Hi, I’ve never posted here before ever so if I made a mistake, please let me know mods so I can fix it. Sorry if there’s formatting issues, I’m on mobile, and also sorry this is so long. I tried posting this yesterday and it didn’t work, so I’m hoping it works now. I read this sub wasn’t just for grieving passed loved ones, but also for people we just parted with in life for whatever reason. I was wondering if anyone has gone through something similar to what I’ve experienced so here’s my story:
4 years ago, I lost my best friend. He didn’t die, he ghosted me. He and I were in a way perfect for each other. No romance between us, he was gay, and I’m female. We hung out together often, and texted each other a lot. We could talk about anything and we totally understood each other. When the pandemic hit, he and I could no longer go out, I wanted to have video chat dinners with him, but he refused. We instead just called and texted each other. Eventually, he and I safely met in my home, and had a socially distanced dinner together. It was still the same lovely relationship, even though we hadn’t seen each other in months.
A couple of months after this face to face dinner, he slowly starts changing. He’d go off on me while texting, spelling in all caps, pissed off over stupid things. Our favorite singer had just released an album at the time, and since he and I were both fans, we listened to it then compared notes later in the day. He told me he wasn’t a fan of it and I agreed that I wasn’t either. He immediately started getting mad at me for not liking her music. I didn’t understand why he was yelling at me over something so silly. I didn’t bash her, and I still love her and her other music, I just wasn’t a fan of that particular album. I stopped responding when I asked him why he was starting an argument over something so minor, and he told me he didn’t know. I went to bed with him still blowing up my phone about me being a horrible person for not liking her new music. I didn’t want to engage in such a stupid argument, so I figured in a few days we’ll be okay again, and he was just upset at something else and took it out on me. Wrong he did that, but whatever. I didn’t get an apology once we started talking again days later.
Time passes and he starts again, starting arguments over stupid stuff again. I figured the pandemic was really hurting him, and I had nothing but sympathy for him. It was impacting me too, but I wasn’t taking it out on him. I was always his shoulder to cry on and comforted him, I had no problem with this. After like a couple of months of him starting petty arguments, I get fed up of being his emotional punching bag. I tell him in a kind way that he never apologizes to me, I’m tired of being called names, and being screamed at. He apologizes, but says that the album thing broke the camel’s back and we’re not compatible as friends.
I started crying. My best friend in the whole world, was telling me he didn’t want to be friends with me anymore because of some singer’s album. I tell him I’m crying (we were texting at that time) and that I love him and miss him so much, does he not even love me back? I was freaking out cause I didn’t understand how in the world it had come to this. Our friendship was years old, not months. He and I had been through a lot together, I was always there for him and he was always there for me. We were two peas in a pod. He told me it was complicated, he loved me, and that he’d be going to bed for the night since he had an early morning. I told him that I hoped in the morning he still remembered me.
After these last texts, a week passed with no communication from either me or him, and I figured things between us had cooled down, so I texted him, asking if he was okay. He never answered. I’ve never heard from him at all to this day. I knew he was alive cause I had a friend who worked at the same place he did, different departments. They weren’t and still aren’t friends to this day, she said she’d see him at work and he’d awkwardly wave at her. She’d wave back, but she was always pissed off when she saw him for the pain he caused me. She works somewhere else now, so she no longer runs into him.
I miss him, and have never found someone I connect with as well as I connected with him. I still love him, and I sometimes dream of him. I’m sure he doesn’t think about me at all, and never cried over me. I feel like I’m going to grieve our friendship forever. I truly thought he’d be the uncle to my future children and I’d be the aunt to his future children. I thought I’d be the best woman at his wedding and he’d be the man of honor at mine. I’m probably better off since he turned into a toxic person, but it’s hard not having someone in your life that you still love and they’re alive. I have made new friends since, so it’s not like I’ve never moved on, I just have never had another best friend. I never really understood why he left, I assume the pandemic was messing with his head; It messed with mine, and I’m not saying I was this perfect person who never got mad or anything.
Has anybody gone through something similar? Does the pain ever go away? Did you ever get closure?
I was inspired to write this post after watching ‘Mother of the Bride’ recently. It’s about two exes who haven’t seen each other in years reuniting, because the kids they had in different relationships are getting married to each other. I started wondering if my future kid would meet his future kid or niece/nephew (since he was almost a second parent to them) would meet and we’d see each other again.

Hi,
I'm looking for someone nice and serious that can play severals canon.
I'm 'ooking for someone that can play those males characters : Obanai, Akaza,Tengen and Rengoku.
You'll play them for my female OC. I ask you to play them very vell close to canon (character). But the story is an romance prompt, and AU.
I don't want people to ghost me, so be sure to be able and motivated to RP on the long term.
I can double RP, I can play severals canon characters for your OC in return.
You'll have to be 18+ and adult to RP with me
I'll like sweet people with humour. Because I like add comedy scenes on my RP and joke and talk with the person aside the RP.
I'm looking for someone open to create an true friendship, don't be afraid to talk to me.

SPACE

Basic Information	Data
Ship Name	UHE-(NTE/N) U.S.S. Revolution
Ship Class	Friendship Command Flight Deck Carrier
Ship Tier	T6-X2
Player Career	Engineering
Elite Captain	Yes
Primary Specialization	Command
Secondary Specialization	Miracle Worker

Build Description

Ultra High End Not for Torps or EPG Nanny. This build is designed for experianced coordinated DPS teams with an expected run time of less than 45 seconds for ISE.
Big Idea: Have pets tank, then pets die, pets respawn get attack pattern beta debuff back while immune for enough time to stack beta then scramble fighters does down. Repeat. Profit from infinite attack pattern beta.
Since there are so many ahwahnee pets and we are buffing up their damage, they will collectively draw sufficent aggro that the DPSer will be safe.
Even if the DPSer begins to go down, only one nanny needs to cast Intel Team 1 to cloak them and remove threat. Use OSS to buff ahwahnee even higher.
Notes: Krenim BOFFs are likely BiS for cooldown reduction, just for redundancy and lowering damage from nanny.
8 of 47 for Cooperative Computing DOFF. 23 of 47 for Security Officer.
SAD should be used to give pets high FAW uptime for max aggro.

Ship Equipment

*Basic Information*	*Component*	*Notes*
Fore Weapons	Ba'ul Antiproton Beam Array Mk XV )
	Ba'ul Antiproton Beam Array Mk XV )
	Ba'ul Antiproton Beam Array Mk XV )
	Ba'ul Antiproton Beam Array Mk XV )
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Aft Weapons	Omni-Directional Ba'ul Antiproton Beam Array Mk XV )
	Omni-Directional Ba'ul Linked Sentry Antiproton Beam Array Mk XV
	Ba'ul Antiproton Turret Mk XV )
	Ba'ul Linked Sentry Antiproton Kinetic Torpedo Launcher Mk XV
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Deflector	Iconian Resistance Deflector Array Mk XV
Impulse Engines	Iconian Resistance Hyper-Impulse Engines Mk XV
Warp Core	Iconian Resistance Hyper Injection Warp Core Mk XV
Devices	Team Battery - Weapons and Auxiliary Mk XV
	Deuterium Surplus Mk XV
	Deuterium Surplus Mk XV
	Kobayashi Maru Transponder Mk XV
	Beacon of Kahless Mk XV
	Nimbus Pirate Distress Call Mk XV
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Universal Consoles	Console - Universal - Opening Salvo Mk XV
	Console - Universal - Hyper-focusing Trinary Arrays Mk XV
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Engineering Consoles	Console - Advanced Engineering - Hangar Craft Power Transmission Mk XV
	Console - Advanced Engineering - Hangar Craft Power Transmission Mk XV
	Console - Advanced Engineering - Hangar Craft Power Transmission Mk XV
	Console - Advanced Engineering - Hangar Craft Power Transmission Mk XV
	Console - Universal - Approaching Agony Mk XV
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Science Consoles	Console - Universal - Dominion Targeting Synchronizer Mk XV
	Console - Universal - Tachyon Net Drones Mk XV
	Console - Universal - Delphic Tear Generator Mk XV
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Tactical Consoles	Console - Universal - High-Energy Communications Network Mk XV
	Console - Universal - Fleet Power Network Array Mk XV
	Console - Universal - Power Transfer Emitters Mk XV
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Hangars	Hangar - Type 7 Shuttlecraft Mk XV
	Hangar - Type 7 Shuttlecraft Mk XV
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Bridge Officer Stations

*Profession*	*Power*	*Notes*
Lieutenant Commander Tactical / Intelligence	Intelligence Team
	Intelligence Team
	Override Subsystem Safeties
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Commander Engineering / Command	Emergency Power to Engines
	Needs of the Many
	Engineering Team
	Suppression Barrage
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Lieutenant Commander Science	Tractor Beam
	Photonic Officer
	Gravity Well
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Lieutenant Universal	Beams: Fire at Will
	Cannon: Scatter Volley
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Ensign Universal	Tactical Team
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Active Space Duty Officers

*Specialization*	*Power*	*Notes*
Flight Deck Officer	Reduce the time to recharge hangar bays and Boarding Party
Flight Deck Officer	Reduce the time to recharge hangar bays and Boarding Party
Flight Deck Officer	Reduce the time to recharge hangar bays and Boarding Party
Fabrication Engineer	'''Cooperative Computing''': trigger an extra Bridge Officer Ability after using one
Maintenance Engineer	'''Talented Smuggler''': Chance on using a Battery Device, Deploy Turret Device, or Distress Call Device to trigger Evasive Maneuvers III
Security Officer	'''Strength Through Unity''': increased stats after using Bridge Officer Abilities

Traits

*Starship Traits*	*Description*	*Notes*
Team Synergy
Scramble Fighters
Carrier Wave Shield Hacking
Inertial Supremacy
Superior Area Denial
Cooperation is the Dominant Strategy
Exitus Acta Probat

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*Personal Space Traits*	*Description*	*Notes*
Fresh From R&R
Wing Commander
The Boimler Effect
Helmsman
Into the Breach
Independent Wingmate
Feel the Weight of Our Presence
Inspirational Leader
Fulcrum Shift
Failsafe Scrambler
Pseudo-Submission

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*Space Reputation Traits*	*Description*	*Notes*
Advanced Engines
Sensor Targeting Assault
Radiant Detonation Matrix
Active Hull Hardening
Rolling Tide

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*Active Space Reputation Traits*	*Description*	*Notes*
Anti-Time Entanglement Singularity
Forced Challenge
Deploy Sensor Interference Platform
Quantum Singularity Manipulation
Refracting Tetryon Cascade

In episode #20 of AG’s After School Program, they met WedCamp’s singer, Utaha, on the street in Harajuku and went out to have fun together. WedCamp’s upcoming album has a song called “The Big Four”. Like most WedCamp songs, on the surface the song is about a legend, in this case, Shitennou, the Four Heavenly Kings who protect Buddhist temples. But WedCamp loves to play with double meanings, where the legendary figures are recast in a modern context. Call me crazy, but I’m convinced “The Big Four” of the song are none other than Kanon, Rin, Mizyu and Suzuka. "The Big Four who laugh and put their arms around each other in friendship."
Check out the English translation of the lyrics, here, and tell me if you see what I see. https://www.lyrical-nonsense.com/global/lyrics/wednesday-campanella/shitennou/english/

