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Ensemble model * Overview: The synthetic investment attractiveness indicator equals 31 (out of +/-100). The model ensemble predicts the market is more likely to be bullish in the nearest future.
Optimal past * Optimal past: The optimal lookback period for modelling is currently 203 candles. The market is currently bearish, depreciating by 7.0% during the latest phase.
Elliot Waves * Elliot Waves: The market's trend has changed and currently goes down.

Elliot Waves Settings: Elliot Waves were updated. The current wavelength is 13.

Price Bound Modelling * HAR model at confidence level 95.0%: the HAR model forecasts volatility of 1.2551% in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 2883.25 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 2823.7 or above 2942.81.

BRW VaR at confidence level 95.0%: in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 2882.88 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 2829.94 or above 2942.07.
Historical simulation at confidence level 95.0%: in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 2882.98 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 2832.23 or above 2942.46.
Multifractal range at confidence level 95.0%: in the next 256 candles, the price will fluctuate around 3006.18 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 1764.41 or above 3559.96.
Fibonacci with seven retracements: the price is likely to rebound upward from the nearest Fibonacci support of 2803.5 at the level of 0.0%. The nearest Fibonacci resistance is 3106.77 at the level of 23.6%.
Fibonacci with five retracements: the price is likely to rebound upward from the nearest Fibonacci support of 2803.5 at the level of 0.0%. The nearest Fibonacci resistance is 3294.2 at the level of 38.2%.
Fibonacci with four retracements: the price is likely to rebound upward from the nearest Fibonacci support of 2803.5 at the level of 0.0%. The nearest Fibonacci resistance is 3294.2 at the level of 38.2%.
MVaR bounds at confidence level 95.0%: in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 2890.58 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 2819.06 or above 2922.47.

Forecast * MA model at confidence level 95.0%: the MA model forecasts a return of 0.086% in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 2887.2 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 2802.1 or above 2972.0.

AR model at confidence level 95.0%: the AR model forecasts a return of 0.086% in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 2887.2 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 2826.91 or above 2947.2.

Stability Indicators * Generalised extreme value: According to the indicator, the market is stable

Power law: According to the indicator, the stability of the market is uncertain
Student degrees of freedom: According to the indicator, the stability of the market is uncertain
Tukey lambda: According to the indicator, the stability of the market is uncertain

Seasonality test * Seasonality test: According to the generalised seasonality test, there are no seasonal effects on the market.
Distribution analysis * Best-fit distribution: Best-fit distribution has changed, and now it is Power
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Ensemble model * Overview: The synthetic investment attractiveness indicator equals -23 (out of +/-100). The model ensemble suggests the market will tend to be bearish in the nearest future.
Optimal past * Optimal past: The optimal lookback period for modelling is currently 569 candles. The market is currently bullish, appreciating by 8.0% during the latest phase.
Elliot Waves * Elliot Waves: The market's trend has changed and currently goes up.

Elliot Waves Settings: Elliot Waves were updated. The current wavelength is 13.

Price Bound Modelling * HAR model at confidence level 95.0%: the HAR model forecasts volatility of 0.6205% in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 78.07 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 77.27 or above 78.87.

BRW VaR at confidence level 95.0%: in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 78.09 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 77.32 or above 78.83.
Historical simulation at confidence level 95.0%: in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 78.1 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 77.33 or above 78.83.
Multifractal range at confidence level 95.0%: in the next 256 candles, the price will fluctuate around 77.47 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 66.89 or above 91.0.
Fibonacci with seven retracements: the price is likely to rebound upward from the nearest Fibonacci support of 77.61 at the level of 38.2%. The nearest Fibonacci resistance is 79.56 at the level of 50.0%.
Fibonacci with five retracements: the price is likely to rebound upward from the nearest Fibonacci support of 77.61 at the level of 38.2%. The nearest Fibonacci resistance is 79.56 at the level of 50.0%.
Fibonacci with four retracements: the price is likely to rebound upward from the nearest Fibonacci support of 77.61 at the level of 38.2%. The nearest Fibonacci resistance is 81.52 at the level of 61.8%.
MVaR bounds at confidence level 95.0%: in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 78.04 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 77.43 or above 78.81.

Forecast * MA model at confidence level 95.0%: the MA model forecasts a return of 0.0285% in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 78.11 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 77.07 or above 79.16.

AR model at confidence level 95.0%: the AR model forecasts a return of 0.0285% in the next candle, the price will fluctuate around 78.11 and with 95.0% probability will not go below 77.37 or above 78.86.

Stability Indicators * Generalised extreme value: According to the indicator, the market is stable

Power law: According to the indicator, the stability of the market is uncertain
Student degrees of freedom: According to the indicator, the stability of the market is uncertain
Tukey lambda: According to the indicator, the stability of the market is uncertain

Seasonality test * Seasonality test: According to the generalised seasonality test, there are no seasonal effects on the market.
Distribution analysis * Best-fit distribution: Best-fit distribution has changed, and now it is Power
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24yrold Female, 5’2 currently 165lbs
Preexisting conditions: Anxiety, panic disorder (mostly resolved), BED
Chiari Malformation diagnosed May 2022, underwent decompression surgery (w/laminectomy) - symptoms and imaging have resolved
Medications/diagnoses: - Lamotragine 200mg for mood disorder - Lexapro 20mg for anxiety/depression - Buspirone 10mg for anxiety - Vyvanse 20mg for BED (this dose has fluctuated between 10-30mg based on availability of drug) -Propranolol as needed (20-50mg) -Clonazepam as needed (1mg)
Disclaimer - I am seeking professional help
HERE IS MY QUESTION:
Last night I took 4mg of klonopin. I took 1mg at a time over the course of two hours. I’ve taken Klonopin for many years, both daily and PRN at different times, so I didn’t actually feel too high.
However, it’s not the next night right around the 24 hour mark and I’m beginning to feel “off” for lack of a better word. I feel woozy in my head, maybe a little pukey, etc. It’s just weird because I wasn’t having these symptoms last night or throughout today the way that I’m having them now.
Also probably important to mention, I haven’t been eating or drinking a sustainable amount at all due to disordered thinning. I consume a good amount of caffeine, take the Vyvanse, and also smoke weed. I also drank 10oz of Magnesium Citrate drink this evening to cleanse.
I’m just looking for confirmation that physically I’ll be okay - I’m good to just sleep off the symptoms as long as they’re harmless.

Hey folks, I thought i share my story
So for a couple of years I’d have sporadic bouts of what I though was indigestion, pain around the center of my chest moving to the right and around to my back that would be painful for an hour or so then pass, no further thoughts given “ate too much junk”. So it was a Monday, this happens to me again but the “indigestion” seemed a lot stronger than usual , caused me to vomit and didn’t pass, the pain radiated in the normal place and wouldn’t go away it just stuck. I took some pain meds which seemed to dull it for a time but it would just come back when they wore off. So this went on for 4 days with me basically being bed bound with pain and discomfort, hardly eating or drinking until Friday when I woke up drenched in sweat with a significant fever. I went to the ER, they did many tests and established that I had a severe gallbladder infection and I was going to need immediate emergency surgery to avoid sepsis and further complications. So from the moment that the doctor reviewed the ultrasound scan to the time I was on my back in surgery was 30 minutes.
Surgery took 3 hours laparoscopicly, the surgeon warned I may have had to have the full open surgery but I guess I was lucky in that respect. She said it was the worst gallbladder she had ever seen and that I was lucky I came in when I did, another 24 hours could have been fatal. It took 3 rounds of IV antibiotics just to clear the infection.
I at home recovering now, I’m sore but I’m feeling good, I’m eating and getting better so alls well that ends well…
If you’re feeling pain it’s most likely time to have it sorted out, don’t wait as long as I did!

