet, Dr. Mark Cucuzzella.
“Running with a jump rope is also an amazingly simple drill for posture, balance, and rhythm.”
In other words—form. Overall technique.
Digging a little keeper and experimenting on myself, I discovered just how similar proper running technique and proper jump rope technique were.
Both require:
- An upright, chest-leading, elbows-back, joint-stacked posture
- A soft mid-foot landing directly under your pelvis
- A quick loading and unloading of “leg springs” from your tendons and ligaments to reduce “stickiness” and wasted energy
- A proper supination (roll out) followed by a quick pronation (roll in) of the feet to help launch one’s body
- A steady core without dropping hips from side to side to reduce energy “leakage”
And like running, without proper technique, jumping rope just doesn’t work—though the consequences are different.
For a jump roper, due to the lower impact, the risk of injury is quite minimal.
Most newbie rope slingers will report sore calves, slightly tender Achilles tendons, and the odd shin splint if they go full Rocky at it. No need to worry, though—most of these injuries see themselves out as the skipper becomes more experienced.
However, for runners, the injury story is more severe.
The next time you’re at a park with a good path, take a seat on a bench and watch the runners. See if you can spot folks reaching far out in front of them with straightened legs—smashing heels into the pavement.
This style of running results in everything from screaming knees, plantar fasciitis, lower back pain, to hips issues.
But why do all of these occur to new runners, but rarely to new jump ropers?
Most new runners commit a major physiological no-no when they begin their running journey: they treat running like fast, aggressive, airborne walking.
“Well, what is it supposed to be?”
Synchronized jumping.
Simply put, proper running is nothing more than a series of coordinated single leg jumps through space with each landing compressing the springs for the next stride.
To compare this synchronized jumping to the aggressive airborne walking of heel-led running, you can test these in just a few seconds.
Step 1: Stand up.
Step 2: Kick off your shoes.
Step 3: Jump up and down three times.
How did you land?
Probably on your mid-foot, knee bent slightly, with your weight stacked above your pelvis.
And did you use your compressed “leg springs” to launch you into the following two jumps?
Oddly enough, if you were to add a jump rope to this, you would on your way to spinning side swings like Lulu Hawton.
If you were to take this same technique one foot at a time moving forward, you would be running in a way that increases speed, preserves stamina (springs!), and drastically decreases your likelihood of injury.
Let’s try the same test with a few tweaks.
This time, jump, but land on your heels.
Your knees probably remained fairly straight and you felt the impact in your ankles, knees, hips, and possibly even your lower back.
Now, imagine attempting to jump rope this way.
It simply doesn’t work.
Not only would there be no second jump due to the lack of spring but the pain would stop you in your tracks—even in cushioned shoes.
But if jump rope technique and proper running technique are nearly identical, what are aggressive heel landings doing in running?
While a jump roper landing on their heels would resemble Frankenstein’s monster in an express lane to an orthopedist, this is how many people perform the aggressive airborne walk—aka, a heel-striking, over-striding run.
But why do we run this way? Well, our shoes let us get away with it.
Thick heel cushioning and a bit of forward momentum do a great job of masking the pain of repeated blows against every joint up the chain—for a while, anyway. Eventually, the chickens come home to roost in the form of stress fractures, meniscus tears, plantar fasciitis, “runner’s knee,” IT-band syndrome, and more.
Not to brag (and maybe to knock on some wood), I have never experienced any of these injuries in my three years of running.
Is this because I’m some kind of running genius with all of the cheat codes? Haha, I wish! It’s simply sheer luck that I started out with jumping rope before running—an activity that shares the same injury-preventing techniques.
So, are the shoes totally to blame? No.
It is possible to run with proper form in shoes with raised, cushioned heels. But it’s not as easy.
When your heel is totally cushioned, you will be able to run with a heel strike in the same way you can hit your head against a brick wall while wearing a football helmet. And in both instances, it will eventually become less about the forces outside of the foam and more about the forces inside the cushion against each other that do the most damage.
“So, how can getting a jump rope help me become a better runner?”
Jump rope is a tremendous training tool for runners for the same reason why running barefoot can also be helpful—the feedback is immediate.