Unfortunately, I do not know how to draw (aching to learn at the moment), but I hope you find his abilities at least somewhat balanced. I've got some backstory if you're interested, otherwise, drop some adjustments I should make in the comments below. Please, enjoy.
Name: Hiver
Health: 175
Weapon: Trident
Primary Fire: Fires a projectile that, upon impact with an enemy, deals 60 damage and chains to all other enemies 3 meters behind the initial target, dealing 30 damage. Blocked by shields. When in contact with a teammate, the projectile heals for 30. Fires every 1.25 seconds. Has a range of 12 meters.
Passive: Perseverance
If Hiver is below 45 health or has overhealth from his hurl, his healing output doubles and he gains special abilities. Overhealth Perseverance will always take precedence. His healthbar will turn red if it is active. Hiver does not get the support or the global healing passive.
Ability 1: Healing Drone
Apply a healing drone to an ally within 20m. This includes Hiver. The healing drone has 50 health, heals for 35/s, and heals a maximum of 100 health. 6-second cooldown. 4 seconds added to the cooldown if the drone is destroyed before all the reserves are used. Cooldown starts after the drone is deployed. Drone’s maximum lifetime is 5 seconds. .5 second cast time, 1.5 second travel time at max range. The drone glows red if affected by Perseverance. Can be destroyed mid-air or if blocked by a shield or if Hiver is stunned midcast.
Ability 2: Hurl
Hiver throws his trident, dealing 150 damage. Does not ignore barriers. .75 second cast time. Has a 7-second cooldown. Returns immediately upon connecting with an enemy and gives 50 overhealth. Overhealth lasts for 8 seconds if not stripped away and stacks up to 100. If the trident connects with the enemy tank, overhealth lasts for 4 seconds instead but does not grant Perseverance. Returns in 2 seconds upon whiff. If the hurl earns a final blow, gain double the overhealth. Cooldown does not start until the trident is back in hand. Small hitbox on the trident (size of Ana’s sleep dart).
Ability 3: Biting Sacrifice
Hiver slams the bottom of his trident on the ground, dealing 50 damage to himself and 50 healing in a 10 meter radius. 8-second cooldown. Hiver cannot be healed for 2 seconds immediately after use. If Perseverance is procked from overhealth, he gains an option to sustain 75 damage, deal 100 healing, and give all teammates within 5 meters a 15% increase in damage for 2 seconds. If Perseverance is procked from low health, Hiver does not take the initial damage, deal 100 healing, and the trident pulses waves every second 6 meters wide and in front of Hiver, dealing 50 healing, for 2 seconds. Health cannot go any lower than 10 when using this ability. Cooldown is increased to 11 seconds if used during Perseverance.
Ultimate: Battle Orb
Hiver throws an orb on an ally, cleansing all debuffs. For every debuff cleansed, the ally gains 25% more damage and 10% damage resistance. The number of debuffs cleansed will appear above the affected target. All allies within 10m of the orb gain a flat rate of 20% increase in damage. This is lowered to 6m if attached to the tank. The orb lasts 6 seconds. This ultimate does not make the ally invincible at any point. Can be thrown on the ground. Enemies can catch the orb if the targeted ally dies or they intercept the throw. If intercepted, the orb’s counter carries over but remains fixed. The orb cleanses the targeted ally one more time and adds to the counter if Perseverance is procked only from low health. Ultimate costs 2600 points.

"Uhhh you okay?" Spike asked with concern
"WORRY ABOUT YOURSELF FOR YOU ARE ABOUT....About to...get burned? YEAH GET BURNED!!!" Flannery roared with vigor and enthusiasm
"How long have you been a gym leader?" Flannery puffed her cheeks
"Not important! THREE Pokémon!" Spike Shrugged and was reaching for Trapinch until Bolt and Buddy stopped
"Boss I know you want to send your ground and Water types but.."
"Buddy and I want in. Pee Wee is itching for a fight to." Bolt explained. Spike took a moment to consider before nodding.
"Sure I mean You two can handle Fire types." Buddy dismounted Spike's Head, Bolt stood next to Spike and Pee Wee emerged from his ball. "Well here's my three....Bolt you go first."
"TIME TO RUMBLE!" Bolt said ready for action. Flannery Snickered at the mouse Pokémon's energy
"Slugma you're up" Bolt couldn't help but giggle at the fire slug. Flannery Had no idea what was going to happen "Rock throw." Spike swallowed his pride and yelled the attack he was going to use
"Splishy Splash!" Bolts cheeks sparked causing the water molecules in the air to congregate and form a large wave. hitting the Slugma while also dodging the Rock Throw....and as luck would have it Slugma was Paralyzed.
"WHAT THE?! WHAT MOVE WAS THAT!?" Yeah now Flannery was panicking she has never heard of Splishy Splash before and by the looks of it is a water type move that has a chance to paralyzes the target.
"That's just the start. Finish it off with Iron Electro Ball." Bolt generated Electricity and created shocking ball of Lightning that is launched for his tail and hits the fire slug and knocking it out. "Wow...Dang Bolt."
"Uhhh. D-DON'T GET COKCY! NUMEL!" A yellow Camel Pokémon was released. Spike paused Almost as if he was making a judgement call.
"Okay then use Iron Tail." Flannery then grinned
"Earth Power." The Ground underneath Bolt Erupt dealing serious damage.
"That was a ground type move." Spike was horrified " Bolt come back!"
"Right....." Bolt retreated back to Spike's Side
"Pee Wee. You're up." The Combusken nods and moved onto the Battlefield. "Now then Double Kick!"
"Sunny Day!" The sun began shine bright. Numel took the hit and Spike was confused as were the Mane Six
"Why did you do that?" Spike asked
"Why did she do that?" The Mane Six asked
"This is why. Lava Plume!" Spike was confident at first then Pee Wee got hit and was sent flying
"Buddy thats why Sunny Day causes the Weather Effect Harsh Sunlight. This means that all Fire Type moves are 50% more stronger and all Water Type moves are 50% Weaker." Buddy Sighed "Looking back at it now. It was a good Idea to not let David Battle Flannery That would make all of his Water Type moves weaker....Though It was a good thing that Pee Wee was out and not Bolt."
"Yeah Fire Type Pokémon are immune to the Burned Status effect"
"Okay....that makes things difficult Flame Charge!" Pee Wee Enwreathes himself in flames and charged at Numel
"Earth Power!" Pee Wee Thankfully was able to hit the camel before its attack could fire off. However he began to feel funny....like he was relaxed and yet was in pain. He began to glow
"OH YES! IT'S HAPPENING!!!" Pee Wee yells in enthusiasm
"So Pee Wee what did you become?" Twilight asked the little phoenix chick. Pee Wee chuckled then in a dramtic voice to the screen and Spoke
"Behold my final form. The terror of competive play. The banned fighter. Firey Speed Demon. BLAZIKEN)!"
Once the evolution was done. Pee Wee took a moment to give himself a look over "I look awesome! Hmmm ah yes. Boss give my moves a look over!" Spike did as instructed looked at Pee Wee and nodded
"BLAZE KICK!"
"Earth Power!"
This time however both attacks hit their intended targets. But in the end Pee Wee was still standing and numel was out cold. The Ref nodded
"Numel is unable to battle and Flannery is out of any usable Pokémon. Which means Spike wins!"
"ALRIGT!" Bolt cheered
"That was close" Pee Wee stated a bit exhausted
"Man....I guess I still have a ways to go" Flannery bemoaned but smiled "Well done challenger. Here's your badge" Spike received his 3rd badge.
Pee wee that was with Twilight then spoke up "At the time we were thinking that nothing could stop us now. Man Norman put us in our place when we got to him"

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PIONEER - IAE	10 years	-	$1150
POLARIS	LTI	$745	-
POLARIS - ILW	10 years	-	$760
PROSPECTOR	LTI	$140	-
PROWLER	LTI	$360	-
RAILEN 🛸🚚	LTI	$190	-
RAFT 🚚	LTI	$115	-
RANGER CV	LTI	-	-
RANGER RC	10 years	-	$50
RANGER TR	10 years	-	$50
RAZOR	LTI	$130	-
RAZOR LX	LTI	$135	-
RAZOR EX	LTI	$140	-
RETALIATOR BASE	LTI	$135	-
RETALIATOR BOMBER	10 years	-	$280
RETALIATOR BOMBER	LTI	$260	-
RECLAIMER	LTI	$385	-
REDEEMER	LTI	$310	-
REDEEMER - ILW	10 years	-	$300
RELIANT KORE	LTI	$65	-
RELIANT TANA (SKIRMISHER)	LTI	$80	-
RELIANT SEN (RESEARCHER)	LTI	$90	-
RELIANT MAKO (NEWS VAN)	LTI	$95	-
ROC	LTI	-	$140
ROC Subscribers Exclusive	LTI	$60	-
ROC Subscribers Exclusive	12m	-	$54
ROC-DS	LTI	$75	-
SAN'TOK.YĀI	LTI	$205	$400
SABRE	LTI	$155	-
SABRE COMET	LTI	$170	-
SCORPIUS ANTARES	LTI	$181	-
SCORPIUS	LTI	$191	-
SPARTAN	LTI	$80	$100
STARFARER	LTI	$285	-
STARFARER GEMINI	LTI	$270	-
STORM + Summit Paint	LTI	-	$130
STV + Blue Steel Paint	LTI	-	$55
SRV	LTI	$135	-
TALON	LTI	$115	-
TALON SHRIKE	LTI	$118	-
TERRAPIN	LTI	$205	-
VANGUARD HOPLITE	LTI	$220	-
VANGUARD WARDEN	LTI	$245	-
VANGUARD SENTINEL	LTI	$260	-
VANGUARD HARBINGER	LTI	$275	-
VALKYRIE	LTI	$270	-
VALKYRIE BIS 2950	10 years	-	-
VULCAN	LTI	$185	-
VULTURE	LTI	$135🔥	-
X1 BASELINE EDITION	LTI	-	-
X1 FORCE EDITION	LTI	-	-
X1 VELOCITY EDITION	LTI	-	-
Zeus Mk II ES +Solstice Paint	LTI	-	$235
Zeus Mk II CL +Solstice Paint	LTI	-	$235
Zeus Mk II MR +Solstice Paint	LTI	-	$270