PLEASE don’t call this a bad trip, I am experienced tripper with acid and have never felt this way in my life, I’ve had bad trips but never this in my whole life, this felt like fake acid even though it was pure real so imagine it like that. Enjoy reading!
Was this a psychotic break? I had sleep deprivation never slept 3 nights, smoked weed during all of those days, which weed did not make me feel this way at all, coming up to night I take LSD, (Lowest dose in my life to)
First it feels good I’m an experienced user and know exactly how it feels, it feels the best trip of my life for 30 min, then out of no where in a millasecond, my headspace I feel so dissociated out of my head to the point I barley can see shit everything felt so zoomed out and in, this felt nothing like acid anymore at all, I went fully catatonic state I could barley talk or form thoughts, I felt dead inside.
At this point i had convinced myself I’ve gone crazy, I never even knew what I was experiencing till after, also if I was in that state I would not be able to right anything, it’s like my mind went back to a baby even a baby is smarter then me, and all while I was aware this truly did not feel like LSD anymore at all, I was so scared and more out of my mind then I ever been in my life, the shit I saw and heard dident feel like acid, it felt as it got so intense my brain dident know how to handle it.
My vision changing in an instant was the scariest part it felt everything was so zoomed out and in that I’m gona stay that way forever and be mentally disabled and people will have to take care of me, that delusion was so fucking strong, all my dreams shattered I could barley think but knew the bigger picture the fact I just fucked my life and will have to live eternity this way, I cried for a bit I’ve never ever barley cry and this was so traumatic cuz I thought I fucked up.
I made someone take me to the hospital even that could tell I’ve acted a way never before, on acid you can usually talk normal to some extent, me I was fully disabled in that moment I was ill I felt ill mentally, I could not form thoughts even if I wanted to my brain went fully blank for the first time and that stayed till the trip ended, I could barley talk at all 1 word answers at the most, my voice and others felt so deepened it felt as I just consumed some type of fake acid even though it was pure tested LSD,
The hospital people after a while of waiting wore it off, but during that while of waiting everything just kept falling more and more apart it never seemed to stop building and building, I could barley tell the nurses what happen the person next to me did, I was so out of my mind they asked me to piss in a cup in the bathroom, this was the first time the piss overflowed and my brain realized 10 seconds later that there’s piss in my hands now, I’ve never been this dumb in my life I was so scared cuz I could not even control anything at all, this is nothing like a generic bad LSD or edible trip, I’ve had bad trips this was the worst thing ever, eventually the nurses wore it down, during the time they did I couldent believe that I could come down from this, it’s like something took over my acid trip it hit me so fast in a second that it made me believe this will never come down and I’m always this way for life, I’ve never even ever had a fear of never coming down from a drug till this time.
It was the scared I’ve ever been in my life, I consider it trauma this is my first traumatic event that is worst then a psychical one in my eyes, I get vivid memory or flashbacks of some of the moments, and another thing the second that psychotic state came on, because it came on so fast I knew there was something really wrong and that I’ve never felt this way in my life, i started thinking the no sleep and acid is making me crazy now, thank god the hospital people wore it down otherwise if I was just at home I wouldn’t think I could come down from it.

I have two CJO’s. I wanted to obviously go to whichever one gives me the first start date. Would it be acceptable to do a background check/drug test for both places or could this get me fired from both or either place? I know being on payroll at both places is a big no no.

I just had a second son and noticed the inheritance law (gavelkind) in one of my kingdoms under my empire would pass the title to my second child.
This is the first time I’ve worked my way to an empire so I’m not as familiar with their mechanics and how to properly maintain control.
I’m the emperor of Britannia and have all four kingdoms (England, Scotland, Ireland, and Wales) under my rule. If I understand laws correctly, do I need to pass Late Feudal Administration first before I can change the inheritance law in Scotland?
Alternatively, if I’m unable to pass that law for some reason would it be best to transfer that title to a vassal so it wouldn’t go to a direct family member?

No pictures yet, the girls are settling in after the move this evening.
After the last of my Gerbils passed away (at an astounding 4.5 years old) I decided to give a pair of Rats a try. After a ton of investigation I found myself at a small mom n' pop pet shop watching a group of female fancy rats. After a while it became apparent that two of them were best buddies so I told the owner "I'll take those two please".
One is a beautiful light grey and creme and the other is dark black with white socks on all four feet. They were immediately dubbed "Cagney" and "Lacy" (after the tv show) and gave me zero trouble getting them out of the shop cage and into a box to go home with me. The girls are now comfortably ensconced in a Critter Nation 161 cage with a bunch of bedding, a nice "shelter" and all of the necessary stuff (ceramic food dish, water bottle, et-al).
Friday will be more shopping to get an exercise wheel and additional chewing toys. If I move slowly they will already come up to the bars and sniff my hand before retreating to the "shelter" so I think that's pretty good for only 5 hours in.
Since I've never had Rats specifically I look forward to the group input on best practices for caring for the girls.

Howdy Builders,
We know that many players are eager to know the release date for the upcoming V1.3 update and Pet DLC, abd we've been aiming to release the V1.3 update plus Pet DLC on May 28th, but there are a few reasons why this date isn't set in stone yet.
-First off, we're aiming to launch the update across all platforms simultaneously. It has already passed checks on PlayStation, Xbox, and most Switch regions, but we're still waiting for DLC approval, which could take another 10 days. But the JP region for the Switch won't be ready by the 28th because it's still pending approval.
Quick recap: We finalized the build on April 26 after more than 20 days of intensive testing and bug fixes with our QA team and some super-secret testers (a big thank you to all of you for your help). The patch passed the Xbox lot check on May 7, PlayStation on May 13, and Switch NA, EU and Asia on May 13. We now need to wait for the patch lot check approval before we can submit the DLC. If everything proceeds smoothly without further revisions, we're on track for a May 28th release. However, we haven't received any updates about the DLC approval on any platforms yet, and any necessary revisions during the review could lead to changes. Below is what we have, and we'll keep you posted with any status updates as soon as we get them.
Xbox： V1.3 Patch Passed； Monster Whisperer DLC submitted for approval.
PS： V1.3 Patch Passed； Monster Whisperer DLC submitted for approval.
Switch NA + EU+ Asia： V1.3 Patch Passed； Monster Whisperer DLC submitted for approval.
Switch Japan： V1.3 Patch submitted for approval； Monster Whisperer DLC submitted for approval.
-On top of that, we're also operating under tighter schedules and budgets compared to some of the larger studios, which means we don't have as much flexibility for tasks like marketing and QA testing! This situation often leads to a narrower window between finishing new content and its release date. As a result, it can be challenging to predict exact release dates accurately, and we want to avoid disappointing you with frequent schedule changes.
We've also created a teaser for the V1.3 free update, and our PC publisher, Focus, has put together a trailer for the DLC. We're really excited to share these with you, but we need to wait a few more days to see if everything lines up so we can release them. We're doing everything we can to stick to the May 28th plan and we'll keep you updated as we know more. Thanks for your patience and understanding as we get everything polished and ready for you!

Hello - it’s a long and twisted tale but the shortest version is that my mom recently passed away from a 2+ year diagnosis of multiple myeloma (bone cancer). I left my life in London to be with her in the central coast of California from November until February but was forced to leave due to personal commitments and the increasingly chaotic and dangerous behaviors that my mom was displaying due to the cognitive effects of her decease paired with the powerful drugs she was on.
I have come to find out the day after I left her local Baptist pastor began to alienate her from me and ultimately convinced her to change her will to leave everything to his wife - which I am now attempting to challenge in court. To top things off I learned that before recently becoming a untalented pastor this man was a local cop in the central coast who was involved in three officer shootings that ended the live(s) of at least one, possibly two people.
Also - this pastor and the members of the church tried to hide my mom’s death from me which lead me to find out that she passed away when I googled her name six days after she died on April 13th.
I’ve lost an incredible amount of money due to out of pocket expense and lost earnings - any legal advice and/or assistance in mirroring my mom’s locked iPhone 12 located in the Santa Barbara area would be a huge help.
Also happy to answer any questions because I know how crazy this sounds - but here’s a start:
https://lompocrecord.com/news/local/sheriffs-office-man-fatally-shot-by-lompoc-police-officer-had-knife/article_67602e87-9e59-5fc1-a169-e6f549e89cd5.amp.html

Just got to thinking about it today.
What if there was a test that you needed to be able to pass written by the AF to make it to E-4? Im talking simple, simple questions that are just going to weed out the absolute slobgoons.
Before you say cdc’s, so many shops just push their people through for manning purposes. We all know that kid who needed more training than he got.
Not super interested in the logistical challenges behind it, but curious what y’all think.