Though running with inefficient and injurious form is possible, the feedback from doing so isn’t so immediate. When it comes to jumping rope, however, you won’t get through too many skips if you don’t learn to utilize the springs in your legs. The rope doesn’t pull punches.
So, get a rope and get started.
If you’re new to jump rope, I would recommend acquiring two pieces of equipment.
Firstly, find a jump rope with a little bit, but not too much, weight to it. The weight will help you feel the position of the rope during it’s entire rotation and remain in better sync with your wrist spins
My favorite rope for this purpose is a 7mm PVC model called the Hererope, which costs a whopping $15. If you find this to be too thick or heavy, a cheap 5mm PVC model will work as well.
Secondly, to protect your rope and provide a nice jumping surface, I would recommend a large foam-rubber exercise mat. My favorite is a massive 78” mat for $32—which is probably the cheapest jump rope mat you will find.
When it comes to footwear, barefoot is ideal. This will help strengthen and mobilize your feet—including your likely overly-supported neglected arches.
And just how does one begin to jump rope?
- Keep a tall posture—imagining a string pulling you up from the crown of your head.
- Your chest should open, elbows back, hands about a fist’s width from your pockets.
- Jump from the balls of your feet, only high enough to clear the rope. When landing, let the skin of your heels “kiss” the floor—touching without taking on weight.
- Keep your knees slightly bent, using every landing to load your springs for the next take-off.
- Keep the cadence quick to maximize spring recoil. To help, listen to a song that’s at about 160 beats per minute, such as the song “Hey Ya” by Outkast (or a song of similar tempo) to get a feel for the speed for skipping rope. (For running, many recommend using “Rock Lobster” by the B-52s for cadence tempo reference.)
From jumping with both feet, move onto learning an alternating leg bounce—essentially a jog skip. Right, left, right, left—all while keeping an imaginary belt level with the horizon.
By now, you’re essentially running in place with an extremely efficient technique.
Now, apply your jump rope skills to your running!
This is going to seem quite bizarre, but it is possible (and even beneficial) to take your jump rope for a run.
- Start skipping rope on a road or path with the alternating leg bounce. Remember to keep your elbows back, shoulders relaxed, head pulled up as if tugged skyward by a string from your crown and your imaginary belt level with the horizon.
- Then, as though leaning forward just enough to give someone a kiss or have an imaginary umbilical cord lightly tugged, begin to jump rope forward.
- Remember to continue to land and load on your mid-foot—aiming to keep your weight under your pelvis just like skipping rope. Landing on your heels will likely snag the rope and keep your foot on the ground too long.
- As you proceed with this, remember how it feels—the quick foot turnover, the posture, the recoil in your leg springs, the core stability, and the lightness of it.
- In the middle of doing this, simply toss the handles behind you and keep running as though it was still there—still pretending to spin the handles.
- At a comfortable stopping point, run back to your rope—now using your hands in a wood-chop motion to counter balance your leg bounces while keeping your pelvis (imaginary belt) level and stable.
You may find it quite helpful to return to this drill once or twice a week. Also if you find your form slipping a bit or becoming slugging mid-run, feel free to skip imaginary rope to try to correct your technique mid-stride. It will restore lightness and springiness to your running.
I still find myself bringing my wrists to my pockets and spinning imaginary jump rope handles if I feel my technique is collapsing a bit or if my running is becoming less springy.
And remember, most importantly—have fun. 👍
Enjoy this piece? Subscribe to my Substack blog!
You can also:
2024.05.14 00:58 UnKnwnERROR16 Video translate Hindi to English.
I was hoping someone could translate this video for me, I work HVAC and this is the only video I can find talking about an error code on this Unit, error code E 1 4.5, I can’t find it anywhere on the manual either, so I’m completely lost.