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Item	Price
2951 Auspicious Red Paint Pack	$22
2952 Auspicious Red Paint Pack	$24
Nomad - 2951 Auspicious Red Paint	$11
Freelancer - 2951 Auspicious Red Paint	$14
Constellation - 2952 Auspicious Red Paint	$14
Sabre - 2952 Auspicious Red Paint	$12
Lovestruck Paint Pack	$26
HoverQuad - Lovestruck Paint	$8
MPUV - Lovestruck Paint	$8
Cyclone - Lovestruck Paint	$8
Arrow - Lovestruck Paint	$8
Nomad - Lovestruck Paint	$10
RAFT - Lovestruck Paint	$10
SRV - Lovestruck Paint	$11
Scorpius - Lovestruck Paint	$14
Ares - Lovestruck Paint	$14
Mole - Lovestruck Paint	$16
Ghoulish Green 4 Paint Pack	$32
Mule - Ghoulish Green Paint	$6
Herald - Ghoulish Green Paint	$8
Vulture - Ghoulish Green Paint	$12
Caterpillar - Ghoulish Green Paint	$12
Buccaneer - Ghoulish Green Paint	$9
Cutlass - Ghoulish Green Paint	$8
Dragonfly - Ghoulish Green Paint	$8
Avenger - Invictus 2950 Blue and Gold Paint	$10
Aurora - Invictus 2950 Blue and Gold Paint	$10
Constellation - 2950 Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$18
Cyclone - Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$8
Galaxy - Protector Paint	$15
Gladius - Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$12
Gladius - Solar Winds Paint	$11
Hawk - Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$10
Hercules Starlifter - Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$20
Hornet - Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$10
Reliant - Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$8
Retaliator - Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$28
Vanguard - Invictus Blue and Gold Paint	$18
Aphorite Mining Paint Pack	$35
Dolivine Mining Paint Pack	$35
Hadanite Mining Paint Pack	$35
Overdrive Racing Paint Pack	$11
Slipstream Racing Paint Pack	$11
Turbocharged Racing Paint Pack	$11
Aspire Paint Pack	$18
Central Tower Paint Pack	$18
Hosanna Paint Pack	$18
100 Series - Sand Wave Paint	$8
100 Series - Melrose Paint	$8
400i - Meridian Paint	$20
400i - Penumbra Paint	$20
600i - Cold Forge Paint	$14
600i - Sterling Paint	$19
Arrastra - Nocturne Paint	$17🔥
Aurora ILW 2950 Paint Pack	$18
Aurora - Light and Dark Grey Paint	$8
Aurora - Green and Gold Paint	$8
Avenger ILW 2950 Paint Pack	$20
Avenger - Solar Winds Paint	$10
Avenger - Copernicus Paint	$8
Avenger - Kepler Paint	$8
Avenger - De Biasio Paint	$8
Centurion - Beachhead Paint	$8
Constellation ILW 2950 Paint Pack	$27
Constellation - Dark Green Paint	$13
Cutlass Black - Skull & Crossbones Paint	$12
Defender - Platinum Paint	$15
Defender - Harmony Paint	$15
LIBERATOR - VIP exclusive Condor Paint	$33🔥
Mercury Star Runner - 2951 Fortuna Paint	$14
MOLE Aphorite Paint	$12
MOLE Dolivine Paint	$12
MOLE Hadanite Paint	$12
Nox - Harmony Paint	$8
Odyssey - Windrider Paint	$28
PERSEUS - A VIP exclusive, the Thundercloud Paint	$33🔥
Prospector Aphorite Paint	$11
Prospector Dolivine Paint	$11
Prospector Hadanite Paint	$11
Prowler - Ocellus Paint	$20
Prowler - Harmony Paint	$20
Railen - Hyaotan Paint	$20
Retaliator ILW 2950 Paint Pack	$38
Reclaimer Aphorite Paint	$15
Reclaimer Dolivine Paint	$15
Reclaimer Hadanite Paint	$15
ROC Aphorite Paint	$7
ROC Dolivine Paint	$7
ROC Hadanite Paint	$7
Scorpius - Stinger Paint	$30
Scorpius - Tiburon Paint	$12
STV - Blue Steel Paint	$5
Talon - Cobalt Paint	$10
Talon - Crimson Paint	$10
Talon - Ocellus Paint	$10
Talon - Harmony Paint	$10
Talon - Paint Pack	$30
Valkyrie ILW 2950 Paint Pack	$40
Vanguard - Solar Winds Paint	$15
Zeus Mk II - Solstice Paint	$12

 

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Set	Includes	Price
Takuetsu Replica Figurines	6 exhibits	$35
Kastak Arms Custodian SMG CitizenCon 2947 Edition	1 item	$30
Atzkav "DEADEYE" Sniper rifle	1 item	$10
Yubarev "DEADEYE" Pistol	1 item	$10
WowBlast "Blue" Desperado Toy Pistol	1 item	$8
WowBlast "Orange" Desperado Toy Pistol	1 item	$8
WowBlast "Red" Desperado Toy Pistol	1 item	$8
WowBlast "Teal" Desperado Toy Pistol	1 item	$8
Overlord Helmets DOUBLE TROUBLE	2 items	$7
Overlord Helmets FORCES OF NATURE	2 items	$7
Overlord Helmets SILENT STRIKE	2 items	$7
Overlord "Dust Storm" Armor Set	3 items	$9
Overlord "Predator" Armor Set	3 items	$9
Overlord "Riptide" Armor Set	3 items	$9
Overlord "Stinger" Armor Set	3 items	$9
Overlord "Supernova" Armor Set	3 items	$9
Overlord "Switchback" Armor Set	3 items	$9
Caudillo Helmets Pack 1	2 items	$8
Caudillo Helmets Pack 2	2 items	$8
Caudillo Helmets Pack 3	2 items	$8
NIGHTFIRE - Paladin Helmet	1 item	$6
SINGULARITY - Paladin Helmet	1 item	$6
ICEBORN - Paladin Helmet	1 item	$6
Fieldsbury Dark Bear Helmet	1 item	$8
Fieldsbury Dark Bear Helmet – ORANGE	1 item	$8
Fieldsbury Dark Bear Helmet – LIME	1 item	$8
Fieldsbury Dark Bear Helmet – BLUEBERRY	1 item	$8
Fieldsbury Dark Bear Helmet – GRAPE	1 item	$8
Fieldsbury Dark Bear Helmet – GUAVA	1 item	$8
Fieldsbury Dark Bear Sinister SIX-PACK	6 items	$26
Giocoso Helmet - Azure	1 item	$7
Giocoso Helmet - Ivory	1 item	$7
Giocoso Helmet - Obsidian	1 item	$7
Giocoso Helmet - Triple Pack	1 item	$15
Sawtooth "Sirocco" Combat Knife	1 item	$5
Sawtooth "Squall" Combat Knife	1 item	$5
Sawtooth "Bloodstone" Combat Knife	1 item	$5
Pyro RYT "Ghost" Multi-Tool	1 item	$6
Pyro RYT "Mirage" Multi-Tool	1 item	$6
Pyro RYT "Bloodline" Multi-Tool	1 item	$6
GP-33 Mod "ASHFALL" Grenade Launcher	1 item	$9
GP-33 Mod "COPPERHEAD" Grenade Launcher	1 item	$9
GP-33 Mod "THUNDERCLAP" Grenade Launcher	1 item	$9
Aves Armor & Helmet Set	4 items	$16
Aves Talon Shrike Armor and Helmet Set	4 items	$16
Aves Talon Armor and Helmet Set	4 items	$16
Neoni "Jami" Helmet	1 item	$7
Neoni "Onna" Helmet	1 item	$7
Neoni "Tengubi" Helmet	1 item	$7
Star Kitten Set	4 items	$14
Star Kittyen "SALLY" Set	4 items	$14
Star Kittyen "DAMON" Set	4 items	$14
Pembroke RSI Sunburst Exploration Armor	3 items	$15
Pembroke RSI Ivory Exploration Armor	3 items	$15
Pembroke RSI Graphite Exploration Armor	3 items	$15
Morozov Aftershock Armor	5 items	$15
Morozov Terracotta Armor	5 items	$15
Morozov Thule Armor	5 items	$15
Sakura Fun Green ORC-mkX Armor Bobblehead	1 item	$7
Sakura Fun Blue ORC-mkX Armor Bobblehead	1 item	$7
Sakura Fun White ORC-mkX Armor Bobblehead	1 item	$7
Zeus Exploration Suit	3 items	$15
Zeus Exploration Suit Solar	3 items	$15
Zeus Exploration Suit Starscape	3 items	$15
Xanthule Flight Suit	2 items	$13
Xanthule Sehya Flight Suit	2 items	$13
Xanthule Tahn Flight Suit	2 items	$13
CSP-68L Backpack Night Camo	1 item	$6
CSP-68L Backpack Cayman	1 item	$6
CSP-68L Backpack Forest Camo	1 item	$6
CitizenCon 2951 Digital Goodies	7 items	$10
CitizenCon 2951 Trophy	7 items	$10

 

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SHIP	TARGET SHIP	<	Upgrade from	Price
400I
	400I	<	CONSTELLATION ANDROMEDA	$15
600I EXPLORER
	600I EXPLORER	<	PROWLER	$70
ARGO MOLE
	ARGO MOLE	<	CONSTELLATION AQUILA	$7
	ARGO MOLE	<	MERCURY STAR RUNNER	$59
	ARGO MOLE	<	VANGUARD WARDEN	$59
	ARGO MOLE	<	RETALIATOR BOMBER	$43
	ARGO MOLE	<	VANGUARD SENTINEL	$43
	ARGO MOLE	<	APOLLO MEDIVAC	$43
	ARGO MOLE	<	ESPERIA VANDUUL BLADE	$43
	ARGO MOLE	<	VANGUARD HARBINGER	$27
	ARGO MOLE	<	REDEEMER	$70
	ARGO MOLE	<	HULL C	$70
	ARGO MOLE	<	APOLLO TRIAGE	$70
ARROW
	ARROW	<	AURORA MR	$50
	ARROW	<	MUSTANG ALPHA	$50
	ARROW	<	C8X PISCES EXPEDITION	$35
	ARROW	<	100i	$30
	ARROW	<	AVENGER TITAN	$25
	ARROW	<	RELIANT KORE	$15
CATERPILLAR BEST IN SHOW EDITION
	CATERPILLAR BISE	<	VANGUARD HARBINGER	$100
CORSAIR
	CORSAIR	<	TAURUS	$60
CRUCIBLE
	CRUCIBLE	<	STARFARER GEMINI	$21
CUTLASS BLACK BEST IN SHOW EDITION
	CUTLASS BLACK BISE	<	GLADIUS	$70
CUTLASS RED Subscriber
	CUTLASS RED Subscriber	<	F7C-S HORNET GHOST	$25
CUTLASS BLUE
	CUTLASS BLUE	<	PROSPECTOR	$30
DEFENDER
	DEFENDER	<	CORSAIR	$15
	DEFENDER	<	HORNET F7C-M HEARTSEEKER	$37
GLADIUS
	GLADIUS	<	AURORA MR	$65
	GLADIUS	<	MUSTANG ALPHA	$65
	GLADIUS	<	C8X PISCES EXPEDITION	$50
	GLADIUS	<	100i	$45
	GLADIUS	<	AVENGER TITAN	$40
	GLADIUS	<	RELIANT KORE	$30
	GLADIUS	<	ARROW	$20
HAMMERHEAD
	HAMMERHEAD	<	CARRACK	$150
	HAMMERHEAD	<	CARRACK EXPEDITION W/C8X	$100
HULL C
	HULL C	<	CATERPILLAR	$175
MERCHANTMAN
	MERCHANTMAN	<	STARFARER GEMINI	$300
	MERCHANTMAN	<	ARGO MOLE	$345
NAUTILUS
	NAUTILUS	<	CARRACK	$175
PERSEUS
	PERSEUS	<	CARRACK Expedition W/C8X	$40
	PERSEUS	<	CARRACK	$90
	PERSEUS	<	ORION	$115
	PERSEUS	<	600I EXPLORER	$220
	PERSEUS	<	MERCHANTMAN	$248
	PERSEUS	<	ARGO MOLE	$380
	PERSEUS	<	ANDROMEDA	$485
POLARIS
	POLARIS	<	PERSEUS	$70
	POLARIS	<	HAMMERHEAD	$70
	POLARIS	<	NAUTILUS	$60
	POLARIS	<	CARRACK	$250
RECLAIMER BIS 2949
	RECLAIMER BIS 2949	<	VALKYRIE	$300
SAN'TOK.YĀI
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First post, I had to wait for the perfect opportunity 🥹 This feels like such a vintáge Craigslist thing to do, but here goes. If you are one of the handful of people I gave a handmade Ds friendship bracelet to, do you wanna be friends? I was the blonde, baby-banged girl (ha- in my mid-30s, who am I kidding?!) in big black glasses, a baby blue Busch Light shirt, and short black skirt.
I’m quite forlorn about the bracelet I tossed onstage having slid right under an amp… undoubtedly to have only met the eyes of an unsuspecting tech or roadie and now lost forever.