Happy Nurses’ Week to all those nurses who feel less than confident at this time
Who feel like they are struggling in toxic workplaces and cultures
Who feel lost and alone in their career journey
Who feel stuck in a job they worked so hard to get to Nurses at a crossroads
Nurses who burnout and feel devastated that they cannot possibly go any further in this job
Nurses who feel dissatisfied in their jobs but afraid to say or do anything else for fear of judgement from others
Nurses who feel they are learning slowly, painfully slow and won’t ever get ahead
Nurses anxious about passing tests or getting into school Nurses who feel lonely and fearful of the future.
Thinking about you too.

Hi there, I have two experiences that I’m not quite sure if I can count towards my clinical hours and could use some advice. Thanks!
I worked in a research lab that primarily covered translational (the bench to bedside portion) research and infectious diseases (zoonotic, STIs, COVID, etc.). Over about 2 summers I was able to complete about 300 hours of field activity outside of my lab hours. We primarily operated in underserved communities and set up wherever we could (EMS station/Fire Department, rec center, regional farmers market, etc.). During these events I:

Took nasal swabs for COVID testing
Drew blood
Took vital signs
Completed health screening questionnaires for participants (we encountered a lot of people that could not read past a 2-3^rd grade level, could not afford glasses despite poor vision, etc.).

My question is, since these activities didn’t necessarily take place in a hospital or traditional clinic setting, can I count them towards my hours?
Now, in my current position I work on a project with a coroner’s office. I attend and assist with the autopsy for each child case in the county. I work under at least one forensic pathologist for each of these cases, but sometimes specialists are called in for complex medical histories. I complete tasks such as*:

Weighing organs
Marking notes for any abnormalities the physicians find
Taking gross measurements of decedents (height, weight)
I also complete the specimen collection for any families that have consented to save DNA or the brain for research and genetic testing

Would this count as clinical experience, even though these patients have passed on?
I have been given the option to be present for more autopsies, since my team knows that I am interested in applying to med school and that I have an interest in the field of forensic pathology. But I wouldn’t want to commit to this if it wouldn’t count towards my clinical hours when I could increase my time working in the NICU and PICU, which are also parts of this job and specialties that also interest me.