If you can’t translate the whole video a summary would be fine as well.
https://youtu.be/bQBdK5aj3Ck?si=TCn7Q7rWUPAr0Uml
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If you can’t translate the whole video a summary would be fine as well.
https://youtu.be/bQBdK5aj3Ck?si=TCn7Q7rWUPAr0Uml
2024.05.14 00:43 moderncholo Ebony's post are mainly to connect Drake to dates at the Mark.
 | Is this where we post stuff now since the Kendrick sub has had it with Ebony?! submitted by moderncholo to DarkKenny [link] [comments] I am as far down the rabbit hole as y'all, but after checking out the footage, I started to run through what was shared so far, and I am doing my best to connect some of the dots. Mainly location since a lot of what Ebony has witnessed (possible child endangerment) wouldn't be enough to prove anything to the authorities. Which is why they are doing their best to really just tie their accusations to specific dates. Broke it down to a timeline. January incident: In the new footage, CA is alone in the lobby. It looks like the lobby is empty. The hotel would do this for VIP guests. We see who we are assuming are Drake's security goons. They walk in one at a time. https://preview.redd.it/fwmj3f8gv90d1.png?width=684&format=png&auto=webp&s=c813b15ee718ecbda8b5982f843f5d559d239890 https://preview.redd.it/4pz5fblhv90d1.png?width=596&format=png&auto=webp&s=ab3786ea9da3f8cecdc439cae2165f6d93a53e48 At this moment, I think the two people losing their jobs refer to "Drake's security team having an altercation with hotel staff." It gets fuzzy here because I don't know if that incident was tied to January or July, but it could have been something that wasn't reported at all. That incident could be related to what Ebony witnessed in July. https://preview.redd.it/nlrxomy1u90d1.png?width=593&format=png&auto=webp&s=7e56152319ee10f8145b1068b4f68d364c79aeb1 This footage is probably the only evidence that they could have of a crime being committed if there is something there. However, how this video was obtained could make it hard to pursue legally, which is why I can see why Ebony is tip-toeing around the full video. July: Drake was in NYC for many shows in Brooklyn and Madison Square Garden. He was in town from July 17-26 for shows; his next show was in DC on the 28. Meaning he could have easily been at the hotel on July 27. https://preview.redd.it/q6ljokd8u90d1.png?width=498&format=png&auto=webp&s=c30ce4b8e169def8b060f8c5cde8e04a854e15dc All Ebony can do is show they are telling the truth about what people can prove. With the protest on July 17 and Drake being called out in the article we know that this is when the "circus returned..." and the beginning of the last time Drake would be at The Mark before he switched to a different hotel. https://preview.redd.it/fsi7y6d9u90d1.png?width=597&format=png&auto=webp&s=c016b4d0c2913b226d7e24ff71261a4a81b6ec5c I believe Ebony posted this TikTok showing the man with the suitcase and white bag to show that this was possibly a prescription delivery. I assume this is to give credit to the items that Ebony has in their position and to put a timeline as to when the items were left behind (i.e., prescription dates). https://preview.redd.it/3xmq69nkv90d1.png?width=595&format=png&auto=webp&s=18917978af5ac5ae0dc79a83270f55c2b49361cc https://preview.redd.it/tp1gc3ghu90d1.png?width=599&format=png&auto=webp&s=a7ba165f025e5e193e9b58c69bfeee0d0f8b2449 When we get to July 27, all we know is that Drake could have possibly been in town still. He didn't have a show until the next day in DC, which is a short drive away. On this date Ebony claims to have witnessed something that they were trained to see at Kaspia. https://preview.redd.it/0x7ptyglu90d1.png?width=596&format=png&auto=webp&s=86de167f2fe1a637ecfb9d7e343b340b7c02cf35 I believe the tweet below references his accommodations, which led to the police being called and a CCRB complaint, but they were not able to prove anything. https://preview.redd.it/jf2dtepju90d1.png?width=598&format=png&auto=webp&s=52f3b620ff63c25ff175357a6561baa2dca94411 After what they witnessed is over, all Ebony can do is keep their composure and provide the customer service that The Mark gives all VIP customers. Smile through the pain. https://preview.redd.it/68jfbadsu90d1.png?width=600&format=png&auto=webp&s=a248c6e3d26c41e1c558b8d6ea15da5c3babf8e2 At the end of the day, all Ebony is doing is connecting the dates to when Drake was in town. Without hard evidence or victims coming forward, it would be hard to present this information without sounding like you were describing Pizzagate 2.0. |
2024.05.14 00:35 ash-_--_- Hand / wrist taping
Hello, i have a question. I recently hand stripped a dog and i found that my wrist/hand and fingers ers didn't like it very much. I had a few days of muscle pain.
Im also really hyper mobile.