My boyfriend met this woman at his job last year and they worked together for a few months before she quit. They quickly bonded because her and I are from the same country. She felt very comfortable to tell him about her dating life and her personal life. The friendship was very platonic and they would text here and there but it never went further than that. After she quit, they never really spoke again.
A couple months later she reaches out to my boyfriend and sets up a double date with us + her new boyfriend. We had a pretty great time with them and I felt like they were a really cool couple. We’ve hung out with them a few times after and have even been in larger group settings with them where they got to hang out with our other friends.
I never really felt like I could get close to her past a certain level just yet and just kind of categorized her as someone that I could hang with only on a group setting. Maybe also because I hadn’t gotten to know her well just yet and I only got to hang out with her twice outside of a group. But my boyfriend now frequently talks to her boyfriend and they have gotten really close outside of our group chat.
But there were a few red flags that occurred along the way: I notice she never compliments me or other women, one time she INSISTED on crashing on a date after my boyfriend had explained to her that this was quality time for us because our new work schedules doesn’t allow us to go on dates as much, she talks about herself…A LOT. Like the times I’ve hung out with her it was all about her. Although I did feel like I got to share my side a bit the second time, I still felt so drained after the interaction. One of those times we were out to lunch with another girl and after that girl was talking about how she was so worried that she wasn’t getting hired after her layoff and her numerous interviews, new friend proceeded to talk about herself and how perfect her new job that she just got hired will be. I thought that was so inconsiderate and tone deaf. She’s also extremely insecure and always needs opinions about her relationship issues. I feel like she doesn’t really take the effort to get to know me. I just ruled those out at first as her maybe just truly being lonely because she has no other friends and was really grateful that I was hearing her out. I also try to understand that she has EXTREME anxiety and overthinking.
But then, her boyfriend goes out of the country for work. She gets extremely depressed and lonely so she messages my boyfriend asking if we can see her. That weekend we already had plans so we set something up for another date. He then reposts that night a picture of him and his buddy as a GUYS night. She sent a passive aggressive joke about the picture and my boyfriend told her to not be that way. She then expressed that she’s annoyed that he didn’t invite her knowing how she’s so lonely and depressed that her man isn’t here and feels like the only way she’d be invited is because of her boyfriend. My boyfriend responded by telling her that he was with the guys and it would be strange for him to invite her especially because I am not there. She then proceeded to send him a bunch of texts questioning who it would be strange for. He ignores all of the following texts and calls me to tell me what happened. What I don’t like is that she then texts me and involves me by asking me if I would have an issue with him hanging out with her in the same group setting without me 🤦🏻‍♀️ it was a series of anxious texting and me trying to reassure her that there isn’t a preference between her and her boyfriend. She also told me that she really liked having my boyfriend as a friend when they were working together because he helped her through her heartbreak with her last guy (an emotional affair with a committed man btw—-I gave her the benefit of the doubt at first and ran with my own narrative that he was manipulative because it was semi true but she also admits that part of it was her fault). I just really did not like the dramatics and have really bad experiences of old controlling friends being this way with me. I felt like she feels entitled to my boyfriend’s time and him because she was “friends with him first”.
This situation gave me so much anxiety because for me it was like “here we go again, another damsel in distress that needs my boyfriend”. While I do appreciate my boyfriend for setting boundaries and being understanding what is respectful and what is not, we have grown A LOT from our past. In the past, like three years ago, I always felt like I had to compete for my boyfriend’s attention with his other females friends because he used to prioritize his friends’ feelings over mine and was always running to the rescue of other people. He completely changed when he realized he was losing me and now fully understands where I’m coming from and was more than willingly to set boundaries.
He thinks we should still hang out with her because he doesn’t want to lose the friendship with the boyfriend and he wants to establish boundaries in person.
I just see why she doesn’t have any girlfriends and I really don’t like that she just assumes that my boyfriend should be there for her. Self absorbed on top of that. I now really don’t care to try to make an effort on the friendship. Am I looking too far into this all and is it really my own insecurities from the past coming back?
TLDR: boyfriend’s ex coworker and her boyfriend have been hanging out with my boyfriend and I. My boyfriend has gotten much closer to her boyfriend. I’m very hestitant of her because she has some self absorbed characteristics and over talks for hours. I feel like she hasn’t tried to get to know me at all. But she has extreme anxiety and insecurities. She got annoyed with my boyfriend because he didn’t invite her while he was out with other friends and she was home alone because her boyfriend is away. She kind of got me involved in that situation. We have set plans with her but the dramatics really turned me off. My boyfriend thinks we should go because he wants to continue being on great terms with her boyfriend and he feels the need to establish boundaries with her once and for all in person. Am I just being really hard on her because of my past insecurities and she just has bad anxiety?

Yesterday we learned, that when we come into trails,(what ever they are) that that is a reason for joy! Because we are perfected through them. We also learned, that if we lack the knowledge to master the trail we have to ask god for it.
But when we continue in the text, there is a clause for asking for wisdom. "But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do."
There we read, that we should not doubt when we ask, we should not try to set our heart onto two things. So let us pray that god will make us stable personalities and that we set our faith in him.
So let's start in the next 24 hours, lord you've seen, where every single one of us has failed in the last time. Please forgive where I have failed and please give me the knowledge needed to walk through the trail victorious, make a whole person, not one who can't decide what to set his heart on. So that when the fights change we don't and we can still win and keep walking toward you.
What is included ?

1. stay pure
2. fill your heart with god ( read his word. If you only have strength for one verse, Jesus can make a lot of that seed, it might grow into a big tree)
3. meditate on it ask god questions, pray learn to understand him and hear what he is saying
4. ask god to teach you how to love him (it’s key!)