In the Era of Fear I Comfort them with Great Love
Anita Moorjani was cured from cancer not because of a certain medicine, vaccine or chemotherapy. She was cured because of this Great Love. Anita Moorjani is a forty years old woman who is simple and honest. She was born in India, grew up in Singapore and was English educated. Later she went to Hong Kong. She knows Tamil, English and Cantonese. In 2002 the doctor said that she was down with cancer lymphoma or the blood cell tumor. After four years, in 2006 seventy percent of her body is covered with the cancerous cells. She stayed in the hospital, suffering terribly because of this illness. Later the doctor pronounced her death. After three days she woke up and was cured miraculously. This is truly inconceivable when she woke up from her death. In her mind she was very sure she was cured already. No treatment was needed. But she was very weak. She could not even talk. The doctor was surprised of her condition and again they carried out a checking on her body and found that she was free from all symptoms of cancer. In her mind she knew she was already cured. In her mind there was a great transformation that she personally experienced. And all the cells on her body were transformed into healthy cells. Later she wrote a book entitles: After dying once I finally learn to love’ By looking at this title, it coincides with Master Shan Dao’s teaching on the one with deep faith in the dharma. He said, ‘Standing here is waiting to die. Going forward is also death. Turning back, I too cannot escape from death.’ This can be found in the ‘Analogy of two rivers and one white lane’ the three sure deaths. If we have died once, we will truly give ourselves up. This is the same as the Pure Land teaching that we have to admit we are the sinful mundane man. We lose all hope as we have no ways to leave the triple realm. In cultivation we need to really undergo a total death in order to really practise the path. The zen cultivator says this is known as undergoing great death and great living. Otherwise, no real cultivation can be expected because most of us are very arrogant, very self-centred, without much changes in our stubborn mindset. That is why she said after dying once only she managed to learn how to love. In the Pure Land door this is known as having deep faith. Such a man will surely have faith in Amitabha’s 48 vows to gather in living beings without any doubts and suspicion. By relying on the strength of the Buddha’s Vows we will surely attain a rebirth. This is living in the great love of Namo Amitabha Buddha. We receive the love of Amitabha Buddha. Only then we can have the genuine love and we are able to learn to love. If we do not feel the love of Amitabha Buddha, we will not know how to love. Our love will be frightening as it is an attachment, a desire to control, to possess others. Such a love is impure, it is a threat to us. If we are not careful it might turn into hatred. Such is a frightful kind of love. If we learn from Amitabha Buddha, the love is pure, without condition and transparent. This is truly loving a person. It is not easy to learn this. We look at the couples around us. So many got married and end up in divorce. How about those who do not get a divorce? Yes, they spend the whole life fighting！The truly loving couples are as few as the stars in the broad day light. So, learning to love is our homework for the whole life. It is not easy. Today I would like to discuss this passage with you. After reading her writing I feel most shameful as what the author has said is very true in accord with her experience. Even though I have left home for more than twenty years, receiving the teaching of the Buddha, the guidance of the patriarch, the exhortation of my Master, the help of my lotus friends and all, I still feel I am lacking in genuine practice and virtues. On the contrary this lady has not met with the Buddha Dharma. She has such an awakening after dying once, it is truly a gain for her. She said, ‘After my body stopped functioning, I entered into another world.’ She was so seriously ill that her heart, her liver and everything stopped functioning. This is to show there is a world after death. She said, ‘I saw myself as a very wonderful person. This is because I was not terrorised until I had a change in shape.’ ‘I felt there was this vibrant energy around me and I was able to enter it. I realise if a man can see his wonderful existence, he must be the happiest man.’ Most of us like to complain about our imperfect existence. We often think thus, ‘I do not have enough money. I am not healthy. I am not pretty. I do not have enough clothing ….’ Here we must learn to see the good points in us, to appreciate the value of our existence. A woman who can say like this is truly very calm in mind. A man who always complains about himself will not be able to live happily each day. So, without knowing the love of Amitabha for us, we will be a great complainer. We complain about no money, we complain about our look, our wrinkles and so on and so forth. What kind of life will this be with so many complaints? She said, ‘I found that there was this power surrounding me.’ When we pass away, we will no longer be using our eyes, ears, nose, tongue, body and mind to observe. Instead, we will be awakened to our innate Buddha. She felt she is surrounded by this vibrant field of energy and she is also this energy. What kind of power is this? It is a kind of energy. It is always in the universe or the dharma realm in the Buddhist terms. In fact, this is Amitabha Buddha. This is the strength of the Buddha Nature. She uses her Buddha Nature to experience the Buddha Nature. It exists forever. It is neither born nor become extinct. If the Buddha enters the world or does not enter the world, it is always there without changing. Of course, she does not use these Buddhist terms. She said, ‘When I give up the attachment to the mundane world, I enter another world effortlessly. It is unnecessary to pray, to recite a sutra or to give a dharma talk. It is unnecessary to seek forgiveness, repentance or other methods.’ ‘Death gives me the feeling that I do not need to do anything. It is just as though I am telling someone I am coming to the end. I cannot do anything anymore. I give up. Whatever you want to do I will just accept.’ I feel that this passage is very near in meaning to the Pure Land’s view. It means when we die, we have just to let go as nothing can be done anymore. Most people die in torment as there are many attachments in this world. They are worried about their children, money and work. Some people find it difficult to die. So, from here we must learn to let go when it is our turn to leave the world. Moreover, we have the promise from Amitabha Buddha who will come to receive us in accord with the strength of his vows. It is much easier for us. This lady just let go and she entered another world. Her state should be quite high too. I will explain below. I feel that she had arrived at the border of the Pure Land. Her state of an awakened mind showed that she was not in the heaven. She seemed to be enlightened to the Buddha nature and non -existence of a self. She experienced the light of enlightenment and returned to life, to lead a life of love. So, in our practice we are told to let go of all attachment and to wish for a rebirth in the Pure Land relying on Amitabha’s strength of vows. So from here we can see it is very easy to be born in the World of Ultimate Bliss. She said it is unnecessary to recite a sutra, a dharma or seeking for forgiveness. She enters the other world naturally when she simply gives up herself. I remember once I went with my Master to console a dying man. I was very touched by my Master’s words. He said kindly to the man who is on the verge of death, ‘So and so, now we will recite Namo Amitabha Buddha. If you can recite, then recite together. If you can’t, just lay down and relax. It is ok if you just listen to our recitation.’ Are not these words very comforting? The dying man will feel very safe and relax. But if you were to say, ‘So and so, this is the last chance. Bring out all your strength to face death. If you can recite then recite together. If you cannot recite, you must try also!’ On listening to this threat, the sick man is stressed out. He will die instantly as he has no strength to join in recitation. The Master who with his great love understands the rescue of Amitabha Buddha is a natural process that he is able to say in such a comforting way. No condition is needed. There is no threat nor fright in his words. A man who threatens people is not calm as he must be frightened too in his mind. That is why what he says will frighten people, giving stress to others. If we are loving in our mind, our words will only bring love, peace and calm to others. People will feel our love for them. So, this lady says it is unnecessary to read or recite any prayer or seeking forgiveness. This is because the wavelength of her mind is on a par with the great love of the universe. She naturally enters it. Namo Amitabha Buddha is a dharma that requires no seeking or pleading. It is a dharma of rescue without condition. When we recite Namo Amitabha Buddha, the wavelength of our mind is the same as Amitabha Buddha. So, we will attain a rebirth naturally. Many of us who do not understand the kindness of Amitabha Buddha will seek a rebirth by pleading to the Buddha every day. His mind is unsettled and frightened that he might be left out. This is because he does not understand when he recites the Buddha’s name, the wavelength of his mind is in the same frequency with Amitabha Buddha’s mind and vows. Then people will ask, ‘Do we still go to recite the Buddha’s Name for the dying man?’ ‘Yes, of course.’ This is because the dying man has yet to understand this point. When we recite for him, he will be safe in the shine of Namo Amitabha Buddha. This is a method which is bestowed upon us to save us with this Name in accord with the strength of the Buddha’s vows. When she says to somebody, this refers to Amitabha Buddha. She says she cannot do anything anymore and she gives up. She gives herself up to the Buddha. So, when we die do not try to fight with death and refuse to die. We must just admit we are the offender and we need the help of Amitabha Buddha to take us, to rescue us. Namo is to admit we take refuge in the Buddha, we surrender ourselves. When we cultivate this door, we must not add in our ideas. We must just let Amitabha Buddha to decide for us. This is because Amitabha has the power of great vow, the extensive great strength of the Buddha Nature, the strength of immeasurable light, the strength of immeasurable lifespan. We just have to give up all planning. He will plan for us. So, when we recite the Name of the Buddha, just recite without thinking of doing this or that trying so hard to reach a certain acceptable standard. These are all unnecessary. This type of thinking is the habit of the sagely path cultivators. When we sit on the plane, just sit there. The plane will bring you to your destiny. It is unnecessary for you to help the plane to fly. Amitabha Buddha the pilot does not need you to fly the plane. If he needs your help then he is not known as Amitabha Buddha. Anita said, ‘In the other world, I found that my mind is very clear and bright. I realise by myself that I will only die out of the fear and terror in my mind.’ These words are very true. Clarity of mind means her mind is pure. In this world our mind is turbid, dark and deluded. That is why are enveloped in all kinds of worries and terror. But once we arrive at the Pure Land, we will naturally be pure and bright. This is because the land is pure and is enveloped in bright illumination. She said she naturally know she will be cured. This knowing ability is possessed by us originally. No learning is needed because our Buddha nature is originally pure and bright. In the Saha world our ability is being covered up by afflictions. But when we arrive at the World of Ultimate Bliss, we will naturally possess this ability. This ability reappears relying on the strength of Vows of Amitabha Buddha. When we arrive at the Pure Land, we will naturally possess the ability to make offerings to the Buddha. On hearing one sentence we are enlightened to the millions. Our mind is opened up to the thousands of million Dharanis. Everyone of us have this innate ability. And Amitabha Buddha’s strength of Vows enhances its opening. In this Saha World our innate nature is all covered up and cannot function. In the world of ultimate bliss, by relying on Amitabha Buddha’s strength of great vows, our innate ability is open up. So they are not contradicting. ‘I naturally know the source of the thought that I will die. The source is I was frightened. If there is no fear, there is no death.’ In actuality there is no death. It is only our fear of death that this illusion comes froth. In Buddha dharma we should know death itself is an illusion. Time is also an illusion. That is why the Buddha speaks all the Sutra in this manner, ‘Thus have I heard, at one time the Buddha was…..’ No specific time is stated. Now the physics has proven its illusory. As time is an illusion, it does not exist. Let me give you an example of what is meant by death. It is as if we are driving a car into a tunnel. The shape of the tunnel resembles that of a tomb. And we keep on driving into it. We say we are entering the tomb, that we are going to die soon. We are threatened as the entrance represents death. We continue on our journey in the tunnel and later leave the tunnel, again travelling on our way to another destiny. The entrance of the tunnel, the funeral wreath looks like the tomb. For us, death is a terrible idea that we are fearful of it. We do not know life is a continuity and there is no death. It is our wrong concept that there is this section of birth and death. No one can do anything about it until they personally realise it. ‘I am unable to live out my real self as I have too much worried.’ Most of us live in this world wearing a mask. If everyone of us is free to show our real self this is the most beautiful side of a self. Why cannot we live the way we should live? It is because we are always burdened with worries. We are worried we are not good enough. We are worried that our parents will scold us. We are worried our teacher will get angry and criticize us. We are worried about losing face. We only live for others. We lose our life away trying to accord to others’ expectation. We lose the light of a happy life. Our life is controlled by all these worrisome thoughts. But if we truly recite the Buddha’s Name, our mind will be at ease. Amitabha Buddha takes away our worries by replacing them with Namo Amitabha Buddha. We will realise all these worries and views are not important and we will gradually pay no attention to them. Our true life is Buddha recitation. That is our real identity. Our mind will be at ease as we will pay no attention to those unreal things, words and ideas. Our worries only arise when we care too much about the mundane matters. The author has not learnt about Buddhism. This is her experience in death. What she has written is very personal, true experience, not something that we learn from a book. Her experience gives her an awakening to the reality of life and she lives out her life in this awakening. I saw her video and I feel she is an enlightened person. An enlightened person may not be replete with spiritual penetration. But she will reveal her love in her daily living. She is calm at ease and without any sense of fear in her mind. She leads her life in a genuine way. She said, ‘I know that cancer is not a punishment neither is it a retribution. Cancer is my energy capacity which reveals itself on my body. Because of my fear I am unable to reveal the beautiful self in me. And this is the job which should be carried out by me. I know that cancer is not a punishment which is forced on me. It is not an external force of retribution.’ This is what we often do when certain things happen, we will try to find an excuse or put the blame on reward or retribution. We treat the misfortune with anger and hatred. We often have this tendency to catogorise every happening in accord with the cause or reason. In Buddhism we talk about cause and effect. As she is not a Buddhist she says, ‘Cancer appears as a result of a change in my energy capacity. This energy shows itself in the form of cancer.’ This is because she lives in fear and worries. She does not live out her real happy self. So if we the Buddha recitation cultivators are able to reveal the bright side of life, to live without worries, there will be no more cancer for us. This is her understanding about life. That is why I have often said, ‘Lead a life of a mundane man and recite the Buddha’s Name sincerely.’ We should lead a life of Amitabha Buddha. Our life will be full of light and blessings. And we will become more loving. Finally we will lead a comfortable life and people around us will be comfortable also. This itself is the propagation of the dharma of love. Otherwise, if we cannot live a loving life, there is no point talking about anything as they will be useless. Anita said, ‘In that state which is vast and limitless, I found that I am too strict with myself. I keep on whipping myself.’ Can we feel the existence of being vast and limitless? No. We are often limited by our surrounding. As she had entered the limitless vastness, she is able to know her whole life. She knows her fault is being too strict with herself. In fact, most of us are very strict with ourselves, demanding ourselves to be like this or that. She said, ‘No one is punishing me. The person whom I cannot forgive is I myself. I have abandoned myself. I do not love myself. This matter is none of others’ business.’ No one from outside comes to punish us. It is we who punish ourselves. We cannot forgive our selves. We add on a lot of unnecessary locks and chains on ourselves. What is more for us the Buddha reciters? If we recite the Buddha’s name and on the other hand, we add on ourselves lots of locks and chains whence Amitabha Buddha is trying to unlock us, isn’t this a most pitiful situation?’ She said that she had abandoned herself. It means we throw ourselves away and become a lone ranger, an isolated person living a life of sadness, a live without love. Look at a baby. Her eyes are clear as the baby is a simple being, just like a simple puppies or baby cat. The baby can play with chickens, puppis as she does not give rise to diffentiation. Not everyone of us is like Anita. But every one of us can recite the Buddha’s name. When we recite the Buddha’s name, we will be calm. Amitabha Buddha said, ‘In the world of fear I comfort them with great love.’ It is because all the worries are gone when we accomplish Buddhahood at the Pure Land. We will not be so worried about our poverty, health problem, ugliness, stupidity, inability to recite a sutra, a mantra. All these are unimportant as finally I will become a Buddha in the Buddha Land. We will be more humorous. For example, if we are ugly we will use it as a joke. It does not matter at all. Because all the external states are not you. The real self, our real life is the Buddha’s Name. It is our true identity. It will bring ease to our mind. A baby is pure. But as it grows up, it starts to abandon himself. A baby resembles a glass of pure water. When he grows up, his greed starts to accumulate when he wants a toy, a book, good results, money, benefits, fame women and so on. All these are placed in the glass of water. Everything is a piece of mud that we put in out glass. The more we put into the glass, the more the water will flow out. This water is the genuine self. We abandon the true self, chase it out with our greed. We fill ourselves with all the rubbish. The genuine blessings and bliss are chased away. We lead an opaque life without transparency. Our life become a glass of muddy water and we live in great torment. The more we obtain, the more we lose ourselves. That is why the Buddha is truly kind. He and his disciples lead a life of a beggar. When you have nothing, you will be happy and relax. The mind retains its purity. Human beings are deluded as they think to possess a wife, children, a house, a car are called blessings. A man who truly loves himself does not love money, sex, fame, food, sleep. These five desires are the knives that will cut us into pieces and bring on great sufferings. Anita said, ‘I realise I am the child of the beautiful universe. As long as I exist, I will obtain this unconditional love.’ This is very good. I would like to make the following changes, ‘I realize that I am the son of the adorned Amitabha Buddha.’ In Buddhism we use adorned to replace the word beautiful. The universe is this Amitabha Buddha. In the Sutra we are told Amitabha Buddha is the Treasury Body of the Dharma Realm. Amitabha Buddha exists in the whole of the Dharma Realm. Of course, there are also the reward body and transformation bodies beside the dharma body. Amitabha Buddha is the immeasurable wisdom and lifespan. Anita says that the universal energy is abundant and inexhaustible, vast and without limits. This is the existence of the Buddha Nature. She says as long as she exists, she will surely obtain the unconditional love. I often also say, ‘No conditions are required for us to receive the love and rescue of Amitabha Buddha.’ Let us take the analogy of a tree. As long as it exists, it will receive the sunlight. No other condition is needed. So it is the same for the house and everything on earth. Amitabha Buddha’s Name is also known as the Light that Far-surpassing the Sun and Moon. Amitabha Buddha’s light pervasively illumines all the living beings and things in the world. As long as we exist, we will receive the light of the Buddha, the protection of his loving kindness and rescue. It is unnecessary for us to become somebody so as to receive the unconditional rescue of Amitabha Buddha. Our Master Hui Jing also wrote a book on the ‘Unconditional Rescue of the Buddha.’ Some people cannot believe. He says, ‘If this is the case everyone will commit evils.’ Such a thinking is negative and full of fear as his mind is dwelling in darkness. He is afraid that the world will go upside down. He cannot understand that as long as there is the existence, may they be a cat, a dog, a hell being, they will be taken care of by Amitabha Buddha. The only condition is they exist. This reminds me of the words of Great Master Tan Luan, ‘The future scholars who hear about the rescue of the Buddha, the rescue that relies on other’s strength, he should give rise to faith. Do not refuse such a chance. It is being stupid.’ Do not think that you should do this and that to obtain the rescue? Amitabha Buddha did not ask you to do anything. He says, ‘Living beings in the ten directions who have faith in me.’ It means they exist and the Buddha will be there to save them. Buddha recitation is not a condition. It is just a method of saving. Anita says, ‘I do not have to do anything to obtain this love.’ Just like a blade of grass in the water. Does it need to do anything to obtain water? It is unnecessary. As long as it exists, it is surrounded by the water. As long as we exist, we are surrounded by the love of Amitabha Buddha. We do not need to do anything to obtain this love and care. Once we know this, we will be fearless and calm at ease. This is the same as the sunlight which shine on the mountain and also the valley. In our life no matter what level we are we will receive the illumination of Amitabha Buddha. Anita says, ‘No prayer, no seeking is needed.’ Amitabha’s rescue is there always. As long as we recite, we will be saved by him. Amitabha Buddha says, ‘All living beings in the ten directions who call on me will be saved by me. You only have to say out my name.’ You say you are dumb and cannot call the name. Such a man who understands the rescue of Buddha will also be saved even if he cannot pronounce the Name. But if you are unwilling, you are creating an obstacle for yourself. That is why our dharma door is known as the ‘The Dharma is taught without being asked.’, the ‘Befriend us without being asked’. As long as we trust him, he will come personally to take us to his Pure Land. On hearing that nothing is needed to be done, some will be confused. They want to do something, to clean the altar, to change the water, to offer some fruits and incense, to sit in meditation and so on. They think this will help them to attain a rebirth. They have to do something. They do not realise what they need to do is to reveal the beautiful self, to lead the adorned life and let themselves become the love. As long as we sit there and lead a loving life we are in accord with the love of the Buddha Amitabha. When the sun is shining, you say, ‘It is good. A shiny day.’ When it is raining, you say, ‘Very good. It is raining now.’ When it snows, you say, ‘Good, I love snow.’ This way of living is to add the positive loving energy to this universe. You are spreading the pure and harmony energy to the universe. In the Buddha Dharma it is known as the lights shine on one another. The whole universe will receive the positive energy of your loving and harmonious mind. So, what you need to do is to recite Namo Amitabha Budda loudly, softly, silently. All will be ok. If we live this way, Amitabha Buddha will be most happy to see us. It is just like a child who is sleeping in the cradle. Doing nothing. What do you think? Will the mother be happy to see him like that? Yes, of course. She will be very glad with him just sleeping there. Nothing has to be done. A child in the arms of his mother is the revelation of total trust. And this is the same for us to be in the arms of Amitabha Buddha. We just relax and trust him. We will lead a happy life. And this is the genuine way of living in accord with the love of oneself. More often than not we lead a life with worries, fear, twisted emotions and trying to cover up our faults. Our adorned life cannot be revealed. Everyday, we live in fear and worries. This is adding chains and locks to ourselves. Anita says, ‘I have never truly loved myself before. I have never valued my existence. I have never seen the adorned soul in me.’ She uses soul to describe herself. In the Buddha Dharma this refers to the beauty and adorned Buddha Nature. She said, ‘I am so beautiful yet I have never realised it. It is replaced with the hard facts of mundane existence. I decay because I do not understand my beautiful soul.’ In the Buddha Dharma it is described as all living beings are originally the Buddha. Yet we do not live, in accord with our Buddha Nature. We are often controlled by our mundane existence, the salary, the examination results and such like. We forget of our Buddha Nature. We lead a life of decay, a life of erosion. This is the General path of Buddhism. From the angle of Buddha Recitation, the rescue of Amitabha is always with us, only that we do not realise it. We try all kinds of methods hoping for the Buddha to rescue us. We do not know that we just have to admit we are the mundane men who are covered with offences. There is no other way to save ourselves if we do not rely on Amitabha Buddha. Then we let go and recite the Buddha’s Name wholeheartedly. This is the way to be saved by the Buddha. But most people cannot understand this. They want to do something good, to be pretentious and make out something good of himself, to scold people for their lacking in virtues and such like. This is against the practise of this pure land door. Why cannot the people in the world see their pretention? It is because they are also not living a true life. Their eyes are not clear enough to see through this pretention. A fake man sees something fake and he will treat it as genuine. A clear -headed man will surely be able to see through all these false masks. If we were to wear a false mask for too long it will be difficult to remove it. It has grown on to our skin. It will be painful if we want to remove this fake mask. So it takes time for us to loosen this false mask as we have been wearing them for too long. Anita says, ‘This understanding makes me realise that I do not have to be frightened anymore.’ There is no more fear in her mind. It is a mind of calm and bliss. It is a mind which is full of hope. It is a comforting mind that can soothe others. With this calm and happy mind it is already a contribution to all around us. It is already a protection and mindfulness to all around us. We do not have to do anything at all. Most of us live in fear. We pay for insurance because we are afraid when we get old, we have no money, no money to pay the medical fees. We get married out of fear that we will be lonely. Why do we give birth to children? We are afraid no one will take care of us at old age. Why do we go to school? It is because we are afraid of our mother’s anger. Why must we study hard? We are afraid of our teacher. Why do we go to university? We are afraid people will look down on us. Can we live without fear? We cannot. Even our mother who loves us so much say we will suffer if we do not study hard. From our young age we receive the education of fear. We are threatened by our beloved parents, our responsible teachers. We do not receive the education of love. So, if we love our children, do not add fear to them. We must give only love and courage so that they can face life with their original positive energy, positive strength. This is because the world is full of twisted people, fake people, suffering people. There are very few upright men, genuine men, happy and hopeful men around. I only hope all of you my lotus friends will bring up a future generation who is upright, genuine, happy and hopeful with the strength of Amitabha Buddha. So, we must lead a life based on the right values taught by Amitabha Buddha. If we teach our child to fight for self -benefit, to contend with others, we are making them blind so that they do not see the truth of life. This is harming them. If we are enlightened to this, we will only rely on Amitabha Buddha. We are not afraid to be lonely. We will be at ease. Those who see the light, the warmth of the Buddha will no longer be frightened. Anita says, ‘I realise this is a state that can be reached by myself and everyone.’ In Zen sect it is said all living beings are Buddha. In the Buddha recitation door, everyone can recite the Name, everyone can attain a rebirth and everyone can accomplish Buddhahood. This is the bestowment by Amitabha Buddha. All the things that we fight for may not be beneficial to us. Everything that benefits us are often free. For example, the air we take in every instant is free. We do not pay to stand on the earth. We do not pay to look at the sky above. Whatever we fight and earn to get are valueless. Everything that is valuable is free. In the general practice it is said, ‘No cultivation is the cultivation. Nothing is obtainable. This is the state of a bodhisattva. The original face of all dharma often dwells in the mark of still extinction. Our Buddha Nature is replete with all merits and virtues. We cannot cultivate anything to enhance it. This is because all the things that we can do are only dreams, illusion, bubbles and shadow. Whatever that we do, that we create are not in accord with our Buddha Nature. The Buddha Nature is always there, original and shining out naturally. And in our Pure Land Dharma, whatever we have offered, whatever we have done are not the causes for our attainment of a rebirth. Attaining a rebirth is the state of nothing doing. It stays apart from creation or doing. It is a natural state. Reciting Namo Amitabha Buddha helps us to return to this state. Anita said, ‘So I decided to return to the mundane world.’ She has enlightened to the opportunity of life and she decided to come back to tell us about life. Just like many Pure Land cultivators who say that they will not come back any more to sufferings. Yet when they arrive at the Pure Land and brings forth the Bodhi mind, they will come back by themselves to help other beings. Anita said, ‘When I was on the verge of death, I realised the universe comes forth from unconditional love. I am one of the revelations of this love in my present form.’ For the scientists they will say the universe is made from electron, protons, neutrons and so on. This is talking only at the surface level, the materials. But as she talked from her true experienc,e she can see all the things, all the people are the expression of this universal love. When she comes back from death, she deeply penetrates the genuine love the mother universe and her wavelength is in accord with the universal love. She comes back as a healthy woman. So once there is a change in our mind set, the body, the people and the surroundings will also change. In the eyes of Buddha and Bodhisattva there is no differentiation of filth and purity. Everything is pure and adorned in its own expression. Every one of us is the art piece of this unconditional love or in the Buddha’s words, the Buddha Nature. She said, ‘I cannot change into another form as it is my original expression, original nature of this unconditional love.’ Everything that exists is the expression of the Buddha Nature. Even something which is defiled or unwholesome is also part of the expression of this unconditional everlasting love. That is why the Buddha says, ‘All the Dharma from the original state dwells constantly in still extinction.’ Still extinction refers to Nirvana the state of the Buddha. So, when we recite the Buddha’s Name we will enter the Buddha’s dwelling. ‘The energy capacity of the strength of life forms derives from love. And I am made from the universal energy capacity. On knowing this, I realise I do not need to become somebody else. And my true value will not be depreciated too.’ Anita said, So, it is unnecessary for us to become another man. A business man does not need to become Jack Ma. Why is this so? It is because you are equal to him. He is not higher than you. He has the Buddha Nature and you also have the Buddha Nature. Every one is equal. So we do not need to measure in terms of money especially if we truly know the benefits of Buddha recitation. In the eyes of the Buddha every one of us is a shining star. We do not need to chase after another star. Just imagine the havoc it will be when the stars do not dwell in its orbit and try to chase after another star. What a chaos the universe will become. Everyone of our existence is in perfect conditions in the eyes of the Buddha and Bodhisattva. ‘This is the I that I have always wanted to be.’ she said. We must learn to appreciate ourselves, accept ourselves and love ourselves. This ‘I’ is invaluable under the unconditional love of the Rescue of Amitabha Buddha. We are his precious sons, the pearls on his hand. If we are accepted by the Buddha, we will be so happy as we will have no complaint about ourselves. We are often surrounded by people who keep on complaining about us. The first one is our mother who says that we are not clever, we have low marks. We are not filial. We earn too little. See how our mother teaches us not to appreciate ourselves. Then we are blamed by our teacher, our classmates, our girl -friend and so on. Then comes Amitabha Buddha who studies us and says, ‘Put aside all the complaints. You are qualified to attain Buddhahood. No problem at all. I give you 100 percent.’ That is why we Buddha Recitation Practitioners are always at ease under the shine of Amitabha Buddha who give us the confirmation. This is the greatest benefits the Buddha bestows upon us. Buddhism brings hope and bliss to the world, the universe. So, in this life’s time we must try our best to lead a life of Amitabha Buddha. Do not be swayed by the mundane values, mundane eyes, mundane perspective. We rely only on the outlook of the Buddha and Bodhisattva. ‘Once we know that we are this love, it is unnecessary to purposely go forth to shower love on others. As long as we are faithful to our original nature, we will automatically become the tools of love, touching the hearts of everyone who have affinity with us.’ This part of her speech is very good. If we are already the lamp, there is no need for us to go out purposely to shine on others. The lamp just stands at its place and it manages to brighten up the place. So, when we are the LOVE, we will naturally touch those around us with our love. Take a look at our Master Hui Jing. He sits there quietly and yet every one of us are calm and happy naturally. So when we become the love, wherever we are, all will feel calm at ease, without any fear. Anita said, ‘The most important thing I have learnt is I am the Love itself. All my fears are gone. This is the reason I come into life again.’ Amitabha Buddha said, ‘I will transform all the fear into great calmness, great serenity’ When We recite His Name we are charged with his love. We also become the love. We will leave behind all fear. ‘My dear, you will always be loved. You do not need to harbour any fear. There is no way for you to commit any errors.’ Always think about these three sentences. There is the light of truth in it. This is spoken by a non -Buddhist who was on the verge of her death and who lives again. How about us the Buddha Recitation Practitioners? Can we deny the love of Amitabha Buddha, His unconditional love of rescue? From this story we know the unconditional love of rescue of the Buddha pervasively surrounds us. We must have faith in this and lead a life of joy with no more fear. Nowadays, everyone lives in fear. We must learn to replete ourselves with love and bring this shine to others, to lead them out of fear. Love yourself and love others. Namo Amitabha Buddha. A dharma talk by Dharma Master Shi Jing Zong, the Abbot of the Hong Yuan Monastery in Anhui, China entitled: Dying Once to Learn to Love