Do any of you tape your wrists/hands? If so can you tell me how to properly tape them or send me a video?
Thank you so much in advance
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Im also really hyper mobile.
Do any of you tape your wrists/hands? If so can you tell me how to properly tape them or send me a video?
Thank you so much in advance
2024.05.14 00:25 CertainJump1784 Just leaving some Freya Build set that I use in game. If anyone has a better build lists than mine, you can drop them in the comment section so I can use yours too.
- Build A: BoD >> Malefic >> Berserker >> Endless >> Hunter Strike (Classic Freya Build)
- Build B: BoD >> Malefic >> Golden Staff >> Endless >> Hunter Strike (I found this in one of the top global and top server lists based on my analysis, I think they uses Golden Staff instead of Berserker so they can get the stacks of orbs "faster")
- Build C: BoD >> Malefic >> Berserker >> Endless >> Great Dragon Spear
- Build D: BoD >> Malefic >> Berserker >> Haas Claw >> Sea Halberd/DHS (An Attack Speed Freya build. Okay, I know THIS IS NOT TRINITY ATTACK SPEED AND NOT CRITICAL ATTACK SPEED EITHER. From my analysis, people add attack speed items on Freya for stats. Example, DHS aka Demon Hunter Sword is used for lifesteal but it gives Freya Max HP enemy, while Haas Claw is for lifesteal but also gives you crits to kill squishies faster and it's recommended)
- Build E: BoD >> Malefic >> Endless >> War Axe >> Brute Force (Elgin says in this Video https://youtu.be/mXvBYZHdoQw?si=qZWP7FqvGz5e85xt , War axe and brute force for Freya are okayish. ElginRay says War Axe and Brute Force combo is optional choice for Freya. ElginRay himself furthermore explained the effects of War Axe and Brute force aren't bad for Freya, but they're not game changing either (Yes, I don't get this one. But I belive some people don't think you should try this)
- Build F: BoD >> Malefic >> Endless >> Heptaseas >> Hunter Strike (I made it myself. The full penetration)
- Build G: BoD >> Malefic >> Endless >> Sea halberd >> DHS (I made it myself. Anti High HP, Anti Regen)
- Build H: BoD >> Malefic >> Berserker >> Hunter Strike >> Great Dragon Spear (I made it myself. It has no lifesteal (endless/Haas Claw/Rose Gold Meteor) so it's kinda challenging. I think you should not try this one UNLESS you are used to use Freya without Lifesteal)
- Build G: BoD >> Malefic >> Endless >> Berserker >> Sea Halberd (I made it myself)
- Build I: BoD >> Malefic >> Berserker >> Haas Claw >> Great Dragon SpeaHunter Strike/Endless
2024.05.14 00:25 VoiceOfSeibun Lost my guard dog today
I just got back from the Vet's office... my dog, a Pomeranian named Velvet, suffered from heat stroke... likely had some kind of related stroke as well. The situation of how she got to be that way is more complicated than an internet post will allow, but she just....wasn't there anymore. Wasn't eating. Couldn't walk. Vet said she was suffering... and that this was the right thing to do.... and I gave the ok for her to be put down.
Why am I posting this here? Well... I feel like I have some camaraderie with all of you. We've been through a lot together... and it helps me cope with my pain to compute things in the realm of a video game. Blame the autism. My brain is weird like that.
The whole time I was thinking "A HellDiver accomplishes their mission. No matter what. No matter how bad it hurts. I won't leave my guard dog to rot in some alien hole. I just have one more job to do today. One last Pelican extraction for Velvet so she can be buried with her sisters"
I've also been told that it helps to have something to focus on. To devote one's grief and anger into. To have an enemy to vanquish.
The bots killed my dog, didn't they? That's what happened. That's what I can focus on to help me right now, so I just have one more question.
How many bots do we need dead for the rest of the MO? I'm dropping in now... and I'll take care of the rest of that billion myself. I'm going to kill their whole fucking race. For Humanity. For Super Earth. For Velvet.
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Why am I posting this here? Well... I feel like I have some camaraderie with all of you. We've been through a lot together... and it helps me cope with my pain to compute things in the realm of a video game. Blame the autism. My brain is weird like that.