I know this is unnecessarily long, so if you are not in the mood for reading, I understand. But I would greatly appreciate anyone who would take the time to read my story that is probably TMI and badly in need of some editing. I just really need some advice from people whose heads are less cloudy than mine.
My fiancé M/42 and I F41 have been together for about 4 years and have known each other since high school. I knew he was a recovering addict when I got together with him but I fell head over heels in love and didn’t see the relapse on the horizon that would occur shortly after the honeymoon phase and would eventually almost kill me - I took a swipe of some mystery powder and touched it to my tongue (fentanyl) thinking it would help me get through the most stressful day of my life as i was ceaning out his place while I was packing him up for detox. It was a total freak accident, I’m not an addict, never done anything like that in my life, I’m a single mom and a kindergarten teacher, but I loved him so much I just followed him down the rabbit hole and honestly just became so disoriented in this world I (naively) didn’t understand or even realize I had signed up for.
Anyway, He literally saved my life, and said I also saved his, because that day is what motivated him to get and stay clean for good despite being an active heroin addict for the majority of his life.
He worked an incredibly thorough program, and he gained more friends, money, and more overall success in 2 years than I’ve been able to scrounge up in an entire lifetime. And it’s no surprise honestly. He’s a special person. Absolutely brilliant, charismatic, driven, and has a heart of gold.
Within a year of getting sober, he moved me and my daughters into a gorgeous home adjacent to a golf course, bought luxury vehicles for both me and him, convinced me to quit my teaching job which was making me miserable, so I could finally be fully present for my girls, and then put a giant diamond ring on my left hand. He completely spoils us. We went from having nothing to having every tangible thing, we could possibly need.
The stability that he provided for us meant the world to a single mom who was barely making ends meet, but it was always just the icing on the cake for me. He’s my best friend in the world, he makes me laugh so hard my mouth hurts from smiling, he show me that he loves even the parts of myself that I don’t find lovable. I found my soulmate.
His program started slipping after 2 1/2 years (last November). He was already struggling in his role of being a stepfather, and we were fighting a lot about parenting stuff. He has a lot to learn, has little patience, and seems to have very unrealistic expectations of my kids. He wanted Parenting to be this effortless thing, and he just doesn’t get that it’s not. And that kids are not always going to behave themselves and that doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with them. so we were fighting a lot.
In December, he started complaining about his chronic back pain again (a real issue for him as he’s had five back surgeries due to a snowboarding accident in his early 20s-this was during that height of Purdue Pharma and what got him hooked on pain meds)
While I know he was legitimately in pain, it was also a red flag because pain was the culprit for his last relapse. He decided to go in for a sixth surgery and was told he would have to wait three months. He found a surgeon who has made a lot of profit off of him over the years (as he’s a PI attorney) and was willing to prescribe him generous amounts of pain pills to get him through the three months of increasing pain that he was experiencing. He spent the next three months in bed, depressed, checking out, taking pills depressed, checking out- as I became increasingly suspicious that his behavior was much too loopy for the amount of medication he was being prescribed. I fell into the role of his nurse, and his babysitter. Making sure he didn’t text to nonsense to clients, making sure he didn’t fall and make his back worse, making sure he wasn’t interacting with the kids, etc
I knew he wasn’t being honest with me, but he just kept gaslighting me. It honestly felt like he was psychologically tormenting me, treating me as though I was totally paranoid, heartless and out of line. I thought after the surgery, it would finally get better. I made a promise that I would be there for him because he had never had anyone there for him for the previous surgeries and it had been a really traumatic experience for him in the past. I really stepped up and tried so hard to his rock. The hospital experience was horrific, mainly because no amount of diloted was relieving him of the pain. None of the nurses understood why he needed so much more than everyone else, but I think his tolerance had just become so high.
After that nightmare was finally over I was really counting on things getting better, as the plan was for him to taper off the meds, live pain-free, and get back to normal. It didn’t go that way. It just kept getting worse and no matter how many times I told him that I didn’t trust him he just had an excuse for an explanation for everything. He is a master manipulator and I listened to him do it to everyone, doctors, the pharmacist he formed a “friendship” with, literally everyone.
On Mother’s Day, it got to a point where he couldn’t hide it anymore. He disappeared for the day, Ended up, passing out at a gas station and was unreachable for hours, when he finally came home, the car was all fucked up and he claims it was someone else’s fault. He went straight to his home office and I didn’t see the rest of the night until I walked in on him smoking crushed up pills. After that, he confessed everything to me, including the time that he told me not to check the mail because he had a special surprise for me to thank me for all the love and support I gave him To help him through his surgery. it turned out he had drug dealers sending him drugs in the mail. Needless to say there was no surprise for me me. Just heartbreak and betrayal. I felt like a fool.
I was still processing this the next day when , after insisting on taking a photo of me in these designer sunglasses he purchased for me out of guilt. I asked him not to take my photo, because I had tears in my eyes, but he insisted. He was napping next to me and I opened his phone to erase the photo. we’ve always had each other’s passwords, and have looked through each others photos before for various reasons, sharing photos, etc. I cannot emphasize enough how much I trust his loyalty to me when it comes to anything other than drugs.
But for some reason, all of my photos, the ones I was taking on my phone were showing up in his feed. I was so confused, so I started scrolling through deleting unflattering double chin pictures of myself when I came across that menu photos organized based on face recognition. One of them was his ex. I remember him telling me he deleted all of his photos of her the first time he told me he loved me.
I opened it and scrolled through hundreds of pictures of their happy life together. The pictures got more and more sexual, one of her with her legs spread, another another of them in the bathtub together, her kissing him while he had his hands around her neck, another screenshot of her naked in the shower with a thumbnail shot of him in the corner obviously jerking off to her on FaceTime. Because I’m a masochist I decided to take it one step further and look in his video folder. I found a There I found a thumbnail shot if a close-up of him penetrating her. I watched it and it just completely crushed whatever was left of me.
I’m normally a really passive person, and I just completely lost my mind. I reacted as though I had caught him cheating on me. I just couldn’t handle the physical evidence of such a close up shot of him being inside another woman. It’s stupid because I know, like me, he has a past. Obviously he’s been with other women. Obviously he’s been attracted to them. But it just scarred my brain, I literally haven’t even been able to eat since because I’ve been so nauseous. I know it’s ridiculous, because this is a reality I was well aware existed, but seeing it with my own eyes… I don’t know what to say. Other than that I need a lobotomy.
He says he erased all of those videos and photos from his phone, and something weird happened where all of his photos from the cloud just re-uploaded when he got a new phone. He’s not a technical person and I actually believe him because, aside from being a complete liar when it comes to drugs, he has always show me the upmost, integrity, love and loyalty. So it’s not that I don’t believe him. I just can’t get that image out of my head.
I can’t tell if this intense emotional reaction I’m having would be the same reaction anyone would have if they saw what I saw, or if I’m combining the feelings of betrayal over the gaslighting and the relapse…, the last four months of feeling completely invisible, hopeless, and like he was choosing drugs over me. My mind is like mush and I seriously can’t differentiate between these two very separate issues. I’m so confused, but that’s what gaslighting does to you. It makes you question your reality.
He said that he’s finally willing to go into detox, so at this point, I have waited this long, it would be silly not to stick around and see if he’s finally going to put an end to this. What’s getting me is that he’s still making excuses, still not seeming very remorseful, and is still so deep in self-pity that he doesn’t seem to have any awareness of how badly I’m hurting because of him. It feels like he just doesn’t care. anyone who’s ever loved an addict knows that feeling well.
I’m in Al-anon, and I’m well aware of all of the things I should be doing, focusing on myself, etc. but I’m just not doing well, and I can’t seem to find my way out of this dark hole. Anyone who has made it this far deserves some sort of a Reddit badge of honor. This was more of an autobiography than a simple question. I just wanna hear some outside input because I don’t trust my own mind right now. I’m willing to take your criticism, just please be kind. I know I’ve made mistakes, I’m just hurting so badly. I can’t seem to sort through this. Thank you so much if you took the time to read all of this and still want to respond. You have no idea how much it means to me.