Hey, yall. This is fganniversaries and apologies for missing last week; I genuinely thought that I posted for the week but turns out that I didn't upon looking. As per usual, I will be recapping anniversaries relating to fighting game announcements/releases this week. Like always, if I missed one, do please let me know in the comments. Here would be the following anniversaries:
May 13

2023: SF6 20 Days Left & 19 Days Left Countdown Illustration
2022: KOFXV Team South Town Press Release
2022: Nickelodeon All-Star Brawl - Official Jenny, Hugh Neutron & Rocko Reveal Trailer/Jenny DLC Release + Moveset & Gameplay Showcase
2021: Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba – The Hinokami Chronicles Kyojuro Rengoku Reveal
2021: KOFXV Leona Heidern Tomohiro Nakata Sketch
2020: Mortal Kombat 11: Aftermath - Official Gameplay Trailer
2020: Samurai Shodown (2019) - Iroha DLC Release
2020: TFH Post-Launch Development Update #1 + Story Mode Chapter 1 Dev Commentary
2016: UNIB 5-13-16 Information Division Corner
2014: BBCP Version 1.1 Patch Notes
2014: JJBA:ASB Lisa Lisa & Ikuro Hashizawa DLC Release
2014: Skullgirls Encore 1.02: Are You Ready For? Edition Patch Notes
2014: SSB3DS/Wii U 5/13/14 Director’s Room Post - Charizard’s Flare Blitz Special Move Reveal
2013: Divekick - New Character Reveal: Markman + #eSports Hour #5
2010: Battle Fantasia Xbox Live Distribution
2010: BlazBlue PC Release Postpone Announcement
2005: SvC Chaos releasing on Xbox at AU.