The whole time I was thinking "A HellDiver accomplishes their mission. No matter what. No matter how bad it hurts. I won't leave my guard dog to rot in some alien hole. I just have one more job to do today. One last Pelican extraction for Velvet so she can be buried with her sisters"
I've also been told that it helps to have something to focus on. To devote one's grief and anger into. To have an enemy to vanquish.
The bots killed my dog, didn't they? That's what happened. That's what I can focus on to help me right now, so I just have one more question.
How many bots do we need dead for the rest of the MO? I'm dropping in now... and I'll take care of the rest of that billion myself. I'm going to kill their whole fucking race. For Humanity. For Super Earth. For Velvet.
2024.05.14 00:23 VoiceOfSeibun Lost my guard dog today
I just got back from the Vet's office... my dog, a Pomeranian named Velvet, suffered from heat stroke... likely had some kind of related stroke as well. The situation of how she got to be that way is more complicated than an internet post will allow, but she just....wasn't there anymore. Wasn't eating. Couldn't walk. Vet said she was suffering... and that this was the right thing to do.... and I gave the ok for her to be put down.
Why am I posting this here? Well... I feel like I have some camaraderie with all of you. We've been through a lot together... and it helps me cope with my pain to compute things in the realm of a video game. Blame the autism. My brain is weird like that.
The whole time I was thinking "A HellDiver accomplishes their mission. No matter what. No matter how bad it hurts. I won't leave my guard dog to rot in some alien hole. I just have one more job to do today. One last Pelican extraction for Velvet so she can be buried with her sisters"
I've also been told that it helps to have something to focus on. To devote one's grief and anger into. To have an enemy to vanquish.
The bots killed my dog, didn't they? That's what happened. That's what I can focus on to help me right now, so I just have one more question.
How many bots do we need dead for the rest of the MO? I'm dropping in now... and I'll take care of the rest of that billion myself. I'm going to kill their whole fucking race. For Humanity. For Super Earth. For Velvet.
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Why am I posting this here? Well... I feel like I have some camaraderie with all of you. We've been through a lot together... and it helps me cope with my pain to compute things in the realm of a video game. Blame the autism. My brain is weird like that.
The whole time I was thinking "A HellDiver accomplishes their mission. No matter what. No matter how bad it hurts. I won't leave my guard dog to rot in some alien hole. I just have one more job to do today. One last Pelican extraction for Velvet so she can be buried with her sisters"
I've also been told that it helps to have something to focus on. To devote one's grief and anger into. To have an enemy to vanquish.
The bots killed my dog, didn't they? That's what happened. That's what I can focus on to help me right now, so I just have one more question.
How many bots do we need dead for the rest of the MO? I'm dropping in now... and I'll take care of the rest of that billion myself. I'm going to kill their whole fucking race. For Humanity. For Super Earth. For Velvet.
2024.05.14 00:23 Neat_Youth470 Cleansing the vessel
I just watched the Keon’s video on Simone Weil, and was overcome with things clicking into place.
One can be Smeared by temptation , or Seized with the spirit (inspiration).
Temptations play on our insecurities; the vulnerabilities we have to feeling not good enough, monsters, failures. The bullies become the bully, the violated become the violators. It’s a cycle.
When you are able to forgive those who did you the worst of harms, by accepting that they too carry their demons and that anyone of us can fail in fighting them - and able to forgive yourself for doing the same - when you can finally stop using tools of shame and oppression and blame, you can leave your skin on the floor (mask) and break the cycle.
You can be reborn in any moment that you choose Love. Faith don’t get you anywhere on its own, like the allegories of being sent help by god but if you don’t Seize it or recognize it for what it is, that’s on you; and Fear will have you reacting like a rabbit being chased by a dog.
Love is about trust. Not trust in a particular person, just that it can conquer all. Turning the other cheek; refusing the alcohol; setting aside distractions like video games to do work that helps others like cooking dinner with your wife. Coming to bed, or making Saturday, is a truly difficult choice when you are feeling Called.
I believe redecorate is about converting, when you finally realize that the pleasures we are being sold and given are temporary and don’t fill the emptiness inside. The paint and outfits and masks that we wear prevent anyone from knowing our true selves. When the name you were given at birth with all its generational trauma and expectations from others dictated who you were Supposed to Be, the role you were born to fill.