Here we are again in the shit stew that is the Fallowveil trailer park. We’ve got soul eating strippers, jobs that kill us, and plenty of weirdos, both the trailer trash and the potentially paranormal variety. It’s the place where even your own computer sometimes threatens to kill you. I can’t tell if I should be worried, or annoyed that all my neighbors have such irresponsible web habits. I know it’s not me that brings in all these machine wiping viruses.
So even though I got a system error that literally said “you’re useless and you should die” I’m less interested in that. Stupid thing. Like I don’t already know I’m useless. That’s not what I’m depressed about.
Well… I suppose it's tangentially related.
I hope anyone reading will forgive me. I’m feeling the sting of rejection right now. It was really stupid of me to ask. Especially now. Nobody here really likes me. They’ve only been nice to me as a courtesy because I was almost involved in a god damn shootout. And my idiot self decided that was the perfect time to push one of my few friends all the way away. Never ask your friends out on dates. It ruins everything.
So there’s this woman. I’ve talked about her in the past. Trista Ramone. She lives in the far back corner of the trailer park. You can instantly tell which unit is hers because she’s covered every square inch of the property with gardens and a rabbit hutch. The place usually has beads and colorful flags hanging on its walls as well. She’s kind of a right winger’s nightmare. I know some of those flags represent various lgbtq plus communities.
She and I have been friendly in the past. We’re both night shift workers. We crossed paths quite a bit going to and from work so we struck up a friendship over the years.
Let’s just ripped the band aid off. Recently I’ve started thinking I had… stronger feelings for Trista. I got stupid and decided to tell her about them. She wasn’t interested. I get why. We have very different lifestyles. I like meat, and she thinks the meat industry is murder. I’m not willing to give up meat, and she’s not willing to give up her beliefs. It's as simple as that. Now things are incredibly awkward with one of my closer friends and I’m still spiraling into self loathing, where I belong.
She swore up and down that she absolutely still wants to be friends with me, but I’m not sure I believe her. The look she gave me when I told her I’d like to ask her out. It looked like sadness, but a small part of me is convinced it was pity, or worse, disgust and loathing, and that small part gave me ever shuts the fuck up. But anyway, she gave me permission to write about her.
She is one of the creepy fixtures of our little neighborhood after all. She told me to make her seem as insane and scary as I possibly could and that she should get to kill me at the end. She also handed me a few of her high school yearbooks, advised me to chat with another neighbor of ours who she went to school with, and to only use creepy rumors for the rest.
Part of me is really willing to describe her as awful, but that’s just my anger. I don’t like that part of me. Trista’s not a bad person at all. She’s just weird and she doesn’t want to date me. God damn it, Petunia’s right. I need therapy.
So, I’ve told the story of the sexy, scary lady living in a polycule here in the trailer park. I think she’s got a bigger heart than she lets on. I’ve talked about the stories surrounding the Schroeder Slaughterhouse. Now let’s talk about the hippy everyone thinks is a vampire.
She’s a taller woman, maybe five-seven or eight, and she’s skinny. Her typical wardrobe is… interesting. Try to imagine your typical new-age hippy/stoner girl, wearing colorful sarongs, crop-tops, beanies, baggy sweaters, T-shirts with colorful sayings on them, sandals, boots woven from some sort of exotic plant, beaded necklaces, bracelets, a few too many piercings and some intricate tattoos. Can you picture that kind of person? Well, take that and dip them in “goth” dye. Everything is black, and contrasts to her pale white complexion, her eyes are this unusual violet color, and then make the woman wearing all that seem kind of depressed about something. That’s the look Trista has going on. Like if Wednesday Addams was forced to dress up for Hippy Day.
I’ve heard people call her an emo vampire, but as a former emo myself, she doesn’t fill out all the criteria. She doesn’t typically wear any super tight pants or cake on the eyeshadow. I guess she’s just Trista. It might sound weird (and it is) but the whole thing suits her. Her style, tattoos, and complexion all create this image of skinny vampiric waif with a mysterious past and a freaky sarcastic attitude and I found the whole thing… kinda hot.
Trista keeps to herself. She’s made the most out of her little corner of the trailer park. Like I said, she decked out her unit with garden squares, and a Rabbit pen. No idea why she’s allowed to do that. A lot of these places don’t allow pets. I heard she was also trying to put in a beehive too, but her neighbors are fighting her on that one. Our park is a bit too condensed for bees. She has a permit to grow hemp, but of course it’s not for recreational use. She treats it and uses it to weave things like handbags, clothes, and other stuff. There’s a consignment store in town that sells all kinds of things Trista has crafted herself. So she’s handy and self sufficient too. She paints, she carves wood, she weaves, she crochets, she sews, and who knows what else. She’s so good at her little crafts that apparently she’s able to support herself just selling them and working part time at the Moonlight Inn outside of town.
She’s also relatively friendly. I almost feel bad calling her weird, but here’s the thing, I’ve seen some REALLY weird shit. People jokingly call her a vampire, and she seems to embrace that, but part of me seriously wonders. The big clue is, like I mentioned, she’s completely nocturnal. She’s always asleep during the day, and every blind and curtain is drawn tight. The one time she came out during the day, she had on this full body suit with a helmet with UV glass and everything. Even then, she only showed up to give Petunia a hug, before leaving again.
That was the first time I saw Trista, come to think of it. I was kind of intrigued. It was kind of hard not to be when someone shows up to a community cookout in a freaking astronaut suit. I approached Petunia after she left.
“Who the heck was that?” I wondered.
“MASON! I’m so glad you could make it! You’ve been here about three months now! How’d that job interview go?”
“Oh. It went well. I might be doing janitorial work soon.”
“Night shift?”
“Maybe. I’m not sure.”
“If it’s the night shift, you’ll definitely meet the person who just left. That’s Trista. She’s the girl with the rabbits in the far corner. Poor girl. She’s got a really bad skin condition. Can’t let sunlight touch her.”
“Oh. Is she like… albino or something?”
“No, she’s got pigment. I don’t remember what the condition is called. I guess it started in high school or something. You’d have to ask her. And hey! If you work the night shift, you’ll probably get to chat with her!”
Petunia wasn’t wrong. I started working as a nighttime janitor for a number of local businesses. That was when I first started noticing the pale goth hippy. She rides around on a moped, with her dark hair and her sarong barely billowing behind her. I couldn’t see her face through the helmet, but she waved to me as she passed by.
The next time I saw her, she was jogging, but here’s where it gets weird. When I first stepped outside, all I saw was a blur. It actually startled me as I whipped toward it, but then there was this skinny tattooed pixie, somehow still looking like a stonehippy/vampire in jogging gear. I swear she was moving inhumanly fast when I first noticed her. That was when we introduced ourselves. She actually jogged over to say hello.
“Hey! You’re the new guy right?”
“Oh, uh, yeah. My name’s Mason!” I reached out to shake the pretty girl’s hand, like an awkward loser. She smirked and shook my hand. Her grip was weirdly strong, and a bit cold.
“I’m Trista. I’m the weirdo in the back with the rabbits.”
“Trista… oh, are you the one who has a thing with sunlight? I think Petunia mentioned you.”
“Yup! That’s me. Xerodoma pigmentosum. Sunlight hurts. I hate that it hurts.” She lamented.
“That’s gotta be rough,” I said sympathetically.
“You get used to it. You work at night?”
“Yeah. Works better for me.”
“I get that.”
And so on and so on. She’s pretty cool, with a bit of hilarious snark in there. And she secretly procured recreational weed she was willing to share. I kept working the night shift just hoping for another chance to talk to her and possibly buy a joint. Eventually she invited me over to share a joint. The inside of her place was actually pretty sparse and spartan compared to the outside. Though she was a fan of hanging beads. Most of the main room was taken up by her various crafting projects and supplies. Hemp weaves, some paintings, and even a wood carving of what I think was a rabbit, but it wasn’t anywhere near complete.
I followed her to her kitchen where she reached into the very back of her pantry and pulled out a shoebox. Inside was her stash, but there was something else which I found very strange. It was a pack of syringes and a thing I assume is to sterilize syringes. I know what you’re thinking, and that was my first thought too. It’s a poor neighborhood, the woman already smokes weed illegally, it’s not that big a shock that maybe she was involved in other drugs too. I decided not to ask at the time. We shared our joint, and we laughed, a lot. She made fun of me for being a lightweight, while I got completely hypnotized staring at the patterns of a shawl she had woven.
Months went by and we got closer, but I couldn’t forget those syringes. After a while I got worried. I’ve seen what heroine does to people. So the next time I went over to smoke and eat (vegan) pizza with her, I asked.
“Trista? Are you using anything other than weed?”
“Drugs?”
“Yeah.”
“No. Why?”
“You can tell me if you are.”
“Mason, sweetheart, I’m a stoner. I don’t fuck around with anything else and I never have.”
“Really?”
“Really.”
“Okay. Can I ask what that set of syringes are for?”
“Oh. In my stash box? Those are… part of my condition. I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Oh. Is it like… embarrassing?”
“Yeah. So don’t ask. Can we just watch a movie?”
So I don't ask anymore. But I still have no idea what she does with those syringes. Based on what I read about that Xerodoma Pigmentosum thing she says she has, I have no clue what she would need to inject herself with.
Another time she asked me to check on her rabbits for her during the day, as her usual “sitter” had something come up. All I had to do was chop up the lettuce and carrots she left out. As I was enjoying the adorable fluffy faces, one of Trista’s neighbors, a woman named Bridget, poked her head outside her door.
“Hey. Do you know what Trista injects those rabbits with?”
“I… what?”
“I’ve seen her use syringes on those rabbits. She said she was just giving them medicine, but I swear I see her inject them every week.”
“I… I wouldn't know. She just asked me to feed them.”
“I love Trista, but that always seemed so weird. She has to know vaccines are a hoax!” I tuned the woman out after that one. My mind was on that set of syringes. Why would she be using them on rabbits? These things were her pets.
I was starting to crush on her by then. But I couldn’t help feeling weirded out by that. I was actually going to confront her, but the next time I came to visit, she was literally inside the Rabbit hutch, on her back, squealing with delight as her rabbit friends nuzzled and played with her.
“Bonnibelle! That tickles! Marcy! No chewing. Finn? Watch where you’re sticking that foot! Jake? Where are you? EEEEE Lumpy! Not the neck!”
It was as silly and adorable as it sounds. She was forced to whip herself upright when two of her little friends tried to burrow under her dress. She finally stood up with a laugh, cradling a rabbit in her arms and cooing at it.
There was just no way in hell this woman was doing anything that would hurt these animals. Bridget is a paranoid antivax weirdo anyway. If Trista was using syringes on the rabbits, I was convinced it was only for their benefit.
So life went on. I got more and more reclusive over the years. Petunia, Trista, and my next door neighbor Fred were the only things keeping me remotely connected to the outside. And so we get to now. So let’s see. What are the stories about the weird vampire woman?
Well, there’s the fact that she jogs at night, solo, in a poor neighborhood. Petunia keeps the shitty people contained and behaving for the most part, but I still wouldn’t exactly call it safe, especially for a young skinny woman. But she does it without a care in the world.
There’s one strange event that some people like to connect to this. I never knew this guy, but from what I hear he was a total weirdo who leered at anyone even remotely female. And this is despite the fact he was married. His name was Josh.
I remember him a bit. He’s the guy that Petunia chased away from one of her barbecues. Supposedly he was heard saying inappropriate things to the groups of ten year old girls that were playing in the bounce house Petunia rented. Telling them how pretty they were. Trying to coax them to take off their jackets. Police reports were filed but ultimately nothing could be proven. The guy's wife, Carole, always defends him for some reason.
But anyway, I remember hanging out with Trista one night a little over a year ago. She hadn’t gone jogging like she normally did. I asked her what was up with that.
“That weirdo, Josh has started catcalling when I pass his place. It weirds me out.”
“There aren’t other people who do that at night? I’m still shocked you jog alone.”
“Not like this. I can flip off a wolf whistler. But this guy… he keeps trying to get me to stop and talk to him, and when I don’t? He shouts about my ass. I’m gonna have to talk to Petunia about that shithead, if anybody can reign him in, it’s her.”
I’m gonna guess she never got a chance. Two days later, the whole town was awoken by sirens. I was getting ready for my shift when I heard them. I walked down the road a bit to see if I could figure out what was going on. The cops were heading toward the other side of the park, so I couldn’t see much. But I did notice Trista, in her jogging gear, skulking in the shadows. I wondered if she was in trouble. But before I could call out to her, she sprinted straight to Petunia's house and banged on the door. Petunia welcomed her inside, and that was all I saw. I still wasn’t sure what was going on, so I just shrugged and headed to work, figuring I’d text Trista later.
I didn’t learn till later that Josh was found dead. He was lying prone, face down, partly hidden by bushes at the edge of the park. His neck was cut open. He’d bled out rapidly. He had a knife in his hand, and officially it’s believed he fell on it and accidentally killed himself. There was a cocktail of drugs in his system so most people accept that explanation. But others swear they saw Trista out for her jog around the same time Josh would have been bleeding to death. She got questioned, and she swore she didn’t see anything. Without evidence, there was nothing else that could be proven.
Trista’s a friend. I know that guy was being creepy to her. So I’m happy to take her word for what happened, even if my seeing her going to Petunia’s pokes a bit of a hole in that. I can’t be sure it was Trista though. So I’m not saying a word. But if a certain creep attacked a certain lady who is rumored to be a vampire, it’s not that surprising to me that he ended up dead after bleeding to death. I’m not all that broken up about it.
I’m not the one spreading that story. Josh’s wife was the one who started the rumor. So now some people are even more convinced that the weird nocturnal hippy chick is secretly a vampire.
She’s no killer. No matter what they say. She would only have defended herself.
So that’s all the stories I’ve heard that have any credibility to them. There’s more people who swear she and Petunia perform weird rituals, and people who saw her moving “inhumanly fast” and such.
But now I have to share what I found in the yearbooks Trista gave me. I wasn’t really expecting much. I checked her senior yearbook out first. She looks about the same. Pale, goth, hippy, and sort of sad. She kind of looks even sadder in these photos if I’m being honest, but that’s high school for you. She graduated in the top half of her class, no sports or extracurriculars. I’m left wondering how she managed to go to school at the time of sun was so bad for her. I’ll have to ask her about that. So nothing really new there.
It was the yearbook from her junior year where things got really interesting. I was in shock when I found her. Trista is somehow impossible to miss, but unrecognizable all at once. She’s full of color! She wore more typical tie dye hippy attire. Bright vibrant pinks, reds, blues, greens, and yellows, in every photo, and holy shit was she busy. Captain of the soccer team, first chair flutist, president of the “green living” club and the “vegan alliance,” top ten in her class, it was all incredible. I think the main reason I didn’t recognize her was her skin. It was tan, as though she were out in the sun a lot. Furthermore there were photos of her playing sports and standing outside in bright sunlight.
It was like her disease wasn’t there, which confused me. She told me it was something called Xeroderma Pigmentosa. But that’s a genetic condition. She would have had that from birth.
I sent her a text, wondering about this.
- Hey! Just went through your yearbooks. What happened? You had color? Did you discover Linkin Park?
- My disease happened. Right at the end of Jr. year. That’s why I wasn’t there for the final class photo.
- But your disease is genetic… isn’t it?
- I guess it was dormant in me.
- So it just… happened?
- Pretty much.
- I’m sorry.
- I got over it. Mostly. It was hard. My parents were both hardcore vegan naturalists and we lived in a place that was all natural light and such, so I had to live in a shed for a bit while they built a space for me. But in my family? We kinda lean into whatever life throws at us. It took months of depression to come to terms with it. All of a sudden I couldn’t be out in the sun, and I had new dietary needs that absolutely required non-vegan sources. So I leaned into it. I was a vampire now. I can dig dark colors and “vampire style.” I could make it my own by avoiding leather. And I’d be as vegan as I possibly could.
- You’re kind of awesome.
- Damn straight. So I learned to love the night too and now, here I am.
I gained new respect for her after that. Frankly I feel kinda shitty about making fun of her for being a vampire. There might not be anything paranormally weird about her after all.
She sent me one more text telling me I should talk to a guy named Frankie. She’d gone to school with him. He’s a decent enough guy. Works in the Bicounty mall in town.
I had to wait a day or two for another of Petunia’s get togethers to talk to him.
“Hey!” I said awkwardly as I tried to figure out how to strike up conversation with someone I haven’t really spoken to in a long time. “Frankie, right?”
“Oh. Yeah. Been a while. How are you Mason? You okay after that whole thing at Red Nights?”
“I’m trying to be. Look, I’ll cut to the chase. You went to school with Trista Ramone, right?”
“Ol’ Boho Ramone? Yeah. We were sort of friendly. But I was a jerk to vegans back then. Why do you ask?”
“I’ve been hanging out with her. She’s being all mysterious.” He chuckled at that. “She said I should talk to you to learn more about her… weirdness? Everyone thinks she’s a vampire now.”
“She’s totally a vampire. I have no idea what else to call her?”
“Why do you say that?”
“What did she tell you about school?”
“Nothing. She just showed me two yearbooks. Between Junior and Senior year she went from colorful club president, to lonely vampire, because of her disease.”
“Nah man. I don’t want to talk bad about her. But she was kind of a bitch, junior year. She wasn’t just a colorful vegan. She was one of those “holier than thou” types who scoffed and talked down to anyone who dared to eat meat. Her “hippy” thing meant she never hung out with the popular girls but still, she acted like she owned the place at times. I was friends with this weird guy named Steven Jones. He was just kind of a weirdo. Skulking around in the background, you know? He HATED Trista. For a while I totally understood. I thought she was kinda stuck up. But this guy was like… irrationally enraged by that girl’s existence. I guess he tried to ask her out when he was a freshman and she politely declined. But he took that shit personally.”
“Huh. So like… why’s that matter?”
“Because Steven kept saying to anyone who gave him a second look, that he was gonna ‘ruin’ her. Never elaborated. But then the last month of school rolls around, Trista gets assaulted by an unknown assailant and a week later she’s got this new disease. Meanwhile, Steven spent a week strutting around the school looking smug, and saying ‘she got what she deserved.’ Then he disappears too. Teachers said he moved away.”
“She was assaulted?”
“Yeah. Someone in a face wrap tackled her while she was at one of her protests at the meat factory. The dude freaking BIT her.”
“Jesus.”
“Yeah. I was there. I came to the protest. I’ll admit I was trying to hit on Trista or one of the other girls there. But yeah. Dude dressed in all gray with a face wrap just charged in and went right for Trista. Knocked her down, bit her like a freaking zombie, then ran away before anyone could stop him. Didn’t even take his face wrap off. It was freaky, man.”
“What the actual fuck.”
“That’s what we all said. Trista needed a stitch. But while she was at the hospital, I guess she started getting more symptoms. She was out for the rest of the year. From then on, she was like she is now. Total vampire.”
“Was Steven a vampire?”
“I dunno. Probably. Little dickhead is what he is. Must have been him that attacked Trista, but nobody could prove it. Bite mark didn’t match or something. So why are you asking? You hang out with her at night right? You asking her out or something?”
“Oh. No. Just a friend.”
That was all I really learned from Frankie. It’s quite a story, and it’s full of unknowns that Trista refuses to explain. So I guess I’ll let readers be the judge. Is she a “real” vampire? Or just a weirdo? All I know is, she’s totally standing behind me right now and now I’m dead. Bleh.
I did come back to life to talk to Trista once I finished writing this. She enjoyed it. I may as well include that interaction.
I went to her place on my night off. She read my take on her and what the neighbors thought and she grinned. “Ha! I’m a total monster!” She chuckled. “So. What do YOU think, Mason? Am I a vampire?” She cocked an eye and playfully gnashes her teeth at me, making a pleasant little click.
I sighed. “No idea. You’re Trista. And… you’re my friend. I’m sorry if I made things awkward.”
She looked surprised by that. “Aw. Thanks Mason. You’re my friend too. It’s okay. I’m flattered.”
“You don’t have to explain.”
“So we’re cool?”
“Absolutely not. We’re both weird shut ins.” She laughed. It was good to hear her laugh. It made me happy.
“Yeah but I got the ‘mysterious vampire’ thing going.”
“You have dirt in your hair from rolling around with bunnies. And you’re a vegan.”
“Bite me.”
“Says the vampire.”
“You know, if I were a vampire, I could have bitten you when we both went to the slaughterhouses a few weeks ago.”
“That just makes me stupid.”
“You’re not stupid, Mason. You’re not a loser either.”
“So. You know of any other good spooky town stories that I can do next?
“Oh, sure. You ever heard the tale of Salome? She was a witch who would mash up the seeds of a Sinapis Alba plant to make a diabolical potion she’d dump on herself. They called her the ‘Witch of the Sands.’”
I’m embarrassed to admit it took me four days to realize Trista was just fucking with me. I only figured it out when I looked up Sinapis Alba and learned that mashing the seeds just makes mustard. “Salomi the sand-witch.” Well played, vampire hippy…
Sexy Neighbor
Haunted Slaughterhouse