May 14

2023: KOFXV Sylvie Paula Paula Character Breakdown Trailer
2023: SF6 18 Days Left Countdown Illustration/Dan Tails
2020: GGST 1st Delay Announcement
2020: KOFx WWE + Cinematic Trailer/Razer Giveaway
2019: Samurai Shodown (2019) - Return of a Legend Trailer/Character Trailer #6 - Genjuro & Character Trailer #7 - Haohmaru
2019: SCVI Update Ver. 1.40 Patch Notes
2018: ARCommunity Sol Badguy of Guilty Gear - Digital Painting by Nainsoo
2018: Blade Strangers - Kawase Gameplay Trailer
2018: Guilty Gear NS, PS4, and PC Digital Port Announcement
2015: MKX Patch Notes 5/14/15 + Reptile Skin
2014: BBCP Version 1.1 Release
2014: SSB4 5/14/14 Director’s Room Post - Brittany Trophy Reveal
2013: Injustice "The Killing Joke" Skin Pack Announcement
2013: Skullgirls Color DLC Today, New Characters Coming
2009: Bleach: Heat the Soul 6 originally releasing on PSP at JP.
1998: Guilty Gear: The Missing Link originally releasing on PS1 at JP.

May 15

2023: Street Fighter 6 - Open Beta Video 1: Characters & Battle System/17 Days Left Countdown Illustration
2022: KOFXV Team South Town Team Story
2021: PS5 releasing at CHN.
2021: Tough Love Arena 0.52.2 - 0.52.3 Change Log
2020: KOFAS x WWE Blogpost
2019: GBVS Trailers: Gran, Katalina, Charlotta, Lancelot, Ferry
2019: GGXXACR NS Promotional Video
2019: Guilty Gear releaisng on PC via Steam WW.
2019: MK11 Combo Breaker Tournament Stage Variant Reveal + Gameplay Footage
2018: Blade Strangers - Noko GameplayTrailer/Blade Strangers Joined by Indie All-Stars
2018: FEXL 01-2018/05/15 Battle Video
2017: Injustice 2 - Official Gameplay Launch Trailer
2015: Killer Instinct (2013) Textual Stream Part 2: The One About Hisako, Cinder, and Q&A/ Retro Hisako & Cinder
2015: Tekken 7 - Jack-7 Reveal Trailer
2015: Under Night In-Birth Exe:Late[st] Announcement + Phonon Reveal & Location Test Announcement
2014: Arcana Heart 3: Love Max!!!!! PS3/Vita Promotion Movie
2014: P4AU Labrys Trailer
2014: SSB4 5/15/14 Director’s Room Post - Color TV-Game 15 Assist Trophy Details
2014: UNIEL System Page
2014: USFIV Pre-Order Costumes Trailer/Balance Changes Videos for Ryu, Gouken, Evil Ryu, & Cammy.
2013: JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure: All-Star Battle Kars & Kishibe Rohan Reveal
2013: Skullgirls - Early Work-in-Progress River King Casino Music - Piano Melody
2012: Asura Wrath's Lost Episode 2 releasing on PS3 and Xbox 360.
2008: Bleach: Heat the Soul 5 originally releasing as a PSP exclusive only at JP.
2007: Art of Fighting Anthology releasing on PS2 at US.
1998: Clay Fighter: Sculptor's Cut originally releasing as Blockbuster rental exclusive on the Nintendo 64 at NA.
1994: ClayFighter Tournament Edition originally released as a SNES exclusive only in NA as a Blockbuster rental exclusive.