You can’t run away to the Church to hide your crimes. You do have to stand and account for them first, make amends from the harms that you have done by passing on your own pain and responsibility and repent of ever doing them again now that you know the harm it causes. As a parent, as a lover, as a child. Empathy and remorse.
That you cannot sleep Twice and close your eyes to it. You have to be the Paladin now to stay on the path. Repentance.
Finally, you give up your name in a “nontraditional way”. You take the name off a grave of someone who inspires you to stay on that path, because you discard your ego. What looks like a mask, blurry face, is when you actually let all those thoughts and such show instead of hiding them behind what fits in (morph) Your name no longer matters (Nico). Your words can be shared - but your DEEDS speak for themselves. What you show up and do every day and the choices you make are the story telling itself.
I believe “I am Clancy” refers to the concept that we are all Jesus in a sense. A child of god born to human parents. The vessels are all different and the vessels matter. It’s the Point. Something like that? We all matter equally, we all have the capability to choose and to wake up. To stop being driven and to drive our own car, or to switch drivers.
Tyler and Josh, to me, are kind of like Priests. Not just sharing a message, but sharing others messages (remember Level of Concern? It wasn’t just that it’s all going to be okay. It’s that we are all in this together and every single one of our stories matters. The videos that played, the livestream because all the world is a stage).
I see Tyler struggling to basically be the most ethical cult leader that he can be, because that’s what he accidentally became, just by being brave enough to be goofy and scared and share a message that he still believes in although he struggles with his faith in a god he can’t see in a world of suffering. And the “trap” is always going to be there about making it about himself when all he can ever do is make it not about himself because THAT is the message. To reach out to others even in your own pain. To connect, not fall away.
But then he has a wife, and a baby. And now he truly does have something to lose, and something to live for, something to Hold Onto when the road ahead is dark and bumpy, and quiet is violent. His heart was in half for Jenna and now it’s been cut in half yet again. Putting his heart in the backseat and staying awake, cursing how his taxes (contributions to society) didn’t make a smoother road for his love to sleep in peacefulness. Driving the baby around in the car.
To know the only way to make this world better for that baby is to be part of what improves it. To show us what really matters. The future. East is up, tomorrow we can try again.
The Craving makes me absolutely bawl. My life has been reflected in the lyrics of the albums the past five years, as it has for so many of us, and the basis of an intense and ultimately toxic relationship because we both chose fear and control in different ways instead of faith and love, and trust. I was so afraid of change and isolation with the pandemic. The music and message changed me while my ex focused on telling me I was wrong and dismissed my interpretations even when I listened to theirs for hours.
I don’t want to be “right”; just an equally respected part of the conversation. I love how many different elements and cultures and philosophies are part of this world building.
I can’t go backwards or change what I chose, but I can try to wake up from focusing on my own small issues and try to be part of making this world better, by sharing my own sins, fears, and hopes and dreams, my own story, to help others.
I wish I had loved better. I think I am learning. And I had so much hatred of the Church for so many of its crimes, and a corrupted religion especially the patriarchal bits and wars, that I avoided the one thing that has always been there for me to come back to. God.
And I’m not going to get TOO religious here just spiritual - what Jesus preached was only that god is love, that forgiveness is divine, and to treat others as if they are ourselves. If you treat someone like a monster, they will become one. Including yourself. Polarize. It’s not about bad vs good. It’s about Anger’s true name being Grief.
I lost sight of the message. And if I don’t have a home to come back to, I will make a home inside myself for it, and start fresh next semester.
“I am enough, and I always was.”
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One can be Smeared by temptation , or Seized with the spirit (inspiration).
Temptations play on our insecurities; the vulnerabilities we have to feeling not good enough, monsters, failures. The bullies become the bully, the violated become the violators. It’s a cycle.
When you are able to forgive those who did you the worst of harms, by accepting that they too carry their demons and that anyone of us can fail in fighting them - and able to forgive yourself for doing the same - when you can finally stop using tools of shame and oppression and blame, you can leave your skin on the floor (mask) and break the cycle.
You can be reborn in any moment that you choose Love. Faith don’t get you anywhere on its own, like the allegories of being sent help by god but if you don’t Seize it or recognize it for what it is, that’s on you; and Fear will have you reacting like a rabbit being chased by a dog.