Vi walked the all-too-familiar streets of the slums. A child lay in the street, abandoned. The young girl sobbed into her dress as townsfolk passed without a second glance. Memories rushed to the surface at the sight of her. Vi fought back the tears that threatened to spill from her eyes. When this assignment was over, The Order would finally accept her as a member. No one would hurt her again.
Vi chewed her lip as she tapped her fingers together in succession—thumb and index, then middle, ring, and finally pinky—repeating the motion several times. I’m not ready for this. I’m going to fail. They’ll kill me if I fail.
She scanned the street, trying to disentangle her mind from the waves of customers crowding the vendors, each patron haggling for the best deal. The smells of bread and sweetmeats wafted in the air, fusing with the merchants touting their wares, composing the symphony that was the market. Finding her mark in this mob would be complicated, and The Order would accept nothing less than perfection.
Vi double-checked her disguise. Her vibrant red wig flowed down in waves to rest upon her shoulders. She wore an apple cap pulled tight to hide the wig’s shoddy craftsmanship. Accompanied by the motley of ragged clothes, she was indistinguishable from the other beggars who plagued the streets.
Satisfied, Vi twisted the ring on her finger; a small needle protruded from a hidden groove underneath. Carefully, she reversed the spin of the ring to conceal the weapon. She scanned the street for her target, ready to do what she needed.
A young man across the street caught her attention; he wore a red scarf embroidered with silver daggers, just as The Order described. Vi’s heart rate doubled as he stopped at the bread vendor directly in front of her. She took a deep breath and tapped her fingers methodically one last time to steady herself.
This is it, Vi. If you do this, there is no going back. She thought about her life before The Order took her in. She had barely survived the streets, begging and stealing what she could just to prolong her wretched life. There was no way she would go back to that now. Convinced, she scanned the exits—families, merchants, beggars, and guards flooded the streets, creating a maze of sorts.
Content, she slid down the steps and weaved through the masses towards the young man like a snake slithering towards its victim. Her hands shook as she approached him, doubt creeping up with each step. He was barely old enough to grow hair on his face. Did this man deserve to die?
The memories of that night washed over her like a wave. Her father lay on the ground, a knife protruding from his chest, the shine erased by the dark blood that surrounded it. A man with jagged teeth knelt over her mother, gradually turning to look at Vi.
He smiled at her with a crooked grin that would haunt her dreams for the rest of her life. "Don't worry, child. I haven't forgotten about you." He chortled a rough, cracking laugh that turned into a cough.
She snapped back to reality. Tears welled in her eyes as all reservations shattered. She would go through with this, no matter the cost. She twisted the ring as she advanced, her eyes blank from emotion.
Vi feigned a trip and stumbled into the man, stabbing him with the needle. "I’m sorry, sir. I haven’t eaten in a week and I just got a bit dizzy," she lied as the needle dug into the man's arm.
He regained his balance and paused before handing a piece of copper to the bread merchant. The man picked up a loaf and ripped a bit off for Vi. He smiled. "Here you go. No one should have to go so long without eating."
Her face wilted. What have I done? She spun without a word, refusing to take the piece of bread. Her eyes filled with tears as she walked away.
The sound of a thud reverberated as the young man's body hit the hard dirt. It was too much for Vi. Tears flowed down her face uncontrollably as she ran. She didn’t look back. She would never look back.

The first Worlds spot was clinched – G2 Stride took it on Saturday. This weekend we also won’t see many clinches (if any). But the qualification time is very close.

EU

• Points that guarantee Worlds: 103 -> 97
• Who still has a chance to qualify for Worlds?

Still everyone. If 4 teams get more than 20 split points or Team BDS reach semifinals, the first European eliminations will occur.

• Who can qualify for Worlds during Open Qualifier 5?

Karmine Corp’s early elimination shook up everуthing, including the clinch scenarios. The point limit dropped by 6 points before the Regional even started. What does this mean for the teams?
Well, now we are much more likely to see the second Worlds clinch this week. Gentle Mates Alpine still doesn’t have a clear scenario to clinch, but here is what will happen if they win the upcoming Regional:
- Depending on other results, 36 points may be enough to clinch Major. In this case Gentle Mates will guarantee 97 points – and a Worlds spot
- Even if they don’t clinch Major, point limit is likely to drop even more this week, so a clinch is still possible
Team Vitality also increased their chances to clinch this week. If they win, they’ll clinch Major and guarantee 90 points. But their chances to clinch Worlds are still quite low and they’ll need another “miracle” for it.

OCE

• Points that guarantee Worlds: 105
• Who still has a chance to qualify for Worlds?

Everyone. But just one win from Chiefs and the elimination process will begin.

• Who can qualify for Worlds during Open Qualifier 5?

Most likely, nobody. PWR may have a chance, but if, for example, Pioneers and Chiefs both make playoffs, qualification will become impossible.

APAC

• Points that guarantee Worlds: 98
• Who still has a chance to qualify for Worlds?

17 teams: everyone who made Swiss Stage and Yokohama F. Marinos. A lot of them are likely to be eliminated by the end of the event.

• Who can qualify for Worlds during Open Qualifier 5?

Nobody. At least Elevate and Gaimin Gladiators both will have a chance for the only slot next week.

NA

• Teams qualified for Worlds: G2 Stride
• Points that guarantee Worlds: 99 -> 89
• Who still has a chance to qualify for Worlds?

Everyone registered for the Regional. Though, teams without split points and teams with less than 4 split points are likely to be eliminated, if Cloud9 or OG reach top 32 and top 16 respectively.

• Who will be eliminated from Worlds contention after the weekend?

As I already mentioned, teams with less than 4 split points don’t control their fate at all. Teams that don’t make Swiss will also likely be eliminated (only Gen.G, SSG and obviously G2 are safe).

• Who can qualify for Worlds this weekend?

Probably no one. Point limit dropped a lot last week (mostly due to Luminosity’s result), and will likely drop once more to at least 86, if G2 reach top 32 and clinch Major. But Gen.G Mobil1 Racing can get only 4 points this week and can’t reach that amount yet. Their only chance is if some teams fail to make Swiss and drop the limit even lower

SAM

• Points that guarantee Worlds: 105 -> 101
• Who still has a chance to qualify for Worlds?

14 teams: FURIA Esports, Complexity Gaming, Ninjas in Pyjamas, Team Secret, KRU Esports, Hero Base, Not Exposed, True Neutral, GamerLegion, Erased, LUK eSports, w7m esports, Barcelona, RED.

• Who will be eliminated from Worlds contention after the weekend?

Only FURIA Esports are safe from elimination. All the other teams will be eliminated (or at least could be eliminated) if they don’t make Swiss. Erased, Barcelona, RED and GamerLegion will also be eliminated if Secret or NiP reach Swiss stage.

• Who can qualify for Worlds this weekend?

FURIA Esports are very close to clinch Worlds, but they will probably have to wait one more week. This week they need at least 3 of {Complexity, NiP, Secret, KRU} to be eliminated early in order to qualify.
Also, Ninjas in Pyjamas have a small chance to clinch. But they need even more surprising eliminations.

MENA

• Points that guarantee Worlds: 105
• Who still has a chance to qualify for Worlds?

9 teams: Team Falcons, Anything, Twisted Minds, R8 Esports, Bravado Gaming, Vision Esports, Team ROC, sleeping, Oreo.

• Who will be eliminated from Worlds contention after the weekend?