May 16

2023: KOFXV Sylvie Paula Paula DLC Release + Character Profile, Story + Smartphone Wallpaper
2023: Street Fighter 6 - Open Beta Video 2: Battle Hub/16 Days Left Countdown Illustration
2022: MultiVersus – Official Cinematic Trailer - "You're with Me!"
2021: Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba – The Hinokami Chronicles Character Intro Trailer #10: Kyojuro Rengoku
2021: Guilty Gear -Strive- Story Trailer Livestream
2021: Samurai Shodown (2019) Shiro Tokisada Amakusa Reveal + Steam Port Announcement
2021: Tough Love Arena 0.53.0 - 0.53.2 Change Log
2019: Flappy Fighter - Battle 2
2019: GG1 + GGXXACR releasing on Nintendo Switch via eShop WW + Guilty Gear 20th Anniversary Collection releasing at JP
2018: Blade Strangers - Helen Gameplay Trailer
2018: BlazBlue: Cross Tag Battle - RWBY Highlight Trailer
2018: FEXL 01-2018/05/16 Battle Video
2017: Injustice 2 originally releasing on PS4 and XB1 at NA.
2017: UNIST Experience Event Announcement
2014: P4AU Ver.1.11 Update Notice
2014: SSB4 5/16/14 Director’s Room Post - Villager Alternate Costumes Reveal
2014: UNIB 2014 Summer Illustration Contest Announcement
2008: GGXXAC+R Hidden Element Annonncement
2001: Project Justice releasing on Dreamcast at NA.
2001: Super Smash Bros. Melee Official Reveal + Trailers #1 & #2/ Reactions

May 17

2023: GGST Season Pass 2 Playable Character #4 [Asuka R♯] Trailer/Gamespot Exclusive Gameplay
2023: SF6 15 Days Left Countdown Illustration
2021: Mortal Kombat 1 - Tomorrow Is A New Dawn Teaser
2023: KOFXV Sylvie Paula Paula Concept Art
2023: Street Fighter 6 - Open Beta Video 3: Competitive Features & Events
2022: DNF Duel｜Story Mode
2022: KOFXV Team South Town DLC Release/Geese Howard Tomohiro Nakata Sketch
2021: ExplaMaytions with May! Episode 1 - What is Magic?
2021: Tough Love Arena 0.53.3 - 0.53.4 Change Log
2020: DBFZ Goku (Ultra Instinct) Launch Trailer
2019: GBVS Closed Beta Exhibition Match
2019: Guilty Gear 20th Anniversary Collection releasing at EU + Launch Trailer
2019: Kill la Kill If Story Mode Chapter 1 Movie Preview
2018: Blade Strangers - Liongate Gameplay Trailer
2018: BlazBlue: Cross Tag Battle - Persona 4 Arena Highlight + Yang Gameplay - Distortions, Combos & Assists
2018: SCVI Yoshimitsu Reveal + Screenshots
2017: Injustice 2 releasing on PS4 & XB1 at AU.
2017: Tekken 7 - Character Trailer #2
2013: BlazBlue Anime Adaptation Announcement
2013: Skullgirls Beowulf Announcement
2013: UNIB 2013 May Q&A Corner
2012: PlayStation All-Stars Battle Royale Hades Brawl & Colorful Battle Videos
2010: BBCS 2nd PV Trailer
2008: SCVI Ashlotte Reveal
2005: Nintendo Wii Official Reveal at E3 2005
Super Smash Bros. Brawl Announcement
2005: Spectral VS Generation originally releasing at arcades at JP
2001: Super Smash Bros. Melee Official Website Launch/IGN E3 Hands-On Impression & Gameplay #1, #2, #3

May 18

2023: Guilty Gear -Strive- Starter Guide - Asuka R♯
2023: Mortal Kombat 1 - Official Announcement Trailer
2023: KOFXV Sylvie Paula Paula Theme BGM Composer Statement
2023: Street Fighter 6: Days of the Eclipse #3: Manipulation Issue Release/14 Days Left Countdown Illustration
2021: ExplaMaytions with May! Episode 2 - Worldwide Development and Gears
2021: Fighting Game Glossary by Infilament originally launching
2021: KOFXV Ralf Jones & Clark Still Silhouette
2021: Skullgirls 2nd Encore 2021-05-18 Beta Mode Update
2021: Tough Love Arena 0.53.5 Change Log
2020: Mortal Kombat 11: Aftermath - Official Friendships Trailer
2019: TFH Early Access Patch #19
2018: Blade Strangers - Curly Brace
2016: KOFXIV Team Gameplay Trailer #2 - Yagami
2012: Cartoon Network Punch Time Explosion XL releasing on the Wii, PS3, and Xbox 360 at EU.
2012: UNIB Waldstein SD Wallpaper
2011: BlazBlue: Continuum Shift II releasing at arcades at NA.

May 19

2023: Mortal Kombat 1 Kollector’s Edition Liu Kang Statue Preview
2023: SF6 13 Days Left Countdown Illustration
2022: DNF Duel｜Practice Mode
2022: KOFXV Team South Town Kou:G Illustration
2021: ExplaMaytions with May! Episode 3 - The Crusades
2021: KOFXV - Character Trailer #19-20 - Ralf Jones & Clark Still + Screenshots/Team Ikari Reveal
2021: Tough Love Arena 0.53.6 - 0.53.7 Change Log
2021: Umbrella Animation Stream with Persona! (May 19, 2021)
2017: Injustice 2 releasing on PS4 & XB1 at EU.
2017: Tekken 7 “No Glory For Heroes” English Story Trailer
2017: UNIST Home Information
2016: Killer Instinct (2013) Gargos Release Date Reveal/Gargos Ultra Combo & Montage, Gameplay Footage vs. Mira, Thunder & Tusk
2015: Street Fighter V - M. Bison Reveal Trailer
2015: Tekken 7 Jack-7 Release
2014: BB x BB Collaboration Beginning
2014: SSB4 5/19/14 Director’s Room Post
2013: Guilty Gear Xrd -Sign- Announcement Trailer + Screenshots
2011: Dead or Alive: Dimensions originally releasing on the Nintendo 3DS at JP.
2010: BBCS Tager & Litchi Information
2005: IGN E3 2005: Shigeru Miyamoto Interview
2005: Vampire: Darkstalkers Collection originally releasing as a PS2 exclusive only in JP.
1998: Bio F.R.E.A.K.S. originally releasing on the Nintendo 64 at NA.

May 20

2023: SF6 12 Days Left Countdown Illustration
2021: Blazing Strike Publisher “Aksys Games” Reveal + Press Release
2021: Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba – The Hinokami Chronicles Tanjiro Kamado (Hinokami Kagura) Reveal
2021: ExplaMaytions with May! Episode 4 - The Second Holy Order Selection Tournament
2021: Tough Love Arena 0.53.8 - 0.53.9 Change Log
2021: Virtua Fighter x eSports Official Announcement Live Stream Reveal
2020: Mortal Kombat 11: Aftermath – RoboCop vs. Terminator Round 1 & Round 2 Gameplay Footage
2020: TFH Version 1.0.3 Patch Notes
2016: One Piece: Great Pirate Colosseum Announcement
2016: UNIB 5-20-16 Licht Kreis Information Division Corner
2015: M.Bison Makes His Return in SFV
2014: JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure: All-Star Battle Vannila Ice, Pannacotta Fugo & Narciso Anasui DLC Release
2014: P4AU Ken Armada & Koromaru Reveal
2014: SSB4 5/20/14 Director’s Room Post - Assist Trophy Item Capsule Showcase
2014: USFIV PS4 Pre-Orders Beginning
2013: ASW 25th Anniversary Book Release Window Reveal + Festival Conclusion Message
2013: Injustice Gods Among Us v1.03 Patch Notes
2011: BBCS 3rd Patch Distribution
2011: Dead or Alive: Dimensions releasing on the Nintendo 3DS at EU.
2011: Guilty Gear XX Accent Core Plus releasing on Wii at EU.

I failed my college algebra class this semester and I asked my advisor about the math placement exam; which I signed up for. The first initial assessment is non proctored and you don’t need a webcam, but then after that you have multiple attempts for the proctored exam. I had my first proctored exam today and my score was significantly lower than my score for the initial assessment. Like, it was horrible. The test itself was easy, but we weren’t allowed a calculator, and that’s where I failed.
If I don’t pass this placement, I have to retake college algebra over the summer and I physically do not think I can. I’ve cried every day this week since last week I finished my spring semester. I’m miserable. My hair is falling out. I can’t eat.
I want to stop feeling this way, but I don’t know how. I’m only in my first year. I’m contemplating withdrawing.

Hey, yall. This is fganniversaries and apologies for missing last week; I genuinely thought that I posted for the week but turns out that I didn't upon looking. As per usual, I will be recapping anniversaries relating to fighting game announcements/releases this week. Like always, if I missed one, do please let me know in the comments. Here would be the following anniversaries:
May 13