Love is about trust. Not trust in a particular person, just that it can conquer all. Turning the other cheek; refusing the alcohol; setting aside distractions like video games to do work that helps others like cooking dinner with your wife. Coming to bed, or making Saturday, is a truly difficult choice when you are feeling Called.
I believe redecorate is about converting, when you finally realize that the pleasures we are being sold and given are temporary and don’t fill the emptiness inside. The paint and outfits and masks that we wear prevent anyone from knowing our true selves. When the name you were given at birth with all its generational trauma and expectations from others dictated who you were Supposed to Be, the role you were born to fill.
You can’t run away to the Church to hide your crimes. You do have to stand and account for them first, make amends from the harms that you have done by passing on your own pain and responsibility and repent of ever doing them again now that you know the harm it causes. As a parent, as a lover, as a child. Empathy and remorse.
That you cannot sleep Twice and close your eyes to it. You have to be the Paladin now to stay on the path. Repentance.
Finally, you give up your name in a “nontraditional way”. You take the name off a grave of someone who inspires you to stay on that path, because you discard your ego. What looks like a mask, blurry face, is when you actually let all those thoughts and such show instead of hiding them behind what fits in (morph) Your name no longer matters (Nico). Your words can be shared - but your DEEDS speak for themselves. What you show up and do every day and the choices you make are the story telling itself.
I believe “I am Clancy” refers to the concept that we are all Jesus in a sense. A child of god born to human parents. The vessels are all different and the vessels matter. It’s the Point. Something like that? We all matter equally, we all have the capability to choose and to wake up. To stop being driven and to drive our own car, or to switch drivers.
Tyler and Josh, to me, are kind of like Priests. Not just sharing a message, but sharing others messages (remember Level of Concern? It wasn’t just that it’s all going to be okay. It’s that we are all in this together and every single one of our stories matters. The videos that played, the livestream because all the world is a stage).
I see Tyler struggling to basically be the most ethical cult leader that he can be, because that’s what he accidentally became, just by being brave enough to be goofy and scared and share a message that he still believes in although he struggles with his faith in a god he can’t see in a world of suffering. And the “trap” is always going to be there about making it about himself when all he can ever do is make it not about himself because THAT is the message. To reach out to others even in your own pain. To connect, not fall away.
But then he has a wife, and a baby. And now he truly does have something to lose, and something to live for, something to Hold Onto when the road ahead is dark and bumpy, and quiet is violent. His heart was in half for Jenna and now it’s been cut in half yet again. Putting his heart in the backseat and staying awake, cursing how his taxes (contributions to society) didn’t make a smoother road for his love to sleep in peacefulness. Driving the baby around in the car.
To know the only way to make this world better for that baby is to be part of what improves it. To show us what really matters. The future. East is up, tomorrow we can try again.
The Craving makes me absolutely bawl. My life has been reflected in the lyrics of the albums the past five years, as it has for so many of us, and the basis of an intense and ultimately toxic relationship because we both chose fear and control in different ways instead of faith and love, and trust. I was so afraid of change and isolation with the pandemic. The music and message changed me while my ex focused on telling me I was wrong and dismissed my interpretations even when I listened to theirs for hours.
I don’t want to be “right”; just an equally respected part of the conversation. I love how many different elements and cultures and philosophies are part of this world building.
I can’t go backwards or change what I chose, but I can try to wake up from focusing on my own small issues and try to be part of making this world better, by sharing my own sins, fears, and hopes and dreams, my own story, to help others.
I wish I had loved better. I think I am learning. And I had so much hatred of the Church for so many of its crimes, and a corrupted religion especially the patriarchal bits and wars, that I avoided the one thing that has always been there for me to come back to. God.
And I’m not going to get TOO religious here just spiritual - what Jesus preached was only that god is love, that forgiveness is divine, and to treat others as if they are ourselves. If you treat someone like a monster, they will become one. Including yourself. Polarize. It’s not about bad vs good. It’s about Anger’s true name being Grief.
I lost sight of the message. And if I don’t have a home to come back to, I will make a home inside myself for it, and start fresh next semester.
“I am enough, and I always was.”