Team Falcons and Twisted Minds are safe from elimination. Anything will only be eliminated if they, R8 Esports, Team ROC and Bravado Gaming together fail to make Swiss, while Twisted Minds do it (and therefore clinch Major). The remaining 6 teams will be eliminated if they don’t make Swiss. Also, Vision Esports, sleeping and Oreo will be eliminated if Twisted Minds reach top 16.

• Who can qualify for Worlds this weekend?

If Team Falcons make Swiss, they’ll guarantee at least tiebreaker for both Major and Worlds. Should either Twisted Minds or R8 Esports don’t make it – then Falcons will clinch. Otherwise, just one win next Thursday will guarantee them tickets to London and Fort Worth.
Twisted Minds also has a scenario, how they can clinch – they “just” need to reach Swiss Stage, while Anything, R8 Esports, Team ROC and Bravado Gaming have to fail.

SSA

• Points that guarantee Worlds: 101 -> 97
• Who still has a chance to qualify for Worlds?

Only 4 teams left: Limitless, Astronic Skillquest, Team Mobula and Snakes Den.

• Who will be eliminated from Worlds contention after the weekend?

Snakes Den will be eliminated, if Team Mobula reach top 32. Astronic Skillquest and Snakes Den will be eliminated if they don’t make Swiss.
Limitless and Team Mobula won’t be eliminated this weekend.

• Who can qualify for Worlds during Open Qualifier 6?

The only chance how Limitless can clinch Worlds before the Major is… to clinch Major! But they need to finish at least 16 points ahead of Team Mobula, which will be impossible if Mobula only gets one win in Swiss.

Next week

As you can see, this week may end without new Worlds participants. But that will likely change next week as 4 regions complete their final qualifiers and start the huge wave of clinches. The following teams can clinch Worlds next week without any help:

• Gen.G Mobil1 Racing – semifinal
• FURIA Esports – semifinal
• Team Falcons – top 14 (1 win in Swiss)

Some teams need help now, but after the weekend they may have the same clear scenario. For example, if Team Falcons reach top 32 on Saturday, Twisted Minds will qualify for Worlds with a win in the Regional. Many clinches can happen due to Major qualification. I’ll try to cover such scenarios more next week, when the Double Elimination stage ends in these regions.

TL;DR

This weekend we are unlikely to see many Worlds clinches. Here are the possibilities:

• Gentle Mates Alpine – if they win the Regional and 36 points will be enough to clinch Major
• PWR, Team Vitality – with a lot of help
• Team Falcons – will guarantee at least Worlds tiebreaker if they make Swiss
• Gen.G Mobil1 Racing, FURIA Esports, Ninjas in Pyjamas, Twisted Minds – if a lot of top teams in their regions miss Swiss.

Point limits:

• NA – 89
• EU – 97
• OCE – 105
• SAM – 101
• MENA – 105
• APAC – 98
• SSA – 97

Backstory - the last three weeks my son (15 1/2) knew my youngest daughter (12 1/2) had a friend at church with a crush on him. He has feelings for a girl at our homeschool group that are reciprocated and isn’t interested of course. We’d talked about a couple weeks ago and he was ignoring the crush unless the girl said something to him directly.
What happened: Well Saturday my son (the 14 yr old) and daughter went to the band performance and the girl gave 14ds a present to give to his brother. It was a friendship bracelet she’d made him that matched the one she made for herself.
My son said he didn’t feel comfortable accepting it because it was obviously a more intimate gesture so at church last night he pulled her aside privately and returned her gift.
He explained that while he respected her as a friend he didn’t have feelings for her like that. And didn’t want to mislead her or diminish her dignity by accepting such an intimate gift. He had mutual feelings for someone else and didn’t want to disrespect that girl either. Thanked her for thinking of him and for the time she put into it. She thanked him for his honesty and kindness.
I’m so proud of him having that tough conversation in a way that was kind and respectful to her.

Heyo! Had a bad flair last night (I laid down on soda, forgot to wait and sit up because I was so tired rip and it set me off), woke up super nauseous and took a 20mg omeprazole and 40mg famotidine. It helped but the nausea has still been on and off, mine usually sets in waves anyway until it magically disappears. This was at like 4-5AM, fast forward at like 7:30 my mom brought me some Pepto chewables which usually works for my nausea but not today. Usually that combo knocks it out but rarely I’ll get a day where it says nope. So I’m sitting here miserable with nausea and mild acid, I texted my friend and asked her if she had anything for nausea, (she has issues too) and she gave me 25mg phenergan. I know it’s not right to take someone else’s medicine but I double checked on pill identifier and I have emetophobia so my goodness I’m DESPERATE AND SICK. Point is, is it too soon to take the phenergan and should I wait until tonight?
TLDR: Took 40mg Famotidine & 20mg Omeprezole early this morning it’s been 4-5 hours is it okay to take 25mg phenergan now?

I (23F) have been with my boyfriend (27M) for almost a year. A little backstory, we have known each other our whole lives and our moms are best friends. We moved in pretty quickly with each other because of that fact and we just know that we are it for each other.
About a month into our relationship he wanted to introduce me to his friends. So we planned a night for his friends to come over and as well as my best friend. We will call his friends John and the other Jack. I knew that his friends had a mouth to them but I also knew that they said the N-word a lot, and they are not black. That makes me and my friend uncomfortable so I asked him to let his friends know not to say that in front of us. He told them and I thought everything was gonna be good, and we would have a good night. Nope, definitely not what happened. The first hour into it they said it multiple times. I tried to let it go because it’s just part of their vocabulary and I just wasn’t gonna let it ruin the night. As the night went on something else happened that I just couldn’t let go. My friend, bf’s cousin, my bf and I were hanging out on the balcony when I looked through the window and saw one of the them pointing a gun at the other. They were waving it around and being stupid. There was drinking happened this night too. At this point my friend was very uncomfortable and left. My bf was also upset at what was going on. When my friend left, he started to talk to John and was saying how it was disrespectful for them to say the word when he asked them not to and that this night was very important to him, and that they kind of just disregarded him and also decided to wave around a gun. John got upset and was saying he was trying to change who he is and just wasn’t understanding my bf’s perspective. John ended up leaving. Jack stayed and tried to calm down my bf. At first I was like okay he isn’t that bad. But as time went on I found out more about Jack.
I found out that he would tell my bf when they drank that if he felt sick to make himself throw up so he can keep drinking. I also found out that he would tell him that it isn’t okay for a man to cry. So after hearing these things I was starting to not really like him that much. But here’s the thing that made me really not want him around. One day me and my bf had a fight and he went to the gym with Jack. When he came home he told me how he explained our issues to Jack and he encouraged him to talk to their old friend (a women) about our problems and maybe she could help. I was obviously upset with the fact that he led my bf to another woman about our problems. I explained to him how that wasn’t okay and he understood. A little time went by and one night we were just having a discussion about our past and he brought up the fact that he had a threesome one time with Jack and one of his friends. This is me and my bf’s first real relationship and he hasn’t always had the best luck with the ladies because he is really anxious and shy. So Jack just wanted to help him out I guess. I don’t know seems like a weird way to help him out but anyway my bf was explaining to me how that night of the threesome was one of his worst nights and how it made him feel awful and he really just wants to forget it. I asked who the other woman was and guess what it was the girl who Jack encouraged him to go to talk about our problems. At this point I was so angry, at both my bf for not realizing at first how messed up that was but also to Jack for telling him to do so. Also apparently Jack is in love with this girl and when she moves back to town, they are going to have a relationship. Obviously I do not want to hang around with them at all since they slept together. So this point I told my bf I want nothing to do with Jack. I don’t want him at our place and I don’t want him at future events especially if he might be with this girl and bring her around.
My boyfriend has taken this really hard because he sees this friend as a brother. We have had many arguments about this and he just doesn’t understand my POV. I told him I don’t care if he hangs out with him, I just don’t want him in my house and in the future I don’t want him at our wedding because I know he would want him to be his best man. And I feel terrible about it but on our special day I don’t want to see the two people he had a threesome with, it would be all I am thinking about. I have talked to my bf’s sister about this and she agrees with how I feel and also doesn’t like Jack because her bf use to work with him and says he not a great guy. My Bf’s sister also let me know that it is really hard for her brother to let friends go. And he just is really hanging onto this friendship. We have gone months without him talking to him but out of the blue Jack calls him and tries to get him to go out and drink. And it just starts another argument. And my boyfriend just really wants me to give him another chance but I really can’t let it go. Am I the asshole for not wanting this man to be apart of our relationship because 1. Him Waving a gun around while drunk, 2. Telling my boyfriend to throw up so he can keep drinking, 3. Encouraging him to talk to the girl they had a threesome with about our problems, and 4. The toxic masculinity that surrounds him. Be straight up with me, am I crazy? Any advice how to handle this situation?
This was a very long story, short. So I will answer any questions if certain parts don’t make sense and bring clarity to it.
EDIT
The gun thing was absolutely out of line even if it wasn’t load (I forgot to add that) but that’s the main reason he is not allowed over to our apartment and my bf has been totally okay with that. He has been very understanding with my boundaries. His main thing is that he doesn’t have a lot of friends and doesn’t like losing friends. He just wants to be able to at least go hang out with them once in a while at their place but it just makes me scared and anxious if he goes out because I don’t trust them. I have had the conversation of if it comes down to it would you choose me over them and he has said he would but I am just not one for ultimatums. It makes me feel terrible. I know this post seems like a lot and far fetched but it is most definitely real. I have been struggling a lot with this because I use to have shitty friends and I had to walk away from them eventually and that is very hard even if they were so shitty. But like someone said in the comments, I don’t want to be a statistic. I don’t want my boyfriend to go out one night and accidentally get shot. He said that was the first time they have done that and that Jack had apologized. But I still don’t trust it and never will. My bf’s sister doesn’t understand why these friends have such a hold over him. Like he’s scared to leave them. And to clarify when we have arguments, it is mainly about him leaving to go hang out with them. He has asked me to try to meet Jack one more time but I have set my boundary there and he didn’t keep going, he understood. My boyfriend is actually really good in all aspects of being a boyfriend. He takes care of me and treats me very well. It’s just this one thing, he doesn’t want to lose a friend. And it sucks because I can understand that but these friends are not good news. And another thing is he is completely different from them. It makes no sense to me why he is friends with them. It doesn’t make sense to his family either. We think that when he was having a really hard time these people came into his life and helped him back up and he thinks he’s owes a lot to them. Idk I just feel very conflicted but by reading the comments so far I am understanding that it is going to have to come down to a very serious talk and probably an ultimatum.
Also to clarify when I said he doesn’t understand my POV, I mean he doesn’t understand why I am scared for him to go hang out with them because I can trust him not to do anything. And I do trust him I just don’t trust them and obviously I feel like they could manipulate him into doing stuff he wouldn’t normally do. And we also have had conversations of him going to counseling and he has said he will start doing that. Which I think will help him realize a lot of stuff about these friends and hopefully get to the bottom of why he is so scared to lose them.